Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Love Goddess Venus is now stimulating Uranus, the planet of Great Awakenings. Many of us go through life unaware of our deepest mysteries, especially when it comes to feminine energy and personal power. Are your inner goddesses sleeping? The clues to your feminine powers exist within you. To fully activate your divine feminine energies -- and the power they hold -- look beyond appearances and turn your gaze inward. Goddess archetypes are one of the best places to start, because these powerful images are more than myths. They are living, breathing qualities that reside in each of us. Everyone possesses the power of the feminine and the ability to channel it -- even men.

I know, especially men. Most ladies are already there . . . while most men never even notice. So to bring that out intelligently, carefully, consciously, with purpose and meaning... WOW!!!

So some of us accept and understand this to bring things to full potential . . . wow, and i think what I did so far this week. It's still all in the energy!!! Reading, exploring, archiving more and more data. I know I need to compile data more than getting more of it. It's come full circle now.

What do you feel?

I really feel at peace. I know where it's all at here and I have no surprises. . . . . funny world to come to mind now as I write

What?

More masons, and More, and More, and More

What does that feel like?

Yes, I know that's off a bit. . . I don't really need any of that. Sorta already at a different level... lol... with all the LIGHT I'M GETTING, i can just fly, and fly, and fly, and fly, and fly, and fly, and....

yes, and What else???

I finally figured what to do about my little visitor. I remember how clear and strong it got when I took it up to Christ in a Chant. That is just wonderful, and I can just leave it there, whether she comes or goes is fine, no attachment, no expectation, and unconditional love is best for everyone... I guess that's really all I asked for too isn't it... wow just in my last posting!!!

What's the big surprise, if you are going to finally ask for something; FOR YOURSELF!!!

I know, ok so I always want to be in love. . . . Thank You

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

What's it mean for you?

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What do YOU NEED, now?

I think this is getting really out of hand...

What have you asked for?

I've not said much since wanting "it all done" . . . not asked for anything since that. So I guess I have to finish it myself . . . wow, now the ride is really going to begin.

Where did you start?

I guess I started in the exact same place . . . I started all this in school, and I'm right back to the exact same place again. I guess my motorcycle accident got me started and my bike accident will get me done . . . .

What do you imagine?

I guess I always see the end result. I always see lots and lots of happy people moving all over the place freely helping, sharing, growing, clearing. There's always lots of children in the gardens, lot of plants and animals . . . lol. . . and lots of smiling faces.

It's funny how I always see the faces! lol . . . then I get personal and put people I know in there . . . which is not my choice, so I need to stay clear of that!!!

What do you do though?

I'm always instigating things, just like I always do. Getting more and more people to do more and more . . . . lol . . . so now I flashed to seeing the people I spoke to today all doing something fantastic for the world, where they are the very first and only person with the skill and ability to do it.

What do you do thou?

I guess we're feeding everyone. It's always lots of food and exercise, working together, growing together more and more yummy stuff to share. More places to go, more things to do, always more smiling people.

What about you?

I thought you said no faces?

What about your choices thou, what is your heart and BEing all about here?

I'm always with the children, teaching, learning, sharing. I know You want me here, and they arrive from Your Hands so I can get closer to You through their Pure Love and Truth. I guess I can't be there with You now, but I can at least get close to holding Your Hand. . . That's really the true Joy and Peace I seek, just the True Unconditional Love!!!!

Wow, thanks, that's really cool, make my whole BEING swell with the Joy of it all!!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

COMPLEXITY = CONFIRMATION

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happened?

I did get up again in the middle of the night. Just popped open wide awake. It was weird we were sky diving without parachutes. It was really neat watching how they did it and it seemed really simple... but it was my first time so I wanted to use a parachute . . . lol . . .

So I popped up and ate an apple not really feeling like doing anything. As I got back into my room, the clock said 3:00am, so I knew I had to chant. No big deal, back in bed at 3:33am so I knew I did what I had to. It's funny how the numbers always conform things for me, like now it's 10:26am that's 1:8 = 9. That last book I read was all about the numbers too; so I had lots of confirmation there . . . like I ever need that anyway . . . yes it's nice . . . but like most of the time I get confirmed by the boatload!!!

What else happened?

I got a call from Dave. He was sorta checking up on me to see if I was ok. That was kinda cool. Soon I reminded him that his back-seat from his van is still here. He joked how I couldn't pick it up and help him move it anyway. Oh so then I said he should leave his old editing PC here too, since it was just in the way there anyway. Oh then I could learn how to use it all during my months to recuperate. . . wow that's a good idea. . . he even liked that one. He said he had some cd training programs I could use too and really learn things. That sounds really good to me. I have tons of video to edit anyway . . .

He agreed with that too, so it sounds like he will be visiting me again soon. He also said he was thinking of going to visit Mike and asked if I could drive yet. I told him about what the doctors said and no seat-belt on my broken collarbone. He said I should never drive and get a taxi or something whenever I needed to go anywhere. He's right too!!!!

What else did you feel this morning?

I had someone come in to say hello again. It's like she doesn't want me to forget her or is just checking to see if she can still reach me telepathically. . . so then I went and read her last note to me. She was really nasty, "just friends" yea right just kissing touchy feely fertile friends. No wonder she never gets near anyone she's got no boundaries or no conception of what they are or should be. . . really sounds like trouble to me! Then I was feeling to see if I could reach anyone else telepathically. I did, and she didn't like it almost trying to stake her claim . . . dream on about that! You want something real and secure, use the phone!!! I'm not into any esoteric telepathy setting my pace, life or future . . . you want something, then make it clear here and now or "move on!"

What does this feel like?

It's the truth. I know I have too much here and now to do than worry about someone who hides from it, or is afraid of finding the truth in the here and now . . . preferring to live in some fantasy! I remember the first thing I felt when she told me all her plans was that we were ready to start it now, not needing to go anywhere else for training or certification since we already had more than anyone else could offer us! lol . . . that's what leaving the "how" to God is all about- - set the intention - - then allow it to BE instead of forcing some form we assume like we know better . . . lol . . . and what shows up in my inbox??? CONFIRMATION!!!

yes, but what does this feel like?

I feel sad . . . every moment we spent I could feel so much from her. Oh, I guess that's not true when she was in "business mode" it was like a different person . . . . guess one I could easily love while the other I didn't even know! Maybe that's why the gap between us is getting larger. We met as she was at the crest with You, while now she's getting back into the world further and further away from us . . . Oh well, live and let live . . . or love and let... never mind! Course snooping around I found more yea figures

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

god is a verb

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's up?

I got my next doctors appointment moved up a week to this Thursday. They weren't too happy to hear that I found another broken bone, sorta implying they missed something. But it's better this way so that now they'll likely give me a real cast so I wont be moving it any more. It's funny I've not been taking any pain pills. I've always known pain is just the conscious warning signal, so once I know I'm hurt, it's useless to me!

I really start laughing again, how I sorta learned to ignore pain as my dad beat me so much as a child. I remember this one time he started swinging his belt at me in the car front seat as we left the police station . . . the cops never would bust me again after that. . . . whether they thought I was justly rebelling against a tyrant or whether they just couldn't be accomplice to child abuse I will never know!

What do you start this for?

I know, I love my dad; he didn't know any better and I learned a ton. I mean I only spanked a child once, and never had to ever again. Nor did I want to!!!

But I started writing since I started reading another book now. I got my Kabbalah book back from Kathy. Another book about new Paradigms, energy and consciousness. . . I keep reading the same thing over and over again. I read this book before and wanted to go through really quick, hum because it was sitting here next to my bed . . . lol . . .

What about writing?

I guess I need to start on that too. I really have a lot to write. I thought reading more would get me in the right frame of mind. But I guess that would be reading more articles instead of books since I need to write an article not a book. Course I've downloaded hundreds of articles to read so I could do that for years!

What else?

I got the sense about someone visiting me again. It is kinda nice I guess, but I sorta feel sorry for her . . . . it's like I've let it go and know things will be changing fast. I mean not many people are as strong and secure as I am . . . and even less are conscious of the power moving all around. I know that as more gets out and more get found, more also get lost. It's nothing I focus on or ever really deal with . . . some times I feel nothing can ever get near me . . . . which is kinda sad too I guess. But I also know I'll never leave this place and could be doing the same thing in 20 years or 120 . . . I guess I recognize this next era we are getting into will be a lot different than this one on some level - - but then exactly the same on another.

What do you think will be the same?

I know I'll still be here with you. I know the Earth will be full, clear and pretty; as will all the life on it. I also sorta know that much of my life will be surprising similar to what I experience now. Course then I never experience so much of the garbage people get so lost in . . lol . . . sure I'll still be able to go out and talk to the Osprey and I guess they'll have a lot more to share!!!!

What else?

I don't know, I'm tired ready to sleep. I've been sleeping more, not jumping up in the middle of the night as much. It feels like maybe the Earth decided that doing Half a Chant sets it off balance too, so it's letting me sleep!!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

love the real da vinci code

Reverse Speech - Voices From The Unconscious: "Children Reversals

Reverse Speech research has discovered that children speak backwards before they do forwards. From as early as 4 months of age they are pronouncing simple words in reverse and by the time they reach 13-14 months of age, complex sentences are forming in revers"

Ok reading another book i found... cool stuff of course .. completely out of hand:

Global Scailing Application home page: "Global Scaling Theory (GST) is the first of its kind to mathematically describe the distribution of preferred values and parameters in nature. GST is also able to explain the cause for this distribution.

The sum of probabilities that makes a certain physical value appear at a particular position along the logarithmic scale can be represented by means of the innovative Müller Fractal.

Knowledge of this fractal set, combined with application specific information as to how the fractal is to be used, allows quick and efficient prognostication of values and parameters for use in scientific research and engineering design."

Masonic and Kabbalistic Symbols In the Washington D.C. Map: "# The fact of the matters is that, IF THERE ARE emblems with symbolic significance embedded in the DC map layout out, AND if you want to be able to understand the nature of that significance to the designer(s) (as a student of the history of philosophy would), THEN you need to learn to understand the concepts implied in the design from the point of view of the designers; and you can't do that 'from the outside', that is, at the same time as you are attacking the moral rectitude of the symbolisms involved there in.

This means that really understanding the symbology involved in the map plan necessarily involves an understanding of the workings of Freemasonry (especially the Scottish Rites) and the Kabbalah."

RodinAerodynamics.org - Marko Rodin - Rodin Coil: "These number groupings piece together into a jig-saw-like puzzle pattern that perfectly demonstrates the way energy flows. Our base-ten decimal system is not man made, rather it is created by this flow of energy. Amazingly, after twenty years of working with this symbol and collaborating with engineers and scientists, Marko discovered that the 1,2,4,8,7,5 was a doubling circuit for a very efficient electrical coil. There was still one more very important number pattern to be realized. On the MATHEMATICAL FINGER PRINT OF GOD notice how the 3, 9, and 6 is in red and does not connect at the base. That is because it is a vector. The 1,2,4,8,7,5 is the third dimension while the oscillation between the 3 and 6 demonstrates the fourth dimension, which is the higher dimensional magnetic field of an electrical coil. The 3, 9, and 6 always occur together with the 9 as the control. In fact, the Yin/Yang is not a duality but rather a trinary. This is because the 3 and 6 represent each side of the Yin/Yang and the 9 is the 'S' curve between them. Everything is based on thirds. We think that the universe is based on dualities because we see the effects not the cause."


The Resonance Project: "Nassim Haramein and E.A. Rauscher's paper, 'The Origin of Spin: A Consideration of Torque and Coriolis Forces in Einstein's Field Equations and Grand Unification Theory' (click title to view pre-print version), is being published in the July 2005 Noetic Journal CD Rom, followed by the printed book version, ISSN# 1528-3739. This paper constitutes a foundational description of the source of angular momentum/spin at all scales (from macro systems to micro subatomic particle structures) rendering a unified view of gravitation to the other forces such as electromagnetism, strong and weak force. It does so by using the dual torus U4 bubble spacetime manifold resulting from the inclusion of torque and Coriolis forces in Einstein’s gravitational equations. The theory then relates the dual torus spacetime manifold to the subatomic group theoretical geometry of the cubeoctahedron (i.e. vector equilibrium), completing the picture at the quantum level. Both of these geometric structures and concepts are long-standing and fundamental components of Haramein’s research. You may also read a layman article, written by Haramein, in which the concepts put forth in this paper are described in a less technical manner."

Science and Spirituality "In this extraordinary time many developments in our world are coalescing in what could become a scientific and spiritual revolution in the near future. Scientists have started to openly discuss major paradigm shifts in many areas of science. The public at large in many cases is unaware of these subjects since our mass media does not give it the attention it deserves.

The essence of these developments is that science is starting to reveal that ancient spiritual teachings may have been right about the fundamental truth of our physical reality. Quantum science has discovered that our universe comprises a vast sea of energy that permeates everything and everyone. At the fundamental level everything what we esteem as a physical thing is basically pure energy. In addition, the physical reality that we perceive with our senses is not independent of our conscious awareness of it. Time and again scientist are able to prove in their laboratories by means of real physical experiments that objective reality is an illusion. These experiments also reveal that physical objects are not separate things but are infinitely connected at the quantum level. The underpinning of the universe is a quantum field of energy that science has termed the zero point field. Everything within this field is interrelated and it is not farfetched to say that the universe itself is just One eternally evolving body! Eastern spirituality has always claimed that the essence of the universe is pure conscious energy, the Akashic field. In a sense there is no material world, there is only our materialistic experience of the world.

Our current belief is that we are individual beings with a separate ego. Science is progressing into the notion that this belief too may be false after all and that ancient spiritual wisdom may have been right again. Eastern spirituality calls the belief in a separate ego Maya, an illusion. Some scientists now start to talk openly about the possibility of a universal consciousness that we are all part of. Basically all of this means that fundamentally we're One. There is a single cause for everything, a universal energy from which the material and immaterial world is created. Some would call this first cause of creation God, others would rather refer to it as nature.

What all these discoveries are revealing is that we are co-creators of the physical world outside of us that we perceive as strictly separate from us. If this is true, we have at our disposal a tremendous powerful tool, the human brain that by mere thought alone has the ability to change not only our personal lives but also the world at large. Science has proven by experiment that human intention does have the power to change things in our physical world. It is simply our current belief system that we are powerless that is holding us back from making real changes happening. What we believe to be true is reflected in our personal experience of reality.

The intention of this site is to bring this knowledge that is both ancient and novel to a greater audience. Once these concepts are accepted and valued for what they are worth, miracles may start to happen when we positively focus our attention on issues in our personal lives and in the world at large. Studies of large group meditations have irrefutably proven that transcendental meditation has the power to significantly drop crime rates in major cities. Masuro Emoto in countless cases has proven that human intention has the power of 'mind over matter' and is able to alter the state of water."

Applied Music & Technology - Sound Remedies - The Power of Sound: "The Power of Sound is “A 21st Century owner’s manual for the human ear.” Joshua Leeds explores music and sound as nutrients for the nervous system, and the vital importance of healthy auditory function."

The Geometry Code - Symbolic Wisdom of Natural Laws Within Us - Books, Videos, Screensavers and more: "The Geometry Code explores profound laws that have been known since antiquity. The Law of Attraction is one aspect of this system of interwoven laws which is becoming more familiar to a wider audience.

The ancient Hermetic principles were said to be sealed except to those with eyes to see and ears to hear. The symbols chosen for this CD-ROM were inspired by a book called the Kybalion by the Three Initiates, originally published in 1912, an unassuming work that explains the Seven Natural (or Hermetic) Laws of Truth, attributed to the wisdom of ancient Egypt.

The seven symbols in the image above each represent one of these natural laws, which were stated as: Mentalism, Correspondence, Vibration, Polarity, Rhythm, Cause & Effect, and Generation or Gender. The meaning behind the symbols - the laws involved in every aspect of our lives - is what is most important; the symbols are merely placeholders, just as our physical lives represent the infinite, multidimensional nature of our souls. As magnificent and boggling as our physical bodies and this material Universe appear to be, they are but shadows of the even greater awe-inspiring reality of our meta-personal, holographic, multi-dimensional existence."

Healing Sounds: " I’m Jonathan Goldman, author of "Healing Sounds", creator of "Chakra Chants", president of Spirit Music and Director of the Sound Healers Association.

In conjunction with many dedicated and visionary people, I have spent the past three decades working to bring the healing nature of sound into mainstream awareness. We couldn’t be more excited that all of this effort has paid off -- sound is finally receiving the widespread attention it deserves.

It is my utmost pleasure to be hosting you on this exploratory journey into transformational sound. I trust you’ll find the world of sound to be exciting, enlightening and fun.

Within these pages, you will find information and articles on how sound can be used for Healing and Self Transformation. You’ll find Articles & Interviews, an excellent Bibliography as well as Vibratory Research. This material focuses on many different aspects of sound including: resonance, psycho-acoustics, entrainment, toning, harmonics, chakras and mantras.
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Flying solo

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 7:07PM

What are you feeling?

I am really feeling great. This HADO book is really cool, telling me all about ME! I can relate to the author so much knowing how we affect everything... lol... we are part of everything. It's like taking the Secret or the Law of Attraction to the next step. I always knew I could affect everything. Like I smile to this old laptop and it works better and better. Then I frown to CC's nightclub and it closes down in a few months. umm. . . wonder what i feel about some other places i've been lately... ;-/

I've really always known about this power and almost have feared it at times. But it is really time for me to take my place and make and move things more powerfully than ever. Like I've always had so much power.

11.01pm
I chanted now. . . so my hands are vibrating. She was there again too. It's weird, on the tut.org/village I met a few more goddesses w/ children . . . oh that's it too, connecting to the energy has nothing to do with her name, or mine . . . its the consciousness thing. Like I said to Equan there is the plus and minus in everything. Everything to extremes here!
wow?

What happened?

I come in here up on my bed with the laptop propped up . . . lol . . . it's funny how sometimes it slips and I see I need to read or do something else instead . . . but now it's standing up so clear and easy in front of me. Then the fan is running in the window behind it. . . . as i chanted I thought to get more wind chimes for the window there, even metal ones, lol . . .

Yes, but What happened?

I saw how everything was here at the tips of my fingers again . . . . setting these words into orbit on the internet where everyone can feel this as quickly as I write it . . . . so then this goes to extremes too and the vibrations increase to create a strong new vision . . . clearer purer than ever . . . . wow!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

The Universal Power of Hado

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What now?

I think I found another broken bone in my arm. I've noticed before that it all just hurt too much. Even the exercises that the doctor told me to do were barely possible. So anyway last night as I chanted I realized I hadn't been doing these exercises and it was really simple swinging my arm around a bit with just gravity. So this was similar to the chant so I started doing it and I heard this "crack" in my forearm. OUCH!!! I thought there was something else there. They've only checked what I complained about... shoulder, elbow, wrist... not even checking all the bones in between... great more broken bones . . .

What do you feel?

I really feel great... lol . . . as long as I don't move my arm!!! But anyway I've been reading another book about HADO ==> Spirit= consciousness=energy so it's really cool. Then I've released more and written more and just know things are going to start flying really soon. Like I spoke to Michelle today again, giving her stuff to do in the office. . . we really connected again and talked serious important research/future stuff again. It's kinda cool and exciting . . . lol. . . and I met someone else on TUT . . . could be her big sister. . . moving more and more energy again...

Thank You!!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

The New Rules of Marriage: May 2007

The New Rules of Marriage: May 2007: "Shaping a relationship

RULE: you cannot attain a new, sophisticated way of being in a relationship using old, unsophisticated methods. If you want a radically different, fulfilling relationship, you must know how to shape it.

Ok, ok...it's more than shaping clay, but the analogy holds. Rather than rely on a blind trust the relationship will somehow 'just work', we need to deliberately and purposefully keep our relationships healthy. Want more communication and honesty in your relationship? You need to bring more honesty and communication?

A good friend of mine talks about how he keeps his relationships healthy:. Every week he meets with his partner and they ask:

What do you need?
What do you want?
How can I help you get what you want?

It sounds kind of plastic and fake, but opening regular communication (in a healthy way) with your partner is an incredible opportunity to strengthen the relationship.

'Anything worth having is worth working for'
-unknown"

Dreamspell Mayan Readings

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What

It figures... I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Yellow Overtone Star
Blue Western Castle of Burning
Earth family- Signal Clan- Blood
Galactic Activation Portal
I empower in order to beautify
Commanding art
I seal the store of elegance
With the overtone tone of radiance
I am guided by the power of intelligence
I am a galactic activation portal enter me
May 16 1974

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Tone 5 Overtone
Seal of the Day, Destiny

Yellow Star (LAMAT) Beautifies and emphasizes Elegance.
The seal of the day is the basis of life destiny, with power of the solar tribe.
Kin 148 of 260 day cycle(20 wavespells of 13 tones).

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Tone of the day
Tone 5 Overtone, creative power to Empower Radiance,action of Command.
Daily meditation- Gather Resources.

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Guide of the Day, effecting Outcome

Yellow Warrior (CIB) Questions and emphasizes Intelligence.
The seal for the Guide of the day enhances the oracle reading in Outcome.

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Antipode of the Day, the Challenging focus

White Mirror (ETZNAB) Reflects and emphasizes Endlessness.
The seal for the Anitpode of the day enhances the oracle reading with Challenging power (strengthening memory, reconstruction).

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Solar - Occult tone of the day
Occult of the Day, the Hidden power

Red Skywalker (BEN) Explores and emphasizes Space.
The seal for the Occult of the day enhances the oracle reading with Hidden power (the unexpected).

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Analog of the Day, the Like-Minded power

Blue Monkey (CHUEN) Plays and emphasizes Magic.
The seal for the Analog of the day enhances the oracle reading with Like-Minded power (galactic-solar planetary power).

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Tone one starts the Wavespell
Tone 1 Magnetic, creative power to Unify Purpose,action of Attraction

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Tone 1 Magnetic

Seal for Wavespell

Yellow Seed (KAN) Targets and emphsizes Flowering (ideas).
The seal for the Wavespell sets the emphasis of the thirteen day, thirteen tone cycle.

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Tone of the Year
Tone 10 Planetary, creative power to Perfect Manifestation,action of Producing

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Tone 10 Planetary

Seal of the Year, Destiny

White Wizard (IX) Enchants and emphasizes Timelessness.
The seal of the year is the basis of life destiny, with the power of the solar tribe.

Yellow Star is your Conscious Self - who you are and who you are becoming.

You are a starseed! You contain a holographic 'seed packet' of your evolution into the Mind of Light and the energy that directs you toward wholeness. This resonance offers an expanded view of the larger self and new ways of perceiving reality. Through self-acceptance, you are gifted with this journey. Yellow Star is ignition, like a cosmic milkweed explosion of resonant sparks. It is the launching pad from which you can hear the rumble of the rocket of your accelerated evolution.

The energy of Yellow Star may be experienced as a gentle rocking that becoes a floating and spiraling sensation, ending in a rush of feeling as you move into expanded reality. This sensation has been described as gently cascading fireworks, shimmering burst on the tapesty of Creation. Cascade into this unchartged perspective. Flow on the cosmic winds wherever Divinity directs, arching back to this reality wth a new experience of self.

Yellow Star's starseeded gift is the revelation of the harmony that unites all things. Instead of just aspiring to be harmonious, become harmony. Practice harmony not just as an abstraction, but as a living reality. This practice blends different energies, thoughts, people, and processes. Act on intuitive guidance as to what to combine and when. As you begin to follow your heart, you will know the feeling of being on the return path to the stars.

Yellow Star offers you the ability to hold a greatly expanded focus, a unity of awareness that encompasses aspects of the larger constellation of self. An example of this would be a simultaneous awareness of the desires of the existential self and the truth of the Essence Self. This star harmony encompasses the greatly enlarged perspective of your starseeded self, the part within you that holds the potential of your greatest destiny.

Unlike the preceding 7 tones, which were seperate and distinct, Yellow Star begins a more complex harmonic series as it completes the preceding octave. On a spiritual level, Yellow Star begins the development of higher being. The fundamental tones that occur in this series are of a more expanded frequency than those of the preceding seven tones. In this new octave, there is alignment in the harmonies of Earth and the harmonies of the stars that are now being sounded on Earth. Yellow Star is the first in a series of star harmonies that evoke accelerated growth of the starseed potential within you.

Yellow Warrior is your Higher Self & Guide.

Yellow Warrior, the galactic guide, is a mystic ferryman on the return path to the stars; allow Yellow Warrior's staff to ferry you to the spiraling vortex of cosmic consciousness. Yellow Warrior is the grace of the descent of the dove. Embody the mystic gift of trust in direct guidance. Through trust, you journey to the place of 'no time' and limitless light. There you will undergo the transformations to embody solar heart and mind.

Yellow Warrior is a conduit for cosmic communication, offering access to the universal web of consciousness. This is the web of the Mayan mystic spider that weaves intergalactic threads, the conduit of interconnected consciousness. Yellow Warrior is the spider in the web, the grid connection for divine communication. Receive these ripples of knowing from Yellow Warrior's web through the central axis in your spine, your staff. Accept this gift of knowing in grace, as you would receive the morning light by turning your face to the Sun. Grace is an unexpected touch, a blessing given in love, a natural gift from the universe. Use the power of love like an electrical current to serve the light. Open fully to feel and receive it!

The number for Yellow Warrior is sixteen, the number of unity with the cosmic foundation of resonant evolution. As you embody the ferryman's staff, you become anchored in your connection to cosmic consciousness. Holding within you the foundational steps of the trinity, you carry the "Christed one" into the world. As a living mystic, you are the conduit of the spiraling galaxies that creates a union with cosmic consciousness. Sixteen may also be seen as the beginning of another octave - a higher octave characterized by organic balance and the new Earth under your feet.

Trust in guidance is an essential attitude in accessing the position of the central pillar. Trust in Spirit to provide all you need, and trust that what is given will serve your highest evolution. Trust in the wisdom of the "Mind of Light curriculum." Trust in your inner voice, your feelings, your moment-by-moment guidance. This is Spirit's clear confirmation. Trust as an open vehicle for Spirit, your mystical intelligence, your divine guidance. Embody your ability to commune with cosmic intelligence.

Direct guidance, communication, and embodiment are the key concepts contained in the staff. It is a symbol of learning to stand in your full power and authority - learning to 'tune in' to galactic intelligence so that transmissions are received effortlessly. This resonance is created through embodying light. The ferryman is offering you his staff. Plant it within yourself so that it becomes a blossoming tree of consciousness.

Yellow Warrior's colours are indigo and gold, combining the limitlessness of the night sky with the freedom of the daytime Sun. If you desire to access grace and trust, focus on these colours.


Red Skywalker is your Subconscious Self and Hidden Helper.

Red Skywalker is the skywalker, the time/space traveller who can jump dimensions to assist you in realizing heaven on Earth. Red Skywalker is unlimited in form but often chooses the form of the angelic messenger.

A person who embodies cosmic wisdom may be known as a sky-walker, sage or bodhisattva. When others see such light in human form, they feel the vibration of heaven. This vibration may be embodied by you or experienced with a guru, master, an energy such as Red Skywalker, or in a 'chance' encounter with an extraordinary person.

An encounter with the energy of Red Skywalker can spark a deep yearning within you for reunion with the Source. Yet from this place of love and compassion, you also have a desire (embodied in physical form) to serve the light. This is the place in you that has the courage to fully express unconditional love, the depths of your being. Red Skywalker asks you to live the new myth by bringing this heaven to Earth in your daily life. As this reality is lived, it touches and awakens the same truth in others: "They kingdom come, Thy will be done, on Earth as it is in heaven."

Red Skywalker represents balance in your life - not static balance, but a dynamic equilibrium that includes both your present expression and your starseeded self. In Red Skywalker's star-glyph you see that the pillars of heaven don't appear to touch the Earth. You are the element that appears to be missing in the star-glyph. You are the one whose expression of the light assists in drawing the pillars of heaven to Earth.

Joining these pillars in yourself can be viewed as reuniting your male and female aspects. Together, in balance, we create the pillars of the etheric temples of heaven on Earth.

The natural state of every system moves toward balance that is fluid and free, as in dance. That balance is experienced differently by each person, but it often brings a sense of steadiness or centeredness even in the midst of movement and change. When you are dancing, you can use your very state of imbalance to create the fluidity of the dance.

White Mirror represents your Challenge and Gift. With maturity and awareness this challenge will turn into a Focus. This is what you desire to learn in this lifetime.

Have you unconsciously created a reality in which you seem lost or confused? In this shadow, you may feel enmeshed in the illusions of the hall of mirrors. Remember that the only real power the hall of mirrors has is your belief that its grand illusions are real! On Earth, we presently live on a holographic playing field made of the elements of time and space. This field draws to itself the density and mass necessary to form a three-dimensional reality. All phenomena within it are images that appear for our learning and growth. Since each of us is a hologram of light within the larger hologram, getting lost in fear, judgement, and denial can certainly appear to be "real", but it is really only an illusion. The essential mind is silent, still, empty - hence, incapable of getting lost.

The transformation offered in this shadow is found by being mindful. Meditate and pray for the reestablishment of your direct connection to Spirit. Become quiet and still. Imagine yourself floating timelessly in the center of the star-glyph White Mirror, receiving divine wisdom. Cut away with clear discrimination. Forgive and release yourself and others. Enter into the timeless truth of the spiritual warrior.

Another shadow transformation of White Mirror may be found in seeing yourself clearly in the mirrors of the world and other people. Using others as mirrors allows you to experience hidden truths about yourself. Ask for honest feedback from friends you trust. Risk hearing the truth about yourself. Openly observe the events in your life to see how they can be used to better understand who you actually are.

One of the most self-limiting illusions is the belief that one's own view of reality is the only one. This often causes the mirror of the world to reflect back to you your "unseen" shadow, and when you see this shadow, it can produce a judgement or reaction. Such emotionally charged situations usually have two poles or positions. When you believe that only you are right, both poles remain charged and fixed. For a moment, experiment with letting go or changing your position. As you loosen your hold and step aside, the "other position" or person is freed to change as well.

Understand that judgement and acceptance are two sides of the same mirror - the transparent mirror of ascension.

Blue Monkey is your Compliment - something that comes naturally to you.

Blue Monkey represents the Divine Child, the child that is ever in a state of open-hearted wisdom, innocence, trust, simplicity and joyful wonder. What would it feel like to actually BE a magical child in this culture and time? The secret that very few know - because they may feel more comfortable trying to protect themselves - is that the divine child offers the strongest of all protections, the invulnerability of openhearted Love. Through innocence, a kind of immunity is created that allows the divine child to be transparent so that the apparent 'slings and arrows' of the world can pass right through without being personalized into wounds, reactions or hurt feelings. This is the path of innocence regained. Transparency is the path of the new consciousness.

Look deeply into the eyes of a happy two year old. There you will see the innocent trust, openheartedness, and spontaneous joy that typifies the divine child. Imagine yourself as an enlightened two-year old, in a state of ecstatic communion and delight. In childhood, you didn't have to remember to be playful - you could easily and fluidly express your emotions. You didn't have to understand whys and wherefores - you knew with your heart. This if your natural state of being, the state of ecstasy, the path of revealed innocence.

In Western culture, many people have a distorted understanding about what it is to be a human being. We are often taught that sucessful adults are responsible, serious, rigid, controlled and goal oriented. In your journey with society, your developmental stages may have been incomplete. The natural sensitivity, fluidity, and freedom of the child may have been left behind in partial passage. Perhaps your inner child was wounded or treated insensitively, and you carried this unresolved process into adulthood. Blue Monkey encourages you to bring forth this incomplete or wounded part for integration and healing.

In this New Myth, your spontaneous, divine child will usher in and anchor the new frequency. How can you heal your inner child? Explore what truly gives you joy. Find types of work that support your sensitivity and create deep satisfaction. Be simple: love, play, dance, draw, colour, sing. These activities are for all divine children - they serve the expression of the magical child in everyone. Consciously make time for the joyful freedom and magic of play!

The number for Blue Monkey is eleven, the vibration wherein novelty and spontaneity break down resistant forms. When unity merges with Essence Self, a mystical foundation is created that disintegrates old patterns. This is actually integration in disguide. As your walls tumble down, they crack into a smile, and the illumination of self shines through.

Your Tone is Tone 5 - Overtone

Core purpose, central intent, foundation, place of centeredness, simplicity, acceptance of your humanness.

Five is the ray of center, the first bar, the foundation of humanity in the individual self. Step into the center of your crystalline core. What do you find there? What is your foundation, your core purpose, your central intent, your individual vision? Use this vision as an access to the truth at your stellar core. See yourself as an ever-expanding hub of truth and light.

You are the center of your own universe! Remember that there is great wisdom to be found within the human form. In genuine acceptance of your humanness, you find your foundation in individual self. Turn inward and bring more light into your form. Discover the foundation of your sacred center. In meditation, receive the serenity of the unis mundi, the place of perfect centeredness. In letting go of who you think you are, you become who you actually are. Be simple. You are always sitting in the center. You are the Zen master, centered in beginner's mind.

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Your Interpretations

Self: Six of Wands

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Your enthusiastic stewardship is producing dramatic results.

The card in the Self position reveals aspects of how you perceive yourself right now.

The Six of Wands in this position provides an opportunity for you to be on the receiving end of strong support. An opinion you had been keeping to yourself spoke to a universal need.

As you share your views others can unite with you, volunteer to help and offer to provide a framework for your team. Your inspiration, enthusiasm and leadership are bearing fruit. It is imperative, however, that you design a plan of action -- don't allow a team effort to plunge ahead without direction.

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Situation: Ten of Cups

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
You, your friends and the whole community join together in thankfulness for the rainbow after the storm.

The card that lands in the Situation position refers to social or circumstantial factors which could be affecting your life at this time.

When the Ten of Cups is in this position, the whole world seems to be filled with feelings of joyful celebration, relaxation and healing. These feelings come partly from being comfortably situated among your favorite people. Friends may seem to be everywhere. Cooperation and mutual support prevail. This situation, however, was not arrived at without stress and challenge.

Equate this magic moment with the clarity that follows inclement weather -- it's all the more precious in contrast with what came before. Even if life cannot stay this way forever, right now all feels right with the world. We are united, joyfully at peace. The blessing of the Creator rains down upon the creation in a sacred moment of recognition.

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Challenges/ Opportunities: The World

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
You have mastered the elements of your life to the degree that success is a regular occurrence.

The card that lands in the Challenges/Opportunities position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones.

The World in this position challenges you to maintain a dynamic balance between inner pressures and outer circumstances, your male side and your female side, innocence and wisdom, action and response. You have grown into your potential. It's wonderful to find yourself at the center of the universe, in the right place at the right time.

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Foundation: Four of Cups

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Deep within, you have reasons not to fall back on inertia. Use this inner knowledge to sharpen your attention.

The card in the Foundation position points to influences from your personal history, your roots and background.

The Four of Cups in this position suggests that you have experienced fallow times wherein you were uninspired, listless, and even apathetic. If this is one of those times, you might be tempted to disassociate and entertain yourself with fantasy instead of challenging yourself to keep growing and stay strong.

It's a luxury to have the option of coasting through life. There is a cost, however. Dependency leaves you open to fluctuations outside of your control -- changes you may not be prepared for. If you've expereinced this before, you can prevent yourself from slipping into this powerless position again by recalling your past. Use those memories to ensure that you will not lose track of events as they unfold around you. If you recognize how easily these lapses could happen again, you can take steps to avoid falling into the dependency you used to settle for.

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Recent Past: Ace of Pentacles

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Let the creative part of you awaken and help you achieve important goals.

The card in the Recent Past position refers to events that are just departing, recently influential but now diminishing in power.

The Ace of Coins in this position provides a glimpse of how big enterprises begin with small steps and how sudden insights can inspire new inventions. You have such inspiration within yourself! A recent and meaningful insight will help you achieve long-range goals if you act on it.

Let the creative part of you awaken. Innate talent coupled with perseverance will give you the confidence to accomplish what you set out to do. The insight revealed to you, or intuited by you, was meant to drive home the point that "if they can do it, I can do it."

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Higher Power: Nine of Cups

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
You know there is a benevolent presence in the universe that blesses you.

The card in the Higher Power position reflects the broader perspective and influence of your conscience, Guardian Angel, inner wisdom.

The Nine of Cups in this position points to great blessings. Because your ego has remained pliant and teachable, your Higher Self has arranged abundant rewards for you. Although you are clever and creative, in your heart of hearts you know that divine providence and synchronicity have had a lot to do with whatever success you have achieved.

Be grateful to a Higher Power; acknowledge that you never could have accomplished anything worthwhile without its backing. Other awakenings may come as well: that you are not alone, that you are being protected, that the Greater Whole supports your endeavors. When you want what is best for everyone, spiritual forces arrange what is best for you. That may seem illogical to some, but when you have experienced it, a tremendous amount of fearful anxiety goes away. You can directly acknowledge the light that shines upon you from on high. The evidence lies right here in this experience.

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Near Future: Two of Cups

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
A relationship is blooming. Trust the process and open with it.

The card in the Near Future position indicates which way the wind is blowing with regard to your situation. If you follow the Advice card, however, you can improve on or neutralize tendencies.

With the Two of Cups in this position, a newly emerging or existing friendship can develop into something more. You may feel as if you want to know this person or situation better and better. This optimistically placed card encourages you to trust and let yourself open up. It is telling you to go for it -- why hold back? One of the strongest human drives is to relate more deeply, more honestly and with fuller consciousness.

As long as you're not frivolous with this relationship or foolishly scattering your energy around, there is no reason to repress your feelings or pretend that an amazing alchemical occurrence isn't in the works.

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Blocks & Inhibitions: Ace of Wands

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Use your imagination and the power of desire to rouse you to create change.

The card in the Blocks position points to self-undermining tendencies, areas where you could be in denial, where you could get stuck -- unless you examine yourself and make some corrections.

When the Ace of Wands falls in this position, there is a dangerous habit of deferring your self-will to the stronger will of others. As a result you lose track of what your own real purpose is. Use your imagination to create a dream scenario and feel it passionately.

If this is difficult for you, it's because you have been neglecting this exercise too long. Without the ability to fully define and feel your own personal desires, you won't be fired up enough to achieve them. Get animated so you can create change.

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Allies: Page of Swords

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Let your advocate smooth the way for your views to be heard.

The card in the Allies position points to people who can be supportive or helpful to you at this time.

The Page of Swords (in some decks, a Princess) in this position suggests that you look for an agent who can showcase your cause or strategies to those who have influence -- whether it's in the marketplace, the academic world or the emotional climate of the family. When this advocate or emissary is positively disposed toward you, he can use his talents to present your message in the most favorable light.

If your emissary has an agenda of his own, however, the message may become contaminated during transmission. That can be a consequence of allowing someone else to communicate for you. Nevertheless, the structure of the situation calls for an ally who can quietly slip the message to the right people without making any waves, someone who can make arrangements behind the scenes.

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Advice: The Star

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Your time is better spent in reflection and spiritual pursuit.

The card in the Advice position suggests a course of action which will harmonize what you want with what is currently possible.

The Star in this position advises that you rededicate yourself to your higher values, increase your spiritual cultivation and meditation practice and surrender to the greater good. Connect to your higher self--a being of a larger realm traveling on an evolutionary course that started long ago and runs indefinitely into the future. This is the part you wish to contact and communicate with.

Now is a period for quiet contemplation. Listen for the voice within. Anything that would interfere with this communion may not be serving your best interests right now.

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Long-term Potential: Three of Swords

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POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING
Recognize the part you play in your own setbacks.

The card in the Long-term Potential position points to unknowns still taking shape. It is the "wild card" yet to be played.

With the Three of Swords in this position, it may take a season or two to assimilate the implications of all that has happened, before you can again feel safe to welcome new relationships. Study the pattern of unfortunate events as they unfolded before -- review how you drew the situation into your life, how you let yourself be swept along, how you were drawn toward a familiar, inevitable failure.

Examine your relationship pattern closely to see how you continue it. Until you fathom your tendency to invite such events into your life, you will not be free of this particular pain. Get ready to study these issues for a while; examining them closely with an eye to your own responsibility.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happened?

It was really weird . . . . all day yesterday I kept seeing this black fabric in the hands. I was checking out the sloppy sewing job, all embarrassed even. I knew I seen it before and was kinda trying to fix it or hide how sloppy it was. . . like tucking in the loose threads.

What does that feel like?

I guess it was obvious I made it. . . I bet all the loose treads where tucked in when he got it. It's funny how something so carefree and spontaneous could mean so much to someone. I guess when it got really silent I noticed he was watching me with this expression of total peace and joy. Maybe no one had ever touched it . . . guess it's not too normal to play with some garment of someone you barely know or just met the first time . . . kinda brings a big smile to my face now and I wonder what I needed to share with him...

It's funny I never know what people want from me. I feel the power of the connection and respond to the joy and bliss between us. . . but then I shorta wait and wonder what to do next.

I bet that's why I'm single; ladies have gotten accustomed to this male dominated culture where they are pushed around like objects . . . so they can't handle when someone respects them or honors them as a worthy person . . . capable of free individual choices and decisions about relationships, contact and interaction. Like they just don't understand it and feel awkward and then avoid me. I was always happy thinking the lady clear and strong enough to see what I offered would be the only one worth my time anyway.

Not sure if that's such a bright idea anymore since women strong and capable are likely chased down by everything on two legs!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Doctor of Philosophy in Engineering Science Degree

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

I had this really cool dream. I wrote to some master who came to town. I always do that. But this time he was old and passing soon and as typical ignored my seeming arrogant statements about DNA and regaining his youth. We were outside sitting at this round table next to the beach. It was after his seminar and I caught him per chance as he was taking a break outside alone.

I asked him about this note I sent him to see if he read it or even understood it. As he was speaking he pulled out this cheap black polyester cloth that was sown into a scarf or something. And he spoke about how he gets so many gifts, messages and questions that he never has the time to read them all. He was referring to this cloth that appeared after another visit. . . sorta remorsing in sadness over it even, since evidently he never knew where it came from and it had some significant meaning for him.

Of course I noticed the sloppy stitching where the red-orange stitches on the black fabric were all clumped together and then spread-out too far and coming apart like would always happen with my mom's old sewing machine. Suddenly I was only looking at the cloth totally ignoring him as it soon became clear to me that I had made it long ago in another wild spontaneous attempt to connect to someone claiming to know Source.

He stopped talking abruptly too as he noticed my attention to his garment. He could feel the connection, I had seen this before, and suddenly he had this great peace come over him. . . ready and waiting to hear whatever I had come to share. . .

What did this make you feel?

I guess I really felt wonderful! lol... The teacher comes when the student is ready!!! I can't remember how many times I've spontaneously sent things to Leaders over the years . . . What's really funny is that before there were any websites I would give them things I made or wrote by hand. I would never get any reply and always felt ignored or mis-understood. But now to see an Old Master holding one of these old trinkets dear to his heart was just incredible.

I always write and say things spontaneously that are so abstract or totally beyond conception. . . I almost never understand why I'm so anxious to send them. It's always like I'm doing God's Work and what they find and read in whatever I send is not about me anyway. . . it is always between you and Your Maker. I'm just here to share it with you whether you see or find the truth in this or not, is really not my concern at all. . .

What do you feel now?

I guess it is really my concern now more than ever. It's time for me to write and publish things very carefully so that they are understood clearly.

yes good, so what about this link, you added? Wasn't that exactly like the dream you had. . . .what more do you need to get busy with your work?

I'm embarrassed now. A few years ago when working on some STARS project a retired guy from NASA joined us to teach handicapped kids. After working together all week he asked about STARS so I opened this page on his laptop . . . it's actually our original website . . . so he evidently picked on PHD link on the left and then the "Dreams" or something. I was rambling on with others at the moment not really concerned about the guy who only then realized I was anything but another volunteer like him.

But suddenly he freaked . . . . "Eric Weaver, that's so common and meaningless we thought it was a code name for something else. . ." WHAT??? I intentionally left my name off the website, for some reason, so for him to know it . . . never said more than Eric all weekend, but he got me quick! He suddenly had my undivided attention. So he tells me how he ran the Cray network of super computers for NASA. . . So anything of National importance or any sophistication at all he knew about it. Evidently my letter was a big deal as Bush headed the CIA at the time, and decided to build the missile defense system I described in there. Reagen was really only their puppet as we've seen the Bush's do so much.

Oh, now I was totally freaked out . . . So he says how it has all been up and operational for years, and they always thought the Russians had one too with their space station and all. But it was clear he'd seen all these writing before and it was really just freaky how it was interpreted. . . time for me to get busy again... Monday morning work/school time

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

catastrophe

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What?

I know I need to start writing more and get busy on several research projects I've started. I've read countless articles, books and such on the same subject over and over again. It's like everything I read is saying the same thing to me . . . or maybe I only see the same things . . . so then I wonder what is the point in me writing it again if it's already been published?

What you feel and know about a lot of these things might be published at certain levels but nothing is as clear on the big picture. People learning to get clear and avoid the greed of the ego is not the full story. . . as your reading has indicated.

I know, so recognizing the lost culture in the ego is only half the story. And teaching people to think and feel beyond the greed and selfishness of the ego is critical . . . but it is really only critical as a place to start. People who grow beyond the short-sighted insecure ego are more able to see and understand their own truth and purpose beyond.

What you are getting at is the level of truth critical to the changes before you. As you recognize your power and influence on others - - - seeing the energies flow - - - you are also ready to express and define how much people lost in the ego are also creating. The power and energy flows are always there and real if they are conscious of it or not. Teaching and leading into truth is critical, recount your conversation with Equan.

I was expressing to Equan how clear and powerful things were for us. We were set in the truth and this power made things clear for us over and over again, like "Faith in our Convictions" would be shown true over and over again. . . not only since we were clear and positive about it and making it part or our experience . . . but vibrating at that level would always bring more to us similarly.

What about the point with Equan?

I know it really came down to recognizing there was also the opposite. All this Earth is the dance between the extremes, the Light and the dark, where one is really meaningless without the comparison to the other. So in effect I was telling him how he needed to know that being so clear and strong at this positive vibration only implied there existed those at the opposite pole. Which I know is the whole point here.

Getting away from the ego is only half the fight; we also need to stop or reclaim all the crap the ego has created to perpetuate itself. I guess I made it clear to Equan that just as we are clear about the power we attract in the positive. . . there exists creatures that have evolved to live and consume the negative.

I occasionally will get some eerie feeling or fear even when just recognizing the negative energy or thought forms. I even indulge worries and fears on occasion . . . but then I realize this is only a lost or insecure aspect that I need to bring back into the Light where it easily dissolves. This can be a challenge as the culture is full of great big graphic images of evil that can easily be associated with the eerie thought forms. I remember once with a Wicca Priestess she witnessed this large energy form which I "feared" or simply avoided . . . being of the Light means anything I encounter can be brought back to the Light. . . which I did! But I guess it was surprising to see how powerful things can get.

What this is all about is that many people recognize the greed and ego in the moment thinking its ok in work or this circumstance since it is not truly who they are and the culture of work requires this. . . . "nothing personal just the job" - - However when people put into that they are adding more darkness to the world where others feed off of it creating greater harm for everyone. This is why the purity of the little child is so critical. It is a constant purity not just at home or school or work. As we've told you more and more energy and power is coming through for everyone. We need to keep the clarity and purity strong. It's certainly wonderful for those who do so for themselves, but getting it clear and strong for everyone is critical too.

I know. So I need to get busy about the relationships and issues where people effect each other. I guess that's why I'm in business now. Developing sustainability principles for leadership is all about recognizing we are energy and that we consume and share energies that really effect everyone and everything. . . . both positively and negatively . . . Hum like the butterfly effect where the flapping wings in one part of the world is enough to start the hurricane in another part of the world.

That one act of greed and deception by a normally honest and righteous person might be enough to tip the scales to create another 911 catastrophe!!! course that whole scene was "nothing personal, but just the job"

What is critical now is knowing how important it is for you to stay focused and clear on your tasks at hand and not allow any more crap to distract or confuse you.

I get it. I was feeling that more too.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Yoga, Power, and Spirit

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 12.22pm

I finished another book. The last sections were about death and the rites we can do to ease the transitions . . . It reminded me of the experience with my mom. I wish I could have helped her more. She condemned herself to the experience she married into, telling me she truly died when giving up her own truths for his in marriage. Women do not do that at all anymore. Everyone is caught up in the American Machine: me me me is all they know or see.

Wow I'm so negative . . . lol . . . ego dominating everything. It's almost like the women who have become so selfish and egocentric have opened the space and world for more feminine qualities to come out from men. This reminds me yesterday after lunch when I was meeting with Dr. Nord we were speaking about the ABM models and creating something to represent the organic and mechanistic development of organizations.

We spoke about how fool-hardy the whole thing is since people only can relate or comprehend based on language. . . where our words are defined by our experience, so everyone has different words since they all have different experiences. . . . So then I mentioned this book I was reading and learning to see more of the energy around me. Then I said how there was a lot more going on here as we explored uncharted territories . . . like using words with no meaning suddenly shifts to a new level of comprehension when we share the energies of an experience.

I was referring to previous conversations we had where the energy was present and clear to both of us. He knew exactly what I meant to . . . saying how our work together this summer could last a lifetime and open countless challenges and opportunities.

Of course every experience I share with anyone can do that. . . I love being so free and open to create anything like this. Accepting the spontaneous moment and insights to allow anything to happen

What did you do now 6.28pm

I started another of Aberto's books, one about the Yogi sutras. It's really cool talking about the same thing again in a different way. . . . no ego no mind, the only way to freedom. What i really find fascinating in all of this is how I needed to come back to mind and ego to express things. Being out of the mind and ego is certainly the way to truth and God, but to present this to people and publish anything remotely comprehensible requires some element of the ego & mind. Course I would prefer to spend my life with Bear in the woods speaking with the trees and Osprey . . . . but that will do nothing to save the Trees and Osprey from the greed and chaos of men.

What are you feeling now?

I guess I began to recognize the shift I was making. Research and publication is another state of mind completely. It's come time for me to get into another world again. To lock myself into a new place where I can be and flow into my work and research. I wonder how this will work. I could feel the new semester at school starting and the bliss and challenge of creating who I am all over again. . . . Oh reminds me of the pictures where I look like my younger brother Mark . . . like I'm getting younger again. . . lol. . . certainly not interested in the greed and ego if these old folks I've seen. . . .but to get younger still is really just so funny. I always start to laugh when people I'm with finally realize I'm older that they are. . . . Like "What? You kinds are in the IB program at King High School?" lol. . . yepper on the dean's list too... leading everyone there too!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

impeccable

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 7:50 PM

Dear Eric, Here is your couple's love horoscope for Friday, May 11:
You're focusing more on your entire social scene than on your sweetheart in particular, and while that may cause a wee bit of friction, you both know it's for the best right now.

Impeccable, I love that word.

It always felt like something else... Not of this culture or world anymore, like from a lost Indian culture some other time. But whenever I hear it it feels so close and dear to my heart. Needless, wantless, free, at peace . . . just perfect . . . . no worries BE happy. . .

really just being where i need to stay. . . free and spontaneous in the presence. . . .present now!!

What else have you been doing?

I know writing a few letters. . . i know i need to save them to send early tomorrow! Wow so much power and clarity there too. It was really funny as I was laying here resting. Left hand at 2nd and right on 4th chakra - - I was just watching all these lines of energy going all over. It was really cool, thinking of it would bring so much clarity. Then I could feel all the connections during the day with meetings and emails . . . each new thought would make another line of energy increase!!!! Like I could see which went where as it was pulsating to the movement of my thoughts!

I ran into Dr Nord again today and asked if we could chat after lunch about the ABM summer research project. He was excited about it . . . so I told him I was seeing another modeler for lunch who was using the GIS. Then at lunch Shawn and I got really deep into the various aspects connecting the dots between different things we each knew. He said how research was all about getting more focused. The inverted pyramid getting to focus on what no one has done yet. YES, MY POINT, no one looks at the Big Picture. . .!!!!

How my model affects your model and how your results improve my results. All the bureaucracy is about mine mine mine - - - compete control concepts - - - WHAT about "cooperate" that's where the real power is!

It was all so really cool. We went to get Sushi and spoke over the whole gambit of stuff. Once he stopped and asked if I knew the business teacher who drives the Rolls Royce to school. I started laughing and went into the story about starting grad school and picking Koehler's Leadership class from the schedule on Christmas . . . . and then detailing all my plans to him and getting accepted into the program that next week!

What now?

I've been flashing back and forth with the visions, insights and experiences. . . they all get mixed up as I try to finish writing now.

What's up?

I hit send instead of save . . . and I know I need too chant. Looking at the clock and it's 11:09pm Then now again as i get more conscious of it reading, typing, reading again and it's 11:11pm. First I just glanced at the time thinking he wont see the email until morning anyway. . . no big deal about the time. . . But now as i see the 2nd time I realize what that's all about!

What

It MUST BE CHANT TIME NOW 11:17PM
time to go
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

new world

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
I'm back again in the same place to finish what I started; I know I attract whatever I need to learn and grow from . . . . eek?

What was that?

I know someone showed up to teach me about the Silver Chords. I really always knew about these things, but never really paid much attention. Now reading Alberto's book I realize how seeing the flows of energy will help me to bring together what I need to move and shift things more easily . . . . taking a more active role in my manifesting stuff. Like I'm not doing enough already!

The Fool
A fool is one who goes on trusting; a fool is one who goes on trusting against all his experience. You deceive him, and he trusts you; and you deceive him again, and he trusts you; and you deceive him again, and he trusts you. Then you will say that he is a fool, he does not learn. His trust is tremendous; his trust is so pure that nobody can corrupt it.

Be a fool in the Taoist sense, in the Zen sense. Don´t try to create a wall of knowledge around you. Whatsoever experience comes to you, let it happen, and then go on dropping it. Go on cleaning your mind continuously; go on dying to the past so you remain in the present, herenow, as if just born, just a babe.

In the beginning it is going to be very difficult. The world will start taking advantage of you...let them. They are poor fellows. Even if you are cheated and deceived and robbed, let it happen, because that which is really yours cannot be robbed from you, that which is really yours nobody can steal from you.

And each time you don´t allow situations to corrupt you, that opportunity will become an integration inside. Your soul will become more crystallized.

I get it. I'm really good at being a fool too. . . . must be like little children! Sounds the same for me! Now I need to pull these things together. Seeing energy flow . . . I never wanted to see anything, but this is really part of the here and now, and can be really important for me to grow and achieve all that I see coming into my hands again.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Toltec - - Inca - - Mayan - - Aztec

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What about now?

Wow, I feel great. This is really awesome. Here I am in the calm before the storm again. Classes start again Monday. . . and I realized I'm right back where I started from, again. . . exactly the same place all over again, more spoiled than ever, more freedom than dreamed possible and more opportunities than I can imagine. . . . the classic american spoiled brat

and that's really the whole point! I've got to DO THE SAME THING that I always want to do!

I remember the first time writing as I sat in the library thinking how awesome it would be to . . . bla bla bla . . . and now as I sit here listening to Tywman . . ."Oh Lord Make me an instrument of your peace" . . . sitting on a big fresh pile of pillows, eating the last of a big bowl of organic spicy salad, sipping a Heineken . . . lol . . . I could never spell that without one in hand. . . . :-))

"Dear Father Who ARE in Heaven, Thy Kingdom COME" Carol?? next song up on my office PC; Lord's Prayor. . . 5:54PM Equan dropped by and started setting up the sound system last week.

And now some maids just left after doing dishes, remaking bed, dusting cleaning and all . . . WOW . . . I'm just going to do it . . . . do it all exactly as I've seen and felt countless times before. . . all the same players in the same places, going to do the samething all over again!!!! Wow, that's my classic regression. Every spontaneous past-life regression I share with someone was the same thing, starting . . . . "last time we tried this we . . . . . " on ships, in galleys, staking-out territories and planning conquests. . . . lol . . . think we'll get it right this time!!!!! "Shit that's why i get so sad and freaky when i see another one fall, how many times do we have the same conversation until they finally listen...lol.... here we go again"

I remember this once "You know Teddy that was just Bambi, what we really wanna see is her daddy, while we all know she has better odds of finding him than we do...." That was during the scholarship to Black Mountain Retreat. Oh yea that was with the Attorney. . . . not Tim or Laura . . . hum

You know it's not necessary to over do this . . . .

But you have!

I know. . . but I just remembered that I met Tim and Laura in the '99 Black Mountain Walsh trip BEFORE my mom passed, while spending the following year (summer/ spring ???) with Sheri studying Toltec. . . "applying Toltec"

What are you getting at?

I'm just looking at the sequences . . . oh I gotta take a picture!

Why

It's just so funny to think about starting school again. Like now looking at this picture I see me and Mom after Jr High Graduation on the shelf. . . no dad there of course. Oh, now I feel like he had affairs all the time. That's why I never saw him. Funny when Mike was here and again reading Alberto's stuff I felt how I resolved the baseball-catch thing for my dad, and his dad, and his dad, and his dad, and his dad all the way back to the very first dad and son . . . that was some awesome experience but I never retell it to anyone.

Why not? It is really Witnessing to Jesus Christ!

I guess so but when I looked at me in the picture, it reminds me of my hairy brother Mark . . . leg sticking up out of nowhere and the painted on hair helmet . . . lol . . . so I zoomed out some more and now I see my mom's cool art catching my eye first again. . . lol . . . painting first . . . the one as old as Mark who made the big funky tree in the middle of it that always looked like T-rex to me. . . . lol. . Now you can see my funky laptop setup too. Course last week I bought new sheets cause I could not really wash much with one hand. Only got them on now, as making a bed one-handed is impossible too. . . lol . . .

What are you learning though?

I know I'm back here again to do the same thing I always did from the beginning of time. . . . Wow, and I've never been more prepared, or ready for it either. I start seeing strings of light everywhere. Wow! I always felt how each word I write punching on this keyboard. . .

was vibrating through the bottom of YOUR FEET now DOWN INTO THE EARTH then coming up through the Earth to vibrate my own feet, into my body, down my arm to the finger searching for the next key . . . . lol ;-D)))) like creating a complete circuit . . . from me to you . . . finger key net screen eyes foot earth foot finger net. . .;-)))

What about the learning?

I was experiencing the power and flow of this energy - - - Spirit Rap going now!!! My being knows no limit I am God, God is within - - -

What do you feel though?

It all the energy everywhere. Everything is connected to everything. . .I FEEL ALL OF IT! So now again we come into time to make first impressions. . . make new relationships . . . connect new thought forms . . .8:18pm I'm seeing a lot more shadows again all around me.

What else would you expect. As you've done before it's all on the ONE MOMENT - - NOW - - - PRESENT - - - ONE - - -

I Pray Dear God only Thought Word and Deed in Jesus Christ for the Glory of Fathers Sons and Holy Ghost!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. HERE WE GO

may 1oth, 2oo7

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What IS IT?

I can feel so much power and force coming together again! Things are really getting stronger all the time. I woke up several times last night, but never Chanted. Then the muscles in my shoulder would almost cramp up. It was really freaking and scared me more than hurt. I wasn't sure if that was pulling the bones together or separating them. Of course I would just place my other hand over it and sooth it to relax a bit feeling it was only getting better.

Then I've made some phone calls and wrote a bit. Also researching some, but have tons to do still. I need to go shower now!

What else?

9:39pm I read and write... read and write... read and write... read and write... read and write... read and write some more. . . lol. . .

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Learn, grow, succeed.... nothing else I ever do!!!!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Today's Outlook for Wednesday May 09, 2007
Obstacles appear as the Sun squares authoritative Saturn, requiring us to slow down or stop, but detours may be our own doing. We must overcome our fears, for they can manifest as external problems today. The intelligent Aquarius Moon gives us the information we need to know, but not necessarily the wisdom to apply it. Taking a leap of faith may be the answer, for we are already feeling tomorrow's square between risky Uranus and confident Jupiter.

I always seem to get the SAME daily cards. . . Star, Sun, Empress, Emperor, Lovers, Strength . . . then Hanged Man or Hierophant maybe once for Justice, Magician, Devil anf Hermit. . . the Lovers, Strength and Star are the most common of course!!!

TUT... A Note from the Universe
Two of the most powerful words in the English language for bringing about change, Eric, are "thank you." Especially when offered before the change even happens and everything still looks pretty much like it did yesterday.

You'll have to think of something to say afterwards on your own.

Hubba, hubba,
The Universe


"Happy Hour" is not a word, Eric.

I know it's Mothers Day . . . for me at least. My Mom's birthday is today, so I always celebrate it now. Ok, well my first mom is on the other side now, "watching my children" but my second mom is still here. Living in NJ still... I Love You Joyce, Thanks for Being!!!! sooo:

Dear Eric,

This Mother's Day, even the planets themselves are aligning to honor the feminine principle. In a fitting tribute, Venus is in the nurturing sign of Cancer as Mother's Day weekend approaches. Master astrologer Jeff Jawer says, "A better understanding of the importance of family and relatives will bring you closer to home and heart. Find ways to show your mother how important she is."

We love any chance to honor feminine power at Tarot.com! This Mother's Day we're going all out -- celebrating the many faces of goddess energy and motherly wisdom ... profoundly influential forces that have shaped us all.

Since Tarot is also associated with the feminine, giving yourself a Tarot reading is a great way to reconnect with your "wise woman" power ... whether you're a woman, man, mother or child. This year, in honor of Mom's special day, we want you to enjoy a queen-sized Celtic Cross reading, so we are giving you one completely FREE!

This Tarot Reading was printed from Tarot.com.

Your Question: What can I do about my personal progress and changes Name: Name your reading. May 9, 2007 Your Spread Higher Power Recent Past Situation Self Challenges/ Opportunities Near Future Foundation Long-term Potential Advice Allies Blocks & Inhibitions Your Interpretations Self: Knight of Coins © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING Cultivate your investments using good timing and skillful management; protect your interests. The card in the Self position reveals aspects of how you perceive yourself right now. The Knight of Coins (in some decks, The Prince) in this position portrays you as someone who is responsible, patient, and of practical service. You realize that with right timing and proper attention, wise investments multiply, like a field which has been cultivated. This does not have to do with greed or even the profit motive as we think of it now. Your contribution is like that of the farmer who sows a field of grain for the sake of the entire community. Your service does not stop there, however. The crop must be allowed to grow unmolested by predators or thieves. That's another reason we need to summon forth the stalwart character inside of us who can be trusted to protect and defend the community and its harvest. This card implies generous service of all types. Situation: Ace of Cups © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING This is a charmed moment in your life. Let yourself appreciate its sweetness. The card that lands in the Situation position refers to social or circumstantial factors which could be affecting your life at this time. The Ace of Cups in this position shows that you have discovered an environment permeated with kindness, well-being and support. There is a feeling of abundance in the air. These are circumstances in which everyone is capable of looking after each other in a kind and careful way. Although this situation may be astonishing compared to what you are used to, embrace it and allow it to nurture you. This is a sweet, nourishing, lovely environment. Relax and enjoy it while it prevails. Challenges/ Opportunities: Three of Coins © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING Manifest excellence and leadership at the same time you respect the accomplishments of others. The card that lands in the Challenges/Opportunities position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones. The Three of Coins in this position reveals an opportunity to find a way to showcase your unique talents and gifts. If you can do this without stimulating envy or competition, your ability to achieve greatness will be enhanced. Your challenge is to manifest excellence and leadership, at the same time respecting the accomplishments of others who are working toward common goals. Mutual respect encourages all to perform to their highest ability. Foundation: The Tower © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING There is nothing so chaotic or overwhelming that you can't recover. The card in the Foundation position points to influences from your personal history, your roots and background. The Tower in this position suggests that you have experienced a direct hit in this lifetime. Now it holds no terror for you; you know you can handle intense energy and sudden changes. Your resilience has been proven; you know how to pull yourself together after an explosion. The knowledge that you can hold up under duress gives you courage and optimism. Now you can serve as a guide or support for others who are less confident or experienced. Recent Past: Five of Cups © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING Having lost something dear to you, it has taken time to mend your heart and be able to count your blessings. The card in the Recent Past position refers to events that are just departing, recently influential but now diminishing in power. When the Five of Cups comes up in this position, you have just watched something you held dear be snatched away from you. It seems like a total waste. This is a painful experience, but the worst of it, the sharpest pain, is over now. Falling in this position means this card is waning in influence. As difficult, traumatic or disappointing as this has been, the worst is already past. Now you can begin to concentrate on the remaining two cups, which symbolize that which was preserved, and cultivate their potential. Higher Power: Seven of Cups © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING There are good choices and then there is a best choice. Which will your conscience lead you to? The card in the Higher Power position reflects the broader perspective and influence of your conscience, Guardian Angel, inner wisdom. When the Seven of Cups comes up in this position, you have a spread of options that are testing you. Can you really choose the best for all concerned, or are you going to fall back on short-term gratification? Be assured there is no wrong choice, but there is a spectrum of better and better choices that culminates in the very best choice. Your Higher Power would like to see if you have learned enough in your spiritual, intellectual and emotional growth to be able to freely make the best choice without coercion, based on what your heart knows to be true. There is no way to fail this test, but there are ways to pass it with flying colors. Follow your conscience and, relatively speaking, you can do no wrong. Near Future: Queen of Coins © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING Be prudent. Concentrate on what is most realistic and practical when it comes to your immediate prospects. The card in the Near Future position indicates which way the wind is blowing with regard to your situation. If you follow the Advice card, however, you can improve on or neutralize tendencies. With the Queen of Coins in this position, you will soon have a chance to test your dream against reality. The effort and time you have invested in some enterprise or relationship is about to bear magnificent fruit. We shall see how sensibly you behave when there are no external limits on where you spend your energy, talents and money. To maximize what is good about the Queen of Coins, you should focus on what is practical and sensible. Invest your energy and resources wisely. Otherwise her more exuberant side could take over and your gains will degenerate into one long, expensive party. Blocks & Inhibitions: King of Wands © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING Defend your confidence and optimism from negative self talk and critical thoughts. The card in the Blocks position points to self-undermining tendencies, areas where you could be in denial, where you could get stuck -- unless you examine yourself and make some corrections. When the King of Wands falls in this position, internalized authority figures are bound and determined to diminish a performance, demean you and create insecurity about accomplishments. Under the circumstances, when you become aware of those sabotaging monologues, turn down the volume or refuse to listen. Determination followed by action is needed, not emotional dawdling. Being decisive may feel unfamiliar at first, but action itself can be the cure for too much thinking. Failure to act when action is called for is definitely detrimental. Allies: Strength © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING Seek a mentor or ally who embodies the state of harmony you long for. The card in the Allies position points to people who can be supportive or helpful to you at this time. The Strength card suggests that your natural instincts and your civilized self are ceasing their conflict with each other. Skills you absorb from more developed souls are starting to stabilize you, and your own self-cultivation continues to strengthen your conviction that you are on the right path. Now your energy can be redirected toward enthusiasm, getting ahead in your chosen projects, and finding highly charged, charismatic, productive people to be your allies. You are ready to move beyond fight-or-flight situations with the help of suitable allies. Advice: Three of Swords © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING It might be healthier to disentangle yourself and start fresh. The card in the Advice position suggests a course of action which will harmonize what you want with what is currently possible. The Three of Swords in this position advises you to strike out on your own. Become more independent. Separate yourself from people and forces you do not feel compatible with. Grow a thicker skin. Use your creativity and imagination and seek out situations where the way you see things makes sense to those around you. Move towards those who can embrace and appreciate your talents and all you have to contribute. Long-term Potential: Seven of Wands © Tarot.com POSITIONAL (MAIN) MEANING Cast away perceived limits. Apply what you have learned and be self-disciplined. The card in the Long-term Potential position points to unknowns still taking shape. It is the "wild card" yet to be played. With the Seven of Wands in this position, you can make a few proactive moves right now to go beyond your current situation and hasten your rise to the top. Don't allow perceived limits to hem you in -- let them inspire you as a challenge and the situation may become a launching pad for your greater dreams. Concentrate on strengthening yourself for what lies ahead and test yourself against bigger and bigger challenges. Faithful training and self-discipline assure your victory.

Wow I better get busy!!!
Thank YOU Dear Jesus!!!!
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

"The Universe"

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Date: Mon, 7 May 2007 03:14:57 -0400 (EDT)
From: "The Universe"
Subject: TUT... A Note from the Universe

Have you ever just started talking out loud as if you were some future version of yourself, Eric, explaining what the ride to the top was like? As if you were a mentor sharing insider tips with someone you're really fond of? "When I first started out I had no idea of how I'd get where I am today..." kind of talk? You know, to yourself, in your car, in the shower, dowsing for water?

"But I knew better than to mess with the hows. Just define what you want, in terms of the end result. Visualize, as if it had already occurred. Take action, no matter how futile. Then, in time, 'Whoosh!' the floodgates finally burst open.... That's how I got my Creation for Gaia.

"And you'll think to yourself, as I now do, 'Whatever did I do to deserve this much?' But of course, deep down you'll know how easy it really was. So you'll wonder who in your life you can share your secrets with... "

Trust me, Eric, no one will laugh at you. Especially not when you Change Everything.

Tallyho, amigo -
The Universe

Do it, Eric. It works.

I know, always the same story . . .

Well except this book. I started reading about some more exercises too . . . about seeing the energy. But I never wanted to see anything!!! Now as I write these words for you in my blog and I remember the words from this book beginning page 114 "Perceptual Exercise" . . . and so now I start to imagine these strings of light everywhere. . . EXACTLY like the Silver Chord lyne and Ciera used with me. So I see and feel so much more around me now, increasing energy every moment. Now even my gut begins to flutter as I know I'm overloading this system again!

What you told us is you never wanted to see us! Nothing but the presence on Earth! You demanded to see only the now which everyone could see, not all the spirits and fairies that would only distract and annoy you. Remember when you came back it was only to BE HERE NOW, not floating, or traveling, or seeing the marvels and places with us all . . . . until you were done there!

But you are almost done there. Soon everyone will be able to see everything so your truth and transparency will be fulfilled. These Exercises are only helping you to feel what is there for you to create. . .

I know, this is really going to get intense now. I'm in the world's playground making exactly as I've always dreamed. Seeing each aspect appear before my eyes . . . I always wondered, if I can't see any of you; how come I can see any aspect of life morph into visions & events spontaneously?

What you do in your dreaming is simple imagination. "Dream Weaver!" Remember all creations begin with imagination, so allowing them to flow through your being of civil structure creates something very plausible and practical for the Earth. Taurus is well grounded for you, so the visions fit together perfectly with your missions this life. All things in place and time. Each step you make moving on builds your strength abilities and creativity.

I just flashed to another place again . . . thinking about working for the state again and getting the servers reset again . . . MAC, SUN, and Windows 2003 . . . but hopefully Linux or Red Hat somewhere! . . . OH, And the Video Toaster!!!

What now?

I got a video from James Tyman so much power in this... wow

What did you do...

I bought the book he recommended too, lol... don't laugh, I also got the two books I was missing from Dr. Villoldo == oh and saw this cool video he did showing all these pictures of the luminous energy fields. I've seen some of these before. I know i got one on my server somewhere. . .

What do you feel now?

I'm getting kinda dumbfounded. Like getting overloaded by getting all my energy moving all over. Oh this reminds me of when I found out I was Tatric. . . "What's Tantra?" I had no idea that everyone wasn't like that. I mean respecting the body and sex seems like common sense. Well I guess not; or maybe "feeling good" just means something different to me?

Oh so anyway, after that crazy weekend I started reading to figure out exactly "what I was" as Tantric = = and then I found Mantak Chia's work where I read about the Microcosmic orbit. Yea so now feeling or finding all these energy channels is like first finding the giant subway by the sparks flashing as it is hitting the sides . . . of my channel. . . eeek like I really need more energy.

What else?

I also found a few more key phrases for me too respond to. It's really kinda weird to have this all coming together now. . . Of course I'm not doing anything else. . . . OH except seeing into a new soul . . . or watching what he sees!

What else?

I know I need to go eat something!!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

"Shaman , Healer, Sage"

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 12:03PM

Existence
You are not accidental. Existence needs you. Without you something will be missing in existence and nobody can replace it. That's what gives you dignity, that the whole existence will miss you. The stars and sun and moon, the trees and birds and earth - everything in the universe will feel a small place is vacant which cannot be filled by anybody except you.

This gives you a tremendous joy, a fulfillment that you are related to existence, and existence cares for you. Once you are clean and clear, you can see tremendous love falling on you from all dimensions.

I've Started another book by Alberto: "Shaman , Healer, Sage" . . . I'm in for it now, I can just feel it. So much of his last book was an interesting experience, reading then blogging and finding the reflections between them as I discovered the truth hidden in myself . . . He is a Disciple of The Earth, like me and the Junnaid in the last posting. . . . crazy few days with the moon and all, only reading it now. . . . lol . . . . We've all learned from the experience of Life, opened our eyes to see each moment and event before us as the Present: "The Divine Gift from God" as the Moment we have Now. Funny how few see the NOW lost in the future or how much the culture of greed and corruption misses it completely!

Ultimate Accident
Chiyono and her bucket of water

It is not a certain sequence of causes that brings enlightenment. Your search, your intense longing, your readiness to do anything--altogether perhaps they create a certain aroma around you in which that great accident becomes possible.

The nun Chiyono studied for years, but was unable to find enlightenment. One night, she was carrying an old pail filled with water. As she was walking along, she was watching the full moon reflected in the pail of water. Suddenly, the bamboo strips that held the pail together broke, and the pail fell apart. The water rushed out; the moon's reflection disappeared- -and Chiyono became enlightened. She wrote this verse:

This way and that way I tried to keep the pail together,
hoping the weak bamboo would never break.
Suddenly the bottom fell out.
No more water; no more moon in the water--
emptiness in my hand.

I'm trying to read the book and see more I need to write him about, so then I come online trying to write, but only get stuck, not sure why. Guess all the connections and synchronicity is getting out of hand again. So I stop and read another email . . . which just gives me more connections and all anyway. It's really cool!

The Foolish Heart
The crazy wisdom of Francis of Assisi

The heart has its own reasons, which the mind cannot understand. The heart has its own dimension of being, which is completely dark for the mind. The heart is higher and deeper than the mind, beyond the reach of it. It looks foolish. Love always looks foolish because love is not utilitarian. Mind is utilitarian. It uses everything for something else-- that is the meaning of being utilitarian. Mind is purposive, end-oriented; it turns everything into a means--and love cannot be turned into a means, that is the problem. Love in itself is the goal.

Fools always have a subtle wisdom in them, and the wise always act like fools. In the old days all great emperors always had one fool in their court. They had many wise men, counselors, ministers and prime ministers, but always one fool.

Why?--because there are things so-called wise men will not be able to understand, that only a foolish man can understand-- because the so-called wise are so foolish that their cunningness and cleverness closes their minds. A fool is simple, and was needed because many times the so-called wise would not say something because they were afraid of the emperor. A fool is not afraid of anybody else, he will speak whatsoever the consequences.

This is how fools act--simply, without thinking what the result will be. A clever man always thinks first of the result, then he acts. Thought comes first, then action. A foolish man acts; thought never comes first.

Whenever someone realizes the ultimate, he is not like your wise men. He cannot be. He may be like your fools, but he cannot be like your wise men.

When Saint Francis became enlightened he used to call himself "God's fool." The pope was a wise man, and when Saint Francis went to see him even the pope thought this man had gone mad. He was intelligent, calculating, clever; otherwise how could he be a pope? To become a pope one has to pass through much politics. To become a pope diplomacy is needed, a competitive aggression is needed to put others aside, to use others as ladders and then throw them.

It is politics... because a pope is a political head. Religion is secondary, or nothing at all. How can a religious man fight and be aggressive for a post? They are only politicians.

Saint Francis came to see the pope, and the pope thought this man was a fool. But trees and birds and fishes thought in a different way. When Saint Francis went to the river the fishes would jump in celebration that Francis had come. Thousands witnessed this phenomenon-- millions of fishes would jump simultaneously; the whole river would be lost in jumping fishes. Saint Francis had come and the fishes were happy. And wherever he would go birds would follow; they would come and sit on his leg, on his body, in his lap. They understood this fool better than the pope. Even trees that had become dry and were going to die would become green and blossom again if Saint Francis came near. These trees understood well that this fool was no ordinary fool--he was God's fool.

Copyright © 2007 Osho International Foundation

I guess this is really about being the foolish little child playing in the NOW. I can not express the hundreds of lessons and the incredible learning I get each moment. I've written descriptions and stories about it all over and over again . . . but the joy and bliss of the child, free to express and share in the moment . . . lol. . . that's where I need to be 12.39pm lunch time!

Dear Eric,

Can you feel it? Change is all around you. When optimistic Jupiter in Sagittarius, strong Saturn in Leo and independent Uranus in Pisces have a three-way conversation, one thing is for sure: You won’t be bored! Plenty of support is available, so utilize this time to make decisions that are the most beneficial for you.

First, a retrograde Jupiter backs into the trine with Saturn on May 6, giving you the opportunity to loop back to your support systems. Jupiter is urging you to expand your horizons while Saturn wants to make sure you're realistic. This is a great combo, and you are likely to be quite clear about what you want. The people who were helpful to you last March during the first Jupiter-Saturn trine probably have more to share with you. These levelheaded folks offer good advice and assistance for you to make these necessary changes.

Also in the mix is expansive Jupiter forming a square -- for the second time in this series (the first was January 22) -- to freedom-loving Uranus. This is an aspect that is exact on May 10, but throughout the month you'll feel the restlessness that occurs when these two big planets connect. To make the most of this important aspect, be open to unforeseen changes in plans. Don’t put all your eggs in one basket!

I read how he left academia "I wanted to meet the people who sensed the spaces between things and perceived the luminous strands that animate all life. I wanted to study with the investigators who knew the energy side of Einstein's equation E=MC2" (page 15)

That's a trip since that's where I started too, with just a dream! Tasting infinity, hum, didn't I comment on this while reading the Power of Now? This is all getting kinda freaky again! I know I will need to write him soon!!!! 3:41pm

What now?

7:37pm I'm tired, Equan dropped in and I napped a bit. It's funny he never asked me about my spiritual practices and all. He came in as I was preparing some lunch, opened some things for me. . . including a few beers as we sat chatting at the table by the glass doors. So he's looking at the trees and field out back asking if I still talk to the Osprey . . . Oh, never knew I told him, but I guess through the years my kids would laugh as I called the birds driving by their nest. First it was fun as the kids were tiny, but then older they were embarrassed thinking it was "weird." Oh so certainly Equan had heard me calling as I drove by on one of our hundred trips together.

We were listening to the SpiritRap and chatting their next to my ritual space and he started asking more detailed questions. Kathy did the same thing the day before asking about the Padre Pio statue on my alter . . . Equan wanted to know how it all came together while Kathy wanted to know how this one piece came in . . . but I essentially told the same story. Guess there is only one story anyway. But I realize I've not written it.

I remember when I wrote about the accident. That was like Life Phase I. Then I started writing Phase II which was more about the Twilight Zone of College and STARS and all . . . really through my Divorce I guess. Then Phase III starts January 1999 when my mom, lover, job, 2 cats & 2 turtles died . . . eeek that's when the kids got lost too.

I feel like I might be still in Phase III. That's when all the teachers started showing up and I learned the Chant in the cave. . . Now that I think about it more Phase III likely ended as I got back into school realizing that I needed to finish what I started in Phase I. . .

What about now?

Is it a new life, a new world? Am I getting into something more totally beyond all the rest? I've started a second masters now, not sure if there will be a third. But then I realize I'm going to start a PhD soon too. That might be in parts too or even more. Equan asked me about the perpetual student, and that's certainly true, while I've also gotten a new degree every 10 years. First BSE 1988, then BSCE 1997, and now MBA 2007. . . MSM by 2008 but the last two will likely be together. And I still think about the Masters in Architecture, which was the first one I applied too. . . Or maybe the MS in Medical Research since that's where I'm heading with the PhD's too.

What about your reading?

It's interesting how Alberto "left academia" for all this spiritual stuff seeking the experience . . . lol . . . while I've been buried in the experiences and "seek the academia" now. I remember when I first started blogging, I realized that scientific research was approaching my experiences. Like it was time for me to show them how to study Spirit. I know I can make that experience for anyone very easily . . . ugh!

What 3/15/07 Zackary Schylar Curry?

I started remembering all the conversations these last few days with Kathy (she just called). She drove me to see a few doctors and then we went shopping at a few places so I could eat and all. She called saying she's invited all her family over to see her new Grandson. Planning to pick me up at 2:30 or so tomorrow. It's really just funny. I mean she and I met at Harmony Metaphysical Church so we've been talking about how that all happened. . . starting with Donna & DJ when I was trying to figure things out about the Chant and then John with the Celestine Prophesy movie we saw there. . . And meeting Chris who came along to get me out of the house!!! Just get me OUT!

It was really weird how that crossed over with Pam and DJ, Chris and all the weird stuff all over the place with that . . . I should go back and read it!!! Eeek, now I get to see her grandson! I remember the last infant I held was Maria, my niece from Mark & Christie. Freaked everyone out that time!!! It was soooo coool. . . . EXPERIENCE, that's where it is at!

What did you do now?

I went back to see what I wrote about it all. . . . Nothing about seeing the movie with John or meeting Pam, but right into our experiences together sharing my visions and focus. . . weird!!!

What else do you need to write?

I guess I need to get back to reading my book! Course I've been writing words to look up: neocortex, hypochondria, psychosomatic health, psydroneuroimmunology, Dr Candace Pert - neuropeptides, Hampe- energy healing. . .

What did you find?

Oh cool.. just where I need to BE!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

9:54 AM
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What Dear Mr Eric Weaver,

A couple of days ago I decided to watch the film version of The Celestine Prophecy. I wasn’t particularly in the mood to watch a ‘spiritual adventure’ film, but intuition told me that I really ought to make the effort. At first the main character seemed to reflect my feelings of reluctance, and didn’t appear at all certain that he wanted to embark on the adventure either! But as his spiritual awareness evolved, as he began to understand his deeper purpose, I felt myself becoming more and more absorbed in the film. I wanted to be part of the story. Suddenly I realised that this fictional spiritual journey had become a very real part of my own journey!

Thinking about it, somehow Cygnus has become part of your journey.

I get all sorts of cool stuff in my email. Gave Kathy my Celestine Book to read last week, that's the next movie she has for us to watch, too. Then she tells me how Mike wrote the Forward or something. Oh yea of course, he told me about that too. So I videotaped his last workshop to make him a DVD then remembered the Mayan Festival for James Tyman and Camp with Neale so now I invited Alberto to visit and do the same thing while he's in town.

I still need to write him a more personal and direct note ... of course look at all I got these last few days:

From: newsletter@prophetsconference.com
Sent: Thursday, May 03, 2007 6:03 AM
To: The Prophets Conference Newsletter
Subject: Orbs: Messengers from the Future by Alberto Villoldo, Ph.D.

Our mission is nothing less than changing individual and planetary
destiny. We invite you to join us. www.greatmystery.org

To enjoy this newsletter in color with photos, please click here
http://www.greatmystery.org/newsletters/orbs_albertovilloldo.html

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Alberto Villoldo wrote:
Date: Tue, 1 May 2007 19:43:59 -0400 (EDT)
From: Alberto Villoldo
Subject: The best thing you can do for yourself today!

Dear Students and Friends of The Four Winds,

Today, May 1st, 2007, I'm coming to your home and bringing a large number of the greatest masters of our time with me.

That's right!
Along with me, you will find Neale Donald Walsch, Deepak Chopra, Dr. Wayne Dyer, Marianne Williamson, Gregg Braden, Debbie Ford, James Twyman, Louise Hay, Bob Proctor and many others.

Our intention is to share with you the wisdom of our most profound teachings and for you to advance in your own future growth by investing in the amazing new book Your Destiny Switch by Peggy McColl.

Neale Donald Walsch wrote the Foreword for this book and in it he said:
"This may be the most important book you have ever read. I'm grateful to Peggy McColl for having written it."
http://promos.hayhouse.com/promos/mccoll/050107email/

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Date: Tue, 01 May 2007 07:16:23 -0700
From: "Neale Donald Walsch"
Subject: Two New Amazing Offers from Neale.

Dear Friends,

Offer 1- Today, May 1st, 2007, I’m coming to your home and bringing a large number of the greatest masters of our time with me.

http://promos.hayhouse.com/promos/mccoll/050107email/

Offer 2 -SCC Debut of Illusion, starring Kirk Douglas

"What if I could do my life over again?"

This is the tantalizing question at the heart of ILLUSION, a new film making its debut with The Spiritual Cinema Circle. This award-winning movie, starring legendary actor Kirk Douglas, tells the story of a once powerful but now ailing film director, Donald Baines. After a lifetime of rejecting his only son, Baines is "awakened" one night by the ghost of a dear, departed friend, who shows Baines mini-movies (Akashic records) of his illegitimate son's life. On his deathbed, Baines is given the gift of redemption... along with an opportunity to help his son realize that the only person who could change his life was the father he never knew.
please visit http://www.spiritualcinemacircle.com/?af=22

The Spiritual Cinema Circle is America's fastest growing DVD club specializing in uplifting, inspirational films that stir the soul, expand the mind and help you feel better about being human.

I also got another invite to Neale's Black Mountain retreat. Last time I called Will and asked for a student scholarship again. I'm sure they want to see the power we had the first time, but without the scholarship I wont go through that again. . . lol. . . Course I offered to tape it too, lol. . .

The Association for Transpersonal Psychology and the Association for Humanistic Psychology are co-sponsoring a day of workshops and a celebration of the reconnection of these two sister organizations. The day will begin with 5 concurrent Integrative workshops on:

• Applied Ecopsychology: Ingenious Solutions from Nature
• Spiritually Oriented Psychotherapy for Spiritual Crises
• Mindfulness: The Heart of the Matter
• Integral Psychotherapy
• Critical Psychology: Engaged Theory and Practice

And will conclude with an integrative panel discussion by the presenters.

For more information, see the main event web page:
http://www.atpweb. org/conference/ preAPA/eventMain .asp?event= 104

I am Disciple of Earth

What Disciplehood
The many teachers of Junnaid

No situation is without a lesson, no situation at all. All situations are pregnant, but you have to discover; it may not be available on the surface. You have to be watchful, you have to look at all the aspects of the situation.

One of the great Sufi Masters, Junnaid, was asked when he was dying... his chief disciple came close to him and asked, "Master, you are leaving us. One question has always been in our minds but we could never gather courage enough to ask you. Who was your Master? This has been a great curiosity among your disciples because we have never heard you talk about your Master."

Junnaid opened his eyes and said, "It will be very difficult for me to answer because I have learned from almost everybody. The whole existence has been my Master. I have learned from every event that has happened in my life. And I am grateful to all that has happened, because out of all that learning I have arrived."

Junnaid said, "Just to satisfy your curiosity I will give you three instances. One: I was very thirsty and I was going towards the river carrying my begging bowl, the only possession I had. When I reached the river a dog rushed, jumped into the river, started drinking.

"I watched for a moment and threw away my begging bowl--because it is useless. A dog can do without it. I also jumped into the river, drank as much water as I wanted. My whole body was cool because I had jumped into the river. I sat in the river for a few moments, thanked the dog, touched his feet with deep reverence because he had taught me a lesson.

"I had dropped everything, all possessions, but there was a certain clinging to my begging bowl. It was a beautiful bowl, very beautifully carved, and I was always aware that somebody might steal it. Even in the night I used to put it under my head as a pillow so nobody could snatch it away. That was my last clinging--the dog helped. It was so clear: if a dog can manage without a begging bowl... I am a man, why can't I manage? That dog was one of my Masters.

"Secondly," he said, "I lost my way in a forest and by the time I reached the nearest village that I could find, it was midnight. Everybody was fast asleep. I wandered all over the town to see if I could find somebody awake to give me shelter for the night, until finally I found one man. I asked him, 'It seems only two persons are awake in the town, you and I. Can you give me shelter for the night?'

"The man said, 'I can see from your gown that you are a Sufi monk....'"

The word Sufi comes from suf; suf means wool, a woolen garment. The Sufis have used the woolen garment for centuries; hence they are called Sufis because of their garment. The man said, "I can see you are a Sufi and I feel a little embarrassed to take you to my home. I am perfectly willing, but I must tell you who I am. I am a thief--would you like to be a guest of a thief?"

For a moment Junnaid hesitated. The thief said, "Look, it is better I told you. You seem hesitant. The thief is willing but the mystic seems to be hesitant to enter into the house of a thief, as if the mystic is weaker than the thief. In fact, I should be afraid of you--you may change me, you may transform my whole life! Inviting you means danger, but I am not afraid. You are welcome. Come to my home. Eat, drink, go to sleep, and stay as long as you want, because I live alone and my earning is enough. I can manage for two persons. And it will be really beautiful to chit-chat with you of great things. But you seem to be hesitant."

And Junnaid became aware that it was true. He asked to be forgiven. He touched the feet of the thief and he said, "Yes, my rootedness in my own being is yet very weak. You are really a strong man and I would like to come to your home. And I would like to stay a little longer, not only for this night. I want to be stronger myself!"

The thief said, "Come on!" He fed the Sufi, gave him something to drink, helped him to prepare for sleep and he said, "Now I will go. I have to do my own thing. I will come back early in the morning." Early in the morning the thief came back. Junnaid asked, "Have you been successful?"

The thief said, "No, not today, but I will see tomorrow."

And this happened continuously, for thirty days: every night the thief went out, and every morning he came back empty-handed. But he was never sad, never frustrated-- no sign of failure on his face, always happy --and he would say, "It doesn't matter. I tried my best. I could not find anything today again, but tomorrow I will try. And, God willing, it can happen tomorrow if it has not happened today."

After one month Junnaid left, and for years he tried to realize the ultimate, and it was always a failure. But each time he decided to drop the whole project he remembered the thief, his smiling face and his saying "God willing, what has not happened today may happen tomorrow."

Junnaid said, "I remembered the thief as one of my greatest Masters. Without him I would not be what I am.

"And third," he said, "I entered into a small village. A little boy was carrying a lit candle, obviously going to the small temple of the town to put the candle there for the night."

And Junnaid asked, "Can you tell me from where the light comes? You have lighted the candle yourself so you must have seen. What is the source of light?"

The boy laughed and he said, "Wait!" And he blew out the candle in front of Junnaid. And he said, "You have seen the light go. Can you tell me where it has gone? If you can tell me where it has gone I will tell you from where it has come, because it has gone to the same place. It has returned to the source."

And Junnaid said, "I had met great philosophers but nobody had made such a beautiful statement: 'It has gone to its very source.' Everything returns to its source finally. Moreover, the child made me aware of my own ignorance. I was trying to joke with the child, but the joke was on me. He showed me that asking foolish questions--' From where has the light come?'--is not intelligent. It comes from nowhere, from nothingness- -and it goes back to nowhere, to nothingness. "

Junnaid said, "I touched the feet of the child. The child was puzzled. He said, 'Why you are touching my feet?' And I told him, 'You are my Master--you have shown me something. You have given me a great lesson, a great insight.'

"Since that time," Junnaid said, "I have been meditating on nothingness and slowly, slowly I have entered into nothingness. And now the final moment has come when the candle will go out, the light will go out. And I know where I am going--to the same source.

"I remember that child with gratefulness. I can still see him standing before me, blowing out the candle."

Copyright © 2007 Osho International Foundation

I can't believe all this...

What Have you noticed, Eric, how all dreams come with built-in challenges and all challenges come with built-in dreams?

Odd how it just worked out that way, huh?

Tallyho,
The Universe

That's why we call both of them "gifts," Eric, saves massive amounts of paper.
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I'm still catching up

The Empress

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I know... DA OF COURSE!!!
IT IS CHRISTOPHER ALLEN WEAVER'S BIRTHDAY!!!
WOW OF COURSE ALL THE ENERGY IS PILING UP!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITTLE DUDE...
NOT SO LITTLE ANY MORE...LOL..
I Love You Dude...
Please Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ be with him.

PS watched Celestine Prophesy with Kathy & Mom through the Full Moon that came for your b-day, WOW you would have loved it, awesome conversations TOO !!!

Who me?

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 9:22 AM

Today's Outlook for Wednesday May 02, 2007
The intense Scorpio Full Moon at 6:09 am EDT represents a culmination of an emotional cycle. Our feelings are stronger and our dreams are more real. The best application of this Full Moon is to delve into the tough issues, even if we are afraid of what we cannot see lurking in the shadows. The Sun's conjunction to interactive Mercury suggests that communication is crucial to transforming our fear into acceptance by choosing awareness over denial.

I finished the book. Really cool. Then I realized how I've written a book here online these last four years in college, learning all kinds of cool things I could do. . . So Dr. Villoldo at the end of his book listed a few editors at Hay House so I searched for an email and found a 1-800 phone number. Ok, fine, so I called and spoke to one. . . lol. . . then wrote her . . . yes of course the American Machine of greed and control only allows writers through "Agents" and lawyers . . . everyone has to get their cut, who cares about helping, teaching or leading people from their lost confusion as only food to the machine. . .

Wow did that sound really callous and arrogant, of course people care, why else would they be publishing these types of books . . .

What else did you feel?

I wanted to write Dr Villoldo about helping me with my research. Of course realizing all this is about the American Machine that is the nasty dragon I'm here to slay. . . not as much fun as flying them to slay other places. . . lol . . . but I guess we all have our cross to bare.

What are you feeling though?

I ache still. . . lol . . . yea I know, your asking about more than broken bones . . . lol . . . well of course I see my work cut out for me, and see my place as clear as ever. I know I've made this place and task myself, as well as I know I've made the solutions at my finger tips as well. . . . lol . . . . I guess somethings never change . .~10am

Oh but "feeling," I feel good and wow. . . . i mean really wow!!! it's 1:37am now . . . Kathy knocked at my door bringing me lunch just then ... and she now left after we chanted and flew all over doing all sorts of crazy stuff all day!!!!

What did you do now?

I read over the last three screens of blog by hitting the older button at the bottom. . .

What time is it now?

Holy shit 3.09am . . . wow! I already chanted with Kathy too, really powerful with the full moon. . . tons came out as we were chatting all day, dr's office again, dinner, movie . . . . WOW what a trip to read this other world here in the blog after the bizarre day with Kathy. . . we are really going on a wild ride now . . . hope everything wont collapse with all this focus here!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

burning bridges

1:19 PM Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What now?

I'm reading the next chapter, ho hum. . . Ahh so now I see why I need to read this book. Now I'm reading about the "Seer" and creating our new dreams/lives instead of reliving the past. Of course all Dr Ryce's work was about releasing and forgiving the past . . . which was more like "been there done that" for me, but I was present through the experience and went along inspiring others to do the work . . .(Keith, it's great to read this blog each day, but please hit the link and DO IT) . . . However, like You always say...

"I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven."

Specifically quoted in the book as well, page 135. Now I see and realize all my own arrogant cynicism . . . . wow, toward everything and everyone (sorry Keith!) I mean even this simple posting and book . . . the "ho hum" attitude about "been there done that" towards everything. . . shit that's freaky to see. . . They even have that phrase in quotes in the book too (same page 135). I'm all arrogant about Creations and Dreams and God's and everything. . . Like so what "about whatever/whoever" loss since I can always do better . . . Even the faster clearer connection to YOU! I miss the bliss in the moment of making it right now, because of "so & so or whatever" and I'm moving on in ease anyway!

What else?

It's like my own "back-door" to everything. No need to work and make it right now, since I can Dream again tomorrow and make it better than ever. . . . wow, that's weird. The last section I read before this spoke about "burning bridges"(page 118) so we don't have a back-door or something else to divert our energies to. Knowing you have an escape or another way makes it easier to only be half-way in the moment. . . .

Hum, is that what I need? Am I only half-way in the moment instead of strong and solid making it all NOW!!!

What do you think?

I always thought trusting NOW in the moment and letting "Your Will Be" done through me was always the best thing for everyone.

Yes it can be, and allow this energy to flow through you is very powerful for everyone. However, what this is all about is Heaven on Earth. Your own personal desires and aspirations are as critical as everything else. You easily flowed in bliss with Lyn while not with Pam or others needing the same power and direction. You make these personal choices that effect everything else very strongly. Heaven on Earth is a choice and how you act and feel about every little detail is important and affects everything.

Burning bridges isn't necessary, but getting really strong and specific about things is. If you choose something then stay there, stay strong and make it. You've always been on the edge and in power, so recognize it wont always flow so easily. But also make the choices clear and not just accepting whatever comes along. Your power and purpose are too strong and too important for that.

I know but what about God's Will?

What you need to see in this is that Your Will becomes God's Will as you grow in truth and clarity. The distinction between these dissolves as Your Purpose and Mission gets clear and strong in your heart. Trusting God is about the details! You need to do what you do, nothing more or less

I know, I better finish reading this book . . . .

2:21pm "living consequently, you're fully conscious of the impact of each thought, intention, and action you have, and you take care to make them all positive" (page 143) Thought I did this all the time, except when I read the last phrase in this section: smugly say "Drop your story already and get over it!"

I seem to say that all the time too. I always seem to know better, and whenever someone stumbles or ignores me I just move on, "smugly" thinking or saying "grow up," or even feeling "you fool, find me again after you've suffered enough and ready for me". . . . I guess the point here is how arrogant I get about it. Whenever someone thinks they know better . . . . I rather move on than debate their foolishness or fight in trying to help. That's not very friendly, helpful or anything. People lose all the time, and learn or lose again. My being strong and stable can only enhance their learning. . . . even if I feel like the floor mat until they do learn. . .

Does this mean I need to be the conscious floor mat for everyone?

What you feel about others is fine, but how you react is not. If others lose, suffer and so forth, through whatever actions, whether you warn them or not; it is still their own learning that you need to respect and honor. . . You are only here in now once, this moment, and for many they will only encounter you once. Whether they learn or lose is their choice; but your choice should always be in love and respect . . . "the smug ho hum" is not proper.

Being like a child, asking and offering is a lot more effective than being the know-it-all with all the answers. Listening and accepting that others need to lose, or to learn is more respected than solving everything. You've been effective at getting others to claim ideas, once they own an initiative they will fight for it. You are more effective at setting the seeds than at harvesting.

Is that inviting my discouragement and "ho hum?" where I inspire and encourage others to harvest greatness while I sit on the sidelines holding an empty bag?

Those who have achieved with your help and insight will always honor you. Each one you teach knows in their heart who planted the seeds. Each child you love carries that candle, that light and seed for lifetimes. You know they will all come back, if not to thank you, at least to leave something in your bag.

What you have always done as the rebel is push others, broken walls and barriers. Nothing has ever stopped you. . . except you. Complacency in your "ho hum" . . . allowing things to just BE, while inspired to marvels is your weakness. You do create constantly, and worlds change over night in your dreams. . . . simply because you know this is true. You can also know and marvel as a child at how your next project, dream or adventure will unravel . . . don't wait for circumstances to dictate it for you. Take your ho-hum in peace and comfort and dream it into the Bliss of a lifetime. Not the fun event helping another stranger, but really dream the love and commitment you want in family -- community - - nature - - EARTH!

I'm slow to claim another vision of peace and love. I've built so much and seen too much all around me. I hate seeing those I love and care for getting lost or suffering....

Be like a child. What you feel or see in their choices is their own, not yours. You can always find more peace and freedom, dream the full bounty.

I don't get this, playing like a child and letting friends lose or gain is not standing my ground and fighting for what I want since there is no way out.

What others do is not your concern. You can love the next Goddess as well as the last, and you could love them both equally and not bother with any personal squabbles they might indulge in. However, your power and desire to love and create is real and valid whether one or all see it or not. And if none see it that does not mean you are wrong or lost, it only means that you need to get clear and strong about the dream and intention. Make it what you really want, NO FEAR SON

Stop and look at what you did with Lyn, you were ready to drop everything to go to AZ. What kind of dedication and commitment is that? Sure do anything, create anywhere, but get real Son, how much of the world has shifted for you here and now. You've worked years making this ready for you Now. Sure nothing can stop you, but if you get up and leave, nothing will happen here!

There are two separate things you need to explore here. Your own dreams, power and vision creating a Heaven here on Earth.... and also your interaction and responsibility to other people who stumble across your path. You need to honor and respect them both, but also recognize that they are separate for a reason. No one can finish who you are. Others can add to it and love you. . . BUT ONLY IF YOU STAY who you are independently of them.

I got it now I guess. Just because someone stumbles across my path does not mean I should be walking another path or changing anything I am. While I can help and lead, I also must continue on my own path.

9pm This is really clear in the next section of this book too. It is all about integrity. If this is who I am that's all there is to it. I can express this very clearly and I can stay there, or I always need to stay there.

Yes this all comes back to The Word. If you say something, do something Be someone, this is wonderful and holy. This takes people eons over many lifetimes to get so clear. Once you've made that statement you need to stay there. It's perfect as it is. Do not change or compromise anything about who you are.

Negotiate and compromise the details but stay rock-solid on the truth . . . on The Word that you have set into motion.

I get it
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank you!
Please BE with us all through this coming change and growth beginning now! Amen!