10:21:22 AM

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Wow… I blogged about the crazy weird stuff in the stars that keeps hitting me this month and it didn’t surprise me at all.

Of course I’ve been wanting and thinking of Lyn more than ever. I saw her friend in church again. But this time she had her son with her. He spoke to me a few times, sitting by Laura’s fire of course. He went to lunch with Lyn when we all met. Soon I asked her about Lyn… “gone for the weekend” again of course. I like to think she’s clearing issues to get back with me. But I also know I need to let her go. . . .

Thank You Loving Lord Jesus Christ! Amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 09:33:33 -0500

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What now?

I know what it is... all the Planets smash into me through this time of year.. It's likely always been this way.. lol... wow I want to get a review of my star chart and all. . . just curious of course but I wont I'm sure...

Nov 02, 2006Transiting Mars Opposed Natal Mars
Oct 30, 2006Transiting Venus Opposed Natal Jupiter
Oct 29, 2006Transiting Mars Trine NatalSaturn
Oct 29, 2006Transiting Mars Trine Natal Venus
Oct 29, 2006Transiting Venus Opposed Natal Mars
Oct 27, 2006Transiting Venus Trine Natal Venus
Oct 27, 2006Transiting Venus Trine Natal Saturn
Oct 27, 2006Transiting Mars Opposed Natal Mercury
Oct 26, 2006Transiting Venus Opposed Natal Mercury

9:45 AM I read about the transits and oppositions and Trines all the time, and just sorta laugh, but wonder how they all tie together... lol... Oh and than I get this too:

12.24am
Oh new month aint it. But October aint done yet . . . lol . . . I need to say about what happened today - - can't sleep - - so I'll do it up now. . . .

I got up this morning and read all this above knowing the ladies were coming over for dinner. It was my turn to cook. I wanted to cleanup and planned everything. So as I was writing this above . . . I ran around cleaning things up. You know get all hyper excited about guests and wanting everything just perfect.

I finally sent that message with all the graphics set and such. I cut all the grass last week so needed to pick up Bears land-mines. Not sure if we could have a fire outside tonight or not. Course I'm feeling the same Love with my kids who were always my favorite guests. Dreaming of the Halloween camp outs again as I goofed around outside. It's always cool to share with friends! Totally filled with love and light enjoying the moment!

Then I came inside again to forwarded the blog posting to all of the ladies with my chart. . . 1/16 in CA. . . ."HEY SEE YOU ALL AT 6.30, dinner served at 7pm" lol. . . ;-)

And then thought how the ladies all wanted to do work groups too. We each get a super meal once a week already, That's great! So we all have houses too, maybe we could help each other with chores. We talked about sharing work hours already and planned to do stuff. SO I thought to call someone RIGHT NOW. . . and reached for my cell phone on the desk to see she had called me already. Must have missed it on the run outside. SO I invited her to just come and help. But She was calling to say she couldn't make it and another one called later all sick too. . .

SICK?!?! FORGET it, we need to play with the dogs outside and have a super dinner.

Ok, all our dogs together, that's a super idea . . .

I gotta shop and clean, and cook. . . maybe you can come early and help out . . . watch all the dogs goof around . . . ok cool, let's just do it. . . .

SO I said about what I posted this morning . . . 1/16 in CA. . . . Oh she says; that's MY MOM's BIRTHDAY TOO!!! MAY 16th, never forget your B-Day!

WOW, WHAT? Me. mine?

LIKE Super energy and power in all this too. WOW I knew I had to chant!!! Hope everyone can come . . . . so let's go to Wild Oats now and Drop off my bikes to be tuned up . . . and we bring her two shepards up to visit with Bear. Even brought some dog food for them. I told her to drop the bag in the closet with Bears grub and she noticed the WHITE TUX! Pulls it out to ask me about it. . . .

WHAT?
Not enough energy yet?

Guess I wore that on Halloween last time . . . lol . . . every Halloween; every time!!! Shit, better not be a full moon tonight too . . . we'll pump up so much energy all the computers and tranformers in the state will blow out!!! LOL!!!

WOW, I hope everyone can come, let's invite John and Kathy . . . and Beth . . . and Michelle. . . lol . . ;-) Help I need to have everyone help me carry all this energy up . . .



But anyways, I even noticed while I was driving, the vibration was pulsing through my feet. . . . Yes dinner was perfect . . . the dogs totally love each other (literally, Bear had an orgie with two female shedhards, beautiful dogs . . . think he only got into one thou??? ) Everyone ate a lot, and the Chant . . . . I need to explain it more . . . Or frame it correctly? Lots of power! But need to get a better iintro for people. . . lol . . .

I was full of visions of the whole city working. WOW. . . like Rowan saw the gardens full of kids and everyone helping, loving, lighting. . . today it was like everyone moving, sharing teaching. . . A lot more dynamic, growth and change. Really neato powerful feelings. The whole place was full, and people moving along the rivers and all around town . . . And the Light was so Clear. I can feel the sun shine across the fields. . .

Lots of puppies too, but I thought Bear was neutered? Oh yea, he's got no nuts. The Humane Society did that for the first visit to the vet after I got him. You know, the Mailman delivered the Big Bear dog and then he got all fixed up at the vet. . . lol. . . poor guy got fixed!

Wow everything comes together when it's ready. . . Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus . . . I hope I shared all that I could For You, and I'm sure we will all learn and grow Tremendously this year . . . Thanks for filling me up with so much Love to share. . . Let Your Will Be Done, for the Glories of Father, Son and Holy Ghost, Amen.

Imagine what it would be like

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Imagine what it would be like to read the story of your life before it actually happened ...
You'd know how to make the most out of the opportunities life gives you ... how to avoid negative influences that distract you from achieving your true life purpose ... and which path to take in order to have the happiest, most fulfilling life that is available to you.

horoscope for Monday, October 30:
Acknowledge how far you've come. It's not easy to grow up, especially when it comes to one's perceptions of love, but that's exactly what you're doing. Stand back and take a gander at the big picture. Looks good, yes?

Monday, October 30, 2006 Eric,
There's no hiding your feelings with a Full Moon in your sign this weekend. Instead of suppressing them, Taurus, try expressing yourself more openly. You might run off a person who can't handle your honesty, but what good is a relationship without truth?

Monday October 30, 2006
Yesterday | TODAY | Tomorrow

The Moon is in idealistic Aquarius today, helping us to move through the intense feelings and power struggles that we may have recently experienced. As Mercury the Communicator aligns with expansive Jupiter, we are more concerned with the larger community and are willing to set aside our personal needs for the common good. What we believe now is likely to materialize, so it is quite important to focus our powerful intent on a positive outcome.

What does this feel like?

I guess it's nothing new. Last time you asked about my old Journal readings which described the same situation I am in now. Of course I knew that was all about the "nightmare" that I've had as long as I can remember. I didn't want to say that or talk about it. But in came up yesterday anyway. Figures...

What did you do yesterday?

I got to Harmony by 9am and set up the camera and the wireless mic for DJ. She used it and liked it too. Oh and I sat her down to see the DVD that Dave made with me. She was crying through it . . . but was basically thrilled by the work we did.

What did you do all day?

I then helped Laura selling food all day. She did really well I guess and was happy with it all. Pam and Karen helped out a bit too. Beth even dropped in for a few minutes. I was busy running around most of the day. Sam from USF even dropped in. He saw the signs for the fair and wanted to check it out. He saw me as he walked in. DJ then sent him to me later. We chatted a while and have seen each other on campus yearly since the ARCE show that he helped with. He's a Dean in Student Affairs now. Wow! Seemed like we had a lot to talk about and might be talking a lot more. Chet was there too, he took Dave and I out to lunch last week.

What have you skipped?

I know this all started with the Purpose of life in the Big Picture and being honest about who I am and what I need to do. We talked about that yesterday alot. Sharing deep personal insights and ideas about where we were and where we wanted to be. It's funny for me falling back into the stories about who I am. Wow, I really never tell anyone anything. And even when I am asked directly I avoid the details or getting too personal, often even deferring to webpages that I wrote up . . . lol... what a wimp!

Course somethings I can barely even say, let alone talk about. So at least it's written down for those who are ready to really learn and know more. Course the last time I shared all that; we got into Tantra and all excited. Yea, I got all hard and horny and was careful not to be too aggressive . . . lol . . . I mean, not pressing too much against her up close in a hug. I wonder now if I had, would things be different now?

What do you care? If you honor who you are and avoid being too sexual, then the seduction you avoid would keep you out of trouble anyway. You know how easily you get lost there. And learning and remembering your place and purpose in all this will make everything better for everyone!

I thought that was the whole point about this . . . Yesterday we spoke about the "nightmares" and how they always come up with me. It's nothing new I guess, and I just need to get real about it and let it flow better.

What you allow to flow and grow is wonderful. You are clear and strong there, but losing touch and getting lost into things really hurts more than it helps. . . Regardless if you wonder and feel that things would happen faster. Faster isn't always better.

I know, Like DJ said . . . Twice yesterday. . . In the video and in her sermon. How to ask for "Spiritual Development" is really asking for trouble. Course that's all that I ever ask for. I mean I get more along those lines than anyone could believe or . . . lol . . . or understand.

That is what you asked for, getting conclusions is making this development move faster than ever. And that might mean a lot more than you expect. Meaning that things will change and grow faster than ever.

I can't wait. I know what I need to do and I'm doing whatever I can every moment. It's a challenge a lot but I can see how things come together and it's nice to be reminded where I'm going.

What did you just feel now?

I felt that cave again in my Chant. Last night it was really intense again. I popped awake at 3.03 and was out there chanting by 3.30am. And when I felt the cave it was like I blew the top of the mountain off. It was really kinda neato watching this crowd of people holding on all that I could bring up from the Earth. I know I always said how I don't want to see angels and all. But it's still fun to see sometimes.

What else did you learn yesterday?

I guess DJ spoke about a lot of the traditions for Halloween. How the Druids celebrated from Scottland down to France sharing their dreams and enacting visions of their lives and past lives. Connected the dead and the living where men could be women again and women could be men.

What do you feel about this?

I guess it's nothing new for me of ocurse. Then tomorrow is Halloween and I've got the ladies coming here for dinner. So I know it'll be a powerful night, blowing the energy out of everyone. lol. . . I get a little nerveous when I think about things that I do. lol . . . Course I prefer to just do things and enver think about them at all.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please Dear Jesus Christ Fill me with Your Word and Your Actions so I may Bring Glory to Father Son and Holy Ghost, Amen!

Hackers movie

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's up?

I love October. It finally starts getting cooler outside, so we can go out and build a camp fire. They had the first of the year tonight at Harmony. Laura started it with her BBQ. It was really cool how she setup a lot of stuff there. Friends and family all hanging out together. I need to do that here next week too.

Everything feels really good again for me now. Oh, I've been running and movin in hyper drive today again. I need to do this more. Like I never rode my bike into school last week. . . ;-( . . . Just not connected to what I needed . . . kinda dizzy trying to keep up . . . Oh and I know I needed to connect with You now. So what do I need to write about?

What else did you do today?

I really had some wild dreams again. But only wrote one about Emily on the 26th. Last night was some giant storm and so I was buzzzing all night, until I Watched Hackers; and slept only a few hours. I met with the IBA team at the GAB lounge from 10-3pm this morning. Then went to Harmony to get lunch from Laura. It was really cool helping her clean up stuff and all. She's really a good cook and has done this for years. I like helping out people when I learn stuff. The same thing's been happening with Dave. We reset all his editing equipment for HDTV and then made a DVD for Rev DJ. Meet 1-2 a week since we met, so it's been quite a bit.

What do you feel now?

I'm wondering about You I guess. I know there is a lot going on again and then I see how much I've posted lately. I'm writing alot again, so I know it's the calm before the storm again. I can feel there is more coming through quick.

What did you read about with Virginia and Doc.

It was the same things I heard in the group. How I need to express more of who I am. I remember saying how I would only be emotional when I was around someone, reflecting their own light. Wow, it's funny thinking now how I watch and wait for anything cool to do, share, feel; wanting someone to react with. I remember last I was at Pam's chirping to the squirrels while all the ladies chatted; it was like two different worlds. The squirrel was looking right at me, she knew who I was, seen me before . . . lol. . .

What did you want to do?

Oh, I thought to get out my "free Yoga" signs for a few classes there at Harmony. See what kinda crowds I bring in there . . . lol . . . maybe just do the sounds and some deep breathing moving through the chant. It was really wild when I thought of that. How easy it would be to tell people to breath and move just to do that. All the energy would be just fine, no more details are necessary.

Why not do that tomorrow?

I can bring my books and . . . nope, I can't do that, need to bring this laptop. Oh I could watch DJ's DVD too. Maybe even copy it?? No not here, need to use the desk top pc for that. Course I look at the clock and it's 11.01pm. Think we're supposed to put the clocks back again, and I did already there so it's too late to be up still. But I'm sure I'll be chanting again soon.

What did you do last night ?

I snoozed in the afternoon reading my new Monday Night class - Assessing Sustainable Enterprises - book . . . so I chanted early, 8-9pm. Then went to crash, but was up all night until after the Hackers Movie 2am. On and off sleepin with Emily's dream again. . . oh yea?

What do you feel now?

I always feel the changes. I know she's growing and Chris is ok too. He's not locked up as much as he used to be. I've been wondering about them alot. Halloween was always our camp out BBQ party . . . feels like it was yesterday and I feel this big smile. ;-) And last night chanting I lit a candle and saw Chris's kayak again there on the alter. . . like that was such a cool thing to share with him too.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
Please fill us with Your Strength, Words and Actions to Fulfill Love for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghosts. Amen. Thanks for Your Light!

for Friday October 27, 2006

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Outlook forFriday October 27, 2006 Yesterday TODAY Tomorrow The Moon in determined Capricorn, the Mountain Goat, is so sure-footed that it never stumbles, even on the edge of a steep precipice. We are more conservative emotionally and are keenly aware of our ambitions. Integrity, combined with an appreciation for the consequences of our actions, is our ticket to success. Adding a bit of sweetness to the day, Venus forms a creative conjunction with the Sun. Romance can happen if we believe that it's possible.

Figures... I need to stop doing this . . . lol . . . I never get readings because I know too much already and feel like people will find and tell me more about me that I don't need to be reminded about . . . . lol . . . Funny I've known DJ since 2003 and she's never read anything for me. Rima gave me a deck of cards once . . . or took them after I found them, shuffled and played with them for a while . . . and started flipping the cards. Eeeek, I stopped her after about 3 or so that she very briefly commented on. Course last week Laura wanted me to pick an Animal Card from her deck. Which took me a while but I finally picked on: Dragon Fly = king of the shape shifters . . . lol . . . figures, I need to get busy and leave all this stuff alone. I just don't have time for it anymore . . . lol . . .

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

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Today's Outlook forThursday October 26, 2006 Yesterday TODAY Tomorrow
We are still playing off yesterday's energies as we try to tie up any emotional loose ends. But a slow-moving square between expansive Jupiter and pessimistic Saturn finally completes a cycle that began late last year. Since then we have been struggling to balance optimism and realism, and now we must face one last test before we move on in our new direction. The adventurous Sagittarius Moon intensifies our feelings as it conjuncts dark Pluto midday.

Hum, Sag' and Pluto today... lol... Had a Sag' night too. Ending her cycle, ready to get back into Balance. That certainly feels right to me

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Wednesday, October 25

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What's up?

I really have no clue. I can feel that I never wrote something that I needed to write or that I still need to write. It's funny how that feels when I know something is incomplete somewhere. Like something is hanging. Course I first think about all the people I know and speak to or need to speak to . . . and wonder if I left someone hanging, or forgot something?

Hum then someone called this morning and talked about Prozac or the anti-depressants that they prescribe for everyone these days. He said that it like blocks seritonum to the brain and never starts up again. Course the drugs are addictive and designed to replace normal people processes, so he tells me he can't feel anything anymore. No love, no nothing. Course then teases me about being to opposite and feeling everything with my seritonum on hyper-active.

So I immediately thought I needed to Chant and for him and get all his energy back into the Earth and reconnect everything that should be there already. Then I'm really not sure if that's realistic . . . I mean of course I know everyone I've Chanted for floats away... or recognizes that everything is busted loose and clear.

At least that's what happens on the first time. The second or third time usually results in connection to angels and visions and all sorts of other things. . . lol . . .

Hum, I guess I see what I do, and know my place with all of this. Maybe that's why I want to teach it so much, since I know I can't be doing this for everyone.

What? You will!

If you say so, I guess that will be on video, and not this weekend or anything. Hum, I feel like I do that already because I can feel everyone who ever has seen it there with me, and still feel the cave and the fire in the middle heating everyone up. Course I know everyone is connected to that Cave somehow, like that was our first tribe here on Earth or something . . . eeek that feels kinda freaky.

Why that was really beautiful. So many people can feel that. It's really easy for people to recognize their connections to things like this. Course most people hide from it. What else are you feeling?

I'm in school now, and I feel everyone who walks by my office and feel so much that it's kinda freaky.

What's wrong with that?

I was thinking about that when my truck was acting up. I could feel it just wanted my attention. And then as I drove I wondered how much else I could feel. So I looked around and felt every person I could find. Each one had a different energy about them, a different problem pressing or something strong they were carrying. I hate doing that, I always feel like I'm invading their privacy and really don't want to know what they are feeling or anything.

What did you feel now?

I just remembered going down to Ybor City to dance and feeling all the people all around there. I've not done that in years it seems, and I've heard Ybor is struggling again. Too many problems, not enough people, something I really don't know about or pay any attention too. Maybe I need to visit that place again . . . yea, take Laura, Pam and Karen with me. Wow would that be a trip!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

creative tampabay

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Today's Outlook for Tuesday October 24, 2006 Yesterday TODAY Tomorrow
Life is more intense as impulsive Mars entered mysterious Scorpio yesterday along with the Sun, and today sensual Venus joins the emotional dance. This signifies a shift of power from the obvious realms of diplomacy and negotiation (Libra) into the deeper and more hidden world of Scorpio. Until 2:52 pm EDT, when the Moon enters adventurous Sagittarius, we have a powerhouse of six planets in Scorpio, emphasizing our covert actions and secret alliances.

I got more too...

Eric's Personal Card:
The Sun
This Deck: Gummy Bear Tarot
General Meaning: What has traditionally been known as the Sun card is about the self -- who you are and how you cultivate your personality and character. The earth revolves around the sun to make up one year of a person's life, a fact we celebrate on our birthday. The Sun card could also be titled "Back to Eden." The Sun's radiance is where one's original nature or unconditioned Being can be encountered in health and safety. The limitations of time and space are stripped away; the soul is refreshed and temporarily protected from the chaos outside the garden walls. Under the light of the Sun, Life reclaims its primordial goodness, truth and beauty. If one person is shown on this card, it is usually signifying a human incarnation of the Divine. When two humans are shown, the image is portraying a resolution of the tension between opposites at all levels. It's as if this card is saying "You can do no wrong -- it's all to the good!"

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Independence Day

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What happened now?

I read more of the 1987 Journal, basically the month of May. . . and I realized that things will keep happening to me until I get them right. Like Kathy wrote in an email to me today. And it is exactly like the July 4th thingy that I did.

I can really be "in Love" any time I want to, and I really don't need to wait for someone to show up; because it's my love and my choice. I can love every moment and love everyone anytime that I want to. Expecting some Angel or Princess to make things complete or something is just a big joke, it's giving away my power. Course I've always known this but still I let people do this to me anyway . . . I get so lost into someone that I forget everything else . . .

What did you read about?

I read about getting lost in another lady and letting it twist me all up. Course at the same time I was struggling to define myself and find out what I needed to do or wanted to do. And it really all came down to expressing myself more fully and getting out there instead of hiding in my own cocoon. I wonder if that's what I always do, I'm always hiding in a cocoon instead of really getting out there and doing what I really want to do.

What about expressing yourself?

I know it's always about expressing my own emotions instead of hiding them or holding them. I never tell people "how I feel" . . . I show it and assume that it's obvious. But that never is good enough. I mean, people need to hear it more or I need to come to terms with it better. It's really about who I am and what I do best. Fully expressive and spontaneous is all about what I feel and who I am. If I'm fully in the Spirit of God then I can Love and Share in everything all the time. Sure I usually can find the joy anywhere and smile with love at total chaos . . . . But sharing the words and the truth in my heart is what I need to be doing more. So much of what I do it hidden and behind the scenes . . . and that really is only hurting me!

It hurts a lot more than that Son. You need to remember what you are here for. And if you are ready for it and can make it true and happen this time. Then you need to just DO IT!

I know, I know! But I never realized how much I hold onto. Like this weekend with Pam, Karen and Laura we were all goofing around talking and sharing stuff. They did what they needed and so did I ... I guess what I wanted to say was at the end of the day when everyone was leaving and saying goodnight . . . we all hugged each other. And Karen is about my size so we fit together, or hug a bit closer or whatever . . . lol . . . Course then she says "dam we need to get this guy a lover" . . . It was really cute. I always squeeze them all tight, but I guess I got tight on her neck or something . . . lol . . . smelled or reacted to the yummy woman-ness there or something.

Then she's telling the ladies we need to plan a trip to the dog park or somewhere and get me on the cell phone to give me step by step instructions . . . lol . . . it was really kinda funny, especially with the other ladies agreeing and pushing the idea. Pam has said that before about her crazy whip-it in the dog park down on Davis Island will attract all the attention. It's really funny attracting attention has never been a problem for me, I just never could handle the meaningless chit-chat . . . lol . . . while the truth gets to intense too fast for most everyone!

What do you feel now?

I guess I know it's not everyone. So I wonder about this too. And I realize how close I've gotten to so many really cool awesome things in my life. Funny reading about Virginia today I talked about being 16 and goofing like a little kid. And then I've seen those same teachers recently, who say I've not changed a bit. And I know I haven't . . . I'm still the crazy little kid doing whatever I feel like doing goofing about like with the ladies this weekend . . . lol . . .

What do you really FEEL like doing?

I knew you would do that! I know I can finish everything I want right now, and I know I can't waste my time anymore. I know I can do so many things that most people only dream about. Like Loving every moment. I can feel the trees, and sing with the birds and squirrels. I'm always filled with Love and Joy . . . that's all I see everywhere and there is really nothing there that is new to me. I tease people about how I've never left this Earth. I feel like the original spore that popped into this place and remember countless ships raiding these shores and all the rest. Always the rebel, always pushing the limits. Nothing new!!!

So again it's about ME, and what I WANT!!! And how I WANT to express it all. And It's always about love and sharing it fully and clearly all the time . . . . Like this laptop and my truck! I told my truck not to have any more troubles and it stopped .... and I let this laptop work as Long as I want it to. It was so funny the last time it shut off, I knew it would happen, I could have timed it!!! So what do I want to do tomorrow? I want to blow the doors off of a few things. I can't wait anymore. I need to make things what I want! Dam no one else has any clue what's here or what's happening . . . someone has to get things right and moving again as they should!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please fill me with your Word so I may fulfill the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost Amen.

3:41:50 PM

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Hey Lyn, I CAN love you Baby!

Cause you are sexy and smart, and talented and have the same interests and same aspirations as me . . . and You are really..........! I still feel and see your golden hair falling into our kiss, and I see you peaking at me through the strands of gold. And I know we are meant for each other and I think You made up the “ex” stuff so you could avoid something with me. It was just an easy way to deal with me. I think You are crazy. But I understand it. I’m not sure how long I can wait or if I really want to wait any more at all. Course we both know that no one can take our place in anything. So why do I wait and wonder? I’m really not sure. But all the time I see you walking into kiss me at church. Like you finally decide you are ready and you just do it. Why can’t we do that?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

1:56:04 PM

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So I never got a return call from Lyn, but then I thought she would show up in church Sunday again, which is cool or fine, except I’ll want to kiss her and hold her.

What’s wrong with that?

I’m not sure. I was just reading my old journal again, back to 2/1/87 where I was working on my models and getting Keith to do his thing while Chuck and I incorporated a charity around it all. I was even talking about retiring when I graduated still.

What’s the Point?

I know, it was the time that Ginny was seeing Wade again. Or trying to figure it all out. He’s older and working already, while I’m still in school. So she likes the materialism and hanging on his arm for professional stuff so he looks likes a real man. But she’s sexy and intimate with me, and clearly in love with me . . . but wanting this fake life with him?

It really feels funny, like the same deal Lyn is going through. Course Lyn and I have not really been intimate yet, or much more than a long dinner and a few little chats. But we understand each other and are more in tune than anyone could ever be. Funny with Ginny I was reading her mind or something, finishing her sentences before she could say them and doing all kinds of really funky stuff. This feels like the same scenario with Lyn.

But I haven’t seen or heard from her except in my dreams.

What you had with Ginny were a great many dreams too. Except this time you are sharing them with someone who is ready for you.

If she is ready for me then why haven’t we met yet?

What is happening will be clear when it’s time for you to be doing more. You have a lot other things to deal with now. Stop all your fussing and get back to the work you know you need to do.

I know but I need to fall in Love!

That is what happened to you both already. And you will see how strong and clear it can be soon enough. No worries, be happy. And get back to work.

I Love you Lord Jesus Christ. Please fill me with Your Strength Love and Wisdom so I may achieve and succeed at all that you place before me. Please let Our Love grow and develop beyond all dreams for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost. Amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

horoscope for Saturday, October 21:

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horoscope for Saturday, October 21: On the surface, everything is going just swimmingly, but there may be deeper issues at stake. Playing nice is all well and good; just make sure you're not trying to cover up something that needs more maintenance.

Today's Outlook for Saturday October 21, 2006Yesterday TODAY TomorrowThe diplomatic Libra Moon moves into a more harmonious phase today, reminding us of the beauty that can be found in relationships, especially if we are willing to work on them. But we must acknowledge the end of this emotional cycle as the Moon moves toward its monthly conjunction with the Sun early tomorrow morning at 1:13 am EDT. It is not enough to think about our future; this New Moon conjunct Mars requires that we take definitive action.

What's up. . .

I was reading articles in my bedroom for a while and the PC shut off. So I started reading pages from the old Journal again. It was the first four months of 1987. At first I was really preoccupied with Virginia. She was still dating Wade and going along with him so "he could be a man." It was like she played along so she could be the girl on his arm, and enjoy the ski trips and all the other materialistic BS. Like something familiar and comfortable for her. Feels like a doggie on a leash to me now! eeek . . .

I was still the kid in College and . . . lol . . . we shared deeply and had great sex in between her little trips with him. He must have been sterile or incompetent or something. He was her first lover, like high school sweethearts or something. But he was older, really going no where fast and never treated her too well. . . no conscious connections at all.

But he spoiled her, publicly. Took her out and they played the sweet married couple really well. Course I told her she was nothing more than a “wall flower,” a pretty hood ornament that would become useless and get thrown away as she aged. Funny enough she actually agreed with me and started to spend more time with me. Not just for the sex, even though she took me out once for dinner saying some "desert" was planned for later . . . lol . . . Wow, I thought Maryanne was the only one who did that!!!

Oh but we also had the psychic orgasms. Never thought that happened with anyone before either. But what was really weird was that we were together when everything else I was doing all busted loose. I was seeing the Doc and had to meet Newkome and all that crap with RAS, ACRE, USF and all at the same time. Then I found out the Doc was Lesbian . . . I visited her on a psychic adventure one night and found another blonde lady with her already. . .

Who came after me!

That's really weird! Like the picture I drew after my accident, was there looking at me. She popped in a few times after I found her the first time . . . she just really wanted something from me; ssooo I could only RUN!!!! LOL . . .

I never remembered all of these details. . . but now reading it again, I remember and feel them with me all again like it was yesterday.

IT'S REALLY like tomorrow too!

Like I'm on the edge again pushing every limit I can find.
The very same thing that I've done since time began!

7pm I'm cooking fish and veggies now in the visions wear, all clean and organic. Perfectly clear of all man's corruption and pollution. . . retelling what I read today.

What else was happening there that you read?

Uh oh, I in for it now . . . I can feel like things are going to get really powerful here again. I can just feel it. Too many things coming together again.

What else?

It was my last year at college, living at mt parents' home again working on the computer model of the physical plant, had three class projects going, including the construction of the Road Bike & Ring Stage in the shop. Then I was setting up the Expo presentations and getting the Video Crew together to tape it all for me. Scheduling interviews and talking to donors to get it all setup right. Keith and Chuck had it out already so we were incorporating the Charity and starting new student groups, writing budgets. Everything was getting started up really powerful. Keith and Sherry cooking dinner for me and Virginia even . . . lol. . . it was all perfect !!!

BUT I had those psychic encounters a few days before the Cable television folks put the breaks on the deal. We weren't incorporated yet, so I had to visit Newkome and set the contract for us to operate. All he was concerned about was liabilities, saying after we incorporated we would have the state insurance working with the schools . . .

Course then the lesbian stuff with the doc got in the way! Or got out? The Doc pressured me to share more of who I was . . . so I told her about the psychic adventures, describing another blonde Lesbian Lady . . . SHE KNEW it already!!!

7.24pm yum, curry, water chestnuts, carrots, broccoli, tapia . . . I wonder how I learned to cook this one. lol… What do I need to learn from all this?

What does all this stuff make you feel now?

I’m confused? I guess I see how easily I get all pumped up with a lady around. And then I also see how I get lost into her and stumble with everything else I need to be doing. I guess I need to read more since I stopped when I saw how much was piling up together at once!

What do you need to do now?

I want to sleep. But I also know I need to chant. So I guess that’s really what I should be doing now.

What do you want to pray for?

I told you before I need to see some conclusions! It’s time to make things work right.

What can we bring you to help?

I guess it’s really about getting back to community and family, real love between neighbors and people. Course teach by example is all I can feel inside me Dear Jesus, so I can fall in Love tomorrow if You like!!! Thank Your for Your Grace Love and Wisdom. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Lead us to Fulfill the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost! Amen

Oct 22, 2006 Transiting Mars Square Natal Moon DEFENDING YOUR TERRITORY Family matters, or other issues of personal security, fight for your attention now. The tendency may be to react in crisis mode. Slow down and plan your next move, rather than jumping directly into the fire. This is a good time to change your habits or routine. Just don't expect to be perfectly comfortable with it right away. It takes time to get comfortable with new patterns or a new environment. It's okay to move the furniture, just don't strain yourself doing it.

Today's Outlook for Sunday October 22, 2006 Yesterday TODAY Tomorrow
The New Moon enters magnetic Scorpio at 3:53 am EDT, increasing our need for intensity. Emotions are more powerful but aren't necessarily expressed outwardly. The inner pull is offset by a conjunction between mental Mercury and expansive Jupiter, also in passionate Scorpio. Still, a more philosophical perspective moves us beyond self-interest. Optimism can help us initiate positive changes, but we must be careful not to suppress our deeper feelings.

Oct 23, 2006 Transiting Venus Square Natal Moon SUPER-SENSITIVE Laziness and the desire to dream away your afternoons are most on your mind now. Thoughts of family and childhood memories may induce nostalgia, but could also provoke sadness and a sense of loneliness. Rather than dwell in the past, think about positive experiences you've had with someone, and give him or her a call. As dark moods come and go now, you may alienate friends by overreacting to something they've said. Keep your spirits up, and avoid being too sensitive.

7:11:22 PM

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Weird thing happened today. I met with David to help him reset his equipment and move all sorts all around. He took me to lunch and we were chatting about odds and ends. He asked about Lyn. I met him the same day I met her, of course. So I told him she’s been really busy and I’ve not heard much from her at all. Then I told him what Kathy did and said about the whole deal . . . nothing for 3 months or so. He thought that was a little weird too.

But then Kathy called on my cell phone. I mean right then she called. And what do you think she called about? That’s right, she had gotten a message that I needed to call Lyn. She said she was calling her doctor and got this message like pink neon lights “he needs to call her.”

OK that was too weird. Not just the message, but that she called me right after I spoke to David about it all. It was really very weird. After lunch I raced to my house and got on my bike to go to school, then called Kathy again. She invited me over right then, but I had to get to school. She told me more about the “neon lights” and what she felt about the whole deal. It was really weird.

After the groups meeting, I visited my office and soon was on my bike going home. I called Kathy again as I passed her house. She wanted me to call after I called Lyn, but she felt I would only leave a message and might not talk with her for days. I don’t feel that way. I called at 7pm sharp and Lyn was on the phone since it went right to voice mail without ringing at all.

What do you feel?

I’ve been feeling her a lot. I mean, last night was really erotic and powerful again. I felt her lips and body and everything right there with me. I just wanted to stay there with her and hold onto her. It was really kinda nice and I didn’t want it to end. I mean, very vivid and graphic, like seeing aspects of her that I hadn’t seen before, which I especially liked.

What about now?

I thought she would call back within 30 minutes like she did last time. I also felt like she was struggling with something more than normal. Like when I called Kathy the first time, I felt like she had lost her job or something. Kathy told me it was nothing like that, but that it was just time to make sure she was thinking of me still. Sure after last night it’s pretty clear she’s still thinking about me. Which is really cool or course.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

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What up?

You ARE!
I 'm just totally pumped up already. Been in bed over an hour already, trying to sleep. I always want to get some hours in before 3am. I never know if I can get to sleep after the 3am Rituals, so I try to get as much as I can before then.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
Thanks You so MUCH for this Awesome energy Spewing out all over everything! 10.13pm
Please use my Word and Action to Your Glory!
For Father Son and Holy Ghost, Amen!
Chant Time! ! ! Africa?

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Dear Eric,
Are you feeling that a breakthrough is just around the corner, but still out of reach? You need a fresh burst of energy! And now's the perfect time to get it ... while both Mars and the Sun are both stimulated by Pluto, the planet of transformation.
According to master astrologer Jeff Jawer, you can use Pluto's power to transform any aspect of your life. He encourages you to use this time to explore your inner landscape, where you will discover untapped power sources that will inspire you to make changes and expand your horizons. With the Sun lighting your way ... and energetic Mars ready to carry you to the finish line ... success is practically guaranteed!

I guess I've been seeing a lot of this this week. I was totally buzzed out last night. DJ had another meditation in her church and everyone was there like another Sunday. At the very end we did the Ohm-Namo and I just let it rip out. I could feel the vibrations deep into the floor. And I was so totally pumped up. At the end she told everyone to stay and meditate or leave very quietly. Sounds like she heard my prayer.

As soon as it got quiet again I did the Chant to clear out all the energy we had spewed all over the place. I was surprised to see so many people in front of me as I did the Rituals. Course Kim and Lori stayed right infront of me through it all. I tried to get it all out of me and deep into the Earth.

Funny DJ started the night with the pentagram and left it open, so when I was all done I closed it all up again. I was really wired. Pam and Laura were there next to me at first and invited me to dinner later when I saw them outside. Course I had eaten before I got there because I thought The Secret movie was starting right after it all. Cookie was doing the movie with another ministry she started. I offered to help her out, but she had it all together already. So I helped put new cushions into the church and then checked some office PC's for Kathy. . . got bored and left!

I thought I should stay, but got home and asleep early. Only to wake up and Chant at 3am again. . . funny saw 3.03, then 3.06, and 3.09 . . . funny that my spontaneous look at the clock would be 3 minutes apart. Finished at 4.34 too. . . then slept until 6.53am

What else happened?

Oh I guess I had some erotic encounter again, very strong and familiar.

What did you skip?

Oh I guess the whole thing DJ was all about was how the Earth was getting a big push on Intentions. Which was really easy for me to pump up alot, and again in my Chant at 3am. What was really cool was getting very focused and clear about it. I could literally see and feel all the power and clarity we created and it was hungry for a clear physical expression. So the visions grew and flew stronger and clearer than ever. It was really awesome to watch. Like every expression and creation I've ever imagined flashed together like this mystical story book. Like a walk down fantasy lane in the Gardens of Eden . . . all the bliss and joy of people playing and growing and sharing with children and plants and animals everywhere.

What did you feel?

I thought I said that already . . . Bliss and joy. But I guess it was a lot more than that. I could feel everyone. I was totally attached to people, and it was really awesome. Like Heather's Dream I was seriously connected to someone, and we were traveling all over the place teaching and giving seminars. It was some bizarre fantasy, welcome everywhere, felt loved with Family all the time. Helping to build and create some simple easy life. Children around all the time. It felt like some magic school bus where everything was a picnic and fun goofing around.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Monday, October 16, 2006

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Dear Eric, Here is your single's love horoscope for Monday, October 16: If you want it, you can have it. You've just spent some time thinking about what it is you truly want from a relationship, and now it's time to put your wishes out there and let the universe get to work on fulfilling your request.

Here we go again, I know what I really want. Lol, guess falling in Love would be really cool, and a relationship to grow and learn into . . . I guess it's that time of year for me . . . lol. . . Makes me wonder what I'm really in for!!! Cause it's just started, I can tell!

What do you feel?

I guess I'm really tired now. I've not been sleeping enough again. Pumping up too much energy! I always do this! I've got a long list of phone calls to make and a bunch of other stuff to do too. I know it's all going exactly as it needs to and I know I will do whatever I need to do. So it's kinda cool. . . . Course I know who could make it all better. And she knows too. . . wonder if she's ready or will miss it again. Guess I can only do what I do and wait and see. . . ;-)

What do you miss it again? Do you think she's missed you before? Maybe this is the first time for her, maybe it took you this long to get ready, maybe no one else has a clue. . . maybe it's just a timing thing, that comes clear now. or sooner!

I guess that would be cool. I know there are a lot of things coming together. Like this morning someone asked me about the evil out there. How our group is getting clear and conscious together helping and doing more light work all the time. . . certainly there is another group on the opposite getting stronger too.

I just about laughed. I mean, nothing ever gets to me, as far as I am concerned the other group will simply generate enough power to BURN UP! Like there isn't enough power out there to create any concern for me. . . . Funny, I interviewed someone today for my class. He said there are no problems, only challenges. I couldn't agree more. . . and the challenge is always with the self . . . . find the perspective and point of view that works, and suddenly there is no work!

I seem to do that one really well!

What are you working on then?

I always need to find the perspective that suits YOU! It's a challenge to understand what I need to do and where is next. I do fine once that is clear. Getting the clarity is my challenge.

It all comes in time, no worries... lol... I know everything will work out exactly as it must and that just means more fun for me. . . . Most of the time!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

7:59:09 AM

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What now?

Sunday after Church Kathy, Pam, Karen and I had lunch at ABC Pizza and then met up at Pam’s after a little while. I rode my bike over so they were all in the back chatting already. I soon said how the “Blonde thing” happened again. They laughed and teased me of course wondering why I never said hello, gave her my card or anything at all.

The store was actually packed, and I literally had to squeeze by the crowd of people to get in. Course stuck behind the crowd would have made it easier to chat with the blond babe I had followed in. I mean she seemed more angelic than Lyn, with her fine golden hair shinning in the sun flowing so clear and perfect down her back.

I know I was kinda stunned, and we never met eye to eye, so I never connected with her.

The three ladies at Pam’s talked about giving me lessons or something. Soon we decided to go visit my house and then Kathy’s. We got into Karen’s car and I drove us all to my house. Karen and Pam sat in my meditation space so I knew I had to run through a ritual for them. Kathy sat where Chris had sat, in the chair, back left, while Karen and Pam were in front of me on the floor.

I did it kinda quick, not really quick. But it still was really powerful. And I dumped the energy into Pam and Karen, then grabbed a drum. Karen soon laid out more getting her feet right under me, so I started working on them. Then I got Pam’s foot and put them together. It was kinda neat since they sat opposite each other. So I worked their feet together and had them pressing heel to heel. When both there feet were pressed together I told them it would be great to hold hands and rock back and forth. Kathy encouraged them so they did it. Like little kids on the playground. Then I asked Karen to lean back pulling on Pam and I worked on Pam’s back a bit. . . Again Kathy was encouraging talking about the pain breaking up and releasing out.

Kathy couldn’t stand it and wanted to get down on the floor in the middle too. Course I was done by then and Karen started a bit on Kathy’s foot. I encouraged Pam to start on her other foot. The two ladies helped Kathy for a while. I got them all cups of fruit and water and let them all relax for a while. It was really holy and wonderful for all of them. I kinda liked how peaceful and happy they were too.

Soon we were off to Kathy’s house and she gave us all a tour. Chatting, chatting, chatting, out in the garden soon and then inside for left-over pizza. They were all happy to get together and seemed like old friends. We talked about doing a ritual for just Kathy. Karen was surprised how short it was earlier. But I hadn’t done anything with Kathy before, so I needed to start slowly. Kathy wanted to get the “Happy Healers” over to share with us when we do her healing ritual. Nelly and Maria I’ve met and they know a little about what I do.

At least they know of it. They Happy Healers also have 1 or 2 other women with them. I’m not sure, but when I asked Kathy about a ritual for her that’s who she wanted there. No big deal I guess.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

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What now?

I finally got Pam and Kathy together, and we all went to lunch after Church. Karen soon joined us and Laura called too. It was weird sitting listening to all these ladies talk about stuff . . . . so we all planned to do rituals and share more today and meet up at Pam's later. . .

So as I drove off I remembered I was passing Publix and I wanted to get some Ice Cream. I chopped up all this fruit again and needed to get my Breyers all natural vanilla to have with my fruit at night. I parked and walked up to the entrance, taking the cart from someone returning it who was parked next to me. . .

What did you see son... Get to the point!

I know, soon I noticed in front of me a tall pretty lady. Long straight blonde hair glowing in the sun, almost floating down her back, 2" heels, walking just slow enough that I would stop and look. She turned back a few times and then stopped at the first set of shelves inside reading a juice label.

What did you feel?

I Guess I was kinda stunned. She felt so clear and strong, just waiting for me to say something. Course she had sunglasses on so I couldn't see what was real or not. Nor was I sure I wanted to. I grabbed some juicy-juice and went on to get my Ice Cream. Soon I realized I really didn't need any more juice and got two Ice Creams that were on sale. . .

I sorta wanted to go back to look again and see her eyes; but really didn't get a chance too. As I was driving away I remembered what I wrote this morning and thought I must really be crazy! Here if I'm going to ask for something, I need to be open for it popping up in front of me. . . . lol. . . Literally, of course! Seems like I should know by now, results in less than 24 hrs is typical!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

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Dear Eric, Here is your single's love horoscope for Sunday, October 15: Before you can find the relationship of your dreams, you have to be able to identify what it is that you want. So sit down and get silly. Now's the time to brainstorm and create what you want from your ideal mate.

I can't believe how many times I've done this. What do I "want" ... lol...

Beauty, skill, intelligence, honesty, someone as connected with God as I am, so I can learn and grow instead of lead and direct all the time. A Mature sophisticated lady who can hold her own, but recognizes connecting in spirit and love is critical to happiness and real growth. I guess I really want someone educated already, like the professional business background is something that is still foreign to me, and could really help me get things done. It's important that we have similar beliefs and commitments, but also that our skills compliment each other instead of mimic or compete with each other. She needs to be healthy and clear, enjoy the outdoors biking, hiking, camping and all, but also be able to Dance and enjoy the arts very formally and also in shorts and flip-flops. I think she must want children, but then I realize if everything else connected the children would come when they were ready . . . lol. . . they'll find a way to make that happen . . . lol. . . .

What's so silly about that...???

I guess the spontaneous goofy stuff is important too. Having someone who is not afraid of who she is and is ready to NOT take herself so seriously and ready to BLOW-OFF the BS is critical. Most people get so lost in goals and serious stuff that they loose sight of the love and light that makes things happen without any effort at all. I mean we all need to just let things flow sometimes and forget our stupid rationalizations. . . lol . . . I mean people always over-think things and then ruin them. I mean knowing God is there with us helps to let things ride more. And when we let things go and just play in the light everything falls together like magic.

What about your dreams and goals?

I guess making things work with You is really as basic as they get. Sure You've led me to patents and neat cool ideas about a lot of things. But maybe that was only to get them started; like I have, instead of actually doing them all myself. Course finding someone with the same ideals and beliefs might mean that we complete all this together, or it might mean that we find a better way. I guess when it comes to love and the "ideal mate" I know that it's not just something specific, it's the relationship and the experience together that makes it all. The sharing and growth is what really makes things happen . . .

I remember my "goddess only apply" where I was specific about "no more flight training" but with the right person, we could learn to fly together or something else more fun, teleporting. . . lol. . . It's the dynamics of the experience and sharing that make it work . . . Not some arrogant selfish expectations.

Course now I remember the first time you asked me this after my accident and I drew a picture . . . lol. . . Some angel, from another time and place, who would just soak me up, like Heather said once . . . What's funny is that in the picture she was blonde and those who got close to me were all like Pocahontas with long dark hair instead . . . hum, never really dated a blonde lady at all . . . lol. . . maybe just once or twice? I guess everything changes with time!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please let me BE all I can BE to fulfill the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost. Amen.

11:52:06 AM

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What do you feel?

Interesting stuff as usual.

I guess there is just too much to deal with and I’m not getting as much done as I want to.

What do you really feel about her?

I guess she feels kinda distant. Traveling or far away from her senses, lol, maybe just having a Saturday off away from everything.

Hi Lyn,

Hope all is well for you? Felt like you are out of town again Saturday, or simply “out of it” o;-) normally you are clearer / stronger . . . lol Guess you like this little Silver Chord between us! When will we talk about this some more?

Just friends will be easier for now. We all have challenges we need to resolve. No fear, nothing comes to us that we are not ready for, as you know!

Smile and Take Care,

Namaste'

Eric

PS I noticed in church today you are just fine ;-) You missed a good message; she's got a new sound system too!

TODAY IS A GIFT
"Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself:
I 'not events' have the power to make me happy or unhappy today.
I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it." Groucho M

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What do you think?

I'm perplexed with the dichotomy . . . Course I need to stop and look up the word now to be clear about what I writing.

Why is that?

I guess it's all the weird stuff I do and see. Trying to make sense of it all and understand how it all fits together. I guess it's the "fit together" part that messes me up.

What fun could we have if it was always black and white?

Yes, I know it's always things that I make up myself. I pull this all together and make all these things happen. People share and talk with me so I can learn something more about me. Then I meet and find people so we can work together on cool things. Which is the real challenge with everything that I do. I never know who will do what, or where things will fit and where things will fall.

What do you mean by that; you know a lot more than you let on to.

I guess so. But usually this is only because of what You and open to me.

What opens to you is what you do. You pump up energy and you direct this energy. That really has nothing to do with us. Sure we might remind you on occasion to be spontaneous and free about your insights. But this is always your choice and your action that make things move. They are your own insights. Some are ready for it, and watch or help; while others are simply oblivious.

I know, so I simply go along and do whatever it is that I need to do for making things work. I try to be spontaneous, and then I try to inspire others and direct my desire and energy where it feels best.

What you do is very strong. Get clear and it will get easier for you. Nothing can stop you. They might try, but it will all come together as it needs to. You already know this and seem to concern yourself about things that are really meaningless. Remember that you have a strong team on this side. You will always benefit from things as they grow. You've learned never to get down, and you find the positive in everything. Not many people even have that ability. Even Abraham questioned the knife above his son . . . While your own son is out of reach, playing with knives on his own already.

I know my mom is with him.

What Abraham had was all of this world within reach and control. You've given up control and have faith in things beyond the world around you. This give you more strength than you will ever know. Just get clear and specific on how you want these things to come together and get resolved. Don't worry about getting specific. The challenges are very specific too. Allow them all to flow easily.

I know, and I will try. I know there is a lot more that I need to put my power into and I can do these things all at once and never worry about anything at all. Your Love is Flowing through me very easily and I can feel and direct this power with ease and Joy.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Fill me with your Wisdom as I share and grow in Your Light, for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost. Amen

8:09 AM

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What do you feel....

I am feeling Lyn all around me again. Kathy told me to just write her letters, but never send them. Of course Lyn will likely know that I’ve done this anyway.

Dear Lyn,

It’s good to feel you again this morning, while normally you are stronger at night time . . . lol o;-) You’ve obviously decided you liked this little Silver Chord between us, so can we talk about some other options?

The one I like would be to reel in the Silver Chord and wrap us up together in it for a while. But maybe we would like to build it up and strengthen it a bit first. Another hug would do wonders for that. But something as simple as sharing pictures and pleasantries over the phone or email would as well. It’s really more of a conscious spiritual thing we can share that becomes stronger as we go along.

You still haven’t told me your Top 10 reasons for the Naturopathic degree. I know you want to heal and share your gifts, or simply have a passion for people. But the details and specifics about your passions is what I’m really looking for. You have done a lot of work exploring the programs and universities so I would like to understand more about what they will do for you and what you want to do with the degree. Seems like to spend so much for something there should be very unique benefits and all.

I guess this would build up the Silver Chord as well, as we grow and learn more of each other the strength of our relationship also increases and builds. Sure the physical will always pump it up tremendously, but this will evolve naturally, as we have a lot more we can share now.

Staying just friends will be easier for now. I guess we all have challenges we need to resolve first.

What else?

I just talked to Linda on the phone and she evidently is getting attacked already, conflicts and problems everywhere. I tried to tell her what to expect and how to deal with Yvonne, but she has her own ideas about it, which explains her conflicts everywhere else.

What do you think is happening to Lyn?

I guess the same things? Interesting I felt like she was having problems at work and would be leaving there soon. Then I wondered about her calling me for help or something. It was really kinda weird I guess.

I planned to visit David today to play with videos and make stuff. But he has a new card now to plug into his machine and reset everything, so I would just be in the way. Course then he started talking about all this personal stuff and I knew he needed some support there too. I think we’ll get together tomorrow or something. But now for today I can just write and rest if I want. I do have a lot to read for my next writing assignment with John.

Interesting enough we had a reading group Friday. Monday I posted a message to everyone to spark up the debate a bit. Mike thought it was a waste of time and said how none of them were researchers anyway. But then John responded as well. Not really to me, but he commented in the hall that my message was worth reading.

I’m not really sure where this is going or not going. Nor do I know what I should be thinking about it all.

What do you want?

I guess I want to start seeing things come together and creations and commitments result. Talk and all is fine, but without new activities what’s the point?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

6:54 PM

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What do you think. . .

Everything is a total trip again. I emailed Lyn answering her questions as I said and asked her about cutting the silver chord again. Monday I even called her again, left no message, but I tried. Monday I met with Linda and showed her the chant a bit. Wow she loved it, and wants to know everything. I want to see her get me into the grant first and wonder what she plans about that.

Tuesday I met with Mark from the Chamber and we had lots to talk about. He was very interested and excited about everything that I shared. It was really very cool, even when John interrupted us. Mark planned to see Jose today and try to see about putting things together for me.

Course I was really wired then and tried to blog, but lost it again. So then I went to visit Kathy and see about her fax again. She wanted me to read some things about her mom and such and then I wanted to ask her about Lyn. I called her before I called Lyn on Monday, but we never talked. So yesterday I told her the whole story about Lyn about the dinner and the kiss and the Tantra.

She wanted to get her cards and do a reading for me, but I told her the cards and all wasn’t a good idea, so she just opened up and asked for some guidance directly. She told me all kinds of things, that all felt true and to the point. It was really a big relief because I wasn’t sure what to do or say about anything.

It was really kinda weird, but I could feel it too, and many things she said kinda confirmed thoughts that I had. I was out before 4pm since I had to meet Pam and Laura to help move a car with them. Laura doesn’t have a license, so they needed me to drive. Laura cooked us a great dinner for my trouble and then we all jumped in the Jacuzzi. That was all cool too of course.

I told Pam bits and pieces of what I shared with Kathy, and she was convinced Lyn could never leave either. Laura says how no girl could be good enough for me. She’s really sweet and we connect really well. I worked out her back some more in the Jacuzzi and started showing Pam how to do it too. Then we talked about making a work group to get things down at each of our houses, trading hours back and forth.

The moment Kathy told me something about Lyn I felt the energy shift a bit. I’m not sure if it was just recognizing that she was human and fallible like we all are or not. Whatever it was, I still know she’s with me and I don’t mind it. Course I love her being with me and I want it more intimate than anything. But I also know I can wait and not worry about it at all.

I mean, she’s just awesome. I wish I had a good picture of her, but I’m really not worried about it much at all. Course Pam invited me to some fashion show in Orlando that she helped sponsor with her company. Weee fun, lots of pretty spoiled girls. Lol, like that’s really what I need.

Today I noticed that Sharon has a very cute girl working for her now too. So that’s really kinda neato too. We smiled a few times going down the halls but I never knew where she worked before. Course I want to wait for Lyn, but I’ve really no clue if that would ever come or not. Course I feel like it might be three weeks instead of three months. But I could just be dreaming instead.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

3:13:33 PM

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What?

Monday, October 09, 2006 3:13:33 PM

Ok so I’m totally distracted still. What’s with all these numbers?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Day in the Life

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's up?

I'm such a weird dude... lol... I'm making a bigpot of chicken and rice, yummy yum yum. I kinda got reading to do and tried to do some stuff in this office. No luck. I guess I need to transfer video for Harmony, but kinda don't have space on my hard drive. . . Course I have a new extra one on the shelf behind me. But You know, I have to install it. . . lol. . .

I really need to start cleaning out this office, it's been driving me crazy; piles of books and equipment everywhere.

What did you need to write?

I guess now I'm just thrilled. Not a whole lot to write about any more. It's like things are all where they need to be. No big deal anywhere. Or at least not for me, lol. I'm feeling really relaxed and at peace. I know things are getting ready to bust loose again. It feels like the calm before the strom again. Which is really funny, I'm either Storming ... or blissed out all calm relaxing.

What do you feel?

I guess I feel like things are going to change a lot soon too. I could point at a dozen things, but really I am not sure what's next. Course I never know what's next. . .

Sure you do. What do you want?

I want some more peace and love, and all that fun stuff. . . Course I want more play time, lol . . . and I guess I want some Chicken and Rice now. ;-)

What else?

I read a Book Kathy gave me "Illusions" by Richard Bach. Very interesting I guess, and almost familiar. Well certainly familiar. I am always saying and feeling that, how people I meet now are here to finish business we started a long time ago. It's not like a big deal, since it really happens all the time to me. What's funny I guess is that I never feel people ever leave me, since we are all ONE anyway, it's like someone gets lost on the way. . . oh well, they'll catch up sooner or later. This sorta reminds me of friends and loves from NJ and such. I don't really feel any different and likely really don't llok too different. I guess except maybe that I've fattened up a bit. . . . lol . . . I was a twig as a kid. Course if I keep biking to school, I might look like that again soon.

I'm not sure if I care.

What's the point. . . what did you find about the book?

It was neat to hear about some Master teaching, which I've seen from both sides I guess. But it was kinda neato since there was a gap in knowledge that vanished through the sharing. I guess that's what we meet people for and share things. As we do more and more we learn and grow. Everyone has something to share and so everyone can teach. Course not everyone is conscious of this, nor are we always agreeable to the process.

What does this make you feel?

I guess I remember Nord's Reading group on Friday. Everyone was talking about all different aspects of the growth and learning or "lack of" for people in general. They all seemed to be saying the problems are all out there. Finally towards the end I said it seemed to me as more of a fundamental cultural problem. People are simply lazy and want things taken care of by others more and more. And worse off, we know that those others, especially regulators in governments, are usually only taking care of themselves and their own income over any real service or safety to society of mankind.

Wow that was well said. . .

I know i need to write this up and send it to Dr. Nord since I never said anything that clear. Or at least not to that detail. I did say it was more fundamental culture problems and went on the describe the toxics and pollution in our own backyard... like the toxic drinking water and the miles of "moon-scape" where they've done all the phosphate mining. . . .

What do you think you could add to this?

I guess more about how it is really everyone's problem, not jsut something out there we can point at. . .

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

4:43 PM

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What now?

So I’m trying to get things done, and it’s not going well. I seem to have lost a hard drive, which is really kinda weird. How do I lose a hard drive? I can’t imagine I put it into a machine I gave away, nor does it make sense that I took it out and left it around. So I’m really perplexed?

Course now that I’m writing I wonder if this is why it’s missing, so that I could concentrate on writing instead. I was thinking I had too many other things to catch up on instead of writing. But I guess I know there are some important things to write too.

What you need to do will always be clear for you. You just don’t always want to listen.

Fine, so I explained everything to Lyn. It was kinda hard at first, but I just gave her some of this journal and said that I knew I was with her at one time, rather intimately.

That’s not what you said.

Not exactly, but I made it clear we were still attached. And then she wrote back with some very specific questions and said she would consider the Silver Chord thing:

Hello Eric,

Thanks for sharing!

I could not get through to the link you added www.starsusa.or/usffolder/TheHealingPowerofSex.pdf.

Still contemplating the silver chord.....

Lyn

P.S. - Why do you say your absorb angels and why are people close to you attacked? What do you mean by this?

Which is really kinda weird. My first feeling was that there was really nothing to her “my ex” stuff and she had made it up so that I would leave her alone. I know workaholics don’t like the interference, and also she’s very strong and clear where she’s going and what she’s doing so getting close to me might be interfering with her game plans . . . ignoring how You like to add new pieces to our games all the time!

But then you said about Ginny, and I thought maybe she was trying to get something going with her ex where he wasn’t into it at all. Maybe just playing and intimate, but nothing more. That seemed weird too. It was like she wasn’t sure or maybe she liked my influence, hoping I could rub off on them.

That is weirder than the first option. She seems much too honest and clear to want to have me linger only for their benefit. This makes me think again that she’s made up the ex crap so she could figure out what’s best for her without any pressure. I mean it was very obvious that we could be very close and very intimate very easily. And she seemed to very much like that idea. I mean “contemplating the silver chord” doesn’t sound like any mad rush to cut some connection that she doesn’t want to lose.

Further, I’ve feel her a lot still. I even think she got intimate again or wanted to get intimate with me again. It was just as I started to get ready to Chant. Hum last night??? With the Full moon even??? HUM? So it was kinda weird where I wanted to get all horny and excited before the Chant instead of after it. I simply pulled all the energy into and through the Chant, so it went up to Heaven instead of attaching to me directly. I felt like that cleared it out good, or cleared her out good too. But then later I was feeling her a bit again.

It’s almost like she’s playing with me, trying to gage things and figure out what she can really do with me, or how strong we are connected. Or maybe fishing for some answers or insights into what we have between us before committing or exploring it more directly with me. Wish people could just use the phone sometimes, why is everyone so full of fear?

Of course as I started to write, a rain storm suddenly started. And as I mentioned it now it got stronger.

What does that make you feel?

I know I’ve always been very connected to everything. So I’m thinking how important it is for me to be clear.

What do you want to be clear about?

I really want to fall in Love. I know Lyn and I could be very good for each other. So I’m feeling this more and more, or trying not to, but do anyway since she’s not cut any chord yet.

What about her degree somewhere else?

I’m not sure she really needs to go somewhere else. Or whether she will make things work here with me and pursue the degrees with me as well. Or maybe we will do both together in both places?

What’s important?

I guess I know that I need to stay clear with things You need me to do. The Management Department is getting closer to starting a PhD program and John has even had several meeting about it in the last few months . . . intentionally teasing me about being their first student. He knows that I will be. And I guess he wants to get things together for that.

What did you do now?

I reread a bunch of the emails to Lyn. Wow, so much power. I can’t believe how much I’ve shared with her. It’s really intense to think and feel. So much! I’ve been feeling like I would see her on Sunday again. It’s funny, like I remember hoping she would drop by my office and kiss me. Now it feels like she will at Harmony. Of course I want to kiss her and hold her more than anything right now, and that might be why I keep wanting to read and write about her. But I’m not clear about what she wants.

What difference does that make? People are sometime unclear about their own desires as well. They want and dream, but then are insecure when the dream walks up and kisses them. Not everyone is as clear as you. Like You taught Kathy to write, just like Lyn is writing now, but keeping Jesus as the center is never too easy. How much have you been reverting to chanting “I love you Lord Jesus”…

I guess that’s true, I’ve had to say that a lot lately too. I enjoy it of course, but I guess if I’m getting distracted and getting interference from somewhere, I’m likely not the only one.

What do you really want more than anything right now?

Eeek, that’s really weird coming from you. You know I always want to finish everything we started and be totally free in Love. Free to build and design Your life with us. Free to Love and have Children. Free to Play and goof around in total Bliss. Free to share the Love and Joy that You are openly and clearly with others.

What about Lyn?

I guess I know she could easily fit into all that. So I would Love to share it with her too. Or would love to Share her with You in family, and life and all.

Please Dearest Jesus Christ guide me to fulfill Our Dreams. Lead me to make all these things happen as soon as possible. Let us grow and Love in your Light and Freedom. Please send Your Angels and Saints to guide my every word and step to this fulfillment for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost. Amen.I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.