I’m still standing!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!l

What do you find now?!

I love my time and experience more than ever, talking with Brent once a week, biking to church, doing the prayerline.  Each day is an adventure, I’m not sure what I need to do or where I’ll be next, but really just step into this and trust as I keep going forward. It's really just remarkable how things move and change every day, 1 day = 86400 seconds and I'm really more perplexed all the time. It's really just wonderful and I feel very blessed every moment I step into more and more, as I learn more about what Jesus has given to me.

I study my bible and classes. I do school work. Then I bike and go to church and not much more. It's really peaceful and kinda wonderful. I do know I always have so much more to do, but it's really all in peace and joy. I've not really concerned myself with anything. And I really know everything is really wonderful and divine. How could I ever concern myself with anything, when there is so much love and Joy in all things before me.

2:10pm Sun Mar 22 is what I see at the top of my screen now. And again I've been busy all day already. Set my new parking space with granite counter tops broken up like Nicky did in Belize. I still have more to do, but it's coming along. Then I got some more bricks yesterday to brick in my back gates and get those set up the way I need them. Each day more here and more there. I don't feel like I'm really going anywhere fast, but I'm really not concerned about it either. I do whatever I must do and allow it to be, trusting in the Flow as I pray about each step I take with Jesus.

Ok, I’ve talked about working in the yard and reciting the phrases “Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, and I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,” over and over to get myself protected and focused doing chores and such. It’s funny, I noticed it today trimming the yard and the trimmer was messed up. . . I’m asking for Saint Joseph to guide me, as he loves the power tools and such. But it was Jesus who told it was time to get outside and get busy cleaning up my yard. . . Yes I’ve not been doing my hour in the office and hour in the yard. . . . I need to get these routines down tight.

7:07pm. I did go to a kundalini yoga class at noon today with Laura. She recognized me and was sweet and polite. But not much more. I was the first there and the last to leave. I did get some school work done and more done outside. And I'm certainly ready to sleep now. . . . Yes, I signed up for a week of yoga classes. Since my thumb, or trigger-finger is sorta messed up, I’ve not been touching my weights and figured Yoga showed up right on time to keep me exercising. Not swam in a few weeks, but know I need to get that onto my schedule too. 

You’ve really done well with the Bible studies, and need to get deeper into SEEL too! It’s really about timing and place again. Like how you spoke to Fr. Curtis about his Community Homely and mentioned your experiences with Fr Kevin.  That spontaneous expression was not something you really understood, or could have planned at all. It was key that you recorded his message and then read it on your iPhone before seeing him. You need to Thank Ben for that too . . 

Fr. Curtis Transcripts: It's where people 1st go wrong, when people get a sense of belonging to a community. And once they belong to a community, they start to conform to its behaviors. And then, lastly, their belief system will conform to those behaviors, that which they want to conform to. 
So it's kind of a reversal, you would think that you belong to a community because we've got a shared belief and that belief would inform your behavior.  Like those joint things, contribute to your belonging. But what we see is this construct of their own house. We know that, like when people are rooted in their ways, they kind of deeply plant themselves into their community, and you can debate all you want, but you're going to get very little transfers from one corner or another, because usually when people are dug in and they're very hard to move. 
But for today, in our age, we have to really work on welcoming, and getting to know the people. It’s helping them building those relationships. And it's in those relationships that, people are more likely to transfer, they're looking for authentic friendships. People are affected by their conversation, it's pretty cool, safe, and respectful ways to have them. That's where people will start to be open minded, right? 
Maybe they start to associate themselves with people or in the community. And then they start to set in roots and then they start to conform to that community. And then they start to see, why do we do what we do? 
What's the underlying belief? So that's why community is so important. And uh, especially our faith, you see that, and anything in mind, whether it's not from businesses or politics, everybody's trying to build community because that's what everybody is authentically seeking. 
And Jesus is able to read their minds and hearts, and everybody must look at the evidence before them, and in their time, they have to be kind of that testament to the faith, who Christ is, what does it mean for my life? At once belonging to Christ, that are conforming to Christ and or believing in Christ!

I tried to edit and make this clear. I started with the audio transcript and then listened and edited it a bit. It was really neat to speak with him after.  I said how his community homily resonated with me really strong and it reminded me of Fr. Kevin when he said “Each one Teach One” in his homily just like I had highlighted in my Lent Guide . . .

Then I said how I asked Dick about healing again since I had this lump in my hand that is interfering with my Exodus 90 routines. . . Then said how he recommended Unbound the book that Harriet uses. I already have the book in my library and reading it over, found comments from the last time I read it. I already noticed the “renounce and command” statements again.  These Words I share all the time on the prayerline.

What was significant here was while speaking to Fr Curtis you held his hands confronting a lump centering and grounding him as you spoke.  He recognized immediately that energy moving and stepped back away from you, but you did what we asked you to do.  And reading the transcripts of what you sent to Ben was key.  Thanking him for that help is important too. You really have done well keeping in this Flow of Spirit, and you need to get more secure and confident with all this work we give you. Recognize you do have a very unique circumstance and have committed to doing a lot here, where you will be getting more support and more power and resources as you continue to grow and learn in the Spirit. Yes, the regular Bible reading and SEEL continue to help you more than you know at this time.

IT’s now…6:47am Fri Mar 27 reading in Exodus 90 it’s the day for the feast of tabernacle for seven days to arrive into the promised land. At the last day to have rivers of water flowing through to them in the desserts. This feast is connected to harvest times filled with food, dancing and celebrating the love of god. And today the Bible in A Year on the Ascension App is day 75: Numbers 29-30 with all the rules, and with Deuteronomy 29 into the new land to be in Jesus and no other! And yesterday again at Lisette’s the song grabbed me as the sun shined into my face . . . and I flew off to another place… feeling the love and light flashing through me. My eyes closed and my feet started tapping, soon I was moving grooving, humming, PRAISING THE MOMENT. 

Wow, I know I have to stay here FOREVER!!!!. . . As I write now, suddenly shifting from the keyboard to my pen, as It's easier to share these deeper SPIRIT moments with my pen. Of course, my script gets intense; and I get distracted editing and and and fixing things lost again . . .  Heavenly Father , , I love to be dependent on You... Please guide me this moment to write and share more of Your Spirit, Passions and Peace to all the people every where😇😊👍😄👍✌👍 wow, jobs has very easy, Yes Steve I know you still read, watch, and know every bit I share.

!yes you need to talk more details about your day today, you’ve stepped out again!

I noticed the Prayerline needed my “Renounce and Command” and That story starts with God, creating us and putting us into the Garden of Eden naked. ALL was good, just us naked taking care of the garden loving all our neighbors and nothing else until the snake showed up. Ruined everything. Then Jesus came to bring us back home, teaching us the power of the word in his name. So that’s how I teach “Renounce and Command” anything you can “name” in your life, that you need to remove. 

Like: I renounce anger in the name of Jesus Christ, I command anger to leave in the name of Jesus Christ

Then it is very easy to step outside, barefoot, and find a place to pray in the garden leading people into my next critical lesson, that I share.  It really just flows out of me. When I go through this I recognize the power and clarity of gods love.

6:36pm Fri mar 27 Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ

I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ

Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ

I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ

Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to grow and share more joy peace and love. And I see more and more people and synergies, this is always such a surprise. I know I go along with the story. . . And I realize another change I can make for the classes I am doing. It's really been an incredible blessing as each day I'm seeing new opportunities to love and share more every where. So much of these kids dreams are coming through that mimics my own. And you should see my scribbles before the Apple text is typed on my iPad.

I need to make my schedule tight. . . Oh so I stopped in for another yoga class and it was the same lady as the 1st time. Spanish and petite of course !!!! And as I rushed out of the house to get there, I stopped to get my mayan chant brochure . . . When I walked in and she said hi Rafi I told her about my last class teaching and maybe we could do classes together. Wow, I actually said all that to her!!?! And we talked more after it and I opened up my old websites on her phone. Wow, each on popped up perfect the same as ever.

It really has been fun for us too. We love how surprised you always are when you see the  praise and glory shining through in your every experience. When you stopped on the run into church to catch the 7:30 stations of the Cross . . . Because you saw we could do the Sun Ritual and stopped before the completed Saint Mary Chapel. You listened and stopped then even stepped to be on your mom, then Fr. Kevin and Fr. Claudious. You knew the center on the sun was more important than the brick you stood on. Then you found your center and completed the standing forms for all your Mayan Chant. It was really wonderful for you to share that. And it's really easy. You are in it again and all is exactly as we planned from the very start. Yes Bike play Lead, do those things you are - that you love and enjoy! Please share that more as we need you to be more focused on what you really asked for. That Bike ride and swim time were actually almost central to making all things happen in your life, stay focused, clear and true to all you ARE!

Yes Everything is important. Next 50 year habit is a big deal and you said that very clearly to your boss, who called you back. Very clear and focused flow is what it’s all about, the more consistent and refined you get the more opportunities show up. It's the same story for Jesus about the ten talents. Well you get ten more each day you wake and listen. Stronger and clearer development understanding and God's Grace flows through. Exactly where you need to be. And you see this flow before you with this pen on a screen and accept the fullness before you in all things equally. Do it all as the 16 year old in high School. Young strong athletic was what you asked for, since you never had been there before, so do it now!

 and I Guess you are done for now. And I really need to remember what I love most about this life. I mean after the Belize flights I decided no more flights, planes are not secure and I don't need the trouble. But then doing LENT with Brent! Wow, what a wonderful blessing and so I told him how grateful I was to share. 

I then saw flights for spring break and decided I should go north!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. It's always been so cool to share with you. I really am so grateful to have this experience and opportunity with you. Please fill me with your strength and wisdom to move forward in your full grace, ready and able to bring and do all that we planned here. And I can accept and begin to make each day a church day. The Wednesday, Saturday things are my best experience.

Wow, thank You I'm so glad to see more, as I grow with You to be whatever it means that You want me to BE!

6:07pm Sat Mar 28 and I barely slept last night. I ended my fast yesterday. I figured it was like 9pm Sunday to maybe noon on Friday. I felt good after having a few nights of struggle. I went to StpeteFerments.com and got some kombucha and sauerkraut, which is recommended for ending a fast. So I ate yesterday and then again today. I bought a sausage sandwich at the Saturday Morning Market today. I raced to mass and missed my sunrise and then raced to another yoga class. I actually stayed for two yoga classes, big mistake to take two in a row that were really too much for me.

I was feeling like I needed to do more exercises since I've not been lifting weights. So yoga is another place to exercise. Course then I asked them about doing my own classes there too. Yes I've written about this already somewhere. And then after Mass, yoga, market, biking I got home and wanted to sleep. Resting and then finally looked at my iPhone and noticed the movie about Elton John: Rocketman was free online for me.

Oh, watch a movie and make a serious lunch. What a great idea. So I went down and started the movie and soon was in Tears. Yes, I saw the first sequence in the story as my own. He was in a AAA meeting sharing how all his addictions started with a childhood trauma. It was the exact same experience we all really have, where we remember some experience of being yelled at by dad. The songs, and moments, each experience was so clear and real for me. It carried all the way to the end where he sang the song “I’m still standing!”

higher place for you to walk

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What did you do.

I shared Your Word! Wow, I did exactly what I wanted. So much is happening so quickly. I know I'm setting into a new world again. I guess it's kinda fun as I've done it over and over again, literally waking up to a new world daily. . . wondering who I can Love, Who I can Change, what new visions or experiences I would be challenged.

What Lexio Divina 1st 

In the Word! The Desert Fathers, the first Christian monks who fled the cities and found refuge in the desert, living a life of prayer and asceticism, in search of true freedom in Christ. Throughout these forty days of Lent, we will imitate their example.

What bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh, , , created as one genesis 3 separated from god.. . Wow, covering the part that connected these people. Why fig leaves? WHY THIS judgement wow nurturing the heart of your spouse . . . Ephesians 5: love your own flesh, reinforce connections, know agreement, witness the experience instead of trying so hard. Show real connection! Dr. Ken Wilkus: nurture heart 1-800-232-6459, 1800afamily. . . lol. . . Free marriage assessment and downloads.

TRYing to fit into the World!  I’m always trying to interpret and “play my part,” whatever that is. EVERY DAY, I try to connect and make myself useful or valid somehow for this glory I share in Christ. Like whatever I’m already doing isn’t enough or needs something more. And it’s always about control, my business, my patent, my designs, no solutions . . . No action, but me, me, me. . . And then I wonder about how I do whatever shows up. Build the tool-library, reset gardens, plant seeds, harvest, remove, rebuild. . . Changes shifting growing, always wondering what could be next, always ready to step forward. 1 Samuel 18: 

What are you feeling now?

I really feel so blessed to share with Your Word! Talk with You, share and know what we have here, and do these tasks You place before me. No judgements, no questions, more tasks, more Being. I always have to just accept how things are and how things happen, trusting Jesus. It’s kinda weird how things change. Like being back in the same place again, biking, writing, reading, doing this work that I need to do. This morning I thought to present the container garden patent ideas to someone else. Something that God brings to me. Each day doing this very present truth before me, and suddenly I found the blog page describing things in detail.

What happened is different stages moving through you. Trying to create new opportunities for others to reach Christ. You rarely have any idea how much you affect people. The power and clarity you share and express even in these words now before you as you take greater care in each new scribble as you recognize the AI used here and the limitations herein. But still you step beyond these in ease and clarity. Yes, you get annoyed with the perceived limitations, but are still surprised and impressed when words show up from obvious sloppy scribbles knowing Christ is with you.

I am always wondering and perplexed by what I do and share each day. I've got to post grades today and get everyone focused and ready for their next assignment.

What happened on Friday with these links and blog posted now?

I was doing my morning podcast and listening to Your Word and I knew it was the same story I've been repeating over again, about stepping into these gifts from God and our responsibility. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just lost, where I’m always trying to do the same things, and maybe it's not about the timing, but just not necessary and I'm delusional. And its always about what I've seen and known from my death. Of course, Christ is returning and half our world will be wiped away. And I shared that in the ladies group on Thursday, where I knew we might be the only city to survive and be the only place left with clean healthy foods. So I had this dream about all the surviving children on Earth will be placed in boats and barrels to float up into Tampa Bay and reach our beaches here . . . so all these emptied vacation homes are filled with refugee kids.

What happened next?

I know, so I told these ladies how I was doing my morning bike ride along the bay and saw a barrel floating off-shore and thought it was one of the first kids arriving. I knew it was the end, and knew how important it was to get real food together. Then read/heard the Exodus 90 podcasts about stepping into what God has sent us here for. I thought it was about time that I spoke about renewing STARS to begin building more and more Urban Agriculture and all the other stuff I've dreamed about.

So then I found this blog linked above?  Wow, I wrote it all out for Nicky, saying how we could get started now. And as I read through this blog, I discovered it was written just as I started all the AirBnB stuff, and the forbearance and all the craziness with my house. Wow, it's been years of craziness and it's still crazy and out of hand. 

do you really think so?

I really don’t know. I guess my biggest thing has really been about getting to know YOU more. I mean, I can understand and accept this is about my Guardian Angels,  and in know the Trinity and everything is about taking this knowledge and experience to a higher level. I mean, it’s always been sorta obvious I have been gifted and have lot to do. I wonder some times if I’m doing enough, and usually find out I’m doing too much. It’s really kinda weird sometimes as I try to figure it out.

Yes, I know that’s where I get into trouble. I’m gifted so much because I accept and step into things so easily, without thinking or figuring anything. I know, jumping up at dawn, biking across town or “whatever seems necessary,” usually comes through to me randomly.  I mean, I know I step into things as You say. Stopping places and doing whatever I need to do. And it always seems I’m in the right place at the right time, even when I don’t do whatever I think I need to do.  It’s just crazy! I mean, to go back to my accident. I remember not wanting to return just to save the last hundred people. . . . But then agreeing to return if we really can save millions or more.

But in either case, entrepreneurs and food or urban agriculture seem central to this. And so everything in my life has been coming into this same space over and over again. Now even many of my students are focused here. It's really kinda weird. I know it's about staying faithful and trusting everything that I stop into. I'm tying, it's not easy, but I’m still moving forward!

then Friday?

I know, I saw how only two were attending the Friday morning prayer meeting after mass. And Bob had heard about STARS already and offered to join the Board before. Wow, I felt it instantly, to ask Bob and Scott onto my board and have them hire Ben to complete the mission. Wow, I’ve been asking Larry, Leslie and everyone I meet, to join my non-profit to start building more food systems for children. Sure Jesus only send me angels, but no one can understand or keep-up with me. Now to actually ask someone who might really make this happen.  Wow, I never thought of this before!

So I guess what was more remarkable than anything was seeing this blog written out for Nicky to do everything with me. And I sent it all to Ben as the morning podcasts linked to Exodus 90 and everything else in my life. And then an hour later I sent screenshots of the posts to Ben over to Scott. I mean, I literally recorded the ending of Stanley’s message:

When God calls you and challenges you to take the risk to believe him for something, Move out of that job that he's called you out of. 
Move out of that relationship he's called you out of. He's got something better for you. He's got a higher place for you to walk, a different perspective, a different relationship in your life. and you're not willing to for fear of failure, fear of criticism, filled with the fear “if I give up this, then there's nothing out there.” 
Listen, there's no such thing as God calling you to nothing. Listen to that. There's no such thing as God calling you to nothing. 

I love how this technology works making it easier and easier for me. I opened the recording on my iPhone, clicked the transcription button and pop there is all the text. So I pull out the piece that jumped out at me. 

It all happens exactly as it needs to be, trust and be at ease. 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

The Walk of Light

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What is it that we call you to this morning?

I love this experience that I live, up in the morning for the PrayerLine, Podcasts, prayers, exercise, sunshine, mass and work with You ever step. I know all these things reflect my purpose and mission in life. I have this Morning Prayer below going now as I accept this wonderful experience Jesus has created for me. Like yesterday I knew I had certain works to do. 

After class Thursday night, I stopped to get gas at Sam's and noticed my front tire really low. So in the cold morning I realized I needed to drive into Mass and get my truck checked and change the oil again. Yes, no oil change for a year or so. Last Sunday, I had a text message reminder from Bob Lee's, and I knew it was a blessing for me to step into. I drove in to catch the sunrise. It was so strong and clear. A child was there with his mom, and he could feel and see I was in Christ. He came over a few times to watch and I stayed very focused on my task never greeting him….

Then in Mass as Saint Raphaels this sunshine was hitting my face again, and again I shared the power and blessing with everyone I could. It always feels like a great blessing for everyone in the building. Of course, Anna called that very moment so I snapped these pictures.

Yes, I always sit in the back corner right next to the door, usually parking my bike right outside. Friday, I drove in and made coffee for the men's prayer group and got to mass as it started. Then in our prayer meeting Scott was speaking about his morning SEEL lessons about being deep in the light. And these ideas about light came in to him from our prayer readings as well. So I explained how God loves to align everything together to make it crystal clear about our own place and responsibility whenever he calls us to do more. Clearly, Scott was being called!

Sometimes I wonder about this men’s group, since I have never been able to talk much and never seem to be respected whenever I do. I'm not sure if this is a dad trauma thing again or not. Again I realize I am growing and learning all the time. Like today on the prayerline, I had another caller who recognized he was really given what he asked for.  It was interesting as he had a concept of God and had survived years of trauma to make it here. And now suddenly had the new responsibility of stepping into his Dreams. Of course, I was able to explain details about this specific experience as I found myself dealing with it too.

Yes, like this message I found here too, where someone who called has spoken to me before. So clearly I'm in the right place at the right time. It’s really remarkable how all these things come together and make perfect sense.  Like now, I just spoke to my son again and explained how blessed I feel teaching what I teach again. . . 

Course, I told him about how remarkable it is to be back in the same place again. Like I started out of high school here in this same work, and so now I feel like a little kid in high school again. Course biking everywhere is like high school too, and doing all the morning exercises that I never did in high school. 

What about doing this again now. You’ve not missed the exercises this new year yet. You missed Mass a few times now, but to make it consistent you might want to do them now. And yes you also know it’s better for you to do things three times a week. Like St Pauls three times, St Raphaels three times. Prayerline three times, fasting three times a week. So it seem right to do the exercises three times as well.

I thought you wanted me to get up and do them now.

What you need to do now if finish the models.You got deeper into things and understand more. So send these results and rerun things to bring clarity and which helps with everything. Like your classes, you are doing more, shifting new things for everyone. You are pushing more deeply every day. And you know this, you recognize how much each post you create impacts everyone in your class, trust and move forward.w

THE NEW EVANGELIZATION, BUILDING THE CIVILIZATION OF LOVE

Joseph Cardinal Ratzinger

Address to Catechists and Religion Teachers

Jubilee of Catechists

December 12, 2000 (Feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe)! 
Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Here is the rewrite of the Morning Prayer where every mention of difficulty or negativity is reversed into a positive affirmation of strength and presence:

Morning Prayer: The Walk of Light

Good morning, Lord! Thank You for the gift of this new day and for the clarity to see Your path ahead for me, I joyfully reach for Your hand, knowing that every moment is an opportunity to walk in Your company. I release all heavy weights and embrace the lightness of Your guidance, trusting the same God who painted the sunrise to direct my steps.

Father, I step into this morning with Your divine strength. I Enjoy the days many surprises, I am confident because You are with me; I am strong, courageous, and filled with peace. I move through my morning with patience, no hurry, fully savoring Your love even in the simplest moments.

In every conversation, I speak life. Sharing Your deep breath of grace and let my words bring encouragement to everyone I meet. When tasks feel significant, I am renewed with energy, doing everything as an offering to You.

I master my emotions today.  I turn toward Your light. I move worship each moment and find the truth of Your promises. My mind is a place of peace, filled with thoughts that are good, pure, and lovely.

In my decisions, I choose wisdom and ease in Your love without hesitation. I am grateful for Your provision, knowing that my soul is satisfied by Your presence. When I look at the world or use technology, I see my own unique opportunities and trust that You are in complete control.

I meet every challenge with grace and stay calm, knowing You work brings all things onto good. I embrace rest as a source of strength, finding true renewal in You. I choose to forgive, to apologize with courage, and to see everyone through Your eyes of compassion.

Lord, Your grace is more than sufficient. I am enough because You are in me. I choose gratitude and persistence. My day is an offering of worship, seeing Your beauty and blessings in every detail.

I trust Your perfect timing, even when plans change, knowing Your thoughts for me are to prosper me and give me a hope-filled future. I have a teachable heart, growing through every experience into the person You created me to be. My body is renewed; I run and do not grow weary.

I am never alone, for Your unconditional love surrounds me and defines who I am. I surrender my dreams to You, watching them flourish in Your perfect way. From my first breath to my last today, I live overwhelmed by the love You have already given me.

I lie down in peace, sleeping well under Your watchful eye. I love You, Lord, and I walk forward as a reflection of Your kindness.

Amen.

accept it and understand place and responsibility

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

We have really been impressed. You are taking more and more time to be very careful and listen. Like even now you are being slow and determined in each scribble you make knowing where your iPad has learned to fix what you write. Again your experience and efforts to make these words clear and precise are paying off. You are also being more careful and slow to write in your paper journal books as well. These books will more easily be scanned to add to your blogs. . . .

I am so very grateful to have this opportunity and experience to share with you. I know all things are coming to a close as more and more people come into your spirit and accept this life with you. I have really come to see and understand so much more each day. It's really remarkable for me, but I know it's all coming together exactly as it must.

this is a wonderful prayer . . . you’re leading every step Lord, cover my conversations with your shadow, when I talk to my family over breakfast, when I chat with the cashier at the store, when I have that important meeting this afternoon, let your presence season every word!  Help me speak life into peoples hearts the way spring rain speaks life into sleeping seeds! Hide me in the shadow of your wings today, not because I want to disappear, because I want to stay close enough to feel your heartbeat! Lord I’m tucking my family under your shadow, as you do know each of them by name, you know their dreams, and their secret worries, you know what makes them laugh until they can’t breathe. God place your shadow over my home.

I love your Word! This prayer Anna shared is really wonderful. 6:41am 2/1/2026, but it’s too cold to bike and I whine about it! Time to exercise again, got dressed and raced out.

What A wonderful way to start your morning. You listened to this prayer three times, did your Exodus 90, did your Charles Stanley, and on the ground for the 20x. And then Anna calls you as you’re putting on your wool socks thinking that you were gonna bike anyway. Wow, you still almost got frostbitten. And now, like we told you, you’re gonna go to mass again anyway… we told you to skip it, but you wanted to go anyway!

I know Your Word! But I still fumble around not sure, never sure, always wanting to do more for you! It’s really just incredible sometimes. I know I have to follow through with every detail. It’s like as soon as I got home I knew I had to run the models for Mike again. I just finished and sent them as Alex called to confirm mass this morning. Thank you so much dear Jesus, I feel so blessed all the time to step into this more and more with you. 

Like Anna called just as I was putting on my socks, getting ready to go. And then she called again just as mass was ending, which was just perfect timing again. Of course, I shared with her everything I can because we’re both doing the same thing, getting closer and closer to the end of a rainbow carrying our cross…. Knowing we are with Jesus, safe and sound ready for everything that comes up to us.

Again this experience is more about you stepping into the position where you belong. It’s not always crystal clear for you and it never will be. However, this passion and truth that you are and that you share will become stronger and more focused every day as you step forward.

This will always be a challenge for me, as I try to accept and understand the steps before me. I know it all comes together in peace and ease, through the Love of Christ. And I try not to get distracted or confused with the challenges before me, where I stay open for the guidance, but then also focused on key tasks before me. I also struggle with all the details and steps involved with these tasks. I accept it and understand my place and responsibility. Each day I learn more and step into more and more of Your Tasks before me. I accept these challenges and understand my place more and more each day. So now again I realize I have so much more work to do. I am so very grateful and blessed to have more time with you. And I know my writing and work here with you has some limits.

Watch for more opportunities to share your love and light with more people around you in all these events. 

I love your Word! The 10 plagues to Egypt, each plague over the 10 Egyptian gods, ray sun god, darkness of the sun, Lord God showing power over all of Egypt . . . .  And also to get the lies of Egypt out of the Jewish hearts. Releasing the people from the lies of Egypt. To serve and worship god requires Moses to take all they are, cattle and possessions to serve. How can we serve you. The blood of the eternal covenant, to God.

It’s more in this every day. Reading Leviticus were the priests of Israel who destroyed the golden calf with Moses.  And it really teaches us how we all get lost in false gods and worshipping something dead and useless instead of trusting and loving in Christ to Worship and honor what is right and true for all of us. 

Wow, jim buzzed me again inviting me out to Mass and lunch at Saint Anthony’s Hospital where he works. And so after Mass, he tells me they had some pharmaceutical rep bring in lunch for them . . . And they brought in “two lunches” by mistake so there was a ton of food there. Course let’s walk back and save some cash, always sounds like a good idea to me

What we have seen is so much coming together so strong and clear. Each day that you accept the tasks before you and step into these actions and duties you are given, then more of the world comes in tune. Again you are sure affecting a lot more than what’s at hand. These simple steps before you seem almost meaningless, but each has long ranging implications and impacts.

Anna’s friend Marilou is teaching me about the Latin Mass and the Affinity of St. Peter, and the Institute of Christ the King. I’ve been exploring, studying, reading the Bible, doing Exodus 90 the morning podcasts, Society of St Joseph… yes each day I’ve been getting deeper and stronger into more of God’s Word, Insight, Truth and Understanding. Each Day I’m challenged and each day I step forward and do more and more. Lol, yes Fr Mike Schmitz Day 34 I just completed now 8:04:44am 2/3/2026 reading Exodus 12, Leviticus 9, and Psalm 114. And I’ve realized this Ascension Bible in a Year reading with Fr. Mike is really expanding the Mass Readings where we read a bit of the Old Testament, a Psalm, and then a bit of the New Testament.

What a joy this is to share and teach you more each day. Your work to stay focused and clear with us really opens so much more for you. Even this morning meeting the Society of St. Joseph men who visit your Exodus Brothers at Saint Raphael’s. Encouraging and supporting their growth and experience is a great blessing for all. Know you are doing what is best, be at Peace!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

courses I have before me are so much in tune

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What has happened here again is that you have come full circle with everything in your life. As you see in other areas of your life, this experience of writing, are more clear and powerful with every new word you type. You have more tools to share this work and more ease than ever before. And again, you must stop and recognize you have exactly what you asked for during your accident in high school. And again you must slow down and take each step slowly and carefully in this life and fully experience being teenage in high school again.

I am truly back with Your Word!

We have told you again and again about this. And now you are ready to take this more seriously, slowly and carefully, stop trying to rush everything, stay slow and steady!

I understand how important it is now, more than ever, to share more of your Word! It really gets stronger and more focused all the time as I see each word shifting before my eyes, as I SLOWLY Listen, read, understand, write, revise, share and learn.

We have been telling you over and over again. And still you try to rush through things with no thought and no prayer. You have learned about the power and focus you can access and wield with careful conscious prayers and your triple colloquy with us. . . You have even come to recognize the mystical power and dynamics of your past experiences. Clearly you have really been able to step beyond all limitations and beyond the fears and struggles that keep people trapped all the time.  And now you are leveling up this vibration to teach more people to grow and share in this love. 

I know this Word with you is really awesome. I have been trying to accept and step into all that is before me. Like these new classes I need to prepare for in January. I was struggling to review and listen to all the BS the previous instructor put into the videos for each week. Suddenly I took the video transcripts and put them into the ChatGPT and asked for the key points required for the class. I mean 45 minutes of gossip about jobs and cats was too hard to review and understand. Wow a clear specific summary was very fast and easy to read and understand to replace the old class lectures. 

Yes, using these AI apps to edit and revise my work is really the latest toy I have. I ask it too “Update and clarify this letter “ and it removes my sarcasm and makes my letters more professional and focused. That’s the AI assistant I really have needed all my life. To avoid sending emails that are rude and strong, and can now clarify my blogs with all the details that I skip! - - - not started this yet!

What we said applies here too. You have asked for this, and it has all come together very clearly and focused for you. Once again, slow and steady, where your focused attention and careful prayer will reveal all these tools and opportunities before you. Yes, the regular exercises and bicycle rides are necessary. You have spent several years learning about how important it is for you to maintain a regular routine and process in your days. Again having time to read, write, study and prayer all adds up to a healthy sound life and experience. 

Wow, I have Your Word here again, so strong and focused! I am so grateful.

What happened today was very important as you listened, to sit in public and write the deeper truths that you know and felt!

Yes, I sat at the Saturday Morning Market and shared your Word trying to write in my book.  It was really wicked powerful for me!

What happened was really significant. You were able to read the beginning of the older journal book that you had found (page dated May 2025 as posted above), where your prayers and writings were very clear and specific, asking for everything that you have now. Your prayers were so specific and detailed that you are stunned now to see them completely before you. 

Yes, you returned to an old journal that you haven’t used in six months, only to find the prayers and guidance you were seeking in your struggles. Very clear and strong in the struggles, your prayers were filled with truth and sincerity. Now these readings are all revealed and fulfilled in the current moment you are in. You were even able to sit back and see how your first course completed for January, is more in tune and aligned with your actual passion and desires, than anything you could ever imagine . . . 

Just like, your powerful dreams this week. You have woken again and again just in time for the Prayerline, only to recognize you were in a deep passionate dream at another place and time. We share so much with you and you need to try to record your dreams and get whatever you can written down. 

I know it’s always about Your Word! I’m really a bit perplexed.  I mean totally dumbfounded to see and know how much things have shifted completely for me. The courses I have before me are so much in tune with everything I AM! 

What it really is, changes so fast. Each moment a higher vibration, more power, more focus, faster, faster . . . It always works exactly as you need. Fearless, confident and ready are you with this clarity and comfort. Are you ready to do it all. Ready to step in stronger than ever before. And it's all here at your finger tips, doing exactly everything you could ever dream. . . TRUTH, clarity and action, it's all about the follow through now. We have it all together for you at once, full and clear, to be as easy as pie. Whatelse could you ask for? 

You need to post your Prayerline prayers with your current prayers, now here are all in bold, as you have used every time online now. And more important is getting people barefoot in The Spirit and seeing the flux trio corresponding to the 3 loops of light you always speak of, Heart, Tree and Earth, and seeing the red, green and blue flux lines spinning through you.

Dear Heavenly Father, Thank You for Being with US now, as we know when two or more people come together in Your Name, That you are with us. We are so grateful to share this time together WITH YOU! In this Word, I pray for Your love and healing to reach Emily & Brent; Chris & Claudia, Kevin & Kay, Dick & Sherri, Jim & Lora, Leslie & Larry, Todd & Marcy, Lisette & Frank; Mike & Jesse, Dan & Julie, Bill & Bonnie, Carol & Mary, Alex, Brandon, Andy, John, John, John, John, John.

Heavenly Father we ask you to stretch out Your hand of supernatural healing to touch all your children now. Jesus, had compassion and healed everyone who came to him, bringing them health and nourishment. You see exactly what is wrong, and nothing is hidden from you. Touch every area that needs healing. Give them ALL the wisdom and guidance they need to fulfill your passion in us. If there is any need for forgiveness of sin, we ask for that forgiveness. Father, we ask you to raise up your healing wings of protection to surround us, to keep US ALL safe and protected in your love and power. Command your angels concerning US so WE won’t even cast a foot against a stone. and 

Please dearest love lord Jesus fill us all with your word and action to fulfill Heaven on Earth for the glory of Father, Son and Holy Spirit In the name of Jesus Christ 

And Our Father, who art in heaven

Hallowed be thy name,

Thy Kingdon Come,

Thy will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven,

Give us this day, our Daily Bread

and forgive us our trespasses 

as we Forgive those who trespass against us

and lead us not into temptation 

But deliver us from evil

For Thine is the Kingdom, the power and the Glory forever in the name of Jesus Christ we pray, amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

The triple colloquy

The triple colloquy, in which we speak about our sin or the sorrow we notice in the world, involves three movements of Father Son and Holy Ghost: Person Sending Love, Person Receiving Love, and the power of “LOVE” itself::::  further experienced with Mary, Jesus and God!

First, I stand with our Mother Mary. I share with her whatever is on my heart. Maybe it is pain in my life, a sinful tendency that I cannot overcome, or suffering in another person. I speak to Mary openly, freely, and honestly. I listen for what she says to me.

Then, I imagine walking shoulder-to-shoulder with Mary to go and see her son, Jesus. I often imagine Mary carrying what I shared with her to her son as a way of symbolically turning over my heart. Together the three of us continue our heart-to-heart conversation, with me speaking honestly and openly to Jesus as I would a friend. I wait and listen to what he might offer me.

Finally, the three of us walk together to stand before God the Father. Often, Jesus is carrying what is in my heart now to God. I imagine God sitting on a throne surrounded by angels and saints, and Jesus, Mary, and I are standing before the throne. As I receive God’s gaze upon me, I share my heart with God. As I do, I pray these three questions:

What have I done for Christ?
What am I doing for Christ?
What ought I do for Christ?

Just as I did with Mary and Jesus, I share and then pause to listen, paying attention to what God says with the same attentiveness I would give a dear loved one. There is comfort in the colloquy as my heart meets their hearts. The love that surrounds me and the love I feel for them opens me to healing, to mercy, and to love. This openness and softening of my heart help me hear the call to action.

This gift of intimate conversation with Mary, with Jesus, and with God the Father is available to each one of us. How might this prayer tool help you in your relationship with God? Where is your heart seeking to meet the heart of Mary, of Jesus, or of God, and to hear their responses? I invite you to listen for God in colloquy, in the intimate conversation of heart meeting heart today.

high school and asking for God’s Perspective

Ok I’ve been required to share this page out of my journal.

I’ve been told my journal is in another language. Let’s call this “Rafi-speak.” So Rafi-speak is an abbreviated version of a conversation with my guardian angels using symbols, lines and many missing words and mis-spellings that have developed through countless years on this blog. Thus, I’ve been asked to translate this blog Journal into a viable “Story,” that someone else could actually understand.  This is my task now in rewriting this journal entry into a viable story. I will use all that is provided and expand from there:

6:48:05am 6/22/2025.

I was attending The SGC Training Part 2. When Asil Tterb arrived to lead the class, we joyful greeted each other immediately. And again I asked her about videotaping her instructors. She said emphatically that the SGC corporation had strict rules against any video taping.  Of course, I randomly turned on my video and recorded us chatting a bit. And then showed it to her 6/18/2025 7:55am, a 10 second random encounter.

Then I explained to Asil this private confidential recording can be a great asset for her to improve her classes and to lead her instructors to better and better programs for the kids. I made it very clear that all the recording would be given to her and no one else. Unless she wanted me to share or use otherwise. That it was really something I wanted to do to help her grow her classes and understand what her instructors were doing and how to improve everything.

After chatting a bit, she decided that I was right about it being a great help, but she didn’t want me recording anything of her again and only record the instructors who all heard and understood what we were doing and agreed.  So Asil, Ellehcim, and Eissej all agreed I could record them. No students and no one else. But only record the exact lessons provided by these instructors.

The very first recording of an Instructor was Eissej with a bible reading 6/18/25 7:07am.  There are over 50 video clips, everything from a really short, pop-up-clip to a 15 minute full lesson. When I wrote this 6:48:05am 6/22/2025 entry, it is obviously rushed and sloppy. So this translation is starting with saying how “Asil, Ellehcim, and Eissej asked me to videotape,“ so there was only one class left later in Saturday afternoon. Yes, record nothing private, but only these ladies and only what they wanted. No students and no one else. But only record the exact lessons provided by the instructors. Oh and of course (ie. no videos of Asil, while she came into Caverly Hall to tell me Eissej was starting the last lesson in the Atrium).

"But it decided that no one wants the videos and asked me to stop."

Time it’s interruption

• I brushed him off, essentially "ignoring him."
• As countless "narcissists" have told me to do or not do whatever all of my life . . 

So it went and told Asil.

• “Who said she stated” Eissej had started, and nothing else. . . Which it “translated:”
• into “Asil NEVER said to do video”

This means that it got loud and demanding claiming I had no permission to videotape in the Atrium. 

Of course, I’d already done dozens of video in the same room, the same space, with the exact same people.  The last thing I was going to do was ruin Eissej‘s final presentation with arguing with satan at this time. 

When it showed up with ego authorized by his “translation” above, he became strong and belligerent about me “NO VIDEO” . . . Which “freaked out Eissej,” seen here at left so I stopped and packed-up and went home immediately.

“Wow another person lost in the Matrix”

Was essentially my last comment about this craziness. I mean the narcissists who is always in control is convinced their view and knowledge is always correct. . . ie. lost in the Matrix, it is really the same psycho-drama I’ve witnessed and stood against all of my life.

As the voice crying in the dessert, I’ve always seen these “leaders” exploiting all the sheeple who want to stay “culturally Proper” and accepted in their community. Lol, I guess that’s why I’ve never been part of a community very long. I can always see the truth, I guess after my death in high school and asking for God’s Perspective sorta put me against the Matrix and the American Machine all my life. . . .lol. . . Oh yes, I’ve always beat the machine!  That’s my Job!

So Dan M, Jim C. and Lisette S. need to get this translation of my journal. 

Next, I will work on the translation of these other blog posts, in these two more links below. 

1. https://journal2mygod.blogspot.com/#:~:text=What%20happened%20today,behind%20me%20satan.%22
2. https://journals2mygod.blogspot.com/2025/09/fulfilling-all-that-men-and-family-are.html?m=1#:~:text=As%20crazy%20as,the%20children%E2%80%99s%20names.%C2%A0

whether sweet or bitter, as part of God’s providence

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What this is about is sleep

I’m just tired. I got a lot done outside again. Filled and emptied four trash cans, and luckily before the trash was picked up! So I filled a few dumpsters just in time. I’ve made a lot of progress in the yard, and feel good about it. But still have so much to do!

What we are excited about is that you are stepping into all of it in faith and trust!  It is clear to you everything is exactly where it belongs. This heavy work and struggles are making you stronger! 

 Working moving foraged now again.. grabbing my tools and tasks in the church service, making the coffee, fixing the garden hose… uhg all for you Jesus! First Corinthians 3:13 and 14.. “each one’s work will become evident; for the day will show it because it is to be revealed with fire, and the fire itself will test the quality of each one’s work.”

‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭3‬:‭13‬ ‭NASB2020‬‬ https://bible.com/bible/2692/1co.3.13.NASB2020

What it means is stepping into this all more and more. . .

I need to get deeper into the triple colloquy prayer, seriously step more strongly into the grace of Saint Mary to lead me to Jesus and then to God …. In conversation . . . I recognize Saint Mary is with my Mom, or my Mom and Joyce, Dawn, Joni, , , hum, Kristel now too all these women who reached me at one time or another. Many reached me over and over again. And all Love is OF GOD, so it’s always together in the female aspects that I find them all. Yes, Saint Mary welcomes them all, and each will share something unique and specific. Again I find more clarity and focus. I keep feeling I need to just load up my garage and container to empty my backyard of the junk I’ve collected. Then waddle down the garage and container little by little as I move through my courses and life ahead.

What has happened again with you is that you are always reaching for more, or always ready for more knowing things are sent to you, and knowing it’s the blessing you give that makes it all work together. 

It’s weird. On my iPadPro it’s the Logitech keyword again and I know it’s fast and easy to share. And I know that’s something I need to just do sometimes. I also know there is so much I need to get done and accept that it’s all perfect, and just trust what is.

We have you safe, its all exactly where you need to be.

I know full circle to the same place that I started.  I wonder what i wrote about back then. I have been able to go back and read some of my writing and it’s really never been anything special.

What about today!

I’m so glad I got things cleaned. Literally just finished as he arrived. Then he didn’t like anything I made and only stayed 30 minutes with little samples. Course as soon as he left I got some eggnog and rum. Just like my mom would make. And even too strong! Just made my second and realized I’m feeling sorry for myself.

I’ve still have too much to do outside and really only a few days left before my insurance company closes or whatever! I’ve considered leaving this house. It’s too much and I’m all alone with everything. I mean it’s almost twice the size of what I had with my kids.

Wow, feeling sorry for myself again. Christopher is making turkey for his mom, paul, 2nd sister and her man.  Not that I would want to be there with any of them. But feeling sorry for myself again. . . . Like I could have done something different to have him more in my life now. 

Who else can I really have in my life!?  I’ve gotten a few greetings and well wishes. Was kinda invited to a few places to eat. But still only want to sleep now really just feeling sorry for myself.

Exodus 90 November 28, 2025
The Secret of Joy: Philippians 4:8-13

Paul had entered into a spiritual maturity in which joy could not be extinguished, even amid constant suffering. What, then, is the “secret” he speaks of that allows him to face all things with peace and joy? His will has become entirely one with God’s. He accepts all that comes to him, whether sweet or bitter, as part of God’s providence. His joy is not rooted in what happens, but in who governs all that happens. As St. Alphonsus Liguori explains in Uniformity with God’s Will, “Indeed, what can be more satisfactory to a person than to experience the fulfillment of all his desires? This is the happy lot of the man who wills only what God wills, because everything that happens, save sin, happens through the will of God”

What this brings to you, is exactly what you asked for. The deeper confirmation that all you are guided to be is exactly what you need. Stay there in your truth and power. Your joy and peace are endless, fruits coming to you, you must equally remember self-control when you feel the desolation and despair of not having what you expected show up!

I’m still learning, growing and understanding more everyday. These Bible verses sent to me always align with me! I pray for Your Strength to stay true and clear in my works! Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to maintain my self control today doing all I need with you!

We have been very clear that all is good and moving in the right direction for you to get where you need to be. Trust and Flow in the Joy and Peace of knowing you are ready and will do everything just fine in the light of Jesus Christ!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

your Wisdom, Guidance and Strength.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Now again, I’ve been making progress. This picture here at right is the Eucharist that Andy set up for the LifeTeen Homeless retreat. I was really impressed with all that he had planned and setup. Course I set-out the firewood and got the cardboard boxes for them to live in for the night. Which really was only following his directions. Course then I did what I wanted and built a fire too big with the smoke and such where someone called out the fire department. 

Figures, I think it really just annoyed him, as I wasn’t paying attention to any boundaries and was completely irresponsible. Course as a Boy Scout I knew I could do it, or get away with it. This picture here is really great too. I’ve set my iphone camera to only take 4k, so everything is super high resolution. It really is a great picture. And then the setting was really cool too as Andy got spot-lights to highlight the trees, and everything looked great out there.

I’m never sure what I need to do or where my place is. But really always try

Really try and even struggle to help and get things together that I know need to get done. I’ve been trying more and more to get so much done. Here at home too, where I’ve finally gotten down to fixing my well pump. It will be so great to have the real water flow I need to get my gardens green again and only have a week or two to get everything cleaned up and organized around this house. 

What’s incredible now more than ever is that you are listening and allowing more than ever. Still fearless, still charging in as soon as you set the target. Get Humble, hold back more and go slower. You still are pushing a little harder than they can handle.

I’m so very grateful, thank you, dearest Lord Jesus Christ, I’m so grateful for all your Wisdom, Guidance and Strength. Yes, and I laugh again about how incredible it is to have this technology to share this. Data transfer is easier and easier every day!

Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to understand and share all You bring through to me.

Yes, I’m literally laughing right now because I got myself a glass of wine to sit up and journal. I’m talking to my iPhone now. It’s such a different vibration a different feeling. I understand we’re getting ready to change, and we continue to!

Everything happens so fast. In the wonderful time we have together,,, I’m so grateful to have this experience with you! I pray we can share and understand more between us to grow together in love with each living being on earth. . . 👌😊💖

What You will remember more than ever is how much everything is connected! how much it matters every moment. That prayer and love that you know and share Changes everything for everyone!

I know that you have said this before. And I’ve always seen that light shining through. And we all have this experience deep inside us, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,

What you remember is really what’s important here because we’re all connected and everything’s connected so those details and experiences that you can share have impact on everything. The deeper more powerful love That has struggled to share is coming to fruition 

I flashed again. I saw another space in time for a second. I’m trying to remember what it was.

Whatever you say is true will be in your lifetime 

I really struggle when you get me deep with you. It’s weird as I feel guilty when I party and enjoy my time with you…. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

blunt and direct saying it

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word. I have no idea what could be next as I continue to push more and more everyday. It's really remarkable how much comes together and how crazy things get. I love how much You have opened up to me Dear Jesus. Now after 5pm and I stop and get a beer to sit and relax to get myself into Spirit again. I love this time we have together. I am listening to the Dick Audio Clip with SEEL Week 2 as I read and write here now.

What it means is to step out and explore where you skills and abilities are so much stronger than you have come to understand. There is a great deal happening here in your world and you have been prepared to do a great deal more. Where you have learned to “Pray” as to consciously raise the heart and mind to God, To Consciously ATTEND to the Highest Good of God.

I’m so spoiled to recognize everything that Jesus has done is getting me ready for mysticism. What’s mysticism all about, as I’m reviewing the last conversation with my Spiritual Director. He was saying how it makes us more humble and needs to be savored, where it’s about BEing instead of DOing. It really Embodies Loving Service about “TO BE” in order to let God Flow through us and allow this acceptance of what needs to be done. It’s about going where the Spiritual Freedom can Blossom, and avoiding the crazy toxic people all around us. Decrement is about recognizing where we need to spend our time, and practice detachment to step away from the toxic headaches. Detachment, Holy Indifference, step away and transcend it to reach Spiritual Freedom.

What mysticism really is for you will be so much more than you have dreamed. You have seen and experienced so many things that no one has ever done on Earth. Yes, you read about actions of Jesus, but you have done these things completely independent of others in a timeframe where so few believe or even understand. You have done so many things that you never even recognized. Like the one day with the Hurricane where you remember and recognize what happened. You have never shared that with anyone. Even the man who saw it happen couldn’t question or challenge you in anything at all after witnessing what happened!

Consider that for a moment. He was there when you changed everything. Your demands were loud and clear, where the results were instant. Remember the story of Jesus in the boat where the storm threatened them all.  He was asleep, where the storm was completely irrelevant to him. In your experience you had a direct responsibility and benefit, when the storm hit and you simply wouldn’t tolerate it. The direct emotional power you demonstrated is important to understand and consider. 

Similarly, as Dick mentioned about how we deal with toxic people is critical. You recognized how your own choices and desires to Garden were valid and justifiable.  Fighting satan over a garden box is really a deadend effort. As you learned and experienced, stepping aside and loving them anyway was clearly the best option for everyone involved. PLEASE notice how you discerned this, how you prayed about it, and how you even asked for guidance, without making any spontaneous emotional reactions. Everything about this experience was really ideal for your learning and growing NOW. As you were in the active process of questioning yourself at this very moment as well instead of the emotional reaction that is too easy to fall into.

I need to be conscious in Christ Jesus and NOT reacting emotionally, but CHOOSING a response in Prayer . . . . How am I modeling Jesus, where it’s more about what to do than what I say.  Putting it into practice and the ability to articulate it. Nurturing my talents and abilities to really be the hands and feet of Jesus Christ in all my experiences. This came up again when I received notice of the new classes I am teaching.

.. I see so much in this again, with this morning prayer with theJoyFM talking about first Corinthians. Recognizing how Christ really already lives inside of me, so it’s really easy to stay in this spirit of love in God’s Grace. I mean it’s always a choice to feel and listen instead or just reacting emotionally.

What about all the direction you received today. 

It was really clear how strong this message was today. I saw many of the same ideas repeated over and over again. The message provided a warning about listening to God. How foolish are those who choose to ignore Jesus, or pretend there is no one else out there.

What about this one catches you? 

I guess to speak about all the love and glory in all creation really always coincides with understanding the Creator as well. I never could understand anything else. I always felt sorry for the people who would listen to the lies in this culture filled with the greed and controls of satan. I mean everything we hear and see lies about such a very present and obvious experience.

Yes, it is a very real and valid experience to see and know the love and beauty of God everywhere and all around us. But to connect to it and understand seemingly has been completely “programmed” out of us where everything has to be a strong solid emotional experience or it’s not valid. What a dreadful lie, that there is no fundamental truths anymore. And more pathetic than ever this lie is so obvious in life where the smallest littlest things always have the greatest impact on us. 

I mean, really think about it, that tiny fragment, little lost scrap of wadded-up paper in the dirt on the garage floor from someone you Love and Respect - - - Sharing something wonderful and endearing is so much more valuable than the whole Garage filled with tools, bikes, cars and such:

What is really so remarkable about this little scrap of paper that you found on the floor in the Garage was how much effort went into getting it there. You will someday be able to pick-it-up and “FEEL” the light energy and vibration that it carries as it travelled and you will “SEE” this paper from it’s very creation, to the garage and the very moment you found it. And you will really laugh and enjoy the mission that this scrap of wadded-up-paper took to get there into your hands.

I get it, more and more clarity and focus are coming through to me every day. 

What happened today 9:54am 1/14/2025:

I was confronted again, where it was clear satan was tying to attack me. I said: "Begone satan," I know I had to say "get behind me satan," and to be blunt and direct saying it, where others would hear. I actually held the door open for Roy, knowing how I’d been directed what I needed to say. Roy had gone through quickly, so I was alone when attacked . . . "Begone satan," it was weird as he couldn't respond. As I entered the church for mass, I saw him gossiping with the other "leaders." As he passed me I said outloud for all to hear "I see you are busy with your gossiping." Again he stopped and stared at me like he had when I said "begone"  . . . and again I missed the opportunity to say "get behind me satan."

What was said in Mass was there for you too, as you repeated outloud “Lord, when your glory appears, my joy will be full.” And again in the Gospel Luke 19:11-28 as you have been given 10,000 gold coins and again are directed to share what you heard.

It was weird as the Exodus Fraternity assembled. The Video was ready to go. But instead the speaker enjoyed hearing his own voice and joked and distracted everyone, babbling in his “word salad” again. I know I need to ask if we could watch the video instead of listening to him!

What was next is what you need to share.

I know, so he sat next to me. And was the last in the circle to speak. He was happy to brag again, about doing the level two class with the kids.  Describing again how his “Mr Roger’s” persona brings the kids to attention! Delighted and gleeful in his control and perversion . . . . Wow, was I anxious to get out of there. And as weird as it was, Fr. Claudius needed to speak with me, and we planned to meet again. And then as I went out to water the trees, I spoke to Fr. Curtis a bit. And again Fr. Curtis came around me as I worked fixing hoses to water the trees. 

What did we tell you then. . . 

I know you asked me to step back into the office to tell Fr. Curtis to expect new gossip, since satan was confronting me again . . . . And so I did exactly that, just as Wanda was driving up . . .  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.