what I had done and where it would place me

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Wow, what a week. Or maybe it's been a month or two. Wow it feels like many months. I have figured out more each day as I go along.

I guess I will start with Helene. We had a giant hurricane go by off-shore. It was 160 miles away, but the storm surge into the Tampa Bay was over 6 feet of water. Countless people in church and along the coast were flooded out. Yes, 2-3 feet of water into a house that never got wet before. Yes, I already wrote about this and how busy I was helping families and all. Then we had our Wednesday night Welcome Team meeting. On my bike ride home I got into an accident or something.

Morning meal,

I remember leaving the church close to 9pm and biking across the parting lot. Then I awoke in the hospital at 2am . . . They told me I had a concussion and six cracked ribs. WHAT? They couldn't tell me anything more. No one knew how I got there or what had happened to me. When I asked the nurses, they found my bike was in the garage, but nothing else. The physical therapist came in and asked about my house and how many steps I had. They told me I had to be able to walk up steps before they could send me home. When the nurse finally told me I could leave, I was ready to go. They called a cab and I waited over an hour. Wow, was that guy a jerk, but I got home with my bike and gave him twenty bucks anyway. I was so happy to get home, I walked in and about fell into the new queen bunk that Carlos and I had installed.

What we have been waiting for is all the lessons you put together from Exodus 90. Each day you heard more and more related to these experiences you have had, and what you learned.

An Angel checking in on me!

5:30pm 10/15/2024 . . . . I know it's always about sharing Your Word! I'm really struggling trying to keep up. First I'm in pain. Second I can't sleep too well. Third I seem to get more and more stressors coming at me all the time. I try to keep up and share and lead as best as I can, whenever I can. It's really not easy and for the most part is getting more and more difficult to follow and understand and keep up with. Worse still whenever I get comfortable enough for just a moment to read, or write, or blog, or whatever I need to do, then suddenly another mosquito shows up biting me somewhere. I can't seem to get any peace or solitude to stay focused and work on anything. I finally went shopping today and got myself some beer, so I’m ready to have my end-of-the-day beer already. But I'm still swatting at mosquitoes. . . I even broke off a key from my laptop trying to get a mosquito with my flyswatter.

What did you do now?

1:26pm 10/17/2024 I found my nest of breeding mosquitoes. It was literally right next to me on the counter, where I had setup my latest vegetable seeding bed. I was frustrated with the mess I make outside. I never felt like the seeding beds were working, and usually were a big mess. Yes, so I had to try to get one going inside. Of course, I literally took some seedlings out yesterday and planted them. 

Anyway, today Dick started me with SEEL again, or the “Spiritual Exercises for Everyday Living.” And I started reading in the book at the very beginning again. Yes, I read, sometimes, just a little, believe it or not! Anyway it wasn’t page 2 of my Ignatian Adventure book that begins with the story of a law student… lol, you’ll laugh at the legal treatise I sent to my Exodus Brothers yesterday….  Oh yea, so Page 2 in the book has my first Highlight, now bolder, darker and needing more attention… “To whom much is given, much is expected.”

Uhg, the story of my life!

Which I also posted to my "Men of God" group that I created on the Apple Chat service. I realized how I've been working this Team of Brothers to help me step deeper into my place and responsibility. Wow, I guess this has been in my face over and over today. This morning the Exodus reading was about Wisdom. And so I sent it to Lisette as we recognized and talked about this being the highest and most critical request. It's one thing to ask God for things, the Greatest request is to see as “God Sees” . . . I'm totally perplexed how many times I've come back to explaining to people how to ask for God's perspective.

 

I've always said that asking for God's Perception in all things is ideal. What does God want, what is the best to give in Love. But then I have said this is what it means to have "grown up in the Woods." Yes, listening to the life in the woods and seeking for the guidance of life, from life in all things. And God IS all life in the Woods, so all the Light and Love we feel through the woods is the experience of God. Knowing the unity and omnipresence of God, is seeing and experiencing God in ALL Life and then the Woods is all God.

I sent this Exodus readings to Lisette and I went to find a YouTube to listen to while making breakfast. Yes it's nice to continue in Spirit instead of the gossip on the radio. I guess my last YouTube visit was listening to the Eucharist Conference with Bishop Barron. So I jumped right into this sermon above from Bishop Barron on Sunday about wisdom, of course. What was so neat about this is how he was so clear and focused about God asking us, “What do we really really want”

What did you remember and write about?

I know, so OK here we go again. I remembered not wanting to wake up in the hospital after my motorcycle accident at 16. No I didn’t wanna come back. No, I wasn’t ready for anything, so God in his infinite Grace asked me ”what would I come back for?”  if He could give me anything, ”what would it be?” Oh, I grew up in the woods, so that was an easy thing to say. I wanted the world returned to Eden. I wanted the love and the beauty of the woods to be everywhere for everyone. God created this awesome Garden of Eden and I knew we belong in it. What else could I ask for?!

What was great about this moment was you were really specific and wanted to see the world as God had Dreamed and Planned. You were tired of the greed and selfishness of the American Machine. And of course, we want nothing more for all the people of Earth. Begging God to bring humanity back into the Garden of Eden was real noble and wonderful. However, do you remember God has never left The Garden and it was man's choice to leave, so such a request is up to you, not God at all. 

I know you’re so good at flipping things around on top of me again. So this spin is that we need to make the choice to return ourselves. So the spin asking You to bring us back, had to shift to leading men back. Now my Deepest Desire was to guide mankind back to this choice! I guess what I really was seeking, or asking, was for the guidance and wisdom to lead man back to this Garden of Eden With God! I knew there had to be a way for us to return. I know Jesus had brought us home from our sins to restore our relationship with God. And now returning home was about developing this relationship.

12:12pm 10/19/2024 As I remember returning to life after that accident, the desire was to understand “how.” How do we restore ourselves in the Garden of Eden? How does this become possible? What steps do we take to move into that space? What steps do we take to restore the Earth to its original beauty? What can we do as a race to bring us back to where we belong in this relationship with God?

How could it be all designed? How could we restore the original design? It is all a choice for us.

What you first wrote is remarkably similar to this. The key here is how specific you were about your love of God. The deepest desire expressed over and over was about fulfilling the Dreams and Plans of God. You never questioned what they were or what your place and benefit were. You were specific about God. Fulfilling God. No personal gain or desire, no need to succeed or attain something. But you were focused on The Goals of the Other, in real Love of Other. That is real pure Love! When we spun it back on you saying that you had left us, your question then became how you could change this. How you personally, could help bring mankind back to the Garden of Eden? Once again, the deepest desire expressed was about fulfilling the love of Divinity you had seen and witnessed in your youth, lost in the woods.

I get it, but the problem that I still see was that all I pursued was “How.” How is it possible? How can this change? How do we return to Eden? It was always about understanding how I get it, but the problem that I still see was that all I pursued was how. How is it possible? How can this change? How do we return to Eden? It was always about an action “HOW.” I was serious about understanding an action. Understanding how! Your answer never made any sense to me and I’m still searching https://patents.google.com/patent/US20070170306

What we did, in allowing this exploration to continue, was allow you to create and express your own vision and love. Pressing your own deepest desires to fulfillment brings forth your own passion. Your own love, and your own creation evolved into expression. The beauty and Grace of God’s gift inside of you comes forward in Word!

What your deepest desire became was the strongest love and truth you could know and express. And if you remember when we left you to explore this on your own the Dream and Visions that evolved were life changing throughout the Earth. You have heard and seen many aspects of your dream appear over and over again!

You continue to discount this and pretend to be humble, but deep down inside you know how much you shifted everything: http://www.starsusa.org/homestead/files/Dreams.htm

What is remarkable still is how little mankind has learned or explored these deeper truths you pursued. Wanting to know "how" was more than seeking the Wisdom and the Prudence, it was about stepping into the role of Creator as well. As you were passionate about “how to“ not simply "how." Beyond the knowledge and skills, you were focused on the actions and timing of creation and transmutation that are so far beyond. 

I guess so, I never had considered that aspect. And now as I remember how the visions and experiences seemed to be something so simple. I really never knew what I had done and where it would place me in the future. I'm really not sure what to do on where this will bring me. I've been perplexed about how to express what I've learned and understand. I've struggled to be and express so much since the beginning Words with you!

What we are doing is putting you into the place where all things can move forward

I get it and I simply need to move forward.
Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

learn and grow more everyday.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! Jesus is giving me everything I need to do, what I need to do, and the insight to to get help and guidance is an additional blessing. You know more about it than I do and it’s really cool to know I can keep talking with you!

I can also write as I want, and learn and grow more everyday. . . Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to Fulfill for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost!

What happened this week.

We had a big Hurricane Helene come up the coast again to slam into the panhandle. All the crazy propaganda and fear-mongering the media does gets people so strongly.  I still tell people about the Love Vortex here, so it will never affect me. But hundreds got flood damage, Kevin even told me there was 1-2 feet of water in his house. Wow, I told him he was welcome to stay here if he wants. And then sent him Derek next door contact information, since Derek has been trying to rent out his house. And it sounds like Kevin will need to move out for his house to get it cleaned out and repaired.

Todd and Fr. Curtis posted a few times that we needed to meet after mass to go out and help all those who had been flooded. Thankfully Todd assigned me to Kevin’s house, then gave me his generator. Kevin had no power yet. He had only seen his house that morning before church, and it still had a few inches of water in it. I had my carpet cleaner vacuum and bunches of tools in my truck. We got the generator started and I spent most the day getting all the water out. Wow, I had two vacuums going for while and was so happy to get most of the layer of dirt out too. . . But my carpet cleaner got fried.

Then we did it all again the next day, and I was asked about a refugee family in my house. I was even offered $2000 a month for them to stay in my house. Wow, how perfect that would be. I said how Heysus had helped get the space in order but I really needed to get another bed in there. So I found someone to help and we were off to my house to get it done. Wow, Carlos was great to work with!

11:31 10/1/24 ok, so it’s a day later, and the 10 AM appointment was canceled with the refugee family. So I called Apple to see if I could get the iPads fixed. What a pain in the ass, as they wanna go back over everything again because they didn’t keep records of what they did already. What a bunch of idiots. I’m tired and frustrated again. I feel like I’m spinning my wheels. Leslie has me working at another house again cleaning up after the storm. 

Kevin took me out for dinner last night, saying how he wanted to buy a new house now instead of trying to fix the one that flooded. He knows it’ll flood again, as all of them will be soon. I kind of talked to Heysus a bit about my feelings about storms, saying how we're barely starting now and already we’ve blown every record that we’ve had in this area.

Hurricane Helene with Hombre Heysus was really powerful here at my house. He walked the neighborhood and said that I was the only one that wasn’t touched, while most everybody had damaged. He spoke a lot about dedicating his life to Jesus, and loving the Power of the Spirit so clear and strong at St Raphael’s Church. Gabriel at Church said he drove around his neighborhood and saw high watermarks everywhere, the West Coast flooded up to First Street all the way up to 62nd Ave. Joe looking out his condo window downtown, had commented how everything was filled up to Beach Street with water too.

October 3rd. Again, I recognize how important it is for me to write. I really had a powerful dream again last night. All I remember was a very pretty dark woman who was really strong and clear with me. I’m not sure what we were doing or what was happening, but I remember waking up and wanting to get right back into that dream again with her. I thought about writing it out, but I couldn’t remember anything except the feeling.  Yes, very strong and clear emotions again. It’s interesting, sometimes these dreams feel like I’m not even here anymore, where I literally float off somewhere else. 

What is important is these emotions where you recognize the love and power of family in love. 

I get it. Bill said yesterday he wasn't going to pay any of my bills that he compiled for Saint Vincent de Pauls. Of course, I realized that so many people are way worse off than me now, so paying my bills would really be irresponsible. Course I might have my iPhone and all shutoff now as everything is behind now. It's interesting as I also have the AirBnB suit getting a response as well as my foreclosure coming up too. Yes, so everything comes at once. Yes as my new classes starts too.

October 7th. Wow it is really too much too quickly. But I guess I always asked for everything to change at once!

We tried to tell you, that you were asking for so much, that was really going to be overpowering to so many people. Sure you have always been able to handle anything, now saving others has been your desire.

I Get it that you’re trying to get me closer and closer to my community. And this is your community, so you really want me to do this with you? Very carefully and slowly with you. So many people have come into your community claiming to be Jesus and end up blowing it all the pieces.

What Is critical here, more than ever. is that you just saw this happen. When Heysus came into your space, you recognized he was closer to Jesus than most people you’ve spoken to. Allowing Jesus to live through him is the whole point of everything, but he wasn’t humble, he needs to be humble, not proud and boastful.

Is that what this is all about for me, is it getting my ass kicked over again, so I stay humble? I’m always on a bike and I’m always ready to help people, but then I’m never able to call for help. Is that what I need to learn now, is how to call for help? As crazy as this seemed, Lisette arrived soon after I wrote this. Her first comment was that the bed I was on was too low. It’s trouble and dangerous to climb up. I knew she was right. And thought for a second that it was my last chance to move upstairs.

I asked her if she could move me upstairs. She was ready to pull me up that moment. So I asked her to prepare the food she brought for me on a tray to put on my bed upstairs. And I said I would get up and walk upstairs, she gave me a pain pill, saying to let it soak in a while before I moved.  Soon I was up and she was back, so I said how all the computers and towels on the bed needed to be moved upstairs, too. Wow, she was quick!  And I was so blessed. She had already packed her house to leave the area, as the state called for a full evacuation now. I’m not in any evacuation zone, but everyone near the church is. When she sent me a text about dropping-off some food before evacuation, I already felt blessed. Then she spent another hour moving me upstairs! 😆🤗😃

What about this storm, we’re finding more and more power and focus every day. Shifting hurricanes, and telling them where to go makes it hard to be humbling. There’s something you’ve done before. You simply must do it again, again that’s part of your job as well as sharing that with the people you love.

I get it, but does it have to be so violent and destructive everywhere.

What you already saw was a close drive-by, 160 miles away. So you get a direct hit and you have no damage, what does that mean? 160 mile drive-by that you didn’t worry about and everybody got slammed but you. Of course, now a direct hit that you pray and focus about for their lives and safety makes everybody clear and strong in spirit.

I Guess this is why you want me to start writing about it right now

What do you think? Will anybody pay attention if you don’t talk about it ahead of time?

I get it, I get it

What happens is that you understand things at a different level, so you’re able to shift things at a different level, and you say that and you do that because Jesus is with you, and having Jesus with you is what makes everything work. Being unemployed for four years and playing around with technology is what Jesus asked you to do, you’ve been provided for us because Jesus provides for what he asked you to do. You’ve done really well following directions so you always come out ahead. It’s very obvious to the discerning, but most people don’t look into all these details. Or closely examine the statements about a hurricane bouncing off Saint Petersburg like a top. It's very logical and simple, but requires time and careful attention.

I  get it, all my neighbors are gone, everything is locked down and boarded up… except me. I crashed on my bike instead, so I can only lay in bed and pray about it. It’s really kind of weird for me now, because I’m freezing to death and I know that I should’ve shut off the AC upstairs, but it was hot when I get up here. I knew I’d have to turn it off sooner or later. But I’m so comfortable and relaxed. I don’t wanna put myself into the pain to get up. I know I can pray away hurricanes, so you think I can pray away the AC problem, or the cold, or whatever I have to pray for.

What Does this make you feel about your place and purpose now before us?

I know it’s always about sharing the love of Jesus. I seem to make it too complicated all the time, but it’s really simple and obvious. You just want me to do more love and glory in your name. I know it’s always the name of Jesus that makes everything possible for me, so why not be more specific and focused with it now?

What did Heysus show you?

I knew I was in love of Jesus more than ever, I knew my understanding of this love and energy about me was very physical and real. I also knew that everything I’ve been doing was right on target, because his obvious understanding had shifted his whole life, though I felt like he had the smallest of insights possible. What was cool about Heysus was that when I shared with him the next step, it was very obvious that he understood and stepped into it immediately. Of course, I’m not really sure if that was a good idea or not.

What was more important than anything was that you were able to talk about things that you’ve done for so long, where you had the direct experience and understood how you were guiding him. Yes, apparently it went to his head and his ability to be humble disappeared. But as you noticed he was not wanting to acknowledge the fear and insecurity. Following Jesus is about recognizing The Holy Spirit Over you, and expressing that divinity is a grace and a responsibility that we have to carry forward instead of assuming that we can step beyond it all now.

I Get scared that I’m trying to step beyond it all now instead of asking you for guidance. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to pray and share your love, strength and beauty more than ever in this moment together at night!

I don’t know what I’m gonna do

Thank You Jesus Christ I’ve got my rosary, my cell phone, and my glasses, wow so I can at least do something. I can barely move because I’m in so much pain. Yeah, I wiped out on my bike again, this time it’s 8 ribs. Last time it was only two ribs so I wasn’t in so much pain. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I’m trying to talk to my phone to put in my blog so that I can get some help.

So I reach out to Kevin and Leslie, and the fraternity to ask for help. I need to get a pillow under my head. I need to get my laptop. I need to get some breakfast and I need a can to pee in…ouch.

Of course, I’m not sure I’ll be able to read this or share it. I don’t have any idea but at least I got the ideas down. I am hurting so much I do not want to move at all.

What happened

I’m really not sure, I just woke up in the hospital… all I REMEMBERED is biking across the Church parking lot heading home!

2:27 10/10/2024 and now I’m home again, alone. In pain, but in a space of total blessing!

What happened, I when you awoke from my dream again

I’m at Peace and ease, knowing that another giant storm has passed, leaving me virtually untouched and in perfect care.  The last thing I did before I slept, was cry through the luminous mysteries of the rosary, as I prayed for protection and the love and light of a dear friend. I never have done the rosary with only my cards and not a soundtrack and a group of people. It was just me and Jesus, with the little printed cards I made. I kept crying because I knew the dear sweet family that cared for me. The last few years was leaving. Of course I wanted to reach out and convince them that they had to stay. Tell them how wonderful it was that we had this community together. I also know, we all have our time in place to go.

What happened Actually happened last night?

I’m always Protected and know I can survive anything. So I’m essentially fearless throughout my life and experience. I was actually terrified hearing the gusts of wind and the noise outside, knowing that the largest hurricane I’ve ever heard was outside my door. Each of my children actually called me, asking me to get out, saying that such a large hurricane and a direct hit was not a safe place to be. When I woke, I found how we had all lost a secret little pack of Christmas decorations.

Yes, you heard that right, I had the distinct feeling and vision that many homes in the area had lost this one patch of beauty that they had created for themselves. Then I rolled around in my bed, still stiff and  sore and I noticed how clear the space was except one small pile. I had created a pile of books, cards, tools close by me in my bed to share with Jesus. Yes, I only kept stuff that I needed to share with Jesus. I had the incredible revelation that somehow another family down the road, discovered that all their beautiful decorations are completely fine and not destroyed, as all our other neighbors’ have been. How could a storm come through so powerful, so distractive, and then also so selective to only destroy a secret little pack of Christmas decorations? And still more perplexing, to allow one family to retain all of theirs essentially untouched.

What happened was that you realized and accepted your place with Jesus. Yes, we all have a place. We have all have a responsibility. We all have a partnership that we can carry forward to share and to lead. He found the family with the perfect collection of Christmas decorations, all wrapped up and saved untouched and damaged; while neighbor after neighbor had only lost their own private collection. Why would a storm come through an area to clear out decorations?

I’m all Kind of perplexed and wondering how I can still be awake or alive. I’m surprised to find my iPad connected online and essentially no power or nothing anywhere else. It’s completely perplexing to see and realize how much of a gift I have, how much beauty I have, all here in my home to share with others in the love of Jesus

What else happened?

I remember seeing the image of the hurricane hitting the south edge of tampabay, it essentially Missed Tampa and slammed in the Sarasota. I Knew that the southern passing would mean that all the water was pulled out of the Bay. So all those families that had flooded last week would see the water pulled out completely. I guess it doesn’t really change all the damage and impact from the last storm. But this does make it clear to me that I should be a lot more specific with my prayers. 

What happens now?

I’m convince that I’m in exactly the place that I need to be. That I should continue with everything that I’m doing is more clarity and more focus. That means I’m teaching more classes, spending more time at my church helping with the choir and kids and anything and everything I can do there. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ Thank you for filling my life with your word, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to fulfill your glory.