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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 7.58pm

What?

It's just been really crazy everywhere. I'm still not sure about what I am doing so much of the time but whenever anyone asks me to do anything I just jump all over it. So I guess John and Cecile are really happy, because they are about the only people who ask for anything of me. So I jump all over it. It's almost like I don't need to do anything else, not even for my classes.

Like tonight I just read the chapter for my entrepreneur class tomorrow. It was about being honest with yourself and realistic about your own skills. Wow, that's almost funny, since that is really all that I am about. I just jump on things and blow them away. Like this morning I called Scott in the Parks Department. And I left a message just saying hey it's been over a year and this mulch is still here. DEP has regulations about storing fill and EPA has fines for fill on a landfill. So next week I'll tell my attorney to write them.

He called back in no time and basically said the same thing he's said all along. And I really don't care, I might get a letter sent anyway. Then I realized I also need to get my Bike Rack sold and get some more patents done, as well as my roof under construction. . . . . Which are all attorney letters.

More and more to do. Then I'm finding more every moment as well. It's almost funny how much I try to do and all. Really weird in fact.

What did you miss. You read about things you've been thinking of.

I know, it's that I really just decided that I wanted to make my living doing things that I love to do. I mean, I know I'm not going anywhere and the whole world will be saved, almost by accident . . . I can do anything, still . . . So I need to get into the place where I have the most fun and joy in my life . . . Which means chanting full time for me. And I instantly feel the children. Like everyone having children here, and I just teach and play 24/7 . . . Like perfect joy and freedom flashed through me.

WOW, I just saw like my kids and me doing that same stuff all over again. It was like this flash into wonderland and they could feel it too. Course now they see through the program they've gotten into. I guess it's something we each have to go through on our own. Soon we figured that we could do anything at all and did it in truth with Your Love!

What is next is all up to you. You feel and see the Tantric Dreams that they all feel. The Mayan Rituals were where you all started. Everyone can feel that. It is exactly as you see. Countless energies and Beings coming together fearlessly through your Spirit. You have really come a long way and will certainly be surprised again as this comes together.

I know I love you Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You for Your Love, Body and Blood for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost. . . Amen.

We are very happy with the things you are doing, as they each fill a place to make everyone free in this Spirit!

I told Sharon about the Garden Spot food company this morning and how I want to set up in the BSN Courtyard. But I never said how I could perform there too which would create a completely different flair to it all. Everytime I think about it the details get more and more specific. The GardenSpot CUP . . . Another patent of something so very simple and useful . . . Then she went off asking me about patents. . .

What happened?

It was weird I just went over and checked the email at my office and I did one backwards. And John responded for me taking the blame and defending his troops. It's really honorable and considerate. And then I read the next message and the numbers in the time are opposite this first one. And my actions were opposite in each as well. . . Or reactions? . . . Where John covered up my fuck up in the top one, while another author said how super it all went for them.

What do you expect.

I really try not to expect anything. But "super" all the time would be nice. I know and feel so very much all the time too. It's such a trip to feel all the power and focus created in any situation. lol. . . like I realized how the BSN Plan class all went about perfect. The one guy who had been leading and pushing it all along came to realize that STARS was the perfect vehicle to pull it off. I never tried to push one way or anything. And so cool, and I tell him Scott's on the Board too. Course Scott taught the first 30 minutes of the last class anyway. . . So he's flipped over it.

Now I realized what that could really mean. Then immediately I flew into visions of USF business deals and student groups and everything all over again. Complete systems and scenarios all working together perfectly, like planned from the beginning of time. Each fitting together like the never ending magic of nature where the earth and environment bounce back and forth between levels of existence. Suddenly I was in complete Joy and Peace where everything worked together perfectly.

What did you see now . . .

I guess it falls into another 1776, declaration of independence where all taxes and governments are gone. People Loving the sharing, working together for themselves and just leaving each other in joy. . . . lol . . . Wow that picture flashes into the same places all the time. Like it's all done already, and I'm just coming along to watch it grow. . . . .

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

7:18:35 PM

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

I awoke in a dream kissing. It was nice and wonderful. So I chanted and did another affirmation. Then I edited and re-edited this email to Lyn and sent it. She knew I sent it and wasn't sure what to expect but was filled with desire and anticipation. It feels like it will be a surprise for her. But I've been talking with her all day. She's really with me again and I'm glad. Though I can't wait until she makes something happen between us.

I know there are a hundred thousand other things I need to do. And I really have been pushing all kinds of things in all different directions. It's funny; she's come through so much, and I've told her she's going to be working for me next time. I already showed her I can easily meet all her fantasies . . . happily and very easily! So now she's going to have to get busy meeting mine… lol… life is good!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

wow finding more and more

: "Like the Madrid Codex, the Dresden and Paris codices also contain a number of almanacs structured according to the 260-day tzolk'in calendar. Almanacs represent only one component of the Dresden Codex, however, which is unique in terms of the Maya codices in having astronomical tables that include Long Count dates. (The Long Count system of dating is commonly used on Classic period monuments to anchor historical events that are centered around the lives of the ruling family in time.) These tables were designed to track solar and lunar eclipses; the appearance and disappearance of Venus in the night sky; and the positioning of Mars against the constellations. Astronomical instruments occur in both the Paris and Grolier codices as well. A series of thirteen constellations representing the Maya "zodiac" appears on pages 23-24 of the Paris Codex (illustrated below), and the Grolier Codex contains an incomplete almanac that has many similarities to the Dresden Venus table."

8:05:26 AM

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Tuesday, February 20, 2006

Dear Lyn,

I am glad to see a happy text-message from you, and I hope Ciera is equally joyful. It's been awhile since we spoke. I miss you both!

I understand how important it is for you to work things out with your Ex on your own. Afterall, you two brought this beautiful soul into this world. You owe it to her to make things right.

It's been difficult not seeing you, especially after bonding with "our" daughter. However, God brought us together for some reason; so please do as you need to first . . the etheric visits are still nice; but the phone is clearer!

As you expected, I wrote you after your phone call on the 23rd. I had not felt comfortable to send it to you until I put more together.

When it rains it really pours, the walk on the tight rope will be easier if shared at least as just Friends. I'm here for you if you need just a friend to talk to, or anything more!!! But only when you are ready!

My Love and Light go out to you both!
Namaste'

Eric

Hi Lyn,

Hope you're doing well. It's been awhile since we spoke. I miss you and Ciera.

It's been difficult for me not seeing you, especially since I was beginning to feel the bond with "our" daughter. However, the Good Lord brought us together and for some reason He has taken us apart.

I understand what you're going through and how important it is to you to explore the possibility of making things work again with your Ex. Afterall, you two brought a beautiful soul into this world together. You owe it to her to try everything to make things work. I wish you only the best.

I hope we will always be at least Friends - and friends talk to each other on a regular basis, although this is an awkward time. Obviously I want to be more than just friends - but I want at least that... the friendship. If the Good Lord decided we should be more than that, then I want you to feel that the past is passed and you gave it your best effort. I don't want just a part of you. I want ALL of you.... but only when you're ready.

I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to.

I Will Forever Be,

Eric

10:19:59 AM

Yes I chanted last night and again she came through. Not as strong and erotic as I've seen before, but more just to tease me it seemed. After the chat with Lisa I kinda feel more worried about Ciera. Like Lyn is not there for the little girl very much, and seems to just appease her to avoid conflict and allow her to grow up as she wants.

Kathy,

Really tired Sunday too...

No one to chant this morning... ;-( DJ even seemed over done . . .

Lisa soon came in and invited me to her house thingy again. I asked if she needed anything and she gave me directions and asked me to get something she needed for dinner.

I arrived on time, before anyone else of course . . lol . . and helped her prepare some stuff. She now lives blocks from my parents house . . . I soon asked her about Lyn. She said she invited Lyn, but never got a reply so didn't expect her.

She's only known Lyn for just over 6 months. Really likes her and enjoys her sensitivity and strong spiritual senses. But seemed to say I had spent more time with her and also said she was a bit "flighty and non-committal" . . . She never met john or any family except Ciera and was a little stunned that she leaves Ciera at her Grandmothers to travel off for weeks at a time. Almost seemed non-committal to her own daughter too?

It was interesting to hear another perspective but not much more. Lisa invited a bunch of people from Harmony as most everyone recognizes me as the video guy. Petito, Lou and Doug were there, so I ended up staying longer chatting with Lu, since I really planned to only make an appearance.

They all have been in classes together and seem to attend things together regularly . . . . I was welcomed by all so it was kinda cool . . .

I got home at about 4.30pm and went to sleep reading a school book. Of course I have class tomorrow and left the book for it at USF. So I need to get there at dawn to read and take a quiz before my 9am class.

Yea I was a little sad about Lyn, but have before felt that the courts would not be done for another month at least anyway. She slammed the door shut in our last phone call (1/23), but the box of sandals and text-message-thanks imply the door is cracked open again (2/16). I'm not sure if my note will open the door, or close it, but it should at least give her better insights on her daughter, which she evidently really needs!

I feel like I now have some free time to get a lot of things done, so I'm going to focus on this... Keith has offered to edit my article for school, but I'm not sure he will yet... Have you seen this? http://www.seedwiki.com/wiki/stars2man/fit_into_the_science.cfm

Nite Nite
Eric

She knows I'm writing her again. She's known this for a while and keeps wondering about it. She's not ready to just open my blog, because she knows she gets lost into it too easily. She's really just waiting for a note directed just to her. She knows there is something coming, and that might be why she was so nice and polite with the flower-text-message. Course I know we'll be together again soon, I'm just not clear if it will be because I push for it or not.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

4 Ahaw Dates and Maya Creation Mythology: A View from Postclassic and Colonial Yucatec Maya Literature

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 5.15pm

What now?

I know you want me to get busy on countless other things that you have before me. What's new

Well if you are here, you might as well get it done quickly, don't you think?

Yes I know. So I finally got my new server running. I HIRED someone to come here and fix it on Thursday and he only crashed it! I asked him hundred questions and such while he sat waiting on the server. So I found out I had really done it right from the start and was really just a WIMP not getting it done.

Wow, so you are a wimp now, what else happened Thursday?

When I got to school I realized the group was about to start so I called them and left a message. Then I put on my jacket and slacks for the Career fair for MBA's. Course I was really only interested in going to www.nshmba.org for dinner. I went to one event they had last year and never heard from them again. So I was thrilled to get an invite to volunteer to help with the meeting. Another lady at the International Business Center was going too so I suggested we carpool from the Career fair.

The fair started at 4:30 while the nshmba started at 6-pm in Ybor City. I told her we should leave by 5pm to get there early with the traffic. But then there was this Mayan Researcher coming at 4pm in the SOC building. I left for there at 3:30! Walked around reading signs and seeing such until it started at 4pm prompt. Another class started in the room by 5pm so they had to be done at a quarter till. So I decided to leave at 4:30 PROMPT!

I sat in the corner by the door. The last one in was a totally gorgeous redhead. Long and wavy hair to mid-back. . . Sitting with a seat between us infront of me. Then the discussion was INTENSE! She started off showing these Maya Hieroglyphic Codices and said how she was going to explain the creation story as it was written in like 4 different codicies. The Codex was like a old Mayan almanac of events and dates, astrology and such.

She described how she would explain how they recorded the times that rituals were done for the sun and earth. WOW. I was like wired in her words. As she showed the powerpoints talking about it all I could feel the vibrations going right threw me! WOW! She knew her stuff. Like when I saw the DNA coding and how they created a picture to me as I scrolled through them. lol... It's like several strands moving now as I look again

I really hung on her every word holding my palms up, touching thumd and index finger. . . . Until 4:30 and I got up and left. I got her name and email off her powerpoint. Road my bike back, up to my office to get the tan Jacket for the Fair.

I walked over to the new building where they had it. I looked over at everyone and saw all these black suits! As I walked bown the stairs past a violin player I noticed one other tan jacket, it was koehler's partner Tony. So I shock his hand and told him about the black jackets. Then I asked him about the patent and getting it all done for him. He said he was still thinking about it. I told him to worked, just needed to get finalized so he could make a pretty one.

I chatted with a few other people. Got a job lead for Keith, lol. . . . And then met the ladies heading to NSHMBA. Soon I raced off to bike over to my truth and picked up Audet who was going with me. We got there just about perfect, and signed people in collecting money. Someone in my team from the Business Plan class came in with his wife. Then there were a few really sweet pretty girls there too. I never really talked to anyone except a few. One guy recognized me from the fair. thn a UT professor came in too.

Why didn't you go out and chat with people? You had some practice at the fair and did fine.

I guess I couldn't over do it. Starting kinda slow.

What happened with Audet.

Well on the way home we were talking about stuff. And she finally said she was a civil engineer too. Wow. Then I found out she was in te Peace Corps too,and went to Parague to work on the water system and some politician ran off with the money for it. So she wanted to get a MBA to get more involved in planning and operating these organizations. Then I told her about STARS and how I tried to change things too, and realized I could only do it myself instead of relying on others. Everyone has a price. Sooner or later everyone in government gets enough money that they don't care anymore.

It was funny. We were talking about how people go crazy when the money gets to a certain level. They just loose all senses, becoming like a robot hungry for just money. Then we got to STARS and she was blown away. Sorta like I was hearing she was an engineer. So I told her I needed her help to design a water system. Then I also told her we should study for the PE exam and do that too.

What happened next....

I guess we just sat in my truck. I saw Chris Thomas come out. I never saw him before john brought him over. I realized he looked a lot like my dad . . . Seemingly with his head in the sand exactly like my dad too.

What's with your dad?

I guess I sent him a note that Thomas said "hi". . . . He replied "love, dad" BS at the end. Like he has any clue what either of those words mean. So I wished him a Happy Anniversary. That went out the night before it on Valentines day; Sharon has told me before that I'm the only one in the family who remembers them . . . lol . . .

What's the point?

I'm really not sure. I wrote the Mayan teacher to apologize for leaving early and asked about meeting again. She said she would be happy too but was leaving for a few weeks and asked if I could email her something. NOPE, need to meet. Then I realized she was a Honors teacher in New College and I could do my research with her. She's In USF too. WOW, I felt how she would want to study everything. . . wow, I mean everything comes out at once, reminds me:

This invention came in a vision after a death experience. I dropped a Suzuki 650 at 110mph two weeks after my 16th birthday, no boots, no gloves & no helmet; not a pretty sight; several months later a "patent lab book" was started, which now includes thousands of pages.

I guess my whole life has been this research project for you hasn't it

Well it's about time, I thought you were going to be quick about this it's nearly two hours later and your finally done.

I know, I'm sory, time for school work now.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank you for sharing You life with me . . Withth all of US. Please lead and guide me to fulfill your Dreams for the Glory of God the Father Son and Holy Ghosts. Amen

1:19:10 PM

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Saturday, February 17, 2007

On the 12th I went to Sam's and got some gas and such. Then I stopped at Kabloom across the street about sending flowers to Lyn and Ciera. I spoke to Carman again and she was thrilled about getting something for the daughter and mom. She knew about the Christmas flowers and I got some balloons and such then. They had a few Gund Bears and little green frog, but nothing but glass containers and some other stuff I didn't like. She told me I could put together whatever I wanted and they could deliver it for me.

So I stopped at a few places looking for a basket or something cool to put flowers together for Ciera. I found a little fish picture frame and thought the frog could hold it in a basket. The roses and all was cool for Lyn but getting something for Ciera was more complicated as just flowers are boring and candies and such aint any good either. Tuesday the 13th I got up early and went to get some more pictures made and all. I was buzzing in total bliss feeling their surprises. I got out my calligraphy pens and wrote up some cards for each of them.

Lyn's card was "For a special Lady" opens up to say ". . .who's as beautiful on the inside . . . as she is on the outside . . . Happy Valentines Day" Then I wrote:

"If you Love Someone, Set them Free.

If it returns to you, it is yours

If it doesn't, it never was"

Then at the bottom:

"By the Word of Jesus Christ, amen" EW

On Ciera's I wrote:

"Will you be my Valentine?"

"My love is with you" EW

I didn't sign either, but put my little "EW" in the corner. On the drive back to Kabloom Tuesday, I stopped at a few more places to find a little picture frame and anything else for Ciera that would be nice. I made a bunch of pictures and got a few that worked with the frame. I edited a few pictures from the 1/7 bike day and it turned out cool. Then I found a picture keychain for Lyn too. Carmen loved it all of course and put together all sorts to make sure they got a special V-day.

I was just blissed out all day vibrating at the love I felt for them both. It almost felt like Lyn knew what I was doing, and was smiling already in anticipation. But I just let it go, and moved on. Wednesday the 14th I was buzzing again, but could feel that Lyn was busy and tried not to connect at all. She knew something was coming, but never wanted to connect or get excited either.

I dropped by to visit Kathy and Ginnie on Thursday and she was stunned I hadn't even gotten a thank you note from Lyn. She felt like I was sad about it too. I was really just tired and hungry after the long day, and really only held the bliss from the day making things for Ciera. When I got home there was a box there from Lyn, with my sandals and sunglasses . . . with a return address for a post office in Lake Alfred? Pretty writing!

It was kind of weird, no note, nothing but the box and stuff wrapped in bubble wrap. It was obvious she took her time and care with it, but nothing more. Course I called Kathy the moment I found the box. She was upset about me not even getting a "Thank You," and I wanted her to know about the box. She didn't answer and without a note or anything I didn't know what to think. So I chanted and sent all the energy up into Heaven. It was like Lyn was waiting or wanting some reply from me, but I just sent the energy up.

Then the next day; Friday Morning I got a test message on my phone:

Thank you for the Beautiful bouquet of flowers for Ciera and me! I appreciate your thoughtfulness! Have a Miraculous day! 10.21am 2/16/07

Course I replied that second too, as I called Kathy to tell her. I didn't like her mad at Jaclyn for the no "Thank You."

Glad you enjoyed them, hope Ciera had a big smile! Thanks 4 the sandals. Nameste' er:-) 10.40am 2/16/07

Then I could feel Lyn connected to me again. Her joy and bliss were with me all day. I tried not to talk with her. But we chatted a few times anyway. I kept telling her she needed to make this real and forget the dream and the ethers routine. She never said what she would do, but it felt like she had something planned. I went to have a big dinner with Kathy and Ginnie again. I was feeling like my phone would ring with an invite to dinner from Lyn. But I wouldn't hold onto that feeling or make anything more of it.

I was certainly buzzing all day. I could feel her close again. Not completely attached like we were with the silver chord, but just the easy joy knowing we were still thinking of each other.

I guess that's my whole point today. I felt her so strong and clear yesterday and last night. Talking and sharing again through the ethers like we had before. The Chant last night was really strong and I went right to sleep. I felt her still, but it was still like she was up to something. Sometimes I wonder if she is with john trying to make it work or if there is anything there at all. For the most part it feels like that's about done, finished, kaput!

The first day I met her, she was with Lisa at church. After I Chanted with Lori, she had told Lisa about it and Lisa wanted to learn it too. After missing week after week, Lisa finally did with Sally and I. So last week, Lisa said she still wanted to do it again, but was busy with stuff. She told me she bought a new house in Northdale and invited me to a house warming that is tomorrow.

I mentioned this in passing to Kathy. And she's convinced that Lyn and Lisa have planned something. As I feel it; it's almost like an engagement party; which seems more like hopeful thinking than a heart-felt truth. Then again I could feel Ciera and Lyn as I got things ready on the 13th. Then felt more confusion than anything on the 14th. It was almost like she expected an email or something and didn't get anything so was disappointed. Like sent the sandals next day priority mail on the 14th from wherever she was. But then made it to her office Friday the 16th and text-messaged me the moment she got all the flowers

It's still kinda weird for me now. I went over the note I prepared for her. After she said good-bye she told me to email her. I've not done that yet. But I've posted most everything online in the Blog and then edited and reedited a summary page to send to her. I planned to send it on the 14th if I didn't get a reply, but Kathy said how the "Set Love Free" that I wrote was more than enough already.

So the links page is all ready for Lyn, and I'll wait and see what happens. I keep telling her to call me, visit me, or just grab me . . . and she knows how I'm always looking for her in church. It's really a matter of whenever she decided she was ready for a real relationship. I can tell that we're destined for each other, and I know she's getting ready to take it seriously. I just don’t know how soon or what else she might have planned in relation to this.

Funny, I told her through the ethers yesterday that she needs to come work for me now. Drop everything else and be fulltime on what we need to share and do. Course then I think about the sex, and how we'll be totally erotic and kinky with each other. It's like we'll need a few months to just get horny together and get all this hunger out. Every time I think about this I laugh. She seems to think that she will surprise me with how horny and kinky she is, while I know that I can do things that no one has ever seen or experienced. It's almost funny, how the desire and anticipation gets stronger and stronger.

Thank you Loving Lord Jesus Christ for you Peace, Love and Joy! Amen!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What

I'm wired again, and it feels really good. Today Cecile got her new office. So I moved her in as if it were my own office. Making it all just right! Or like I would do for my own mom. It was really kinda neat, since I've moved offices so many times. I couldn't even count them all. . . lol... It was really easy and fun! So then she offered me more hours and asked about me doing more for her. Last week when she saw my abstract for Klasko she kinda freaked, but I guess I never really warned her about it. But now she wants me to do more for her so I immediately told her about me taking classes with them too. I know I really need to sit down and go over this thing with her in detail. Feels liek 3 MS's now, somehow the sustainabilty and spiritual leadership needs more PEOPLE science and care from a nurse! Course I immediately feel like I'm going over it all with Sharon too. The two ladies are so much alike, almost sisters. . . lol. . . Never thought of that before!

What happened in business.

I finally got my shit together for the dual major there... MSM & MBA! I got Balfour to file the stuff for me to get into the 2nd program and then asked around about the USF business cards. No one knew who was paying for it or authorizing it, so I asked around to everyone and finally just did it myself with the form I had received when I started. It was really fun. I even called Cathy and showed John, Sharon and Balfour samples before I finally ordered some. Now of course I want to change it. . . LOL. . . .

What else?

It is all just so funny, because this whole day has just been more, more, more every moment. Like after 6pm I was checking on books that john needed and went to the library to get some. As I was coming home the BIG FULL MOON showing off in my face. WOW, I knew why I was so hyped up. Everything was about to blow. I could see it there right before my eyes.

I knew I had to chant tonight and started by 9pm when I got home. Even while working with Cecile she told me how she couldn't sleep. So I told her how her malatonin turned on at 3am and she had to get up and use it. She knew exactly what I was talking about and it was really funny. Earlier the Dean was in her office chatting and said how she did morning exercises and such to start the day. Sounded like yoga, MBSR stuff and she said how all the nurses there dream about taking Cecile's class. Wow, wait until they see my class . . . lol. . .

I even told Sharon how when I chant I connect heaven and earth and get totally pumped up in energy so what ever I think about goes into some fantastic visions. So now I thought how I could buy the treehouse and all the land there with some fantastic business plan to Bob detailing all the pieces of the chant, video, online save the world stuff. WOW!

What else?

I know I've also been seeing the deals with Scott all happening at the same time. Like three four, five contracts in a row. Chuck scrambling to keep up. And then I'm getting social again. There's three or four meetings I'm scheduled to go to THIS WEEK, just to meet and socialize. Wow, it's about time I did that again. It's just so funny. Then I listed a few other people to call and setup, Gail, Google, Ho, Dave, Shawn, Equan, Bates, Shields, Sharon again and again with Cecile. . . . lol. . . . . and I told Sharon about shape-shifting and talking to animals; while I can feel information FROM EVERYTHING. . . lol. . . while she's just struggling with the male ego crap there in the office. All the guys jsut worried about their johnson, and she's driving this new Hot Rod. Bigger johnson than any of them. And I see Skalkos as I ride to nursing and she's driving a BIG Johnson too . . . . no wonder she's lost in all the rules and BS instead of seeing the truth I'm sticking in her face.

Course the group is getting video taped now too! Funny, my whole life is an experiment, and I can prove it!

Why don't you get more specific?

I need to get some sleep. It's 1:33am already. Course what time would I ever expect.

What times have you been waking to chant this week?

I've not missed a day in over a week now chanting, and it's 2:22 I've seen lately. Then I feel 2:4 6 = 3 + 3 => 3 x 3 = 9. . . 3 . 3. . . lol... Course 9 + 3 = 12, where 1;2 => + 3 again . . . lol. . . while 1;2 is jsut 1/2 of 2;4 where I started back with the 3 twos . . . 2.2.2. . . . lol...

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thanks for your Grace Love and wisdom; Please fill me with Your Truth, Strength and Wisdom so I may grow to achieve everything that you have set before me!!!! Thank you, Amen

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What

I guess it's all kinds of craziness again... LOL. . . Still. I hear so much around me all the time that just is weird or funky. Like John finally had his meeting with Chris over the KLD stuff we've been doing with SPSS. And so he brought him over to introduce him to me. And Chris immediately said he knew me... Played tennis with my dad. It was really funny. . . just freaked old john. . . That's happened to John twice now. At a Christmas dinner he freaked with Dr. Ness greeting me so quickly and warmly. "Where you know him from?" . . . lol. . .

It's really weird, reminds me of the engineers at the Health open house. Today when my business plan class team met with Sharon again at lunch, I saw Dr. Kovac walk by again. I just want to laugh since I knew he's in some useless BS beuarocrat job just struggling to stay awake. It's funny I can almost feel when a person is in one of those jobs.

Yes Son, what you are feeling is the familiarity that you have with these people doing things that you have done as well. You try to feel so far above everyone, but you know you've done it too countless times and really are no different than any of them. You are all people in the same boat, all wanting and fighting for the same things. Once you all realize that the best way to really have the things you want is to start sharing them more.

I know, what are you telling me for?

What you need to do it stop fighting everything. You are more able to just be who you are now than ever. You are afraid of doing things that will reveal who you are. Son there is nothing here that you can do that will ever make this anything less for you. You know exactly what you will do and what will happen because you have seen it all countless times. Again and again this vision flys through you. You have seen it all countless times and really already know all the answers. This is nothing for you to fear. Simply allow what you know to flow and be free as you wish it to be.

I know you tell me that every moment

What were you thinking just know then, write it here now:

I saw myself doing a presentation in my class about what I know and see everywhere. Wow, I brought in my video camera and taped it all and I blew myself away. FLashes into the grop meetings too, where i need to do the same thing. But then today there was Chris from my MS class who did a presentation with me before. He did what I told him to do last time. It was really cool, and he did this awesome job. I was just thinking how I would tell the class what I taught him. And I felt jealous, wanting to brag about what I did. . . That I taught him, what I felt about it all.

But that was wrong, why should I be jealous, I should be proud about it and encourage him more. I really should be doing the same thing with Sharon and my other class too. So what if people are naive and never experienced the real world. I've seen all sides of everything and remember all of them. It's really a wild ride for me and I know that I'm barely starting anything yet. . . feeling the vibration of each one of them looking at me again. . .

Wow, so I felt myself riding my bike to school again and working a hundred hours a week getting all kids of crazy things done all over the place. It was really a wild ride and kinda cool. I see these flashes of light. Sorta half dream and have vision. It's a TV projection flashing by me and then I see the blip on the screen of the helicopter I hear outside my window now. LOL . . . everytime I hear one of those I feel the guy freak out about what I flash across his screen. It's just weird that I feel his vibration and reaction to me.

I know that's what I live off of. The vibration and reactions I create in others. It's so cool, and really weird. I always get this vibration and sensation of everyone I encounter. People look up to me in a weird way. I still feel like the new kid on the block, but I know my children are older than some of them. LOL. . . . I mean those wonderful kids could teach so much to these people. My own children. Like Equan, we've spent a few years together and it's been such a tremendous gift to each of us. Like we could do so much together and know we can.

What flashed then!

I saw Bates coming to help me and Equan and seeing all this craziness at my house and investing in it. Just wanting to see what I could do and helping to make it all happen. Then Shawn flashes in again and the deal gets bigger and bigger, now Ron and Scott . . . then sharon and others. Wow, so now I flash into Klasko's office again and "hey dude, I jsut know you can help make this happen, and we would just blow the doors off of this whole place overnight"

Shit I've seen that millions of times before . . .

Yes son you have. What does it make you feel?

I feel like I'm falling into a time warp again. Like another spontanious regression where I feel and reveal deep passions to people where they all can feel it too. And it makes them hungry and desperate to connect for more. It's all really clear and strong for me. Like I told Sharon I was a Shaman talking to animals and shape/shifting. Course she already knew it. LOL. . . but it was so neat to tell her about my chants where the power takes me away and i fill with such powerful visions. . . . then leading and teaching people by encouraging their passions.

I really do that to everyone, it's really kinda funny. Especially the really talented people are the ones that pickup the most and can do the most. LOL . . . course my children! Wow, I've been feeling them a lot lately, i wonder what they are going through. When Chris hits puberty everythings going to blast apart! Course we all know . . . lol . . .

What do you need to do?

I know i need to get back to work and speed read through a bunch of things. Funny when I met DJ and she told me about the mayan dude coming the next day, i read his three bibles that night. Wow, they were bigger than bibles, or at least one was way bigger for sure!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please fill me with your Grace love and Wisdom to Fulfill YOUR GLORY! In the Name of Father Son and Holy Ghost Amen.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What?

I feel like I've been doing much too much and need to separate myself a bit from things. Like yesterday I got a call to do some stormwater modeling as I was racing in on my bike to meet about a prototype. As I chatted on the phone I dropped my keys , which were then run over by a few cars.

GREAT!
So then I met someone and took him over to the shop to check out a prototype. Course all that was about was complaints and BS about costs and results. Shit the widget worked and we goofed with it for weeks to get it right. I felt like I did the guy a favor and all he did was nag about the costs. Course I created Idea Weaver Inc. Thinking this would be a cool business to do, but I certainly don't need the extra head aches. . .

What else then?

I also finished the patent write up for the phone leash. Not a big deal, but still something that I really just wanted done. The guy wanted to pay me for my time when it was all done. So I did it and went to visit him. I only did one that we talked about but he wanted the 2nd done too. So now the 2nd is done, and I've got this first with a check ready to go. I can head to the post office now and send one of them.

I guess I was paid well to do them, but it certainly wasn't what I want to do with my time. I missed a few group meetings too. I sorta feel like that's not worth my time either. But now as I write I wonder what I really want to do all the time.

What else did you do today?

I guess I finally got the stuff together for my 2nd Masters. I found out that I could take any classes that I wanted to take and this job would pay for them. So I might as well stay here as long as I can. So I checked out about making USF business cards and that's not a big deal either. Everything is easy. . .

What would you like, difficulty with everything you do?

I guess I know it will be as easy or difficult as I make it. And I will always have a choice over what I want to do. Like I need to get busy reading my book for class tomorrow. Then I plan to go to the group today, and meet Scott and some friend of his tonight about our land deals.

Always more to do...
Please Loving Lord Jesus Christ, lead and guide me to grow and learn to achieve and learn in your light. Could you resolve the issues I have and let things move in peace and truth. Thanks
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

So here we GO!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's up?

I know this is really getting stronger and stronger. I've been chanting every night again. I seem to go through cycles, where I chant every night, and then where I don't. I also noticed that whenever I do chant I get more focused on what's before me. And I think and Pray about meeting people and what I need to say or do when I do meet someone.

It's really weird, because I never did that before. I usually just "wing-it" and feel like God will allow what God wants to allow. I guess I'm realizing that I need to take more control over all of this and stop just letting things ride all the time. I guess that's true with my business and professional life too. I've been working on a patent all week for Bates. It's not really complicated, but I need to make it right. I'm not going to submit something that will never get through. . . . I know I started Idea Weaver, Inc. Thinking I could develop patents and such for people as a profession. But I really would have to do two or three a week, which would be working about full time.

Forget that, I never want to work that much again on anything like this. I guess I could only work that much on doing something with children. . . lol. . . Wow, I guess I really only want to teach now. I don't want to work at anything else anymore. I wonder now if I just want to raise my own kids or really help and teach others?

What happened Friday?

I guess it started with all the rain, and wanting to go to some open house the Health VP was having. I thought I would walk there since the rain was too bad to ride my bike. Then we had planned a 3pm meeting which was cancelled for me to see the CFO instead. Course my class ended at 4pm. We did have a break just before 3pm and I thought to leave then. But I could hear You couldn't I?

What's knew you can hear us all the time. You just don't choose to listen all the time. You are getting better every day thou!

So I left after class and walked back to my truck with my umbrella in the rain. I felt I needed to drive over to the VP's new office and walk in with all my stuff for a full presentation. So I got everything out and had it all organized before I drove over. As I pulled into the parking lot there was an open space right in front by the door. So I parked and rushed in.

Someone else parked right in front of me, and I about rushed to avoid any contact. As I opened the door the man greeted me. It was the venture capitalist that Beth works for, who I met at the Entrepreneur Club party before Christmas. We started right into a good conversation about business deals. He was there to see the VP as well. So we went in together. Course as we got upstairs one guy with him said hello and introduced himself. He was the USF patent dude who drove Scott crazy a few years back.

He immediately said how it was USF that messed up the deal with Scott. Then gave me his card and told me how he was now a manager working for the Chamber of Commerce. Cool, so I told him about meeting a VP, President, & Rhea Law and asking her about Privatizing the Patent System at USF. . .

Just about then the VP came out and everyone stood up in front of me to greet him. . . So I got out of the way . . . lol . . .

When the VP turned to me for hello's and introductions, I kinda turned away since I wasn't really part of their group coming in to see him, and he sorta knew that . . .

So I went down the hall and hung out by his assistant's office. She wasn't there of course. But soon the VP was out looking for her to call Carlucci. . . lol. . . Oh sure I can call him. . . Never said that, but I likely should have. . . . lol. . . I told him she wasn't around and I hadn't seen here, so he went calling for her down the hall. Course I could have done that too! DA!

Soon he found her and soon Carlucci was on the phone with him. Then he wanted Trustee Beard on the phone. I guess the chairman of the university board of trustees . . .

Wow, the VC and Manger brought in some BIG investor looking for Bio-science research or something . . . . lol. . . Wish I took notes in the elevator . . . lol. . . Just the thing I was there to talk about anyway. So they had blasted the door open for me plenty, no need to ask for anything more. . . . So I just hung out, waiting for my opportunity to chat with them all. I soon noticed I was sitting looking at the CFO's office too. . . lol . . . . He had kids younder than Emily there.

As the party was starting. . . The CFO soon introduced himself to me. All kinds of other people I recognized from somewhere were walking in too. I certainly felt out of place. But quite a few people walked up to me to say hi, including the business development officer who came to a GBA meeting just the night before. And also a few engineering professors I knew, Echelberger and Anderson . . . LOL . . . STOPPING to say HI to ME!!! LOL!!!!

What did you do then?

I just waited until I saw the VP going into his office again. I had made an extra copy of my Abstract/Budget and followed him in. He knew who I was and was almost expecting something. Then I told him I had filed the patent too, showing him the cover as I had my books and laptop ready for a presentation with me. . . . lol... Course he had a little Mac Laptop and the clear sound system and glass desk in his pretty new office. And put my paper right on top of the stack, I also left a copy in the CFO's office too.

Funny I then had a beer or two and some munchies. Walked around the place a bit looking out the windows more than at anyone. . . lol. . . Never said a word to anyone. I guess I chatted with the food-staff setting up the kegs until the assistant showed up. Then I showed her how the room number signs worked. Since I did the same thing over in the Nursing College. Oh and the office manager between the VP and CFO office came out and talked with me a bit too. I actually gave her a card.

LOL!

What will it take to get you out there with the people more?

I don't know I'm just never comfortable going it alone. It's funny as I left the elevator to the VP's office another student from one of my classes was coming in. Wow we could have talked up a storm. But I felt I needed to go home.

What did you come home for?

I knew I needed to chant and spend some time with You.

Yes that's what you needed to do. But if you do your chanting like you need to then you wont have any problems with anything. It's important for you to stay focused and strong. You can do things that have never been done before. Not everyday does the top 14th largest school VP chat about student patents with some kid. And you had this one same vision since 1980. Yes the time is 6.03pm as you write this. And the numbers all mean so much as well as the song on the radio. You know you are in the center creating with US. And you know everyone else is too, just you got to do it first.

WHAT? I need to do it first?

What do you think you are doing Son? You asked for the one way to change everything, you wanted everything to work as WE DREAM it, without the greed and selfish insecurity. You asked for the Solution, the Answer to all of it. Not just a result to your own personal troubles, but the troubles of mankind and the earth entirely. You asked us to share the Truth of what it all is, so it all could work right. But you also showed us what it means for you as well. Working right with you is a lot more than just what the nature and earth need. You have individuality and self-ness that needs to be understood and expressed to. The solution to everything wont just appear out of no where. You need to be there in the middle of it to make it happen all on your own.

I know.

What you don't seem to know is that connecting to others will be a significant part of this too. The freedom and flow of our Spirit is something that we need to share everywhere. And it's a significant part of what you are doing here. This chant pumps up everything. That's why you proposal to the med school is about doing the chant. You found the one fun easy thing that you like to do which can support yourself and all life with. It's not just a source of income for you, but can heal and teach anyone you share it with.

Course you already know it pumps you up with so much Light and Love that nothing can stop you. So what else would we want you to be sharing all the time. This is why we send you home all the time now, you can't go crazy sharing all that you are until we have everything ready for you. what you are doing at the university is setting the stage for so much that the whole world needs now. Each little task and aspect of what you do and create makes a significant change that is needed before the solutions can work.

Yes, relax and let us go for a bit. Everything is happening exactly as you have dreamed. Nothing is out of reach, and nothing can stop you. No fear, only FREEDOM!

I LOVE YOU!
Please Dearest Lord Jesus Christ lead me to fulfill Your Dreams, guide me with you strength and power, let my words only share your wisdom and Truth; and help all those around me who need your Love and Light, All for the Glory of Father Son, and Holy Ghost! Amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. 6.53pm

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What?

I'm not sure? I've been really busy, but also not clear about things. I'm sorta lost in space. . . spacing out a lot and insecure even about some things. It's kinda weird how this goes, or doesn't go. I feel like I have tons to do, but then also feel almost lost in space. I keep wanting things, that just pass before my eyes without my even knowing. sometimes I wonder if i know what i really want or if I'm just fooling myself.

Where do you want to be?

I guess, i'm happy just where I am, and feel like things are coming along exactly the way they should. But then get frustrated with the lost-puppy feeling I have about so much.

What can we do about it?

I don't know I guess I just need to pray for some direction and power into these tasks before me.

What are you waiting for?

Please Dear Lord Jesus help and guide me to fulfill these tasks you have set before me. Fill me with your strength, love and wisdom to do what you have set before me. I know I can do whatever you need. Just fill me with your spirit! Thank you, amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.