making progress

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 8/1/15

What are you doing?

I know I need to get my models working and I'm making progress!  Like I cleaned out my office finally, so I can get in here without tripping over things.  I started back in school in 2004, and essentially stopped consulting.  Then when I remarried in 2009, this office became a closet or a storage room.  Finally now my desk is clean, and nearly all the space is clear and workable.  Surprised too, I finally got insured again this last term, so I saw a dentist last week and will see a doctor and another dentist this week too.  Wow, it's so good to finally be taking care of these things.

Oh, and I got Mik's car back.  I thought it would be totaled, but they fixed it.  Course something wasn't right and Kim took it back, where they sent it to the Honda Dealership to reset the engine and such.  Now the weather has been no sunshine, so when we got the car, it was detailed with cleaned seats and carpet, that were all wet.  And STILL WET now a week later, which means everything is all moldy - - - Figures, as Kim is allergic to mold!

It's weird as we get to the crest on the sine wave, it seems some of us haven't reached the top yet, or still have to push a bit more to get beyond the shit.  Like wow, Dlorah died Friday!  I knew he was in the hospital again, he had sent me a note that he had pneumonia.  It turns out he actually had his cancer back in his lungs now.  Course he was smoking the day I visited his house, so he was sorta asking for it.  But wow, all my friends now will be grieving about losing our friend.  Great that I pushed for a Taurus Lunch Bunch luncheon for our birthdays in May.  I think we met in early June, but we all got together and almost once more.

What are you feeling?

It's sad.  Mik and I posted a bunch of pictures for his daughter who asked for them.  Course there is one picture with Mik where he looks great.  Poor guy, seemed like he kinda got lost in ego or something.  I remember seeing him soon after he was home from his first round.  He was smoking.  I'm sure I wrote about this already, because it really bothered me.  I mean, not just for his health, fighting cancer why get back into the crap so soon.  But also he knows I don't like smoke, so why does he have to smoke for the thirty minutes I'm there.  You think he would save it and be considerate.  It really felt like he was snubbing his nose at the universe.  Like he beat the cancer, so he could go right back to whatever life style he wanted.  I guess this is more of a lesson for me?

What do you mean by that?

I don't know, except I am often snubbing my nose at the universe!  I know what I need to do, and I know where my commitments and goals are.  Like now working on my model, or not working on it.  I need to get this done ASAP, and I seem to be dragging my feet instead of rushing to get it over-with.  I always seem to be pushing something more instead of finishing what I have already started.  Like it is always so much going in so many directions.  It seems almost pointless sometimes.

What about how these are all things Inspired!  Maybe these things you are doing fit together some way that you cannot see.  Like maybe this chaos with the grants and such was because other people and events needed to be in place before you submit at all.  Everything is always planned, and you are often stunned by how things come about.  Trust your space and time, know it's all exactly as it must be.  And there is not anything outside of you that you will ever have to worry about.

8/5/15 It's weird!  I went to the doctor and another dentist now.  The physical with the doctor was really great.  I was in better health than him.  And he commented a dozen times about us being the same age.  It was weird, but very wonderful to hear.  Then the dentist was really cool too, suggesting things to make everything better, and giving me a price that I could handle.  I've been saving some cash each month, and it's great to know I have enough to get everything fixed.  I'm really tired now.  Not sure why.  I biked in today and swam for a while.  Which is really a great way to start the day.  Tomorrow I have a ton to do.  Video and presentations and so much. 

What about getting home and finishing up you research.

I could I guess, but I get home tired and ready to sleep so often!

We can help, at least try to do what you know has to be done.

I know, I am.  Thanks for your Strength Love and Wisdom. . .    I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.