Wednesday, December 29, 2004

Wednesday, December 29, 2004 8:33:39 PM

So the year is almost over. Wow what a crazy year this has been. And I’m really not sure if it’s going to get more crazy or less crazy really soon? I’m getting into a lot of really cool things and I know I will have a lot to do and more than I understand for sure. But it’s annoying and stressful to being working 10 to 18 hours a day and have people sitting around here watching TV and goofing off all the time. I guess it’s their choice, but there is no reason to allow it if they should be doing work. And why should I let them waste this opportunity given to them to be successful and productive enough to get independent again. Dan has been going on and on about all the work he did in my house. As if I owed him something more for it? We kinda had a fight when I got home from CA, and he’s not worked since because I insulted him.

Sure he did a good job and we agreed he could stay here for an hour of work per day. But now he’s convinced that since my house is worth so much more now that our original agreement isn’t valid anymore. He chose to work over time like crazy to get everything done quickly and I should give him more in kind. I guess if my house is worth so much more, then maybe I should be charging more for people to stay here. But it was his choice, so he needed to learn from his business decision, he never asked to change our agreement. I mean I’ve had Guru’s and Shaman, and Swami’s and Doctors all staying here. Each one came for their own reasons, but each one also learned a lot from me and shared a lot. Seems to me like God sends people here for their our growth… more so than mine…

Yea, Cathy was nice to have around and Dan has been great too. But everyone who has come here did it for a reason and had specific requirements related to it. I mean Dan and Jason are giving me an hour/day towards the patents and projects I have to build. I guess I couldn’t stay outside designing and helping Dan with my patents last year so he decided to do more inside. I really needed to spend $5,000 on the new roof instead of the bathroom, carpet and tile, but Dan is 6’-3” and over 200lbs so getting him to do the roof wouldn’t be too bright. Especially since I must test another design there that I’ve still not completed, so tile work was easy for him to do since he finished my office.

Course I still haven’t had any of my patents finished and tested yet that he started almost 2 years ago. So I told Jason I needed to get them both together to layout the program here. I was getting serious annoyed by the TV on all the time. Like listening to violent crap late at night hurts!!! The hour/day is great, and Dan has done well with it except recently, and Keith wants to come here too, so I wanted everything clear with us working together. Course I’ve had doctors drive south for 8 hours to teach classes here that they get $500-$10,000 for, and then give me the same classes for free. Then I’ve been paid $200-$350/hr for giving classes too. I told Jason that the day we met. I started the conversation saying how I’d be billing him $250 for the first hour since it was essentially discussing his career if he had called me instead of me calling him.

He was cool and understood. So when I asked him to go to work with me rebuilding all my technology he was excited and really moving fast. Now he’s stopped thou? I mean he barely talked to me at all today, and even went out on Dan’s bike instead of asking me for the key to my bike that he used last time. Course he wanted to leave and go back to his uncle’s house too. But his uncle won’t let him back???

Great so I’ve invested several of my days, movies, food, and even got him contacts so he could see and work here, but now he’s trying to go before anything is finished. Worse still his uncle won’t let him back, so I wonder what else there is that I don’t know about this guy. I guess it’s really not my business but now that I think of it Christmas just passed and he got one phone call and called no one. I mean, I’ve intentionally avoided people and still got a pile of cards, calls and emails. Yea I guess he’s online all the time, but still it’s weird.

I invited him to a meeting with me at USF, and all he could say after it was that it was pathetic, no agenda, no plan, nothing accomplished. And he had no interest in helping me to get things going or resolved about it. Funny thing, today I was alone all day and called a few people about it all. Lol... I wonder, it feels like that meeting was purely for his benefit? Lol... I mean I went to see Mike again, so it was almost a no brainer for me. Course then I’ve also gotten Equan over and taken Jason to meet Trace, Tim and Scott... Lol... feels like my evaluation team, all these people who will put Jason to work and push him to his limits.

Wow, that’s exactly what I do here... I never noticed, I always push people to their limits. Like someone comes as they approach suicide and gets turned around burnt into a new thing. Wow, and I remember the Guru and Swami both were pushed to extremes. I better get more conscious about this. If I’m not comfortable and feel something needs to be changed or worked on I need to come out and say it right away.

Son, you went to school to get out and socialize more. You really need to learn a lot of things and get clear and strong into you instincts. We’ve put people in your house to get you going. You won’t get out to learn, so now you’ll get it all at home. Now you know you will need to get stronger, remember what you had to learn from Cathy. There are too many things to do and not enough time to get it all done if you goof off or miss opportunities.

time... you always tell me about time. Then you tell me to go the long way about and not look at any of the short cuts.

What do you think is happening out there in this world around you?

Well around me it’s great; I’m very busy, got some more help and maybe will be getting more relaxed about it. I mean, last night I started the meeting with Jason and Dan by saying we had to go outside. Then I asked for their copies of my house keys. Dan told me that was kinda rude and seems like a control tactic. I understand what he means now, but I was really only trying to make them realize that I’m really doing them both a big favor. And it’s simply not right to expect me to pay for this house, the food, and clean up after them too. This is not a resort or a vaction this is a JOB!!! If they see how quickly this comfy house can leave them out, they might respect and honor it more.

Yes, I’ve been giving them a hard time about leaving dishes or anything laying around and even said I would trash anything I found. I guess I need to stick to this. I mean Keith will be here soon and I remember what his house and apartment looked like. I mean when Dan first got here the very first thing I said was that I couldn’t guarantee how long he could stay because my kids could be back here tomorrow. Now if Chris looked at his room he would turn and run!
What have you told them about this?

Well I guess I told them that I can’t deal with the stress anymore. If they want to stay here they will need to do their fair share of house cleaning and buy food and such to share. Jason said for sure as soon as he gets some money, but then when he asked for directions to give Scott who was coming to get him he said he needed to get money for a passport. So I still really have no clue what’s going on here. Except that I’m really tired and need to crash out ... Thank You loving Lord Jesus Christ for your Grace Love and Wisdom, please fill my days with your light for Your Glory Amen.

Monday, December 27, 2004

Monday, December 27, 2004 9:35:51 PM

I Love You Dearest Lord Jesus Christ, thank you for this time and moment together; I guess I really need to get busy. There is really no reason not to be finishing up all sorts of research and such for what I need to do

What are you working on now?
I’m really not sure any more. I guess I need to go to USF and visit some teachers and see about starting some projects for my next term. I guess I should talk to Sharon & Jerry about things first. I could really do some cool projects
http://www.thea0211.home.ro/scire/scire.html
http://maryanne/aerest/concept/american%20youth/1.1/

11:03:38 PM
So I’m really beat now. I could be asleep in no time

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Sunday, December 26, 2004 10.46am

Yes son, you are right, and each time you read this, you add to it, feel it and expand it more and more. This is very important and wonderful. What do you feel inside?

It's, ugh, wow, it’s so much, so fast. Every moment I see more and more synchronicity. Living the same fantasy WE created over and over again. I know there is so much here to do… lol... 8:11:55 AM on the pc is 11:09 on my clock radio, as I read and write here. Each time I start I go back and reread that last page, adding, updating, and clarifying. It becomes clearer and stronger every moment. So now I need to again, as I start back here again… I Love You Dearest Lord Jesus Christ you are just so very AWESOME for me to experience and know here and now.

What do you really feel inside?
I guess I really feel and see this wonderful flow and clarity. Everything that I could imagine is here again at my finger tips. I know what you planned from the very beginning. It’s really wonderful and I know how to stay in touch with you more than ever now. I can feel it in my fingers. Everything is so clear and connected and strong. There is just too much here to see and do. And I also feel like I have all the time in the world. It’s like I am rushed a bit, and know I can do so very much and then I have the time I need to do it. Each time I read this over I get more done with it. I know it’s done. It feels good now. I also know I have a hundred other things to do.

What do you need to do now?

I’m not sure? Do I need to write more about this experience with Jason and such? What about reading / revising the chapter two story? It needs to be readable too. I can do it… wow, I always say how I can do anything… lol… wow so much to do so little time…
What are you waiting for…

Saturday, December 25, 2004

Sunday, December 25, 2004 7.35PM

So this has been a really powerful and incredible year, ending with a BANG. I know there is a lot more happening every moment than I can deal with. I’m getting clearer about it all every instant. I’m nervous about the money again, but know in Faith that I am free from it. Of-course I wanna go to the casino down the street… lol… I know how much I can control all these things. But I know I‘ve not written in weeks… lol… or days I mean. And I feel there is still so much to say and explain for you. The day I went to meet Skalkos I chanted that early morning and felt the whole scenario open right before my eyes like an incredible infinite lotus of light. The whole concept of moving the energy and the people all fell together into a perfect union. It feels like I’ve not written enough about this yet, or defined it all clearly enough so I want to get into it again in much more detail.

I knew I could start right then, Skalkos knows all my history already. Where better to start a DNA- consciousness experiment? She even laughed about how Claire was my next afternoon chat to share my life with. I met Skalkos almost weekly for so long when I first started school ,just like now with Claire. Then I knew it all could be done very easily and professionally with all these people I’ve known and worked with here. Skalkos could help make the psychological research clear and secure. Claire could get all the politicians supporting it. Pam & Pat could take it across the country and world! I just needed to compile the whole story. WE could change the American culture as an experiment in the university. It would happen so fast and easy. I would simply do the Shamanic religious expression that I’ve known for so long. They all have shared in some aspect of it already. So the public classes could allow everyone to feel it and know it. We ARE Heaven on Earth! BOOM!

Skalkos knows all this already. From the very start I told her that “I was on a Mission from God!” She saw all the perfect synchronicity with Newkome and Walbolt long ago! She would always say how it wasn’t God’s work, but my own efforts that made things happen. Now to do it again with Claire, Scott and Mike; changing everything is not too far out of reach at all. Now even Jason has magically appeared in perfect timing to complete this CD, and recreate the infrastructure. He’s redoing all my machines and getting my network here running smoothly. Like this laptop really hums now! That chant the day I saw Skalkos helped me realize I had to get this done now. Copy it to Claire too, wow and Lawrence, Jason, Keith, Chuck, Tim, Trace, Dan the whole team is returning together again. I knew it was all coming out; no one could stop it!

What are you doing?
It’s kinda a struggle for me to explain this all. I know this is the thing we have been working for since the very beginning of time and I know there is nothing here that can stop us…. Oh, except us… lol… That's just too cool. We know what we can do, and this mission and purpose is just falling into place perfectly. So we are approaching this total freedom and fulfillment that only Your Love in Christ Jesus could make possible. That Perfect PATH, that leading into truth; The Way of Jesus Christ. It was so clear and open for us all ever since You came here to share it all. Thank you Loving Lord Jesus Christ!!!

What do you want your life to be, what peptides are you sending to yourself. You’ve been seeing this again and again inside of you anyway. You know all about moving energy. Now that you know these words of science and see how they are understanding things that you do already.
What are you waiting for?

I just know it all will be coming out exactly as we need it to, so to hold on to any fear is really a mistake. I know I can be clearer and freer with another attitude and different expectations once I allow Your Spirit to flow through me always. I must not worry about it. I know I need to get out of this house to share more freely with others. And I know Jason could help me very easily almost anytime that I want to. But I can’t seem to get out. There is just too much to do all the time.

Monday, December 13, 2004

Monday

Wow, I need to write more about this CD... But now this river model is almost done. Well done enough to submit. I still will end up redoing a few things. I think I can get the calibration tighter. Yes oh that's what I need to do...

So after I Chanted Thursday morning and filled with these visions, I realized what I had to do with all this in my hands.... Publish it and share it all to those around me who I can => CD! Explain it all so clearly so everyone can understand and participate. Then I saw myself doing this chant for these same ladies that I know, and they FELT it enough to be CLEAR. So they were ready to stand up and make this changes in our culture that I need to create... LOL... The old Mayan Shaman, from another place and time showing up now to PROVE IT out in the open for everyone to see and share in!!

And I felt how most women in politics are lost in the Ego; chocking the life out of what's left of us here.... Man's extreme greed and chaos for years has already exploited and destroyed so much. All the children are seeing this and now get lost in the selfishness more and more. More consumer's, more greed, more people lost in the pursuit of "the american dream;" more lost sheep!

Not only had women lost control of their bodies, lost the battle of the sexes; but now they let doctors regulate their cycles and children with hormones... LOL... Ugh, just like the cattle producing the county's milk supply! Doctors and lawyers are controlling everything for the greed of giant anonymous corporations.

Wow, I've written this a thousand times

I've seen and explained the same perversions over and over again... And now my children are lost in this. These women who are in charge have lost their souls to man's greed and materialism instead of upholding Family and Truth in the Love of their hearts. They have forced my children to become lost in the worst perversion this corruption creates in our culture... The very worst:

Psychological violence is what the human need to control others leads to when taken to the extreme. The parents dominate girls totally. And from her point of view she has no choice but to lash out violently. It is the only way she can gain some control for herself. Unfortunately, when she grows up, because of this early trauma, she will think she has to seize control and dominate others with the same intensity. This characteristic will be deeply ingrained and will make her just as dominating as her parents are now, especially when she is around people who are vulnerable, such as children. This same trauma no doubt happened to her parents before her. They have to dominatenow because of the way their parents dominated them. That's the means through which psychological violence is passed down from one generation to another.
Now we all see this, and recognize it as our own. I can prove it all, I have documented the corruption in our schools, in the town and city, in the county and state... the disease is everywhere. I can show how our actions and materialism pursuits destroy the earth, and how the children all see this and grow to fight and exploit as the ideal that we teach them! The corruption is everywhere. That's all documented and provable too... So all the systems are false and destroyable with just observing the truth...

THEN CHRIST JESUS You have also created the solution and all of our systems can be linked and monitored with simple TRANSPARENCY... we can know and direct it all in truth... no more expecting others to care for our troubles we must learn to do it oursleves....

No proof necessary, you can look and see whatever we do. No more Lies, no more deceptions... Remove the drugs from our bodies, return to real food to make our bodies and minds clear. LOL... WHY? Because then YOU TOO will be able to connect to Heaven and Earth to Share the Experience of GOD = LOVE now... Not later, Heaven ON Earth NOW!!! lol, this is easy stuff I will show you!!

Thursday, December 09, 2004

this is a webpage tooo... lol...

oh this is a trip to open a webpage now, writing directly online again? And I realize what that really means to me! I've collected pictures of the oddest things precisely for this. Little scraps to piece together a fantasy ... lol.... knew this was coming, lol... trusted my instincts in creating the desire for what i needed to express myself. This Is Your Love Jesus that I NEED to Express!

Now i need to pull in documents from other places. I need another Web Tool! MAKE it so i can import pages from other groups/archives so I can update them and expand on them. That would be a neat tool... especially if i could change it everywhere. Yea, keeping archives like wiki's do too... lol... so others can update it too.... like so many groups are full of old dead crap messages we sent before we knew anything... lol... so now we need to update and correct them... or at least link to the updates! I am still the engineer combining resources again.


This is exactly what you asked for. What did yo think would come? 11.55pm Landslide By Seven Places "I will trust you Jesus I'll be Brave" 11.56pm "I'm not unhappy that i take the train today..." Day by Day By Point of Grace
WOW this is really freeing... like all this energy is flowing out of me into this keyboard... and I see in my mind how it's all electronics... countless little points of light moving about. Here a quantum, then there... each at the same time, back and forth over again ad infinitum.....

lol... more more more, so i send my own electrons through this WORD to You NOW! LOVE; SMILE 0;->)))==<
"Show my devotions, I want to fall in love with you, I want to fall in you with you" Love song for a Savior by Jars of Clay
Each electron i send to you now carries a vibration. And that vibration I add to it is my Knowledge, Direction, and control for the little beam. I send my direction, my prayer, my point of understanding in these rays to you here. Each Word, Each Feeling.... coming through for you now as you read this word....

You know it, you feel it.... It's not about me, it's all about you... CMRadio.net There's no sweeter name i know!!!... lol.... Jesus, I am Yearning here for you!!! 12.21pm everything i am wants to BE LIKE YOU!!!!


Everything you are Son Everything by Seven Place 12.22pm
So cool... thanks Man, this is really going to be awesome. Typing Live, sharing this Energy online? with You? You are so cool about this... I Love You Lord Jesus Christ!"


You are Son; this is just barely beginning. You were so very clear and strong today that you have no idea, you need to tell Claire about the restaurant. www.CMRadio.net I want to know you by Sonicflood
Oh shit, I mean... we walked in for lunch and the place was packed in seconds. So i knew that happens to me anywhere I go, and I realized how it was a viable example that she can understand about how consciousness is all connected. I then realized how I emailed her this morning about reservations for lunch at our usual place on campus. And how i knew just suggesting the concept was sending energy for everyone to go there. So when i arrived early, Barbara had already called for reservations and it was full already.

That's something i tested while riding my motorcycle. I could focus on taking one route home, until i raced off on my bike and suddenly turn to go the other direction, to find it empty. It was so neat how I could feel the difference when i shifted.... like the weight of hundreds was off of me.... aaaa freee....

WOW, Now I remember how i'd give the kids a Weekender with our options circled for fun! They would pick the ones we wanted and then think about the others to shift the crowds. I remember how Emily really knew what she wanted, no traffic, but big crowds at the art shows!

So I saw Skalkos today and asked her to join my research committee to prove how consciousness changes DNA. Wow, and I know realize why. She was right i need to confide in someone to say the entire story. However, she has ethical disclosure issues. Lol... which i can wave with a signature.... hum? and then the security is assured for all the other participants too. hum? ;-/

Course Skalkos knew Claire and visa versa. Evidently the counseling center is now well established for conflict resolution techniques; development and used administration wide. Claire was stunned to hear I saw Skalkos weekly for years before the center became popular... Skalkos related completly to her both having me as a visitor weekly. Claire and i met at lunch, while Skalkos would NEVER join me for lunch... lol.... but each watched me progress for years at USF.

Connecting little points of light. WOW, so for lunch i told Claire how i presented my case to Skalkos... saying how i needed to get all these women together to witness the Full Chant. Then they could experience it and understand how much energy we can move. I mean, demonstrations are always most effective.

But Claire wasn't convinced, so i said how this wonderful "Ro" witch popped over for a holiday weekend. I told her "Understanding it was only by experience," how better to start a class. So Ro came in after 12 hours changing flights from London. And we started with the Cypress Rd Beach 5 minutes from the airport, where I showed her the Chant concepts. She liked the beach. So then in Clearwater hours later, I explained it in more detail showing her again.... then a third time at my house.

Morning i was ready for the whole Chant. So i showed her in the space (lol... web... LOL!!!) set her in the EAST, pointed out the circle, gave her some drums and went to prepare. When i returned i cast a circle into the one she did while i was gone. Then chanted ALL OUT! Moving the energy to connect Heaven and Earth though our vortex. So we shared this incredible vision of a civilization of Love in mothering children. She was playing with the kids in the garden while i was running off with my love.

We shared the same visions, so i asked who she was speaking to, and she asked if I'd seen her mom.


Mom? I said, I thought it was GrandMom...

Yes that's right, how did you know!!!!

Hey Ro, this is the garden here, remember you flew over last night?

So then she asked me more about what I saw, and as i began to explore the visions, which opened like a white lotus with her inquiry. And I began to describe details about the gardens and experiences teaching the children and their traditions.... eeek!! She STOPPED ME in moments recognizing I knew too much already... and then just asked me HOW?

So I then explained how we each are a temple of God. I'm Doing this Shamonic Dance Ritual in Prayer of Love for Jesus Christ. I just am acting as I was created for and the flash that passes through me i witness as a Gift of God for her. She had witnessed the Love of God that was there for her. She shared in this expression of the Divine, so she could take what she wants of it.

I move so much energy so I have learned to pass it on since it all expands and returns to me applified, so to explore it further is to Honor God even more! SO PLEASE ASK ME MORE!!!

So next Claire Tells me about a Great Aunt who passed recently. Her mom's sister who was deep into the Indian Traditions of their family. No one else in the family would face it, or accept it... Except her Daughter ALSO NAMED RO like the London RO Witch deep into the traditions with her GRANDMOTHER, not Mom.... just liek Claire's daughter who was very close with her Great Aunt!!!

WOW, another Lady connected to this same path. Maybe I need to see her daughter to help me convince her to demonstrate this Chant! Course i made a CD to define the context and everything for Skalkos, which I need to recreate and copy for Claire and her Daughter, ugh and others!!! lol....

Oh and I need to explain how the songs are on a radio, just another business. The NOW this experience I've created for you is Locked in time with these songs!! And they flow into YOU while you share in it by reading my words. Check the songs words... read the LIGHT FOR YOU!!! Search out this vision I've shared as a gift to you!

All GOD's people say, WE LOVE YOU, WE LOVE YOU LORD!!! We Love you.,,, and we pray www.CMRadio.net The beauty of Simplicity by Telecast 1.44 it's in the business rocords, royalties are paid based on the songs played.. it's all recorded... NOW

I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, thanks for sharing here with me amen

What do you really want to happen now?

What do you really want to happen now?
I love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ; thank you so very much for everything that you have given to me. Please keep us safe. Bring us what we need and guide us all into Your Love and Grace for the Glory of God. Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ
Please let me sleep, guide me tomorrow to say Your words and do Your deeds! amen!


Thursday, December 09, 2004
2:07:22 PM
This is too much I'm just going to laugh. I know I asked for all of this and I know I can deal with anything. It's just so funny to see this all happening so quick. Like the last time I journalled in the library, i felt like people were reading over my shoulder. And now I Know they all can read it as quickly as I post it.

Ugh and I know i need to post what I hand wrote this morning... Ugh, always so much to do and never enough time... I love You Lord Jesus

Visions of linking new projects

12/09/04 10.49am
Oh wow what a trip this is. I awoke at 3.03am, and got up at 3.07am. i knew i would never get back to sleep, so i went out to chant...

Wow it was so very clear what to do. Every step and every motion i made was very clear and defined. First took Bear outside, came back and then got right into a Yoga position on the floor. I actually didn't do it all, but soon was up in my chair with my drum. i did the sounds and chanted full out!

i went through it all rather quickly too. But i got a lot of sensations moving all the energy around. Not so much the breathing and the sounds, but just real pwoer moving. Like i could feel so much more, very clear and specific. Ans when i pushed it all up back from the Earth and pulled this incredible vision through my crown to Heaven.... WOW.... I Felt like i was offering them up to God, like a tithe, and then felt it come down into like a gift back into my heart to hold... Thank You Lord Jesus; I Love YOU!

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Monday, December 06, 2004 11:13:45 PM

Date:Mon, 6 Dec 2004 20:21:00 -0800 (PST)
From:"Eric" To:"Chuck"
Subject: hey dude
Hey Chuck,

This is weird... really weird.I'm reading my OLD Journal.... from 1987

Two days before I met Dan Walbolt for the very first time.... I was praying and playing my God talk stuff as I always did. And so here as I wrote the songs from the radio....


"so now, Walbolt will likely tell me we’re only a student group and must do it on our own.... who knows it will likely all come through, but I'm ready to deal with the worst."
It’s just kinda freaky reading this now, since it about happened that way.
I guess I should write about how things I do now will come out too?

Thanks Buddy!
Peace and love to you and yours!
erw
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So I'm still reading my journal. And the section I just read is the same as my day today. So I need to write it here. (red is corrections added now)

  • 5/25/87 5.35pm So I’ve gone through the last year of old newspaper clippings that I’ve collected.... Organized, trimmed and cut them all up. Filled up a bag of trash and put a bunch into a RAS presentation book. For my meeting tomorrow. I organized it all good I think. Starts out with the local development and goes into all the problems it causes; polluting rivers, killing wildlife and destroying children with all the social pressures, and obvious perversion and exploitation. Then I go into the mess in the government and HRS and how little they do.
  • And then comes RAS and USF on the scene with all kinds of clippings about USF architecture and 2 clippings about RAS (ARCE). Then I go into clippings about kids and nature and projects, developing productions and the rich rewards from it and then I got my projects.
  • 5/26/87 9.23pm Met with Bryan Burgess and Mr. Walbolt for an hour today.
  • 9.45pm I see Dr. Skalkos again tomorrow.... I’ve always thought she would witness my passing.... like I feel she’ll see and know my growth. Like when I pass into newness of life.
  • Like the gap I need to bridge is within myself.... and everyone has the same gap between
    conscious and unconscious, between knowledge and belief, between right brain and left brain.... between intellect and intuition BETWEEN MAN AND God.
  • And when I bridge it I'll finally be able to succeed as I must and need to. I've known Skalkos would be here to witness this.
  • 5/26/87 10.37pm Chuck called and I told him a little about the meeting with Walbolt. He’s really psyched now. I just gave him an idea of the meeting and what I want to do about it. Boy does he seem really positive... I could use the strength too... I guess I really have a lot to talk to Skalkos about. Wow a lot is really happening. I got a solid opportunity and position to make my stand and I'm getting the solid support I need.

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Date:Mon, 6 Dec 2004 22:00:45 -0800 (PST)
From:"Eric" To:hyp
Subject:Re: Tao in the Library today

Hi Hyp,
Very cool stuff, I've got three books to read now. And I finished my finals today... aaahhh some free time finally. Yes still lots going on though, finding current research articles all afternoon today again.

I certainly would enjoy a coffee break too. It's kinda hard to find anyone who can freely talk about this stuff. The Taoist are almost secretive, and the mix into the neurosciences is kinda a rare conversation!

I’ve got a meeting this morning till after lunch. Then nothing planned till Thursday 10-5pm, but then its weekend for me, so just pick a time you can take a coffee break. I like to bike around campus, so I'm rarely more than 10 minutes away from anything.

Hope your finals all go good, and we’ll chat again soon....
c-ya
eric

--- hyp wrote:
> Hi Eric,
>
> Sorry for the delay...lots going on. I did well
> on my final, thanks for asking.
>
> How do you like the books so far? I haven't had
> a chance to check out the link you sent me but,
> I will when I get a spare moment. I am by no
> means an expert on this topic but like you I'm
> interested. I would like to get together for
> some coffee and conversation but will be tied
> up for the next week. Let me know when you're
> available and we will coordinate a time.
>
> Hope all is well.
>
> Hyp
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What do you really want to happen now?

It’s really weird for you to ask me that now. As I was reading through my journal I realized how it was describing the exact same thing that I did today. I mean I did the exact same thing all over again. And what’s really freaky is that the same names are in my journal, now as before. I mean Keith wrote me this week saying Bruce’s Birthday was 12/5 and his daughter’s is on 12/8.

There in my journal 5/87 I'm meeting Bruce who’s building the New USF Art Museum, bidding to build an overpass to the VA Hospital on 30th, and looking at my crazy designs. While Keith is fighting with me about RAS but Chuck is excited about my proposals to Newkome. And my journals are now talking about building the dreams I’ve recently seen in the Tampa River Walk, USF PhD program, Pasco/Greenways and http://www.seedco.org/ this week.


“something deep, something holy, something real that I can not explain, a love so beautiful, I can not turn away, God has Shown me a love so beautiful, I can not turn away, I can not turn away” I Cannot Turn Away by Jamie Slocum 12/7/2004 1:45:40 AM

It is really too intense to even write about. I mean there is just so much energy pumping through my body now. So I'm reading about this passion and desire as I created a new world in school... while then I lose a lover, an Expo Video, and have to start over it seems writing basic proposals for the university bureaucrats. So Skalkos asks why I don’t mourn the loses.


“I have a vision a hope a dream, that’s The Way, that’s The Way, that’s The Way it is With Love;” The Way it is With Love by Natalie Grant.

What else could you expect son?

This is what we’ve been telling you all along.

Do you think you are ready yet?

It’s really funny because I know I never mourn, like I wrote in 1987 people are always with me and I feel like they will return some day. So as I was reading about losing a lover and thinking, dreaming about intimacy.... even feeling them from a distance and recalling explaining the telepathy with Valerie.... lol.... and now the teleporting with Kathy. Wow, it’s funny Skalkos never heard about Kathy, just Valerie and Maryanne her twin... lol. And so as I reading this old journal and I stop to check my email and there was a reply for the cute girl with the stone into nueropsychology... "Tao in the Library today"

wow another email now?

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----- Original Message -----
From: "erw" To: "Eric Weaver"
Sent: Tuesday, December 07, 2004 3:54 AM
Subject: Re: Hi there

Hey rick... lol...I always wanted to do that... Say that out loud fast "hey rick," it sounds like "ERIC"... lol... someone would yell that down the hall to me long ago, sorta saying hello and my name at the same time.

Yes sorry about the membership on The Changers group. It's a free Yahoo thing, bunch of files there, easy, so I use it a lot: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/USF-ethics/files/Forests/. I can let you use an ID or email you the final 10 MB original ppt.

With the research we did it turned into how Big Brother Business was exploiting the environment everywhere. Ending with a http://www.congress.org/ link to stop the 2005 Omnibus Budget SCAM http://thomas.loc.gov/home/omni2005/ where the Old Growth gets chopped with countless other porkers.

mindboggling for sure!
I certainly understand the KIDS FIRST thing. Congrates... enjoy every second with them? 2-3?

However, here in Florida we got Brother Bush running all the state offices too, so the anti-BB-BSing message is building up quick. Howard Zinn just visited too http://www.usforacle.com/vnews/display.v/ART/2004/12/01/41adca4e9753f?in_archive=1

If you have any spontaneous ideas for a few non-profits http://www.pascowildlife.com/ http://www.starsusa.org/ that would be cool. Course after seeing some of what you've done, I'm kinda embarrassed to say this, but look at the stars history at the bottom of that page to see who helps do that.

Are you still interested in an anti-BB-BSing message?
We might be able to bring in something to make it a paying gig.

Maybe even tie in www.Seedco.org
www.computermentors.org
http://www.yeaprograms.org/ with my MBA..... into
http://stars.dyndns.info/homestead/files/prod01.htm <= my son..... http://stars.dyndns.info/homestead/comp1.html <= with my dauther.....
to make it all a paying gig for me too!

wow now my mind is blown away ... overload for sure.
Thanks for the Reply

More power to the EWs....

er;-)

----- Original Message -----
Sent: Monday, December 06, 2004 12:17 AM
Subject: Re: Hi there

Yo, Eric, what's up? Thanks for the note.

I think what you're doing with the powerpoint deck is great. It's a huge problem right now in the Northwest, and mindboggling that it's even happening in the first place.

I'm not sure what I can do to help. I run a struggling marketing firm and that pretty much takes up all my free time. I have the skills to get an anti-logging message across but not the budget to create an awareness campaign to help change public opinion. Hopefully someone with deeper pockets does....if they were out there, I'd love to work on a gig like that.

I couldn't get into your "The Changers" group on Yahoo... evidently I have to be a member?

I appreciate the kind words. If you know of an organization that wants to do a campaign about clear-cutting, I'd love to help. But it'd have to be a paying gig at this point. Gots to feeds the kids! :)

More power to the EWs....
- ew
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channeling gilbert gottfried, all day, every day.
http://www.ericweaver.com/

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Sunday, December 05, 2004 6:27:27 PM

Sunday, December 05, 2004 6:27:27 PM

What you did was good son, no worries, be happy!


It’s all going to bust apart soon isn’t it?


What have you been asking for? Do you think you are ready?

I guess nothing would happen if I wasn’t ready. And the way things are all coming together very slowly and clearly, it seem like this is all exactly as it needs to be.


What else would you expect?

Am I finally going to get into my fantasy

___________________________________________________________
From: erw To: eric Cc: eric
Sent: Sunday, December 05, 2004 12:04 AM
Subject: Hi there

Hey Eric,
I occasionally search for our name to see what comes up first, since I've written so much.

When I searched today and found your sites I was pleasantly impressed. I like your work. You are very skilled at websites and marketing, which I'm just starting to look at now in an MBA. Care to help?

I was born in CA and Visited Vallejo for the first time this summer as I drove up to Portland. Wonderful area, so my last class project is about how the forests are getting destroyed in the Northwest: http://stars.dyndns.info/download/presentation1.ppt

This is a cut version you can get to easily. But if you want to look at the whole thing it is here: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/thechangers/files/Forests/

Thanks for reading this note. It's great to see the name doing so well...
Maybe you can help out with this!
There is really so much more I need to DO!

Sincerely
Eric
http://profiles.yahoo.com/stars2man
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Wow this is really cool. 5/1/87 4.03pm Dr. Skalkos surmised that after my accident I abandoned my own instinctive identity, actions and selfhood. I learned to adapt to other peoples’ attitudes because they were safe..... She said that now I need to regain some of my traits that I abandoned.

What do you think about this?

It’s really kinda funny to think about it now. I'm in the same place again trying to do what we talked about years ago.... wow 17.6 years ago. I'm getting closer and closer to freely following my instincts all the time. And again I'm in the place and position to change everything that there is.

Saturday, December 04, 2004

Saturday, December 04, 2004 12:08:08 PM

I'm not really sure what is happening, or what this is all about. But I know I'm more in control of it all than ever.

Post all this to your blog. I thought you were going to start doing all this typing right into your blog?

I guess maybe I can sooner or later, but not yet. I'm still kinda slow and distracted about all of this. Now I really have to study for a test Monday anyway.

7:48:09 PM
Picture 19 dated 4/6/87 10.53pm. I am talking about sharing with Skalkos for the first time!!! She understands how much I deal with the subliminal.... Wow, this is really intense:
  • “what I need to know is why or where am I going and how will I get there”
That’s really cool to see this written here again I knew I had to read this journal again. I saw it sitting here and felt it calling my name.
    What do you mean?

    Its like the energy, or magnetism of the information called to me.... I mean the information that I had sitting on the edge of my dresser these past months since my summer vacation reminded me. Wow, it has been that long, I didn’t know that. So I'm going to see her again next week.
    • “I know I can’t tell everyone everything and I know I need to tell them more or else they won’t listen or will lose interest. I know there must be a happy medium and I know I must find my content point where I can be open and honest about myself without being threatening or obtuse”
    This is Faith By Andrew Carlton I love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ ... I love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ I love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ “This is what it means to chose your way” CMRadio.net.... wow, I wrote a prayer after the bit above.
    • “I love You Lord Jesus Christ, Please Lead and Guide me to Achieve Your Love and Glory for us All. Thank you Lord Jesus Christ amen!”
    • 4/14/87 12.08pm I need to stand up for what I'm doing, what’s my game plan? I need to write a game plan

    Funky listening to the helicopter and Christian Rock songs while reading these Classic Rock songs I had written before. It’s really a trip doing this now.

    • 4/17/87 3.42pm. Lol... 4.32pm “I'm scared I can’t tell her about anything, not what I know and feel so never what I experience. Like I don’t, can’t, just couldn’t even start to dream what could happen with USF. I hate to set limits.... but I'm not allowing full expression ((of myself)).
    • 4/18/87 12.11am Lol...11.29pm “I have to learn to be comfortable with who I am”
    • 4/18/87 11.55pm It’s like I’ve been a leader all my life.... now I just need to get set with myself.... find a place and attitude that is really me. I need to get the confidence to express myself fully and grow to dominate situations.... I have to come to ground with myself and dominate my own needs and desires.

    Lord I Believe in You By Crystal Lewis

    • 4/19/87 10.05am like everything I do affects me and my life. I know how things affect me so I've dreamed with Jesus so I could learn how to do HIS WILL as I am.
    • 10.22am “highway in the light, I've found my chosen road”

    The Closer I get to the Cross by: Palisade CMRadio.Net "The face of God has made me Whole, Jesus Take my life...." Lay it Down By David Bush What do you really need to talk about?

    Am I asking you or are you asking me?

    Son this is all about you. What are you going to do with all that you read and understand again here.

    It is just really weird to read this all over again and see what I'm doing right here before my eyes.

    What do you need to do to get ready for tomorrow?

    I guess I'm really just nervous about seeing Dr. Skalkos now. I mean she already knows everything there is to know about me. Everything. She knows the stories about Maryanne and all the STARS – RAS stuff that Keith wants to return to town to complete. NOW, LOL..... then she knows about so very much more. And she was really working to help me out. It’s kinda freaky now that I see I'm really in the exact same place I was back then.

    Thursday, December 02, 2004

    Thursday, December 02, 2004 5:59:02 PM

    So I saw Natasha and Claire today, and even got a voice mail from Olga. There seems to be a great deal coming together here again. It’s really interesting how fast it all is. I was really skeptical about going out to eat now, but I ended up talking myself into it though I'm still not clear or sure about it, as I sit in Outback waiting for my order.

    What do you think this is all about?

    It really is kinda hard to follow completely I always feel and know that I need to do a lot and that I will do whatever you put before me. It certainly is almost magical how this all happens to me. But I know it needs to be like this. It always is like this.

    What else would you prefer?

    It would be great if it was all over already. But I know it’s not the finished thing that makes it, it’s all the process to get there. The process is almost more fun than anything else. And I guess I can see more of this process coming together that ever before. Both Claire and Natasha had recently seen things to add to my list of things to read and do. It’s always kinda freaky to see so many things coming together so quickly.

    What do you want to see?

    I guess I would really like to see my kids return home safely. See all my patents get built and done successful, and see You come into your own here.

    What you mean is clear, but what you say isn’t. It’s interesting to see how your written words change as you take more time to think about it all. Why don’t you try a bit more clarity?

    I guess I miss my kids more than anything, but I know that having my kids and being successful is meaningless without you. So I know that meeting the things here that can bring you freedom is the best and most important thing to do. I guess I can see how these things are all related and intertwined, so it’s very important for me to do what I know is most important. So I can stay focused, as I know this will make things clearer and easier for everyone.

    What?

    I can get this stuff done. I know I can. It’s very easy and simple. And I know it can get it all together as quickly as you need. Well maybe, but certainly quick enough?

    What you are doing is fine, trust it all and just be!

    Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ You are the best.... I love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ

    Wednesday, December 01, 2004

    Wednesday, December 01, 2004 2:47:45 PM

    I'm in the library, watching the cute girls again. I came in here to do some research and I really have tons and tons to do. Where to start is always my issue...

    So a really cute girl came in and sat in the next chair. She had a stone set in the middle of her forehead, and was clearly not Indian. So I asked about it wondering if she was Buddhist. She said she avoided practicing any one religion but liked the stone and had several of different colors and styles.

    8pm

    We chatted a few more times and she finally asked me about what I was researching. I was hesitant at first but finally said I was exploring DNA and consciousness theories. Then she tells me she is getting into nueropsychology and gave me a few books to read. She had a French final to go to at 6pm. I was hoping she would make it back here, but it doesn’t look like it now. She did give me her email address and name so we do plan to chat again some more.


    Course that is so cool. I just love it. Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ You are the best.... I love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ


    Sunday, November 28, 2004

    Sunday, November 28, 2004 11:23:29 PM

    Wow what a trip. I just watched the movie National Treasure. It was 1832, Charles Carrollton the last surviving signer of the declaration of independence, and he knew he was dieing. Take me to the white house now..... Secret for Thomas Gates... secret treasure. The Knights Templer, smuggled the treasure to America. ((untitled.bmp))

    55 men that signed a paper that would be protected and guarded forever. And I had in my folder a resume, p-13-12 finance problem, and all the file for the last attorney. And went to see it with Scott. Wow and we are them as well.

    What you need to do is chant!!

    Friday, November 26, 2004

    Friday, November 26, 2004 9:33:40 AM

    Lots of email. What was really funny or WEIRD was how I blew off my family... especially my dad, lol... larry Sr, and jr... literally. I just got sick of the total BS, and smile and be friendly all fake crap. I actually got some real feeling and emotion from mark, which honestly surprised me. But just as quickly as I blew them all off.... Chuck calls me.

    So his brother Larry.... lol.... is retiring from the marines and moving to Florida. Actually he's already got a house 10 minutes from Chuck and they also have Chuck's Mom and dad coming south soon too. Of course Larry has a BS in Civil Engineering and an MS in Operations Research and wants to break into this business.

    My first question was whether he wanted to start his own business or just work for someone else? Sounds like they are not sure, but I got a resume already and wrote out a spontaneous letter or two. First I wrote to Chuck and then to his brother (through Chuck), after I chanted and felt how I'm in a new family already. Wow a real family finally. It was really kinda weird to feel all that. His brother seems to be very strong and secure, and more interested in the now that whatever past BS he's heard or not heard.

    11:09:52 AM
    Interesting, everything is very interesting. I'm not sure what's really happening or where everything is going. But I'm inclined to accept and trust it more and let things flow as they need to for me to be free. I'm really glad to be here doing what I trust in God. It's actually very good and exciting to be so secure and comfortable in this truth that I know.


    Mrs. Stevenson,
    I just spoke to a city employee who was loading up some mulch from this field. He said the city is struggling to get rid of all of this mulch piled up everywhere and is giving it free to residents.

    I asked him if we could get this pile spread into a path around this field. We always have residents coming here to walk dogs or jog around the field, so making a path would be great. There are areas really low that would need a bit more mulch spread into them to stay dry and make it safer too. He said I could call the city and speak to the city council member in our area, and having other neighbors support would be great.

    We already have sent you a petition from all the neighbors here to make this into a real park. Is there something more I can do to help this along? I can generate CAD drawings, designs and construction plans if that would help. And I know Marion would be happy to help get some more neighborhood communication and agreement about whatever we do.

    I look forward to talking some more about this with you. And I never got a phone call from the Parks Department. Hope you have a good Holiday.

    Thanks

    Eric Weaver
    home 813-237-3705
    Cell 813-679-5195
    http://home.tampabay.rr.com/engineer/professional.htm


    Hey Cathy
    Thanks good to hear from you..
    Not sure why you like the Collidal Silver note, but so be it.

    As for my dad and family, they will do what they need to do... Not my problem. as for 7x70.. yea done that, so what? It's easy to forgive. But when they are not repentant then there's no point to it. Forgive them or not they are still in the same place... doing the same thing. Which was the point of "give the Caesar what is Caesars"...

    Forgiving the past is easy, but if every time you saw your dad he DID that same stuff over again and again to you... that would be throwing your "pearls to swine".... your time is worth more than that. If he can't see it, fine forgive, but move on.

    That's really all I had to do. I can't deal with them anymore. It's just not healthy. I don't need their judgments or how they evaluate me and whoever I'm with. They were never nice or fair with you either. I never brought someone home that wasn't insulted by them. And if I try to say anything or fight back, then I'm the EVIL black sheep, to be burned at the stake. That's simply not right. So I wont deal with it at all. And certainly will never bring any child of mine near them again.

    I actually got a real email from my younger brother mark. He was ranting and raving, but actually shared something real, I was impressed. Kinda sorry, but impressed. Not even a day later Chuck called me to say his Brother Larry, and parents are moving to Tampa. And his brother wants to work as a Civil Engineer... Wow! Then he invited me to join them for Thanksgiving Dinner. It felt wonderful. Like I had a new family already!!! Chuck has always felt insulted by how my family treated me too... I mean his dad was a sheriff for Bergen County in NJ when I had my accident, so they knew more about me than I did.... but they all forgave and accepted me!

    So God works in Wonderful ways you know... all sorts of synchronistic things like this are happening every day to me. I will simply continue to trust God, and Do His WILL. Reminds me, I need to do the Sermon that my Mom wrote. I mean I was almost embarrassed writing my brother back. But it really felt good to let it all out of me. It's all their trash, why should I hold onto it. Like Emily, they will all get what they need when they are ready... I can forgive and forget, but no way will I put myself into a toilet again. And I could really feel why God wanted me to get it all out.... It feels good, like I really emptied out some trash inside..... Like something my Mom should have done before it killed her. Oh did you ever hear those stories, I'm not sure if I told you..... lol... Oh I'm sure, you heard about everything the kids and I talked about....

    Oh and Cathy, THANK YOU.... and I'll always love you too.... As I Prayed Thanks for you yesterday, I felt like my Mom had sent you to us, because I never would have survived all this crazy stuff if you weren't here through it all.... and you know, we really had some AWESOME times with those kids. Even the counselor said to me, how it sounds like I really had the best of their lives already.... and when you stop and think back.... what will make you smile... as little kids remember, kayaking, feeding baby ducks and playing no rules scrabble all night or being molested and bribed by an old pervert.

    Thanks again.... Oh are we going to see Indigo On the 29th in Westshore?
    Love u
    eric

    Thursday, November 25, 2004

    Druggists refuse to give out pill

    ----- Original Message -----
    To: USF-ethics · Legal Ethics Class
    Sent: Thursday, November 25, 2004 12:41 PM
    Subject: Fw: Druggists refuse to give out pill

    It's Thanksgiving, take the day off... lol...

    Course birth control is a scam to make doctors and lawyers rich, just like abortion.... I mean women have control of their bodies already, if they want or don't want something they can control it without getting poisoned. Course birth control pills cause cancer anyway, both breast and ovarian too.... more money to those doctors.... lol... No studies will ever be funded about this, there's too much money in it for them. I mean think a second, what do extra hormones mess with inside of you? Milk and Babies!!!

    Sorry, but yes that's a national article. The felony article is a state article. Civil rights supported by a Bush, it'll never happen!!! Whatever they claim and try, something will be setup so they are all lost in the system. Just wait there will come a national law to do it across the country too. Oh and here's a Local Article related to the last Journal Article I did about Sharon. Hope you have a great turkey day...
    eric

    Sunday, November 21, 2004

    Sunday, November 21, 2004 3:53:24 AM

    Ok so I sent this letter to my dad and realize that I will need to follow it up. I mean this presentation I need to do for my class is actually exactly the sermon that my Mom wanted me to do before she died.

    What you need to do is chant all out. But post this first!

    It's going to be a long year isn't it

    Wait it's not even started yet.... relax NO FEAR, SO JUST DO
    IT!!!

    IT WONT WORK?
    Yes so Chant time but what did you realize now
    I could go visit metropolitan ministries and have Morris Hintzman set it all up for me.

    Sp04 Catalyst: Restoring Scientific Integrity to Policy Making: "
    The Bush administration has distorted facts and suppressed the truth to serve its ideological agenda on issues ranging from climate science to military intelligence. UCS has responded with a campaign to restore scientific integrity to policy making.

    The scientific community has expressed growing concern over the politicization of science. Scientists, doctors, and other experts both inside and outside the government accuse officials within the George W. Bush administration of suppressing or distorting scientific and medical information when it conflicts with their policy objectives."

    Wednesday, November 17, 2004

    Wednesday, November 17, 2004 4:55:18 PM

    What are you going to do?
    I'm sorry; I need to do whatever you set out before me.
    Son this is your life. What do you want to see happen with all of this?
    I'm sorry; I thought I was here doing what you wanted?
    What we need is for you to make it happen as you want it to.
    I'm not sure I can really do that? I can’t really know everything that You need to do. Like I understand how I can fill a place for You and I can really move into all these things that You have before me. But I'm not sure I can keep up with it all.
    Suddenly now you feel you have time to write; while in fact you have a long, long list of things that you need and want to do. So why aren’t you getting more done?
    I'm sorry; I'm really not sure? I guess it is getting stressful again with things. And I'm intimidated even writing, because I feel you’ll tell me to blog it all too.
    What do you think you are here for?
    I'm sorry; I'm really trying to do my best...
    What we need is for you to just relax and trust more about what this time and experience is bringing to you. Just DO IT. Everything is going along kinda nicely, and it’s only going to increase for you if you can keep up with it all. To Trust in Christ Jesus, is to Feel the Light of God inside of you as ONE Being. We are all in this together; and no one else can do what you are doing. We all have our Place.
    I'm sorry; I really just want to go to sleep now.
    What you need to do is make a video and such.
    I'm sorry; I still only wanna go to sleep.
    What you have to do is stop hiding from what you are creating. Its’ not going to be easy, but it will come along a lot better if you don’t run and hide. We’re sorry too, but it’s just something that you have to do. It will be fun, and get easier with time.
    I'm sorry; can I get something off my chest? I'm really scared about all of this. I even told Dan the other day about the gun shots outside my window once when I chanted. I heard a voice, then a shot, and then the bullet through the grass. It was weird and I felt it, so I dialed 911 and told them that it happened. I never looked to see if cops came out, but I really felt it was Paul. But I also wrote Dr. Prange about asking Chris whether Paul had a new gun.

    So I've felt how the energy that I created inside of me was coming back to me. As I now write listening to the TV that Dan always has on. I hate how the energy and feeling comes in whenever I hear these things; I even watch crap once in a while. Watched MIB for the first time last week and now I hear THE FIRM with Tom Cruise. Funny another movie people tease me about never seeing and it’s because I resemble the actors. I can hear what's going on and it’s really sickening. But I feel it. It’s weird. It’s so hard to write out all that I feel, like the videos in my head never end. I'm scared.... too much, too fast.
    What do you want to happen?
    I'm sorry; I felt like Christopher with Emily were taking charge of the whole situation at the courts and blowing the entire system all to pieces. Wow this is intense the more I think about it the more that I see.
    “This judge, law, bureaucrat, official, public servant, civil servant, administrator, pen pusher, moderator, rule, representative, executive, community servant, national servant, manager, and a few parents are full of shit, selfish arrogant and not the least bit interested in anything but themselves. Like this is pathetic, since you all know it and each overlook some aspect of yourselves that your very neighbor would deplore. So you too can exploit to profit. All the children see this and know it. How could you teach them such? ”

    Then I felt him coming to the university to video tape the chants that we did in the tiled circle at the USF’s MLK Plaza. Wow, WE are creating this right now. We all swell up from You in the ground.
    So then the power of the people is moving and we simply DO IT.
    What do you want us to do?
    I'm ready for You to make this energy visible to everyone. Hold it? I can’t handle it still?
    What are you hiding from? This is really not very hard at all. And it’s all very powerful emotions and forces for change that are coming together all in one space. Your visions are very clear and pure, you can feel the Domes Full of people growing plants and trees, working together and being successful. Each moment you think of these things it gets clearer and truer in your heart. Nature and Man working together, Mother and Father, You can just feel it. All the love and the truth of the ONE family; the exact same dream that everyone has. And It’s really already there in your hands. Each one of you can do this today!

    And you are right, it will only increase and increase; more and more; faster and faster. So Just DO IT. This is what you have been waiting for. And you do hear this all the time. And you have been getting ready to do something about it all of your life. Now, Just DO IT! You know and see so many things that are so important to make this change. So just DO IT!

    Son it’s not a problem. As you relax more and get into this space more with Us You will see how very easy it can be. To make this all work right, you just need to keep going. It’s all going to just open up like the lotus you see in your chant. And it’s very important that you do everything sequentially. The chant and the lists; the church and the drums; the patents and the projects; video’s and the grants.

    You are afraid to write for us now too. Don’t be! You’ve been trying to for days.... go pee, drink, and return and Do it. 5:50:51 PM

    5:53:16 PM you came in and you knew what you would see. You sat down and typed the commands to enter the time, and knew it, felt it, of course you would get the numbers of love and life. What is it to load the time into this Word document, and the number you saw there was 5.53.13 and you knew it would be different when you hit enter. And did it anyway. You’ve seen divine numbers forever, just like the songs on the radio. What does this feel like?

    Son this is all exactly as you needed it to be. Everything is here and now, and you see and feel it over and over again. Of course you know to post this message you are writing for us. We’ve been telling you to do it all online all along anyway. You’ve been told this for months; the Blog is there for you. It is what you do already. And again its’ too much, too fast, and you lose half of it. Hesitate and forget, miss the opportunity. This is Your Life, Your World, we can’t come in until you do it right. So Just Do it.

    6:28:04 PM yes so go pee, drink, and return.... read only the last paragraphs before you write some more for us.

    6:30:59 PM You will see the edge of life. This is all exactly as we need and will be very clear and true for a lot of people. Creating life in truth is very easy; but first you must see it all for what it is. What it really is, not just what you pretend and hope for. 6:33:31 PM This number isn’t going to change things. Your actions and directions in truth and progress is what we all need to see. So read these last two paragraphs each as we said.

    8:20:46 PM So now read the paragraphs backwards, starting here, scrolling one paragraph at a time. Trust it Son, one by one, as we tell you. No more excuses, JUST DO IT!

    Monday, November 15, 2004

    Monday, November 15, 2004 9:08:59 PM

    Reading my old journals again....

      • 1/17/87 1.35am “like the little tickle that swells into a vibration of electricity”.... like a dream we share we both feel and see it consciously and unconsciously
      • 2.02pm Baylife Religion: “Does God’s turf, belong to science” coincidence is right; all man can do is interpret, perceive and understand what is already here. Math is man’s method, and the solutions found are God’s laws e=mc2 basic algebra defining reality. After algebra comes calculus in understanding all other God’s laws in nature.... need to do this again with e=mc2 but man can’t prove it or disprove it
      • The accident forced me to change my point of view to find new beliefs. The Fat Ram forced me to decide what I would do about my new beliefs.
      • 1/26/87 6.29pm Evolution is a function of God like we grow, learn and understand which continuously adds to HIM. And to love then God really Grows and we all Feel it.
    What did you find.


    Wow, I was reading my old journal again and I got to the spot where I first met Dr. Skalkos. What a trip that is. She got copies of my journal and gave me a written test. I really told her everything and she was very inquisitive wanting to hear all the little details. What’s really funny is that I knew what I needed to do back then, and it’s exactly the SAME THING that I need to do now. Everything I said about her to Dr. Prange and such is exactly right.

    I wrote her a note about seeing him and attached the latest letter to send to him. I'm really anxious to send it to him so I’ve called her a few times and even dropped by to see her today. It’s really such a trip to go back and read this again at this very moment before I see her.
    What are you seeing now Son?

    Well I'm seeing that I got the opportunity to get out there and seriously change everything.

    What do you mean? What could you do?

    I'm sorry I can’t describe it all right now, but I always see this Indian shaman conducting rituals there where people see and feel serious amount of power and light. Suddenly they all accept that we are in control and simply do not need anyone else and CAN do it all by ourselves. So we simply take over the public resources and everyone accesses everything. Public becomes public again. Our taxes go into our own schools down the street; and the schools operate all our public resources.

    The teachers simply take over with an army of students united in the WE THE PEOPLE. We don’t need their laws, their money, their control, we do it all ourselves, we decide ourselves and we own it all ourselves. So all the public resources in the school are run by the teacher and community connected by students. NO BEREAUCRATES!!! No Fiefdoms


    You better get to sleep....

    I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ
    I love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ
    I love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ
    Please Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ continue to lead me and guide me along your Way filed with the Strength Power and Wisdom of Your Holy Spirit for the Glories of Fathers, Sons and Holy Ghosts! Amen

    Yahoo! Groups : Zest2Zeal Messages : 2393-2393 of 2393

    Sunday, November 14, 2004 6:28:07 PM
    Wow what a day. I've been playing with the data for this model all day long well I guess that was after I did all this other work on my journals research and such.

    What are you going to do next?

    reread this ... e=mc2 energy is mass at v2=c2... basic nuclear energy, but it also applies to all energy fire electricity; but de/dt is the rate of change with respect to time representing life and de/dt/ds is consciousness. ===>> BUILDING: Roadways, public housing, with USF and Iorio USA president putting teachers in charge by making a serious profit=> families have deteriorated so teachers have more and more responsibility.... 12/28/86 2.44pm

    I'm sorry I really have no clue what to expect anymore. Some cute lady found me on the internet again. Her name is Kristina Maria.... She's got a cute 3yr old girl, but I've not said a word about Christopher and Emily Maria.... lol... too much synchronicity....

    Course I just sent my posting to a few guys online who I've chanted with about it all before... I know I need to chant and get to bed.... so I better boogie....

    Yahoo! Groups : Zest2Zeal Messages : 2393-2393 of 2393: "From: erix
    Date: Sun Nov 14, 2004 2:37pm
    Subject: Fw: WORLD INDIGO DAY

    we need to get these messages to as many people as possible:
    INDIGO WILL BE RELEASED IN THEATERS ON JANUARY 29TH FOR ONE DAY!!!!!!

    Over 50 theaters around the US will be screening INDIGO on that day, and
    hundreds of other churches around the world have also agreed to show the
    film that won the 'Audience Choice Award' at the Santa Fe Festival. Why is
    INDIGO being screened in theaters for only one day? We are trying to do
    something very new here, something that has never been done before in any
    theater. We have made an exclusive agreement with the AMC theater chain, and
    they want to know just how supportive this 'New' audience is. We have been
    telling them that the esoteric spiritual community is very much like the
    traditional Christian market that came out to support Mel Gibson's 'The
    Passion of the Christ.' If we prove this to them, then it will pave the way
    for many other films with Spiritual messages to receive mainstream
    distribution. It also increases the likelihood of INDIGO getting a longer
    run in all these theaters."

    Sunday, November 14, 2004

    Sunday, November 14, 2004 11:41 AM

    Thursday, November 04, 2004
    I'm sorry I'm so tired. Things are really crazy and fast!

    http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MayanChant/messages/156?expand=1 Ooops I forgot something... lol...

    I remember when I did this for the Guru http://starsusa.netfirms.com/guru/index.htm
    He commented about how I started, cause evidently when I invite the Father, Son and Holy Ghost doing the cross on my chest like in a Catholic church.... It isn't so regular, "like a Catholic Church"... lol... he's a Church Deacon too...

    When I start I do the sign of the cross, starting with my hands in my lap, like in the Yoga "easy pose." Then moving only my right hand, I touch my third eye, then my solar plexus the left shoulder and then the right... saying concurrently "Father, Son and Holy Ghost", ending concurrently "come be with us now" while bringing my left end up to end in "prayer pose."

    I kinda noticed this the other day when I chanted. You see the Masters in the Cave with me will make their wishes known whenever I'm not following the ritual very clearly. I know some things they don't care about, but other things they are very particular about. Like the power for hurricanes and such isn't something I like to play with so I will start over again a dozen times if they tell me to....

    For the next steps of the Chant I will give you the specific Chi Quong/ Reiki Positions, movements and thoughts for the chant, one at a time. I need to include little pictures and such so I'm not sure how I'll do it since Yahoo wont let you post pictures any longer.... so those of you who get the emails immediately will get pictures, but those on digest or without email wont see the pictures at all. I might have to make another webpage or something to get this all together.

    Oh and for those in Tampa, a center down the road wants me to do it there, so I'll be doing regular classes as well.... UGH!!!

    Wednesday, November 10, 2004 9:32:20 PM

    Everything is getting really weird again, still. I'm not sure what to think right now. I know I need to write and I know that I have lot to write about, but I'm not sure where to start or what to think about it all. Or should I be thinking about it all or not.

    What do you really feel right now?

    I'm sorry I guess I'm not being very clear with myself any more. I guess I've noticed that more that I do the more that opens up for me. It’s not too easy, but I'm not sure it really matters. I mean I see all these weird things happening and I know that I have a lot to do with them all. Hey, I don’t know that? If you wanna write just tell me.

    We really tell you a lot all the time. You need to listen more, not just once in a while.

    I'm sorry I'm not always feeling so safe with these things. Like I was really surprised to get a call Monday to see Emily again yesterday; to say “good-bye.” I really felt like I had nothing to say to her, she’s doing what she has to do for the “man” she wants. It’s really kinda funny, but I think about Christopher.

    DEAR DR"S

    11:22:53 PM wow are you serious or what? decency?

    What did you think would happen? Remember you asked to change the world

    11:22:53 PM wow are you serious or what? decency

    What did you think would happen? Remember you asked to change the world and you knew the only thing that people respond to is pain and fear. Your culture has created this extreme dichotomy that will only be resolved with the fullness of what it is.

    Americans have created Paul. There are hundreds of Pauls in your country; housands and thousands of Pauls, Bushs, Gates, Rockefeller’s, Hitlers all doing things worse in every way.

    The deception and corruption that you all laugh about each night on TV is a slightest fraction of what you allow in your streets. You have created it all by filling your minds and hearts with trash.

    I'm sorry, I know I can’t get into this so deep. I just copied this to an email for Dr. Skalkos about Dr. Prange Emily and Christophe , that I copied to Claire, Sandy, Scott, Joyce, Laura, ....wow, Chuck, James & Marianne, Kurt, Trace, Tim, Kristin I can’t believe I sent that!

    What you are doing is exactly what needs to be done. Everything is going along just fine. It’s not a big deal, it’s all just wonderful in fact. You do need to get to sleep.

    I'm sorry, I know, I'm so tired it hurts. I couldn’t sleep the night before I saw Emily. And I'm still not sure that I've done what I needed to do.

    Son What IS, IS.... they are doing what they must do, just as you are. Everyone who sees what you are doing will understand and respect you. This is not an easy task that just anyone could understand and deal with. You’ve been working toward this for your entire life. Why would you think that this moment would be any different?

    Sunday, November 14, 2004 8:35:54 AM

    http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Zest2Zeal/message/2392 There is a great deal of significant data in your article and is brings out some questions that vibrate inside of me. So please don't over-react to my comments but I feel that it's necessary to share the spontaneous insights that I feel as I read this: http://www.nwbotanicals.org/oak/newphysics/Helix%20to%20Hologram.pdf

    Tuesday, November 09, 2004

    Ethics Class

    Business, Government and Society: A Managerial Perspective
    by George A. Steiner, John F. Steiner, John Steiner

    Chapter 9
    The FDA and Tobacco Regulation

    The FDA is required to regulate any “drug or device” to be “safe and effective” for human consumption. Tobacco like alcohol was never designed or intended to be safe and effective for anything valid and useful. Both are commodities that exploit human weakness and have a great deal of negative side effects with only some social enjoyment factors. The general public enjoys watching people die too, as the suicide restaurants found in Japan. However, allowing this is not civilized. But for the tobacco and alcohol industries, being civilized or responsible impedes their bottom line.

    The Supreme Court decision in favor of the tobacco industry seems like a political decision to me. What difference does the other laws and intent of congress back in 1938 have to do with the issues today? In 1938 tobacco was a major export from this country and accounted for a significant part of the Gross National Product. Further, there was no evidence or conception of their being adverse health effects. The tobacco industry was very careful about only letting information out to the public to show the benefits of smoking.

    The facts of this case illustrate how little the public understands about the political process. The judges can address and formulate their conclusions on anything they feel necessary to derive the position most suitable for their political and personal agendas. In 1938 congress made a law to protect people. At that time no one considered tobacco a health issue at all, so congress never intended it to regulate tobacco. However, since then the truth about tobacco has been learned. So the FDA has a responsibility to address this like any other “drug or device.”

    Clearly to me the Supreme Court decision was paid for by the tobacco industry.


    Chapter 10
    Microsoft Corporation and Antitrust

    The Department of Justice was extremely lenient. Their final decision was much to the benefit to Microsoft, even after the detailed findings of fact which made it clear Microsoft had done everything they were charged with. However, if you notice the final decision came after the Bush Administration took office, and notice how the passing the Patriot Act, which destroyed many privacy rights; coincided with the sudden onslaught of tremendous amounts of spam. Interesting coincidences there? Many people avoid even considering such thoughts of conspiracies between different branches of government and corporations. However, this is precisely why events such as Enron and 9-11 occur. The concept of government officials profiting from these events is so far beyond civil notions of humanity that the truth is avoided, even when the facts are published. They trained us well. The truth will come out sooner or later. Most of the elite in Germany thought Hitler was a righteous and courageous citizen fighting for the German populous. No one believed there could be such an atrocity hidden behind the scenes.

    On the PRO side the DOJ required Microsoft to disclose all their licenses, Patents and Copyrights. On the CON side, Patents and Copyrights are already public information, which can be found already. http://www.uspto.gov/patft/index.html Microsoft still has control over its Patents and Copyrights, so who cares if they disclosed public information. This would seem valid and beneficial to the general public, like a jury, but anyone technically competent in the field would recognize this is really insignificant, it is like the Judge calling the sky Blue. SO WHAT!

    Another PRO is that the OEM’s can add middleware, browsers and messaging systems. The CON is that Windows comes installed with a Microsoft version of all these products which are set as the default by the Windows operating system. Further Windows itself will automatically reset the computer to this default even if the OEM or user changes the systems on their own computer. There are also other key operations which Windows has built into it that will not function with any other Middleware. For example, Windows now has a built in operation for updating the system files and computer drivers. This operates through a web site. But will ONLY operate with the Microsoft IE browser, not any other browser. A Big CON, but the PRO see the sky is blue!

    Another PRO is that Microsoft is prohibited from retaliating against OEM’s who install competing software on their PC’s. However, the CON is that Windows has built in operations that make these competing programs inadequate. As stated previously, if the browser is Netscape instead of IE, the update won’t work. Further, Microsoft Office includes a “free” version of FrontPage a web building program. So now a great number of websites available are built with FrontPage. However, if you use Netscape the FrontPage websites won’t work correctly. So Microsoft will never retaliate against anyone because Windows automatically make your operations cumbersome and inoperable if you use anything except Microsoft products on a Windows Machine.

    Another PRO is the Microsoft is prohibited from making exclusive contracts that support their products. However, the CON is that Windows already forces this so the contracts are meaningless now. Look the sky is Blue! I guess the biggest CON about this legal settlement that Bill Gates made with the DOJ was that he essentially sold his soul to the Devil. Poor Billy is now a pawn in a massive corruption that far outreaches all mortal imaginations.


    John D. Rockefeller and the Standard Oil Trust

    The South Improvement Plan so rightly named to the benefit of the few at the cost of the many, seems to line-up perfectly with the DOJ deal for Microsoft. Seems to me that Rockefeller made the same kind of deals as Gates, and they both got away with it while bankrupting the competitors. Yes Rockefeller was a “good” man and read his bible and went to church. Bill Gates is “good” too, see how his foundation has provided vaccines to thousands in Africa and continues to provide millions to charities.

    However, are these “good” efforts on the outside just an attempt to sway public opinion? Rockefeller conspired to collect competitor intelligence, much as Gates now provides access to every private citizens personal PC. Rockefeller sidestepped ethics issues in the crusade to illuminate the world just like Gates has a crusade to internet the world, which allows the DOJ intimate illumination into each private PC and household. This is very similar to the biblical crusades as well. Let us all fight for the Christian ethical ideals which support marriage and the rights to life... votye for Bush and destroy the last shred of decency in America

    What a CON JOB. The church is only there to control people and profit. Marriage is controlled by the state not the church. It is designed to destroy families not support families. Divorce is easier than marriage, requiring no license or ceremony; but forcing an equal division; which is designed to destroy children and profit women. Sure women still need to fight to win in business, but all they need is to smile pretty to marry and then divorce the take everything. Divorce has a powerful GREED incentive. It IS Basic War 101, divide and conquer techniques. It makes it easy to take individual rights and destroy them. Like the “Right to Life” scam. Women have controlled their bodies for millions of years, but involve a doctor who will convince her that she can’t control her body so he can profit and then she wiil need an attorney who will profit some more by convincing her to fight in court for her right to do what she can already do.

    Rockefeller was no different than Gates and Bush. The issues of ethics are valid and important on Sunday for show, up until they interfere with their latest profit scam. The concept of greed reaches beyond anything in the Bible. The church has become a den of thieves as greedy as the oil or software barons. The truth will come out soon, you just wait and see!


    Pacific National Oil Company and the Senate Candidate

    Laws permitting unlimited independent expenditures are as bad as lobbying laws. They allow the corporate elite to buy people to run the government. This country has become a dictatorship of greed instead of a democracy. The last election was stolen like the first of the millennium. The Bush’s burned votes in Florida, which has been done since government began in Florida, and then they instituted an electronic system so they could modify votes even quicker.

    If the laws regarding buying politicians are changed the greedy people in control will find a loophole for bribing elected officials anyway. Changing the laws will never change this. Recognize that the laws are written by lawyers for lawyers, if they write a new law to restrict something then they actually only created a more profitable loophole. This is the very nature of the system, it is designed to work this way. And those inside will never admit it because they are paid too much to do too little, and they know it!

    The concept of bureaucracy is designed to encourage greed and deception. It is a system that teaches and encourages greed and deception. Each year they get their department funded based on how much they spent last year, so if they don’t spend all they got before, they won’t get as much next time. They are encouraged to spend and overspend. Fundamentally government never follows the rules and laws, they create the laws to keep people in line and protect their pay checks. All federal projects are exempt from any permitting requirements. And they will always have a law to protect them when they profit.


    Chapter 11
    A Win for Federal Express

    Give me a break; like “hooking it as a rider in unrelated legislation.” How can any fully conscious intelligent person consider this ridiculous con a democracy when some people are “more free” and more protected than others? It is standard practice to create “riders” and “pork” in unrelated legislation. Everyone recognizes this in America. Just like everyone knows a politician is a liar. It’s so fundamental to our culture that it is pathetic. Of course FedEx paid lobbyist got the changes they wanted. That’s exactly what lobbyist are paid to do. And we allow and encourage lobbyist and even hire them to support our university, city or state.

    What does this really mean? Well technically speaking it means that whoever pays the most gets what they want. The rich get richer. OJ Simpson buys his way off. The American way! Whether it’s a lobbyist to get a rider for FedEx or a new missile contract or another war started. When we allow and encourage a system based on greed and payment for favors how can we expect any honesty or integrity at all. This is not a system of honesty and truth, but greed and power based on money. I wonder how many people remember the Oliver North scandals about guns for drugs. This was a big issue for a while. But it disappeared. You won’t find it in history books or anything, like it never occurred. Why would drugs be illegal? Wouldn’t this greatly increase the street values and increase the profits involved in them? You know when they made marijuana illegal, the legislation was funded by the paper industry because hemp was better and cheaper for making paper.

    So now let’s institute a Drug Enforcement Agency so we can be sure no one is in the market to compete with us. And if we don’t like the competition we can destroy them. Like let’s start the war in Afghanistan to destroy their opium fields there so we can have our cartels in South America take over. It’s really interesting to speak to someone from another country who sees what happens in the world and not the processed fantasy that the media feeds to the American population. I wonder how the population would react to all the wars the CIA has started or the corruption and greed that runs the city hall down the street. And sadly they really already know all about this. Like whoever heard about a cop getting a speeding ticket?

    Did you know that police have a symbol they put on their cars to signal to other police that they can speed? Sure teach police that only some laws apply to them and you will get people who create and enforce laws to suit themselves. This is a system flaw. It’s a system designed to exploit and corrupt itself. It is designed to do this. Like Bush or Kerry, do you think it really matters? Each will only suffer under the corruption that they are placed in with lobbyist, and lawyers writing laws for themselves.

    Like FebEx, they do what they have to do to get their profits. That’s called capitalism, and it was necessary to bring us to this point in time. It built the rialways and the Internet ways. Soon Americans will learn what ethics really is and accept that electing the lesser or two evils is not good enough any more. Ethics, honesty and trust are not a conditional thing based on profits and control. It is a fundamental that is necessary to be civilized before even considering profits at all. Profit first is uncivilized, and destructive, soon we will learn.... lol... Truth must be First, LOVE then we'll learn... sooner than you think too!