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Wednesday, December 01, 2021

Mother Earth Delegation will have time

EMAIL REPLIES TO THE INDIGENOUS Grandmother Vision Keeper of the Center for Sacred Studies

Great Grandmother Luisah Teish,

Thank you so very much for the clear specific responses to these questions regarding the "man-of-knowledge."  Clearly, there is a strong tradition and many stories about this time we are now entering, and the impacts and transitions before us. I am so glad you explained this from your own tradition and heritage. 

However, for continued research into this, I need the EXACT spelling of each word you used, which language it originated, and the tribe and traditions that are associated with it.  Like, with these Quechua Terms shown here posted at right; each level of detail is critical now, more than ever.

Once again, THANK YOU Grandmother Teish so much for sharing your knowledge and experience about this. I would welcome further insights from the other Grandmothers. Maja-Jingki:Burra commented it's about deep listening and getting off-the-fence to get real about what's here and our own responsibility to move forward.

This leads me to the next question about the “man-of-knowledge.” I am sure there are a great many signs and symbols that will demonstrate his return. Much as the Dalai Lama is found in each of His Incarnations, as skilled elders know what to look for.  Additionally, I am sure these symbols will be recognized by those with similar experience and knowledge.  Thus, my next question is whether the ancestors told about this "humanity-of-knowledge" coming together as a new Tribe, maybe a Leadership Council, or some other NEW form required to shepherd the populations into this New Transition of Earth.

I am sure there are equally, men and women of knowledge coming into Being now, so I'm curious if there are specific symbols and actions they will be focused on so they begin to find each other?

Thanks again for you Love and Light Dear Grandmother Teish.

Each link below is to the full video. You can start them over at the beginning if you want to see the whole session . . . . 

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Making sure you receive the messages from the Earth and the Ancestors, where the Head, Heart and Hands are in accord.

This comes with deep, deep listening, and we all need to get on the same page, with KNOWING all the History of mankind on the ground and stepping up to the truth. Time is precious, we need to give all we know, and also continue to learn. . . and relearn things to move into the truth. More information is coming through to all. Know what real-life is and what dead-men on paper are.

It's about relationship and deep listening. . . Take your shoes off, stand on the ground, hold you hands up and "Be the Highway" for the energy between the Earth and the Heavens. . . feel this move through you!


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From: Rafael Rivera
Subject: Mother Earth Delegation will have time for Q&A.
Date: September 15, 2021 at 10:37:11 AM EDT
To: Center for Sacred Studies
How will the Man of Knowledge help with Our Transitions?

ONLY NOW, knowledge confirmed in experience allows complete Passion Expression for Earth's Evolution!

As you noted here IN THIS ZOOM QA MEETING:
https://youtu.be/IOgwWKIHnNc?t=5627


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Yes maybe like the Christian "Prayer unceasingly", focused on Light coming down from Ancestors to our Crown, Third Eye and Throat Chakras = = > to Listen, Understand and Speak ==> 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Listen, Learn, and Lecture
See, Sense, and Speak
Mind, Meaning, and Mentioned
Attentive, Acknowledge and Articulate
. . . what terms did you use?
Head, Heart, and Hands


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      Sunday, August 15, 2021

      RitualQuestions for Cristine Legare

      Meet and Greet to establish relations for moving forward.


      How does Eric's attention to synchronicity lead to his new growth and understanding?

      His 1999 transition, came after loosing his job, wife and mother, which brought him into a new experience with his children. The divorce was amicable, where the children spent 1/2 the week with dad at home, and 1/2 the week with mom at her apartment. When speaking with his daughter Emily, halfway through the week, she asked him about learning to heal.  She wanted to cure their mother's skin cancer.

      The next night Eric found a Reiki Practitioner presenting at the Safety Harbor Library. After listening to his program and training, Eric asked if he had ever worked with children. He replied about working with his own daughter also named Emily.

      The name synchronicity between their daughter's names; MEANT for Eric, that he is in the right place, at the right time, to DO AND BE whatever is MOST ideal for him, right now.  Clearly, the Right Reiki Practitioner to train his daughter.

      Eric took the Reiki Practitioner to dinner across the street, and scheduled a weekend training for his children to learn Reiki. The following months, Emily and her brother Christopher cured their mother's skin cancer. Chris even mentioned one evening how his "mom didn't believe" they learned or could do any healing, "Reiki" or otherwise. However, Chris could feel the energy in his hands and it was very present and obvious to him. His mother did not believe. Eric's mother who had been gone months now begin to show up in the children's dreams and they were able to communicate with her regularly.

      Soon the Reiki Practitioner was teaching Eric Reiki and Eric began another transformation learning and growing process into more traditions from his mother.

      On Aug 11, 2021, at 3:46 PM, Rafael Rivera wrote:

      Cristine Legare
      Department of Psychology
      The University of Texas at Austin
      1 University Station #A8000
      Austin, Texas 78712-0187
      Phone: 512-468-8238
      Email: legare@austin.utexas.edu



      Let’s chat again Monday about doing some new research in the area of Spiritual Rituals. We need to create some research to open up the deeper truths of how Synchronicities are the Love Language of the Universe!  Yes, my life always reflects Joy and Love in Synchronicities. Like my own experience this week with randomly calling you, after speaking with my son who starts a new job too.*

      Yes, I told you about dating Kristel, Christine, and then Kristen in High School always in trouble with my buddy Allen. My daughter named after my mom and my son named after these HS buddies: son Chris A. W. Now looking up his new gig to see his bike ride . . . I stumble into his new job.**  

      Then I had to map out his bike ride which he mentioned was about the same as mine as I was doing 10 years getting a Phd. His scenario is evolving and improving from my own. As 1/4 of his trip north for him is passing his girl's office, so they can bike together enhancing their relationship with more powerful bonding moments.  Yes, Dawn mentioned this provides essential bonding time for couples.  My ride was north, while my wife would ride south. I did also stop 1/2 on my trip north to do yoga, but never with my wife (son with 1/4 stop which is quicker and better than 1/2 for my ride). Again this shows the odd synchronicities hidden in the details that follow me. I told him how proud I was as he was improving on the DNA, exactly like I told his sister had with the water pics!

      What Water pictures? He hadn't seen these pics I shared with his sister! Oh, I've been a water engineer all my life, so his Architecture work involving water as linked above (sync*), is also improving on my work. And his sister did one better than me too, sending me a baby picture of her daughter in a creek.  Yes, my daughter and her daughter are here in the creek pictures at 2. Her daughter owns this creek, while my daughter was in the smoky mountains for vacation. This also has my favorite picture of the two kids between my knees at the bottom. They are on the Hillsborough River in the canoe also around age two. Again my kids are improving the DNA experiences onto the next generation. The greatest Compliment I ever received is seeing them BETTER than I!  I'm wicked proud of them both as remarkable people finding their own divinity independently, to step beyond what I could do.

      NOW I SEE, my own Place more clearly.  
      What do these deeper synchronicities reveal to me?
      What can I explore more?

      My son's new gig, is another couple as an Architect firm, similar to his first gig in Tampa. . . lol, yes so now I laugh about seeing another synchronicity of the two "ARCH firms as couples" is what started his girl’s career too. MORE SYNC! 

      I SEE SYNC?  What's my responsibility if I know something EXTRA here?

      Now, I must search this couple and see what they write as linked above (sync**) . . . taking my responsibility to understand and explore deeper, as I see the two-couple architecture firms he's chosen, and NOW I have their first interview QUESTION:
      • MU: What is the role of writing in Architecture? 
      • MLA: I think it’s something that gives us time to reflect and combine disconnected ideas. It’s a process of trying to put words to things we’ve done that we may not completely understand. In writing, something you read six months ago, a project you’re working on right now, and a project that you wrapped up two years ago suddenly come into conversation with one another. 
      NOW . . . at 6:22:44 SYNC CLIP!  screenshot ==>

      NOW I SEE! MORE SYNC! I have seen the syncs and timestamps doubles triples. . . 
      6/22/44  = 3+3 , 2+2. 4+4 . . 
      6/4/8  
      18 
      9  = 3x3

      So all the numbers sync, the pics sync, the videos sync, and now these words sync. . . trying to put words together for things “we may not completely understand". . . all these links, ideas, experiences and data here together in this BLOG might help us. I CAN Edit, and correct this again each day with more clarity. Cristine, and DawnXena can help me develop this . . . while Chris and Emily can watch and FEEL IT bi-locally!

      This new experience that I write in this blog, shows me how I AM, in the Right Place at the Right Time, doing what it is that I MUST DO. Like accepting my responsibility. Accepting that I understand synchronicity. Accepting this is my experience. This is who I am. This is why I am. Maybe stepping into Research that only I can do, maybe even proposing I complete my DrPH  . . . 

      Yes, only a dissertation is missing.
      90 PH credits there on the contracts all completed. 

      YES, New Consciousness Research with Spiritual Rituals ==> Doing Mayan Sun Gaze. . . 

      Now, seeing, growing exploring. . .  instead of speaking to turtles or Mr. Lime, maybe we need to ask some Mushroom questions?

      What could we ask them?
      Where? When? What if this hypothesis is completely correct? What would happen if I randomly walked through a ancient redwood forest to come upon a meadow full of graining bison, or cattle?
      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nxn2LlBJDl0





      Great to Chat with you last week, you MUST SEE this conversation too:

      Sunday, September 19, 2021

      Mother Earth Delegation will have time

      with Great Grandmother Luisah Teish and the #PNL
      Thanks again, and God Bless you and Yours =)
      Dr Rafe'

      Dr. Eric Rafael Rivera Weaver
      Founder, STARS USA Inc.
      1420 20th Ave.N.
      Saint Petersburg, FL. 33704
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      stars2man@yahoo.com
      813-616-0164 (cell)

      PS: It's always a feeling, the body has been here for billions of years, not the TV
      http://journal2mygod.blogspot.com/2021/03/turtle-story.html
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      PSS: yes this means its you too:
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      PSSS:
      yes so all this was designed by all of us together. Please, add your 2-cents as we only will survive workign together in one team. Take my challenge, if you still want the drugs of sport, sugar, potatoes and alcohol, give me one day, and watch all of this:
       
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      Friday, June 04, 2010

      agroecologically my life together....

      Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!





      What's up dude.
      I didn't know you would be so wacko!




      What dude you finally got a MAC, it's about time!!!.  You can feel it here already, a completely different vibration, different feeling, different power.  It's like night and day for you.  you are gettin back into your power.  it's something about who you are, connecting to your power is a very physical thing for you.  Didn't you know, now that you got one, the Mac is Number ONE again!


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      It figures!




      What else are you doing?
      I guess it was funny today.  I got to school after noon, and biked straight to the UC to stop at the Credit Union and get Adobe Master Collection for this Mac.  I asked for all but $200 out of savings and went next door.  They had the CS5 on hold for me: $640.97.  Course then I took out $1642.92!  $1000 was for an RV, so I asked for ALL but $200 out of my account.  Seeing how close the numbers were really confirmed to me that i was doing exactly what i needed to do in Your Light Lord Jesus!!!.




      What just flashed before you eyes now?
      I remembered biking back to COPH feeling perfect about 640.93 vs. 642.92!  The receipt at home said 97 cents while, I thought she said 93. . .  As I rode my bike back to nursing, i passed all this skanska construction everywhere.  And I saw the piles of pipes, and remembered how they buy a lot extra that they don't need and then have to dump.  Thinking, wow Kim knows them, and I bet she could get my truck filled up any day that I asked.




      What did you do now?
      I read what I was writing as i did it, since Kim sat here next to me listening!




      Why did you do that...
      I know we can do anything together and i keep getting ideas about us doing more!  So I like sharing them with her all the time.




      Like What?
      It was weird!  We were going to Christopher's graduation earlier tonight, and I thought I saw a Osprey in the middle of the road.  When I turned around it was a female Mallard.  Tonight I got her wings and feathers and was out looking over the roof as I laid them out to dry.  Each time i go up there I see the black pipes all set up for my next design phase.  So when I came in to write again, I wanted Kim to know about how much it would help me building things here if I had more materials, like from skanska.  Like this week I got more railroad ties.  We have the front garden box full of water mellon, basal, and egg plants (so far).  So I got more ties for another box on the side yard.

      She really likes it, so i want to get the bigger ties.  They were a lot heavier, so they would work better.  I am having so much fun building things again.




      What do you mean there?
      It was awesome when Joyce came down for our wedding!  I was going crazy fixing and cleaning things up every where.  Wow, I knew i have not cared for a house like this since I was living in Joyce's.  She knew it too.  She loved the family and community we were in.  The big rain for the wedding was really perfect to create an awesome experience for everyone too.  So to know i'm building, creating and expanding again in my BLISS is really just awesome!




      What do you feel about this now?
      It's really kinda funny!  I'm building my Phd and research and experience all together in the same vibration.  It's such an incredible trip as so much of what we are is online... and it can be joined and combined into bliss so easily.  Like everything else I see!




      What do you mean?
      I know, or you already know!




      What about everyone else...?
      Ok. It's about how easily I can flash into completely different places.  Like i instantly see a little video of another way of doing something.  Course we all consider options!  But I am always flashing into new things that I see right before my eyes in a second.  Like seeing the big black water pipes I have held up with extra skanska concrete pipes.  More and more pieces coming together all the time.  Like today I was reading all this stuff from water sampling work done in Wisconsin and we could do the same things here.  They really did a great job with it and have a lot of data a resources together to make exactly what I want with Trotz and organic Gardens and all the rest.




      What do you mean?
      I posted a ton across all these blogs that tells another story if you combine them!! here look:

      Water water






      Tuesday, May 11, 2010


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      I I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
      Please continue to fill us with Your Strength Love and Wisdom as we Grow to Achieve Your Glory!
      Amen

      Monday, May 21, 2007

      god is a verb

      Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

      What's up?
      I got my next doctors appointment moved up a week to this Thursday. They weren't too happy to hear that I found another broken bone, sorta implying they missed something. But it's better this way so that now they'll likely give me a real cast so I wont be moving it any more. It's funny I've not been taking any pain pills. I've always known pain is just the conscious warning signal, so once I know I'm hurt, it's useless to me!

      I really start laughing again, how I sorta learned to ignore pain as my dad beat me so much as a child. I remember this one time he started swinging his belt at me in the car front seat as we left the police station . . . the cops never would bust me again after that. . . . whether they thought I was justly rebelling against a tyrant or whether they just couldn't be accomplice to child abuse I will never know!
      What do you start this for?
      I know, I love my dad; he didn't know any better and I learned a ton. I mean I only spanked a child once, and never had to ever again. Nor did I want to!!!

      But I started writing since I started reading another book now. I got my Kabbalah book back from Kathy. Another book about new Paradigms, energy and consciousness. . . I keep reading the same thing over and over again. I read this book before and wanted to go through really quick, hum because it was sitting here next to my bed . . . lol . . .
      What about writing?
      I guess I need to start on that too. I really have a lot to write. I thought reading more would get me in the right frame of mind. But I guess that would be reading more articles instead of books since I need to write an article not a book. Course I've downloaded hundreds of articles to read so I could do that for years!
      What else?
      I got the sense about someone visiting me again. It is kinda nice I guess, but I sorta feel sorry for her . . . . it's like I've let it go and know things will be changing fast. I mean not many people are as strong and secure as I am . . . and even less are conscious of the power moving all around. I know that as more gets out and more get found, more also get lost. It's nothing I focus on or ever really deal with . . . some times I feel nothing can ever get near me . . . . which is kinda sad too I guess. But I also know I'll never leave this place and could be doing the same thing in 20 years or 120 . . . I guess I recognize this next era we are getting into will be a lot different than this one on some level - - but then exactly the same on another.
      What do you think will be the same?
      I know I'll still be here with you. I know the Earth will be full, clear and pretty; as will all the life on it. I also sorta know that much of my life will be surprising similar to what I experience now. Course then I never experience so much of the garbage people get so lost in . . lol . . . sure I'll still be able to go out and talk to the Osprey and I guess they'll have a lot more to share!!!!
      What else?
      I don't know, I'm tired ready to sleep. I've been sleeping more, not jumping up in the middle of the night as much. It feels like maybe the Earth decided that doing Half a Chant sets it off balance too, so it's letting me sleep!!!!

      I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

      Saturday, May 12, 2007

      Yoga, Power, and Spirit

      Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 12.22pm

      I finished another book. The last sections were about death and the rites we can do to ease the transitions . . . It reminded me of the experience with my mom. I wish I could have helped her more. She condemned herself to the experience she married into, telling me she truly died when giving up her own truths for his in marriage. Women do not do that at all anymore. Everyone is caught up in the American Machine: me me me is all they know or see.

      Wow I'm so negative . . . lol . . . ego dominating everything. It's almost like the women who have become so selfish and egocentric have opened the space and world for more feminine qualities to come out from men. This reminds me yesterday after lunch when I was meeting with Dr. Nord we were speaking about the ABM models and creating something to represent the organic and mechanistic development of organizations.

      We spoke about how fool-hardy the whole thing is since people only can relate or comprehend based on language. . . where our words are defined by our experience, so everyone has different words since they all have different experiences. . . . So then I mentioned this book I was reading and learning to see more of the energy around me. Then I said how there was a lot more going on here as we explored uncharted territories . . . like using words with no meaning suddenly shifts to a new level of comprehension when we share the energies of an experience.

      I was referring to previous conversations we had where the energy was present and clear to both of us. He knew exactly what I meant to . . . saying how our work together this summer could last a lifetime and open countless challenges and opportunities.

      Of course every experience I share with anyone can do that. . . I love being so free and open to create anything like this. Accepting the spontaneous moment and insights to allow anything to happen

      What did you do now 6.28pm
      I started another of Aberto's books, one about the Yogi sutras. It's really cool talking about the same thing again in a different way. . . . no ego no mind, the only way to freedom. What i really find fascinating in all of this is how I needed to come back to mind and ego to express things. Being out of the mind and ego is certainly the way to truth and God, but to present this to people and publish anything remotely comprehensible requires some element of the ego & mind. Course I would prefer to spend my life with Bear in the woods speaking with the trees and Osprey . . . . but that will do nothing to save the Trees and Osprey from the greed and chaos of men.
      What are you feeling now?
      I guess I began to recognize the shift I was making. Research and publication is another state of mind completely. It's come time for me to get into another world again. To lock myself into a new place where I can be and flow into my work and research. I wonder how this will work. I could feel the new semester at school starting and the bliss and challenge of creating who I am all over again. . . . Oh reminds me of the pictures where I look like my younger brother Mark . . . like I'm getting younger again. . . lol. . . certainly not interested in the greed and ego if these old folks I've seen. . . .but to get younger still is really just so funny. I always start to laugh when people I'm with finally realize I'm older that they are. . . . Like "What? You kinds are in the IB program at King High School?" lol. . . yepper on the dean's list too... leading everyone there too!

      I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

      Saturday, May 05, 2007

      "Shaman , Healer, Sage"

      Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 12:03PM

      Existence
      You are not accidental. Existence needs you. Without you something will be missing in existence and nobody can replace it. That's what gives you dignity, that the whole existence will miss you. The stars and sun and moon, the trees and birds and earth - everything in the universe will feel a small place is vacant which cannot be filled by anybody except you.

      This gives you a tremendous joy, a fulfillment that you are related to existence, and existence cares for you. Once you are clean and clear, you can see tremendous love falling on you from all dimensions.
      I've Started another book by Alberto: "Shaman , Healer, Sage" . . . I'm in for it now, I can just feel it. So much of his last book was an interesting experience, reading then blogging and finding the reflections between them as I discovered the truth hidden in myself . . . He is a Disciple of The Earth, like me and the Junnaid in the last posting. . . . crazy few days with the moon and all, only reading it now. . . . lol . . . . We've all learned from the experience of Life, opened our eyes to see each moment and event before us as the Present: "The Divine Gift from God" as the Moment we have Now. Funny how few see the NOW lost in the future or how much the culture of greed and corruption misses it completely!
      Ultimate Accident
      Chiyono and her bucket of water

      It is not a certain sequence of causes that brings enlightenment. Your search, your intense longing, your readiness to do anything--altogether perhaps they create a certain aroma around you in which that great accident becomes possible.

      The nun Chiyono studied for years, but was unable to find enlightenment. One night, she was carrying an old pail filled with water. As she was walking along, she was watching the full moon reflected in the pail of water. Suddenly, the bamboo strips that held the pail together broke, and the pail fell apart. The water rushed out; the moon's reflection disappeared- -and Chiyono became enlightened. She wrote this verse:

      This way and that way I tried to keep the pail together,
      hoping the weak bamboo would never break.
      Suddenly the bottom fell out.
      No more water; no more moon in the water--
      emptiness in my hand.
      I'm trying to read the book and see more I need to write him about, so then I come online trying to write, but only get stuck, not sure why. Guess all the connections and synchronicity is getting out of hand again. So I stop and read another email . . . which just gives me more connections and all anyway. It's really cool!
      The Foolish Heart
      The crazy wisdom of Francis of Assisi

      The heart has its own reasons, which the mind cannot understand. The heart has its own dimension of being, which is completely dark for the mind. The heart is higher and deeper than the mind, beyond the reach of it. It looks foolish. Love always looks foolish because love is not utilitarian. Mind is utilitarian. It uses everything for something else-- that is the meaning of being utilitarian. Mind is purposive, end-oriented; it turns everything into a means--and love cannot be turned into a means, that is the problem. Love in itself is the goal.

      Fools always have a subtle wisdom in them, and the wise always act like fools. In the old days all great emperors always had one fool in their court. They had many wise men, counselors, ministers and prime ministers, but always one fool.

      Why?--because there are things so-called wise men will not be able to understand, that only a foolish man can understand-- because the so-called wise are so foolish that their cunningness and cleverness closes their minds. A fool is simple, and was needed because many times the so-called wise would not say something because they were afraid of the emperor. A fool is not afraid of anybody else, he will speak whatsoever the consequences.

      This is how fools act--simply, without thinking what the result will be. A clever man always thinks first of the result, then he acts. Thought comes first, then action. A foolish man acts; thought never comes first.

      Whenever someone realizes the ultimate, he is not like your wise men. He cannot be. He may be like your fools, but he cannot be like your wise men.

      When Saint Francis became enlightened he used to call himself "God's fool." The pope was a wise man, and when Saint Francis went to see him even the pope thought this man had gone mad. He was intelligent, calculating, clever; otherwise how could he be a pope? To become a pope one has to pass through much politics. To become a pope diplomacy is needed, a competitive aggression is needed to put others aside, to use others as ladders and then throw them.

      It is politics... because a pope is a political head. Religion is secondary, or nothing at all. How can a religious man fight and be aggressive for a post? They are only politicians.

      Saint Francis came to see the pope, and the pope thought this man was a fool. But trees and birds and fishes thought in a different way. When Saint Francis went to the river the fishes would jump in celebration that Francis had come. Thousands witnessed this phenomenon-- millions of fishes would jump simultaneously; the whole river would be lost in jumping fishes. Saint Francis had come and the fishes were happy. And wherever he would go birds would follow; they would come and sit on his leg, on his body, in his lap. They understood this fool better than the pope. Even trees that had become dry and were going to die would become green and blossom again if Saint Francis came near. These trees understood well that this fool was no ordinary fool--he was God's fool.

      Copyright © 2007 Osho International Foundation
      I guess this is really about being the foolish little child playing in the NOW. I can not express the hundreds of lessons and the incredible learning I get each moment. I've written descriptions and stories about it all over and over again . . . but the joy and bliss of the child, free to express and share in the moment . . . lol. . . that's where I need to be 12.39pm lunch time!
      Dear Eric,

      Can you feel it? Change is all around you. When optimistic Jupiter in Sagittarius, strong Saturn in Leo and independent Uranus in Pisces have a three-way conversation, one thing is for sure: You won’t be bored! Plenty of support is available, so utilize this time to make decisions that are the most beneficial for you.

      First, a retrograde Jupiter backs into the trine with Saturn on May 6, giving you the opportunity to loop back to your support systems. Jupiter is urging you to expand your horizons while Saturn wants to make sure you're realistic. This is a great combo, and you are likely to be quite clear about what you want. The people who were helpful to you last March during the first Jupiter-Saturn trine probably have more to share with you. These levelheaded folks offer good advice and assistance for you to make these necessary changes.

      Also in the mix is expansive Jupiter forming a square -- for the second time in this series (the first was January 22) -- to freedom-loving Uranus. This is an aspect that is exact on May 10, but throughout the month you'll feel the restlessness that occurs when these two big planets connect. To make the most of this important aspect, be open to unforeseen changes in plans. Don’t put all your eggs in one basket!
      I read how he left academia "I wanted to meet the people who sensed the spaces between things and perceived the luminous strands that animate all life. I wanted to study with the investigators who knew the energy side of Einstein's equation E=MC2" (page 15)

      That's a trip since that's where I started too, with just a dream! Tasting infinity, hum, didn't I comment on this while reading the Power of Now? This is all getting kinda freaky again! I know I will need to write him soon!!!! 3:41pm
      What now?
      7:37pm I'm tired, Equan dropped in and I napped a bit. It's funny he never asked me about my spiritual practices and all. He came in as I was preparing some lunch, opened some things for me. . . including a few beers as we sat chatting at the table by the glass doors. So he's looking at the trees and field out back asking if I still talk to the Osprey . . . Oh, never knew I told him, but I guess through the years my kids would laugh as I called the birds driving by their nest. First it was fun as the kids were tiny, but then older they were embarrassed thinking it was "weird." Oh so certainly Equan had heard me calling as I drove by on one of our hundred trips together.

      We were listening to the SpiritRap and chatting their next to my ritual space and he started asking more detailed questions. Kathy did the same thing the day before asking about the Padre Pio statue on my alter . . . Equan wanted to know how it all came together while Kathy wanted to know how this one piece came in . . . but I essentially told the same story. Guess there is only one story anyway. But I realize I've not written it.

      I remember when I wrote about the accident. That was like Life Phase I. Then I started writing Phase II which was more about the Twilight Zone of College and STARS and all . . . really through my Divorce I guess. Then Phase III starts January 1999 when my mom, lover, job, 2 cats & 2 turtles died . . . eeek that's when the kids got lost too.

      I feel like I might be still in Phase III. That's when all the teachers started showing up and I learned the Chant in the cave. . . Now that I think about it more Phase III likely ended as I got back into school realizing that I needed to finish what I started in Phase I. . .
      What about now?
      Is it a new life, a new world? Am I getting into something more totally beyond all the rest? I've started a second masters now, not sure if there will be a third. But then I realize I'm going to start a PhD soon too. That might be in parts too or even more. Equan asked me about the perpetual student, and that's certainly true, while I've also gotten a new degree every 10 years. First BSE 1988, then BSCE 1997, and now MBA 2007. . . MSM by 2008 but the last two will likely be together. And I still think about the Masters in Architecture, which was the first one I applied too. . . Or maybe the MS in Medical Research since that's where I'm heading with the PhD's too.
      What about your reading?
      It's interesting how Alberto "left academia" for all this spiritual stuff seeking the experience . . . lol . . . while I've been buried in the experiences and "seek the academia" now. I remember when I first started blogging, I realized that scientific research was approaching my experiences. Like it was time for me to show them how to study Spirit. I know I can make that experience for anyone very easily . . . ugh!
      What 3/15/07 Zackary Schylar Curry?
      I started remembering all the conversations these last few days with Kathy (she just called). She drove me to see a few doctors and then we went shopping at a few places so I could eat and all. She called saying she's invited all her family over to see her new Grandson. Planning to pick me up at 2:30 or so tomorrow. It's really just funny. I mean she and I met at Harmony Metaphysical Church so we've been talking about how that all happened. . . starting with Donna & DJ when I was trying to figure things out about the Chant and then John with the Celestine Prophesy movie we saw there. . . And meeting Chris who came along to get me out of the house!!! Just get me OUT!

      It was really weird how that crossed over with Pam and DJ, Chris and all the weird stuff all over the place with that . . . I should go back and read it!!! Eeek, now I get to see her grandson! I remember the last infant I held was Maria, my niece from Mark & Christie. Freaked everyone out that time!!! It was soooo coool. . . . EXPERIENCE, that's where it is at!
      What did you do now?
      I went back to see what I wrote about it all. . . . Nothing about seeing the movie with John or meeting Pam, but right into our experiences together sharing my visions and focus. . . weird!!!
      What else do you need to write?
      I guess I need to get back to reading my book! Course I've been writing words to look up: neocortex, hypochondria, psychosomatic health, psydroneuroimmunology, Dr Candace Pert - neuropeptides, Hampe- energy healing. . .
      What did you find?
      Oh cool.. just where I need to BE!!!

      I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

      Sunday, April 29, 2007

      The Four Insights

      Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

      What now?
      I finished the Part I of this book talking about the Assemblage Point and connecting to Our Higher Selves. . . is this all about connecting to YOU?
      What do you think? Of course it is. That's why so much of your readings are old news. People all want control, that's the culture, that's the snake trying to survive. While you were the King Cobra from the start . . . smashed your body into the ground at the age of 16 with the motorcycle accident. You were so strong and so dominant that it took a motorcycle doing 110mph to send you into the flight of the Eagle . . . without a helmet. . . before you would even listen to us. . . . Then another two years before you started anything. . .

      You remember Maryanne, why was she enough for you? Why should Lyn be any different? Do you think age will ever catch you? These little visions of delight are fragments of the truth that awaits you. You are free at peace again . . . do not waste time wanting, seeking, searching . . . . no one, nothing out there anywhere will give you anything more than you already have. You know we are always here for you. No one can tell you anything new, or offer you more than you will attain. Sure it's fun to learn a new clearing technique. But in the Cave where we all gather for you; you can clear us all in an instant. What use is it to share this, the Cave is already standing room only, how many more do you need to invite?
      I'm not sure what you are getting at? Am i not supposed to read this book?
      What the books brings you is wonderful, all books will make the connections clear and strong for you. Remember here at the Eagle perceptions are all perfect, each fits, they all connect. . . Just like when you played King Cobra, the whole culture and conception of greed and control shifted up to new levels. No one even locked doors back then, let alone considered alarms for public schools. They had troubles getting people to go to schools, why would they ever consider locking kids out after hours. . . . while now they struggle to lock kids in!!!
      I'm still not sure where this is going?
      What you did was get back into school to complete what you started. You already know what's at the end of this journey. You don't need to search for conclusions or struggle for understandings . . . it's all there already waiting for you to DO. Every moment you act from the Eagle you make it easier for everyone. . . . you will always see those around you grow and succeed. You Are this giant Magnet that brings so much power into creation. Why bother with it. If those around you get lost in the success, LET THEM, you don't need such shallow people close to you anyway. If they grow and love, they will be anxious to sit near you in the Cave. The three you are connected to in the center will know and invite others as you need. Nothing will be lost . . . all return to source sooner or later . . . and then you can direct and express their fulfillment anyway you like. . . nothing is ever lost. . . round and round it returns to you, over and over again!
      I'm still kinda lost?
      What you are doing is allowing the Eagle to soar. You have no fear. You carry no expectations. You know all things come, and let them fall as they may. Like remember the tape of Lyn at the picnic . . . you didn't recognize who was there, nor did you know who spoke. Even as you heard the tape and saw the pictures; simply BEing LOVE! It's so easy for you! There was more there for the birds and the bees than anything people could know or understand . . . of course no one knows what happened. . . it wasn't there for people. Soaring is about the trip, not the destination. . . Stop trying to understand or rationalize. Trust IT. If you are inspired to write or share . . . PRAISE GOD, and enjoy it. . . if others respond and join you . . . PRAISE GOD, and enjoy it. . . if they do not . . . PRAISE GOD, and enjoy it. . . everything is perfect as You Be Love . . . PRAISE GOD, and enjoy it. . .
      I know. . . lol . . . I guess it's always really cool. I mean whenever I hear or read about people experiencing God first hand, and feeling a moment with You . . . I just want to laugh. Like when I taught Kathy F. how to write and Journal like this . . . it was like a new world opening up for her and she could feel all the Angels around her . . . . we fun, big deal, opening new worlds every day gets kinda boring after a while. . . Sure everyday is a blissful experience and it's cool to chirp with Osprey and Share Your Bliss . . . But you know I'm still a Man on Earth. . . . Oh I can't ask for anything more. . . . lol . . . got enough to do already. . . Like Part II in this book!!!

      I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
      Thanks For BEing with me, Amen!

      Tuesday, April 24, 2007

      workaholics vs LIFE

      Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

      The Rebel
      People are afraid, very much afraid of those who know themselves. They have a certain power, a certain aura and a certain magnetism, a charisma that can take out alive, young people from the traditional imprisonment. ...

      The enlightened man cannot be enslaved - that is the difficulty - and he cannot be imprisoned. . . . Every genius who has known something of the inner is bound to be a little difficult to be absorbed; he is going to be an upsetting force. The masses don't want to be disturbed, even though they may be in misery; they are in misery, but they are accustomed to the misery. And anybody who is not miserable looks like a stranger.

      The enlightened man is the greatest stranger in the world; he does not seem to belong to anybody. No organization confines him, no community, no society, no nation.
      I love this, it's so funny to see the opposites in one email... lol .. .. I am the stranger to everyone, while they are all TRAPPED:
      Whenever people become very greedy they become very hurried, and go on finding more ways to gain more speed. They are continuously on the run because they think that life is running out. These are the people who say, "Time is money."

      Time is money? Money is very limited; time is unlimited. Time is not money, time is eternity--it has always been there and will always be there. And you have always been here and you will always be here.

      So drop greed, and don't be bothered about the result. Sometimes it happens that because of your impatience, you miss many things.

      I will tell you an ancient Hindu parable...

      A great saint, Narada, was going to paradise. He used to travel between paradise and earth. He functioned like a postman between that world and this world; he was a bridge.

      He came across an ancient sage, very old, sitting under a tree and repeating his mantra. He had been repeating that mantra for many years and many lives. Narada asked him, "Would you like to ask about something? Would you like some message to be given to the Lord?"

      The old man opened his eyes and said, "Just you inquire about one thing: how much longer do I have to wait? How long? Tell him it is too much. For many lives I have been doing this mantra, now how long am I expected to do it? I am tired of it. I am bored with it."

      Just by the side of the ancient sage underneath another tree was a young man with an ektara, a one-stringed instrument, playing it and dancing. Narada asked him jokingly, "Would you also like to inquire about how long it will take for your enlightenment to happen?" But the young man did not even bother to answer. He continued his dance.

      Narada asked again, "I am going to the Lord. Have you some message?" But the young man laughed and continued to dance.

      When Narada came back after a few days he told the old man, "God said that you will have to wait at least three lives more." The old man became so angry that he threw down his beads. He was almost ready to hit Narada! And he said, "This is nonsense! I have been waiting and waiting and I have been doing all kinds of austerities- -chanting, fasting, all forms of rituals. I have fulfilled all the requirements. Three lives--this is unjust!"

      The young man was still dancing under his tree, very joyously. Narada was afraid, but still he went and told him, "Although you did not ask, out of my own curiosity I inquired. When God said that that old man would have to wait three lives, I inquired about the young man nearby, dancing and playing his ektara. And he said, 'That young man--he will have to wait as many lives as there are leaves on the tree under which he is dancing.'"

      And the young man started dancing even faster and he said, "Just as many leaves as are on this tree? then it is not very far, then I have already arrived!--just think how many trees there are on the whole earth. Compare! So it is very close. Thank you, sir, that you inquired."

      He started dancing again. And the story says that the young man became instantly enlightened, that very moment.

      May each day find you safe,healthy and your Heart content.
      I guess that's why I meet so many different people. I can help anyone. . . everyone. Oh but I still want to fall in Love!
      The joy of love is possible only if you have known the joy of being alone, because then only do you have something to share. Otherwise, two beggars meeting each other, clinging to each other, cannot be blissful. They will create misery for each other because each will be hoping, and hoping in vain, that "The other is going to fulfill me." The other is hoping the same. They cannot fulfill each other. They are both blind; they cannot help each other.

      I have heard about a hunter who got lost in the jungle. For three days he could not find anybody to ask for the way out, and he was becoming more and more panicky--three days of no food and three days of constant fear of wild animals. For three days he was not able to sleep; he was sitting awake on some tree, afraid he may be attacked. There were snakes, there were lions, there were wild animals.

      On the fourth day early in the morning, he saw a man sitting under a tree. You can imagine his joy. He rushed, he hugged the man, and he said, "What joy!" And the other man hugged him, and both were immensely happy. Then they asked each other, "Why are you so ecstatic?"

      The first said, "I was lost and I was waiting to meet somebody." And the other said, "I am also lost and I am waiting to meet somebody. But if we are both lost then the ecstasy is just foolish. So now we will be lost together!"

      That's what happens: you are lonely, the other is lonely--now you meet. First the honeymoon: that ecstasy that you have met the other, now you will not be lonely anymore. But within three days, or if you are intelligent enough, then within three hours... it depends on how intelligent you are. If you are stupid, then it will take a longer time because one does not learn; otherwise the intelligent person can immediately see after three minutes: "What are we trying to do? It is not going to happen. The other is as lonely as I am. Now we will be living together--two lonelinesses together. Two wounds together cannot help each other to be healed."

      We are part of each other--no man is an island. We belong to an invisible but infinite continent. Boundless is our existence. But those experiences happen only to people who are self-actualizing, who are in such tremendous love with themselves that they can close their eyes and be alone and be utterly blissful.
      Yes I can find love any time I want. Yesterday as I wondered outside too sit in the sun again. I noticed four or five Osprey spinning around this one tree in the woods. I've seen this one nest with more chicks nearly every year. I always wondered where they all went, since I knew it was the same birds back again year after year. So this time to see some other birds. They looked like they might be building a new nest back in the woods. That was so cool to see.

      Loving every moment of course. . . lol . . .
      TUT... A Note from the Universe
      There's so much time in a day, Eric. You could have breakfast, lunch and dinner on 3 different continents. You could outline the book you're going to write, start the screenplay adaptation, and watch "Gone With The Wind," before the sun even sets. Spend a day at work, and still have 16 hours left over. Or you could just think 10,000 different thoughts as you tool all over Tampa. Hey, the record for climbing Mt. Everest is under 9 hours, leaving 15 to nap and go Yeti searching.

      There's so much time in a day, Eric. So much.

      You're rich,
      The Universe


      Especially, Eric, when one stops claiming there's so little of it, huh?
      I know I have all the time in the world. . . nothing to do but sit and relax. . . the calm before the storm. It's funny to be getting younger all the time. I always laugh about theses things. Every few years I get to relax, whether I want to or not. It is not any big deal or anything. Some times its easier, sometimes not.
      a workaholic hides from life by consuming himself/herself with work. He/she clings to work as a lifeline, fearing to venture out into their own private worlds.
      Workaholic vs life = = = I remember when I worked all the time. Paying the bills, keeping the house and all working for my kids and all. Then I got 10 months paid time-off from the county. Sweet people. . . lol. . . I started consulting more and went back to school doing STARS projects. That's when I got the MAC network installed in the kids Day Care Center. Of course my kids LOVED school, finding their dad there to help out.

      I actually had another time doing nothing but relaxing & dreaming . . . meditating . . . When my mom died. Lost the county job finally, lost my lover, two cats and two turtles all in January 1999. Chill time!!! Hum just as the new millennium started. Figures!!! So what''s starting new now? Not sure if that happened again or not. . .
      What you asked for was LOVE again. It is not anything new for you, but just someone to share it with. Love is you, and to BE with someone is all you want. Most people never allow you to just BE who you are. Once in a while it flows so easily it's awesome. Course the last time that happened it was too much for her!
      I don't understand that. How can LOVE ever be too much?
      The Rebel post above explains it. The Free Power of your Love can not be controlled. People get lost in you, they loose control. Often their only safety has been in their control. Having no control creates tremendous fear. Often people will be terrified and not even know why. Like in the last example she does not even remember a lot of the things you did and shared. That's why she refuses to read what you wrote, why face the truth, it's easier and safer to hide in ignorance = in ego
      I can not understand why anyone would hide from LOVE?
      What YOU ARE AND KNOW IS LOVE. Others like to pretend. They control it and place it in a little box. Like "love" is from home or for family . . . this is another lie of the ego. "Love" is some verb, some action they regulate for certain events and people. That's why your Free Being LOVE is too much for them. You got a taste, it was perfect as it was. It makes your desires clear and strong. But for others in fear or in ego (same thing) their whole world shakes as the ego looses control. Remember the whole culture and society is based on greed and control. All the ego can do is fight anything that is not ego. Even the ego's love of money and love of control is not real love, it's an addiction. It's a drug, asking someone selfish in ego to let go and love is like giving a heroin attic a filled syringe and expecting him to only use it as a tooth pick never taking it in. dream on!!!
      oh great so I'll be searching all the time. . .
      What do you mean, searching, you'll be LOVING all the time. Whether others lie or hide is really not your concern. You ARE LOVE as is all existence, so you will always connect to deep real parts of people. Everyone has this inside of them, just as each new baby dreams of finding you. The love and truth are there, they all just need to burn up all that has buried it from the culture of corruption. That's why you find peace and freedom so easily. . . what you can share and BE is needed by everyone. . . just wait until you hold another baby, they are coming out stronger and clearer all the time. . . you'll see . . .
      I know, but big deal. I'm here alone again. . .
      What? you are never alone, how many people do you think have families of wild Osprey chirping at them. They all know you and understand you better than most people you speak with. And this is a love that lasts forever....
      I know, but it's not the Yin & Yang that the Earth cries for. . . all in time, and I'm not going anywhere fast so... lol...

      I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

      Thursday, April 19, 2007

      Grace in Gratitude!!!!

      Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

      What's up now???
      I'm like totally blissed out again. . . can't sleep again too. . . I've been sitting around doing NOTHING! wow... freedom, peace... Been out in the sun alot. I set some chairs way out on the edge of my property, looking at all the trees I planted, wow never realized how many. . . my own private woods. Then watching the squirrels play and the birds chirp. Even a Redheaded wood pecker yesterday!!! Bear has been sitting with me, dug a hole in the cold sand to sit in. Then he jumps up whenever I call to the Osprey. They look like the are starting flight training for the new chicks...

      It was funny one even flew out here over me. I mean the nest is like a half mile away. I can still hear them, and I know they recognize me, can likely hear me whisper even. Then I yelled at a mocking bird for chasing a squirrel, lol . . . .
      What are you feeling?
      Oh I'm just so grateful. I think about things and look and dream... and it's like the calm before the storm again. . . I try to get things set so it's not just me riding the waves. lol. . . but that's ok, leadership is always lonely . . . lol . . . Though dozens of people have called and I've even gotten a get well card already . . .

      Oh so I got this gratitude notice again and sent it to a few lists. . . . I wrote a little blurb at the beginning really for my high school class. . . I think they are planning another reunion . . . guess silence and peace gets me to think about other times I sat in peace. Like the months after my motorcycle accident where I just sat around and watched. . .

      Oh there are some daisies or something growing next to the fence and it's full of these honey bees. Like hundreds going over the same flowers again and again. I can see their little pollen sacks so I know they are making honey somewhere. . . it made me wonder if all the bees disappearing from other places is because of the storms that are coming. . . Course then I've seen a few lady bugs and remembered how every season Emily would get them all over her arms picking them up as they swarmed around our house. Dave across the street wanted her to bring them over to his garden too . . . I remember he never could understand why they swarmed . . . all around the front door too, so she would take them into the bushes so the door wouldn't smash any . . .
      What else do you feel?
      I really just feel at ease . . . lol, as long as I'm still not moving my left side . . . lol . . . . it's like a big weight has come off me again . . . no problems anymore. All my classes are about done. . . just a paper to write or rewrite . . . Then john said the new PhD program is all set to start in the fall. I've thought how I got 2 bs, and 2 ms . . . maybe get a 3 ms and 4 phd's lol... or 2 2 and 3 . . . dual this and tri that . . . lol . . . funny Michelle doesn't sound so sure about her Phd again . . . it's funny how I influence people so easily. . . with out even trying.

      Oh and then when I TRY to share and help someone, they get all caught up in fear and ego and miss the whole point entirely . . . that's sad. but I guess I can't help everyone, some times its better people hurt and suffer on their own, , , Like Dr Ryce said people only come when they are ready.

      I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. . . thank you dear Jesus, for Always Being with me! Amen

      Tuesday, April 17, 2007

      Accidents happen... lol... thanx

      Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

      TUT... A Note from the Universe
      Expecting and preparing for their very best behavior - in terms of respect, love, kindness, and wing-a-ding-dong - guarantees nothing, Eric. But it does maximize your chances of getting it.

      And if you don't insist that such behavior come from a specific person, my hands will be free to find you what you prepared for, or better.

      Wing-a-ding-dong,
      The Universe

      I KNOW, I get it . . . no more, can not hope, plan, expect, or dream of anyone any more, Not my place, I can offer and be there but no more waiting, the Whole Universe needs it NOW! More Flight training will at least get results
      Today's Outlook for Tuesday April 17, 2007
      A forceful Aries New Moon at 7:36 am EDT prompts us to initiate action, yet the energy quickly shifts when the Moon enters practical Taurus at 12:11 pm. We can best use this time to project ahead a couple of weeks to the Full Moon on May 2 and visualize what we would like to bring to fruition. A magical quintile between Taurus' key planet Venus and taskmaster Saturn can help us fulfill our desires as long as we are willing to take responsibility.
      I know I have some important things to focus on . . . shit what a bitch, can't you just tell me!
      Tuesday, April 17th, 2007 Eric's Personal Card: The Lovers
      General Meaning: Although it has taken on a strictly romantic revision of meaning in some modern decks, traditionally the Lovers card of Tarot reflected the challenges of choosing a partner. At a crossroads, one cannot take both paths. The images on this card in different decks have varied more than most, because we have had so many ways of looking at sex and relationships across cultures and centuries.

      Classically, the energy of this card reminded us of the real challenges posed by romantic relationships, with the protagonist often shown in the act of making an either-or choice. To partake of a higher ideal often requires sacrificing the lesser option. The path of pleasure eventually leads to distraction from spiritual growth. The gratification of the personality eventually gives way to a call from spirit as the soul matures.

      Modern decks tend to portray the feeling of romantic love with this card, showing Adam and Eve at the gates of Eden when everything was still perfect. This interpretation portrays humanity before the Fall, and can be thought to imply a different sort of choice -- the choice of evolution over perfection, or the choice of personal growth through relationship -- instead of a fantasy where everything falls into place perfectly and is taken care of without effort.

      Fast Facts About The Lovers
      Theme: Integrate two potential realities or let go of one of them.
      Astro Association: Gemini
      Element: Air
      Number: 6
      Alias: Love
      I know, read and study no choice now... gee thanks
      What happened?
      I got to bike into school again. Wow the Osprey were really noisy. Mom and dad were there, they even flew off over me. It was really sooo cool . . . filled me up with so much love and joy...
      What's next . . . get to it Son. . .
      I know, so it was nice outside too, a little chilly which made the ride great. As I came into campus, following the crowd of cars before the light changed at Fowler. Then I saw this lady come up to the exit of the info/parking thingy, and she stopped at the stop sign just as I got there . . . good, but then she didn't . . . oh great, a Florida pause, not a full stop... and SMASH...

      And I go flying over her hood... ouch. It hurt this time, I'm not moving... Cops, fire trucks, then an ambulance taking me to UCH. Great... An few hours later I'm walking out of the emergency room... No bike, but I'm still early for my complexity meeting, already missed the Urban Design director . . . but this is right across the street even . . . and Dr. Nord can drive me back too . . .

      As I started to walk over I get all dizzy, uh oh. The Cops gave me a card to get my bike back. So I called them, they came and got me back to the police station . . . they couldn't do any thing more. They were short staffed and after the 33 dead in Virginia. . . . they called me a cab.
      What about the 33?
      When I was in the ER waiting room I heard CNN going on and on about some shooting in a University. . .
      What did you feel?
      It's busting apart already. It felt like I did it. I tried to ignore it and pray away all my aches. . . the more I heard the more I hurt... the fucking noise from the TV was pulsating through me as they interviewed witnesses. It felt like it happened seconds earlier, I almost wanted to see if it was at 9am like my accident too. . . thou I felt like throwing my cell phone to smash the stupid box too . . . OUCH!!
      What NEXT?
      I found out it happened yesterday. Then found out I had a broken collar bone? Wow, never broke a bone before. Course they put my arm back into a sling and told me how to check out. Nothing more they can do, got to go see a some orthopedic specialist. . . Oh fuck!

      Then I asked to see the x-rays . . . I had almost gotten up and walked away with my bike, so specialist and surgery, forget it. Then the doctor showed me how the bone was broken. It looked like shit all out of place and all . . . Oh great. Yes see the Specialist immediately!
      What next?
      I got home and sat out in the Sun, chanting "I love you lord Jesus, Thank you lord Jesus" again and again, for hours. . . as the sun set I got into bed. Spoke to Kathy a few times, she was out of town with another death in her family too . . . Nana died yesterday too. Good thing I didn't call her from UCF for a ride home. They asked who to list for an emergency contact and I had forgotten about Kathy, so I told them to list no one. . .

      Suddenly I was hurting in bed, couldn't find an easy position. Kathy asked me about pain pills and at the ER they wanted to give me an IV with morphine . . . NO WAY! But then I was hurting so I went through all the forms they gave me and found a prescription for something. Course all dizzy again just walking over to the kitchen.

      I better go get this prescription . . . 6:30pm. I know, call Michelle at work. No answer. Called Kathy, she planned to stay another day, but wanted to come get me anyway . . . no no don't worry. Hum, who else can I call to help me out???? Lyn's picking up Ciera now, naa she only gave me 5 words after I spent 2 hours crafting an email for her, she's leaving town again anyway. . . Oh Keith! Great he was here in 15 minutes, what 20 years of friendship will do. Course he knew my phone number, birth date, address and all for the pharmacist too . . . lol. . . I could have stayed home.

      He tells me his only broken bone was the collar bone in high school when he got smashed in football just as he was throwing a pass. Figures! Course he remembers all the gory details. 3 months of intense pain, like lots of drugs... a year sleeping on one side, and 5 years before it was all gone . . . He couldn't believe I had no drugs. . . .

      Then Michelle called. Thanks I'm all all set! "Wow, nasty bone to break, we wont see you for a while" . . . oh great, everyone knows about this but me! So I asked if she wanted to play roomie, give her Emily's room if she could help me out . . . "Live with a man???" she says .... or never mind! lol ... Wrote her an email asking her to help with something anyway. I need to tell her how to do some stuff in the office anyway.
      What did that feel like?
      I felt I should have at least called Lyn. I told her she should move in too, sleep where ever she liked. I knew Ciera would love it, then Lyn could have some help, and me too where we could actually get to know each other. . . get serious about divine tasks . . . all I asked her yesterday what she was afraid of . . . "nothing past is gone" yea sure, but then you only live it over and over again. . .
      What did we start with here already about her? You need to get busy and not wait for someone. It was as real for her as it was for you. Not many can give up this world of plenty, everyone thinks they know better. Synchronizations, Divinity or not! You've already given up 6 months, 24 days and 6 hours on her . . . that's hundreds and thousands of trees and animals GONE! You warned her about getting attacked and told her Ciera would be too . . . you can't protect her, Let it go, people learn better through their own suffering, that's what it's there for.
      I can't stand that! Like at lunch with her Monday the Med school research Dean sat at the table behind her. Fern from the Bike Rack Venture Funding team sat at the table to my right (looked like the SIFE Club i need to ask him about), and then the Marshall Center CFO sat behind me!!!
      What you know about making things happen and changing the world is Your Power! Stop trying to rationalize Lyn's influence. Your love is powered up all the time. Let her go. In no time you'll be set again. The Earth needs this now. . . if you wait until hurricane season there will be millions dead not just 33
      I hate when you get into my face with this stuff
      Do you like broken bones better?
      I know ok fine, no more... just reading and writing. I can't go anywhere anyhow. . .
      What you need to do is get on the phone again. You can walk people through things online and get every thing moving from bed. . . Nothing can stop you, and waiting to make it perfect yin/yang just means there is less Earth to save. Turn on the news things are breaking up everywhere, you need to get busy. . .
      I know the radio tells me too , Erin O'Donnell on Cnradio.net
      It's 2 am, the ticking in the hall is keeping time
      The clock is counting down to morning's light
      Too many times I've crossed the line
      And put my faith aside
      And the regret I feel won't let me sleep tonight
      I need to get to bed... nit nite

      I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.