Accidents happen... lol... thanx

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

TUT... A Note from the Universe
Expecting and preparing for their very best behavior - in terms of respect, love, kindness, and wing-a-ding-dong - guarantees nothing, Eric. But it does maximize your chances of getting it.

And if you don't insist that such behavior come from a specific person, my hands will be free to find you what you prepared for, or better.

Wing-a-ding-dong,
The Universe

I KNOW, I get it . . . no more, can not hope, plan, expect, or dream of anyone any more, Not my place, I can offer and be there but no more waiting, the Whole Universe needs it NOW! More Flight training will at least get results

Today's Outlook for Tuesday April 17, 2007
A forceful Aries New Moon at 7:36 am EDT prompts us to initiate action, yet the energy quickly shifts when the Moon enters practical Taurus at 12:11 pm. We can best use this time to project ahead a couple of weeks to the Full Moon on May 2 and visualize what we would like to bring to fruition. A magical quintile between Taurus' key planet Venus and taskmaster Saturn can help us fulfill our desires as long as we are willing to take responsibility.

I know I have some important things to focus on . . . shit what a bitch, can't you just tell me!

Tuesday, April 17th, 2007 Eric's Personal Card: The Lovers
General Meaning: Although it has taken on a strictly romantic revision of meaning in some modern decks, traditionally the Lovers card of Tarot reflected the challenges of choosing a partner. At a crossroads, one cannot take both paths. The images on this card in different decks have varied more than most, because we have had so many ways of looking at sex and relationships across cultures and centuries.

Classically, the energy of this card reminded us of the real challenges posed by romantic relationships, with the protagonist often shown in the act of making an either-or choice. To partake of a higher ideal often requires sacrificing the lesser option. The path of pleasure eventually leads to distraction from spiritual growth. The gratification of the personality eventually gives way to a call from spirit as the soul matures.

Modern decks tend to portray the feeling of romantic love with this card, showing Adam and Eve at the gates of Eden when everything was still perfect. This interpretation portrays humanity before the Fall, and can be thought to imply a different sort of choice -- the choice of evolution over perfection, or the choice of personal growth through relationship -- instead of a fantasy where everything falls into place perfectly and is taken care of without effort.

Fast Facts About The Lovers
Theme: Integrate two potential realities or let go of one of them.
Astro Association: Gemini
Element: Air
Number: 6
Alias: Love

I know, read and study no choice now... gee thanks

What happened?

I got to bike into school again. Wow the Osprey were really noisy. Mom and dad were there, they even flew off over me. It was really sooo cool . . . filled me up with so much love and joy...

What's next . . . get to it Son. . .

I know, so it was nice outside too, a little chilly which made the ride great. As I came into campus, following the crowd of cars before the light changed at Fowler. Then I saw this lady come up to the exit of the info/parking thingy, and she stopped at the stop sign just as I got there . . . good, but then she didn't . . . oh great, a Florida pause, not a full stop... and SMASH...

And I go flying over her hood... ouch. It hurt this time, I'm not moving... Cops, fire trucks, then an ambulance taking me to UCH. Great... An few hours later I'm walking out of the emergency room... No bike, but I'm still early for my complexity meeting, already missed the Urban Design director . . . but this is right across the street even . . . and Dr. Nord can drive me back too . . .

As I started to walk over I get all dizzy, uh oh. The Cops gave me a card to get my bike back. So I called them, they came and got me back to the police station . . . they couldn't do any thing more. They were short staffed and after the 33 dead in Virginia. . . . they called me a cab.

What about the 33?

When I was in the ER waiting room I heard CNN going on and on about some shooting in a University. . .

What did you feel?

It's busting apart already. It felt like I did it. I tried to ignore it and pray away all my aches. . . the more I heard the more I hurt... the fucking noise from the TV was pulsating through me as they interviewed witnesses. It felt like it happened seconds earlier, I almost wanted to see if it was at 9am like my accident too. . . thou I felt like throwing my cell phone to smash the stupid box too . . . OUCH!!

What NEXT?

I found out it happened yesterday. Then found out I had a broken collar bone? Wow, never broke a bone before. Course they put my arm back into a sling and told me how to check out. Nothing more they can do, got to go see a some orthopedic specialist. . . Oh fuck!

Then I asked to see the x-rays . . . I had almost gotten up and walked away with my bike, so specialist and surgery, forget it. Then the doctor showed me how the bone was broken. It looked like shit all out of place and all . . . Oh great. Yes see the Specialist immediately!

What next?

I got home and sat out in the Sun, chanting "I love you lord Jesus, Thank you lord Jesus" again and again, for hours. . . as the sun set I got into bed. Spoke to Kathy a few times, she was out of town with another death in her family too . . . Nana died yesterday too. Good thing I didn't call her from UCF for a ride home. They asked who to list for an emergency contact and I had forgotten about Kathy, so I told them to list no one. . .

Suddenly I was hurting in bed, couldn't find an easy position. Kathy asked me about pain pills and at the ER they wanted to give me an IV with morphine . . . NO WAY! But then I was hurting so I went through all the forms they gave me and found a prescription for something. Course all dizzy again just walking over to the kitchen.

I better go get this prescription . . . 6:30pm. I know, call Michelle at work. No answer. Called Kathy, she planned to stay another day, but wanted to come get me anyway . . . no no don't worry. Hum, who else can I call to help me out???? Lyn's picking up Ciera now, naa she only gave me 5 words after I spent 2 hours crafting an email for her, she's leaving town again anyway. . . Oh Keith! Great he was here in 15 minutes, what 20 years of friendship will do. Course he knew my phone number, birth date, address and all for the pharmacist too . . . lol. . . I could have stayed home.

He tells me his only broken bone was the collar bone in high school when he got smashed in football just as he was throwing a pass. Figures! Course he remembers all the gory details. 3 months of intense pain, like lots of drugs... a year sleeping on one side, and 5 years before it was all gone . . . He couldn't believe I had no drugs. . . .

Then Michelle called. Thanks I'm all all set! "Wow, nasty bone to break, we wont see you for a while" . . . oh great, everyone knows about this but me! So I asked if she wanted to play roomie, give her Emily's room if she could help me out . . . "Live with a man???" she says .... or never mind! lol ... Wrote her an email asking her to help with something anyway. I need to tell her how to do some stuff in the office anyway.

What did that feel like?

I felt I should have at least called Lyn. I told her she should move in too, sleep where ever she liked. I knew Ciera would love it, then Lyn could have some help, and me too where we could actually get to know each other. . . get serious about divine tasks . . . all I asked her yesterday what she was afraid of . . . "nothing past is gone" yea sure, but then you only live it over and over again. . .

What did we start with here already about her? You need to get busy and not wait for someone. It was as real for her as it was for you. Not many can give up this world of plenty, everyone thinks they know better. Synchronizations, Divinity or not! You've already given up 6 months, 24 days and 6 hours on her . . . that's hundreds and thousands of trees and animals GONE! You warned her about getting attacked and told her Ciera would be too . . . you can't protect her, Let it go, people learn better through their own suffering, that's what it's there for.

I can't stand that! Like at lunch with her Monday the Med school research Dean sat at the table behind her. Fern from the Bike Rack Venture Funding team sat at the table to my right (looked like the SIFE Club i need to ask him about), and then the Marshall Center CFO sat behind me!!!

What you know about making things happen and changing the world is Your Power! Stop trying to rationalize Lyn's influence. Your love is powered up all the time. Let her go. In no time you'll be set again. The Earth needs this now. . . if you wait until hurricane season there will be millions dead not just 33

I hate when you get into my face with this stuff

Do you like broken bones better?

I know ok fine, no more... just reading and writing. I can't go anywhere anyhow. . .

What you need to do is get on the phone again. You can walk people through things online and get every thing moving from bed. . . Nothing can stop you, and waiting to make it perfect yin/yang just means there is less Earth to save. Turn on the news things are breaking up everywhere, you need to get busy. . .

I know the radio tells me too , Erin O'Donnell on Cnradio.net

It's 2 am, the ticking in the hall is keeping time
The clock is counting down to morning's light
Too many times I've crossed the line
And put my faith aside
And the regret I feel won't let me sleep tonight

I need to get to bed... nit nite

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.