Sustainable Symposium II

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Awareness comes through sensitivity. You have to be more sensitive whatsoever you do, so that even a trivial thing like tea... Can you find anything more trivial than tea? Can you find anything more ordinary than tea? No, you cannot--and Zen monks and masters have raised this most ordinary thing into the most extraordinary. They have bridged "this" and "that"... as if tea and God have become one.

Unless tea becomes divine you will not be divine, because the least has to be raised to the most, the ordinary has to be raised to the extraordinary, the earth has to be made heaven. They have to be bridged, no gap should be left.

I've been getting more insights along these lines. Nothing really new, but recognizing how real and true it is. So I continue to honor those I meet and share with, even when I wonder why I bother. I still only watch and wonder, occasionally I'll step out, but usually not very far, and most often just to respond to an invitation. . . met some interesting people at the Symposium yesterday . . . heard a lot too. We'll see..

When there is no "significant other" in our lives we can either be lonely, or enjoy the freedom that solitude brings. When we find no support among others for our deeply felt truths, we can either feel isolated and bitter, or celebrate the fact that our vision is strong enough even to survive the powerful human need for the approval of family, friends or colleagues.

If you are facing such a situation now, be aware of how you are choosing to view your "aloneness" and take responsibility for the choice you have made.

One of Gautam Buddha's most significant contributions to the spiritual life of humankind was to insist to his disciples, "Be a light unto yourself." Ultimately, each of us must develop within ourselves the capacity to make our way through the darkness without any companions, maps or guide.

I've been here for a while too. It's neat to shine onto another too... Hum, thou I know my power and ability is waiting to come forth... no rush I guess, all things will BE!

Sex holds great secrets in it, and the first secret is--if you meditate you will see it--that joy comes because sex disappears. And whenever you are in that moment of joy, time also disappears-- if you meditate on it--the mind also disappears. And these are the qualities of meditation.

Meditation must have entered into life through sex, because this is the most meditative phenomenon-- if you understand it, if you go deep into it, if you just don't use it like a drug. Then slowly, slowly, as more understanding grows, the hankering disappears, and one day comes of great freedom when sex no longer haunts you. Then one is quiet, silent, utterly oneself. The need for the other has disappeared. One can still make love if one chooses to, but there is no need. Then it will be a kind of sharing.

When two lovers are in deep sexual orgasm, they melt into each other; then the woman is no longer the woman, the man is no longer the man. They become just like the circle of yin and yang, reaching into each other, meeting in each other, melting, their own identities forgotten. That's why love is so beautiful. This state is called mudra; this state of deep, orgasmic intercourse is called mudra. And the final state of orgasm with the whole is called Mahamudra, the great orgasm.

Orgasm is a state where your body no longer is felt as matter; it vibrates like energy, electricity. It vibrates so deeply, from the very foundation, that you completely forget that it is a material thing. It becomes an electric phenomenon-- and it is an electric phenomenon. Now physicists say that there is no matter, that all matter is only appearance; deep down, that which exists is elec-tricity, not matter. In orgasm, you come to this deepest layer of your body where matter no longer exists, just energy waves; you become a dancing energy, vibrating. No more any boundaries to you--pulsating, but no longer substantial. And your beloved also pulsates.

And by and by, if the partners love each other and they surrender to each other, they surrender to this moment of pulsation, of vibration, of being energy, and they are not scared.... Because it is death-like when the body loses boundaries, when the body becomes like a vaporous thing, when the body evaporates substantially and only energy is left, a very subtle rhythm, but you find yourself as if you are not. Only in deep love can one move into it.

Love is like death: you die as far as your material image is concerned, you die as far as you think you are a body; you die as a body and you evolve as energy, vital energy. And when the wife and the husband, or the lovers, or the partners, start vibrating in a rhythm, their heartbeats and their bodies come together, it becomes a harmony--then orgasm happens, then they are no longer two. That is the symbol of yin and yang: yin moving into yang, yang moving into yin; man moving into the woman, the woman moving into the man. Now they are a circle and they vibrate together, they pulsate together. Their hearts are no longer separate, their beats are no longer separate; they have become a melody, a harmony.

It is the greatest music possible; all other musics are just faint things compared to it, shadow things compared to it. This vibration of two as one is orgasm. When the same thing happens, not with another person, but with the whole existence, then it is Mahamudra, then it is the great orgasm.

I don't think anyone knows anything about this anymore. It reminds me of my first Tantra class... Knowing, feeling and seeing that I did it all already. Never knew that what I did could be named. Like the Chant, everyone seems to recognize aspects of it . . . but I wonder whether I'll ever find someone to really share it with!!!

Our compassion is heightened by the watery Pisces Moon. We may have to face an unexpected emotional situation when the Moon conjuncts surprising Uranus at 3:33 pm EDT. We are tempted to impulsively engage an argument, instead of sitting in passive contemplation. No matter what we say, though, something may not feel right with rationalizing Mercury forming a tense semisquare with diffusive Neptune. We must move beyond language for lasting solutions.

I woke up at 3:33am again last night. I mean half asleep and I roll over to see these numbers on the clock. WOW! I jump right up! I have to. . . it's like I don't have any choice about it at all any more. I don't do anything else for the Earth so strongly. Like with the partner moving into bliss as described above . . . sure it's easy and fun, but I know the Earth needs this power and focus. That is not real anywhere any more . . . I can't imagine no one does it, but some times it feels that way!

Eric's Personal Card: The Empress This Deck: Crowley
General Meaning: Traditionally entitled "Empress," this major arcana or "trump" card portrays the energy of the Great Mother. She is Nature, around us but also within us, the ever-unfolding Source of life-giving power. She is often pictured as a pre-Christian Goddess, as the one whom the High Priestess is channeling down to earth for the rest of us.

In medieval Europe, the Empress card was painted to represent whatever Queen currently ruled the land, probably to satisfy the Inquisitors. But the scholars of the Renaissance and beyond had no doubt of her true identity, although she could not be fully revealed on Tarot cards as the "woman clothed with the sun" until after the French Revolution.

This supreme archetype of femininity also symbolizes fertility. It is She who provides us nourishment and security. She is also sometimes seen as delighting us with flowers and fruit. A potentially terrifying aspect of this archetype manifests itself whenever karmic mood swings wipe out our plans, like a storm that has come upon us. Whatever happens, the Empress is the Source of our Embodiment and of Natural Law. She might even be called "the Great Recycler."

Yesterday in a group meeting working on our presentation. One of the married ladies noticed I had my sandals on. . . "look at those sexy feet... most men have beaten up ugly feet..." I started laughing . . . each week they tease me about being single and talk about how sweet and kind I am wanting to take me home... Eeek!!! sometimes I wish I could get rude and just ravage some women... lol... Course being a Lover, even if I tied her up and carried her off to my cave ... I'ld then brush her hair and tenderly lick her wounds... lol...

Eric's Daily Number: 3
Your creativity continues to manifest in every area of your life today. A sense of excitement permeates your daily routine, and at times you may lack focus. Clear communication is important today.

I better get busy... I can read through all this stuff as I eat breakfast .. .. .. but I know this will be a busy day.

Dear Eric, Here is your single's love horoscope for Saturday, April 14:
You've got serious vision now -- the capacity to see things not only as they are, but all the rich potential involved as well. Expand your horizons. You'll find new scenes and new people that might just blow your mind.

yea I know, somethings never change... ho hum... lol...

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.