Sunday, December 25, 2004 7.35PM

So this has been a really powerful and incredible year, ending with a BANG. I know there is a lot more happening every moment than I can deal with. I’m getting clearer about it all every instant. I’m nervous about the money again, but know in Faith that I am free from it. Of-course I wanna go to the casino down the street… lol… I know how much I can control all these things. But I know I‘ve not written in weeks… lol… or days I mean. And I feel there is still so much to say and explain for you. The day I went to meet Skalkos I chanted that early morning and felt the whole scenario open right before my eyes like an incredible infinite lotus of light. The whole concept of moving the energy and the people all fell together into a perfect union. It feels like I’ve not written enough about this yet, or defined it all clearly enough so I want to get into it again in much more detail.

I knew I could start right then, Skalkos knows all my history already. Where better to start a DNA- consciousness experiment? She even laughed about how Claire was my next afternoon chat to share my life with. I met Skalkos almost weekly for so long when I first started school ,just like now with Claire. Then I knew it all could be done very easily and professionally with all these people I’ve known and worked with here. Skalkos could help make the psychological research clear and secure. Claire could get all the politicians supporting it. Pam & Pat could take it across the country and world! I just needed to compile the whole story. WE could change the American culture as an experiment in the university. It would happen so fast and easy. I would simply do the Shamanic religious expression that I’ve known for so long. They all have shared in some aspect of it already. So the public classes could allow everyone to feel it and know it. We ARE Heaven on Earth! BOOM!

Skalkos knows all this already. From the very start I told her that “I was on a Mission from God!” She saw all the perfect synchronicity with Newkome and Walbolt long ago! She would always say how it wasn’t God’s work, but my own efforts that made things happen. Now to do it again with Claire, Scott and Mike; changing everything is not too far out of reach at all. Now even Jason has magically appeared in perfect timing to complete this CD, and recreate the infrastructure. He’s redoing all my machines and getting my network here running smoothly. Like this laptop really hums now! That chant the day I saw Skalkos helped me realize I had to get this done now. Copy it to Claire too, wow and Lawrence, Jason, Keith, Chuck, Tim, Trace, Dan the whole team is returning together again. I knew it was all coming out; no one could stop it!

What are you doing?

It’s kinda a struggle for me to explain this all. I know this is the thing we have been working for since the very beginning of time and I know there is nothing here that can stop us…. Oh, except us… lol… That's just too cool. We know what we can do, and this mission and purpose is just falling into place perfectly. So we are approaching this total freedom and fulfillment that only Your Love in Christ Jesus could make possible. That Perfect PATH, that leading into truth; The Way of Jesus Christ. It was so clear and open for us all ever since You came here to share it all. Thank you Loving Lord Jesus Christ!!!

What do you want your life to be, what peptides are you sending to yourself. You’ve been seeing this again and again inside of you anyway. You know all about moving energy. Now that you know these words of science and see how they are understanding things that you do already.

What are you waiting for?

I just know it all will be coming out exactly as we need it to, so to hold on to any fear is really a mistake. I know I can be clearer and freer with another attitude and different expectations once I allow Your Spirit to flow through me always. I must not worry about it. I know I need to get out of this house to share more freely with others. And I know Jason could help me very easily almost anytime that I want to. But I can’t seem to get out. There is just too much to do all the time.