I’m still standing!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!l

What do you find now?!

I love my time and experience more than ever, talking with Brent once a week, biking to church, doing the prayerline.  Each day is an adventure, I’m not sure what I need to do or where I’ll be next, but really just step into this and trust as I keep going forward. It's really just remarkable how things move and change every day, 1 day = 86400 seconds and I'm really more perplexed all the time. It's really just wonderful and I feel very blessed every moment I step into more and more, as I learn more about what Jesus has given to me.

I study my bible and classes. I do school work. Then I bike and go to church and not much more. It's really peaceful and kinda wonderful. I do know I always have so much more to do, but it's really all in peace and joy. I've not really concerned myself with anything. And I really know everything is really wonderful and divine. How could I ever concern myself with anything, when there is so much love and Joy in all things before me.

2:10pm Sun Mar 22 is what I see at the top of my screen now. And again I've been busy all day already. Set my new parking space with granite counter tops broken up like Nicky did in Belize. I still have more to do, but it's coming along. Then I got some more bricks yesterday to brick in my back gates and get those set up the way I need them. Each day more here and more there. I don't feel like I'm really going anywhere fast, but I'm really not concerned about it either. I do whatever I must do and allow it to be, trusting in the Flow as I pray about each step I take with Jesus.

Ok, I’ve talked about working in the yard and reciting the phrases “Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, and I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,” over and over to get myself protected and focused doing chores and such. It’s funny, I noticed it today trimming the yard and the trimmer was messed up. . . I’m asking for Saint Joseph to guide me, as he loves the power tools and such. But it was Jesus who told it was time to get outside and get busy cleaning up my yard. . . Yes I’ve not been doing my hour in the office and hour in the yard. . . . I need to get these routines down tight.

7:07pm. I did go to a kundalini yoga class at noon today with Laura. She recognized me and was sweet and polite. But not much more. I was the first there and the last to leave. I did get some school work done and more done outside. And I'm certainly ready to sleep now. . . . Yes, I signed up for a week of yoga classes. Since my thumb, or trigger-finger is sorta messed up, I’ve not been touching my weights and figured Yoga showed up right on time to keep me exercising. Not swam in a few weeks, but know I need to get that onto my schedule too. 

You’ve really done well with the Bible studies, and need to get deeper into SEEL too! It’s really about timing and place again. Like how you spoke to Fr. Curtis about his Community Homely and mentioned your experiences with Fr Kevin.  That spontaneous expression was not something you really understood, or could have planned at all. It was key that you recorded his message and then read it on your iPhone before seeing him. You need to Thank Ben for that too . . 

Fr. Curtis Transcripts: It's where people 1st go wrong, when people get a sense of belonging to a community. And once they belong to a community, they start to conform to its behaviors. And then, lastly, their belief system will conform to those behaviors, that which they want to conform to. 
So it's kind of a reversal, you would think that you belong to a community because we've got a shared belief and that belief would inform your behavior.  Like those joint things, contribute to your belonging. But what we see is this construct of their own house. We know that, like when people are rooted in their ways, they kind of deeply plant themselves into their community, and you can debate all you want, but you're going to get very little transfers from one corner or another, because usually when people are dug in and they're very hard to move. 
But for today, in our age, we have to really work on welcoming, and getting to know the people. It’s helping them building those relationships. And it's in those relationships that, people are more likely to transfer, they're looking for authentic friendships. People are affected by their conversation, it's pretty cool, safe, and respectful ways to have them. That's where people will start to be open minded, right? 
Maybe they start to associate themselves with people or in the community. And then they start to set in roots and then they start to conform to that community. And then they start to see, why do we do what we do? 
What's the underlying belief? So that's why community is so important. And uh, especially our faith, you see that, and anything in mind, whether it's not from businesses or politics, everybody's trying to build community because that's what everybody is authentically seeking. 
And Jesus is able to read their minds and hearts, and everybody must look at the evidence before them, and in their time, they have to be kind of that testament to the faith, who Christ is, what does it mean for my life? At once belonging to Christ, that are conforming to Christ and or believing in Christ!

I tried to edit and make this clear. I started with the audio transcript and then listened and edited it a bit. It was really neat to speak with him after.  I said how his community homily resonated with me really strong and it reminded me of Fr. Kevin when he said “Each one Teach One” in his homily just like I had highlighted in my Lent Guide . . .

Then I said how I asked Dick about healing again since I had this lump in my hand that is interfering with my Exodus 90 routines. . . Then said how he recommended Unbound the book that Harriet uses. I already have the book in my library and reading it over, found comments from the last time I read it. I already noticed the “renounce and command” statements again.  These Words I share all the time on the prayerline.

What was significant here was while speaking to Fr Curtis you held his hands confronting a lump centering and grounding him as you spoke.  He recognized immediately that energy moving and stepped back away from you, but you did what we asked you to do.  And reading the transcripts of what you sent to Ben was key.  Thanking him for that help is important too. You really have done well keeping in this Flow of Spirit, and you need to get more secure and confident with all this work we give you. Recognize you do have a very unique circumstance and have committed to doing a lot here, where you will be getting more support and more power and resources as you continue to grow and learn in the Spirit. Yes, the regular Bible reading and SEEL continue to help you more than you know at this time.

IT’s now…6:47am Fri Mar 27 reading in Exodus 90 it’s the day for the feast of tabernacle for seven days to arrive into the promised land. At the last day to have rivers of water flowing through to them in the desserts. This feast is connected to harvest times filled with food, dancing and celebrating the love of god. And today the Bible in A Year on the Ascension App is day 75: Numbers 29-30 with all the rules, and with Deuteronomy 29 into the new land to be in Jesus and no other! And yesterday again at Lisette’s the song grabbed me as the sun shined into my face . . . and I flew off to another place… feeling the love and light flashing through me. My eyes closed and my feet started tapping, soon I was moving grooving, humming, PRAISING THE MOMENT. 

Wow, I know I have to stay here FOREVER!!!!. . . As I write now, suddenly shifting from the keyboard to my pen, as It's easier to share these deeper SPIRIT moments with my pen. Of course, my script gets intense; and I get distracted editing and and and fixing things lost again . . .  Heavenly Father , , I love to be dependent on You... Please guide me this moment to write and share more of Your Spirit, Passions and Peace to all the people every where😇😊👍😄👍✌👍 wow, jobs has very easy, Yes Steve I know you still read, watch, and know every bit I share.

!yes you need to talk more details about your day today, you’ve stepped out again!

I noticed the Prayerline needed my “Renounce and Command” and That story starts with God, creating us and putting us into the Garden of Eden naked. ALL was good, just us naked taking care of the garden loving all our neighbors and nothing else until the snake showed up. Ruined everything. Then Jesus came to bring us back home, teaching us the power of the word in his name. So that’s how I teach “Renounce and Command” anything you can “name” in your life, that you need to remove. 

Like: I renounce anger in the name of Jesus Christ, I command anger to leave in the name of Jesus Christ

Then it is very easy to step outside, barefoot, and find a place to pray in the garden leading people into my next critical lesson, that I share.  It really just flows out of me. When I go through this I recognize the power and clarity of gods love.

6:36pm Fri mar 27 Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ

I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ

Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ

I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ

Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to grow and share more joy peace and love. And I see more and more people and synergies, this is always such a surprise. I know I go along with the story. . . And I realize another change I can make for the classes I am doing. It's really been an incredible blessing as each day I'm seeing new opportunities to love and share more every where. So much of these kids dreams are coming through that mimics my own. And you should see my scribbles before the Apple text is typed on my iPad.

I need to make my schedule tight. . . Oh so I stopped in for another yoga class and it was the same lady as the 1st time. Spanish and petite of course !!!! And as I rushed out of the house to get there, I stopped to get my mayan chant brochure . . . When I walked in and she said hi Rafi I told her about my last class teaching and maybe we could do classes together. Wow, I actually said all that to her!!?! And we talked more after it and I opened up my old websites on her phone. Wow, each on popped up perfect the same as ever.

It really has been fun for us too. We love how surprised you always are when you see the  praise and glory shining through in your every experience. When you stopped on the run into church to catch the 7:30 stations of the Cross . . . Because you saw we could do the Sun Ritual and stopped before the completed Saint Mary Chapel. You listened and stopped then even stepped to be on your mom, then Fr. Kevin and Fr. Claudious. You knew the center on the sun was more important than the brick you stood on. Then you found your center and completed the standing forms for all your Mayan Chant. It was really wonderful for you to share that. And it's really easy. You are in it again and all is exactly as we planned from the very start. Yes Bike play Lead, do those things you are - that you love and enjoy! Please share that more as we need you to be more focused on what you really asked for. That Bike ride and swim time were actually almost central to making all things happen in your life, stay focused, clear and true to all you ARE!

Yes Everything is important. Next 50 year habit is a big deal and you said that very clearly to your boss, who called you back. Very clear and focused flow is what it’s all about, the more consistent and refined you get the more opportunities show up. It's the same story for Jesus about the ten talents. Well you get ten more each day you wake and listen. Stronger and clearer development understanding and God's Grace flows through. Exactly where you need to be. And you see this flow before you with this pen on a screen and accept the fullness before you in all things equally. Do it all as the 16 year old in high School. Young strong athletic was what you asked for, since you never had been there before, so do it now!

 and I Guess you are done for now. And I really need to remember what I love most about this life. I mean after the Belize flights I decided no more flights, planes are not secure and I don't need the trouble. But then doing LENT with Brent! Wow, what a wonderful blessing and so I told him how grateful I was to share. 

I then saw flights for spring break and decided I should go north!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. It's always been so cool to share with you. I really am so grateful to have this experience and opportunity with you. Please fill me with your strength and wisdom to move forward in your full grace, ready and able to bring and do all that we planned here. And I can accept and begin to make each day a church day. The Wednesday, Saturday things are my best experience.

Wow, thank You I'm so glad to see more, as I grow with You to be whatever it means that You want me to BE!

6:07pm Sat Mar 28 and I barely slept last night. I ended my fast yesterday. I figured it was like 9pm Sunday to maybe noon on Friday. I felt good after having a few nights of struggle. I went to StpeteFerments.com and got some kombucha and sauerkraut, which is recommended for ending a fast. So I ate yesterday and then again today. I bought a sausage sandwich at the Saturday Morning Market today. I raced to mass and missed my sunrise and then raced to another yoga class. I actually stayed for two yoga classes, big mistake to take two in a row that were really too much for me.

I was feeling like I needed to do more exercises since I've not been lifting weights. So yoga is another place to exercise. Course then I asked them about doing my own classes there too. Yes I've written about this already somewhere. And then after Mass, yoga, market, biking I got home and wanted to sleep. Resting and then finally looked at my iPhone and noticed the movie about Elton John: Rocketman was free online for me.

Oh, watch a movie and make a serious lunch. What a great idea. So I went down and started the movie and soon was in Tears. Yes, I saw the first sequence in the story as my own. He was in a AAA meeting sharing how all his addictions started with a childhood trauma. It was the exact same experience we all really have, where we remember some experience of being yelled at by dad. The songs, and moments, each experience was so clear and real for me. It carried all the way to the end where he sang the song “I’m still standing!”

higher place for you to walk

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What did you do.

I shared Your Word! Wow, I did exactly what I wanted. So much is happening so quickly. I know I'm setting into a new world again. I guess it's kinda fun as I've done it over and over again, literally waking up to a new world daily. . . wondering who I can Love, Who I can Change, what new visions or experiences I would be challenged.

What Lexio Divina 1st 

In the Word! The Desert Fathers, the first Christian monks who fled the cities and found refuge in the desert, living a life of prayer and asceticism, in search of true freedom in Christ. Throughout these forty days of Lent, we will imitate their example.

What bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh, , , created as one genesis 3 separated from god.. . Wow, covering the part that connected these people. Why fig leaves? WHY THIS judgement wow nurturing the heart of your spouse . . . Ephesians 5: love your own flesh, reinforce connections, know agreement, witness the experience instead of trying so hard. Show real connection! Dr. Ken Wilkus: nurture heart 1-800-232-6459, 1800afamily. . . lol. . . Free marriage assessment and downloads.

TRYing to fit into the World!  I’m always trying to interpret and “play my part,” whatever that is. EVERY DAY, I try to connect and make myself useful or valid somehow for this glory I share in Christ. Like whatever I’m already doing isn’t enough or needs something more. And it’s always about control, my business, my patent, my designs, no solutions . . . No action, but me, me, me. . . And then I wonder about how I do whatever shows up. Build the tool-library, reset gardens, plant seeds, harvest, remove, rebuild. . . Changes shifting growing, always wondering what could be next, always ready to step forward. 1 Samuel 18: 

What are you feeling now?

I really feel so blessed to share with Your Word! Talk with You, share and know what we have here, and do these tasks You place before me. No judgements, no questions, more tasks, more Being. I always have to just accept how things are and how things happen, trusting Jesus. It’s kinda weird how things change. Like being back in the same place again, biking, writing, reading, doing this work that I need to do. This morning I thought to present the container garden patent ideas to someone else. Something that God brings to me. Each day doing this very present truth before me, and suddenly I found the blog page describing things in detail.

What happened is different stages moving through you. Trying to create new opportunities for others to reach Christ. You rarely have any idea how much you affect people. The power and clarity you share and express even in these words now before you as you take greater care in each new scribble as you recognize the AI used here and the limitations herein. But still you step beyond these in ease and clarity. Yes, you get annoyed with the perceived limitations, but are still surprised and impressed when words show up from obvious sloppy scribbles knowing Christ is with you.

I am always wondering and perplexed by what I do and share each day. I've got to post grades today and get everyone focused and ready for their next assignment.

What happened on Friday with these links and blog posted now?

I was doing my morning podcast and listening to Your Word and I knew it was the same story I've been repeating over again, about stepping into these gifts from God and our responsibility. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just lost, where I’m always trying to do the same things, and maybe it's not about the timing, but just not necessary and I'm delusional. And its always about what I've seen and known from my death. Of course, Christ is returning and half our world will be wiped away. And I shared that in the ladies group on Thursday, where I knew we might be the only city to survive and be the only place left with clean healthy foods. So I had this dream about all the surviving children on Earth will be placed in boats and barrels to float up into Tampa Bay and reach our beaches here . . . so all these emptied vacation homes are filled with refugee kids.

What happened next?

I know, so I told these ladies how I was doing my morning bike ride along the bay and saw a barrel floating off-shore and thought it was one of the first kids arriving. I knew it was the end, and knew how important it was to get real food together. Then read/heard the Exodus 90 podcasts about stepping into what God has sent us here for. I thought it was about time that I spoke about renewing STARS to begin building more and more Urban Agriculture and all the other stuff I've dreamed about.

So then I found this blog linked above?  Wow, I wrote it all out for Nicky, saying how we could get started now. And as I read through this blog, I discovered it was written just as I started all the AirBnB stuff, and the forbearance and all the craziness with my house. Wow, it's been years of craziness and it's still crazy and out of hand. 

do you really think so?

I really don’t know. I guess my biggest thing has really been about getting to know YOU more. I mean, I can understand and accept this is about my Guardian Angels,  and in know the Trinity and everything is about taking this knowledge and experience to a higher level. I mean, it’s always been sorta obvious I have been gifted and have lot to do. I wonder some times if I’m doing enough, and usually find out I’m doing too much. It’s really kinda weird sometimes as I try to figure it out.

Yes, I know that’s where I get into trouble. I’m gifted so much because I accept and step into things so easily, without thinking or figuring anything. I know, jumping up at dawn, biking across town or “whatever seems necessary,” usually comes through to me randomly.  I mean, I know I step into things as You say. Stopping places and doing whatever I need to do. And it always seems I’m in the right place at the right time, even when I don’t do whatever I think I need to do.  It’s just crazy! I mean, to go back to my accident. I remember not wanting to return just to save the last hundred people. . . . But then agreeing to return if we really can save millions or more.

But in either case, entrepreneurs and food or urban agriculture seem central to this. And so everything in my life has been coming into this same space over and over again. Now even many of my students are focused here. It's really kinda weird. I know it's about staying faithful and trusting everything that I stop into. I'm tying, it's not easy, but I’m still moving forward!

then Friday?

I know, I saw how only two were attending the Friday morning prayer meeting after mass. And Bob had heard about STARS already and offered to join the Board before. Wow, I felt it instantly, to ask Bob and Scott onto my board and have them hire Ben to complete the mission. Wow, I’ve been asking Larry, Leslie and everyone I meet, to join my non-profit to start building more food systems for children. Sure Jesus only send me angels, but no one can understand or keep-up with me. Now to actually ask someone who might really make this happen.  Wow, I never thought of this before!

So I guess what was more remarkable than anything was seeing this blog written out for Nicky to do everything with me. And I sent it all to Ben as the morning podcasts linked to Exodus 90 and everything else in my life. And then an hour later I sent screenshots of the posts to Ben over to Scott. I mean, I literally recorded the ending of Stanley’s message:

When God calls you and challenges you to take the risk to believe him for something, Move out of that job that he's called you out of. 
Move out of that relationship he's called you out of. He's got something better for you. He's got a higher place for you to walk, a different perspective, a different relationship in your life. and you're not willing to for fear of failure, fear of criticism, filled with the fear “if I give up this, then there's nothing out there.” 
Listen, there's no such thing as God calling you to nothing. Listen to that. There's no such thing as God calling you to nothing. 

I love how this technology works making it easier and easier for me. I opened the recording on my iPhone, clicked the transcription button and pop there is all the text. So I pull out the piece that jumped out at me. 

It all happens exactly as it needs to be, trust and be at ease. 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.