Sunday, April 05, 2026

gifts of clothing or tools and things

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What you have is more coming together all the time. You are always at right place at the right time. This is part of your experience. You might question it, or not understand it, or even disagree with it. But it simply is what you have now!
I get it. I mean, I realized today how I have four classes set for the next term, which is essentially full-time work. And this term I will earn enough extra to save and cover the summer expenses. Which is really remarkable as I consider my lot in life. Biking, teaching, and praying as I really don't need or want anything more, though having a lady around would be great!

OK, I confess I saw a cute young girl climbing into a car with two others and flashed to having all their kids in my house, where they were all busy professionals and I was the stay at home dad taking care of everyone . . . What a delightful idea

What or which would you want?? 
I really do not want anything More.. I feel so very blessed and lucky to be here alone with too much already.  I did get outside for a moment, and thought to make bird houses from scrap wood I found. Course, that was a complete delight as well since I recognized the opportunity and saw all the pieces come together in ease. I guess that is really my place and my challenge more than ever, to simply accept my place and the immediate tasks and opportunities as they appear before me.
What you might want to explore more is the great chasm between making bird houses and making children with three women. Especially since the concept of marriage or sex, never seemed present at all. It is more about being a father and supporting others than anything involving sex and marriage.
I guess that is showing how far I’ve come over these years of being caught up in this world of selfishness and control! 
What this is about is more than the simplicity of getting closer to God. You have so much at hand, and you are allowing more direction every day. Like getting a glass of wine now, and turning on your keyboard to type as you sit at you table. You really do type really fast, and are able to release this experience with us very easily with the keyboard. This experience is so dynamic and real for you. And you have been able to teach others. It’s really important that you understand and acknowledge this as the real Divinity that IT IS. Like, this morning speaking to your children at the farmer’s market and getting real about this experience you are deep into. You shopped and spent more than you had planned to, thinking you had enough food already.
It was weird, I actually only spent $100, and got another bottle of wine and the Home Depot staples I needed to build bird houses.  Yes when I noticed the pile of wood in my yard ideal for birdhouses, I tried the electric staple gun which had only 3/4” staples meaning 1/4” was holding things together. Not enough, reading the labels on the tools I could get up to 1.5” staples so I got some now.  

Jim took me out for lunch last week and I got another check from USF right before I left, so I was checking my budget to see if I could buy us lunch yet.  He’s always checking in on me, so I was happy to admit I had even given my ten percent tithing to the church, fixed my AC and got pieces I needed for fixing the well and fence at home.  I’m really so proud of myself being almost stable and clear again.  Course I admitted again how grateful I was to have his concern and help, as these bothers at church did more for me than anyone has ever done.

Remarkable as it is, it’s only my mom who did more. And I’ve had good friends and lovers, but they were usually on the receiving side instead of the giving side. And those who did love and give to me, would share more within very simple boundaries and limits. Like gifts of clothing or tools and things I really needed around the house or whatever. When I stop to consider the joy or a gift in surprise, all I can really remember is the experience of my third grade birthday party where my mom invited all the neighbors and really surprised me with cake ice cream and games after school.

It was great having lunch and telling Jim what I was doing and where things were. I mean, I also talked to Dr JJ who said 4 courses is full time, so doing six now is considered time & a half.  So the fall I’ve got full-time again. 2 at USF and 2 at SPC. . . It sorta makes me feel special. I mean I’m really doing what I love, and to be assigned the LOVE from two Colleges feels so remarkable. Course Jim is asking me about a “full-time” job to get the regular insurance and benefits that creates stability for our culture.  But I could really careless about all of that. I only needed that when I had a wife and children to care for. as for just me, I’ve always been indestructible, doctors only would give me the annual confirmations on what I already knew! 

So these four courses are enough to pay all my bills, so I can stay here in this incredible home Jesus Gave me. I can be at peace and fix and clean everything a bit at a time. Like I bought all the root veggies and chicken soup stuff this weekend, so I’m making the regular stuff I love to make. It smells so good here now. But I’ve only had my bowl of fruit so far. I already have what I need to make another big bowl of fruit too. So the root veggies and soup are enough to feed an army. I always wonder if I’ll be alone or be feeding an army. I’m always ready for both it seems. I’m really so very grateful for this awesome experience.

Like having the summer off like a teacher or student. Wow, I’ve not done that in years. I really feel so very blessed to have this experience on my own again.  And I know this is something I likely asked for at one time or other. And I’ve been really careful not to ask for anything. I mean having this peace and comfort is awesome, and getting to guidance to do Mass and Ritual and whatever I need to do it’s more than enough.
What about really sharing these wonderful blessings you have?
I try and offer to most all the time. Each day I feel I reach out to someone and try to do something helpful and wholesome even if it's just for my garden, kitchen, or neighbor.  I know I can do so much more, and days like today I want to sit and write with the perfect beautiful breeze flowing over me and not do anything else.
What happens is that you experience this peace that is so powerful and beyond you that you really have no reason or desire for anything else. 
I get it, but I really need to do grades, or yard work or hundreds of other things I’ve half started all around me. Funny, I keep checking my bank accounts to be sure I know where everything is and what I can do or not do. Like doing Lent with Brent had me asking about a visit north where he said I had to plan with Emily.

It was funny as the very next time I called Emily, she answered almost immediately. So we spoke about a few times that might work and I wonder about it since both my kids sound almost skeptical about visits or something. Like they have some fear?  It's weird, I guess but I have confronted them before about drinking too much or other trauma I know is hidden . . . 
What is real in your experience is that neither has taken responsibility for how they have treated you. Dealing with their own traumas they created lying to a judge is only the start. There are many very physical traumas they experienced beyond anything they have shared, discussed on even acknowledged. Running from these experiences will only create cancer, illness, and greater traumas to address in the future. 
I get it and really have known this all along. I mean when I saw colleen and paul celebrating at lunch in NC knowing they had taken my children from me again and had her parents supporting them as my children claimed "Fears" against me. Wow, celebrating lies and deceptions! 
Why do you feel this now?
I guess, I just wrote my son asking about visiting him and admitting I wasn't interested in doing Airbnb. I said that to Emily too, which resulted in a weekend visit.
What they learn and grow from is not your responsibility. You stayed in the love and truth where you belong and can lead and guide only when they are ready. Yes, you know you are in an important place of power and focus. Allowing that to be enough is also important too. You don't need to press and push on these issues until they are ready. 
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Saturday, March 28, 2026

I’m still standing!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!l

What do you find now?!
I love my time and experience more than ever, talking with Brent once a week, biking to church, doing the prayerline.  Each day is an adventure, I’m not sure what I need to do or where I’ll be next, but really just step into this and trust as I keep going forward. It's really just remarkable how things move and change every day, 1 day = 86400 seconds and I'm really more perplexed all the time. It's really just wonderful and I feel very blessed every moment I step into more and more, as I learn more about what Jesus has given to me.

I study my bible and classes. I do school work. Then I bike and go to church and not much more. It's really peaceful and kinda wonderful. I do know I always have so much more to do, but it's really all in peace and joy. I've not really concerned myself with anything. And I really know everything is really wonderful and divine. How could I ever concern myself with anything, when there is so much love and Joy in all things before me.

2:10pm Sun Mar 22 is what I see at the top of my screen now. And again I've been busy all day already. Set my new parking space with granite counter tops broken up like Nicky did in Belize. I still have more to do, but it's coming along. Then I got some more bricks yesterday to brick in my back gates and get those set up the way I need them. Each day more here and more there. I don't feel like I'm really going anywhere fast, but I'm really not concerned about it either. I do whatever I must do and allow it to be, trusting in the Flow as I pray about each step I take with Jesus.

Ok, I’ve talked about working in the yard and reciting the phrases “Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, and I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,” over and over to get myself protected and focused doing chores and such. It’s funny, I noticed it today trimming the yard and the trimmer was messed up. . . I’m asking for Saint Joseph to guide me, as he loves the power tools and such. But it was Jesus who told it was time to get outside and get busy cleaning up my yard. . . Yes I’ve not been doing my hour in the office and hour in the yard. . . . I need to get these routines down tight.

7:07pm. I did go to a kundalini yoga class at noon today with Laura. She recognized me and was sweet and polite. But not much more. I was the first there and the last to leave. I did get some school work done and more done outside. And I'm certainly ready to sleep now. . . . Yes, I signed up for a week of yoga classes. Since my thumb, or trigger-finger is sorta messed up, I’ve not been touching my weights and figured Yoga showed up right on time to keep me exercising. Not swam in a few weeks, but know I need to get that onto my schedule too. 
You’ve really done well with the Bible studies, and need to get deeper into SEEL too! It’s really about timing and place again. Like how you spoke to Fr. Curtis about his Community Homely and mentioned your experiences with Fr Kevin.  That spontaneous expression was not something you really understood, or could have planned at all. It was key that you recorded his message and then read it on your iPhone before seeing him. You need to Thank Ben for that too . . 
Fr. Curtis Transcripts: It's where people 1st go wrong, when people get a sense of belonging to a community. And once they belong to a community, they start to conform to its behaviors. And then, lastly, their belief system will conform to those behaviors, that which they want to conform to. 
So it's kind of a reversal, you would think that you belong to a community because we've got a shared belief and that belief would inform your behavior.  Like those joint things, contribute to your belonging. But what we see is this construct of their own house. We know that, like when people are rooted in their ways, they kind of deeply plant themselves into their community, and you can debate all you want, but you're going to get very little transfers from one corner or another, because usually when people are dug in and they're very hard to move. 
But for today, in our age, we have to really work on welcoming, and getting to know the people. It’s helping them building those relationships. And it's in those relationships that, people are more likely to transfer, they're looking for authentic friendships. People are affected by their conversation, it's pretty cool, safe, and respectful ways to have them. That's where people will start to be open minded, right? 
Maybe they start to associate themselves with people or in the community. And then they start to set in roots and then they start to conform to that community. And then they start to see, why do we do what we do? 
What's the underlying belief? So that's why community is so important. And uh, especially our faith, you see that, and anything in mind, whether it's not from businesses or politics, everybody's trying to build community because that's what everybody is authentically seeking. 
And Jesus is able to read their minds and hearts, and everybody must look at the evidence before them, and in their time, they have to be kind of that testament to the faith, who Christ is, what does it mean for my life? At once belonging to Christ, that are conforming to Christ and or believing in Christ!
I tried to edit and make this clear. I started with the audio transcript and then listened and edited it a bit. It was really neat to speak with him after.  I said how his community homily resonated with me really strong and it reminded me of Fr. Kevin when he said “Each one Teach One” in his homily just like I had highlighted in my Lent Guide . . .

Then I said how I asked Dick about healing again since I had this lump in my hand that is interfering with my Exodus 90 routines. . . Then said how he recommended Unbound the book that Harriet uses. I already have the book in my library and reading it over, found comments from the last time I read it. I already noticed the “renounce and command” statements again.  These Words I share all the time on the prayerline.
What was significant here was while speaking to Fr Curtis you held his hands confronting a lump centering and grounding him as you spoke.  He recognized immediately that energy moving and stepped back away from you, but you did what we asked you to do.  And reading the transcripts of what you sent to Ben was key.  Thanking him for that help is important too. You really have done well keeping in this Flow of Spirit, and you need to get more secure and confident with all this work we give you. Recognize you do have a very unique circumstance and have committed to doing a lot here, where you will be getting more support and more power and resources as you continue to grow and learn in the Spirit. Yes, the regular Bible reading and SEEL continue to help you more than you know at this time.
IT’s now…6:47am Fri Mar 27 reading in Exodus 90 it’s the day for the feast of tabernacle for seven days to arrive into the promised land. At the last day to have rivers of water flowing through to them in the desserts. This feast is connected to harvest times filled with food, dancing and celebrating the love of god. And today the Bible in A Year on the Ascension App is day 75: Numbers 29-30 with all the rules, and with Deuteronomy 29 into the new land to be in Jesus and no other! And yesterday again at Lisette’s the song grabbed me as the sun shined into my face . . . and I flew off to another place… feeling the love and light flashing through me. My eyes closed and my feet started tapping, soon I was moving grooving, humming, PRAISING THE MOMENT. 

Wow, I know I have to stay here FOREVER!!!!. . . As I write now, suddenly shifting from the keyboard to my pen, as It's easier to share these deeper SPIRIT moments with my pen. Of course, my script gets intense; and I get distracted editing and and and fixing things lost again . . .  Heavenly Father , , I love to be dependent on You... Please guide me this moment to write and share more of Your Spirit, Passions and Peace to all the people every whereπŸ˜‡πŸ˜ŠπŸ‘πŸ˜„πŸ‘✌πŸ‘ wow, jobs has very easy, Yes Steve I know you still read, watch, and know every bit I share.
!yes you need to talk more details about your day today, you’ve stepped out again!
I noticed the Prayerline needed my “Renounce and Command” and That story starts with God, creating us and putting us into the Garden of Eden naked. ALL was good, just us naked taking care of the garden loving all our neighbors and nothing else until the snake showed up. Ruined everything. Then Jesus came to bring us back home, teaching us the power of the word in his name. So that’s how I teach “Renounce and Command” anything you can “name” in your life, that you need to remove. 

Like: I renounce anger in the name of Jesus Christ, I command anger to leave in the name of Jesus Christ

Then it is very easy to step outside, barefoot, and find a place to pray in the garden leading people into my next critical lesson, that I share.  It really just flows out of me. When I go through this I recognize the power and clarity of gods love.

6:36pm Fri mar 27 Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ
I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ
Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ
I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ
Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to grow and share more joy peace and love. And I see more and more people and synergies, this is always such a surprise. I know I go along with the story. . . And I realize another change I can make for the classes I am doing. It's really been an incredible blessing as each day I'm seeing new opportunities to love and share more every where. So much of these kids dreams are coming through that mimics my own. And you should see my scribbles before the Apple text is typed on my iPad.

I need to make my schedule tight. . . Oh so I stopped in for another yoga class and it was the same lady as the 1st time. Spanish and petite of course !!!! And as I rushed out of the house to get there, I stopped to get my mayan chant brochure . . . When I walked in and she said hi Rafi I told her about my last class teaching and maybe we could do classes together. Wow, I actually said all that to her!!?! And we talked more after it and I opened up my old websites on her phone. Wow, each on popped up perfect the same as ever.
It really has been fun for us too. We love how surprised you always are when you see the  praise and glory shining through in your every experience. When you stopped on the run into church to catch the 7:30 stations of the Cross . . . Because you saw we could do the Sun Ritual and stopped before the completed Saint Mary Chapel. You listened and stopped then even stepped to be on your mom, then Fr. Kevin and Fr. Claudious. You knew the center on the sun was more important than the brick you stood on. Then you found your center and completed the standing forms for all your Mayan Chant. It was really wonderful for you to share that. And it's really easy. You are in it again and all is exactly as we planned from the very start. Yes Bike play Lead, do those things you are - that you love and enjoy! Please share that more as we need you to be more focused on what you really asked for. That Bike ride and swim time were actually almost central to making all things happen in your life, stay focused, clear and true to all you ARE!

Yes Everything is important. Next 50 year habit is a big deal and you said that very clearly to your boss, who called you back. Very clear and focused flow is what it’s all about, the more consistent and refined you get the more opportunities show up. It's the same story for Jesus about the ten talents. Well you get ten more each day you wake and listen. Stronger and clearer development understanding and God's Grace flows through. Exactly where you need to be. And you see this flow before you with this pen on a screen and accept the fullness before you in all things equally. Do it all as the 16 year old in high School. Young strong athletic was what you asked for, since you never had been there before, so do it now!
 and I Guess you are done for now. And I really need to remember what I love most about this life. I mean after the Belize flights I decided no more flights, planes are not secure and I don't need the trouble. But then doing LENT with Brent! Wow, what a wonderful blessing and so I told him how grateful I was to share. 

I then saw flights for spring break and decided I should go north!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. It's always been so cool to share with you. I really am so grateful to have this experience and opportunity with you. Please fill me with your strength and wisdom to move forward in your full grace, ready and able to bring and do all that we planned here. And I can accept and begin to make each day a church day. The Wednesday, Saturday things are my best experience.

Wow, thank You I'm so glad to see more, as I grow with You to be whatever it means that You want me to BE!

6:07pm Sat Mar 28 and I barely slept last night. I ended my fast yesterday. I figured it was like 9pm Sunday to maybe noon on Friday. I felt good after having a few nights of struggle. I went to StpeteFerments.com and got some kombucha and sauerkraut, which is recommended for ending a fast. So I ate yesterday and then again today. I bought a sausage sandwich at the Saturday Morning Market today. I raced to mass and missed my sunrise and then raced to another yoga class. I actually stayed for two yoga classes, big mistake to take two in a row that were really too much for me.

I was feeling like I needed to do more exercises since I've not been lifting weights. So yoga is another place to exercise. Course then I asked them about doing my own classes there too. Yes I've written about this already somewhere. And then after Mass, yoga, market, biking I got home and wanted to sleep. Resting and then finally looked at my iPhone and noticed the movie about Elton John: Rocketman was free online for me.

Oh, watch a movie and make a serious lunch. What a great idea. So I went down and started the movie and soon was in Tears. Yes, I saw the first sequence in the story as my own. He was in a AAA meeting sharing how all his addictions started with a childhood trauma. It was the exact same experience we all really have, where we remember some experience of being yelled at by dad. The songs, and moments, each experience was so clear and real for me. It carried all the way to the end where he sang the song “I’m still standing!”


Sunday, March 08, 2026

higher place for you to walk

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What did you do.
I shared Your Word! Wow, I did exactly what I wanted. So much is happening so quickly. I know I'm setting into a new world again. I guess it's kinda fun as I've done it over and over again, literally waking up to a new world daily. . . wondering who I can Love, Who I can Change, what new visions or experiences I would be challenged.
What Lexio Divina 1st 
In the Word! The Desert Fathers, the first Christian monks who fled the cities and found refuge in the desert, living a life of prayer and asceticism, in search of true freedom in Christ. Throughout these forty days of Lent, we will imitate their example.
What bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh, , , created as one genesis 3 separated from god.. . Wow, covering the part that connected these people. Why fig leaves? WHY THIS judgement wow nurturing the heart of your spouse . . . Ephesians 5: love your own flesh, reinforce connections, know agreement, witness the experience instead of trying so hard. Show real connection! Dr. Ken Wilkus: nurture heart 1-800-232-6459, 1800afamily. . . lol. . . Free marriage assessment and downloads.
TRYing to fit into the World!  I’m always trying to interpret and “play my part,” whatever that is. EVERY DAY, I try to connect and make myself useful or valid somehow for this glory I share in Christ. Like whatever I’m already doing isn’t enough or needs something more. And it’s always about control, my business, my patent, my designs, no solutions . . . No action, but me, me, me. . . And then I wonder about how I do whatever shows up. Build the tool-library, reset gardens, plant seeds, harvest, remove, rebuild. . . Changes shifting growing, always wondering what could be next, always ready to step forward. 1 Samuel 18: 
What are you feeling now?
I really feel so blessed to share with Your Word! Talk with You, share and know what we have here, and do these tasks You place before me. No judgements, no questions, more tasks, more Being. I always have to just accept how things are and how things happen, trusting Jesus. It’s kinda weird how things change. Like being back in the same place again, biking, writing, reading, doing this work that I need to do. This morning I thought to present the container garden patent ideas to someone else. Something that God brings to me. Each day doing this very present truth before me, and suddenly I found the blog page describing things in detail.
What happened is different stages moving through you. Trying to create new opportunities for others to reach Christ. You rarely have any idea how much you affect people. The power and clarity you share and express even in these words now before you as you take greater care in each new scribble as you recognize the AI used here and the limitations herein. But still you step beyond these in ease and clarity. Yes, you get annoyed with the perceived limitations, but are still surprised and impressed when words show up from obvious sloppy scribbles knowing Christ is with you.
I am always wondering and perplexed by what I do and share each day. I've got to post grades today and get everyone focused and ready for their next assignment.
What happened on Friday with these links and blog posted now?
I was doing my morning podcast and listening to Your Word and I knew it was the same story I've been repeating over again, about stepping into these gifts from God and our responsibility. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just lost, where I’m always trying to do the same things, and maybe it's not about the timing, but just not necessary and I'm delusional. And its always about what I've seen and known from my death. Of course, Christ is returning and half our world will be wiped away. And I shared that in the ladies group on Thursday, where I knew we might be the only city to survive and be the only place left with clean healthy foods. So I had this dream about all the surviving children on Earth will be placed in boats and barrels to float up into Tampa Bay and reach our beaches here . . . so all these emptied vacation homes are filled with refugee kids.
What happened next?
I know, so I told these ladies how I was doing my morning bike ride along the bay and saw a barrel floating off-shore and thought it was one of the first kids arriving. I knew it was the end, and knew how important it was to get real food together. Then read/heard the Exodus 90 podcasts about stepping into what God has sent us here for. I thought it was about time that I spoke about renewing STARS to begin building more and more Urban Agriculture and all the other stuff I've dreamed about.

So then I found this blog linked above?  Wow, I wrote it all out for Nicky, saying how we could get started now. And as I read through this blog, I discovered it was written just as I started all the AirBnB stuff, and the forbearance and all the craziness with my house. Wow, it's been years of craziness and it's still crazy and out of hand. 
do you really think so?
I really don’t know. I guess my biggest thing has really been about getting to know YOU more. I mean, I can understand and accept this is about my Guardian Angels,  and in know the Trinity and everything is about taking this knowledge and experience to a higher level. I mean, it’s always been sorta obvious I have been gifted and have lot to do. I wonder some times if I’m doing enough, and usually find out I’m doing too much. It’s really kinda weird sometimes as I try to figure it out.

Yes, I know that’s where I get into trouble. I’m gifted so much because I accept and step into things so easily, without thinking or figuring anything. I know, jumping up at dawn, biking across town or “whatever seems necessary,” usually comes through to me randomly.  I mean, I know I step into things as You say. Stopping places and doing whatever I need to do. And it always seems I’m in the right place at the right time, even when I don’t do whatever I think I need to do.  It’s just crazy! I mean, to go back to my accident. I remember not wanting to return just to save the last hundred people. . . . But then agreeing to return if we really can save millions or more.

But in either case, entrepreneurs and food or urban agriculture seem central to this. And so everything in my life has been coming into this same space over and over again. Now even many of my students are focused here. It's really kinda weird. I know it's about staying faithful and trusting everything that I stop into. I'm tying, it's not easy, but I’m still moving forward!
then Friday?
I know, I saw how only two were attending the Friday morning prayer meeting after mass. And Bob had heard about STARS already and offered to join the Board before. Wow, I felt it instantly, to ask Bob and Scott onto my board and have them hire Ben to complete the mission. Wow, I’ve been asking Larry, Leslie and everyone I meet, to join my non-profit to start building more food systems for children. Sure Jesus only send me angels, but no one can understand or keep-up with me. Now to actually ask someone who might really make this happen.  Wow, I never thought of this before!

So I guess what was more remarkable than anything was seeing this blog written out for Nicky to do everything with me. And I sent it all to Ben as the morning podcasts linked to Exodus 90 and everything else in my life. And then an hour later I sent screenshots of the posts to Ben over to Scott. I mean, I literally recorded the ending of Stanley’s message:
When God calls you and challenges you to take the risk to believe him for something, Move out of that job that he's called you out of. 
Move out of that relationship he's called you out of. He's got something better for you. He's got a higher place for you to walk, a different perspective, a different relationship in your life. and you're not willing to for fear of failure, fear of criticism, filled with the fear “if I give up this, then there's nothing out there.” 
Listen, there's no such thing as God calling you to nothing. Listen to that. There's no such thing as God calling you to nothing. 
I love how this technology works making it easier and easier for me. I opened the recording on my iPhone, clicked the transcription button and pop there is all the text. So I pull out the piece that jumped out at me. 
It all happens exactly as it needs to be, trust and be at ease. 
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Friday, February 06, 2026

The Walk of Light

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What is it that we call you to this morning?
I love this experience that I live, up in the morning for the PrayerLine, Podcasts, prayers, exercise, sunshine, mass and work with You ever step. I know all these things reflect my purpose and mission in life. I have this Morning Prayer below going now as I accept this wonderful experience Jesus has created for me. Like yesterday I knew I had certain works to do. 

After class Thursday night, I stopped to get gas at Sam's and noticed my front tire really low. So in the cold morning I realized I needed to drive into Mass and get my truck checked and change the oil again. Yes, no oil change for a year or so. Last Sunday, I had a text message reminder from Bob Lee's, and I knew it was a blessing for me to step into. I drove in to catch the sunrise. It was so strong and clear. A child was there with his mom, and he could feel and see I was in Christ. He came over a few times to watch and I stayed very focused on my task never greeting him….

Then in Mass as Saint Raphaels this sunshine was hitting my face again, and again I shared the power and blessing with everyone I could. It always feels like a great blessing for everyone in the building. Of course, Anna called that very moment so I snapped these pictures.

Yes, I always sit in the back corner right next to the door, usually parking my bike right outside. Friday, I drove in and made coffee for the men's prayer group and got to mass as it started. Then in our prayer meeting Scott was speaking about his morning SEEL lessons about being deep in the light. And these ideas about light came in to him from our prayer readings as well. So I explained how God loves to align everything together to make it crystal clear about our own place and responsibility whenever he calls us to do more. Clearly, Scott was being called!

Sometimes I wonder about this men’s group, since I have never been able to talk much and never seem to be respected whenever I do. I'm not sure if this is a dad trauma thing again or not. Again I realize I am growing and learning all the time. Like today on the prayerline, I had another caller who recognized he was really given what he asked for.  It was interesting as he had a concept of God and had survived years of trauma to make it here. And now suddenly had the new responsibility of stepping into his Dreams. Of course, I was able to explain details about this specific experience as I found myself dealing with it too.

Yes, like this message I found here too, where someone who called has spoken to me before. So clearly I'm in the right place at the right time. It’s really remarkable how all these things come together and make perfect sense.  Like now, I just spoke to my son again and explained how blessed I feel teaching what I teach again. . . 

Course, I told him about how remarkable it is to be back in the same place again. Like I started out of high school here in this same work, and so now I feel like a little kid in high school again. Course biking everywhere is like high school too, and doing all the morning exercises that I never did in high school. 
What about doing this again now. You’ve not missed the exercises this new year yet. You missed Mass a few times now, but to make it consistent you might want to do them now. And yes you also know it’s better for you to do things three times a week. Like St Pauls three times, St Raphaels three times. Prayerline three times, fasting three times a week. So it seem right to do the exercises three times as well.
I thought you wanted me to get up and do them now.
What you need to do now if finish the models.You got deeper into things and understand more. So send these results and rerun things to bring clarity and which helps with everything. Like your classes, you are doing more, shifting new things for everyone. You are pushing more deeply every day. And you know this, you recognize how much each post you create impacts everyone in your class, trust and move forward.w
THE NEW EVANGELIZATION, BUILDING THE CIVILIZATION OF LOVE
Address to Catechists and Religion Teachers
Jubilee of Catechists
December 12, 2000 (Feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe)! 
Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Here is the rewrite of the Morning Prayer where every mention of difficulty or negativity is reversed into a positive affirmation of strength and presence:

Morning Prayer: The Walk of Light

Good morning, Lord! Thank You for the gift of this new day and for the clarity to see Your path ahead for me, I joyfully reach for Your hand, knowing that every moment is an opportunity to walk in Your company. I release all heavy weights and embrace the lightness of Your guidance, trusting the same God who painted the sunrise to direct my steps.

Father, I step into this morning with Your divine strength. I Enjoy the days many surprises, I am confident because You are with me; I am strong, courageous, and filled with peace. I move through my morning with patience, no hurry, fully savoring Your love even in the simplest moments.

In every conversation, I speak life. Sharing Your deep breath of grace and let my words bring encouragement to everyone I meet. When tasks feel significant, I am renewed with energy, doing everything as an offering to You.

I master my emotions today.  I turn toward Your light. I move worship each moment and find the truth of Your promises. My mind is a place of peace, filled with thoughts that are good, pure, and lovely.

In my decisions, I choose wisdom and ease in Your love without hesitation. I am grateful for Your provision, knowing that my soul is satisfied by Your presence. When I look at the world or use technology, I see my own unique opportunities and trust that You are in complete control.

I meet every challenge with grace and stay calm, knowing You work brings all things onto good. I embrace rest as a source of strength, finding true renewal in You. I choose to forgive, to apologize with courage, and to see everyone through Your eyes of compassion.

Lord, Your grace is more than sufficient. I am enough because You are in me. I choose gratitude and persistence. My day is an offering of worship, seeing Your beauty and blessings in every detail.

I trust Your perfect timing, even when plans change, knowing Your thoughts for me are to prosper me and give me a hope-filled future. I have a teachable heart, growing through every experience into the person You created me to be. My body is renewed; I run and do not grow weary.

I am never alone, for Your unconditional love surrounds me and defines who I am. I surrender my dreams to You, watching them flourish in Your perfect way. From my first breath to my last today, I live overwhelmed by the love You have already given me.

I lie down in peace, sleeping well under Your watchful eye. I love You, Lord, and I walk forward as a reflection of Your kindness.

Amen.

Tuesday, February 03, 2026

accept it and understand place and responsibility

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

We have really been impressed. You are taking more and more time to be very careful and listen. Like even now you are being slow and determined in each scribble you make knowing where your iPad has learned to fix what you write. Again your experience and efforts to make these words clear and precise are paying off. You are also being more careful and slow to write in your paper journal books as well. These books will more easily be scanned to add to your blogs. . . .
I am so very grateful to have this opportunity and experience to share with you. I know all things are coming to a close as more and more people come into your spirit and accept this life with you. I have really come to see and understand so much more each day. It's really remarkable for me, but I know it's all coming together exactly as it must.
this is a wonderful prayer . . . you’re leading every step Lord, cover my conversations with your shadow, when I talk to my family over breakfast, when I chat with the cashier at the store, when I have that important meeting this afternoon, let your presence season every word!  Help me speak life into peoples hearts the way spring rain speaks life into sleeping seeds! Hide me in the shadow of your wings today, not because I want to disappear, because I want to stay close enough to feel your heartbeat! Lord I’m tucking my family under your shadow, as you do know each of them by name, you know their dreams, and their secret worries, you know what makes them laugh until they can’t breathe. God place your shadow over my home.
I love your Word! This prayer Anna shared is really wonderful. 6:41am 2/1/2026, but it’s too cold to bike and I whine about it! Time to exercise again, got dressed and raced out.
What A wonderful way to start your morning. You listened to this prayer three times, did your Exodus 90, did your Charles Stanley, and on the ground for the 20x. And then Anna calls you as you’re putting on your wool socks thinking that you were gonna bike anyway. Wow, you still almost got frostbitten. And now, like we told you, you’re gonna go to mass again anyway… we told you to skip it, but you wanted to go anyway!
I know Your Word! But I still fumble around not sure, never sure, always wanting to do more for you! It’s really just incredible sometimes. I know I have to follow through with every detail. It’s like as soon as I got home I knew I had to run the models for Mike again. I just finished and sent them as Alex called to confirm mass this morning. Thank you so much dear Jesus, I feel so blessed all the time to step into this more and more with you. 

Like Anna called just as I was putting on my socks, getting ready to go. And then she called again just as mass was ending, which was just perfect timing again. Of course, I shared with her everything I can because we’re both doing the same thing, getting closer and closer to the end of a rainbow carrying our cross…. Knowing we are with Jesus, safe and sound ready for everything that comes up to us.
Again this experience is more about you stepping into the position where you belong. It’s not always crystal clear for you and it never will be. However, this passion and truth that you are and that you share will become stronger and more focused every day as you step forward.
This will always be a challenge for me, as I try to accept and understand the steps before me. I know it all comes together in peace and ease, through the Love of Christ. And I try not to get distracted or confused with the challenges before me, where I stay open for the guidance, but then also focused on key tasks before me. I also struggle with all the details and steps involved with these tasks. I accept it and understand my place and responsibility. Each day I learn more and step into more and more of Your Tasks before me. I accept these challenges and understand my place more and more each day. So now again I realize I have so much more work to do. I am so very grateful and blessed to have more time with you. And I know my writing and work here with you has some limits.
Watch for more opportunities to share your love and light with more people around you in all these events. 
I love your Word! The 10 plagues to Egypt, each plague over the 10 Egyptian gods, ray sun god, darkness of the sun, Lord God showing power over all of Egypt . . . .  And also to get the lies of Egypt out of the Jewish hearts. Releasing the people from the lies of Egypt. To serve and worship god requires Moses to take all they are, cattle and possessions to serve. How can we serve you. The blood of the eternal covenant, to God.

It’s more in this every day. Reading Leviticus were the priests of Israel who destroyed the golden calf with Moses.  And it really teaches us how we all get lost in false gods and worshipping something dead and useless instead of trusting and loving in Christ to Worship and honor what is right and true for all of us. 

Wow, jim buzzed me again inviting me out to Mass and lunch at Saint Anthony’s Hospital where he works. And so after Mass, he tells me they had some pharmaceutical rep bring in lunch for them . . . And they brought in “two lunches” by mistake so there was a ton of food there. Course let’s walk back and save some cash, always sounds like a good idea to me
What we have seen is so much coming together so strong and clear. Each day that you accept the tasks before you and step into these actions and duties you are given, then more of the world comes in tune. Again you are sure affecting a lot more than what’s at hand. These simple steps before you seem almost meaningless, but each has long ranging implications and impacts.
Anna’s friend Marilou is teaching me about the Latin Mass and the Affinity of St. Peter, and the Institute of Christ the King. I’ve been exploring, studying, reading the Bible, doing Exodus 90 the morning podcasts, Society of St Joseph… yes each day I’ve been getting deeper and stronger into more of God’s Word, Insight, Truth and Understanding. Each Day I’m challenged and each day I step forward and do more and more. Lol, yes Fr Mike Schmitz Day 34 I just completed now 8:04:44am 2/3/2026 reading Exodus 12, Leviticus 9, and Psalm 114. And I’ve realized this Ascension Bible in a Year reading with Fr. Mike is really expanding the Mass Readings where we read a bit of the Old Testament, a Psalm, and then a bit of the New Testament.

What a joy this is to share and teach you more each day. Your work to stay focused and clear with us really opens so much more for you. Even this morning meeting the Society of St. Joseph men who visit your Exodus Brothers at Saint Raphael’s. Encouraging and supporting their growth and experience is a great blessing for all. Know you are doing what is best, be at Peace!
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.