Kabbalah

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What do you need now?

I guess I would like to resolve some more of this going on inside of me. . . It's like today we were talking about life events and how we do things and wish we had done something else. You know hind-sight is 20/20. Course we always wonder "what if" about events and things that we do, then we can just never let them go . . .

What did you read about today?

I read more about YOU! I got the Zohar that's all about the Kabbalah again. I found his big translation with all the commentary and such too. And I just read it and whenever I stopped to read the commentary, it was like it never really added anything. Oh, it did remind me about something once. . . lol. . . but for the most part I felt I knew it already. . .

Why wouldn't you? You all know it already. You just don't always remember it.

I then really knew I was ready to start writing articles. I guess I write alot already but, I know I need to get into a lot more detail. I realize that I write from my own perspective, just for myself. I really never think about anyone reading this that I write. I know it's almost impossible for people to read this. It's that we are all GOD. You here with us now. . . . lol. . .so you don't need to read this. . . you already have it inside . . .

You will either understand this completely, or you simply will never find it. I always knew that. I guess that's why I felt like everyone knew what I was typing in the library. I remember when I first saw a blog. I was in a word file writing my journal in the library and saw how everyone could read it, like it was on a big screen shining above my head. . . . so then Claire told me about blogs. . . and I started this.

It's like the letters in this keyboard type into Your Soul. There is only One Soul here. Gaia Principle... so writing to my soul here is writing to yours as well anyway. One soul anyway, we just don't know each other... lol...

What do you feel the police report is all about?

I thought it was about getting their karma away from me. Better the kids deal with courts and insurance now, next time someone might get killed first. Then we were talking about life events . . . hind-sight is 20/20. . . . and it was like doing what I had to do so I wouldn't worry about it any longer. . . . While others said how just accepting it as a learning experience and finding what we could learn; before just moving on. Or maybe accepting its just done and not a big deal anymore; while I was making the learning experience for someone else.

Course I needed an attorney to finally relax. Perfect example. I just felt such a relief having a bike accident and getting someone else to deal with it. . . . lol. . . . Sharing the same feeling with them . . . Then I felt like such a whoosie, because I got a professional to get me over the BS, while everyone else worked it out for themselves.

But then we talked about racism and all the little clicks in high school. Yea ,the heads and jocks, and brains; blacks whites, boys girls. . . . lol. . . how we never fit into any groups, or had to "perform" when we were. And I realized how I fit into everyone of them at one time, or never any most of the time. Course I never wanted any of it, even when my own little click followed me around. I simply did whatever I wanted to do. lol... guess that's why sports never worked for me, I did what I wanted all the time; no matter who thought they were boss!

Like the cops with the bike accident. That's just the law. I can try to be nice and help people learn without the law. But they know better. They are right, no matter what the laws are. I mean even the guy from the insurance company harassed me. I'm the victim, the pedestrian chased off the road by some spoiled brat; and I am the one at fault?? What's that? Ok, fine let the attorneys explain it to you. . .

I scared the poor little kid. So it's ok if he swings two tons of steal at me at 25 mph.

Wow, big bat there kid. lol... but you missed, so now you have to deal with the consequences. You need to face up to what you did. SHIT, and at least apologize!!!

Dumb fuck. . . . lol. . .

Then I realize that like no one else could deal with all this shit I see. Like the stupid clicks in school . . . I remember senior year, going around and checking to see if we all partied at one time or another. Everyone in the book had partied with one of us at some time. The odd balls.... lol.... my click had gone around with everyone... and I still feel exactly the same today, still doing the same.... odd ball all alone with this LIFE. Not worried about it at all. Oh it only gets easier for me. . . . lol. . .

Like knowing some one else could write this and publish it so people could learn what they need. lol... and You finally found a way for me to do it myself, creating blogs. Just like this change we all need.

What are you visioning NOW?

I don't know. . . oh, it was working on the PhD. Paid student to run around everywhere putting things together... Like 5 days a week. . . . . Each day working with a different team, different students, doing different aspects. And I was just like a sponge. And each week I'd connect more and more, tweaked each one over a bit so by the next month we were all working on different aspects of the same project.

What's so important about that?

It's one mission "Day By Day" by Point of Grace 12.58am
One Planet, One life. . . . we are all in this together..... oh and I simply understand how we all can make it work in such a way that no one else in all existence could ever argue.

What was that. . .

I flashed again.

What's that like?

I guess, um... I see like this little flash. Looking into a camera and click. And so I can remember this picture when I think about it, as you ask and it starts to grow in my mind. I can think about your question and see the flash open up into an entire landscape, events, people, places. . . . . Like the flash with the PhD I could see schools and people. Teams. All doing aspects. . . .

Wow, as I thought of it again, I felt us talking about high school and I had the same team of souls there working with me again. My buds from high school next to me, laughing as we went along,

"here we go again. . . think we'll get it right this time."

WOW, and the book today spoke of soulmates, the male and female aspects. While each one has a skill, an expression, a purpose. Now I feel that we split to create powers needed to be expressed on Earth. You take on one aspect to allow the power I need to do another aspect. Like the red racer kid accepting this karma so I could write an article of meaning and substance saving other biker lives in the future...

What was that?

I flashed again. Saw Dean Akers again the other night, and again now. Felt how he could get these people together to make this happen. Always thinking someone else has to do it. But I guess that's what teams are about. Each team needs a leader.

What was the flash though?

I was in class Monday and I told them how no one else in all creation understands what we are capable of doing this moment. Here's the Provosts assistant we're on the Building committee of the Patel Center. And this lady works at gardinier that feeds all the people of the earth. And this guy here wrote one of the 7 most researched and utilized leadership theories of our culture.

Change? What is Change? Change is seeing opportunities. Edison saw the light bulb. he knew he could make it work. Learned a 100 ways it wouldn't work, but knew in his heart the truth, and then found the one that did work. Eistien did the same thing.

Change it Invention. Change is Innovation...
Innovative inventions are needed now.

NECESSITY is the mother of Invention!

What do we need now?

I need to get to bed.... I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you for filling my Spirit with Your Love. Amen! 1.44 6/30/2006

What's next?

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What do you feel now?

Still kinda confused . . . . I am trying to get this clear and together . . . . .
I. Doctor of Philosophy

THESIS: Unity Paradigm
Evolution, seeks to unify matter and energy into more concentrated complex forms. More unified complex forms of existing matter and energy will be more ideal => survival of the fittest

Proof tested:The Transparent Unification of all society Infrastructure Systems into a Single System will eliminate the problems of that society.

1. improve and sustain the quality of human life worldwide
2. promote sustainable economic development to reduce poverty and improve the quality of the natural environment
3. independent applied research => application of new knowledge

• training future leaders

  expanding awareness

  building prototype

What's the problem then

I guess this stupid bike incident got me distracted.

What did you think would happen as you got closer to the solutions?

I know. So that's not a big surprise. What's Funny I guess was that I let John see this and he gave me the same reply he gave me last time. I need to get very clear and specific in a single discipline, define the limits of it, and then propose a new extension from there. It's really kinda interesting in that everything that I need and do is over the limits of the current systems. Like I'm already at the extreme limits of the all current sciences. I just need to get clear on these details a bit. He was saying that I really can't state that without making and publishing the case more succinctly.

What are you waiting for then?

I guess I do have all the data I need already. John was saying I need to do more independent study research and evaluations. Instead of just taking classes. He feels like I could be formulating my own research already.

What have you been doing since you started college again?

I know I have been already. Thank you so very much for Your Peace Love and Wisdom, Help me to Fulfill your Fantasies... I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

Kabbalah = Tantra = Degree ? ? ? ?

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What's up?

I am sorta wired...

What have you been doing?

I've been reading a lot about You I guess?

What's that?

It's Kabbalah and sustainability and globalization and cultural evolution . . . all kinds of stuff coming all together really interesting. . . reading dozens of things.

What did you share with Lynn?

I chatted a bit with her, see:

[Sat, June 24,2006 11:59:PM] N: it's like all over again the same things...
[Sun, June 25,2006 12:00:AM] N: and i need to do it all over again... like the world is ready finally... lol.. or i am... lol..
[Sun, June 25,2006 12:00:AM] Lynn: glad you are ready
[Sun, June 25,2006 12:00:AM] Lynn: for what ?
[Sun, June 25,2006 12:01:AM] N: www.stars.org/homestead/files/DEGREE.htm but now i need to do it all for real...

Who stopped in?

I Had a visit from Keith. He read over my bike things and gave me a few other perspectives. Wow, I need to be more careful with what I say to people. . . and even more careful about what I write. But then I see this "degree" thing I wrote a hundred years ago.... and never edited. Wow, if i want to start using that i really need to make it right...

What now...

I wrote the teachers who want to help me.... lol... of course, You always make me all excited and spontaneous. I wanted to copy it to everyone. But I guess it needs to be edited and fixed a bit first. It's so good to get all this energy out. . . . lol. . . You are always stewing up so much juice inside of me to express.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you.... Please lead and Guide me to Your Fulfillment.

bike accident

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What happened yesterday

Yesterday I did my typical ride to school. No big deal, same nice "good mornings" in the park and quiet ride through the neighborhood. Even then out onto 40th at Busch, so nice with no cars around.

I usually try to leave by 8am, or 9am at the latest because Busch Gardens opens at 9am, so there will be a bunch of traffic there. I was running late, but cut across Busch, with no on there, wow. Then the line at the turn onto 40th was short too. So I passed them all up and the light changed just as I went through the intersection.

Then all the drivers to race past me. Something about these poor Florida folks they all have cars bigger than my bike, so they need to show me how fast they can pass me. Like that makes them bigger and better somehow? I always get nervous at the Busch Gardens entrance because the bike lane goes straight, while the entrance lines up to my right and turns in. So for a moment I will have cars on both sides. That always freaks me out. People get so slow coming up on my right, or they try to rush in front of me from the left... crazy, all of them...

Really Stupid people sometimes, so what I'm in the road too, just accept it and WAIT YOUR TURN, 3 seconds more for a bike wont kill you. And so I always can feel everyone watching me. Like they never saw a bike before, and a bike passing cars is just out of hand. So I went on down 40th and got to Fowler. So here we go again, across Fowler and into the turn lane for USF. Passed them all up and got to the intersection as the light changed again. It was funny.

I love when that happens, I don't have to stop or slow down. Then I can just race down Leroy Collins Blvd into campus. The enterance has a slight hill down into campus. Florida only gets slight little hills, but when you get one it's great. Course as the light changed everyone starts to race past me again . . . only to stop at the next light at Alumni Drive, where I passed them all again anyway. Always makes me wonder how these people could live where passing the lone biker is so important.

As the light changed again they all started to race past me again. I was moving too. I love racing down into campus and always wonder how fast I go, since the cars don't always catch up to me, depending on the timing of the light and how much I slow down or don't.

So just as I see this car coming up on my left, I'm racing in the bike lane of course, and see the red blur come up next to me, just speeding up to pass me to.... AND HE TURNS...

What? Yes, he turns right into me. Barely even passed me yet, but the enterance for the first parking lot is there, and you know he's got a car so he owns the road. SMASH. He clips me off and I hit his rear end. Shit at least pass me before you try to cut in front of me! I caught his antenna and stayed up. He pulled in and parked where I could see him. And the car behind him stopped to see if I was ok . . .

So I got there names and phone numbers, wrote down the tag number too. I mean I was just researching how cars are assault to a bike . . . SHIT! So then I went over to the red racer. Got his tag number and the kid looked like he didn't care, busy talking on his cell phone, didn't even open the door. He opened his window as I came up to him. I told him to shut off the car "you wont die without air conditioning for a few minutes..."

Then I asked for his insurance card and drivers lisence, he's fumbling around with the phone still. Christopher Scott Calikins . . . "Wow my son is Christopher, and funny my only brother-in-law is named Scott, small world." So I started writing things down. He didn't seem to care or hear me... Then I noticed the Oracle in the back of his car.

Oh so I've been working on this Article and researching the biker laws in Florida. "You know I'm a pedestrian and hitting me with a car is assault with a deadly weapon. If the cops showed up now they would arrest you... maybe in a week you could get a hearing... " He glanced up at me a few times from the phone.... no apology, no concern over me or the bike... Oh except he asked for his antenna back. lol... "oh sure kid, this is exhibit number one, it broke, wont do you any good now"

And I turned and road off. Oh, then I stopped and turned back. Gave him a card and said call me, or better yet call University Cycle on Fletcher and ask them about fixing a Specialized Crossroads....

The kid barely even looked at me... dam stupid drivers can't respect anyone else on the road.

He never called. Ellen in the office gave me ice for my hand. My thumb is still kinda numb now??? Sharon told me to call them and then the insurance company if they weren't cooperative.

So when I got home I called. His mom answered and got his dad got on the phone. So Scott tells me that I freaked out his poor little son. Telling him that it was assault and the police would arrest him. He told me his son was really naive. Helpless poor kid, where daddy was going to protect him again. Oh jesse, gvie mea break... he'll never grow up.

Then the guy tells me that the marks on the car were in the back corner, so I ran into a turning car. Like I had to stop for the car already in the intersection. WHAT?

Oh I got pissed! WHAT A FUCKEN IDIOT! Yes it is assault. Racing a bike is one thing, but cutting him off is ROAD RAGE! If little Christopher had cut off a car the same way, we would all be in the hospital now.... Course I hung up on him then. I wasn't in the mode for such crap. He called me back and said why don't we try to be adults about this. So I said fine, fix my bike, or let me get it repaired... Or better yet the last tune up was maybe $150 so tell your son to visit me next week with a apology. Like a little card with a check in it to get it fixed.

What $150 to fix a bent handle bar... ??? He's only got this little mark by the window. Oh he's got no clue I ride a real bike not a $50 Wal-Mart special. Yes so just go buy me a new bike and we can forget the whole thing. "What a new bike?" Oh forget it mister I'll just talk to the insurance company. And he said fine, and hung up. So I called them and reported it. And now I want to get a police report and file assault charges.

It's one thing for the kid to not even apologise, call or anything. He didn't even care I had to ride home that night anyway. But then to rationalize about the accident and try to blame me for it. What's wrong with these people? A bike is a pedestrian. And even in the street we have rights too, you can't just smash them off the road because it's time to turn. I guess my little article will teach people a little bit. But an assault charge and criminal procedings might get the truth out there.

Yucko, I hate havingto deal with such idiots? what's wrong with these people? Oh I figured it was the Chevy or Ford Commercials about how big and fast their cars are... where you can rule the roads. . . Dumb kids all programmed like robots... reminds me: www.themeatrix.com

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lead and guide me to fulfill the Glory of Father Son and Holy Ghosts. Amen

PhD. Degree

Wow I'm starting at the same place all over again. Nothing has changed, same plan, same goal, same dream: PhD. Degree:
I. Doctor of Philosophy in Engineering Science Degree
THESIS: Unity Paradigm
Life, through evolution, seeks to unify matter and energy into more concentrated complex forms to create more of these energies.

Proof tested:
The Transparent Unification of all society Infrastructure Systems into a Single System will eliminate the problems of that society.

This theory will be tested through the development of a publicly interactive computer database (GIS- Geographic Information Systems) system representing the ecological, economic, and environment of a society. All available informational resources will be combined and reviewed by all participants, documenting all the sources, changes, additions, and deletions made by participants as additional information sources are included. 'Participants' should ideally all be members of the 'society' being tested.

The candidate to represent the resulting data of this unification to define the truth of the Unification Theory and will generate new 'combinations' through the GIS digital models.

Graduate School???

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The Dr.Patel Center for Global Solutions will undertake and support research and education that improve and sustain the quality of human life worldwide.

The mission of the Center is to develop a body of knowledge that is used to promote sustainable economic development and reduce poverty, improve the quality of the natural environment, human health and security, and foster an understanding of the diversity of cultures and the arts. This mission is accomplished through:

• nonpartisan, independent applied research that leads to the discovery, dissemination, and application of new knowledge about the sources of and solutions to problems of global concern;
• the development of educational programs at all levels for the purpose of training future leaders of institutions with a global presence;
• expanding awareness of global concerns by hosting conferences, forums, workshops, symposia, and speakers; and
• engaging policy makers and other partners and translating research into policy.

What are you trying now?

I guess I've been reading Rebecca's Sustainability book. And realize there is more and more there for me to explore. I mean Sustainability means "meeting the needs of the present generation without compromising the ability of future generations to meet their needs."

What about STARS?

I guess the concept of "projects for credit" is that this is more than just a sustainable activity. Students and teachers are customarily considered a drain on society, an expense; worthwhile, but still a cost or a finge benefit to explore after the basics of housing, food and water. However, with STARS where Students Take an Active Role in Society => the student becomes a community service or a producer that adds to the community. Not slave labor for some profit business, but active community participants working with existing government staff to facilitate better operations, increase community involvement and public education.

This itself creates more sustainability since the best students are usually the teachers and leaders. So instead of the typical education that forces kids into a consumption box for big business, with no insight or substance. Students learn to create and lead, by becoming community sustainers from the start. And when operating in truth for public benefit, they lead others students to produce and develop better services and community resources.

So not only does the STARS system create a sustainable school, but it develops people and society in service and concern for each other. The community can become more independent and self-sufficient with the new cooperation and dedication of the students working with their local schools and teachers to improve their own community. Students operating with teacher and business support can help to streamline governmental services. Useless bureaucrats can be replaced with productive citizens dedicated to service not just exploitation.

What are you doing?

I started this a few nights ago because I needed to get clear on my research conceptions before my meeting Monday. Then it was rescheduled to Wednesday. I was worried about having lunch with Barbara Wednesday, but she has called and cancelled that. So I only need to get ready for Med school meeting now.

Of course last night Beverly in John's class started talking with me about her PhD plans, wanting to do sustainability too. We've talked a hundred times at least, but I never knew she was doing this too. She gave me a lot to think about saying some things that John had said to me before. And I realized she was right about making it an accredited degree . . . or making it something from the business college that will make it more recognized by my peers and simplify whatever I do next.

I never worry about what's next because if I could really get this started, I know it will never be done anyway. But I guess I need to be realistic about a degree with a specific goal and deadline.

What have you done since then?

I guess John was thrilled I was more focused on business, and told me anyone could get a sustainable PhD now with him or Dr. Nord. Then I asked him about getting Dr. Nord on my PhD Committee and he said it would really depend on how I focused it. Of Course, Bev's Dad teaches at USF too, with a PhD in public administration. Which makes me wonder about it more . . . I've thought I should include something about running a Public service.

So after John and Bev peaked my interest, I started searching through the Graduate school for all the data about what degrees are there already and what I could do. So I found the Anthropology - Public Health dual major. So if I add in the MSM then I can explore leading these things . . .

What you need to do is lead change.

I know the applied research side of things, defining how things get put together and how to make them work.

What are you struggling with then?

I guess I'm just not sure how to do any of this. When I think about classwork that I need to do still I could add hundreds of classes. But then when I think about what I do or need to do I see or think something totally different.

What have you seen or felt about making this happen. You talk about the applied sustainability stuff at Patel what have you visioned there?

I guess I saw how they are building a new center near the Patel Charter School and how these schools could all be linked with the transit system.

What would be the point of that?

I know that sustainability is about making things work. People and students learning in gardens and running services. Building the whole system there would be possible with the schools and students. They start with a way to move and clear the water. Then link it to ponds and gardens so the buildings are all supporting the Florida ecology. And suddenly the schools are all growing their own organics and learning about sustainability by DOING IT!

Students starting with simple gardens and fish ponds where they learn about the natural cycles by keeping them running. Then as they get older the children could develop their own projects and applications to improve the systems. Everything dynamic and transparent instead of controlled by arrogance and greed.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Center of Ocean Technology, College of Marine Science, USF

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Whatis up now?

I went to this Expo in St Pete. I planned to spend the day out there and was ready to swim, and bike or whatever. So I started at this Expo. I thought I would pick up everything to go over with the team in class tomorrow so we can pick a topic to study. We are supposed to research a group promoting environmental sustainability.

But then I saw this booth from USF. Automatic DNA studies of water? WHAT, are you kidding. Nope really cool stuff, to get real time data live using a broadband wireless network to sample Tampa Bay live. Oh this was just too cool. So I started asking questions and the Dr in-charge was there talking to me too in no time . . .

Course I knew his name from the SMA classes with Dr. Fountain. He's got several patents and spin-out companies already that are doing really well. So I told him about the fish and the turtles in the lake on campus. He understood completly laughing about the accident to create life on campus. He wants to get communities monitoring lakes, so I told him about doing Allens Creek. Then he says he's been contacted by the Patel Center to help with this high tech building.

Figures. Then I gave him my card. Told him about clicking my name and finding all the DNA stuff I'm exploring. I warned him it was just totally out there . . . . he laughed about that too, course most of what he does is far out there too. It was really funny, we almost sounded like brothers, both pushing the limits of stuff and exploring stuff that was really important to clearing up the environment.

I warned him about the pollution in the bay. Too much money is getting spent to clean nothing. So if the truth gets out, it might not be too healthy for him. Course I gave him more specific details. I didn't tell him that I worked with one of the companies exploiting the corruption, but simply told him what the scam was and there was too much money moving there for him to mess with it.

What did you do next?

I went over the see the Dali Museum again. It's free for USF students, so I wouldn't miss it if I'm there anyway. Oh and I saw a few things that I want to look up. I know free art and creativity is as close to God as possible. You get more out to people through art than anything else don't You, lol.... So there was a Dali Painting honoring Crick and Watson's DNA work. Which I obviously need to explore more.

What's next?

I rode my bike around the USF campus down there and then stopped in the Library to look up David's work from the Expo. I found a bunch of links and publications and all to explore too...

What else?

I know you want me to write about lunch, but I don't know why. So I rode around downtown St Pete and stopped at the little french place - Frescos - that Valerie and I went to years ago. I was hot and hungry so I asked for a little table inside. I was the only one sitting inside. Everyone else was out on the patio. So the bar tender served me. She was a cute little girl too. I wanted to tell her that too. I could tell she wasn't very confident or comfortable with herself.

It was funny. I could feel her really easy. Every time she looked at my table. I knew when she would come over. I asked for some Merlo with ice. Then asked her what kinda munchies they had. She got me some yummy egg-rolls with some mango sauce on them. lol, I even ate up all the mango's and asked if she could give me more sauce.

It was really funny, because everyone sees me as some wealthy GQ dude, and I just laugh. Like when the shift changed and she could go home . . . lol. . . "to hug her dog" . . . . and all these other GQ waiters came in who wouldn't go near me, look or even acknowledge that I was there. . . it's so funny.

What did you want to say to her?

I wanted to tell her how she needed to lighten up on herself. She could accent her shape more and smile more and get a lot more attention really easily. She was obviously smart and had a lot of power and clarity. Like I was there just reading my book, minding my own business most of the time. And she came over to "snatch up" an empty glass. Like a whip, it felt like she was sneaking a kiss. . . . lol . . .

So then I asked for a capachino, she said, nope we only have coffee and expresso. Then she stopped and said, "Oh Capachino is just expresso with steamed milk, sure I can do that." It was really kinda funny. I knew she was lonely, long before she said anything about hugging her dog. She looked like she's been there working all night. Her shift ended at 4pm or so.

Oh but I wanted to tell her to have more faith in herself. Forget the baggy drunge look, she had a nice shape and should show it off. She could let her hair grow out and smile more, and she would really be stunning. lol... Course as I felt her power and thought this, I figured such a comment would get me a ride home... lol... and later when she said about hugging her dog, I knew that I was right.

Soon after she was done I left too. On my drive home I saw this truck stopped on the side of I-275. And a second later this lady with a gas can walking with this little girl. Oh God, out in the sun walking down the interestate, forget this. So I stopped and backed up to them. Her name was KIM with her sick 3 year old daughter. Course she's wanting to get in Nursing too, only at HCC now. lol... I told her she's the third "Kim" I met this month. . .

Yea, I know she's all nervous. So we got her gas can full and I brought her back and made sure her truck started before I left. You could see how happy and grateful she was sitting in her truck ready to go again. She thanked me a hundred times at least... lol... So I told her I had done some research in Nursing at USF too, and they have a really good program there. Gave her my card, and said she could find me if she needed any help with it...

Funny, Chuck called last night too. Said that this TOTAL synchronicity is with him all the time too. He spoke about the karma and how some people just have no clue, complaining about his idiot brother. So I reminded him that some people just don't know any better, and we can't really hold it against them. Like my family, all little lost puppies. What's the point of yelling at the lost puppy. You stupid dog, why are you lost? And he'll only look up at you and start wagging his tail because he found someone that cares. . . . Not lost at all, just not capable to understand that much... you are looking at him so his tail starts going and he's happy!

He also said his Dad was having heart surgery and all. I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ Please BE with Chuck and his Family, keep them safe and sure in Your care. Protect his father and fill his mom with Your strength and peace. Teach us forgiveness and let our families be whole again. Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

Letter burst again... lol...

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Its all: For Love Alone... By CeCe CMRadio.Net

I totally got in over my head again. Everything came onto me at once this morning as I rode my bike to school. I got totally pumped up. Almost stopped to see Bob from choir. I know I needed to. . . lol. . . Rode right past his place looking at more construction on campus. Wild ride today, first three pools were locked so I rode all around to find one open.

What did you see in the ponds.

I was surprised. They actually have the water moving so there are fish and turtles growing. Wow, wondered how long that would last? I'm sure it's the cosmetic water fountains instead of any thought about what Florida Wildlife needs. Then I saw the mass of ugly pirate ducks that all the stupid people feed on the other side. They'll end up filling the pond with duck shit and kill everything in the mass lunacy of the consumers. The people always got to have munchies, that's the program they don't know any better. But then these ducks get so fat and spoiled eating all the same consumer crap. . . . To kill everything. Then I thought about building the Safe Cycle in the Patel Center and use the Florida environment right to the max!

What happened when you got to your office.

I got an email from the accreditation agency guy I met last night. So I printed out the study and made a copy for the dept chair. Course he says this is what John wants to do. St Pete College MBA even got an award from them last year. All old news for them. Course I first felt how this guy researched all the ethics programs and what Sharon did last term was SO UNETHICAL he would likely just SLAM them!

Whatelse.. . ?

I know, as I looked at all this and read it all; I realized I had to jump onto all the other contacts from last night. I'd not gone out in "forever;" lol... so I had to take it really seriously. I couldn't even find the place, and ended up checking my email in the hotel to get the address again. lol... walked through 4 or 5 buildings around the block before I found it. Then of course, I could see my truck out the window when I found it... lol...

What did you do?

So I spilled the beans again . . .Wow feels like the third woman now this month? Kim recognized me last night as I was walking out. We exchanged cards and she told me to call her again.. I knew I had her card on top of the stack from the Rima meeting. SO I called her to ask for HELP? I'm crazy trying to figure out my PhD.... lol... Like I'm getting totally maxed out on all this CREATION stuff that I need some help with all these loose ends. More and more connections and no clue how to make it all work!

I just told her from the start. Rima came along and shifted it all up a gear and I was barely holding on already. So then I told Kim to open www.starsusa.org and I stepped her to the bottom right on the Med School page => ground Zero what's it all about. CHANT => Where Rima came in, even pointed out the date before we all met. . . . lol. . . . I always wonder how I could say so much of those details so quick. Like where does that come from.

What's important?

I guess, that she is already doing the cities sustainability program involved with Patel too and such . . . . naaa . . . she knows the sustainabilty and ALL . . . WOW!

WHAT WAS THAT?

I FLASHED . . . she's spent her whole life working on this too. And suddenly the woman was in charge again. Clear, strong, sincere, and set on making the Mother Earth safe and again Home for Her children, ALL CHILDREN!

Wow, everything worked. Kids are incharge again. No greed, no media maniacs, just transparency for children everywhere FIRST!

What do you think?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please FILL us with Your Grace, Love and Wisdom as WE GROW to fulfill all that there is here for us! Your Earth, Your Evolution, You Love and Spirit taking the Thrown again! Amen.

Culture development... Evolution

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What happened?

I'm not sure if I totally blew her away or not. I spoke almost non-stop while she was here, just to make sure I got everything out. She gave me a book to read and recommended I explore the basics of Anthropology and write her as I got more focused and she could help me clarify things better.

Why don't you try to get clear and focused now. What would be you ideal fantasy of this research

Anthropology, classification and analysis of humans and their society, descriptively, culturally, historically, and physically. Its unique contribution to studying the bonds of human social relations has been the distinctive concept of culture. It has also differed from other sciences concerned with human social behavior (especially sociology) in its emphasis on data from nonliterate peoples and archaeological exploration. Emerging as an independent science in the mid-19th cent., anthropology was associated from the beginning with various other emergent sciences, notably biology, geology, linguistics, psychology, and archaeology. Its development is also linked with the philosophical speculations of the Enlightenment about the origins of human society and the sources of myth. A unifying science, anthropology has not lost its connections with any of these branches, but has incorporated all or part of them and often employs their techniques.

I guess my focus has been understanding this conception of change, specifically creating change, leading change, exploring applied research into change. So much of what I see and read is about problems resulting for the TV-programmed mechanistic culture of greed and control. Which I also experienced and overcame as a child. Simple stupid stuff, that seems easy to change to me now. Except everything here is trapped in this program.

Course everyone wants to change the world. Everyone has had the same dream and the same vision of a world of peace and freedom to explore and create. And I know I'm in the right place and the right time to research this at a new level to create the conscious paradigm shift we need to change everything. It's like having been there and done that before, so I know I can do this change now.

I guess I just know I can change everything or anything.

The Mayan rituals and spiritual growth and experiences I've had, have allowed me to create and recreate significant psychic and spiritual experiences for people. Anybody. This I know and can recreate at any time. I guess anyone can, if they allow it, and accept that they can create this change. So I have some fundamental connection and understanding to something as old as our DNA itself which allows me to do this.

What's stopping you?

I'm really not sure. Like countless people have wanted to create change. And the more I read, the more I find little success stories and little things where people have gotten close or been successful in some aspects and applications. But then I see so many people trying to do the same things, there own way or something similar. It's always someone trying to control their own way of doing things. Everyone wants control. Of course my theory will work best, only if I can control it. Wow does that sound so much like a dead end.

Or I could say "My Theory works best because it comes from the Source". . . Wow does that sound really hokey. Like my source is any different from your source. Course we all have the same source, but some of us are capable of listening and following it, while many of us are not so capable. . . .

So does this Mayan Ritual gives me a better connection to Source? It lets me share the only Source very easily, at any time I want. Course just like I have some people connect to it so much they can't "disconnect" I'm sure there will be people that fight it or resist it. . . . lol . . . and end up hurting themselves. But that's really not my problem. I'm here to do what I know and share what I have.

What do you think that really means?

I know it means I need to get out there and stop hiding so much.

You know what this is all about. What you need to do is get serious about it. If you want to fall in Love again you need to make the opportunity happen. Not just wait and dream. You need to get out and search and ask and try. So what if it doesn't always work out, at least you need to try.

I did today a bit.

Yes a few phone calls and an email is more than you've really done for years. What you need to do is just trust it, and go out there and do what you can to meet someone new.

I know. Please Lead and Guide me to reach for what I need in my life.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Let your Will be Done Through me! Amen.

Mayan coffee chat...

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What did you ask for?

I really didn't ask. Well I did to myself. And I realized that it was from the writing. After I had seen what you wrote, and read it a few times. I knew I needed to get really serious about it all...

Here you are again... change the way I'm thinking... and breath through the deepest part of my soul... who you are again..... I need to hear to love in side... make the change...

I got Change on CMRadio 6.17pm

This is your life... are you who you want to be.... is it everything you could dream it would be... when the world was younger and you had everything to loose.

I got an email from the mayan teacher at New College.

What are you missing here?

I'm all nervous again.

Why?

I did ask for someone to help me today. I even tried calling one. I stayed home and read articles, and sorted my research files on the PC. But I never wanted to go anywhere or do anything. And ding my OE PC as I got an email

What are you feeling now?

I'm totally blown away I guessss. I mean, it's ok to make me into some research project for you, but I could have been warned or something.. . . lol. . . I know I need to go chant.

What is important now is that you understand things fully. Everyone had a lot to do with bringing this together and it needs to be started slowly. Nothing is going anywhere without you, so take your time and make things right. Trust the Truth you feel it inside and let things grow easily.

I'm still nervous... I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. . . . Please fill me with your Strength Love and Wisdom so I can grow to Achieve all that YOU open and lead me to in this life on Earth. 7.23pm 6/14/06

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What's up

I'm been busy reading and downloading all kinds of articles for John and his class and such. Wow this world is so totally fucked up, its really making me sick.

What did you expect. Do you remember you motorcycle accident? Do you think any of that was normal? 110mph was what they published in the newspaper, that's just what the cops said. You were far ahead of any cops. And no helmet. Does that sound like something that just happens to anyone? You saw the motorcycle after, it was almost split in two by hitting a guide wire for the telephone pole. Of course the wire broke, but can you even guess the kind of power and force necessary to do that? And what about the courts. The first minor tried as an adult in NJ. That's "New Jersey" the mob playground and drug underground for NY. You know New York City aint nothing since everyone lives in the suburbs who is anyone. In 1980 there was no other city or area doing more than you were. Where do you think all the chemical industries started?

Do you understand this point? What is all your patents and research about? Evolution is about people and society coming to the truth. And you were the leader of the lie. Sure some suburbs in NY and PA were a bit richer, and some kids there were a bit more spoiled and controlled more than you did. But you understood the Truth, as your children do, and you were able to control situations and change circumstances as they do. You were so far evolved beyond just the greed, sex and control you see today that those were like candy for babies to you, not even worth the trouble to you.

Son do you understand yet? The power and control you had as a child, and exploited to meet man's misguided perception was something just beyond comprehension even today. Your multi-millionaires now, still barely feel or understand the power and control that you had as a child.

And you gave that up. You CHOSE to give it up. It took you two years to realize what that really meant. But then you did it and then opened up for all that We could give you. You understand the sign wave of creation and hold to so much power and truth that nothing can match. So you get a quiet moment here and know that it's only a short pause before the next major shift.

This is not new to you. You CHOSE this path, and you are ready for it. It wont be easy, but if it were you would be bored and not interested in helping anyway. Don't worry about how far it must go. Don't worry about the seeming endless layers of crap out there. These are all only ripples of the truth that you can send.

I'm not sure I follow you now?

What this is about is Evolution, not just you and some company out there exploiting people or some university that could change it. When you create a shift in consciousness it affects everyone and everything. That stone you throw changes everything. You don't need to worry about which stone, or where you throw it even. There is so much that you are doing at so many different levels of vibration and plains of existence that these details are almost meaningless.

I'm getting more lost now?

What you need to do is what you always do. You trust your Instinct and you do what you feel you need to do. What did you dream about last night?

I caught a fat man trying to exploit my family, kill my mother, use my sister and over run my household. Course my dad was gone on a trip again, and it was almost like this fat man was my brother.

What did you do?

I guess I told my sister what was happening, or opened her eyes a bit about it to see it as it was happening. Wow, I guess that's what I always do with my crazy schedule and meetings and such. Open little doors and shine some light in to wake someone up. And I know it doesn't always work, or that I don't always see the results, or know what results at all. But I still do it and do it more and more all the time. Ugh I still have so much I need to do.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ; Please help and Guide me to Grow and Share your Wisdom and Strength with all those around me for your Glory. Amen

Visit who?

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What now?

I sent my last note, as per last blog entry, and had another comment about visiting the University Provost. I remember when she first started. I was thrilled to see we had another woman in charge. Course she's married to an engineer, so all the better. I even saw her meeting him at lunch a few times out in the USF Plaza. Then I knew where I could catch her . . . . and I wanted to of course.

But I hate the feeling that one person can make all the difference on anything that I do. Like I thought with Dr. Newkome, who only tried to copy. I've thought one person could do that too many times. It's really frustrating and I know the only way I can get this all done is to do it myself.

What's wrong with that?

I don't know it just never seems possible.

Why do you limit yourself? If you feel like you can do it all by yourself then you just need to follow it through.

I know, I know. Like I finished ready Presence by Peter Senge yesterday. They talk about the Big U for organizational change. Course all their research and ideas just spin around what I do. I mean it even ends with the Dr Emoto's water concepts. LOL . . . I just got all those books from Amazon because John wanted to use some of those concepts in his class after seeing parts of "What the Bleep" ... Hum, he still has my DVD.

What's funny is this book even refers to some of the concepts I put into the Unity Patent. No big deal, but what they are all trying to express is the fundamental reality about how people can let go of all their programming and connect to the Big Picture to solve problems.

What?

I guess what's funny for me is that is exactly what the Chant does. Any time I want to I can connect to the ALL that IS... no trip to the whales or house burnt down or anything. Reminds me of something else they mentioned in the book. How there is a tribe Anasazi that has to do this dance for all the Earth. . . . Uh oh, I've not Chanted in a week or so. . . I know I've been bad.

What are you supposed to be doing now?

I know I need to do some engineering work. lol. . . yes I know I need to do this stuff once in a while to stay in the flow of this business too.

What are you feeling?

I guess I'm feeling closer and closer to making things totally shift here. So much about what I'm about is just OUT THERE!!! lol . . . and I know that the "out there" is coming "in here" more and more every day . . . so I read about the Anasazi tribe and they were the old ones before the Hopi here in the US. Essentially the Indians that came up from the Maya.... lol... or went down to the Maya.

It's funny, Kim gave me a National Geographic about a DNA study they did tracing the progression of Mankind across the planet. Essentially starting in South Africa and following the coastline around the whole earth. It was almost like each new family would just walk down the sea shore a little further. And after thousands of years they made it all around the whole earth.

This theory based on tracking DNA changes in the populations on earth now, starts in Africa, through the Mibble East, across Europe and Asia into Alaska and down the coastline to South America. So maybe the Anasazi tribe predate the Mayan. lol . . . I guess I could check this somewhere . . . whenever I can find the time . . . . lol.

What you need to do is important too.

I know I'm getting busy

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

time for phd ???

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What do you need to do?

I don't know where to start?

What do you feel now?

I guess i'm almost over whelmed

Why?

I've seen and felt the power of Our Creations

What do you need to do?

I guess i need to write about it . . . .
Like yesterday I started with meeting Kim from Harmony for coffee at the library. We just talked about it all. I asked her to be on my PhD committee and she said she would be honored. She even understood so much, so clearly I was able to tell her about my kids.

I wonder about my kids? I can feel them when I say that. They are so strong and awesome. God has them learning as they need. Just as I am! Funny, I feel things different about when we are together again. But it's always so clear and powerful.

What do you need to do?

I’ve been trying to blog. But I’ve not had any luck.

I was writing about my day and then I stopped to send an email. I realized that I had said to John what I had said to Dr. Katzenmeyer 20 years ago. Of course in the Library with Kim I told her what Katz said to me: “Social Engineering”... Kim totally loved it understanding it all completely of course.

But I didn’t tell them each the same thing. John wanted to know more about the research. What was the problem I wanted to solve? Or what science was I doing?

So I told him that it was the Unity Method. Unity creates solutions. All evolution is about making things more complex, bringing more energy into focus and control. All the universe was about evolving energy to control more energy. So we are an apex of this growth. And when we become conscious of this and allow it to expand inside of us again. EVERYTHING CHANGES!

I wrote an email to Kim and John. It wasn’t totally out in space, but it certainly was very strong and clear? Or at least I hope it was. What’s really interesting for me is that I was able to speak the same things that I wrote. And they both understood me, encouraged me and wanted more. It was really very strong and weird. I wasn’t sure what to think about it all. I mean I have a serious problem with being just too much all over the place. That’s what John kept saying at lunch yesterday, that I was too mixed up and had no focus. If I wanted to do research then I needed to put it into context with everything else that was happening. Study a Macroscopic topic extensively and then define a missing component to improve it.

I sent it out and then copied it to Claire and Katz, then to Chuck, Tim and Trace, lol... and also to Keith and Suz. I’m not sure if anyone will answer. And I’m not sure if I want anyone to. Well of course I want to hear someone’s support. But you know I can feel that I’m doing it already. Like the research and grant and everything is simply there and started. Funny, I was going to say DONE, but none of it will ever be done. There is just too much there to do. And getting it done is not going to happen very quickly.

Also when speaking with Kim she told me a few techniques she uses. Like for dreams, if I stay in the same position then it’s easier to retain them. So this morning I did it. And it was so weird too. I reached up and got my pad to start writing and stayed where I was... and the dreams just kept going. They didn’t even stop. So I reached again and turned on the light. . . . and the dream still kept going. WHAT? I was trying to write and kept drifting off into it again. Like I wasn’t really even awake yet. Course I wrote anyway...

Wow and I read it now, and it was two different dreams too. The first up in NJ and the 2nd with Christopher. Weird.

I’m falling asleep. Its already after 10pm... I think I’ll stay home tomorrow, do engineering, laundry, homework... sleep... lol... start my weekend sooner...I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank for ALL You Are! Aman.

Bike ride in... lol...

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What else do you need to do this morning.

I need to check John's Journal stuff and outline my PhD stuff and write about this morning...
wow, better get busy.

Every time I ride my bike in I start with saying good morning to the osprey. Hum, something not too happy there? Hum?

Well then I ride through Rowlet park and say good morning to everyone... Birds, trees, people.... Saw a grandma coming in as I left with the twin stroller and two kids. SPOILED! Said to her, "WOW, you get more exercise than all of us"

So then I always get so charged up and vision things. I realize it was before 9am and I wondered who I could share this with? I mean only two people wished me a happy birthday. One left days before my birthday and she's still asleep now. Then the other. Oh Keith he's got my cell phone. So sure I can call him. So I'm just riding up to Fowler and 40th, no hands with my cell phone out. I pull into the office park, then look again at the phone. Oh Keith that's easy just search his name.

Oh, traffic at fowler, all these idiots who think they are so cool in the big cars. Sure cut across, down into USF. And search oh 904 number that's wrong, try again, no that's wrong too. Oh DAA he has my cell phone so it's under ME. daaa so I dial the number it's only one digit off.

So HEY KEITH... bla bla bla ... vision dream... POWER! WOW. And you got it first! Oh and if you start a Blog now and retell what I said we'll have a best selling novel in 6 months... Oh I better get off, I'm going to the pool and am right on campus now... Oh yes, bye!

Course I was just passing SVC going down into the dorms then. Jumped in the pool, swam a few laps and came out.

There next to the water fountain where I had left my bag and cloths there was a little wasp nest hanging underneath that I could see from the pool. When I got out, put on my shirt and shoes ready to go. And got a broom hanging on the wall and SMASHED them. Killed them all on the ground!

Walked up to my bike to leave. Some guy was fixing something there by the building, who had pulled up before I got out of the water. "Oh I better get them before they get me"

Course now he knew exactly what I was doing. He has to do it all the time. Never said that of course, he just looked and smiled knowing exactly what I meant.

Then I got back on my bike and started off... And suddenly I felt and KNEW what I meant too. Here at school are the best and the brightest from all over the world. GOD's WORLD. This IS GOD's People. This is ALL GOD HERE => we are all part of God.

So EXACTLY like I said, kill the wasp before they bite me... Because they would get someone sooner or later there by the pool. And that someone is GOD to. ANYONE there bite by the wasp would be like biting ME TOO. So I got the was I before he got ME!

WOW, I had to stop and write this down. Just like calling Keith to get this down. SO MUCH POWER flowing through me so QUICKLY! I can't help it...

Wrote on my Yellow bike pad: "better get him before he gets me 6/6/06 8:59am Just called Keith on my bike ride in "BLOG!!!" Then I looked up and picked a flower, where I stopped to write at the light with my foot on a bench. FLASH another VISION!

Oh I could sell flowers. Ride along until I fide a cute girl. "selling flowers 100% safe for ONE KISS each" Then I flashed to having a box of altoids with different flavors, and a Medical ID Card... Certified stamped, NO AIDS, NO HIP, NO herpes... NO NO NO .. little Id card with the stars logo... (ps. As I got to COBA, I gave the flower to a girl and said "here for the first pretty smile of the day")

So I'm riding down past the dorms again and swerve for some idiot driving through my bike lanes again... lol... Up Past SVC and my VISIONS FLASH as I see the three bikes there for the last 100 years.

If Sharon listened to me, we could have gotten all the bikes donated and PC's and set up a real program moving recycled stuff. Oh FLASH into Alan at MOSI Recyclesourous TEAM cleaing up everything and making it work...

As I wrote this, every memory flashed by me again and got bigger and bigger. Like I remember this tiny dot of color from the vision and I look into it with a magnifying glass as Iwrote. And it just gets bigger and bigger, more and more detail on and on forever...

EEEK. Another flash this morning was to C4M about 666 and my kdis! eeek... quick email.
SO need to to booggie
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please fill me with your Wisdom, Strength and Life for the Glory of Father Son and Holy Ghosts. Amen!

Production and Handling: Regulatory Text

This is the whole scam in a nut shell. Everyone knows gov. people are paid peanuts; they are "public servants" so just have great benefits instead. Well that really means is that they serve the public that $erves them so the only regulations enforced are just to keep money$ moving.

Production and Handling: Regulatory Text:
Subpart C - Organic Production and Handling Requirements

205.200 General. The producer or handler of a production or handling operation intending to sell, label, or represent agricultural products as '100 percent organic,' 'organic,' or 'made with organic (specified ingredients or food group(s))' must comply with the applicable provisions of this subpart. Production practices implemented in accordance with this subpart must maintain or improve the natural resources of the operation, including soil and water quality.

205.201 Organic production and handling system plan.
(a) The producer or handler of a production or handling operation, except as exempt or excluded under

205.101, intending to sell, label, or represent agricultural products as '100 percent organic,' 'organic,' or 'made with organic (specified ingredients or food group(s))' must develop an organic production or handling system plan that is agreed to by the producer or handler and an accredited certifying agent. An organic system plan must meet the requirements set forth in this section for organic production or handling. An organic production or handling system plan must include:

(1) A description of practices and procedures to be performed and maintained, including the frequency with which they will be performed;

(2) A list of each substance to be used as a production or handling input, indicating its composition, source, location(s) where it will be used, and documentation of commercial availability, as applicable;

(3) A description of the monitoring practices and procedures to be performed and maintained, including the frequency with which they will be performed, to verify that the plan is effectively implemented;"

From Russia with Love

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What's up

I came in here to start to write, but then thought about the date and some Collegic Inventors Competition. So I submitted it. I can feel like it's been accepted already. I mean, it's like I had a dream about it before. I remember showing up to get the prize and finding out what they usually get as submittals. Something about past years being a waste of time. While this year was a real challenge, especially since I submitted an actual patent, not just an idea.

What where you going to write about?

I thought about how this is simply Mind & Body connected as one. Something that is valid and applies to everything while everyone tries to understand some interpretation of it. I guess I'm still not having any success explaining myself. Everyone seems to catch some aspect and that's it. Course I just go along, if that's what they understand, so be it. Not my problem to push all the rest, maybe that's all they are ready for.

What do you want to get done?

I know I need to get stronger about things or I'll never get anything done.

What else happened today?

I got this email from some Russian girl. It was almost funny, like I get countless pieces of junk mail, selling stock, winning lotteries, lost relatives trying to give me money, hundreds of singles services, drug companies and mortgages you name it. It's really bizarre that I ever look at any of them.

Any way this girl has this plan to come to the states to find someone to marry. She wants out of Russia, and set up a month Visa to work, hoping to find someone. She describes how some friend did it, and bla bla bla... yea sure, whatever. Course she has pictures attached. Usually these porn scams send you to a website where you get a virus or something stupid to sign up for before you see anyone . . . lol. . .

But then I opened these pictures and she looks like the Pocahontas Picture on my wall??? Then I remember countless times Virato told me about his Russian Wife and how they are just desperate to come to the USA.

Then I reread the message. And I just wrote a note myself. Once in a while I get bored and respond to some girls personal ad. Never anything too serious. But I thought about it and wrote a real response finally. I mean Suzy got me thinking about what I really want a even PRAYING for her.

Now I got this message and realized that it could be exactly what I prayed for. I mean even like the picture on my wall! Why Not? God always gives us what we are ready for. . . . Especially if we ask for it. So WHY NOT, if God wants me to be happy and in Love again . . . or If I REALLY want that and get serious about it... WHY NOT, so it pops up in my email, and someone drops in to visit next week.

I mean I've had that happen a bunch of times. . . Suzy, Rowan, Virato. . . lol. . . wow lots of other people too.

So maybe I've finally caught up on all my dreams and getting them DONE! Like I told you this dream last week... lol... this week! Where I was talking to the city about builbing the transit system. Sounds like the time has come. . . . lol. . . . Course I know everything is just too much aleady for me, so why not do more!!!

So all day these pictures were flashing into my mind . . . Like KNOWING I get what I want. Even if it was just a spam email, it really felt good just to remember how God works in his mysterious ways and maybe He found me the girl I need; like HE ALWAYS does. lo. ;-D)))

LOL.... like just today I was going to some med-school conference, and as I walked out I saw Dr. Balfour all stressed. He says Connie was in the Hospital and he had to find some help. So I said I was going to he Med School and could drop in on Michelle and see if she can help. HE was THRILLED. Course I had no idea whether she would be there.

So when I got to Cecile's office, they were all having a team meeting, so Michele was there too. Course we all chatted a bit, and Cecile asked if I could help her with her digital recorder again. . . . Yea sure. . . I never saw Michel make it over there, but I rushed out too. Maybe tomorrow.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.