now4u2: Merry Christmas 2023: The New Life begins '

now4u2: Saturday, December 23, 2023

Merry Christmas 2023: The New Life begins '

Yes, I’m doing Merry Christmas cards again. I remember doing Calligraphy with my mom, and then with my children. I’m not sure when, but I remember my kids commenting on my script and how much they liked it. So I’ve started writing here to get my ideas and spelling correct before writing cards to my children.

I hope you all have a wonderful holiday season. I have been blessed joining Saint Raphael’s Catholic Church and recognize that it’s been the Men’s Fraternity that I needed in my life, since I never had

Stepping into this new Community will bring new priorities and new challenges as I step from the old to the new.

Thank You for sharing The Way of Your Word with Jesus Christ.

Where did you start.

I had to write my children first, as I wanted to send them ArchAngels in the mail. And I got out my Calligraphy pens knowing the joy and love I can share with them. Feeling my Mom and the love we shared writing so carefully.  I also realize I need to dress for work and get out now. I was awake at 4:04am again, and was slow to get up out of bed. I needed to write cards for Kevin and Todd too, I brought them angel statues last night, but never gave them, so I did their cards now. It’s really remarkable how things change and shift for me every day.

We have been trying to get you started in a new life. 

I know I need to send the LENT booklets to all my family. . . I guess that’s next for me. I’ve really been perplexed again. I’ve got time and freedom, and I’m really not sure or clear about what I need to do or not do.

Guess it’s really about stepping into a new family again. I’ve got a good work team and I’ve got a good opportunity to create some changes in the systems that is really necessary. It’s nothing like what I imagined would happen with Covid, or the 2nd dose of that hasn’t hit yet. Nor do I think it’s coming anytime soon. I really feel like there is more than I know happening as usual.  Off my on again.

I accept my place and power as usual, and I think there is a lot more happening. It’s always important for me to just focus on my place and do my part, whatever that means. Of course, I’m always perplexed by what I do and shift around me, moving into the very simple easy steps before me. But they shift things that I recognize later. And I seem to try to get credit or recognition for these changes I see around me. . . yes more things I need to let-go of.

I think it’s been my life, that my mom hid me from others and I was able to do what I needed to do, without anyone knowing. It’s been my blessing and my burden. Of course I’m hidden, how else could I shift so many things without anyone knowing. I realize and see how much more people are watched and tracked all around us. I still seem to be invisible. 

Doing something new. It’s just my lot in life. And I see how I’ve been given more than I could imagine. It’s been such a wonderful gift all around me. I wonder how, or why, it seems that I must fight to keep all I’ve been given. I understand that I’ve always been breaking into something new, and I accept that role and responsibility.

I know, and it's funny how distracted i can get!

We don’t care about this format, you are getting distracted again trying to fix it perfect.  Once again doing so much more than anyone could ask, or expect, or want. . . this is where it begins, where all the worry ends, where I say I don't need to have control. . . All of it is chaos, and all I offer is the white flag of surrender. what a total blessing and experience to have now.

I know, it is like i have been writing on paper for so long. It becomes ritualistic! I loved the experience and excitement of ending in a prayer by drawing out the BIGG Beautiful colored Name of Jesus. I know it’s about Honoring God, not getting lost into these details. But when I can have clarity and ease, everything can gets done quickly and easily. As I get lost in these details and it pulls me away from the whole purpose and goal of sharing Your Love. . . 

We have been bringing more to you all the time. The power and place you are in will become more clear to you are you go. Remember when everything seemed to end for you 9/11/17 but then you started over accepting, OR ASKING, to start over again as an intern beginning fresh and clean. You are approaching this again now, more and more every day. 

. . . 

I know! I must get to sleep at 830.

We need to have it all in stone. . . 

I know! I then get up, make bed, toke, work out, chime bells,

With very detail you get more focused and powerful. . . 

I know! I bike, chant, plant, swim!

We are sure it's time now. . . 

I know! then I pray and share in church.

We . . . are happy to see where you've gone.

I know! it's a beautiful communion returning to the divinity You created here for us to love and share with You in the Glory of Father, Sons, and Holy Ghosts. . . Amen