Friday, November 22, 2024

Providence of being Provided

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!


Yes, I know You make this easier and easier for me to share and talk with You. And I know that’s what I’m here for. I've really not been doing very much worth talking about. Yes, the Men's Fraternity this morning and now helping Kevin’s daughter move into a Tampa apartment. Easy-Peezy stuff, seems like no big deal . . . Yes, I drove over to Tampa and got off the highway at Fowler Ave. Of course, I had a big smile, seeing all old places I've been and lived before. Ok, I admit yesterday I tried to find my oldest Journal and read about getting my little motorcycle with Jack. Now wasn’t that a long time ago. But it was really cool reading how Jack took care of me.

So I’m waiting in my truck outside the gate of where she is moving, I got her bed and some shelves in the back of my truck. Yes, I planned it so I could go straight to class at 3pm. Course it's now 2:55pm, and Kevin forgot to sign the lease for his daughter, so she can't get in yet. She asked me to empty my truck and leave it all next to her car, but No way. . . I wouldn't burden anyone daughter like that!
What more time gives you is here with us.  
I know, this feels like where Cathy lived after she left my house. It's not the safest area off 15th and Fowler, but it is close to USF and all sorts she could benefit from. As remarkable is it was, when I got back into my truck to race to class, I got a message from the teacher, saying she was running late too. Yes timed at 3:03pm. So I laughed, smiled and snapped a screenshot to send to Kevin. Then to my surprise I got a call from Father Curtis as I approached the Highway to Clearwater. He wants to meet tomorrow, about something, though I have no idea what. I thought I would wear slacks, shirt and tie, but the decided on just jeans. I'm still not sure what it could be about. I've volunteered and offered to help with everything at the Church from sorting books, to business management, and planting mangroves.

I know I still have so much to do. Rob stopped in this morning to give me more exercises, saying again how I am doing pretty good already.
What are you doing now 8:25am 11/22/24
I’ve spent the last day in bed and feel that way again now. I’ve been trying to spend more time in prayer. I feel like the Word is just always with me. I wonder and explore and search always feeling so much at ease. I needed to go back to my 101 SEEL week to figure out where the focus was . . . as my new assignment. Of course, the Providence of being Provided For is just my lot in life. I ALWAYS HAVE A SENSE OF SHARING WITH JESUS. How can I question something so obvious and powerful? Especially when I have Father Curtis gifting me beyond recognition!
What did you ask for?
I am always seeking peace and joy and to do what YOU have set before me. I search in the Word for what this really means, and how to understand and express it fully. I always have confirmation that I’m in the right place at the right time doing what I need to do . . . but I still question and wonder about it. Sure I can see the synchronicity and obvious benefits that come to me daily, but I realize that IS my own perceptions, that can be tainted by my selfishness or ego as well. I guess this might be why I write things out all the time. I mean, 10:03:33am seeing the same story over and over again confirming my moments here with Jesus. . . . wow, it's really just intimidating sometime?   What could Jesus want from me?  How could I possibly express Love and Joy better than anyone else, or suitable for this experience.

Yesterday, when I got up and my head spun, I tried to do things that Rob laid out for me. And it seemed to spin my head more than ever. As crazy as I sounds, it was almost like I knocked a screw loose, where my spins were going both ways at once, and I was sitting in the middle just feeling this chaos. That’s why I decided I just lay in bed and rest. I’m not sure about getting up now even. I’m actually just talking to my iPhone now. Not even trying to type, but knowing I can talk through pretty clearly. I know I have grades to do, but I really don’t know where to start. I guess that means coffee and fruit to get moving.
What Is important is that you trust your experience, and trust what you’re given, and step into it Responsibly! 
I know, I had planned to visit Matt, after Fr Curtis, and sent him a text, only to get rescheduled till Monday.  I know Matt got a response from his Motion to Dismiss, and again it almost feels like he staged this to fall into place, and I just need to trust and move along. I get this feeling with the Word all the time!
What we open for you is very easy, follow as our yoke is easy . . . Matthew 11:28-30 
I know, and I try to stay focused and do whatever you set before me. Like I ordered all my organics from Nuts.com and still have to mix my seeds to make the best breakfast ever. I was stunned to make these orders at all, cause I didn't think I had any valid credit left. I did get paid by SPC, and filled out the W2 to do engineering for Mike. It's all good, I trust in the Word!
We have a lot ahead of you, and taking the time to move into things SLOWLY in peace and Joy is important. 
St Michael before me, 
St Michael behind me, 
St Michael to my right, 
St Michael to my left, 
St Michael above, 
St Michael below, 
St Michael, St Michael, wherever I go . . .

Then visualize His Sword and Shield spinning around you; creating a ball of light protecting you ! ! ! !  
I posted this to Dan, we met for Coffee at Black Crow and he wanted to learn this. So I also posted it to Lissette's group, saying my Blessing this week was having this meeting with Dan to share my Mom's Teachings. . . 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Exodus readings.
“Do not throw your pearls to swine” (Matthew 7:6). But there is also a negative dimension to shame, which the sociologist BrenΓ© Brown defines as “feeling unworthy of love and belonging.” The positive dimension of shame recognizes that others are not ready to enter into a communion of persons with me. They need to prove they are trustworthy first. The negative dimension of shame says that I am not worthy to enter into a communion of persons, and this leads to the most destructive condition—isolation. Learning to overcome the negative voice of shame in order to be vulnerable and form a communion with trustworthy persons is now our path of healing and salvation.

This is the experience of revealing to someone the most vulnerable secret in our life. We feel that the person who has seen that deepest place in me knows me better than anyone, even the person I have spent far more time with. When our groups can be safe for the most vulnerable parts of our hearts to be shared, we will have deep and healing relationships—a true communion of persons.

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