and I know what I need to do

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!  I knew you would do this to me . . . Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, 

What do you expect, we were not going to let you run and hide again.

I . . Know, Now again I've spent my morning in exercises and meditations. I wrote up a lease for my new tenant and he wont have any cash until month end. He is busy working outside and sorta helps and hurts. When I came in with my signed lease agreement and no cash. I was literally crying, I don't want to eat, I don't want to work. I JUST DO NOT want to struggle anymore. I started grading papers this morning and discovered that I have only 4 days to be all done with this course.

How can I possibly get it all the done.

Yes tired and frustrated. . . . It’s stressful to see holes and problems that I can not address or find any resolution for.

I have started my next string of tasks and I know what I need to do, but struggle. I get annoyed and worried about tasks that don't fit. I need to do things and stumble and stumble. I want to cry out for help again Jesus. I pray for your help and guidance in getting everything done.

Yes, I feel totally lost today, I've only a week to get same model results and I still really have no clue...

We have always been with you and always pull you through these things that scare you. It’s a mystery how things happen and what you find before you. You have never really understood how things happen, but always trust and step into things so readily. You are ready you can do this all, no worries.

I get it, and felt so grateful today as lunch came up and Jim invited me to Mass, and then Bill checked in on me just as I sat next to Jim at St Anthony’s.  I told Jim how I witnessed the direct blessings of having such strong brotherly love and support show up completely randomly as I needed it more than ever.

What a wonderful experience for you to share with your peers.  Your witnessing of the power and presence of God in your day was joyfully accepted and understood. This wonderment you share is a joy for all.

I . . Get it, so I just wrote Todd and copied Keven, Jim, Mike, and Brian, about the wonderful experience I had with the Exodus Fraternity this morning. I realized how these guys were all deep in the same catholic studies. So I thought to share all the books and such that I’ve built online already.  And of course then I added another few pages to My SEEL work online which has been really interesting as well.

What you are learning is pulling all these different aspects together into a more powerful and coherent expression of yourself. You haven’t had community before, to step into this place of love and sharing what you have is a great blessing for all.  You have always been able to do, share, and step-into places that others would never consider or understand. Getting beyond the culture and the machine has been your operand. You are doing it more from the inside instead of fighting from the outside.

Is this what you are seeking when we speak about the next 50 years for me. It’s making more sense all the time as I see the different pieces coming together. I still get confused and struggle whenever I have no clue what I’m doing or why. I seem to get more clarity with each day of trusting my experiences, and stepping into whatever is before me. I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,

What is really happening here is you are recognizing and learning about who you are and why you came here.  You have always known you were on a “mission” and always knew you were protected and guided, because somehow you couldn’t escape your task since no one else could do it for you. You had committed to BE and DO and have spent your whole life preparing for this. And yes, you are getting closer and closer every day.

I know, it’s kinda interesting how you said this now. I’ve been getting so very strong into so many different things. I really noticed how each day that I follow the guidance more closely, the stronger a clearer the events get in my life. Things have been really remarkable how things just come together and happen. It’s really just a wonder to see and witness what this life is bringing to me.

What you wrote and published now needs to be carried forward:

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Please lend Your Strength, Love, & Wisdom to fill my life with Your Holy Spirit to carry me forward to Achieve all that I need to complete for YOUR GLORY. . . . Amen.