fatal motorcycle crash at 90 mph

So the College gave me another AI tool, so I asked it to rewrite my story again: 

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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

I'm not sure how I follow up on this. I'm really intimidated by this power and focus that has been coming through for me stronger and stronger, but I realize now it’s all stacked in my favor. The latest Chosen Trailer for Season Five came out today, and it’s got me in tears. Then I’m cleaning up my computers again. I spent weeks moving things off of my laptop, and now they are going onto my Desktop, or I’m sorting and clearing my Desktop to make the space worth and the backups sound. Of course, as I write this now and reread my thoughts, I realize there is still a lot to do.

What’s more remarkable than anything is that I’m now using the same keyboard of the Desktop and the iPad, switching back and forth easily and quickly. And I’ve also got my little iPad with its Magic Keyboard working too . . . WOW!

I knew I needed to write, and only had this journal in my leather case. When Chris and Claudia were in town for the wedding, I asked if he was using it, nope, but he had the little leather wallet in his pocket. SO WOW, I went back to read something and took this picture and copied out the text:

2/19/2022 11:27:22 pm
Please Dear Jesus Share Your SPIRIT OF TRUTH completely within my Beingness to Fully SAY and share all that you have set into place for me. I am so grateful to see and understand your WILL AND Desire for my experience. I know I am here for you and I accept that I will become a teacher and healer.

We have been very clear and strong about what was ahead of you. It’s important you accept this and step into it more deeply because people really need your loving guidance. You will find that those who need you, will find you. This sort of happened with AirBnB already, and will become clearer and stronger as you step into your truth.

It was kind of neat how I took a picture of this page out of my journal, and then selected the text from the picture on my iPhone, and copied it into my blog. It was like 80 to 90% accurate too. I was surprised, so I guess that means I can pull out more and more of my old journal pages to share on the blog. Yes, I know this was likely your intention anyway.

We have been making this easier and easier for you. Each day the technology gets closer and closer to your intentions when you first started. Recognize this power and focus that you carry is a lot deeper and stronger than what is obvious and simple. Remember you are multi-dimensional and created in the Image of God. Each of us have an identity as a priest, to be a connecting point between God and people. You mediate God to your children and all those who you encounter. As God is always with you, and you bring this love to others.

I’m trying to accept and step into this more each day. I realize how much more I can do and have been moving into things more each day. It’s a challenge, and I feel like I’m moving slowly. But I also recognize how much more I can share and bring forward to others. 

What did you find now?

It’s so weird, but my server is down. For years and years I’ve seen things live online all the time, and now finally I get ready to start editing it all again and it’s gone!?!?! Wow, what a trip is that. It makes me think I’ve been going the wrong way again, thinking or planning to do something that’s not realistic, or not set in line with God as it needs to be. . . 

Of course now 5:08pm 2/25/25 as I write again the server is up again. I got a note from him and it has been over twenty years now. . . 

What happened today?

I know, I got a message in the Buddha Badass book chat that’s over 5 years old. Of course, responding to the chat, I found someone trapped in the Covid nightmare! She is deep discovering her Spiritual Freedom and creating her own life over again. I mentioned how I could really cure most anything since all disease in ManMade anyway.  And she asked if I was still doing ABB. OH NO, well not ABB but I still have the space and need to post a new page for classes, training, healing, and gardening. 

I got home from filling up my truck again and church and all, and ran inside to redo the web. Wow, It open right up, I could copy things out and updated two or three programs. But Dreamweaver wouldn’t download or install, something I tried over and over again. . . OH, so I’m not ready to edit I guess.

What did you do at church?

Oh it’s Tuesday, so we had the men’s group and I was there by 6am to make coffee. And got it all set and walked into the church before anyone was there. I sat in the back row and started praying: Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, . . . Oh forgot: I’m Sorry, Please Forgive me, Thank You, I Love You. . . .

I added two phrases from the Hawaiian Ho'oponopono that I found yesterday. . . You see I went back to find my LENT thing where I started after my dad left 8/2020, so I was ready back there: http://journal2mygod.blogspot.com/2020/07/

What was it this morning ???

I know it wasn’t just adding the apology and gratitude, it was doing all four phrases for Lord Jesus, Saint Mary, and Saint Joseph. . . That was what was wicked cool  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Providence of being Provided

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Yes, I know You make this easier and easier for me to share and talk with You. And I know that’s what I’m here for. I've really not been doing very much worth talking about. Yes, the Men's Fraternity this morning and now helping Kevin’s daughter move into a Tampa apartment. Easy-Peezy stuff, seems like no big deal . . . Yes, I drove over to Tampa and got off the highway at Fowler Ave. Of course, I had a big smile, seeing all old places I've been and lived before. Ok, I admit yesterday I tried to find my oldest Journal and read about getting my little motorcycle with Jack. Now wasn’t that a long time ago. But it was really cool reading how Jack took care of me.

So I’m waiting in my truck outside the gate of where she is moving, I got her bed and some shelves in the back of my truck. Yes, I planned it so I could go straight to class at 3pm. Course it's now 2:55pm, and Kevin forgot to sign the lease for his daughter, so she can't get in yet. She asked me to empty my truck and leave it all next to her car, but No way. . . I wouldn't burden anyone daughter like that!

What more time gives you is here with us.  

I know, this feels like where Cathy lived after she left my house. It's not the safest area off 15th and Fowler, but it is close to USF and all sorts she could benefit from. As remarkable is it was, when I got back into my truck to race to class, I got a message from the teacher, saying she was running late too. Yes timed at 3:03pm. So I laughed, smiled and snapped a screenshot to send to Kevin. Then to my surprise I got a call from Father Curtis as I approached the Highway to Clearwater. He wants to meet tomorrow, about something, though I have no idea what. I thought I would wear slacks, shirt and tie, but the decided on just jeans. I'm still not sure what it could be about. I've volunteered and offered to help with everything at the Church from sorting books, to business management, and planting mangroves.

I know I still have so much to do. Rob stopped in this morning to give me more exercises, saying again how I am doing pretty good already.

What are you doing now 8:25am 11/22/24

I’ve spent the last day in bed and feel that way again now. I’ve been trying to spend more time in prayer. I feel like the Word is just always with me. I wonder and explore and search always feeling so much at ease. I needed to go back to my 101 SEEL week to figure out where the focus was . . . as my new assignment. Of course, the Providence of being Provided For is just my lot in life. I ALWAYS HAVE A SENSE OF SHARING WITH JESUS. How can I question something so obvious and powerful? Especially when I have Father Curtis gifting me beyond recognition!

What did you ask for?

I am always seeking peace and joy and to do what YOU have set before me. I search in the Word for what this really means, and how to understand and express it fully. I always have confirmation that I’m in the right place at the right time doing what I need to do . . . but I still question and wonder about it. Sure I can see the synchronicity and obvious benefits that come to me daily, but I realize that IS my own perceptions, that can be tainted by my selfishness or ego as well. I guess this might be why I write things out all the time. I mean, 10:03:33am seeing the same story over and over again confirming my moments here with Jesus. . . . wow, it's really just intimidating sometime?   What could Jesus want from me?  How could I possibly express Love and Joy better than anyone else, or suitable for this experience.

Yesterday, when I got up and my head spun, I tried to do things that Rob laid out for me. And it seemed to spin my head more than ever. As crazy as I sounds, it was almost like I knocked a screw loose, where my spins were going both ways at once, and I was sitting in the middle just feeling this chaos. That’s why I decided I just lay in bed and rest. I’m not sure about getting up now even. I’m actually just talking to my iPhone now. Not even trying to type, but knowing I can talk through pretty clearly. I know I have grades to do, but I really don’t know where to start. I guess that means coffee and fruit to get moving.

What Is important is that you trust your experience, and trust what you’re given, and step into it Responsibly! 

I know, I had planned to visit Matt, after Fr Curtis, and sent him a text, only to get rescheduled till Monday.  I know Matt got a response from his Motion to Dismiss, and again it almost feels like he staged this to fall into place, and I just need to trust and move along. I get this feeling with the Word all the time!

What we open for you is very easy, follow as our yoke is easy . . . Matthew 11:28-30 

I know, and I try to stay focused and do whatever you set before me. Like I ordered all my organics from Nuts.com and still have to mix my seeds to make the best breakfast ever. I was stunned to make these orders at all, cause I didn't think I had any valid credit left. I did get paid by SPC, and filled out the W2 to do engineering for Mike. It's all good, I trust in the Word!

We have a lot ahead of you, and taking the time to move into things SLOWLY in peace and Joy is important. 

St Michael before me, 

St Michael behind me, 

St Michael to my right, 

St Michael to my left, 

St Michael above, 

St Michael below, 

St Michael, St Michael, wherever I go . . .

Then visualize His Sword and Shield spinning around you; creating a ball of light protecting you ! ! ! !  

I posted this to Dan, we met for Coffee at Black Crow and he wanted to learn this. So I also posted it to Lissette's group, saying my Blessing this week was having this meeting with Dan to share my Mom's Teachings. . . 

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Exodus readings.

“Do not throw your pearls to swine” (Matthew 7:6). But there is also a negative dimension to shame, which the sociologist Brené Brown defines as “feeling unworthy of love and belonging.” The positive dimension of shame recognizes that others are not ready to enter into a communion of persons with me. They need to prove they are trustworthy first. The negative dimension of shame says that I am not worthy to enter into a communion of persons, and this leads to the most destructive condition—isolation. Learning to overcome the negative voice of shame in order to be vulnerable and form a communion with trustworthy persons is now our path of healing and salvation.

This is the experience of revealing to someone the most vulnerable secret in our life. We feel that the person who has seen that deepest place in me knows me better than anyone, even the person I have spent far more time with. When our groups can be safe for the most vulnerable parts of our hearts to be shared, we will have deep and healing relationships—a true communion of persons.

what I had done and where it would place me

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Wow, what a week. Or maybe it's been a month or two. Wow it feels like many months. I have figured out more each day as I go along.

I guess I will start with Helene. We had a giant hurricane go by off-shore. It was 160 miles away, but the storm surge into the Tampa Bay was over 6 feet of water. Countless people in church and along the coast were flooded out. Yes, 2-3 feet of water into a house that never got wet before. Yes, I already wrote about this and how busy I was helping families and all. Then we had our Wednesday night Welcome Team meeting. On my bike ride home I got into an accident or something.

Morning meal,

I remember leaving the church close to 9pm and biking across the parting lot. Then I awoke in the hospital at 2am . . . They told me I had a concussion and six cracked ribs. WHAT? They couldn't tell me anything more. No one knew how I got there or what had happened to me. When I asked the nurses, they found my bike was in the garage, but nothing else. The physical therapist came in and asked about my house and how many steps I had. They told me I had to be able to walk up steps before they could send me home. When the nurse finally told me I could leave, I was ready to go. They called a cab and I waited over an hour. Wow, was that guy a jerk, but I got home with my bike and gave him twenty bucks anyway. I was so happy to get home, I walked in and about fell into the new queen bunk that Carlos and I had installed.

What we have been waiting for is all the lessons you put together from Exodus 90. Each day you heard more and more related to these experiences you have had, and what you learned.

An Angel checking in on me!

5:30pm 10/15/2024 . . . . I know it's always about sharing Your Word! I'm really struggling trying to keep up. First I'm in pain. Second I can't sleep too well. Third I seem to get more and more stressors coming at me all the time. I try to keep up and share and lead as best as I can, whenever I can. It's really not easy and for the most part is getting more and more difficult to follow and understand and keep up with. Worse still whenever I get comfortable enough for just a moment to read, or write, or blog, or whatever I need to do, then suddenly another mosquito shows up biting me somewhere. I can't seem to get any peace or solitude to stay focused and work on anything. I finally went shopping today and got myself some beer, so I’m ready to have my end-of-the-day beer already. But I'm still swatting at mosquitoes. . . I even broke off a key from my laptop trying to get a mosquito with my flyswatter.

What did you do now?

1:26pm 10/17/2024 I found my nest of breeding mosquitoes. It was literally right next to me on the counter, where I had setup my latest vegetable seeding bed. I was frustrated with the mess I make outside. I never felt like the seeding beds were working, and usually were a big mess. Yes, so I had to try to get one going inside. Of course, I literally took some seedlings out yesterday and planted them. 

Anyway, today Dick started me with SEEL again, or the “Spiritual Exercises for Everyday Living.” And I started reading in the book at the very beginning again. Yes, I read, sometimes, just a little, believe it or not! Anyway it wasn’t page 2 of my Ignatian Adventure book that begins with the story of a law student… lol, you’ll laugh at the legal treatise I sent to my Exodus Brothers yesterday….  Oh yea, so Page 2 in the book has my first Highlight, now bolder, darker and needing more attention… “To whom much is given, much is expected.”

Uhg, the story of my life!

Which I also posted to my "Men of God" group that I created on the Apple Chat service. I realized how I've been working this Team of Brothers to help me step deeper into my place and responsibility. Wow, I guess this has been in my face over and over today. This morning the Exodus reading was about Wisdom. And so I sent it to Lisette as we recognized and talked about this being the highest and most critical request. It's one thing to ask God for things, the Greatest request is to see as “God Sees” . . . I'm totally perplexed how many times I've come back to explaining to people how to ask for God's perspective.

 

I've always said that asking for God's Perception in all things is ideal. What does God want, what is the best to give in Love. But then I have said this is what it means to have "grown up in the Woods." Yes, listening to the life in the woods and seeking for the guidance of life, from life in all things. And God IS all life in the Woods, so all the Light and Love we feel through the woods is the experience of God. Knowing the unity and omnipresence of God, is seeing and experiencing God in ALL Life and then the Woods is all God.

I sent this Exodus readings to Lisette and I went to find a YouTube to listen to while making breakfast. Yes it's nice to continue in Spirit instead of the gossip on the radio. I guess my last YouTube visit was listening to the Eucharist Conference with Bishop Barron. So I jumped right into this sermon above from Bishop Barron on Sunday about wisdom, of course. What was so neat about this is how he was so clear and focused about God asking us, “What do we really really want”

What did you remember and write about?

I know, so OK here we go again. I remembered not wanting to wake up in the hospital after my motorcycle accident at 16. No I didn’t wanna come back. No, I wasn’t ready for anything, so God in his infinite Grace asked me ”what would I come back for?”  if He could give me anything, ”what would it be?” Oh, I grew up in the woods, so that was an easy thing to say. I wanted the world returned to Eden. I wanted the love and the beauty of the woods to be everywhere for everyone. God created this awesome Garden of Eden and I knew we belong in it. What else could I ask for?!

What was great about this moment was you were really specific and wanted to see the world as God had Dreamed and Planned. You were tired of the greed and selfishness of the American Machine. And of course, we want nothing more for all the people of Earth. Begging God to bring humanity back into the Garden of Eden was real noble and wonderful. However, do you remember God has never left The Garden and it was man's choice to leave, so such a request is up to you, not God at all. 

I know you’re so good at flipping things around on top of me again. So this spin is that we need to make the choice to return ourselves. So the spin asking You to bring us back, had to shift to leading men back. Now my Deepest Desire was to guide mankind back to this choice! I guess what I really was seeking, or asking, was for the guidance and wisdom to lead man back to this Garden of Eden With God! I knew there had to be a way for us to return. I know Jesus had brought us home from our sins to restore our relationship with God. And now returning home was about developing this relationship.

12:12pm 10/19/2024 As I remember returning to life after that accident, the desire was to understand “how.” How do we restore ourselves in the Garden of Eden? How does this become possible? What steps do we take to move into that space? What steps do we take to restore the Earth to its original beauty? What can we do as a race to bring us back to where we belong in this relationship with God?

How could it be all designed? How could we restore the original design? It is all a choice for us.

What you first wrote is remarkably similar to this. The key here is how specific you were about your love of God. The deepest desire expressed over and over was about fulfilling the Dreams and Plans of God. You never questioned what they were or what your place and benefit were. You were specific about God. Fulfilling God. No personal gain or desire, no need to succeed or attain something. But you were focused on The Goals of the Other, in real Love of Other. That is real pure Love! When we spun it back on you saying that you had left us, your question then became how you could change this. How you personally, could help bring mankind back to the Garden of Eden? Once again, the deepest desire expressed was about fulfilling the love of Divinity you had seen and witnessed in your youth, lost in the woods.

I get it, but the problem that I still see was that all I pursued was “How.” How is it possible? How can this change? How do we return to Eden? It was always about understanding how I get it, but the problem that I still see was that all I pursued was how. How is it possible? How can this change? How do we return to Eden? It was always about an action “HOW.” I was serious about understanding an action. Understanding how! Your answer never made any sense to me and I’m still searching https://patents.google.com/patent/US20070170306

What we did, in allowing this exploration to continue, was allow you to create and express your own vision and love. Pressing your own deepest desires to fulfillment brings forth your own passion. Your own love, and your own creation evolved into expression. The beauty and Grace of God’s gift inside of you comes forward in Word!

What your deepest desire became was the strongest love and truth you could know and express. And if you remember when we left you to explore this on your own the Dream and Visions that evolved were life changing throughout the Earth. You have heard and seen many aspects of your dream appear over and over again!

You continue to discount this and pretend to be humble, but deep down inside you know how much you shifted everything: http://www.starsusa.org/homestead/files/Dreams.htm

What is remarkable still is how little mankind has learned or explored these deeper truths you pursued. Wanting to know "how" was more than seeking the Wisdom and the Prudence, it was about stepping into the role of Creator as well. As you were passionate about “how to“ not simply "how." Beyond the knowledge and skills, you were focused on the actions and timing of creation and transmutation that are so far beyond. 

I guess so, I never had considered that aspect. And now as I remember how the visions and experiences seemed to be something so simple. I really never knew what I had done and where it would place me in the future. I'm really not sure what to do on where this will bring me. I've been perplexed about how to express what I've learned and understand. I've struggled to be and express so much since the beginning Words with you!

What we are doing is putting you into the place where all things can move forward

I get it and I simply need to move forward.
Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ,, I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

watch The Chosen Ok

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happened this month!

I got a call from my freshman year roommate, in the Beta 4 East Dorms at USF! Yes, my freshman year where my dad stuck me in the dorms to get a degree in 1983 . . . It felt like High School again, where I was back able to create anything I wanted. And I knew God sent me there to build or create.

Yes, this was what I asked for, after my motorcycle accident. I needed to help bring humanity back to the Garden of Eden. I mean, I was pissed after the accident, and didn't want to come back. Yes, I came back, but whatever that was about just annoyed me. WHY ME? What can I do? One Person means nothing!

This was all about God reaching out, trying to get back to where He Started. Yes, it was all about a Relationship, not just a Garden. . . but a time and space to BE and Share in relationship with another conscious love. Something clear and pure, almost childlike, needing support and attention.

What about last month?

Oh Yes, so my old roommate sent me an email and he was bringing his son TO USF. I was kinda surprised, but really thrilled to contact him again. It was kinda funny, as my name is as common as mud, but his name is very unique . . . . I had tried to look him up before, but as weird as it is, I got his name backwards. ME instead of EM. . . lol. . . And he found me anyway. So he sent me a note about visiting Tampa, and getting his son started at USF. Of course, I invited him to stay with me. He said he would just take me out for dinner while he was here.

What happened?

I guess, it was all the covid craziness where they had travelled internationally and needed tests and crap.  USF even wanted to lock-up his son in quarantine for a week before classes and do more tests. So instead they ended up staying a few nights with me. It was really cool. We sat-up all night talking and such. I guess what was most remarkable for me was how much he remembered and shared. EVERYTHING was happening so fast and crazy for me, I was lucky to get through it all, let-alone remember anything. It was really a total joy, dreamlike nothing had changed and we were in the dorms again.

What do you mean . . . 

Like one example was how he remembered when we went out doing solar sales in Clearwater. Of course, he remembered how he started saying he was a USF student and that would get him into the door for a sale. Of course, I told him how that guy who hired us, had returned to me every ten-years since then! I think, I even mentioned how he was camped out in the back-yard, unable to get his shit together. Still bragging how awesome he was getting the MOST-SALES ever in Clearwater, which was really us instead!

What else?

I guess, the next week started again, knowing how his son got stuck in Quarantine, and he decided to come stay with me instead.  I mean, nothing affects me, I've always been indestructible. I mean even the motorcycle accident in High School was 110mph into a curb, where the telephone pole and motorcycle were smashed, while I never broke a single bone.

Yes, anyway his son is back hanging out here, he asked how ONE PERSON could change anything. So I remembered we had to watch The Chosen. Ok, it wasn't that clear to me, I can be a bit-thick at times. But during his first day here for the weekend, I noticed him reading the back of The Chosen DVD package that I have sitting here. So YES WE need to set-up all the TVs to watch this. . . 

OH, we can watch it all here and NOW. . . and so we did get through two seasons watching two-three episodes at a time. . . Talking and sharing about it as we went along . . . what a wonderful gift this was for ME! And I certainly was able to answer his question about One Person changing the world.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

connect with them as a community

ok, so more time to understand who I am.

It's obvious that I really needed to be alone for a year or so before working again. Then the silly job with Ecurb was really ideal to get me back into focus. I realized how many times I wish I had made an effort to get to know my team and connect with them as a community, a team, a family. Course I was distracted with all sorts of family stuff, including that my mom died, so I felt like my family was gone.

Wow, I spent a year figuring out what I wanted to do and then suddenly found myself walking into a pretty cool company ready to step into the next place. Not only were they ready to take me seriously, but when I took my stand and made a case for something, I was successful. Norahs has said all along that I'm exactly where I need to be, doing exactly what I do best. I've sorta had that experience all my life, which is why I was so pissed about the motorcycle accident.

I mean if I'm in FLOW and moving into things all the time . . . why should I ever be SLAMMED for anything that I do or that shows up. I guess it was just my time and space to evolve to this next space where I can be doing what I do best.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

We are really pressing you to step up again. Each day you are challenged with more work to do and more efforts that only you can step into. Making the efforts and setting the skills and stage for future works is all in the process.

I guess that's why I am here today!

We were very clear with you about what you needed to do. Coming to this Wordpress Meetup was important for your next steps. . . 

I didn't know I would be blogging or getting more online, yet!

What are you waiting for? You are starting to talk more, both to us directly, and to your technologies that convert your words to text.

I noticed today, that You want me alone in the house for a year or so too!

We have to get you back into your power, making things move, walking through walls, all the stuff you know you can do, but Have NOT in years.

I understand and am taking my time about this! Everything is a challenge and I'm moving forward 

We are pleased

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ

The Best Interview In The History

Do we really need to double food production by 2050? Actually … no.

By Mitch Hunter on Mar 8, 2017

Cross-posted from The Conversation

The Best Interview In The History Of Television [Robin Williams] - YouTube

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What are you doin now. . 

I'm linking together all the random data I've been given at this moment !

What do you do that for?

It's being very present, in loving the moment, and respecting the exact aspect as no one can understand except by KNOWING who I AM!

What does that mean?  No one can ever really know that! Every second, the new word, the new thought, creates something new. . . and No one can Know that, no can they really ever fathom all this includes

I know, that's what makes it so fun for me !

What do you mean?

I can share my blog, and just cut and paste my journal to my blog, and everything falls into context. . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. THANK You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. THANK You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. THANK You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. THANK You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. THANK You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. THANK You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

3/11/2017 3:17AM. So I spilled the beans again. It’s like our whole culture and society is based on lies of intentional deception to create a profit. Like Death is a good thing, not evil.  It might seemingly be an end of something glorious for us, but it’s only beginning something else. We of course, can simply choose to participate or not. Like all the other lies of our culture, we are programmed to accept them so that we can easy be controlled to create a private profit. You need water, someone profits by giving you water; or energy, or food, or even air. When you no longer need these things, you no longer create someone else a profit, and so you die. The more, better and faster you consume these, the more you will live.

Basically you have witnessed who I am, and it’s my place and responsibility now, to guide this forward as you lead me to.  Thus, begin by keeping this all confidential, and IDEALLY share knew insight and questions with me ASAP . . . even saving them for me first.  As I can link ORIGINAL passions together very easily . . . and change is fleeting, and fast! 

START A BLOG! Notice the right “must read” list, includes an endless array of data here (only read direct simple titles, only a quick word or two here and now).

That’s the easiest, so we can share instantly. Thus, IAM!

As you have witnessed who I AM, it now is important to set these guidelines. Like understanding certain experiences changes our perceptions. EACH microbe of thought, sight, hearing, taste affects our minds, moving our experiences, and understanding. ( (SO DO NOT read that BLOG above, it IS Circular, and thus IS ENDLESS.) ) This changes the Passions and INSIGHT, instantly. . . Thus, the ORIGINAL vanishes immediately.  And editing could easily DESTROY fundamental thoughts, feeling, or aspects in the “original” which might have easily been intended for one individual.

My sentence above could have included a typo that changed the meaning for a reader, but might not have been noticed by most readers. So Stalin or Hitler reading my mistake could have started XYZ because of it . . . and ME CHOOSING to selectively edit this work, might have prevented the next Stalin or Hitler. So read slowly, and be fully present and mindful of these words, and feeling, vibrating through you as you pass along them.

Thus in this context, that I USE for sharing my experience, READ THIS: a very short-story. NO LINKS, but only a quick cartoon explaining an experience. . .Wow, you can feel this.  Something feels different inside of you NOW. So READ THIS: OK NOW, “wow, you heard this already tonight” . . . this sounds like the motorcycle accident and Death experience we started at Ground ZERO. But now the experience and feelings you had from hearing it over beer and dinner HAS CHANGED. WOW, feel that, something about this story and detail is different, maybe even freaked you out, with some weird sentence.  No Judgement, stay humble!

That’s an Original, I’ve NEVER edited it.  The links listed are the original posts where a public list has it stored, while this link actually takes you to my own private server. The list might be dead now, but this vibration can carry on!

Like DEATH, again, hold it, we spoke about that already.  It’s a lie, or a myth, or something we can enjoy and participate in when we are READY.  Like my Mom left 1/23/99 . . . but then came back as the Taino Indian Spirit she was, to tell me what we did when we first arrived here::: READ THIS: AGAIN, only the description NO LINKS, as they will go on forever and you will get lost . . . losing the power and flavor you felt from the short three or four sentences. This is a challenge, such strong ideas slamming into you all at once. How is this possible, what is it bringing me to. Do I want to run?  Can I be humble? What could be next: UNITY METHOD: shit that’s a Public Federal Server now.  A big, giant, priceless, system with data on forever again, like the circular blog where you can never stop reading if you keep selecting the next link.

But hold it, that said PATENT: But it’s more like a public blog posting isn’t it.  Did you try to read that last one?  What about the one before?  Were the last two links different?  Are you sure?  What about the pictures?  What do you see in the pictures?  Do any of these symbols mean anything to you?  What about the second link, find paragraph [0039] Consider the DNA of AGE?  Did you read this?  Where did this Blog Post start?  Are you back feeling something new about this again?  Round back to the same place again, BUT it feels different now!

Now open this link: http://webspace.webring.com/people/ls/stars2man/ Only read the center page, through the poem . . . not even one full page. But then hit the THOUGHTS link, and read this next full story, another cartoon, fantasy, flight in imaginations. Notice the links at top of the Dream Story, hit NEXT, NEXT, NEXT, reading each new paragraph or two.

SHIT we are back to the stories of my death experience, as sweet sixteen, and kissed too much! Well, it was 2 weeks past my birthday, actually happening on my current Wife’s Birthday!

Yes, we are circular again. . . like here again: http://www.starsusa.org/homestead/files/DEGREE.htm where the top right index carries you through the same old Original stories that we spoke about over dinner tonight. Round and Round back to the same place, like riding the Moving Walkway of Rivers, or the RiverWalk.  Oh did you see that, the RiverWalk we spoke about tonight was listed in the First Patents Page, fourth one down, under the Unity Methods, and again linked here: but better still this new link also links them all, but the continuous link here is even better!

So I shared a Short BLOG page. I started “blogging” after my sweet-sixteen.  And it’s more of a Patent Log Book now.  Thousands of Pages, Millions of ideas . . . circular, spinning back onto itself over and over again, until I get it RIGHT! ===> now go read Retep’s Health Note I copied you this morning: another endless circle of links.

RITE OF DIVINE WILL

Zest2Zeal: THE RITE OF DIVINE WILL (#2)
Behind all of universal creation, there is an immanent force of Will that administers it, a Divine Power that moves it and a natural law that regulates it. Everything upon our blessed Earth has always been and continues to be divinely orchestrated through this power of Will. 

There have never ever been any mistakes. Everything has unfolded in accordance with God's Plan, the Divine Blueprint which maps out the course of evolution for all creation.



Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What was that?

!  I already have it in a big trash bag, but still do not want to ride home while it's raining.  I'm sure I will sooner or later.  But not yet I guess.  When I first got it I came here and decided to go to the cafeteria instead.  I figured I'd spend 5 buck on coffee in the library or 10 for dinner and coffee over there.  So I ate for a while.  Then I read over a lot of what the Dean gave us in her presentation this morning, and I've been thinking a lot about what Kate said.

What do you really feel about all of this?

!  It's really all about power and passion.  Which is really my middle name.  

Why is that?

!  It's like I created it all myself, and simply have to smile and watch as it unfolds before my eyes.

What's new about that?

!  But I remember when I met Jersey Frank at the little college pub in Paramus.  "Just go to Sig Ep and tell them you are with Jersey Frank."  Somehow, I always end up with the keys to the back door and a back stage pass.  It's just what I do?  And somehow that moment i walk in I just know what to do.

What you are not saying now, its that you died at 16, and decided something that was totally different than anything here on Earth.   Remember what you said - - no angels or weird air-fairy stuff.  You said that if you were here to do something then you wanted to get it done and not waste time with any of these other things.  Do you understand that EVERYONE else has asked for just the opposite.  You wanted to get to the tasks before you, while everyone else wanted to see confirmation and reaffirments all the time.  This is really so much different.  People always want to see power, walk on water, save lives and miracles, never fully trusting or having any faith.  While you only wanted to get down to work and make the changes on the earth that we all needed to see.  You actually made the real commitment of faith over the selfish ego stuff that clouds and confuses the masses.

!  So what.  I mean, it's just what I do.  I always have simply gotten down to business and not wanted to waste time with all the other things that people get all ego distracted with.

That is why you can always do things.  It's not just your tenacity, but also the clarity in mission and commitment.  You set your mind on something and everything about you makes it happen.  Exactly like the meditations direct.  They are all speaking of things you have been doing for hundreds of years.  Do you remember all the flashes you had of being on ships and travelling the globe.  Remember how you felt you have always been here.  Always been alive.  Like never staying in spirit for more than the second it took to find a new life being born.  like when you saw the police nearly crash as your motorcycle went flying.  You were only there for a moment.  You saw what you needed and you went back to get the job done.  You knew you had to get things done.  You were not sure what it meant yet.  But you knew what you needed to do.  You always have known.  It simply is who you are.

!  It's almost like I need to be in the moment of the experience before I know what I need to do.

That is the Divine Will that is the mirror of your moment . . as above so below.  It always knows exactly what it is doing. . . all that is and has ever been is divinely planned. . . nothing exists but this grace, for you to experience. . . 

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What that is, is the I AM that You are.  Of course you create.  You are the creation, set here to create.  By your Faith in  the power that flows through you.  This Is moving the Love.  Moving the Energy of Creation.  Not ego or greed, but love and creation.  These things are so fundamentally different.  One is the construct of the mind, forming and forcing things based on perceived knowledge and personal skill. . . while the other is complete faith in the love and passion of the heart.  One is real and the other is not.  both are perfect an necessary since one builds off the other.  Just like the plant grows from the earth.  One is dead and dying, but still necessary, while the other is alive and thriving.  Both are perfect in themselves, since one allows and supports the other.

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What is so powerful about this, is not simply knowing this or that.  It is understanding and BEing these things deep in your soul and experience.  Not simply talking about these things.  But listening and following in faith. . . ALWAYS!

I guess that is the real difference.  Knowing what is real, and knowing what it is I can do and will do.  Nothing but what I do.  Demand the changes, and expect the results.  It simply is what I do.  Thank you Dearest Loving Lord God for your Power and Grace . . . Please Lead us to grow and learn into your   Love and Wisdom for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost.  Amen.

What's it mean for you?

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What do YOU NEED, now?

I think this is getting really out of hand...

What have you asked for?

I've not said much since wanting "it all done" . . . not asked for anything since that. So I guess I have to finish it myself . . . wow, now the ride is really going to begin.

Where did you start?

I guess I started in the exact same place . . . I started all this in school, and I'm right back to the exact same place again. I guess my motorcycle accident got me started and my bike accident will get me done . . . .

What do you imagine?

I guess I always see the end result. I always see lots and lots of happy people moving all over the place freely helping, sharing, growing, clearing. There's always lots of children in the gardens, lot of plants and animals . . . lol. . . and lots of smiling faces.

It's funny how I always see the faces! lol . . . then I get personal and put people I know in there . . . which is not my choice, so I need to stay clear of that!!!

What do you do though?

I'm always instigating things, just like I always do. Getting more and more people to do more and more . . . . lol . . . so now I flashed to seeing the people I spoke to today all doing something fantastic for the world, where they are the very first and only person with the skill and ability to do it.

What do you do thou?

I guess we're feeding everyone. It's always lots of food and exercise, working together, growing together more and more yummy stuff to share. More places to go, more things to do, always more smiling people.

What about you?

I thought you said no faces?

What about your choices thou, what is your heart and BEing all about here?

I'm always with the children, teaching, learning, sharing. I know You want me here, and they arrive from Your Hands so I can get closer to You through their Pure Love and Truth. I guess I can't be there with You now, but I can at least get close to holding Your Hand. . . That's really the true Joy and Peace I seek, just the True Unconditional Love!!!!

Wow, thanks, that's really cool, make my whole BEING swell with the Joy of it all!!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Stories and more stories

7:54am Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Let your gestures be alive, spontaneous. Let your own awareness decide your lifestyle, life pattern. Don't allow anybody else to decide it. That is a sin, to allow anybody else to decide it.

I get to see this phrase again in my email today . . . I never let anyone decide things for me. I try to play a role once in a while or simply go along with another's expectations for fun and ease. . . people will never recognize me if i don't do this once in a while at least. . .

What are you reading now?

I read "The Way of the Hero" nonjudgment, nonsuffering, nonattachment & beauty . . . I guess I can see how the Motorcycle story has become my own little myth, some story I crafted for myself. It is very true and correct but really expresses more wonderment than pain and suffering. I usually have to point out specific phrases for people to understand any of the pain and suffering. . . since it really never focuses there anyway.

What are you focused on?

I know I always see the joy and beauty in everything. Like this morning I got an email from John . . . another John, the first John I ever met when I first moved into NJ. Wow we've known each other since we were 5 years old . . . He sent me a picture and I laughed about his goatee saying how he still had all his hair and looked as young as me . . . . He laughed too, replying that last week someone asked if he was in his 20's. . . . Yes of course we are . . . though we've known each other over 30 years. . . It's funny to see how many friends I have like that . . . John, Keith, Chuck, Trace, Kristin . . . funny too I've spoken to all but one this month!!!

Also I noticed Kathy's friends are all over 30 years too. . . guess real people come together really easily!

11.37am What now?

I'm still reading. Now it's about the Luminous Warrior" - - - fearlessly moving into life. I guess I was just reading about death. Oh boring, nothing that I ever cared about. I kinda feel like the lighted tunnel I'll see in death will really be the birth canal of my new mother as I pop out onto the Earth again. Like I couldn't stay away from this place if I wanted to. Kathy and I spoke about this some yesterday, how we've been here over and over again. So I told her how I was always the warrior, the pirate or viking pushing the limits of what was possible doing the impossible . . . ho hum, even this seems to get boring.

Why do you say that when you are always in bliss?

I know, because it's always this sine wave, up to the bliss and down to the ho hum, then back up to the blissed out again. Up and down again and again . . . . lol . . . is this why I want to see it all done. . . maybe I think the vibrations will end when I'm all finished. . .

What would be left? All life is an endless vibration, nothing more to it. Stopping the vibrations would be stopping it all. What fun would that be?

I know, that's what I always think about left alone in peace and quiet. It comes and goes . . . just the calm before the storm again. So I'm sure this hurricane season will be a wild one. No fear of course, no concern about it even . . . . . lol . . . no big deal. At least for me!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

victim, rescue roles

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

that was really weird... the next section in the book talked about holding onto the past and reliving the same victim, rescue roles over and over again

Why is that weird, we talked about what we did to get you... You learned and moved on from that all long ago. Your brothers and sister are still lost in that experience, but it' almost a joke for you now.

I know, but here the book spoke about how people never let go of these pains . . . and each trauma they described was in my experience somewhere . . . I sorta have done them all and then some.

yes, but what the book said is how people never let go and move on.

yes, and here I am feeling all these things like they happened yesterday. . .

however, do you regret them? Would you wish to change any of them? Do you feel anger and seek revenge or to redo them?

No, I love who I am and what I did. I praise God for all these WEIRD WILD things i did and do each day. . . . I laugh in pride even, wondering how I could even keep up with it all. . . I know I'll never go there again, just as I know I can feel and see others who slip into those things, and try to help people who do.

yes, and you never go back feeling sorry for yourself, regretting or living the pain and victim roles again. You did what you had to do and moved on. . . no big deal. Countless people got trapped in each event you saw. . . . even now today you still encounter things that people get lost in and suffer over for generations. . . while you simply pass over them like another thought or dream you pass in the night. . . Like what did you do today?

Kathy stopped in after church to bring me some lunch... she told me about the gossip in the church, never realized it was there. . . I told her other things to look for that would surprise her, then we took Bear for a walk down to the River . . . .

What did you see feel and talk about. . .

I took her down the same way we always go . . . so soon I was telling her where Lyn sat and how Ciera and I played in the water looking for fish and finding all kinds of things. . . sharing a love none had seen before. . .

What you realized was again how people get lost in their own traumas. . . all you have to share is bliss and love, nothing you did was for control or greed, you simple Be and expressed the Love and Joy of the moment. Others will see what they want there and make it all into something that it is not. Sure you can love and help Ciera, as you can with any child . . . . you gave her all you could for that moment. And it's gone now . . . that moment is still perfect in bliss and love . . . . it will never change. It will always be there in your Heart and in Hers. . . . let the lost world in greed and control make it something else or imagine it was less or more . . . Who cares! What was real for you both will always be real for you both. . . she might be back next time as your daughter or your lover or maybe simply to thank you for the memory you shared. . .

I know . . . so I don't need to regret or feel sorrow for what could have been or should have been. . .

What it was, is all it was supposed to be . . . a child and father sharing the love and truth of the moment, nothing more, nothing less. It might be the only time for the child, but you will never stop having experiences like that. . . You have no fear of loss or no need to control or dominate another. . . there is none of these worldly ego issues in you. . . . what flying off a motorcycle at 110mph gets out of you is really remarkable!

I guess so . . . so i leave another experience as all it was and go on to love and share the next however it is meant to happen. . . yes I'm ready, nothing can surprise me and I can still do anything . . . lol . . . I'm not going anywhere else! just here to BE with YOU ... Let Your Will Be Done Dear Jesus!!!
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Amen!

The Four Insights

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What now?

I finished the Part I of this book talking about the Assemblage Point and connecting to Our Higher Selves. . . is this all about connecting to YOU?

What do you think? Of course it is. That's why so much of your readings are old news. People all want control, that's the culture, that's the snake trying to survive. While you were the King Cobra from the start . . . smashed your body into the ground at the age of 16 with the motorcycle accident. You were so strong and so dominant that it took a motorcycle doing 110mph to send you into the flight of the Eagle . . . without a helmet. . . before you would even listen to us. . . . Then another two years before you started anything. . .

You remember Maryanne, why was she enough for you? Why should Lyn be any different? Do you think age will ever catch you? These little visions of delight are fragments of the truth that awaits you. You are free at peace again . . . do not waste time wanting, seeking, searching . . . . no one, nothing out there anywhere will give you anything more than you already have. You know we are always here for you. No one can tell you anything new, or offer you more than you will attain. Sure it's fun to learn a new clearing technique. But in the Cave where we all gather for you; you can clear us all in an instant. What use is it to share this, the Cave is already standing room only, how many more do you need to invite?

I'm not sure what you are getting at? Am i not supposed to read this book?

What the books brings you is wonderful, all books will make the connections clear and strong for you. Remember here at the Eagle perceptions are all perfect, each fits, they all connect. . . Just like when you played King Cobra, the whole culture and conception of greed and control shifted up to new levels. No one even locked doors back then, let alone considered alarms for public schools. They had troubles getting people to go to schools, why would they ever consider locking kids out after hours. . . . while now they struggle to lock kids in!!!

I'm still not sure where this is going?

What you did was get back into school to complete what you started. You already know what's at the end of this journey. You don't need to search for conclusions or struggle for understandings . . . it's all there already waiting for you to DO. Every moment you act from the Eagle you make it easier for everyone. . . . you will always see those around you grow and succeed. You Are this giant Magnet that brings so much power into creation. Why bother with it. If those around you get lost in the success, LET THEM, you don't need such shallow people close to you anyway. If they grow and love, they will be anxious to sit near you in the Cave. The three you are connected to in the center will know and invite others as you need. Nothing will be lost . . . all return to source sooner or later . . . and then you can direct and express their fulfillment anyway you like. . . nothing is ever lost. . . round and round it returns to you, over and over again!

I'm still kinda lost?

What you are doing is allowing the Eagle to soar. You have no fear. You carry no expectations. You know all things come, and let them fall as they may. Like remember the tape of Lyn at the picnic . . . you didn't recognize who was there, nor did you know who spoke. Even as you heard the tape and saw the pictures; simply BEing LOVE! It's so easy for you! There was more there for the birds and the bees than anything people could know or understand . . . of course no one knows what happened. . . it wasn't there for people. Soaring is about the trip, not the destination. . . Stop trying to understand or rationalize. Trust IT. If you are inspired to write or share . . . PRAISE GOD, and enjoy it. . . if others respond and join you . . . PRAISE GOD, and enjoy it. . . if they do not . . . PRAISE GOD, and enjoy it. . . everything is perfect as You Be Love . . . PRAISE GOD, and enjoy it. . .

I know. . . lol . . . I guess it's always really cool. I mean whenever I hear or read about people experiencing God first hand, and feeling a moment with You . . . I just want to laugh. Like when I taught Kathy F. how to write and Journal like this . . . it was like a new world opening up for her and she could feel all the Angels around her . . . . we fun, big deal, opening new worlds every day gets kinda boring after a while. . . Sure everyday is a blissful experience and it's cool to chirp with Osprey and Share Your Bliss . . . But you know I'm still a Man on Earth. . . . Oh I can't ask for anything more. . . . lol . . . got enough to do already. . . Like Part II in this book!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
Thanks For BEing with me, Amen!

Grace in Gratitude!!!!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's up now???

I'm like totally blissed out again. . . can't sleep again too. . . I've been sitting around doing NOTHING! wow... freedom, peace... Been out in the sun alot. I set some chairs way out on the edge of my property, looking at all the trees I planted, wow never realized how many. . . my own private woods. Then watching the squirrels play and the birds chirp. Even a Redheaded wood pecker yesterday!!! Bear has been sitting with me, dug a hole in the cold sand to sit in. Then he jumps up whenever I call to the Osprey. They look like the are starting flight training for the new chicks...

It was funny one even flew out here over me. I mean the nest is like a half mile away. I can still hear them, and I know they recognize me, can likely hear me whisper even. Then I yelled at a mocking bird for chasing a squirrel, lol . . . .

What are you feeling?

Oh I'm just so grateful. I think about things and look and dream... and it's like the calm before the storm again. . . I try to get things set so it's not just me riding the waves. lol. . . but that's ok, leadership is always lonely . . . lol . . . Though dozens of people have called and I've even gotten a get well card already . . .

Oh so I got this gratitude notice again and sent it to a few lists. . . . I wrote a little blurb at the beginning really for my high school class. . . I think they are planning another reunion . . . guess silence and peace gets me to think about other times I sat in peace. Like the months after my motorcycle accident where I just sat around and watched. . .

Oh there are some daisies or something growing next to the fence and it's full of these honey bees. Like hundreds going over the same flowers again and again. I can see their little pollen sacks so I know they are making honey somewhere. . . it made me wonder if all the bees disappearing from other places is because of the storms that are coming. . . Course then I've seen a few lady bugs and remembered how every season Emily would get them all over her arms picking them up as they swarmed around our house. Dave across the street wanted her to bring them over to his garden too . . . I remember he never could understand why they swarmed . . . all around the front door too, so she would take them into the bushes so the door wouldn't smash any . . .

What else do you feel?

I really just feel at ease . . . lol, as long as I'm still not moving my left side . . . lol . . . . it's like a big weight has come off me again . . . no problems anymore. All my classes are about done. . . just a paper to write or rewrite . . . Then john said the new PhD program is all set to start in the fall. I've thought how I got 2 bs, and 2 ms . . . maybe get a 3 ms and 4 phd's lol... or 2 2 and 3 . . . dual this and tri that . . . lol . . . funny Michelle doesn't sound so sure about her Phd again . . . it's funny how I influence people so easily. . . with out even trying.

Oh and then when I TRY to share and help someone, they get all caught up in fear and ego and miss the whole point entirely . . . that's sad. but I guess I can't help everyone, some times its better people hurt and suffer on their own, , , Like Dr Ryce said people only come when they are ready.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. . . thank you dear Jesus, for Always Being with me! Amen

When it rains. . . lol . . .

8:36 AM Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

TUT... A Note from the Universe
You live in Hollywood. You dream of acting; of thrilling audiences; of having the best roles. Eric, I'm here to tell you that you can have what you want, if you make thrilling audiences your end result, not your roles.

You live in Timbuktu. You dream of living in opulence and splendor; of being financially free to pursue all that stirs your heart; of buying low, selling high, writing best sellers, and sitting with Oprah. You can have this too, if you make financial freedom and a happy heart your end result, not your trading, writing, or schmoozing.

You live in Tampa. You dream of rocking the world; that you will Change Everything; that you will be in all the right places at all the right times. Yes! I can see it now, if you make Change Everything your end result, and don't mess with the cursed "hows."

It's easy, Eric, simply understand that your dream, the end result, is far bigger and more important than any of the steps you think you have to take. From a physical perspective, you simply can't know all that's involved. Your idea of the right steps may not be the best way for your dream to come true. They may even work against you.

With your end result clear, take every step that emotionally calls to you, but do not make any of them how your dream will come true. Trust the Universe to do its part, to pick the players and orchestrate the "hows," yet give it a pallet to choose from by passionately doing the things that feel right. Not attaching your hopes and expectations to these steps, only to the end, the dream, thy kingdom come.

Give my regards to Oprah, what a dear -
The Universe

It's so funny when things come in to reinforce everything that I am. Like what else could I do?

Dear Eric, Mars is now in alignment with dreamy Neptune, creating a sensitive and spiritual astrological aspect. Mars conjunct Neptune is a great time for active imagination, creativity and anything to do with healing. Master astrologer Jeff Jawer advises, “Be inspired in everything you do … the universe is supporting you now.”

Yes, what's new I know. . . . when it rains it really pours... I mean where do these things come from??? How come they all land at once???

Dear Eric, Here is your horoscope for Tuesday, March 27:
You've got nothing to lose and everything to gain when it comes to calling someone's bluff. In the process, you'll realize how low the stakes were in the first place. Could it be that you're done playing games?

I hope so . . . never been much of a player. Course some people thrive on that . . . lol . . . bummer

Dear Eric, Here is your couple's love horoscope for Tuesday, March 27:
It's one of those days when you need to be more tolerant of your partner's little foibles. It might be too easy for you to let your honesty appear as resentment. A better time to discuss these matters is coming soon.

I know, I know, I'm always too honest . . . even my Horoscope tells me . . . lol . . . figures, and you know if you are conscious and ready with your heart not just your mind, you will never find resentment, but only Love and Bliss . . . Like I always find bliss everywhere . . . I better just SHUT MY EYES . . . lol, I don't have time for any more. . . LOL ;-D

8PM What else happened today

I found out that I had to register for the next semester. I mean nothing else is going on so I better plan something! lol . . . Oh so anyway the next degree I signed up for is only offering classes I already took for the summer. Both teachers have teased me about teaching it with them. . . believe that when I see it. So anyway, I got all registered for the Fall but nothing over the summer. So I need to make up 6 credits of research again. Last summer I made up 4 credits and still plan to rewrite the paper I wrote.

I could roll the revisions into another summer but today I went to another Discussion Group.

Yes What happened there?

Of course at the end of it Dr Nord and Allison got into a discussion about this model that I looked at last night . . . WHO ME play with Models from Northwestern??? Naaa... hold it that was really weird!

What's the point?

Oh so since it was Dr. Nord who's teaching in my next program too, I figured we might be able to do some cool research this summer together, so I sent them a little write up about the model and how I need to find 6 credits for the summer . . . WHO ME Spontaneously throw ideas together to create something new . . . lol . . . What's really funny is that it might be something really cool for me to get into . . . modeling people and complexity systems sounds like a neat change from rainfall and rivers.

Now, What does this all FEEL like?

I knew you would ask that sooner or later. . . well besides the weird puns and synchronization in just the writing and notes above. . . . I mean I just went to get the links and laughed about finding Northwestern . . . its' really funny how I'm pushed in the same directions over and over again.

What about the feelings. you feel pushed, what is that like?

It really feels kinda cool. I love when the synchronicities come out over and over again. Like last night I didn't want to get up to chant, but when I woke and saw the clock 1:03am. . . ugh, I knew I had too . . . kinda early I figured. . . but then when I was done and saw it again 3:03am; I just gave up on arguing. . . I mean like all the weird pieces that fell together today it's just such an awesome feeling!

I forgot all about the next term and finding classes. And when I talked to the director and he said how the summer was a bummer. Teaching would do nothing for me in credit hours. I really had no idea what I could do. WOW VACATION time again!!!! I went to Oregon for a month last time!!! ;-D that's a cool idea.

Oh but the spontaneous synchronicty that fell together through the day was even more thrilling. I know I am all about making the world change and I know I might have to do it all by myself . . . I mean not many people sign up for this kinda thing, like flying motorcycles and bombs and all like me . . . OH I was telling someone about that the other day, how they wanted to try me as an adult in NJ. Never happened before. . . lol . . . lucky my dad had the buck$$ for the attorney and psycho stuff! Then that other gang I fought in high school did a motorcycle job just like me after I left. lol . . . and was put in prison after the surgery and all from his accident.

Ego ego ego, got to be badder than all the rest. Shit no one would have known about the job if I hadn't dropped the bike . . . while this airhead used a GUN!!! Course I didn't break a bone either, and I bet he had to do 110 mph too since that was in the news article . . . fool lost in the ego corruption of the world, so many people just don't know any better!

What about feelings, you are rambling again. . .

I AM thrilled and very happy how YOUR Spontaneous Light Creates new steps before me. It's so awesome to stop and remember how I just float through the day doing exactly what YOU open for me . . . no fear, no questions . . . lol . . . no thought! Just Love and Bliss, feeling the Divine Moment as a Gift and Doing exactly what I do best . . . I love the moment and Share all that I can . . . lol . . . wondering what time I have left and what else I can do. . . as if i could ever do anything else

Course when I got to the group they had a laptop and projector that they were clueless about using so I had to turn on that for them too . . . lol . . . STILL I'm always in the middle, right there with whoever is running it all! Someday someone will be real enough to see this truth and share it all with me! I still feel the joy and bliss of that moment!!!! Like it's now already! Hum, time for All Natural Vanilla Byers and Organic Fruit . . . YUM!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
paralyzed by Jeff Anderson

I believe in miracles.
I believe in the God that saved the Universe.
To live this life without you, I could think of nothing worse.
Though I can’t see you. Though I can’t touch you.
I know that you are reaching out your hand.
I will always walk in your beauty.
When I cannot see your hand I’ll trust your heart

hum, met 8 times in 6 months, 3 days

next song too... diamond in the rough by Jennifer Knapp
in a little while i got steeped in authority
heaven only knows what when wrong
when there is nothing so cruel
than to bury that jewel when it was mine all along
and I'm gonna find it

you're shining, i can see you
you're smiling, that's enough well
I'm holding onto you, like a diamond in the rough
like a diamond in the rough

Castaneda's Journey to Ixtlan, Review by Alan Gullette

Hum, this is really a good write-up of the story and gives me a better context. I really can't count how many times people have asked if I read any of Castaneda's books and I can see why now . . . just finished "Tales of Power." I mean I still never read a book that was new, all old news. . . I recognize that the motorcycle accident "stopped the world" for me and I simply got off! Course I couldn't stay away, Being a Warrior means that the fight or challenge is never really over. Thou as we laugh and play with each new challenge I wonder more than ever. . . . Hum, am I getting lost in myself again? Developing some new perception about who I am or what I "must do?"

I guess my biggest challenge these days is just being totally free and spontaneous. It's really kinda fun and I rarely know what to do or expect any moment. Yea, gave up on expectations years ago! But anyway, as I do and create more, this gives me some clear conception of "SELF" . . . Oh it's about the Ego again. Am I finally starting to get an ego again?

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word . . . please continue to lead and guide me in this search!

What you are feeling is very good. Ego is not bad, it's really necessary for connection to others there on Earth. You started to write more about this and missed it... Go on with your walk in the Park.

Oh it's like the Omens and chats with the birds are as common as my next walk in the park. I guess that's why I love biking so much since the first mile is through the woods along the River. They are always happy to see me, often saying how long it's been since anyone noticed them. I guess I've not visited the big Oaks in a while, last time they were just thrilled that I played with Bear as I leaned on them. . . . hum, or did they feel a kiss last? I can't seem to remember?

What about the self, what's wrong with being and wanting and all?

I guess I'm really not sure? I gave up on that after the accident because Being and Wanting in the world of Lies or the world of man is dangerous, it always leads to greed and deceptions. Hum, so I guess now I need to BE and Want again since I'm not interested in man's world of greed and lies. Hum, that's right, maybe now that I'm spontaneous in the Light, being the "Luminous Being" between the Nagual and Tonal there is a proper place for being and wanting again . . . um?

What is it about Being and Wanting that is disturbing to you?

I'm not good at deciding for others. If I give the opportunity for them to decide and simply leave it alone it's more meaningful for me, and for them.

You are avoiding your responsibility. What about the world of lies and deceptions? Do you think those lost in man's world have any clue what real choice is? Do you think they are playing some stupid role that they adopted and act out like a TV show? Do they really have any conception of truth or life at all.?Remember the power of Death, facing Death is a major tool for the sorcerers, what is your feeling about Death?

I don't care, it's been meaningless for years. Like I said bye to my mom a year before she left. Or we said good-bye, so the following year was nearly meaningless. Sure she struggled and fought; but she already made her choice and it was all done already in her heart, it was just the mind and body that had to catch up. As for me . . . lol. . . I guess losing the body wasn't enough, I had to come back and lose the mind too! LOL . . . . OR lose all the connections and relationships of the mind and heart. Hum, so I kinda died twice I guess?

You've died hundreds of times, you've remembered so many lives. That connection to Source gives you another perspective on death and all that. But what the sorcerers did was use the power and position that people are locked into as a tool to break them out. . .

So am I supposed to decide things for others, or fool them with death to get them clear of something? I mean, is this something about what I need to learn, or something that I need to teach?

What you are teaching already is the Temple of God. This is beyond Death. You are connecting people to Heaven and Earth in Ways that have simply NOT been on Earth for hundreds and thousands of years. . . No one has any concept of what you are doing. They feel the power and get connected to something they barely understand. This creates greater power and control for you. You are latching people's souls to their source again. They are all connecting to you. All these lost little creatures running around on your planet are starting to come to you. It will get more and more. It's not going to get easier for a while. Especially if you continue to wait and stay alone.

I'm really never alone.

What we are talking about is your power and focus on EARTH! Not anything else you connect to anywhere else. All this magic and ether stuff is fine for your heart and such but the Earth is ALIVE too. And it's not got much help with all the energy and chaos that man's world continues to pollute it with. . . You are a living part of this Earth and as such have a very clear and specific way to share your love and joy on this Earth. The Earth NEEDS your power and truth . . . Like the Oak Tree. Your "Wanting and Being" are a direct result of this connection to the Earth. . . Like the Chant, it's YOUR actions that make all the feelings and energies real. Without the PHYSICAL ACTION, the dreams are as useless as another TV show. . . lost energy, lost minds, no real CREATION. Actions Create, not dreams about actions!

I know . . . yea so I'm the Dream Machine remember. . .

actions are what makes that real. You create things and inspire others. You press the limits. You are not here to play silly games with people, and you don't need to wait for anything. You need to simply do it. You know you can do it and you know nothing will ever stop you. This BS about waiting for someone is only hurting you, and everyone else. . . . how much clean water and old growth forest do you think is left there. I mean if people only could live with clean water and old growth there might be only enough there for one nation left, one population, one city . . .

I Love You Christ Jesus, I know it's time to get really busy again. Read and work all the time, spontaneous to the second and focused on nothing but the DREAMS AT HAND! . . . wow, so I need to get totally spontaneous without any concerns or fears or anything.

Actions!!! That's what it's all about. Your action to clear your body was real and powerful. The DNA Changed to clear pollutions, no fear there. Your actions to build patents are real and powerful, no worry there. You actions to start new businesses are REAL! You actions to Create Your PHD, are real and working!

Thank You Christ Jesus for All Your Light.

Actions are only possible Now, on Earth, physically interacting and making things happen as you Dream and Feel Inspired too. That's what is real. Wanting is not real. Wanting is not Being. Being is about Action, Wanting is inaction, unaction, non-action. . . The desire can be real, but without the Action then it is nothing.

I know I can do anything. And I know I don't need to be waiting or wanting for anything. . . since every moment is another now to acted out what I want to BE. I can see anything, so my spontaneous actions will always create, as that's who I am . . . creation is action!

Actions! Spontaneous Actions are free and fearless. . .

I know Dearest Lord Jesus Christ. . . I know I can do anything, and nothing can stop me!

Actions on Earth include BEING all that YOU ARE . . .
FULLY SPONTANEOUS means accepting all the Angels we send you,
not only those that you prefer.

I Love You Jesus Christ, please fill me with Your Spirit and Truth as I BE Your Temple to bring Your Power into all those who share with US, for the Glory of Father Son and Holy Spirit.

Castaneda's Journey to Ixtlan, Review by Alan Gullette: "The key concept is seeing, which is don Juan's version of the living, growing mystical experience of life in which there is true perception of realty and of oneself (in relationship to that reality)(etc.). In don Juan's particular terminology, seeing involves stopping the world – or the interruption of the constant flow of interpretation (internal dialog) that creates our (phenomenal) world through description in accordance with the belief system which we have been taught since childhood. This description/projection of the world as we know it involves particular conceptions of the things of the world, and the self-concept seems to be an important (but often overlooked) part of the picture. People who live in such a closed world in which there is almost no self-awareness (or any attempt to either corroborate or invalidate the belief in a "self" by openly observing the fact) are called "phantoms" by those (such as don Juan and don Genaro) who are not trapped by the world. To be able to untrap oneself, or collapse the world, one first has to question the worldview that has been assumed all along to be reality itself. For don Juan, this is accomplished by learning a different description or away of perceiving the world (the sorcerer's description). When one's conviction in one's very own "reality" (world-construct including self-conception) is shaken, it is hoped that one will catch a glimpse of the fact, the truth, the actually real world that is there beyond our projections. This is what don Juan calls seeing. Don Juan's sole concern is to help Castaneda through this process, and various techniques are taught to aid in stopping the world. There is something of a progression in the experiences Castaneda has when he is with don Juan, and don Juan unfolds the sorcerer's description in the lessons he draws from these experiences (which he takes at least some part in creating). I will discuss these experiences, lessons, and techniques, together with the development of Castaneda's understanding, in terms of seeing.

Insofar as don Juan intends almost all along to initiate Castaneda into "the path of knowledge" (which leads to seeing, not as an end but as a beginning), their entire relationship is pertinent to the study of mysticism. At first, Castaneda does not really have much of a purpose in life – he is an anthropology student interested in the ritual use of psychotropic plants among Indians. In asking don Juan to teach him about these plants and their use, he doesn't know what he's getting himself into! Don Juan's whole approach to Castaneda is very subtly geared toward helping him open up to what is real, and as such the program is tailor-made and, as one can appreciate more in Tales of Power (Castaneda's fourth book), is a work of considerable genius. In the course of mystifying and horrifying experiences, Castaneda becomes dependent on don Juan as a teacher and guide, as well as becoming aware that don Juan is a rare and very real individual.

Don Juan's "lessons" take place in the field. They are not intellectual or academic (despite Castaneda's note-taking), but are geared to awaken a part of the human being that is dormant – namely, the body, which has an innate intelligence (will) apart from the intellect (reason). In the course of these lessons, the sorcerer's worldview is revealed. The basic premise of the view concerns views: "the world of everyday life is not real, or out there, as we believe it is" but is merely a description, a view (viii). Therefore, plants are not "just" plants but are sensitive and might become malevolent if we are ungrateful fro their generosity (6, 25). Likewise, crows become more than "just" crows but are also omens, giving important indications for those to whom they are friendly (19-20, 49). And there are other ways (than crows) that a man can get "agreements from the world" – the wind in the leaves, a falling rock, a jet flying over, the "comments" of a coffee percolator, etc. (6-8). In thinking that the world is only the way we think it is (which is arrogant and involves self-importance), we prevent ourselves from appreciating the vastness and awesomeness of life and of ourselves. IN fact, the self-concept is evidently a very important part of the world-construct. In erasing or dropping personal history, one frees oneself from the encumbering thoughts of others who, purposefully or not, seek to contain one in the conception they have of one (11-16). One is not one's name, national origin, past history; one is the world about oneself at any moment – i.e., one is mysterious, unknowable, unpredictable, always new (14). The new self-concept that don Juan teaches Castaneda is that of the "hunter" or "warrior.""