Praise God!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What did you miss?

I AM...
I REALLY AM.

I can see and feel how much that I AM is coming through right NOW in everything around me, everywhere. All this Patel and Rotary stuff just feels like ME. What I want. Who I AM. Where I want to Be and GO. It's so very cool. Funny how Scott AND Sharon drop out of the picture as I get closer and closer to fulfillment. What I see is more clear and quickly becoming really tangible and solid to DO! And it's really My vision and My Passion that's SO CLEAR!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please FILL me with YOUR SPIRIT so I continue to achieve and move into Your DREAMs, for the Glory of God our Father, Son and Holy Ghost, Amen.

Watch out for this one

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 5.33pm

What's up

I can't believe you are going to get me started into writing it . . .

Why not. Where are you sitting... What do you feel?

I ... Oops.. It's . . . I'm on my leather office chair... Legs crossed up holding my wireless keyboard right under my nose. . . LOL . . . While the monitor is over 4 feet away... LOL... Big 19 incher now.... Internet love songs with My God... lol... SONGS with Loving You My GOD... As this Journal appears before me... Never could dream of having it better.

What's the big deal Son, didn't you ask for all this... "Life is good... Eternal Life is better... "

I guess so . . . It's really exactly what I needed to do isn't it.

What do you feel...?

I'm feeling kinda good about what you are sharing with me. . .

What did you do now?

I wrote a lot . . . Dr. Henley, Sharon, Dr. Balfour . . . . I heard roomer in the office that Sharon would fail me since she wasn't happy that I hadn't kissed her ass all semester. Poor lady Katie seduced her with chocolate. . . . lol . . . . What ego can do to you . . . lol . . .

So I decided to ask her boss about it. The first thing he tells me about is that she had an Honor Code presentation that morning for all the faculty to vote on. He tells me how she added this one code that he didn't understand about how students could not submit the same paper to more than one professor. But now he understood it completely.

He wanted to know what he could do for me. I told him I just wanted to make sure he knew what she did and how I felt. I joked about suing her butt and he went on about what the process and procedures for me to complain and appeal and all this. Wow, turned out he's an attorney too. It was really funny how it all went. He knew more about my problem than I did. Course he said the first step in the process would involve him and I couldn't do anything until I was actually hurt somehow. And then he said if it ever made it that far he could likely make sure it never went any further. Dealing with the prof's was his job. . .

It was really cool to talk with him. I was thrilled. Course Kathleen called as we started, wanting to know about Sharon's Paper . . . I'd submitted it already. Barbara called since I was supposed to be with her right then.

Wow was it cool to speak with Barbara too. I had done a bit on her slideshow already. When I got to her office 25 minutes later... Wow... Only down to 22nd too. . . . I turned on my laptop. Gave her my bound copy of the GreenHorn Recycling book as my laptop turned on. Then there on the screen was the First ESOP presentation I did for GreenHorn. So I immediately went into a discussion about how to use powerpoint and present her ideas, passions and feelings. 10.37

What did she say....

I Focus on Productivity and Accomplish ==> Lifting Weights graphics come to mind. Thursday 4th-6th done before then, Thursday... The presentation needs to be spreadout more, single line, "service above self" No. 7-10
lol...
Oh yea and the Patel Center Development officer Karen krewer => wants to be the "think tank for rotary international"....

1106pm it is the kingdom and it's hidden deep in side... Cause I need the Jesus Light Natalie Grant Deeper Life...
I Love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.11.07pm

What else happened today?

I saw Barbara in the BSN hall and she went to unity to see Dr. Emoto with the water crystals. So I told her she should see all that I do. Course she wanted to know more and I gave her a bunch of things. Started with just the Mayan Brochure, but as we kept talking. . . I asked her to review the last leader paper for Koehler. Gave her my Org. I kinda told her what it was about; and she said it sounded like a book. I said how no one had edited it, commented, nothing.

Funny, an hour before I took the numbered tabs out of the folder that I had with the original to bind my copy. Used them for the paper I wrote in Sharons class to show Balfour my classwork. So I have a book for her's and Henleys BSN Plan, each tabbed and all perfect. Had then with me when I went to see Balfour.

What Else did you tell Barbara.

I told her all about the nursing and medschool stuff too. . . . Course my spontaneous thought now was to find her all the links and send them to her now. But it was really super cool. When I gave her the Mayan thing, I told her about the MBSR and she said how she dreams of getting involved with that stuff over there. She went into talking about tests and trials with Indian techniques and all this really cool stuff.

We could have talked for hours. I told her how I got Michelle a job there and the countless discussions with John. Funny, she hadn't connected with John as well on this stuff. While the power and vibration of that moment with her was so perfect.

Even another student sitting in the hall listening in got aroused. We both noticed it all too. Like I found more family in the BSN building. LOL!!!! WOW and I flash to meeting Like Ness always told me with Dr Soloman. Writing up the rules, team building and negotiating the IBA's. Structure clear methods so anyone could teach it. WOW. Patent ANOTHER METHOD!

So Barbara needs to see what I wrote Nord and Klasko.... Wow over dose... lol...
Somehow I don't feel that with her.
While lol:

To: "Eric"
Date: Fri, 28 Apr 2006 18:48:25 -0700

I love it! Thank you so much . You are really exhibiting "Service Above Self"!

Barbara
----- Original Message -----
Sent: Friday, April 28, 2006 4:53 PM
Subject: district presentation,,,

Barbara,
Hi this is Eric again....
I'm about done with my MBA, but I added another MS because I want to do research. Phd's next! Here's another hour of playing... Click through it and tell me what you feel.... ;-) I'll play with it 3 more times before Your meeting. PLEASE tell me if you see something you DO NOT like!!! I don't want to spend time on something you hate... But I'll send you a new one 3 more times improving on the
last...

Take care

What now?

so I wrote BSN Barbara too... lol...

From: O&E Journal Sent: Saturday, April 29, 2006 12:10 AMTo: Lafferty, BarbaraCc: 'starsusaorg@yahoogroups.com'Subject: Hi Barbara, Thanks

It was SO VERY perfect to chat with you tonight! I can't wait to chat some more. I've been begging people to understand me for years. To be BLUNT!

The science is getting very close to the truth, and I need to teach them something
before they mess it up....
See: http://www.starsusa.org/USFFolder/MedicalSchoolProposal/ .............. (link at top)

What do you feel now...

I love you Jesus I'll be brave.... Cause you are the only truth ... LANDSIDE by Seven Places online now. . . . kinda cool.

What are you really feeling

I've got my feet up on the table infront of me, with this big smile across my face. I can't believe I sent all that! It's really funny, that I almost sent it to both Barbara's. Oh yea, at the Rotary she said how she met with the Patel Center again and was going down to the foundation office in westshore on Tuesday. She's very inerested in the sustainability stuff. And Patel wants to be a "think tank" for Rotary International.

Wow, and my mind flashes again to seeing all the systems working together. Moving the water around the world, cleaning it, full of fish and JOY!

When the world was younger, you thought you had so much to lose... Are you who you want to BE...

I AM!

What?

I AM SO grateful for your Peace Love and Wisdom! Thank YOU dearest Loving Lord Jesus for opening this life for me to share with you. I know and see how we are just ready to make everything work in Your Joy and Love in Peace.
Please fill me with your Grace Love and Wisdom for the Glory of Father Son and Holy Ghost
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Oh the PDF is below already... lol...

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What now?

I did a lot this weekend.

It was Easter, so I had to sing and Praise in Church. Then I also had to cook the pancake breakfast. Saturday Sheilds had one for the Men's Prayer group. I woke up when I needed to leave. I hoped to ride my bike in, but only had time for a quick shower and a race over. I arrived right before they started so I only cooked a bit. Did the dishes and cleaned it all up.
I had invited John to go to, I mean he's only 2.0 miles away.

Then I visited USF, to get a few things and look up Radioshack to get some good stereo headphones. Then I saw Sharon walk in. I went down and said hi. And soon was down there again to ask about class projects and legal stuff. I copied her what I sent Dr. Henley and wanted to get her opinion before meeting him Monday.

But we soon were arguing about the Recycling project. She was really pissed that I wasn't leading her class or my team with the project. It was like I had dropped out and wasn't doing it at all.

Then I asked her if she read anything I gave her. Course the one file I started with, I never sent her. But then she had gotten the presentation for the Rotary and the Unity Patent. She read the Patent, but so what.

So I told her how I meet Dr. Nord and how we talked and shared these concepts at a very deep level. And how I met with John about it too. And they both connected TONS more than she ever admitted to at all. While I had seen the women's circle at her house and the stars and all. She told me she's more inside of me than I would ever know. And that this whole thing started when I said I would Love to work on it and make millions.... But all I was doing was scattered all over the place with no consistency or focus.

Course I've done that countless times, and careless about money or any of that. But anyway I responded that yes I could do anything, and I was always always focused on ONE THING...

Hum guess that's where the Unity Patent came in... lol... And so I told her that when she started this project she told Henley's class privitize a FOF-PROFIT recycling business. And All that I did and lead on it was the service learning with STARS not a for-profit. So I was simply out of the loop. It wasn't my baby anymore. And the first team meeting I asked them all who would run this company since it was clearly out of my realms.

BUT, then all the team research and development lead them into a public non-profit anyway. So now I was working on it all again. They were back into my passion and skills and immediately opportunities to use and develop their concepts appeared before me. NONE of them cared or understood. But I could do TONS with it all . . . . And I started with the ESOP presentation and the Rotary and all this other stuff.

Sharon got really pissed. She didn't want me presenting anything to anyone. And I basically said she couldn't stop me. But then we both yelled it all out and came back to understanding each other again. An see started talking about how she could present and get a campus Sustainability Office started up and where we could go and what we could do.

I was up past midnight and awake before dawn working, as I am again now. So I left USF Saturday, got my headphones at the Mall, and was home in my Hammock by 2pm. I was out there with a book, but just loved the life, resting in the breeze. I called her again on my cell phone and told her we could change the name of STARS again, and make it "Sharon's Sustainable Services" . . . Then get the GBA doing a STARS project now and really get things rocking. . . .

She laughed and we chatted a bit more. I'm sure we will again a lot too.


Sunday, EASTER. John and I remembered the Pancake Breakfast. And he called me by 530am. He thought I was going to pick him up then. I was supposed to be at church by 6am for choir practice, but he only lives 2.0 miles from there. So I picked him up at about 5 minutes till 6.00. He had walked out to 40th which was really cool. So we got there and had a good morning making pancakes. He met Shields and Don and Joe ... Seemingly just one of the gang. Making a obvious good impression.

Rev Jerry was sick. He looked like I did in Oregon.... "YOU ARE NOT GOING ANYWHERE!" which was really kinda funny. He was wobbly and dripping sweat. By the 930am service after almost 3 boxes of Pancakes and 4 bags odd sausages... He looked worse. Then he gave a Sermon about Passion again. Talking about how he got a little convertible hot rod... LOL. . . His passion .

Yes right. After it I said to him that we were way past due on the passion lunch again. Since then I realized that it might be time for me to leave the church.

Well, Chris invited John and I to Harmony for a big turkey Easter Dinner. So I picked up a bottle of wine for us. We all had a good time, laughing, talking and such. He decided we had to have a big Party next Friday. And then Pam, the other girl working there with him. Cathy, and Sheri... Invited us to her pool. And it turned out she was a few blocks from me. So Chris, John and I drove out to my house to get swim shorts and such and then met at Pam's house.

While here I shared a bit with John and Chris. And he saw a WHOLE LOT into me. And started telling me things, like aerial and Laura did one Valentines Day a few years ago.

It was very powerful and spontaneous. . . . As we sat outside. Switching seats with John so he didn't have to sit in the sun. Then everything opened up about me like a book for Chris to read.

Then I did the sounds with them. And aligned their Chakras and all. Wow, I guess I need to get Chris to write about what he said and saw.

We went to Pam's and her space was sacred too. Sitting in the sun again with my feet in the pool, as the three spoke about other dimensions I was in.... Kinda weird for me, as usual, I really see nothing new, and just feel WONDERFUL!

So Pam wanted to go out to get more booze. So I told her we all needed to go have a fire at my house. An hour or two later we all got in my truck for the short trip down the road.

Big Fire, Drum circle... More chants, and sounds and such. Nothing all out, but several pieces. LOL... I showed it all really quick to Chris once as we past my sacred space. But every time I started outside I was interrupted. It all over-did them anyway.

I explained to Chris how Rev DJ at Harmony had asked fro a brochure and set up my first showing. . . . Then said how people were not ready for it yet. Chris said we are all ready now. At first they thought the movie was my first visit to Harmony. But now they knew more. . . .

I tried to say how it's all been designed and the patents started and we could work on nothing but this dream for years. Pam talked about all the help they could find me at their church. While Chris told me about the single Goddesses there that would help!

It was really a "coming out" and I was VERY SURPRISED.

Nothing I could understand or expect. Funny last night Chris had a Dream about being in a Train through London . . . . Mentioned about the London Witch who visited for 5 days. . . . And wrote about it... Oh started the Mayan List about it all... LOL... Didn't say much more about the Dream...

Both he and John slept like babies. All clear and free. THEN I get this article that I posted below this. And I need to send it to Rev. Jerry Johnson... Wow... All the symmetry

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Chemical guidance of T cells leads to immunologic memory and long-term immunity

WOW, they are really getting close now!!
Wonder what directs these "guided by chemical signals released from other cells"
Bet you can't guess yet.... lol... go ahead take a guess!!!
Chemical guidance of T cells leads to immunologic memory and long-term immunity: "Chemical guidance of T cells leads to immunologic memory and long-term immunity
In the latest issue of the journal Nature, scientists at the National Institute of Allergy and Infectious Diseases (NIAID) of the National Institutes of Health (NIH) describe a new understanding about how long-term immunity works--findings that may lead to new ways of thinking about how to enhance certain immune responses and how to improve vaccines.
Led by immunologist Ronald Germain, M.D., Ph.D., the scientists took videos through a microscope to document what happens inside the lymph nodes of a living mouse shortly after a vaccination. The videos reveal that the movement of a specific type of immune cell known as a CD8+ T cell, also called a cytotoxic T cell, is not random as was previously thought, but instead is guided by chemical signals released from other cells.
Scientists have long recognized the importance of understanding how CD8+ T cells move through the lymph nodes and become activated. Once active, CD8+ T cells roam throughout the body destroying cells infected with bacteria or viruses--a process known as cell-mediated immunity. When these CD8+ T cells encounter an infected cell, they unleash a torrent of substances that poke holes in the cell's membrane, chew up its proteins and ultimately cause it to die. They also produce molecules such as interferon-gamma that help activate other immune cells."

wow

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

So What

This life is just so funny! I got pissed about my team not reading anything I send them so I called John, one of the team, to tell him my last email had my schedule and I was not going to be at their next meeting. He played it perfectly too. Responding to me in email and copying everyone else on our team. <= post it

What did they do?

I got an email from John after it and then the compiled report from Sara. It was full of inurement so I immediately told them with a link <= post it. . . lol. . . Looking for that email and I got this now:

Here is your horoscope for Friday, April 14: Above all, you need solitude and
space. You're in the middle of a major transformational period, and noise and
crowds will only distract you from your true purpose. Get away from it all so
you can think about where you need to go.

Figures!!!

What do you expect?

I Know ... I always get exactly what I feel ...

That's the problem, you DO KNOW, but still you go along and play stupid. So then no one else knows. No one learns, and nothing is accomplished. You are given these insights so you can share them. Not for anything else. And you don't need anymore proof. It's all there, it's all done. You can hear the music. It's telling you the same story over and over again. Writing it hear will not prove anything to anyone. You need to just do it. And so now you just flashed into another vision. What was it?

I saw the team believing me! They went with me to Barbra's center and we were all walking on the tour. Then it flashed to the whole system working together. I saw the water moving through her wetlands, connected to the river and the university. We were just walking on this little tour around the WHOLE place. . .

AND OF COURSE, as you ask me about it, it flashes into more and more details, countless connections and opportunities. Seeing the track running around everything, with us all walking on water, collecting recyclables & picking fruit as we chatted, seeing thousands of kids working all around... Helping, handling, sharing, loving ... No more greed and corruption. We were free again!

What do you think would happen if you finally got someone to read this and understand what is written here?

I don't really know ... But I guess you are going t tell me now ...

What is the song?

***1. City on A Hill by Third Day (CMRadio.net - The Best Mix [Modem]) - Winamp

What is it saying

I'm shining my light upon the world...

There's your Father up in Heaven . . . This is your world. You need to takecare of it and do it all by yourself. Everyone wants someone else to make it work. We want to be protected, and secured so we create governments. We create the major force that we need to be PROTECTED FROM!

If we do it ourselves in Love, we don't need anyone else. When we have each other in love, we are not insecure. We all know that we waste money and resources here in the one place that can truly make the difference in all the world. No where can you publish instantly for all the world to see... EXCEPT in the one place where you can also step another cigarette into the earth killing another child.

The butterfly effect apply to people 100,000x more than the butterfly. We are conscious and share the knowledge, feeling and insight with others. . . . So the air vibrations are multiplied geometrically. Which means overtaking that we do and think and feel can be incredibly powerful if we do so in truth transparently.

I know that's why my wholelife is online. Wasn't that what you wanted?

What you've done is exactly what we wanted. Everything is where it needs to be. You are ready to start. Which two girls did you see yesterday and what happened with them . . .

I can't believe it. I got two honor students for the two professors i work for. Michelle is ready to do classes this summer and anything Cecile needs . . . lol, might get her on the webpage or who knows? lol... while Audrie is ready to help with the Global Research Center's Strategic Plan that John has.... lol... 8.14am bike time!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Always trying to make it RIGHT

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What now?

I'm always doing too much and challenged beyond reason. Thursday night I spoke to John at length again in his office. And I asked if he would attend the Symposium that Sharon had planned for Friday. He was and asked if she had planned to video tape it, since it might be useful in classes. Course I can video tape anything. So he wanted me to ask her about it.

After we broke up I ran into Sharon getting copies. Sure she was trying to get it video taped, but wasn't having any luck. So I offered and she told me to come prepared and we would see then. Friday morning I was there before 7am. Course Henley said he might ask me to present Friday, so I was up all night formulated the presentation that I started the week before. Now I needed to add the Rotary and all that Suz's brother John had said. . . . Wow he read my work in a second and stitched it together like magic.

So up all night with the presentation, I liked it and sent it to Laura, Suz, and John (Jones) the three of my family who talked with me while I worked on it. . . Oh course!!!

Then Friday morning I was there ready for video. Chris was setting things up. I walked around since the door between the two buildings was still locked. I told him what Sharon asked for and he was thrilled. Then Dennis the BSN IT guy had another Sony DVD camera and tripod, so I could use them too. It was great to have another battery, and the Q&A at the end I got with the DVD camera as my tapes were all full by then.

Course I was walking all around with the cameras doing what I wanted like I owned the place. Even the head speaker, Ray Anderson, was thrilled and asked me for copies of the video. John made it too, and sat with the Dean, Ray and Sharon. It was really cool.

But then I had to go to class. My last email to the team was kinda rough and I'm still not sure what to write now.

Why was it rough?

I guess I got pissed about them making the WRONG assumptions and miss-information throughout the project. No one had a clue what I was doing or trying to do. And I got annoyed because I would email everyone about it all the time. No one read or understood a thing I said. Now I really don't care. I can use whatever we finish for a new business anyway.

Then why are you concerned about it? It seems like you are getting all the data and support that you need to make something happen that most people dream about. So why not just do it?

I get trashed by these clowns every time I do anything. . . Insulted and humiliated...

What about doing it after the class is done? You know you can do it anyway. So if they are all lost in space, you can just do it all on your own and never explain anything to them. So what if they are so strong and clear about being lost puppies. Remember you are not here to save every little puppy that comes along. Like Scott, it's not your job to wipe his butt, if he does something illegal, then report it. Let someone else whip his butt, and move on to do what you know you have to do.

I know, I can't take care of everyone. And those with truth and sincerity in their hearts will see and recognize what I'm doing and trying to do from a distance. I know I attract what I need and never have to concern myself.

What you are doing it perfect and fine as it is. You don't need to concern yourself with it and it's just not an issue anymore. Do as you must and everything will work out exactly as it must. No worries be happy.

I know I hear this every week.

What you know is that every challenge makes you stronger for the next one. Sure you might feel humiliated and down-trodden, but you are stronger and stronger every time. Nothing will be able to stop you, don't let the fools get you down. Remember there will always be those who try to stop you. They don't know what they are doing half the time. Programmed or hypnotized to do foolish things. Once again not your concern, is it.

I know... I'll get busy. Please fill me with your strength Love and wisdom for your Glory, amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.