8:05:26 AM

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Tuesday, February 20, 2006

Dear Lyn,

I am glad to see a happy text-message from you, and I hope Ciera is equally joyful. It's been awhile since we spoke. I miss you both!

I understand how important it is for you to work things out with your Ex on your own. Afterall, you two brought this beautiful soul into this world. You owe it to her to make things right.

It's been difficult not seeing you, especially after bonding with "our" daughter. However, God brought us together for some reason; so please do as you need to first . . the etheric visits are still nice; but the phone is clearer!

As you expected, I wrote you after your phone call on the 23rd. I had not felt comfortable to send it to you until I put more together.

When it rains it really pours, the walk on the tight rope will be easier if shared at least as just Friends. I'm here for you if you need just a friend to talk to, or anything more!!! But only when you are ready!

My Love and Light go out to you both!
Namaste'

Eric

Hi Lyn,

Hope you're doing well. It's been awhile since we spoke. I miss you and Ciera.

It's been difficult for me not seeing you, especially since I was beginning to feel the bond with "our" daughter. However, the Good Lord brought us together and for some reason He has taken us apart.

I understand what you're going through and how important it is to you to explore the possibility of making things work again with your Ex. Afterall, you two brought a beautiful soul into this world together. You owe it to her to try everything to make things work. I wish you only the best.

I hope we will always be at least Friends - and friends talk to each other on a regular basis, although this is an awkward time. Obviously I want to be more than just friends - but I want at least that... the friendship. If the Good Lord decided we should be more than that, then I want you to feel that the past is passed and you gave it your best effort. I don't want just a part of you. I want ALL of you.... but only when you're ready.

I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to.

I Will Forever Be,

Eric

10:19:59 AM

Yes I chanted last night and again she came through. Not as strong and erotic as I've seen before, but more just to tease me it seemed. After the chat with Lisa I kinda feel more worried about Ciera. Like Lyn is not there for the little girl very much, and seems to just appease her to avoid conflict and allow her to grow up as she wants.

Kathy,

Really tired Sunday too...

No one to chant this morning... ;-( DJ even seemed over done . . .

Lisa soon came in and invited me to her house thingy again. I asked if she needed anything and she gave me directions and asked me to get something she needed for dinner.

I arrived on time, before anyone else of course . . lol . . and helped her prepare some stuff. She now lives blocks from my parents house . . . I soon asked her about Lyn. She said she invited Lyn, but never got a reply so didn't expect her.

She's only known Lyn for just over 6 months. Really likes her and enjoys her sensitivity and strong spiritual senses. But seemed to say I had spent more time with her and also said she was a bit "flighty and non-committal" . . . She never met john or any family except Ciera and was a little stunned that she leaves Ciera at her Grandmothers to travel off for weeks at a time. Almost seemed non-committal to her own daughter too?

It was interesting to hear another perspective but not much more. Lisa invited a bunch of people from Harmony as most everyone recognizes me as the video guy. Petito, Lou and Doug were there, so I ended up staying longer chatting with Lu, since I really planned to only make an appearance.

They all have been in classes together and seem to attend things together regularly . . . . I was welcomed by all so it was kinda cool . . .

I got home at about 4.30pm and went to sleep reading a school book. Of course I have class tomorrow and left the book for it at USF. So I need to get there at dawn to read and take a quiz before my 9am class.

Yea I was a little sad about Lyn, but have before felt that the courts would not be done for another month at least anyway. She slammed the door shut in our last phone call (1/23), but the box of sandals and text-message-thanks imply the door is cracked open again (2/16). I'm not sure if my note will open the door, or close it, but it should at least give her better insights on her daughter, which she evidently really needs!

I feel like I now have some free time to get a lot of things done, so I'm going to focus on this... Keith has offered to edit my article for school, but I'm not sure he will yet... Have you seen this? http://www.seedwiki.com/wiki/stars2man/fit_into_the_science.cfm

Nite Nite
Eric

She knows I'm writing her again. She's known this for a while and keeps wondering about it. She's not ready to just open my blog, because she knows she gets lost into it too easily. She's really just waiting for a note directed just to her. She knows there is something coming, and that might be why she was so nice and polite with the flower-text-message. Course I know we'll be together again soon, I'm just not clear if it will be because I push for it or not.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

4 Ahaw Dates and Maya Creation Mythology: A View from Postclassic and Colonial Yucatec Maya Literature

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 5.15pm

What now?

I know you want me to get busy on countless other things that you have before me. What's new

Well if you are here, you might as well get it done quickly, don't you think?

Yes I know. So I finally got my new server running. I HIRED someone to come here and fix it on Thursday and he only crashed it! I asked him hundred questions and such while he sat waiting on the server. So I found out I had really done it right from the start and was really just a WIMP not getting it done.

Wow, so you are a wimp now, what else happened Thursday?

When I got to school I realized the group was about to start so I called them and left a message. Then I put on my jacket and slacks for the Career fair for MBA's. Course I was really only interested in going to www.nshmba.org for dinner. I went to one event they had last year and never heard from them again. So I was thrilled to get an invite to volunteer to help with the meeting. Another lady at the International Business Center was going too so I suggested we carpool from the Career fair.

The fair started at 4:30 while the nshmba started at 6-pm in Ybor City. I told her we should leave by 5pm to get there early with the traffic. But then there was this Mayan Researcher coming at 4pm in the SOC building. I left for there at 3:30! Walked around reading signs and seeing such until it started at 4pm prompt. Another class started in the room by 5pm so they had to be done at a quarter till. So I decided to leave at 4:30 PROMPT!

I sat in the corner by the door. The last one in was a totally gorgeous redhead. Long and wavy hair to mid-back. . . Sitting with a seat between us infront of me. Then the discussion was INTENSE! She started off showing these Maya Hieroglyphic Codices and said how she was going to explain the creation story as it was written in like 4 different codicies. The Codex was like a old Mayan almanac of events and dates, astrology and such.

She described how she would explain how they recorded the times that rituals were done for the sun and earth. WOW. I was like wired in her words. As she showed the powerpoints talking about it all I could feel the vibrations going right threw me! WOW! She knew her stuff. Like when I saw the DNA coding and how they created a picture to me as I scrolled through them. lol... It's like several strands moving now as I look again

I really hung on her every word holding my palms up, touching thumd and index finger. . . . Until 4:30 and I got up and left. I got her name and email off her powerpoint. Road my bike back, up to my office to get the tan Jacket for the Fair.

I walked over to the new building where they had it. I looked over at everyone and saw all these black suits! As I walked bown the stairs past a violin player I noticed one other tan jacket, it was koehler's partner Tony. So I shock his hand and told him about the black jackets. Then I asked him about the patent and getting it all done for him. He said he was still thinking about it. I told him to worked, just needed to get finalized so he could make a pretty one.

I chatted with a few other people. Got a job lead for Keith, lol. . . . And then met the ladies heading to NSHMBA. Soon I raced off to bike over to my truth and picked up Audet who was going with me. We got there just about perfect, and signed people in collecting money. Someone in my team from the Business Plan class came in with his wife. Then there were a few really sweet pretty girls there too. I never really talked to anyone except a few. One guy recognized me from the fair. thn a UT professor came in too.

Why didn't you go out and chat with people? You had some practice at the fair and did fine.

I guess I couldn't over do it. Starting kinda slow.

What happened with Audet.

Well on the way home we were talking about stuff. And she finally said she was a civil engineer too. Wow. Then I found out she was in te Peace Corps too,and went to Parague to work on the water system and some politician ran off with the money for it. So she wanted to get a MBA to get more involved in planning and operating these organizations. Then I told her about STARS and how I tried to change things too, and realized I could only do it myself instead of relying on others. Everyone has a price. Sooner or later everyone in government gets enough money that they don't care anymore.

It was funny. We were talking about how people go crazy when the money gets to a certain level. They just loose all senses, becoming like a robot hungry for just money. Then we got to STARS and she was blown away. Sorta like I was hearing she was an engineer. So I told her I needed her help to design a water system. Then I also told her we should study for the PE exam and do that too.

What happened next....

I guess we just sat in my truck. I saw Chris Thomas come out. I never saw him before john brought him over. I realized he looked a lot like my dad . . . Seemingly with his head in the sand exactly like my dad too.

What's with your dad?

I guess I sent him a note that Thomas said "hi". . . . He replied "love, dad" BS at the end. Like he has any clue what either of those words mean. So I wished him a Happy Anniversary. That went out the night before it on Valentines day; Sharon has told me before that I'm the only one in the family who remembers them . . . lol . . .

What's the point?

I'm really not sure. I wrote the Mayan teacher to apologize for leaving early and asked about meeting again. She said she would be happy too but was leaving for a few weeks and asked if I could email her something. NOPE, need to meet. Then I realized she was a Honors teacher in New College and I could do my research with her. She's In USF too. WOW, I felt how she would want to study everything. . . wow, I mean everything comes out at once, reminds me:

This invention came in a vision after a death experience. I dropped a Suzuki 650 at 110mph two weeks after my 16th birthday, no boots, no gloves & no helmet; not a pretty sight; several months later a "patent lab book" was started, which now includes thousands of pages.

I guess my whole life has been this research project for you hasn't it

Well it's about time, I thought you were going to be quick about this it's nearly two hours later and your finally done.

I know, I'm sory, time for school work now.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank you for sharing You life with me . . Withth all of US. Please lead and guide me to fulfill your Dreams for the Glory of God the Father Son and Holy Ghosts. Amen

1:19:10 PM

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Saturday, February 17, 2007

On the 12th I went to Sam's and got some gas and such. Then I stopped at Kabloom across the street about sending flowers to Lyn and Ciera. I spoke to Carman again and she was thrilled about getting something for the daughter and mom. She knew about the Christmas flowers and I got some balloons and such then. They had a few Gund Bears and little green frog, but nothing but glass containers and some other stuff I didn't like. She told me I could put together whatever I wanted and they could deliver it for me.

So I stopped at a few places looking for a basket or something cool to put flowers together for Ciera. I found a little fish picture frame and thought the frog could hold it in a basket. The roses and all was cool for Lyn but getting something for Ciera was more complicated as just flowers are boring and candies and such aint any good either. Tuesday the 13th I got up early and went to get some more pictures made and all. I was buzzing in total bliss feeling their surprises. I got out my calligraphy pens and wrote up some cards for each of them.

Lyn's card was "For a special Lady" opens up to say ". . .who's as beautiful on the inside . . . as she is on the outside . . . Happy Valentines Day" Then I wrote:

"If you Love Someone, Set them Free.

If it returns to you, it is yours

If it doesn't, it never was"

Then at the bottom:

"By the Word of Jesus Christ, amen" EW

On Ciera's I wrote:

"Will you be my Valentine?"

"My love is with you" EW

I didn't sign either, but put my little "EW" in the corner. On the drive back to Kabloom Tuesday, I stopped at a few more places to find a little picture frame and anything else for Ciera that would be nice. I made a bunch of pictures and got a few that worked with the frame. I edited a few pictures from the 1/7 bike day and it turned out cool. Then I found a picture keychain for Lyn too. Carmen loved it all of course and put together all sorts to make sure they got a special V-day.

I was just blissed out all day vibrating at the love I felt for them both. It almost felt like Lyn knew what I was doing, and was smiling already in anticipation. But I just let it go, and moved on. Wednesday the 14th I was buzzing again, but could feel that Lyn was busy and tried not to connect at all. She knew something was coming, but never wanted to connect or get excited either.

I dropped by to visit Kathy and Ginnie on Thursday and she was stunned I hadn't even gotten a thank you note from Lyn. She felt like I was sad about it too. I was really just tired and hungry after the long day, and really only held the bliss from the day making things for Ciera. When I got home there was a box there from Lyn, with my sandals and sunglasses . . . with a return address for a post office in Lake Alfred? Pretty writing!

It was kind of weird, no note, nothing but the box and stuff wrapped in bubble wrap. It was obvious she took her time and care with it, but nothing more. Course I called Kathy the moment I found the box. She was upset about me not even getting a "Thank You," and I wanted her to know about the box. She didn't answer and without a note or anything I didn't know what to think. So I chanted and sent all the energy up into Heaven. It was like Lyn was waiting or wanting some reply from me, but I just sent the energy up.

Then the next day; Friday Morning I got a test message on my phone:

Thank you for the Beautiful bouquet of flowers for Ciera and me! I appreciate your thoughtfulness! Have a Miraculous day! 10.21am 2/16/07

Course I replied that second too, as I called Kathy to tell her. I didn't like her mad at Jaclyn for the no "Thank You."

Glad you enjoyed them, hope Ciera had a big smile! Thanks 4 the sandals. Nameste' er:-) 10.40am 2/16/07

Then I could feel Lyn connected to me again. Her joy and bliss were with me all day. I tried not to talk with her. But we chatted a few times anyway. I kept telling her she needed to make this real and forget the dream and the ethers routine. She never said what she would do, but it felt like she had something planned. I went to have a big dinner with Kathy and Ginnie again. I was feeling like my phone would ring with an invite to dinner from Lyn. But I wouldn't hold onto that feeling or make anything more of it.

I was certainly buzzing all day. I could feel her close again. Not completely attached like we were with the silver chord, but just the easy joy knowing we were still thinking of each other.

I guess that's my whole point today. I felt her so strong and clear yesterday and last night. Talking and sharing again through the ethers like we had before. The Chant last night was really strong and I went right to sleep. I felt her still, but it was still like she was up to something. Sometimes I wonder if she is with john trying to make it work or if there is anything there at all. For the most part it feels like that's about done, finished, kaput!

The first day I met her, she was with Lisa at church. After I Chanted with Lori, she had told Lisa about it and Lisa wanted to learn it too. After missing week after week, Lisa finally did with Sally and I. So last week, Lisa said she still wanted to do it again, but was busy with stuff. She told me she bought a new house in Northdale and invited me to a house warming that is tomorrow.

I mentioned this in passing to Kathy. And she's convinced that Lyn and Lisa have planned something. As I feel it; it's almost like an engagement party; which seems more like hopeful thinking than a heart-felt truth. Then again I could feel Ciera and Lyn as I got things ready on the 13th. Then felt more confusion than anything on the 14th. It was almost like she expected an email or something and didn't get anything so was disappointed. Like sent the sandals next day priority mail on the 14th from wherever she was. But then made it to her office Friday the 16th and text-messaged me the moment she got all the flowers

It's still kinda weird for me now. I went over the note I prepared for her. After she said good-bye she told me to email her. I've not done that yet. But I've posted most everything online in the Blog and then edited and reedited a summary page to send to her. I planned to send it on the 14th if I didn't get a reply, but Kathy said how the "Set Love Free" that I wrote was more than enough already.

So the links page is all ready for Lyn, and I'll wait and see what happens. I keep telling her to call me, visit me, or just grab me . . . and she knows how I'm always looking for her in church. It's really a matter of whenever she decided she was ready for a real relationship. I can tell that we're destined for each other, and I know she's getting ready to take it seriously. I just don’t know how soon or what else she might have planned in relation to this.

Funny, I told her through the ethers yesterday that she needs to come work for me now. Drop everything else and be fulltime on what we need to share and do. Course then I think about the sex, and how we'll be totally erotic and kinky with each other. It's like we'll need a few months to just get horny together and get all this hunger out. Every time I think about this I laugh. She seems to think that she will surprise me with how horny and kinky she is, while I know that I can do things that no one has ever seen or experienced. It's almost funny, how the desire and anticipation gets stronger and stronger.

Thank you Loving Lord Jesus Christ for you Peace, Love and Joy! Amen!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What

I'm wired again, and it feels really good. Today Cecile got her new office. So I moved her in as if it were my own office. Making it all just right! Or like I would do for my own mom. It was really kinda neat, since I've moved offices so many times. I couldn't even count them all. . . lol... It was really easy and fun! So then she offered me more hours and asked about me doing more for her. Last week when she saw my abstract for Klasko she kinda freaked, but I guess I never really warned her about it. But now she wants me to do more for her so I immediately told her about me taking classes with them too. I know I really need to sit down and go over this thing with her in detail. Feels liek 3 MS's now, somehow the sustainabilty and spiritual leadership needs more PEOPLE science and care from a nurse! Course I immediately feel like I'm going over it all with Sharon too. The two ladies are so much alike, almost sisters. . . lol. . . Never thought of that before!

What happened in business.

I finally got my shit together for the dual major there... MSM & MBA! I got Balfour to file the stuff for me to get into the 2nd program and then asked around about the USF business cards. No one knew who was paying for it or authorizing it, so I asked around to everyone and finally just did it myself with the form I had received when I started. It was really fun. I even called Cathy and showed John, Sharon and Balfour samples before I finally ordered some. Now of course I want to change it. . . LOL. . . .

What else?

It is all just so funny, because this whole day has just been more, more, more every moment. Like after 6pm I was checking on books that john needed and went to the library to get some. As I was coming home the BIG FULL MOON showing off in my face. WOW, I knew why I was so hyped up. Everything was about to blow. I could see it there right before my eyes.

I knew I had to chant tonight and started by 9pm when I got home. Even while working with Cecile she told me how she couldn't sleep. So I told her how her malatonin turned on at 3am and she had to get up and use it. She knew exactly what I was talking about and it was really funny. Earlier the Dean was in her office chatting and said how she did morning exercises and such to start the day. Sounded like yoga, MBSR stuff and she said how all the nurses there dream about taking Cecile's class. Wow, wait until they see my class . . . lol. . .

I even told Sharon how when I chant I connect heaven and earth and get totally pumped up in energy so what ever I think about goes into some fantastic visions. So now I thought how I could buy the treehouse and all the land there with some fantastic business plan to Bob detailing all the pieces of the chant, video, online save the world stuff. WOW!

What else?

I know I've also been seeing the deals with Scott all happening at the same time. Like three four, five contracts in a row. Chuck scrambling to keep up. And then I'm getting social again. There's three or four meetings I'm scheduled to go to THIS WEEK, just to meet and socialize. Wow, it's about time I did that again. It's just so funny. Then I listed a few other people to call and setup, Gail, Google, Ho, Dave, Shawn, Equan, Bates, Shields, Sharon again and again with Cecile. . . . lol. . . . . and I told Sharon about shape-shifting and talking to animals; while I can feel information FROM EVERYTHING. . . lol. . . while she's just struggling with the male ego crap there in the office. All the guys jsut worried about their johnson, and she's driving this new Hot Rod. Bigger johnson than any of them. And I see Skalkos as I ride to nursing and she's driving a BIG Johnson too . . . . no wonder she's lost in all the rules and BS instead of seeing the truth I'm sticking in her face.

Course the group is getting video taped now too! Funny, my whole life is an experiment, and I can prove it!

Why don't you get more specific?

I need to get some sleep. It's 1:33am already. Course what time would I ever expect.

What times have you been waking to chant this week?

I've not missed a day in over a week now chanting, and it's 2:22 I've seen lately. Then I feel 2:4 6 = 3 + 3 => 3 x 3 = 9. . . 3 . 3. . . lol... Course 9 + 3 = 12, where 1;2 => + 3 again . . . lol. . . while 1;2 is jsut 1/2 of 2;4 where I started back with the 3 twos . . . 2.2.2. . . . lol...

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thanks for your Grace Love and wisdom; Please fill me with Your Truth, Strength and Wisdom so I may grow to achieve everything that you have set before me!!!! Thank you, Amen

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What

I guess it's all kinds of craziness again... LOL. . . Still. I hear so much around me all the time that just is weird or funky. Like John finally had his meeting with Chris over the KLD stuff we've been doing with SPSS. And so he brought him over to introduce him to me. And Chris immediately said he knew me... Played tennis with my dad. It was really funny. . . just freaked old john. . . That's happened to John twice now. At a Christmas dinner he freaked with Dr. Ness greeting me so quickly and warmly. "Where you know him from?" . . . lol. . .

It's really weird, reminds me of the engineers at the Health open house. Today when my business plan class team met with Sharon again at lunch, I saw Dr. Kovac walk by again. I just want to laugh since I knew he's in some useless BS beuarocrat job just struggling to stay awake. It's funny I can almost feel when a person is in one of those jobs.

Yes Son, what you are feeling is the familiarity that you have with these people doing things that you have done as well. You try to feel so far above everyone, but you know you've done it too countless times and really are no different than any of them. You are all people in the same boat, all wanting and fighting for the same things. Once you all realize that the best way to really have the things you want is to start sharing them more.

I know, what are you telling me for?

What you need to do it stop fighting everything. You are more able to just be who you are now than ever. You are afraid of doing things that will reveal who you are. Son there is nothing here that you can do that will ever make this anything less for you. You know exactly what you will do and what will happen because you have seen it all countless times. Again and again this vision flys through you. You have seen it all countless times and really already know all the answers. This is nothing for you to fear. Simply allow what you know to flow and be free as you wish it to be.

I know you tell me that every moment

What were you thinking just know then, write it here now:

I saw myself doing a presentation in my class about what I know and see everywhere. Wow, I brought in my video camera and taped it all and I blew myself away. FLashes into the grop meetings too, where i need to do the same thing. But then today there was Chris from my MS class who did a presentation with me before. He did what I told him to do last time. It was really cool, and he did this awesome job. I was just thinking how I would tell the class what I taught him. And I felt jealous, wanting to brag about what I did. . . That I taught him, what I felt about it all.

But that was wrong, why should I be jealous, I should be proud about it and encourage him more. I really should be doing the same thing with Sharon and my other class too. So what if people are naive and never experienced the real world. I've seen all sides of everything and remember all of them. It's really a wild ride for me and I know that I'm barely starting anything yet. . . feeling the vibration of each one of them looking at me again. . .

Wow, so I felt myself riding my bike to school again and working a hundred hours a week getting all kids of crazy things done all over the place. It was really a wild ride and kinda cool. I see these flashes of light. Sorta half dream and have vision. It's a TV projection flashing by me and then I see the blip on the screen of the helicopter I hear outside my window now. LOL . . . everytime I hear one of those I feel the guy freak out about what I flash across his screen. It's just weird that I feel his vibration and reaction to me.

I know that's what I live off of. The vibration and reactions I create in others. It's so cool, and really weird. I always get this vibration and sensation of everyone I encounter. People look up to me in a weird way. I still feel like the new kid on the block, but I know my children are older than some of them. LOL. . . . I mean those wonderful kids could teach so much to these people. My own children. Like Equan, we've spent a few years together and it's been such a tremendous gift to each of us. Like we could do so much together and know we can.

What flashed then!

I saw Bates coming to help me and Equan and seeing all this craziness at my house and investing in it. Just wanting to see what I could do and helping to make it all happen. Then Shawn flashes in again and the deal gets bigger and bigger, now Ron and Scott . . . then sharon and others. Wow, so now I flash into Klasko's office again and "hey dude, I jsut know you can help make this happen, and we would just blow the doors off of this whole place overnight"

Shit I've seen that millions of times before . . .

Yes son you have. What does it make you feel?

I feel like I'm falling into a time warp again. Like another spontanious regression where I feel and reveal deep passions to people where they all can feel it too. And it makes them hungry and desperate to connect for more. It's all really clear and strong for me. Like I told Sharon I was a Shaman talking to animals and shape/shifting. Course she already knew it. LOL. . . but it was so neat to tell her about my chants where the power takes me away and i fill with such powerful visions. . . . then leading and teaching people by encouraging their passions.

I really do that to everyone, it's really kinda funny. Especially the really talented people are the ones that pickup the most and can do the most. LOL . . . course my children! Wow, I've been feeling them a lot lately, i wonder what they are going through. When Chris hits puberty everythings going to blast apart! Course we all know . . . lol . . .

What do you need to do?

I know i need to get back to work and speed read through a bunch of things. Funny when I met DJ and she told me about the mayan dude coming the next day, i read his three bibles that night. Wow, they were bigger than bibles, or at least one was way bigger for sure!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please fill me with your Grace love and Wisdom to Fulfill YOUR GLORY! In the Name of Father Son and Holy Ghost Amen.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What?

I feel like I've been doing much too much and need to separate myself a bit from things. Like yesterday I got a call to do some stormwater modeling as I was racing in on my bike to meet about a prototype. As I chatted on the phone I dropped my keys , which were then run over by a few cars.

GREAT!
So then I met someone and took him over to the shop to check out a prototype. Course all that was about was complaints and BS about costs and results. Shit the widget worked and we goofed with it for weeks to get it right. I felt like I did the guy a favor and all he did was nag about the costs. Course I created Idea Weaver Inc. Thinking this would be a cool business to do, but I certainly don't need the extra head aches. . .

What else then?

I also finished the patent write up for the phone leash. Not a big deal, but still something that I really just wanted done. The guy wanted to pay me for my time when it was all done. So I did it and went to visit him. I only did one that we talked about but he wanted the 2nd done too. So now the 2nd is done, and I've got this first with a check ready to go. I can head to the post office now and send one of them.

I guess I was paid well to do them, but it certainly wasn't what I want to do with my time. I missed a few group meetings too. I sorta feel like that's not worth my time either. But now as I write I wonder what I really want to do all the time.

What else did you do today?

I guess I finally got the stuff together for my 2nd Masters. I found out that I could take any classes that I wanted to take and this job would pay for them. So I might as well stay here as long as I can. So I checked out about making USF business cards and that's not a big deal either. Everything is easy. . .

What would you like, difficulty with everything you do?

I guess I know it will be as easy or difficult as I make it. And I will always have a choice over what I want to do. Like I need to get busy reading my book for class tomorrow. Then I plan to go to the group today, and meet Scott and some friend of his tonight about our land deals.

Always more to do...
Please Loving Lord Jesus Christ, lead and guide me to grow and learn to achieve and learn in your light. Could you resolve the issues I have and let things move in peace and truth. Thanks
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

So here we GO!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's up?

I know this is really getting stronger and stronger. I've been chanting every night again. I seem to go through cycles, where I chant every night, and then where I don't. I also noticed that whenever I do chant I get more focused on what's before me. And I think and Pray about meeting people and what I need to say or do when I do meet someone.

It's really weird, because I never did that before. I usually just "wing-it" and feel like God will allow what God wants to allow. I guess I'm realizing that I need to take more control over all of this and stop just letting things ride all the time. I guess that's true with my business and professional life too. I've been working on a patent all week for Bates. It's not really complicated, but I need to make it right. I'm not going to submit something that will never get through. . . . I know I started Idea Weaver, Inc. Thinking I could develop patents and such for people as a profession. But I really would have to do two or three a week, which would be working about full time.

Forget that, I never want to work that much again on anything like this. I guess I could only work that much on doing something with children. . . lol. . . Wow, I guess I really only want to teach now. I don't want to work at anything else anymore. I wonder now if I just want to raise my own kids or really help and teach others?

What happened Friday?

I guess it started with all the rain, and wanting to go to some open house the Health VP was having. I thought I would walk there since the rain was too bad to ride my bike. Then we had planned a 3pm meeting which was cancelled for me to see the CFO instead. Course my class ended at 4pm. We did have a break just before 3pm and I thought to leave then. But I could hear You couldn't I?

What's knew you can hear us all the time. You just don't choose to listen all the time. You are getting better every day thou!

So I left after class and walked back to my truck with my umbrella in the rain. I felt I needed to drive over to the VP's new office and walk in with all my stuff for a full presentation. So I got everything out and had it all organized before I drove over. As I pulled into the parking lot there was an open space right in front by the door. So I parked and rushed in.

Someone else parked right in front of me, and I about rushed to avoid any contact. As I opened the door the man greeted me. It was the venture capitalist that Beth works for, who I met at the Entrepreneur Club party before Christmas. We started right into a good conversation about business deals. He was there to see the VP as well. So we went in together. Course as we got upstairs one guy with him said hello and introduced himself. He was the USF patent dude who drove Scott crazy a few years back.

He immediately said how it was USF that messed up the deal with Scott. Then gave me his card and told me how he was now a manager working for the Chamber of Commerce. Cool, so I told him about meeting a VP, President, & Rhea Law and asking her about Privatizing the Patent System at USF. . .

Just about then the VP came out and everyone stood up in front of me to greet him. . . So I got out of the way . . . lol . . .

When the VP turned to me for hello's and introductions, I kinda turned away since I wasn't really part of their group coming in to see him, and he sorta knew that . . .

So I went down the hall and hung out by his assistant's office. She wasn't there of course. But soon the VP was out looking for her to call Carlucci. . . lol. . . Oh sure I can call him. . . Never said that, but I likely should have. . . . lol. . . I told him she wasn't around and I hadn't seen here, so he went calling for her down the hall. Course I could have done that too! DA!

Soon he found her and soon Carlucci was on the phone with him. Then he wanted Trustee Beard on the phone. I guess the chairman of the university board of trustees . . .

Wow, the VC and Manger brought in some BIG investor looking for Bio-science research or something . . . . lol. . . Wish I took notes in the elevator . . . lol. . . Just the thing I was there to talk about anyway. So they had blasted the door open for me plenty, no need to ask for anything more. . . . So I just hung out, waiting for my opportunity to chat with them all. I soon noticed I was sitting looking at the CFO's office too. . . lol . . . . He had kids younder than Emily there.

As the party was starting. . . The CFO soon introduced himself to me. All kinds of other people I recognized from somewhere were walking in too. I certainly felt out of place. But quite a few people walked up to me to say hi, including the business development officer who came to a GBA meeting just the night before. And also a few engineering professors I knew, Echelberger and Anderson . . . LOL . . . STOPPING to say HI to ME!!! LOL!!!!

What did you do then?

I just waited until I saw the VP going into his office again. I had made an extra copy of my Abstract/Budget and followed him in. He knew who I was and was almost expecting something. Then I told him I had filed the patent too, showing him the cover as I had my books and laptop ready for a presentation with me. . . . lol... Course he had a little Mac Laptop and the clear sound system and glass desk in his pretty new office. And put my paper right on top of the stack, I also left a copy in the CFO's office too.

Funny I then had a beer or two and some munchies. Walked around the place a bit looking out the windows more than at anyone. . . lol. . . Never said a word to anyone. I guess I chatted with the food-staff setting up the kegs until the assistant showed up. Then I showed her how the room number signs worked. Since I did the same thing over in the Nursing College. Oh and the office manager between the VP and CFO office came out and talked with me a bit too. I actually gave her a card.

LOL!

What will it take to get you out there with the people more?

I don't know I'm just never comfortable going it alone. It's funny as I left the elevator to the VP's office another student from one of my classes was coming in. Wow we could have talked up a storm. But I felt I needed to go home.

What did you come home for?

I knew I needed to chant and spend some time with You.

Yes that's what you needed to do. But if you do your chanting like you need to then you wont have any problems with anything. It's important for you to stay focused and strong. You can do things that have never been done before. Not everyday does the top 14th largest school VP chat about student patents with some kid. And you had this one same vision since 1980. Yes the time is 6.03pm as you write this. And the numbers all mean so much as well as the song on the radio. You know you are in the center creating with US. And you know everyone else is too, just you got to do it first.

WHAT? I need to do it first?

What do you think you are doing Son? You asked for the one way to change everything, you wanted everything to work as WE DREAM it, without the greed and selfish insecurity. You asked for the Solution, the Answer to all of it. Not just a result to your own personal troubles, but the troubles of mankind and the earth entirely. You asked us to share the Truth of what it all is, so it all could work right. But you also showed us what it means for you as well. Working right with you is a lot more than just what the nature and earth need. You have individuality and self-ness that needs to be understood and expressed to. The solution to everything wont just appear out of no where. You need to be there in the middle of it to make it happen all on your own.

I know.

What you don't seem to know is that connecting to others will be a significant part of this too. The freedom and flow of our Spirit is something that we need to share everywhere. And it's a significant part of what you are doing here. This chant pumps up everything. That's why you proposal to the med school is about doing the chant. You found the one fun easy thing that you like to do which can support yourself and all life with. It's not just a source of income for you, but can heal and teach anyone you share it with.

Course you already know it pumps you up with so much Light and Love that nothing can stop you. So what else would we want you to be sharing all the time. This is why we send you home all the time now, you can't go crazy sharing all that you are until we have everything ready for you. what you are doing at the university is setting the stage for so much that the whole world needs now. Each little task and aspect of what you do and create makes a significant change that is needed before the solutions can work.

Yes, relax and let us go for a bit. Everything is happening exactly as you have dreamed. Nothing is out of reach, and nothing can stop you. No fear, only FREEDOM!

I LOVE YOU!
Please Dearest Lord Jesus Christ lead me to fulfill Your Dreams, guide me with you strength and power, let my words only share your wisdom and Truth; and help all those around me who need your Love and Light, All for the Glory of Father Son, and Holy Ghost! Amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. 6.53pm

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What?

I'm not sure? I've been really busy, but also not clear about things. I'm sorta lost in space. . . spacing out a lot and insecure even about some things. It's kinda weird how this goes, or doesn't go. I feel like I have tons to do, but then also feel almost lost in space. I keep wanting things, that just pass before my eyes without my even knowing. sometimes I wonder if i know what i really want or if I'm just fooling myself.

Where do you want to be?

I guess, i'm happy just where I am, and feel like things are coming along exactly the way they should. But then get frustrated with the lost-puppy feeling I have about so much.

What can we do about it?

I don't know I guess I just need to pray for some direction and power into these tasks before me.

What are you waiting for?

Please Dear Lord Jesus help and guide me to fulfill these tasks you have set before me. Fill me with your strength, love and wisdom to do what you have set before me. I know I can do whatever you need. Just fill me with your spirit! Thank you, amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's up?

I Love you deast Loving Lord Jesus... Great are you lord... It makes me wonder who I am... "Great are you lord" by Downhere

What's up?

I Love you dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. . . . I'm sitting back in my office with a pile of PC junk in front of me. . .. Again! That happens every time my house gets empty almost immediately! This time, dozens of printers and monitors. . . lol. . .

But today at school I had planned to go to the Mini-Med School, so I left at 6.20pm. First I looked thinking: IF "no rain" I go... Otherwise I stay, and work. raining all day already . . . lol . . As I rode away I realized that it was best I go. I already got a warning notice from a cop for no headlight and it was just getting dark.

So I got to my truck and felt I had to go home to chant. I hadn't chanted in weeks... Then it was I had to get food to cook.. So it's going now...

get back to what else...?

I came down and felt to stop at Alpine to get some wine too. But no, I thought I'd go to Publix first, so I could have cash at Alpine. lol... Ego thing isn't that? Next thing I saw was a line of traffic lining up at the bridge over the river to go home. Course I had better follow my feeling to go the other way to get some wine. lol. .

Then I saw a fire truck flashing lights there in my rear-view mirror. ;-/

So I got some Almaden Sangria, yum! And then some chivros sausages for chicken and rice, then ground turkey for spaghetti, some good grain bread yum. . . lol. . . And some Bryers all-natural vanilla bean ice cream. yummy yum yum. Also got some treats for Bear ;-)

I made spaghetti and garlic bread . . . just finished eating it too.

What's up?

I need to chant now! 8.46pm after i clean up the kitchen. lol. . .
I love you dearest Lord Jesus Christ!!! 9.06pm

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

What a week

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What are you doing?

I guess I'm really going crazy.... I've got a hundred things that I'm doing and more and more is piling up all the time. I've saw a Trustee, a VP and President in the last few weeks. And I presented them all the same ideas. Wow, I can't believe I was able to get that done. And then I wrote them all on Tuesday, tying all the pieces together.

What is bothering you?

I guess it's this stuff over in Nursing. Since I've been there I've been very clear and specific about what I wanted to do. And now I'm getting accused of copying and such. Give me a break! It's just ridiculous, and actually offensive. I mean I didn't even meet her until after August, while I spoke to Klasko and wrote up other stuff months before then...

What are you going to do?

I guess I just wont worry about it. MBSR is some little meditation technique very good for training people. It's an effective published method, much like TM or Buddhism. I guess I could really use any of these methods. They are all published techniques. And I can learn them just like the next guy can. Course for my purposes, I'll likely just hire someone who can teach and do it the way that I want it done.

What do you really feel?

I'm pissed. It's not just offensive to be accused of "stealing intellectual property" but even worse is that I've been tried to tell her a hundred times what I was doing. And I even SHOWED HER parts of it all. I can't imagine she can't understand it beyond the little box she is in. But then anything called MBSR is something she wants to control. Typical I guess everyone on campus wants to just CONTROL. Froget the freedom and creativity, it's all about control. . . . Ok, I'm over-reacting a bit.

That is ok, you need to get it out. That's important too.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

On Friday, January 20, the Sun enters Aquarius

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What's up?

I know I only do what you ask me to do and it's really weird how this all comes together SO FAST, asking me to do more and more each moment! I mean everything is kinda wired and exciting all the time, and I know this last week was SO FAR OUT there that I need to write about it some more.

I guess I only missed one meeting with the Med School COO... I always say CFO, because that's really what he's doing, but his title is COO => "Operations Officer" which they likely did just for political reasons. His assistant called me the morning of, to say they wanted an abstract and budget first.

Then Mike down the hall from me was complaining about the USF politics and greed where teachers get no support. Just, like every other teacher says! So I told him I had the door open with the med school and needed to write up something for it. He told me sure, he could check it out . . .

Another open door. So I gave him copies and told him as much as I could...

The next day I saw Dr. Jonoska and gave her a copy of the patent. I just had to, since she helped me with this stuff too. We had debated it a lot. She was very flattered how far I had come. She also commented on how I never stopped. She gave me some pointers on the budget and abstract too. I think I can get it all done myself now. No big deal. . . . Guess I did a budget for Frat Row once! lol. . . .

But then I realized I asked Mike for help and only gave him half the story. Not telling him what the patent was or what I was really doing was kinda stupid. Or a least disrespectful to him, he's trying to help and I'm not giving him the full story.

Funny, I copy all this light to Scott and Chuck all the time, but always feel like they are not getting the full story either... Well because they try NOT to read all the crazy things I write....

What it is Son, is that they get stuck on who you are talking to. Thinking "What right do you have to talk with God? No one is allowed to claim that. Except for the priest!" This is what your churches have taught you for thousands of years. This is so very strong and deep seated into people that we can never get through to them. That's how it was planned. People all need to lookup to learn and understand first. As you know and have said, letting people know too much, too quickly will result in serious trouble.

I guess we are finally ready?

What you have done is what you were told to do. It's not a big deal you know what that will mean for everyone. You also know what that means for you.

I feel a lot better now that i finally got it all right!

What did you expect? You need to trust this all more. You get so worried about what people will see or think. . . . like so many things affect them in ways they don't understand. Like how the Churches created this fear. It is inside of you too. Even you still think there is a devil or something somewhere. There is only God, you understanding yourself is only God finding God. It's really fun and exciting. The truth sets you free giving you so much power and freedom. But then too much freedom gets you all cocky and you get lost again creating teh circle of life.

Each time you do this you retain more and more, getting stronger and stronger

I know that's why I always feel like I'm running in circles. Am I really jsut a lost puppy or am I going to actually get something important done here. Wow I never seem sure of this myself. . .

Exactly the issue about what we are speaking. When you are sure of yourself this will happen

I am always sure You will lead me to do what is most important. Whether it's cleaning my office, room, head or PC. Whatever I need to work on you make it clear to me over and over again. Course I feel like I can never catch up to you. But I know I'm getting closer all he time d doing more and more for you.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lead and guide me to flow and understand all that you have for me to do. Only for Your Glory! Let Your will be done for the fulfillment and Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost! Amen.

It's Your Love that Makes me Alive

"It's Your Love that Makes me Alive LORD JESUS, You make my heart sing, you are my everything ALWAYS near to me," by le rue???
lol.. Re: [discussionlist] Anger and Creativity--Tantric practice
Your welcome Mike, and thank you for the questions . . . They force me to answer them!
Posted - Wed Jan 18, 2006 9:43 pm

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What happened today?

I can't believe this. Start with the link above. . . But wow. . . You are really going to blow the doors off of this place aren't You?

What did you expect. . ."For the Love of the Lord is His Delight" Kim hill . . . lol. . . Cmradio.net

I know that's what I asked for.

This morning I went to see Rhea Law the Land Lawyer / USF Trustee having a community breakfast for USF staff. All the power-broker parasites fighting over their fiefdoms were there. Naaa, "ALL of them together." that would never happen, but I did see a few that I knew. . lol. . .

So anyway, Scott told me to stay focused on one point and only make an impression.

I walked in the back door just as it started. I only saw one person sitting at any table in front of me. She said hello, so I sat down with her. She is the director of the haz-mat stuff for USF. WOW! Did we have stuff to talk about. Sharon is gonna flip! But after a while we found out we were on a reserved table. . . lol. . . And were invited to stay. Then someone came around asking if everyone checked in. Oh well, so I had to go up front and give in $10 at the door . . . lol . . . . Bummer . . .

As I walked back to the table the line had formed at the breakfast buffet on the wall behind us. So there infront of me was Rhea just stepping onto the line.

Oh Hi, don't I know you? Oh you are the speaker here aren't you?
. . . . . ./;-}
So what do you think about the patent process here at USF?
. . . . . . O;-D)
Well I think it's a mess. Remember gator-aid. How was that done? It was friends helping their team to get creative with everyone's support. The Team working together so we all win. But here USF is all these fiefdoms fighting to control which is . Not sharing or inspiring creativity at all.

. . . . . .>;-/

What do you think about privatizing the Patent Process at USF?

. . . . . . =:-)

WOW!
She had a LOT to say, this is only what I said of course. I was engulfed into this serious discussion about a pressing issue of her personal interest. It was very charged and vibrant instantly. We shared VOLUMES, and in moments three women on line with her began demanding her attention while the lady from my table came up to catch me back with questions about Greening USF.

WOW. Could I feel the power of Rhea there next to me, each chatting in opposite directions, as we filled our plates.

At my table I learned She's building a database for tracking the Haz-Mat so labs can share resources instead of wasting them. Course I told her I wanted to patent a recycling method for it all. Then presented what Dr. Hanna-West was doing, and even had an extra card for her. . . It took me a while, but I eventually gave her an Idea Weaver's card too. . .

I KNOW ALL RESOURCES must be tracked completely transparently before we can really get this Earth back in control too.... LOL... WOW, WOW, WOW!

What happened next

Rhea got up to speak and talked about growing up here, starting at USF as a clerk in Sponsored Research, of all places. . . lol. . . BEFORE NEWKOME too! Wow, she's done TONS! And over and over again she said how she had great mentors. People who helped and guided her over and over again. ALWAYS told her that she could "DO ANYTHING SHE WANTED TO DO!"

Anything we set our minds to was simple and within reach

WOW!

What did that make you feel!

I was really stunned. While she was speaking about how great USF is and what she wanted to see as progress she mentioned something about encouraging creativity as she looked STRAIGHT at me. It was really cool, she knew exactly where I was sitting, noticing how serious I was in the table chatter earlier. . . lol. . . .

So she finished and another speaker or two came. . . lol... The Student Affairs VP I see Friday was sitting next to her. So it ended and I decided to give her a Moving Rivers business card and a Rent-a-Student Minutes copy. When I got over to her table the budget dude "ERIC" was there talking to her.

WE'VE ALWAYS seen each other countless times, we both knew Claire and both knew we were named ERIC, but we never really knew where we first met. We've talked about that before even! He immediately reached to shake my hand interrupting his conversation with her; and I gave her my card and the minutes, showing her the date and the names on top. . . .

I'm not sure if she said thank you or what, but it was very close to that. Like some secret gifts! Wow, I can still feel the vibration there next to her, and how perfect the whole scene was . . . . Out of the twilight zone!

BUT WHAT DO YOU FEEL?

I feel like calling her tomorrow and meeting for lunch. Then asking her what was her dream when everyone told her "she could do anything she wanted"

What?

I know, I know. . . Then asking her to be my mentor. And blowing the doors off of this planet!

What did you feel when you first wrote this?

I felt her saying that the dream she had was the same dream I had. And then she opens my web-page and totally freaks. Instant blood brothers falling back into some past-life regressions that moment where we both see and FEEL a moment of revelation together before us!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. THANK YOU For digging this out of me. Please Loving Lord fill me with you Power and Wisdom to create your Fulfillment for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost, Amen.

More Research

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What's up?

I'm going crazy again. . . lol. . . Well not really. I've got my house to myself again. And I guess I've never been alone here for very long, so I'll try to be this time. Course my drains were all clogged up as soon as everyone left. I spent my first night alone outside with a power-snake in the drain. I still want to do more, but it's open now. Then they took one PC while another died. So this past 3-day weekend I built a new server and a few workstations. I still have more to do but I'm happy. I also cleaned out rooms and fixed a couple other things around here.

So then last night I realized I had all these people to see today. It's not a big deal, but I wasn't sure what I was doing. I started the day in the Nursing College reviewing a paper for publication. I had to fix the tables and formatting a bit. Then they are making a poster about the study for presentation, and that needed editing too. So I actually read it all. Using guided imagery to help recover from cancer.

Wow, it was lot closer and similar to what I want to do than I could image. I guess that's appropriate now too.

Why?

I know you've been telling me for a while that I needed to just TRUST MY HEART and flow with things as they came to me. If something was needed and I could do it, then I would feel the inspiration. It's really neat to know that I can do anything and came here with the power and insight that You gave me.

What this is Son, is what you have made for yourself. There are a lot of things here that You influenced and created. They are waiting for You to invite them out to play. Each will happen when You ask and make them come forth.

I know, I guess I can see so many things here, just waiting for me.

What else would it be. You wanted to change the world. You wanted to have classrooms full of people ready to work for you and lead this change. Now you have this. Now there is a lot more coming here than you can imagine. You knew you could achieve far beyond your own dreams. So now you can do it.

I know

Well then ask for what you need now.

Please Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I need Your Truth and Wisdom to flow freely through my words today. Guide me to say everything that I need to say to begin the changes that we need now. Lead me to fulfill what we've planned today. Help all who hear me to feel and share in your beauty so everything I say can inspire and direct them to help and guide others to fulfill everything for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost. Amen

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

China and India 'hold the world in balance'

10.56pm 1/11/2006 Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What. . . . do you need next?

I guess I need enough money so I don't have to work, can teach Mayan Tantra, setup the research, and write an article.

Why is this where you are now?

I think I need to express what the connection with God is all about. Here I write and discuss things with myself, writing, reviewing, commenting and correcting these words as they spontaneously appear

What

I China recently announced plans for the world’s first “eco-city” on marshes outside Shanghai. India has the world’s fourth largest wind-power industry and plans to generate one-quarter of its energy from renewables.

What are you going to do about that

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Develop a new Business Plan... AGAIN!!!! lol....

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What do you need to write about?

I need to prepare what I would like to do at USF.

What did you come here for?

I guess I came here to fulfill Your Promise. . . lol. . . Wow, to bring Mankind back to the "Promised Land"

What do you think that is all about?

I guess it's about bringing us back into the Garden of Eden. Getting mankind to fill his place in Nature on this Earth where we can respect and honor nature with truth and integrity. . . Not selfishness and control.

What are your designs all about?

I realized I could build something where people could live and create a profit just by their living. A place where everything they do could add and create life instead of consume and destroy it. I realized we could put men on the moon, but we couldn't feed our own populations. All the wasted resources into selfishness. I mean of all the animals and creatures in this earth, Mankind alone would destroy and damage their own kind so easily for something pathetic like greed. . . . A new diamond ring was more important than the survival of a whole region in Africa. It's weird we spend millions on fire safety and water safety. Driving big giant trucks and equipment out to visit a little old lady who fell alone in her house. While whole tribes and communities in Africa and elsewhere are left starving and dyeing.

I wonder how many families would live and survive from the cost of one "emergency call" from a lonely old lady who really never fell at all.

What do you need to write about?

I guess I need to define how I can make things come together at USF.

What do you mean?

I mean that the VP has opened the door for me to present and build just about anything that I want to. It's not a big deal. Just that he sent me to the guy who manages and spends his money. Course last time we talked he said he could fund my research if I could get it together and make sense about it.

What did you say to the VP?

I guess I found a book he wrote about getting picked up by an Alien and learning what the future was all about. And I about said that I wrote the same thing before I came to USF. Course i never told him that he wrote about something that really about happened to me. I never thought about it in those terms before of course. But what's so interesting about all of this is that I can prove it.

What was his reaction. . .

I guess i was a little surprised because he told me how I could get funding from him...

What's wrong with that . . .

I know nothing really. . . . just a surprise for me. . . . but i geses I'm ready for it.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you for your grace love and wisdom. Amen

Wow We're ROCKING

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I'm thrilled to be here with You all the time. . .

What happened today?

I guess what was important was getting Chuck and Scott together, again. Course they've met before, but they finally got more serious about the meeting together and getting a game plan together about STARS. It's really weird how things happen. Everything is lining up like clock-work. Nothing is out of place and it all looks so perfect. It's really almost freaky. But I LOVE IT.

Like Scott wrote out a list of everything he thinks can work through STARS. . . Even included the land deal and jack deal. Long list of things, we spoke about for a few hours. But then I realized that it didn't have anything that I was working on, ecept the bike rack. Nothing current at all. Course I'm working on so many wacko things that I don't even have a really clear idea what I'm working on. . . . LOL. . .

What did you find when you got home...

I got online and checked my office mail at school. Klasko's office wrote and asked me to visit their new COO... since i asked to reschedule for before the president's lunch. So I checked him out a bit too, and he was hired on my birthday. Ok so I know I'm in for it again. And I guess that really means that I should get very serious with him. I went over things very conceptually with Klasko and he gave me a list of things to do. So now that I've done all that I can get even more serious about what I can do next. I guess Klasko told me I could prepare a proposal for him if I got everything I needed together. He figured the IRB and HIPPA crap would stop me dead in my tracks, but that was easier than anything else I guess.

Course I never could imagine there was already research here at USF involved in these things that I want to do. So now I need to imagine for a second IF I could do anything . . . WHAT would be ideal?

What have we been asking you all along? Do you think you could come up with an easy answer or are you going to debate it forever?

I know I guess I will need to get specific on that all sooner or later. At least with the rational and realistic stuff for a change. . . But I'll always want my kids safe and fulfilling God's Will, as I know I always will too.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You!!! Please lead and guide me to the Fulfillment of Your Dreams... OUR DREAMS, for the Glory of Father's Sons and Holy Ghosts. Amen.

This is TOO FREAKY dude...

Wow what a New Year this will be. . . I know it already, and it will continue so. I finished my patent copies at Kinkos, then mailing 3 copies (USPTO, Me=USF, Me=home) and leaving the Airport post office by 4am, 1/1/2006. I asked the lady there where I could find a party and she told me the Hard Rock Casino. So I went there until about 7am when they closed the dance floor. It was $40 to get in... Yea right, I never pay a cover! So, I got in anyway. Soon I found a $20 bill on the floor next to one bar, then another $2, and a white gold and diamond cross in the VIP sections. . . . Someone must have had a wild New Year already! I played like $4 on a few slot machines and lost it of course. . . Still acting / feeling like I have no idea what I'm doing. . . lol. . . But I had fun drinking and dancing and still had cash when I left. . . Guess I came out $5 ahead even after paying for drinks... lol... When leaving I also found a little case for my cell phone. Kinda nice and matches my phone too.

It was really kinda cool to see how I can still dance and raise the power in a place so easily. Course I can feel every eye that gets fixed on me. Which I run from when it's a man, don't need to get hit or anything again. lol... ;-/ But it's nice to see the ladies. And they all seemed like little girls playing around . . . lol. . . Always expecting me to chase after them like everyone else does. LOL! O;-) but we all know that will never happen!

This one girl did finally came up to me. She wanted me to be careful, saying I would fall on the floor. LOL! It was kinda cute, since I had barely danced at all yet. Course I just let go and cut loose then... lol... Then the bouncer came over and told me to put the chair up. I asked him if I could still lean on it, and he said ok as long as it was flat on the ground. So I started again! That moment the lights came on and a second bouncer said no chair. It was 7am, so the night was done. I'm really not sure now if the 2nd bouncer said no chair before or after the lights came on, it happened so fast. I guess it must have been just before. . . da. So the lights came on and I pushed the chair in under the table before me and saw the silver cross there on the floor under the table.

Found the $2 when I looked around the tables some more there too.

So I felt really good about what I was doing with actually getting this PATENT DONE! It was really a big relief because I knew it would open countless things for me. So now I only have to work on Tony's and Frank's patents. . . Two more and then I can get onto another one for myself . . . lol. . . . Or for STARS!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word! I'm so glad I finished this one project for You, since I know it was something that I've needed to do for a while. I guess I just never really knew HOW TO do it, or at least I wasn't sure of the best way to get it out there the way that I needed to.

What you did was what needed to get done, you trusted and listened. That part was the most important thing about it. You wanted to delay and find more excuses, but you made your commitment and you stayed by it. Thank You!

That was very important. And we've told you countless times how important it was, so now you will see for yourself how much can change before your eyes. There is nothing for you to fear. You already knew what you are capable of, so recognize that you will simply create all these things that you want to see created. Trust your spontaneous instinct and get out there to do what you feel like doing.

I feel like that is a little weird . . . Do "whatever I feel like" is just a little weird for me. . . .

Why? You have struggled and worked at listening to Jesus and Asking for Jesus to lead and guide your steps. You remember how you started. You focused very carefully and repeated "I love You Lord Jesus Christ" as a Mantra to drive away all the noise in your head until you could only hear us. And still to this day you have this nearly constant subconscious "question" demanding to hear only the World of Christ!

This focus creates significant power Son. We've worked the last few years to explain to you that you were clear in This Spirit of Jesus Christ. It's been a challenge, but you are starting to understand that you are very clear and strong in the Spirit of God! And you only need to FEEL this as who you are and just BE FREE with it. You are ready Son. We are ALL ready for this. If you want to visit VP's then you need to do it. That is the very first thing that you thought of and the very first thing you need to do. Nothing can stop you and everyone wants to help you.

You are even feeling like you can go back to do things that you have always wanted to do. It is there inside of you still. And if you want to visit Kovac and Carnahan again, then you need to do it. It is not something that will be easy, nor is it something that you need to fear. You just need to trust your instincts. What did Equan say, have FAITH IN YOUR CONVICTIONS!!!

That phrase has saved lives because of how much you and Equan have said that. And it is catching on to more and more people. It's like a wild fire. And this time when it's out there everywhere and you see how many people use it. You will laugh about where it came from and really wonder if you said it first. But this time someone else will remind you, not just us.

I know that's nice to know. But I guess what was funny is that I write this a little bit and then stop and read it over. And write some more. But then I thought to write Dr. Patel and that moment Scott sent me something.... Exactly at 10:01pm tonight. Everything lined up even the time on the clock. Wow, that made me stop and get a LOT more serious about what I was writing to Dr. Patel. Course I copied it to him and sent everything to Chuck as well.

What do you expect. So write about what you are feeling now.

I guess I've been writing down about my next meeting with Dr. K. . . . Wow that was weird. I know a bunch of Dr. K's. And as I typed that, I realized that it wasn't clear which one and it might have been better that way. LOL. So my spontaneous insight was to leave that as a mystery. But so I thought Dr. K would be ready for my research. And I know it's all about this charismatic God stuff that I'm already doing. I felt to set up a deal with him and Skalkos to create a study from our group there already. To compile the videos for working on the mission of God.

That's so funny because that was the very first thing that I said to Skalkos in '83. And now Christie in the group now is trying to avoid the God issues by saying like Skalkos said, how "I make these things happen" . . . . WHICH I really do in fact. But I do create synchronizing by the Power of God. Not simply walking into things that I stage and set up for myself. It's almost like they try to discount and avoid the Power of God. Trying to rationalize it as something that it is not.

That is what all sciences will try to do. But the patent is out there for everyone to see now and can easily be used and experimented with in the truth and Love of God. You've opened it up finally. This is what you came to Tampa for. Everything else you've dreamed of is only possible now. You already know there is nothing to slow you down. What you did not know was that you can now create some changes that you've never even considered before. There are things that need to shift that only you can bring about.

I'm not sure I'm going to be able to write about this.

Why not? It's certainly about time don't you think?

I guess so.

What did you see on TV yesterday?

I saw how the greed and corruption in China is destroying the environment there. They brought in US auto companies to build factories and cars. But they only built the cheap easy cars with no environmental safety features. Course they sold them for as high a price as they could get anyway. But they were basically unethical and careless about all that they should have learned already about the environment. So now china is forced to deal with the mess the cars made as well as having to fight and get all the environmental features put in, that should have been there in the first place.

Now the big greedy Americans can force China to do what they want, since so many people are employed by these companies and the Chinese need them to keep their economy growing. . . adducted to the greed!

What did you feel?

I felt how the Chinese could easily build the Transit System to solve all their problems.

What else do you need to say? That's perfect already. You don't need to explain it or add any details. It's already in your Patent. Efficiency is about Unity. Just like your leadership classes. When people all work together and support each other, there is efficiency in the unity. Now that you have the patent done, everything else you dream about doing is just an example of using this method.

I know I can go back to the unified infrastructure and UNIFIED FARMING HOUSING and UNIFIED PUBLIC TRANSIT and UNIFIED COMMUNITY all created with the UNIFIED SCIENCE THEORY because it all IS THE MIND OF GOD!!! WOW. . . LOL!!! ;-D)))

What did you think? Did you really think you would be asked to write and publish all this for nothing. That is why you have always kept everything that you have published and why it is so important that you get serious about it all. It's all there exactly as it needs to be so everything will work. What does Jack want to do with the grants you are helping him with?

I guess he wants to get into building new communities for the elderly. Wow, that feels like we are building new schools. Where old folks can direct and lead children to grow and learn the truth in life instead of being brainwashed with the greed and consumerism of the TV and mass hysteria, oh I mean "mass media". . . lol, the same things! Reminds me of the old vet who beat me at the "The Great Grape Race."

He told me about the corruption in the government, and how it wasn't just one greedy person, but an entire system designed and based on greed, to promote and reward the greedy to become greedier. And these people really have no idea what they do, not consciousness of people or souls, because it is all a number on the bottom line. So the next terrorist attack will create more greed and power for these sick people and no one will do anything about it again.

What do you want to do about it?

I guess we need to clear this place. I mean, my first thought was that these power hungry greedy people must get together and celebrate their conquests. So a meteor hitting the building they are in at just that time will simply remove them all from the map.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
WOW!
Thank You Loving Lord Jesus Christ for the Power and Truth of You WAY. Please give me You Strength and Wisdom to Fulfill God's Promise all for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost. Amen

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What do you need son?

I am totally freaked out... Everything is coming to a head really quickly. Today I spent the day with Scott. We put together the land deal. We reviewed my Unity Method patent. Then we discussed the STARS deal with Chuck. And I made significant discoveries about myself.

What did you learn?

I learned I could make this Land deal work. And it wouldn't require significant effort, because I love making deals and setting things up. And all the players in this deal could easily fall in LOVE with my Green House patents and designs which might open up TONS more for us.

Then I also learned how much Scott and I had in common. Where he understood and related to my Unity Methods Patent completely. He even recognized and told me that it was really "old news" and there was really nothing that he hadn't heard before. Course me patenting a method whereby I use the current Sciences available to describe a common religious practice just had never been done before. Course we both know and recognize that this practice has been hidden by the churches and kept private for eons because people were using it for the wrong reasons and getting hurt.

I told him that this was exactly WHY I HAD TO PATENT it because the scientists are getting very close to understanding these ancient arts and no one is taking any responsibility to control what they do and how they do it. Now if anyone used this and got hurt then they would be violating my patent rights and be liable. While if they wanted to use it for the RIGHT reasons and learn the truth they would have to come to me. . . So then I can make sure that people only use it carefully. . . . And ONLY for the RIGHT reasons!

I also realized that MY CHILDREN learned and used it for the WRONG reasons. Course they learned it all about the same time that I did, because they taught me. Which might not really take away any of my responsibility in their trip "down the rabbit whole into Wonderland." However, I HAVE NEVER shirked any responsibility to my children....

Are you sure of that son?

I am really not totally sure. . . . I guess. . . And I know what you are leading into. The last thing I learned tonight was how I was doing the same thing that Keith does. I was intentionally holding back information when doing business. I mean, I've been burned SO MANY times by telling people TOO MUCH. I mean, both Chuck and Keith have all but KICKED MY ASS for getting into all the discussions about being on this Mission From God, being sent here to change the world and all that shit.... While meeting with people who wanted to support us... Basically I would freak out people sounding like a total wacko!

That is the key point there son, the people involved are what matters.

I realized that the deal STARS was looking at involved a private company selling insurance to new STARS members. And STARS would be contracting this out. The new STARS members would pay a membership fee to STARS so we could develop projects for them. But they could also purchase insurance as a membership benefit. STARS would get $/year from each member while the contractor would get $/month from each member as the typical sales commissions on the insurance. If this involved thousands of members the multiples on the fees collected meant that thousands of members got only pennies of a STARS project, while the single contractor got millions in sales benefits. This initially shocked me and I knew Chuck would freak over these numbers too.

Scott immediately told me that I needed to Tell Chuck about it, since he's meeting to discuss this deal tomorrow.

UGH... My reaction was WHAT ARE YOU CRAZY!!!

I mean, I carefully told Chuck every detail I could so he would be clear and conscious about how to get the deal together. I mean, I know that Chuck is a wizard of relationships and negotiations, And if he got important background and ideas to sleep on and think about for the days before the meeting; that the meeting would go Perfect! He's just a Wizard about that stuff. Just as Scott is the Wizard of making things work legally. . . And I'm the Wizard of... lol... Never mind... Lol.... So to freak Chuck out the night before his meeting would just BE STUPID!

I mean my gut feeling was that Chuck would find out about it all sooner or later anyway. So why freak him out the night before where it might only fuck the whole thing anyway.

Scott made it very clear to me that holding critical information from associates in any situation was simply wrong.

And I realized that this last few months I've been harassing Keith about his business practices. I mean Keith can sell anything, but does it dishonestly by holding critical information from the customer. WOW SHIT!!!! I just realized that I essentially taught Keith how to do this. When I worked for him in college selling solar heating units. My job was to get a sales lead. And I walked up to the door and knocked asking for the owner or parent, so I could get their name and phone number to schedule a time for a salesman to visit and sell them solar heat.

Soon I simply would say that I worked for the "power company" and was offering to do a "free energy audit" of their home.... The conscious lie and deception was that I wasn't actually working for THEIR "power company" TECO or Florida Power. But instead worked for a solar heating "power company" . . . So my little play on words was intentionally deceiving these people to get sales leads and make some cash.

Keith has since done similarly in different things and would essentially brag to me about how well it worked in the Bahamas and the phone companies . And I realized that the negative deception was EXACTLY why Keith would fall and get hurt at whatever he did. And of course teaching his son and daughter how it's "ok to be deceptive" means they will soon be terrorists in jail or worse.

Very good son, you got it all out. So what have you learned?

SHIT, I am fried. . . . I mean I told Keith countless times that him trying to pull this scam business in my house and allowing a lying thief to live here while I did this Unity Patent to create a conscious revival of Earth's Civilizations was VERY DANGEROUS. I tried to tell Keith about the lightning bolts falling off me in NC, but he could never understand. Then I even told him how I've seen sparks flying from my fingers. And still he didn't care. But in point a fact, I AM TERRIFIED of getting pissed at him or his son for their stupid greed and manipulation in my house and just blasting them into dust on a spontaneous ZAP!

You did it son, you got that fear out of you now. And now you know why Scott is so critical for you. Scott also told you to live alone for a year or two, just to settle and get focused on yourself. What you don't know is that Scott knows a lot more about this than anyone. He is also good friends with Tim who was their as you threw bolts in NC. Then Scott has been here while you've grown from the crazy STARS ideas into the Yoga and kabbalah and all the rest. You are very lucky to have him around and you need to honor that a bit more.

I know, I know. I told Scott that I could make the land deal work. I presented it to people and got such strong responses that it would be very easy to make all kinds of things happen. Then I really only spoke to any of these people because I wanted to make Scott some money. Sure I could use a bit of cash too, but the insight was simply to present his business ideas, that I never got my PE to support. I kinda skrewed him up by not getting my PE when I said I would, so I wanted to find out if I could make his idea work anyway. And the opportunity to investigate the land and ask about help for my housing patent was perfect timing for it all to come together. And it has!

Scott all but forced me to call Chuck tonight and tell him what I calculated. It might be normal insurance sales commissions and greatly benefit the members. But fundamentally the whole project was about greed and deception if we are not fair and equitable about our contract arrangements in STARS. Sure Kinser would love it, because it was normal commissions and also a viable benefit to the members. However, it really is not the proper place for STARS to knowingly get a single individual filthy rich while taking membership fees from poor old folks. It simply doesn't seem at all ethical.

And MOST importantly it's not my place to decide Chuck doesn't need this information tonight. Scott even called me back a few times after I left telling me to swear to never hold anything from him again about any deal we do or else he would never work with me again.

I did promise him and swear I would never hold anything from him again. And he felt like I was just saying it, and not meaning it. So I now understand why I needed to write all this tonight. I'm finished with this patent and I'm going to the airport post office to send it tonight. And I know that I need to BE CLEAR AND STRONG about everything I do; OPEN and HONEST about it all with everyone I see now.... Always!!! Since the power and focus that I have will be greatly magnified with just my name association to this Unity Patent and all those who read it.

But even now I'm "freaking out" to post this message. I now I need to send it to Scott and Chuck. But I also know or feel like they will kill me for being TOO HONEST and sharing too much again.

What do you need son? This is exactly what you need to do. The power and clarity that the truth creates in your favor is lightyears ahead of anything you could get any other way. If there is something in the truth that bothers someone they need to stop and consider themselves and find what is wrong and fearful inside themselves. You are bringing a lot of power out to the people and you will be able to lead and direct this power for their benefit ONLY as long as you stay in TRUTH!

I know! Thanks for reminding me...

What do you need to say now son?

I PROMISE YOU Scott and Chuck... I will share everything with you about what...

What do you need share? Are you still trying to hide something?

I PROMISE YOU SCOTT AND CHUCK that all my dealings will be clear and direct with you and that I will never hide anything from you about anything that I do!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you for YOUR Strength and Wisdom to do as I must. Please Lead and guide me to Your Fulfillment for the Glory of Father Son and Holy Ghost. Amen.

Hey Chuck and Scott, I need to show you my chant, ASAP!!!