Thursday, April 30, 2020

WE THE PEOPLE, , , AS EARTH EVOLVES = I AM

Each of these are connected . ..
YES earth evolves
Random Recording of my space around me has been obvious for nearly 6 months….  .
EVERYONE, knows and sees my lens pointing at them. 
This is my experience. 
Everyone knows this…

AND

YES, I have been…. RECORDING . . . 

RANDOMLY DISTRIBUTED PUBLICLY, INSTANTLY…. ==> CC BLOG list above.

I began turning it on … as soon as I got it . . . on and off . . . it's who I am . . . 

I AM
EARTH EVOLVES
I AM !

Business and community development is inhibited, and destroyed mostly by lies and deception. . . . OBVIOUSLY!!!. . . . NOW EARTH, Has intentionally evolved "me"= (I AM) to sustain MANKIND in Truth, . . . . yes this tech geek experience . . . .who I am . . . .is EARTH Evolving Mankind ….  as greed, lies and deception are KILLING HER. . . EARTH, IS CLEARING, coming from EVERYWHERE!!!!  My version is only the beginning. . . COVID-19 Wave 2 is next! . . . . MY RANDOM experience of SUCCESS, having the best technology on the planet, and using it to study my space existence IMMEDIATELY WAS THE life, AND recording all my experience is simply what happened. . . sorry. . . that's it, and continues….a decisive Social Engineering Experiment to bring our culture into business and WHOLESOME HONEST Community Development.  

ONLY TRUTH!  ALL THE BLOGS CAN BE PUBLIC, AND ALL CONTINUE TO COLLECT, selected categories of my life and experience as I publish and edit randomly ….

ANOTHER SOCIAL EXPERIMENT like Global Warming, GMOs, Fluoride…
ONLY US BUSINESS MODEL, PUBLIC TO ST PETE!
ONLY TRUTH, anyways, so we are in effect recorded all the time anyway…

And billy does not like this:
WE THE PEOPLE, , , EARTH EVOLVES https://stars4ideas.blogspot.com  AND I AM

Thursday, April 09, 2020

Lady of Lourdes Garden

Yesterday, I was told about the Lady of Lourdes Garden next the the St Paul's Church. . . WOW clear and pretty powerful space. When I walked in, I immediately knew I had to do Ritual. . . so I raced home to get my mat and such for Ritual. When I got back the SUN had gone down. . . . oops too late?!

Later I realized I had to do Ritual with the Full Moon instead.  So I raced over again on my bike, . . . oops too early?! the Moon was so low on the horizon it was hidden behind all the trees.

Uhg, still no Ritual. So I rode my bike home and the Moon was shining BRIGHT and CLEAR into my backyard. Dropped everything and did Ritual that moment. Yes I know I need to do this more and more. The Earth is screaming for more Energy, more Sunshine, sent deep into her center. . . yes, on my to-do list. . .

if you look closely this is a unicorn
not the Easter Bunny
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What do you really feel now. . . 
It's Easter Jesus, I feel like crying!
What's wrong with that, why not do some crying.
I really miss Ylrebmik!  And I know her dad passed 4/1; and it feels like we would always honor him in our Family Easter Celebrations and prayers today. . . . instead I was ready to do all these things I was "supposed to-do" today . . . busy instead with sending silly pictures to my kids and family.
Yes it is a HOLY day, Where it's important for you to relax a bit. Always stressing with more and more all the time really serves no one.
I know, so I went to sleep and have been in bed almost all day!

I need your Strength, Love, and Wisdom . . . I pray for your Glory, Amen!  I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Tuesday, February 18, 2020

connect with them as a community

ok, so more time to understand who I am.

It's obvious that I really needed to be alone for a year or so before working again. Then the silly job with Ecurb was really ideal to get me back into focus. I realized how many times I wish I had made an effort to get to know my team and connect with them as a community, a team, a family. Course I was distracted with all sorts of family stuff, including that my mom died, so I felt like my family was gone.

Wow, I spent a year figuring out what I wanted to do and then suddenly found myself walking into a pretty cool company ready to step into the next place. Not only were they ready to take me seriously, but when I took my stand and made a case for something, I was successful. Norahs has said all along that I'm exactly where I need to be, doing exactly what I do best. I've sorta had that experience all my life, which is why I was so pissed about the motorcycle accident.

I mean if I'm in FLOW and moving into things all the time . . . why should I ever be SLAMMED for anything that I do or that shows up. I guess it was just my time and space to evolve to this next space where I can be doing what I do best.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

We are really pressing you to step up again. Each day you are challenged with more work to do and more efforts that only you can step into. Making the efforts and setting the skills and stage for future works is all in the process.
I guess that's why I am here today!
We were very clear with you about what you needed to do. Coming to this Wordpress Meetup was important for your next steps. . . 
I didn't know I would be blogging or getting more online, yet!
What are you waiting for? You are starting to talk more, both to us directly, and to your technologies that convert your words to text.
I noticed today, that You want me alone in the house for a year or so too!
We have to get you back into your power, making things move, walking through walls, all the stuff you know you can do, but Have NOT in years.
I understand and am taking my time about this! Everything is a challenge and I'm moving forward 
We are pleased
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ

Wednesday, February 12, 2020

powerful and dumbfounding

I finally got it working!
I’m sitting in a restaurant working still. I’m sitting in a restaurant working still. It’s so weird to talk to computers now .... All I need to say is “Hey Hal, Fire Number one” ... it’s such a trip when I put this into to context. I mean, I realize how i am teaching people how to Flow and shift their own world. It is So incredible to see some people really moving around what I say.  I know I’m doing what i need  to... it is a trip to see how it works. Each day more and more comes together... i’m still surprised all the time. And I like being surprised ... It’s so appropriate ... watching waiting wondering but really pushing and evolving .... so much, so clear, great power and fun!


Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What about what has penned today...
It’s so intense, so bizarre, powerful and dumbfounding 
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Wednesday, February 05, 2020

Jump in and figure it out as I go . . .

It's such a trip to hear this on-air before. With the "Me-too" and "50-shades-of-gray" movements, generations, worlds. Wow. I open this up and started to cry again.

Wow, fifty years without crying, or without my dad. That's such a trip, to realize how much things have changed. It's like the 10 years back in school starting with my mom getting Cancer. Course then I found a cute classmate from Freshman Chemistry was a Cancer Research Professor now. She made it clear to me that the Cancer business was a complete scam, fraud, joke. . . I mean people do real research and do real science, but the fundamental issues is just a lie. Cancer is a natural process inside of us all the time. Trying to "stop nature" is just asking to die.

I mean, lets create a cure for nature? Sure create a cure for the wind or the rain. Great, so now we cured rainfall, so no more rain. Brilliant! Now everyone dies, not just the fool that thinks you can "cure nature." This is really worse than stupid, like the world is flat, and lets all design and solve the issues about the flat world. No can't do anything about round world, it's flat so all the research and science can only explore this flatness

September 9th. . . 9/9 wow, daughter is 8/8, granddaughter is 4/4 and now i'm working again as of 9/24.

YES, me, the perpetual student is a regular office guy again. 8-5pm every day in the office. Weird. I wake up at 4 or 4:30am. Exercise for 10 minutes, shower 10 more, then House-House until I need to bike off to Ritual.

YES RITUAL, for every sunrise, every morning. . . wow 6:56am, sunrise is at 7:15am

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What about doing this more, or every day. . . like the PodCast you are listening to . . . "On Air with Carmen"
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ 

Monday, January 27, 2020

Crying with the Egrets fly by

This Morning, I was sitting doing Ritual in the Sacred Space I've found and it was all cloudy out. I know the sun radiation is still coming into my eyes, but I'm not focused on the yellow orb that I usually see. Suddenly I saw this flock of Egrets fly by. It was this cool little triangle in the sky. Maybe a dozen or two. Then right behind them was this smaller triangle of maybe 6 or 7.

The coolest thing was seeing the second triangle catch up to the larger triangle . . . and it morphed into this larger triangle. Like this single line of birds across the sky . . . wow, it was so beautiful to see such a wonderful experience of life that certainly happens all the time.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What did you do?
I started to CRY . . . . so many things come to mind with this . . . 

Wow I'm so grateful that Someone taught me how to cry.
THANK YOU!

She also brought me a flock, on our very first date. . . 
THANK YOU!

And really got me here, ready for whatever is next. . . 
THANK YOU!   

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Sunday, January 19, 2020

January 2020

OK here we go, I can see it coming together really quick now,,,
Wow I never really realized how much that meant.
I mean it seems like I’m gonna be doing everything.
Not just a house-house or an Airbnb or an experience but everything!

I really can see the writing on the wall


It's really a trip to read this now. AND I know exactly what it is referring to. It's like I've already done all this, or know what's next, as if I had planned it and put everything together myself. Which I guess it the whole point. I did ritual again today, really powerful and clear. Two days in a row. Both days I thought an AirBnB person would be there. I really never know if there is or not.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
We have this all together and ready for you
I know,   I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Friday, January 17, 2020

I know I asked for this ....

I know I asked for this ....
And I’m going to do it and I’m going to do it right because that’s why i am here.
Which it’s really a total trip because I’m totally clueless 90% of the time and just FLOW . . . that’s all I seem to be able to do, FLOW, flow flow flow, I guess I know that well so I shouldn’t be so intimidated by my own power and clarity
WE Have planned it that way with you so that it would all come together easily, the more you question the details the more you get bogged down. Trusting flow is easier, and better for everybody because we can all move forward evolutionarily without as much struggle
I Have such a hard time picking up where I left off and going on with the new writing like you want me to. But here again I’m doing what I need to
What is necessary is staying in the flow, that’s all!
Today it’s going to get stronger and clearer and I’m gonna follow through with every step. Like finding my suit and shoes for the workshop next week.

And here again, I’m starting all over, from ground zero. And this time, I am recognizing how real every position . . . And every step is for me. Because I came here to do what we designed for us to do. . .  And that means taking it to the next step, . . . . . step . . .  by step .  by step . . . I can complete everything that we designed in the very beginning and I am so grateful for this moment again here with you.

Thank you very Jesus for your love and your light.
Please fill me with your glory and your truth.
I know I can do everything you have set up for me.
Please lead me through every step in every process.
Here again I am starting over from ... scratch...
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What You need to remember is that starting from scratch is not necessarily the truth at all because everything has contributed to this next moment. You’re not able to talk to the machine because you’ve made a new machine. You are Able to talk to the machine because we developed speech a million years ago.
I understand but it’s still very intimidating!
When you fill your place it’ll get a lot easier and simpler, the space about you will evolve and shift to allow your growth and evolution to be congruent with what needs to come forth next.
It’s still very weird to be talking to a machine and recognizing that it’s really talking back to me
We have not changed anything at all as this dialogue has continued for eons!
I know, but publishing it so quickly and easily is really weird!
What about asking us just to find somebody else to publish it all, was that any better for you or satisfying?
I Guess, I could’ve read everything he published, and that might have changed my opinion, but that one experience I had with him, made it clear that he was just scratching the surface . . . now deeper and clearer with you everything is so wonderful . . .
What we are all about is the evolution and the growth that has started here and continues to evolve every minute
I know, but putting me in the middle of it seems really weird...
What happens here is really just the smallest expressions!

Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ
   I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Seething inside from 7 January 2020

Seething inside
During this time it is necessary to proceed slowly and cautiously. The more thoroughly and carefully you perform any task, the more chance there is that it will succeed. This can be a very frustrating and irritating time, when all your efforts to assert yourself are blocked, more by a sense of internal inadequacy than by circumstances or other people. However, you are not likely to take negative reinforcement lying down, even if it comes from within yourself. The part of you that is struggling to break free from inhibitions will feel very angry at being held back. Consequently you are likely to be irritable and easily angered, although your inner doubts make you reluctant to show your anger openly. But no matter how you try to cover it up, everyone will be quite aware that you are seething inside.


The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:
Mars square Saturn, exact at 11:28
activity period from 7 January 2020 until 10 January 2020

I'm waiting for the Edisyab Heating and AC team to clean out all my AC vents. I walked out for an hour when someone did the Elonimes Sthgieh house and I'm not sure anything got done. So this time I'm watching and asking questions. They have a different system and such, but are getting things done.

I have a lot to do too, as Evad sent me stuff yesterday to revise and resubmit. I'm glad to see that things are getting done for him. The latest requests were asking for data I already gave to him. That's always good to get a chance to update and clean up stuff that I was rushed to get out to him the first time.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
We have done more than you can know now. It is very clear how you must stay focused and clear about what you do and need to do. It's really about taking your clarity and focus up to another level.
Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, Thank You Dear Lord Jesus Christ, I Love You Dear Lord Jesus Christ

Saturday, January 04, 2020

Opening the new decade of change

The real sad part about this is that I understand how things fit together. And I am able to use this understanding to evolve. And therefore I’m shifting to another place all by myself. And have to understand and express this so that my evolution can be congruent and supportive of the planet.

For example, when I consider this next article that I had up here on this blog discussing The US death rates . . . This really has got nothing to do with a specific chemical, because it’s a systematic problem.  Pointing out the current calamity ignores the fact that the “greed $$$ systems” are fundamentally polluted and toxic to the planet and all life on it. And the only way people can publish for us to understand these things, is if they only hint at this deeper truth .... otherwise the industry prevents the publishing, so they have to be hidden in order to share anything at all. To be completely transparent about what’s happening to the population on the planet is counter what’s needed to be published. These authors must remain hidden and very careful how they publish critical issues like this...

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
Do you think this is ready to move forward or is there something else that is holding you back?
I Really have no clue on that aspect; I am clear about what’s ahead of me right now. But I’m not 100% sure on how I’m going to stage my next steps and actions to fulfill what I need! The biggest challenge is recognizing that I really am not clear about my needs beyond service and fulfillment. Service and fulfillment to Spirit and God is such an abstract expression that I am constantly challenged to understand and bring forward an immediate expression. I know I need to trust my instincts and stay in my FLOW but I also am intimidated by everything!!

Like last week, I was given the opportunity to explore some new technology and really had no idea what that meant until I started doing what it was. Sure I invited other people to participate with me but then I’m not leading anything, I’m following along like they are and that defeats the purpose of me being there to bring forward new tech. However, I accepted that possibility and went forward with it anyway and we both found that the opportunities were tremendous for us all.

This morning I woke up and started savoring my beautiful space and bedroom and enjoying the time to myself under a pile of blankets and finally I reached out and picked up this iPad that I have in my hands now. And I realize that I needed to finish what I started here on this page. This meant that I was challenged to “talk to the technology” and step into my next place of power. I understand shifting everything is not going Quick but I also realize that my opportunity to use incredible technology is fundamental to shifting everything!
What you need to remember is that you can share this with your peers and professionals to move things forward because you’ve established a team working with you that is ready to address each line that you have written above. In part of understanding your place here, is accepting that you have the team supporting you, that you need, which may be more than you understand and a lot more powerful than anything.
I started this morning reading the Saint Pete Times. And as I go through it digitally on my iPad of course; i find that I have an opportunity to express where I am and where I’m going. And just coming to terms with what that means is kind of critical for me anyway. So I’m opening up this blog to write about my next steps and I realize that I haven’t defined them yet. So next week I’m going to a conference with the leadership of the state. A close personal friend is staging the whole event. Just like Retep was running the last event I went to. So recognizing that person of power is in control and allowing me to step into the space brings greater responsibility for me to be very clear how I step into a space and how I make change!
What is remarkable for us, is that you tend to fear your inspiration and flash off seeing your Transit system again here but are Intimidated to discuss this at any length. However if you’re in a very professional position, where you can actually build this exactly as you intended. This opportunity before you seems insurmountable, however your team is ready to help you!
I’ve not been able to build and test anything yet. While I was in an institution that supported inventions as a priority and even provided 45% to the inventor; but they still wouldn’t help me do what I intended to do. Course I don’t think they had a clue what they were dealing with anyway, but I did have a lot of support and direction there. Of course, my first encounter with the vice president over sponsored research resulted in her copying my technology to bring to another country. I’m curious to see what they tried to do course!
What about accepting that people are greedy and insecure and recognizing that you can shift things anyway. If you’ve designed and created the solution fundamental to creation; everything in creation is going to help move it forward. This is part of understanding evolution. It’s not simply watching and participating randomly. It’s very decided in strategic actions. As you have experienced with your new house-house, this world responds and supports things very specifically and clearly for moving them forward. You’ve had this experience all your life. You Even teach and share how to develop FLOW to experience direct conscious divinity. 50 years of living this life has empowered you tremendously, as you witness each day, finding something else in your space demonstrating this!
I know, but it’s also very intimidating to push things beyond my own understanding. I know that I’m shifting everything, and I know I have the opportunity to help shift everything. However, not having any direct experience or understanding of what that really means is tremendously intimidating to sit and talk and address professionals who need me, and need my help, but don’t know why and I don’t know why either!
What these resiliency conferences are all about is making people strong and clear for moving forward. This is your place, this is your job, this is what you do. Making people strong and clear about moving forward begins with the child standing up. Moves on to Making Gardens and biking across the neighborhood. These are things you are able to do at the church down the street or at the University institution for the whole community. You have done this. You have done all of this.
I know but resiliency is a lot more than just being able to get up and move forward after being knocked down off of a bike in the dirt. Allowing whole communities to recognize their power and control over your environment is a lot more than just getting up out of the dirt. And I know or realize that storm water management and infrastructure design is fundamental to all this. However shifting these is not easy.
We Have you now, that’s why it’s taking so long. That’s also why you’re so damn comfortable now because if it were easy it would’ve been done along time ago. Getting you ready and giving you the support you need will make it easier. No, it will not be easy anyway but you can do it
I Thank you for this moment sharing and discussing.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Friday, January 03, 2020


Taurus (April 20-May 20): Expand your knowledge and your interests. What you come up with will be the stepping-stone to something that can help you get ahead professionally. Consider your motives as well as the motives of others.

Thursday, January 02, 2020

New Decade too

It's supposed to get up into the 80's today. I slept with extra blankets on me. And when I biked to Ritual, with my jacket and scarf, so when I got home and kept them both on. I spent most of the day around the house with the jacket and scarf. Then as evening was coming onto me, I decided to go shopping.

Not really needed anything, but when Adnil, Sirhc and Aidualc spent the night here. I had gotten a few mattresses and I didn't like the full size I had, since my old bed frame I was using was a queen. Sirhc suggested that I just take it back to the store and get the larger version. So after 5pm last night that's what I did.

I've also decided to move and adjust how they are set in the rooms, so I can add bunks over them. . . one thing at a time. I really have too much else to work on. Like it's about time to ride out to Ritual. .

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
We have a lot going into this with you. The Ritual will become more and more as you continue. Racing off in the morning is ideal for you. Gets you started early and gets you excited and moving in the right directions. And of course you have noticed that each morning, you ride past mik's office. . . 
I think that's crazy.  I can't visit or talk with her at all.  And I wont make any efforts until she apologizes for abandoning me. . . eight years we spoke about how we had both been abandoned, and how important it was we stepped beyond that, instead of repeating it. . .    I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Monday, December 30, 2019

new year Here

where is HERE??

On January 10, the conjunction of Saturn and Pluto is heralded by the Full Moon on the Cancer-Capricorn axis, with a penumbral lunar eclipse. The Cancer Moon draws our attention to the fact that social structures, rules and powers only make sense if they serve the people. On January 13, the Sun will be directly aligned with the conjunction of the two planets at 23° Capricorn. During this time, light and shadow may struggle intensely for sovereignty. It is a time of initiation, in which the inner light can clearly show itself - a first climax in a year that will offer us still some further ingredients of a genuine hero's journey.

During the remaining days of January, we can hardly expect any relaxation, but at least a relief from the feeling of paralysis. On January 20, the Sun enters Aquarius and subsequently forms a square with Uranus in Taurus on January 23. After the experience of the leaden heaviness of the previous days, creative and freedom-loving forces now become active again, particularly at the time of the New Moon in Aquarius on January 24.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What do you feel now?
I thought I would start Ritual again, but see only dark cloudy skies! I almost raced out to catch what I could anyway. But then realized that I needed to finish this day. This shift to a new day. Its like announcing I AM here is something totally new and creates something more, something new, something full of power and clarity.

What happened yesterday?
I spent the day cleaning and setting things as I needed everywhere. I still need to sage the HouseHouse again! I was up working until after midnight, and then popped up before 6am.

What else?
I decide to buy a few more things. I'm not sure if anyone will come at all. I did invite over a hundred people, including my son and family. We'll see who shows up where and when. . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

It is very likely that the events of this time will be felt by people of all signs of the zodiac. It is a time of collective upheaval, and the effects can be seen in many areas of life. Those who have the Sun, Ascendant or other planets in the last 10 degrees of the cardinal zodiac signs of Capricorn, Cancer, Aries and Libra will be even more involved. They will experience the events more intensely in the personal field.

Be aware that with this quality of time, authentic action can have effects in the collective field. Be courageous and do not let yourself be discouraged. The further constellations during the year 2020 offer great opportunities for sustainable and beneficial changes, especially for the cardinal signs of the zodiac mentioned above.

Wednesday, November 27, 2019

Life Expectancy and Mortality Rates in the United States, 1959-2017 | Population Health | JAMA | JAMA Network

Life Expectancy and Mortality Rates in the United States, 1959-2017 | Population Health 
US life expectancy increased for most of the past 60 years, but the rate of increase slowed over time and life expectancy decreased after 2014. A major contributor has been an increase in mortality from specific causes (eg, drug overdoses, suicides, organ system diseases) among young and middle-aged adults of all racial groups, with an onset as early as the 1990s and with the largest relative increases occurring in the Ohio Valley and New England. The implications for public health and the economy are substantial, making it vital to understand the underlying causes.
So wow, this is all since 1990, when my first child was born?  What did I notice with my first child?  Well, we would go-out to eat once a week. McDonald's and Burger King were cheaper and faster than any food anywhere, while Chilies was doing good. These were much the same foods shipped in by Sysco!  TV and video games were used as baby-sitters. I could get home each night and have a beer or two. . . while most of my peers would empty a 6-pack and nearly everything was made out of Corn-syrup. . . 

Ah yes, that's when the GMOs got started and all the food we ate was corn-syrup and processed crap made in a lab instead of made in the Earth or a Garden. They had stopped the cigarettes, or made significant efforts to stop all the poisons put into tobacco to make them addictive, BUT NO ONE had a clue that most other consumer foods were equally laced with shit for the same reasons.

Interesting to note how much these sugars and toxins became so wide-spread in everything we could purchase and consume. And I recall how hard it was to get real food for my children, and how easy it was NOT TO!

 Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What about this experience inspires you now?
I helped a friend with a death last night. . . 42 and died of a heart-attack. . . ie too much sugar!   I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
“The whole country is at a health disadvantage compared to other wealthy nations,” the study’s lead author, Dr. Steven Woolf of Virginia Commonwealth University, said. “We are losing people in the most productive period of their lives. Children are losing parents. Employers have a sicker work force.”

Sunday, October 06, 2019

NEW TECHNOLOGY

I’ve also learned that each time we experience truth—each time we suffer or love—the range of our compassion widens. Like a mud-filled pipe that is hollowed out by rain to carry water underground, the force of each experience clears us out.

I’m getting deeper and deeper into my technology. Friday I received an iPhone 11 Pro. Of course I spent $100 more for the Pro Max. But this was only so I could see more, and read more and all that crap on the little iPhone. Now I’ve Discovered the iPad. I got one from a handyman Job where I worked about $150, and the guy offered the iPad instead of a check. I said $80, and he gave me the gadget and the check for the rest.

Wow, was it cool to use the iPad. So now I’ve got the newest iPad Pro, with the pen and folding keyboard. . . This is so fast and easy, so maybe I can go back to a normal sized iPhone and use this for my reading and writing. I tried to exchange the new iPhone at the local store before I opened it. Nope they had none left. Course, I walked down to the T-Mobile store, where we found the very last 6+ that I’ve had and used until this morning. Nope, T-Mobile hadn’t seen any of the newest iPhones. So I can reorder on Monday, or just keep what I have.

So last night I opened the box, plugged it in and set it up. Now I’ve got the new iWatch on too. God knows why they sold it to me before I got the new iPhone, since the iWatch wouldn’t work with the older 6+. It’s Weird buying new tech’, I’ve Always built new tech, and always seemed to be buying the newest I could find. Course it’s out of date by the time you open the new box, but at least it’s functional using all the latest technologies for a while. . . That's why I was always "Beta Testing" when I got out of college the first time.

Course in new job now, so all new tech, new shoes, new cloths. . . No new car or truck, but a new bike and "new house" soon too. Funny, here where I am, I can see the Sunrise easily each morning and I know this is fundamentally something that I need to have in my life again. I would even enjoy the sunrise peaking through the trees at my parents house, and my old house in Seminole Heights. So now again I need to be sure I get what makes me sing deep inside.

OK, so now I can talk to text online here again. I learned how to use this new technology and I’m really happy with it. It’s great to use something new that I understand, what’s really funny is watching the vibration of my voice going through the speakers to this gadget, as it picks up the radio as well, but it only prints my voice. I was trying to do this outside a minute ago and the keyboard attachment to the iPad doesn’t have the voice activation button on it, while the virtual keyboard that comes with just this does have the little microphone for that.

Yes, so now I figured it out again, so I’m happy.  I was doing this yesterday typing into my journal and now I’m taking it into my blog, so it’s really cool to have the technology come up to where I need it to be.  What was funny yesterday, I said that I wanted to put in and move around pictures and maps and  drawings and different elements from different programs the same way I do this right now with just these words and it was funny to even think that I was setting the pace for the next change in the technology. I mean, now I can say "words" and the "letter's" appear on the screen. Next, I need to say "images" that appear on the screen, move and morph like I want them too. I’ve always done that in my mind (FLASHED) and I just sorta laugh about it, because it’s almost irrelevant to me now,  nothing new or nothings changed just same old same old ...

Like, I get that same feeling about buying a house as well; where I just know that it’s going to be exactly what I need, and exactly where I want it, and it’s going to be there, ready and waiting for me when I get to it, and I just know that already, it’s kind of weird.  I need to recognize how much control I have over things, and stay in that very same frame of mind. Like yesterday with the zoom bullshit on the phone I got all upset and that carried with me for so long that I was feeling all this negativity and that just doesn’t belong and just annoys me more than anything.

Of course, I’m clear and sure about everything; but I notice how easily I can get pushed off-course and that just doesn’t sound right for me. I need to get a lot stronger than that. I guess, I am being too empathetic and allowing myself to get caught in other peoples bullshit and it’s not healthy. Of course I’m clear and sure about everything I am, but I notice how easily I can get pushed off course and it just doesn’t sound right for me. I need to get a lot stronger than that.

An Invitation to Explore Your Personal Relationship with Truth

~ In your journal, describe who you explore your experience of truth with. What qualities or conditions make that sacred place between you possible?

~ In conversation with a friend or loved one, tell the story of a moment in which you felt both the harshness of reality as well as the unfaltering presence of life-force below the situation. Then go back to your journal and, through metaphor or story, explore the relationship between the harshness of reality and the unfaltering presence of life-force that never goes away.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What else came up? 93 or higher on the Light CRI is critical. You need to match the light of the Sun and the Earth to the light in your home to create and sustain health with the circadian rhythms . . . check for the phillips U, color change light system CRI - color rendering index
I am so grateful for this awesome experience we have created. I'm sorry, I ever questioned, second guessed, or feared anything before me. This is such a Blessed Life. Thanks you so MUCH! and WOW, I get a NEW HOUSE. . . like a real nice pretty "house, house, house". . . next to a church where I get Your Holy bells Every HOUR ALL DAY LONG!!!  WOW!!!   I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Thursday, September 12, 2019

grateful and happy for everything

I never slept last night, I was so wired, and crazy reading, and rethinking all my emails. Then I sent my dads note to him, 4 times. So he was wired about it too, posting notes, questions and changes up till 12:00 midnight last night. Then I met with Yrag yesterday too, who liked and opened more doors for me with YFG, who I meet on Friday to create a new deal.

Yrag made me copies of the critical pieces and returned the toxic piece of Ttocs’s work. He then got really specific about priorities and goals I should keep in mind as I move forward.... I left his office and went to Kinkos to get my copies scanned. I then called Llib to discuss next steps. I was thrilled he returned my call in moments, to recommend a meeting next week. I then drove to Oxford Exchange for a glass of wine, with my reading the scanned files.

I also wrote my dad that moment. And they had no WiFi, so I never could send it . . . . Or so I thought, actually sending it four times before the night was over. I know I’m in such an awesome space. It feels so very clear and strong. Crazy great as well, Yrag asked me about Mik as we sat down. Gone 9/11/17 with Irma, cash clearing the bank from the house sale also on 9/11/18 and now discussing new world with him 9/11/19.... She was interviewing for a St Pete Job, and resigned from Ytinummoc Gnippets Senots .... he was really surprised, but she said the commute from St Pete made that impossible... which is crazy, as he commutes from st Pete now too. . . .

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What a wonderful experience to see this set of three powerful events, exactly as year apart. Powerful dates, powerful numbers, powerful experiences. . . more power coming to focus each day. Trust what is, and move forward in this power and clarity. 
I am so very grateful and happy for everything that’s before me. . . I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

quality lined leather cases for everything

So I signed up for the Elppa card the day it came out and I had used it, I guess within a week after that .... and I use it for everything, because I always have done that... MY AASU bank visa does an extensive accounting of all my purchases so I get a very detailed summary and breakdown of every category of my expenses. And so I buy everything with that card, and now I shifted everything to the Elppa card.

When I sold enough stock to transfer 11 grand for all new tech stuff, I decided it was time to go get new equipment.  Course within a week they had released the new versions so I returned everything to get the new versions instead.  Course that meant a trip going downtown, so I had to schedule a dozen other things including the dentist, visiting Yrag and i actually called and spoke to LLib as well!

Now I told him how my credit isn’t showing yet, so the Elppa card is fucking with me again. . . But I’m giving him the next order anyway. Then I said about the EMF effects and getting quality lined leather cases for everything.... printing him orders from better add ones, suggesting how he can get the super quality for an ‘angry customer’ . . . Seems like that’s all the $$$ cares about anyway... get the rfid shields on everything, and the making them all work right...

I really love my new technology and I know that I designed it for myself.  So I wrote the business manager a thank you letter for the awesome service that they provided .... Then detailed out what the clowns that Elppa card got to and how the bank for them is better small and local.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What a nice start....
I am so grateful and appreciate all your help and guidance... I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Friday, September 06, 2019

going more digital ...

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Here I am with a new gadget, and I’m trying to figure out how powerful it is for blogging and doing things that I really like to do, and I realize that I should be able to talk to it directly ... Oh yes, that seems to work, so I am able to talk to it pretty easily. New sentence and now I got to figure out how to put in these words and commands together and everything else that goes along with that because I haven’t figured it out yet, but it looks like it’s gonna work OK. I wonder if it works on my phone!
Of course you know we’re gonna tell you that this is what you created yourself and you asked for this to come out to you just the way it is, so you can imagine it’s only gonna get easier and better every day ... 
It figures, I kind of knew that, but I don’t like presuming anything, so I try to be careful about what’s in front of me, it’s good to be ready for what is here, but it’s also good to be humble and respect creation and development from others ...  something else I’ve noticed while playing with this is that if I have a music on, or something else speaking next to me while I do this, it can start recording those other words from somewhere else as well ...  ha ha Ha ...

I still can’t stand how they removed the arrow keys off of the keyboard in one of their revisions and made it this little magnifying glass to put your little cursor in for editing... And you know with this blasted thing you can barely see under your big fingers, you can never get the cursor exactly where you want it, so you always just want to push the simple arrow key to move it over one space or two spaces ... but NO! you got to get the stupid magnifying glass and wiggle it around all over the page before you can get right where you want it ... it’s crazy and I’ve made this complaint a 100 times and all they have done is change the keyboard where you slide up with two fingers on the keyboard and it turns into a mouse, so you can move the curser around like a mouse but it’s still totally irrelevant because that one letter that you need to change so that one space you need to tap over you can’t do anyway ... soon someone brilliant high school kid will create a keyboard add-on with the arrow keys back and make a killing that no one understands... something so simple that we all have and used for eons... but now little faces 😊☺️☹️ Goofy fingers 👌👍🙏 and all these other fucking symbols are more important than correct English 👁⛳️🏰⛵️✈️🛡🗡📳♋️☮️❌

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Sunday, August 18, 2019

flash to new systems

I Flash to new systems for feeding the whole city based on restoring the waters in this area.

What is remarkable again is that you are dancing around this power and focus so easily and simple for you, while never even considering the extreme change and opportunity that you will bring to the whole Earth to create a completely new place designed in-step with Nature.
It's really what we have always talked about from the very beginning! 

We have never changed. And you are discovering that you have not changed too much either. You have the flare for creation and change that is your favorite thing ever. And you spontaneously inspire and encourage others to engage and grow all the time as well.
I am so THANKFUL for all you have lead me to and guide me further as here again: now4u2



Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

We have been trying to make it clear to you for so long how this is all been your own creation. You already know where the next phases will be. You already have all the rivers designed, and all that you do is move the water around like Father, like Son. Creation from the waters of the Earth is really all we are about here anyway. And many are starting to realize that the "divide and conquer" methods of the machine and the church, really have nothing to do with evolution or growth, but more about monopoly and control.
I know i keep finding that we are more profitable when we share and grow together and encourage and support all life! Instead of limit and control it!

What are all are finding is that limit and control is actually the problem, not the solution. For example, the wealthy have already spent eons trying to limit and control the poor. This has resulted in increasing population of poor. Each time they try to limit the water, the food, create new diseases and poisons, they soon discover that this has a greater reach of multiple side-effects, which have the opposite effect. We are always surprised how they keep trying and trying regardless of who the results show the opposite.
Consider the divide and conquer of the right and left, or the white and black? This has increased the white-supremist efforts that are back-firing, literally ending the control of guns and violence. The global effect will be long lasting, and those industries slatted to loose the most, are actually those same industries who started it.
I know this is a nature-effect! Like the evolution of the city and the environment connecting more and more. Since mankind is a part of Nature, and the movement of water in our bodies and surrounding is what makes it all possible. While this greed-machine dividing our waters to control who has clear or dirty is a sick disease which will only continue to kill. While combining these is what is needed. Recreating the wholistic flows for creating life beyond profits. It's more important to support individuality, individual rights, democracy, libertarianism, anarchy, rebellion, and the revolution of Spirit that brings us out of the lies, Brules and Fake news into the Truth of our power. . . lol . . . just got this

What a trip
I know, nothing new for me!

What's next?
I need to exercise!

my first hour every morning. . .

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Saturday, August 10, 2019

a hundred different things

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What a great space you create. . . 
I've got my Mac spinning on a hundred different things, moving Videos, Changing configurations, creating files! Like I needed to get a directory of my external Drives. Yea, weeks of archiving CDs from my storage unit into two or three drives. . . so I created a directory file. Course then I found one I did for my USF website before I left. Wow, never new I had so much out there. . . Also my drives are TBs not just GBs, so the directory files have them spinning and spinning.
What else are you working on?
I need to find some videos. Which is really a pain. The directory file will help. Then all I need to do is a text search for some keywords and then I at least know where to look and what I can find! I've been making more videos and websites and such again. It's something I can figure out or do. Like modeling rivers, it can get tedious, but I'm patient and determined enough to try and try and try again until I find a work-around that gets me there. . . sounds typical! 
What do you think we are doing with you?
I get it, i get it! I'm still doing the same thing I've always done. I thought I had to give-up on something because the place, players and environment changed. Nothing really changes, it' always getting easier and better. . . I mean, life has always been a grace and a wonderful time for me. Why should anything really change.
We always have a lot for you, so it's always changing, but you get bored without change. 
I know, it's all great. . Thanks and I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Tuesday, August 06, 2019

New Science! It’s Not Just the World Wide Web That Connects Us.

New Science! It’s Not Just the World Wide Web That Connects Us.

Now: There is evidence that Earth’s magnetic fields help to synchronize, energize and support the interconnection of all living systems. Science is only scratching the surface of the many benefits to come from increased conscious awareness of our interconnectivity with others, animals, trees and nature.

You can be an essential part of this ground-breaking research on interconnectedness which is needed in these times of world uncertainty. Examining new ways in which all living things (humans, animals, trees and more) are interconnected, and exploring the many untapped benefits from harmonious interactions between these powerful kingdoms of creation. By working together to consciously increase the coherence in the global field environment, we can intentionally increase our consciousness vibration which is the foundation for personal and global peace and cooperation.

 Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What about bringing more of your own passion and work to the forefront. You have a gift, and sharing it will open up so much more for everyone.
I always have more to do. . . I'm tired!   I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Friday, August 02, 2019

like fire through the universe

Early this morning I awoke in the dream being on a mountain in the Himilayas, tall, jagged, steep and snow covered. The air was brisk yet not freezing, it was scintillating, electric ... on the apex of the mountain range, standing, arms out stretched to the sky, calling on My SOURCEness to dance with me ... we spun and twirled in the air just above the icy and jagged mountain top ... swirling in space, weaving colors and tones in, through and around, deep sounds and heavy vibrations
 ... "AAHHH OHMMM" ...
 ...  ... "AAHHH OHMMM" ... ...
 ...  ...  ... "AAHHH OHMMM" ... ...   ...

 As a conductor of a multidimensional symphony I played my BEingness for the Universe to Experience and share with me ... I vibrated, toned, sang and celebrated LIFE as I danced and created a vortex of LOVE into Earth, then I carried these tones and deep colors into the Earth ... on purpose ... because I love bringing and being this source Sun Energy of Love down deep into Earth ... I returned to my mountain top, still flying high, and sat.

Our soul bodies then spun and danced in space, intertwined deep down through my Chakras ... and our exclamations of joy spread like fire through the universe ... as we descended into our physical bodies spinning into the space of  Earth ... carrying our energies deep into the Center of Earth, transmuting Master Alchemists ... BEing One ... we made the Earth Glow like the Sun as we did this dance ... we rode our waves of Life Purpose ... dancing and loving to heal Earth, transmute, raise energies and vibrate higher and higher ... like love.
What a nice way to start the day. We really require this devotion and attention in Love and Purpose. BEing focus and undivided in one purpose of Love resolves all else.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

I've finally been getting myself more focused!  
I finally posted something about my Mayan Chant and setup a date/time to do it! I even got it together on the AirBNB experience site again. FINALLY! Wow, what a pain, but wow, nearly 15 years since I did it last time . . .
What about sending your message out, about how you want to help the world. . . see this global impact helping the world 
I need to do Ritual to ground everyone's History, and Karma, and Energy DEEP into the Earth to regenerate it all!
Be amused, collaborating WITH Everyone, send a message to the Team, I SEE U, LETS PLAY, send name, picture, and FIND U . . . BE AWARE, help them to find you . . . at stretch you awareness into you Body
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

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Friday, July 12, 2019

This is a relationship Story: Journal2MyGOD

Friday, July 12, 2019

Some people call parenting a job, but when I think about it, that doesn't seem like an accurate description of what this beautiful and messy thing really is. This is a relationship

Journal2MyGOD: Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What do you need to share. . . 
I guess the power of your experience. . .   I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.


Intentional parenting is a wonderful

Some people call parenting a job, but when I think about it, that doesn't seem like an accurate description of what this beautiful and messy thing really is. This is a relationship -- a relationship that takes thought, self sacrifice, love, compassion and intentionality. This is not a relationship you can be stagnant in and expect to go well. So don't be stagnant! Your child needs more out of you than that. Be intentional in your choices and in how you raise your child. Here are eight steps to get started.
1. Think about how you were raised. And no, I'm not talking about reflecting on the best points of your childhood, like that time your parents took you to Disneyland and got you that awesome Mickey hat. I'm talking about the day in, day out parenting that you received. Look at your childhood through the lens of the parent that you are, not the lens of the child that you were. How did your parents or role models teach you? How did they interact with you? How did they shape your decisions?
2. Look to someone you admire. Whether it was when you were a child or someone you know now, look to the parents you admire. Nobody is perfect, but there are positive bits and pieces we can pull from those around us. If there's someone you admire as a parent, talk to them. Ask them questions. Figure out what works for them and how they feel they can grow.
3. Communicate with your partner. This is a team effort. Being intentional in how you raise your child is all about knowing what matters to you and making sure that you and your partner are on the same page moving forward. Men are not always known for our open and skillful communication, so ladies, drag it out of us if you have to.
4. Think about the character you want your child to have. Who do you want your child to be? How do you want them to treat others? How do you want them to act? Think about these things. Personally, I want my daughter to be responsible, to be kind, to be loving, to treat everyone -- from the CEO to the janitor -- with the same level of respect and compassion. Those traits aren't just going to happen by themselves, they have to be learned, and if they have to be learned, then my wife and I need to teach her.
5. Create a routine to help your child succeed. Routines are important. As your child learns and grows, having a routine that they know is in place will help them be prepared for the day. Just like you have a routine every morning on your way out the door to work, your child needs a routine as well.
6. Be consistent. Was there anything more confusing as a child than being told "yes" by Dad and "no" by Mom? When you and your partner decide how things are going to run, stick to it! Do not compromise what you believe to be the right and good thing for your child for what can sometimes be the easier route. When you set a standard, stick to it.
7. Take time to unplug. Think about it like a date -- when you're out on a date, it's incredibly rude to spend the entire evening with your nose in your phone. Do the same favor for your child. Take that time to mute the TV, put the phone down, put away the tablet and simply exist in space with your child. Show them that they matter enough to have your undivided attention.
8. Spend time with your child. When life gets busy -- and trust me, it does for everyone -- make sure you are still taking the time to connect with and develop the relationship with your child. You aren't just an authority figure in the life of your kids, you are someone they admire and look up to. So take the time to enjoy them, participating in what they like, showing them how to act, teaching them to be gracious and kind and setting the standards for their life. Be present.
Intentional parenting is a wonderful -- albeit challenging -- decision to make. But for the benefit of your precious little nugget, take the time to be present and intentional. They will appreciate it later.
You can find more from Jon Helmkamp at Finding Fatherhoodon Facebookand on Twitter.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
What a trip!
I LOVE YOU
   I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Sunday, June 02, 2019

Mayan Glyphs at Crystal River Site in Florida

Mayan Glyphs at Crystal River Site in Florida | LostWorlds.org

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What are you doing. . . ?
I was searching for something and ran into some Mayan Art in Florida! Wow, that cool, so as i started to explore it more I found this article about a Mayan Site in Crystal River. I'm not surprised at all. I'm almost inclined to think the Philipe Park Indian Mound is Mayan because of it's size and dimensions. . . course now reading along I see this:

Another symbol on this same pot appears to have similar associations of life and death:
The sides of the pot feature a repetitive ‘teardrop’ design. In the Maya world, this design is identical to an actual flint knife. Flint knives also have associations with life (surgery, food preparation) and death (human sacrifice).



We have been encouraging that of course.
It was weird as I also got this email this morning:

For over twenty years as a physician, I’ve witnessed, time and again, the healing power of tears. Tears are your body’s release valve for stress, sadness, grief, anxiety, and frustration. Also, you can have tears of joy, say when a child is born or tears of relief when a difficulty has passed. In my own life, I am grateful when I can cry. It feels cleansing, a way to purge pent up emotions so they don’t lodge in my body as stress symptoms such as fatigue or pain. To stay healthy and release stress, I encourage my patients to cry. For both men and women, tears are a sign of courage, strength, and authenticity.
So yes it's still very easy for me!



Why do you think it's so important for you?
I'm back reading this article again: Crying makes us feel better, even when a problem persists. In addition to physical detoxification, emotional tears heal the heart . . . In my life, too, I love to cry. I cry whenever I can. Wish I could more. Thank God our bodies have this capacity. I hope you too can appreciate the experience. Let your tears flow to purify stress and negativity.



What do you feel?
I always seem to have more to learn? It's really kinda weird because everything is so easy and free for me. I'm never afraid of anything and seem to express and be so fully all the time.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Thursday, February 21, 2019

What's a Catalysts?

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What happened?
Once again I am totally floored with my power and focus! I get the sense about how I can make things happen at a completely higher level. I know I am moving higher all the time. I get this vibrational sense that things are shifting and that I can make things move so much stronger and clearer.
What was the sense you found in the dream last night?
It was like I just showed up somewhere randomly and everything about their challenge and struggle was something I could do in my sleep! No challenge for me at all, while they almost gave-up. It was really something I had done or felt over and over again. Like moving into my house for the first time and knowing I could really do a lot there and move things forward very easily beyond all limitations.

Now, I'm reminded of first arriving in Tampa for college, and feeling like I was in a time-warp back into High School, where everyone was struggling and trying to figure out what I had already done the last ten-years. Course, I'd been down this road over and over again? Do you think I could get it right this time? And what does it mean to get it right? Does this mean being someone else? Does this mean being who I AM? Does this mean BEing more than I AM? How could I BE MORE? What is it that I'm exploring or trying to understand now, that is beyond me, or forcing me to grow and achieve more.

This brings me back to my feeling with Nwad and Ylrebmik. . .  is it my place to help the Goddess Fulfill herself! Am I just the catalysts that is found or discovered at the one moment that it's needed. Like the tiny spark or lightning that hit the mud puddle at just the right time to start the cells of life on Earth. Nothing more, not something constant or endless, but that tiny little bit that's needed to get this started and that's it. Nothing more.
What if that's why you are always left alone. You can not spark-up something new if you are all surrounded and engulfed in the old? Everything about creation and evolving requires freedom and moving forward. The old might prop you up, but allowing for new growth, creation, and evolution is more than this. SO MUCH MORE! 
I'm not happy alone! Abandoned AGAIN!
. . . Or Not always happy. It's weird how these things come and go for me. Like being alone again now is weird. But I'm looking forward to my parents doing their snow-bird trip. They've been down here in Florida since November and are leaving Monday until next November. I could never have a house for only 4 months, why bother! It seem like such a waste of time and effort, or cash! But that's what snow-birds do and that's like 75-80% of the population in Florida. Weird!
What about getting unstuck, releasing the energy that is stuck . . . releasing unresolved trapped energy of trauma, pain and stuck energy. . . releasing the individual and the universal energy of entrapped, constriction, and betrayal . . . for completing cycles, releasing ourselves into our own renewal . . . write down the treads you have stuck still . . . 
I know name and claim to release it all . . . give it to God, and bring to the Light!

What do you think you have left out?
I'm not sure? I've talked to my Dad about this and knew my Wife left, or came so I could! But I guess I never said how I felt "abandoned." I was abandoned by my wife when Hurricane Irma Hit on 9/11. So did I feel abandoned by my Dad sometime? Maybe there was one time, one event? I know we would always joke about him missing my Birthday! And of course I remember a big Birthday party my Mom did for me once too. . .
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.