Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What do you need son?

I am totally freaked out... Everything is coming to a head really quickly. Today I spent the day with Scott. We put together the land deal. We reviewed my Unity Method patent. Then we discussed the STARS deal with Chuck. And I made significant discoveries about myself.

What did you learn?

I learned I could make this Land deal work. And it wouldn't require significant effort, because I love making deals and setting things up. And all the players in this deal could easily fall in LOVE with my Green House patents and designs which might open up TONS more for us.

Then I also learned how much Scott and I had in common. Where he understood and related to my Unity Methods Patent completely. He even recognized and told me that it was really "old news" and there was really nothing that he hadn't heard before. Course me patenting a method whereby I use the current Sciences available to describe a common religious practice just had never been done before. Course we both know and recognize that this practice has been hidden by the churches and kept private for eons because people were using it for the wrong reasons and getting hurt.

I told him that this was exactly WHY I HAD TO PATENT it because the scientists are getting very close to understanding these ancient arts and no one is taking any responsibility to control what they do and how they do it. Now if anyone used this and got hurt then they would be violating my patent rights and be liable. While if they wanted to use it for the RIGHT reasons and learn the truth they would have to come to me. . . So then I can make sure that people only use it carefully. . . . And ONLY for the RIGHT reasons!

I also realized that MY CHILDREN learned and used it for the WRONG reasons. Course they learned it all about the same time that I did, because they taught me. Which might not really take away any of my responsibility in their trip "down the rabbit whole into Wonderland." However, I HAVE NEVER shirked any responsibility to my children....

Are you sure of that son?

I am really not totally sure. . . . I guess. . . And I know what you are leading into. The last thing I learned tonight was how I was doing the same thing that Keith does. I was intentionally holding back information when doing business. I mean, I've been burned SO MANY times by telling people TOO MUCH. I mean, both Chuck and Keith have all but KICKED MY ASS for getting into all the discussions about being on this Mission From God, being sent here to change the world and all that shit.... While meeting with people who wanted to support us... Basically I would freak out people sounding like a total wacko!

That is the key point there son, the people involved are what matters.

I realized that the deal STARS was looking at involved a private company selling insurance to new STARS members. And STARS would be contracting this out. The new STARS members would pay a membership fee to STARS so we could develop projects for them. But they could also purchase insurance as a membership benefit. STARS would get $/year from each member while the contractor would get $/month from each member as the typical sales commissions on the insurance. If this involved thousands of members the multiples on the fees collected meant that thousands of members got only pennies of a STARS project, while the single contractor got millions in sales benefits. This initially shocked me and I knew Chuck would freak over these numbers too.

Scott immediately told me that I needed to Tell Chuck about it, since he's meeting to discuss this deal tomorrow.

UGH... My reaction was WHAT ARE YOU CRAZY!!!

I mean, I carefully told Chuck every detail I could so he would be clear and conscious about how to get the deal together. I mean, I know that Chuck is a wizard of relationships and negotiations, And if he got important background and ideas to sleep on and think about for the days before the meeting; that the meeting would go Perfect! He's just a Wizard about that stuff. Just as Scott is the Wizard of making things work legally. . . And I'm the Wizard of... lol... Never mind... Lol.... So to freak Chuck out the night before his meeting would just BE STUPID!

I mean my gut feeling was that Chuck would find out about it all sooner or later anyway. So why freak him out the night before where it might only fuck the whole thing anyway.

Scott made it very clear to me that holding critical information from associates in any situation was simply wrong.

And I realized that this last few months I've been harassing Keith about his business practices. I mean Keith can sell anything, but does it dishonestly by holding critical information from the customer. WOW SHIT!!!! I just realized that I essentially taught Keith how to do this. When I worked for him in college selling solar heating units. My job was to get a sales lead. And I walked up to the door and knocked asking for the owner or parent, so I could get their name and phone number to schedule a time for a salesman to visit and sell them solar heat.

Soon I simply would say that I worked for the "power company" and was offering to do a "free energy audit" of their home.... The conscious lie and deception was that I wasn't actually working for THEIR "power company" TECO or Florida Power. But instead worked for a solar heating "power company" . . . So my little play on words was intentionally deceiving these people to get sales leads and make some cash.

Keith has since done similarly in different things and would essentially brag to me about how well it worked in the Bahamas and the phone companies . And I realized that the negative deception was EXACTLY why Keith would fall and get hurt at whatever he did. And of course teaching his son and daughter how it's "ok to be deceptive" means they will soon be terrorists in jail or worse.

Very good son, you got it all out. So what have you learned?

SHIT, I am fried. . . . I mean I told Keith countless times that him trying to pull this scam business in my house and allowing a lying thief to live here while I did this Unity Patent to create a conscious revival of Earth's Civilizations was VERY DANGEROUS. I tried to tell Keith about the lightning bolts falling off me in NC, but he could never understand. Then I even told him how I've seen sparks flying from my fingers. And still he didn't care. But in point a fact, I AM TERRIFIED of getting pissed at him or his son for their stupid greed and manipulation in my house and just blasting them into dust on a spontaneous ZAP!

You did it son, you got that fear out of you now. And now you know why Scott is so critical for you. Scott also told you to live alone for a year or two, just to settle and get focused on yourself. What you don't know is that Scott knows a lot more about this than anyone. He is also good friends with Tim who was their as you threw bolts in NC. Then Scott has been here while you've grown from the crazy STARS ideas into the Yoga and kabbalah and all the rest. You are very lucky to have him around and you need to honor that a bit more.

I know, I know. I told Scott that I could make the land deal work. I presented it to people and got such strong responses that it would be very easy to make all kinds of things happen. Then I really only spoke to any of these people because I wanted to make Scott some money. Sure I could use a bit of cash too, but the insight was simply to present his business ideas, that I never got my PE to support. I kinda skrewed him up by not getting my PE when I said I would, so I wanted to find out if I could make his idea work anyway. And the opportunity to investigate the land and ask about help for my housing patent was perfect timing for it all to come together. And it has!

Scott all but forced me to call Chuck tonight and tell him what I calculated. It might be normal insurance sales commissions and greatly benefit the members. But fundamentally the whole project was about greed and deception if we are not fair and equitable about our contract arrangements in STARS. Sure Kinser would love it, because it was normal commissions and also a viable benefit to the members. However, it really is not the proper place for STARS to knowingly get a single individual filthy rich while taking membership fees from poor old folks. It simply doesn't seem at all ethical.

And MOST importantly it's not my place to decide Chuck doesn't need this information tonight. Scott even called me back a few times after I left telling me to swear to never hold anything from him again about any deal we do or else he would never work with me again.

I did promise him and swear I would never hold anything from him again. And he felt like I was just saying it, and not meaning it. So I now understand why I needed to write all this tonight. I'm finished with this patent and I'm going to the airport post office to send it tonight. And I know that I need to BE CLEAR AND STRONG about everything I do; OPEN and HONEST about it all with everyone I see now.... Always!!! Since the power and focus that I have will be greatly magnified with just my name association to this Unity Patent and all those who read it.

But even now I'm "freaking out" to post this message. I now I need to send it to Scott and Chuck. But I also know or feel like they will kill me for being TOO HONEST and sharing too much again.

What do you need son? This is exactly what you need to do. The power and clarity that the truth creates in your favor is lightyears ahead of anything you could get any other way. If there is something in the truth that bothers someone they need to stop and consider themselves and find what is wrong and fearful inside themselves. You are bringing a lot of power out to the people and you will be able to lead and direct this power for their benefit ONLY as long as you stay in TRUTH!

I know! Thanks for reminding me...

What do you need to say now son?

I PROMISE YOU Scott and Chuck... I will share everything with you about what...

What do you need share? Are you still trying to hide something?

I PROMISE YOU SCOTT AND CHUCK that all my dealings will be clear and direct with you and that I will never hide anything from you about anything that I do!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you for YOUR Strength and Wisdom to do as I must. Please Lead and guide me to Your Fulfillment for the Glory of Father Son and Holy Ghost. Amen.

Hey Chuck and Scott, I need to show you my chant, ASAP!!!

Moven' Rev'

Thursday, December 29, 2005
11:24:15 PM
I Love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!

Thank you so VERY MUCH for giving Your Life to share with me Your Way of Truth, LOVE and Light. I am truly so grateful to be able to share MY Life with You now as ONLY YOU could make this moment worth Living.

Today, I went to group again and Di just came in when Christie asked me about my kids. It was so funny because he’s the only one who really got to me about that. So they did it again. And the synchronicity was so strong and clear. Chris said how it was not “synchro” but the natural results of my own personal efforts.

But she never had realized that all my efforts are only for God. And I’m the Solution that I prayed for at 16. . . . wow, that all kids pray for. And I’m throwing Andrew out?

Knowledge brings responsibility and power. If people are not responsible about their power you can not deal with them. You have been given too much power to loss into wasted things. Too much else needs your influence than this... no one gives their prime rib and lobster to swine!

Ok, I know

Knowledge is what you are Son when you share your experience
with others. You are full and capable to express such incredible things
that no one will ever question or understand

Wow... So 12:51:37 AM in the morning now 12/30/2005 and I’ve been working on my patent again. And everything is seriously coming together. I know my kids are blasting things all the pieces now. OH WOW, Christopher is reaching puberty... wow how cool is that.

Knowledge is such a wonderful power for you. You no longer need to fear sharing anything. Print and publish what you must and then totally let it go for you to share and love all those around you. There is nothing to fear. The power and clarity of your truth will reverberate throughout everything that you are!

Oh great, I’m really in for it now. What a trip this will be. I know that I’m finally getting this project done and I know I can get everything else going as this finishes. I mean it....

Oh another deal just popped into my head. I need to get new computers these old ones are becoming too much headache. So I thought about taking Dan over to see Mit and making a new deal there. Mit is tired of running the PC business and Dan is tired of running his business out of his van. So they would solve each others problems by helping each other.

The knowledge that you are sharing will open so many people up and change so very much around everywhere that no one will be able to slow you down. Nothing will get in your way and everything will simply collapse at your will. Fearless is more important than ever now Son. You are getting more charged every day, and you need to stay clear and focused on each new task set out before you.

Thank You so VERY MUCH for your help today with all these projects. Please lead and LOVE my friends and Family to FULFILL YOUR PURPOSE for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost... amen.

I Love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!

Christmas poem... about father and son.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word
Saturday, December 24, 2005
4:09:00 PM

Joyce called me this morning to wish me a Merry Christmas. It was really nice to speak to her. She had some cataract surgery on both eyes which would certainly freak me out big time. But she said it is coming along good and she’s starting to see better now. Sheryl’s kids are big and getting on their own now. Josh is 18 and starting college this year, while Shanna is 16 and starting after boys now.

I didn’t realize they were so much older than my kids. But it is still kinda wonderful to hear about them. Well especially to hear from her.

Then I got an email from Keith, sure I get a few dozen each day. But this was a Christmas poem... about father and son. He basically tried to make me feel guilty about wanting his son out, which immediately makes me want them both out. I mean I told Andrew the day he arrived how to survive here. He tried to scam me over and over again. And when he couldn’t, then he would use his dad and papa to scam me. Course they both worship his feet, so he can get them to believe anything.

And I really don’t care. If they want to believe everything the spoiled child says, well then he’ll just get more spoiled and make it harder and harder on them until they realize he’s just full of shit. Hey I tried and then I even agreed to Keith ideas about not interfering and letting Keith discipline him. Sure that will never happen. So I got Andrew to sign a contract and I told Keith that it wouldn’t last and that I would set traps for Andrew to screw it up.

They next day he had broken the contract. Messing with my stuff in my office in direct conflict with the contract he signed. Course I knew him signing some thing wouldn’t matter, his papa likely told him I couldn’t hold something binding with a child. Course as soon as he was bored with the TV he would get into trouble anyway. But I wondered how long it would be before he set off one of my traps

Then Keith’s 40 days were up and he fucked my school meeting so I told them both to get out. Keith soon convinced me that he could stay if Andrew left. And a week later he tried to convince me Andrew could stay too. Course that’s when Andrew set off two traps!!!
So now Andrew is supposed to be out by Christmas and/or they are both out. And I get this poem con job on Christmas Eve. Guess I can see where Andrew learned to be such a con. No wonder his sister never goes to school and gets away with anything she wants. They are both spoiled brats, and their dad wouldn’t recognize anything honest anywhere it seems...

So why does this have to become my problem?

No worries, be happy, it is not your problem, you tried to help, if their priorities are all messed up there is really nothing you can do for them. You do have a lot of other things to do so get busy.....

Yes I know, I love you Lord Jesus Christ. Please be with all my friends and family on this wonderful birthday of yours. Thank you dearest Love Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

8:46:58 PM
I’ve not been too successful in working on this patent today. I cleaned out my room and did a few other things around here that I needed to do. It looks nice and made me feel good about the place. But I know I need to get busy working on some other things. I feel like I need to do more research for this patent.

Why is that Son, you can clarify a few points and submit it. They will struggle with it for a while and then ask for more information. But at least you will get it in there where you want it to be.

Yes I know Dearest Love Lord Jesus Christ, and I guess that’s what is important for now, but I’m not really sure.

Son you don’t need to be sure... You can make it happen anyway that you want it to happen. So go visit the calculus professors that you need to see and get this done and submitted. It will really make you feel so much better and relax a lot more. At least for the time being.

Thank you dearest Love Lord Jesus Christ. I know it’s all coming together the way that You need. Funny, I know you really never NEED anything, but it is just the current task you have here for me. I’m thrilled to get things done for you, and it takes time and is a challenge, but I’m getting there. Please fill me with your strength Love and Wisdom. Amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Subject: house stuff

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!
I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!!!
Wow lots of interesting things happening again.
It’s weird, but I know it should be expected.

The closer I get to finishing all that I need to do the stronger the changes will become for everyone. I walked into my office as I spoke to Jonosko about math professors to discuss God’s Patent. She gave me a few people to look up, and we’ll meet the 20th. Then I had lunch with Chuck talking about lunch with the president. Called about properties so I’ll be meeting Shawn then Patel on Tuesday. Met a helicopter to chat about another patent and scheduled a future meeting about a new prototype & land development. Then sent a Christmas card to Bob and made it back home.

Keith is meeting his dad in Naples tomorrow am, to get his daughter and bring her to see her other G-pa with Andrew over Christmas. Andrew’s up there already so I was looking forward to some quiet time here. It’s kinda weird here with Keith freaking out about the Christmas thing. Christmas was never a big deal for me, except for children and loves.

I’m seeing no one and doing nothing 3rd year now, and really know I have too spend it here alone. Christmas is always about working for Jesus. Course no one seems to understand this. But that’s just what it is for me. I’m always writing letters to Presidents and such over Christmas. I realized a lot more with my leadership paper. John told me who and where to read about Spiritual Leadership. I found the whole discourse to be verifying my own techniques and skills. I wanted to send the whole thing off to the guy. John told me the personal discourse “I think-isms” was too juvenile and un-publishable.

I know that is what I’ve always had to do. Patent first and then publish it all. Then I’ll end up writing forever and fixing everything. It’s almost funny how familiar it all feels just to say that. Like I always knew I’d see the world, be invited everywhere to fix everything. Lol... like endlessly traveling and sharing the love that I feel everywhere.

Wow that was weird, I felt about women and having children as I said that. How I’d love and support any women who raised a child with me. Course it had to be MY child and only WITH ME. Forget all the greed and control everywhere, I just wont play any of those games anymore. Lol, like playing Andrew’s games; I told him my way or the highway, so I guess he made his choice.

I know I have this time alone with You, but what’s up?

You need to get things done.

Yes I always need to get things done, what’s new?

Nothing is new, except as things increase in strength and power the disruption and distractions will also increase. And the more you can focus and finish this weekend the more easily the next year will be started. There is nothing new here at all. Each year you have a mad rush to finish, write, send, do and create something. This is who you are and will be happening forever. You like it better this way, and will always be doing this.

Yes, thanks for the clarity there. But will I always be struggling? Can we get some closure on some things set so I can relax a bit.

Son we’ve told you countless times how much you relax now will soon be a distant memory. You’re going to be getting so very busy that nothing will slow you down. And that’s exactly the best thing for you and everyone.

Yes I know I guess.

So then why don’t you just do it?

Yes I am. Each time you say that I really get done more than I can understand and relate to

This is what you need to do. Stop worrying about it all, and just do whatever you feel is necessary and get it all done.

Yes, I love you.

No worries, be happy, get busy..

Thank you dearest Love Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

Wow this is so cool.

No kidding what did you expect. And we noticed that you finger is starting to get charged again.

Thrills, like I really need more of that in my life. . . .

This is actually something that you have known would be of significant importance at some time. You have continuously visualized different events where this finger is critical. And you have allowed this visualization to evolve. Just this moment you have been editing a patent expressing how you can use the mind and consciousness to change and create things on earth. This understanding is more significant than you care to accept right now. What is most important is to accept it is necessary to complete and simply complete it all

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Energy is reality's fundamental building block.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What's up...

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Yea, so what's new?

I know I'm getting a lot of things done and it's really kinda cool. TOO many things going. Like I'm working on three patents again. Three different prototypes are at 3-different stages of development. Then I'm also working on three different properties. Yes, Involved with land development again. Interesting it's not involving Bruce at all, but Shawn, which seems to really be going very well. We're talking about doing all the engineering for a site in exchange for a percent of the total sale. This fits in perfect with Scott and all that he's wanted me to do for a few years now. So I told Scott what we could do and he's ready to write a contract to get started.

Funny thing was when I met Shawn he immediately took me into see his son, who is a USF student now too and also dreaming up patent developments. LOL . . . Perfect timing for me to be chatting with the university president and VP again. I need to drop by and visit them and see what I can get stirred up.

Why?

I guess I also need to get busy on the Greening USF mission, so I can go out and visit a few people Claire told me about. Course I saw Claire yesterday. She was here doing another Bio-economics discussion with Mike down the hall here. Mike and I are always here at the oddest hours. So when I got a message from Claire about the first Bio thing at the library, I invited Mike to it. I'm sure I wrote about this before. But it's certainly nice to be meeting with Claire again. She gave me another book to read, and I told her I just read the "Universe in the Atom" by the Dalai Lama and was going through the "Quantum and the Lotus," another book she told me to read years ago. She said she was reading the same Dalai book too.

So I need to get "Presence : exploring profound change in people, organizations and society" by Peter Senge now too. Course his book is in the library now, brand new and not on the shelf for checking out yet. So I will get his other book the "5th Discipline" which she also mentioned Monday... And likely told me to read years ago as well. . . Hum wonder if the Library has the Dalai Lama books too... yepper, 47 of them... EEK!

What else happened with Shawn?

I also told him about my patents and asked him about a trailer and such for getting the rest of the pipes out there at StoneLake. He was more than happy to help and told me a great deal about how we could do what I told him about. He has always been very friendly and polite to me. So to finally really share something with him was very cool. And he was really excited about it all too. Which was why he had me chat with his son. I went over a lot with his son too. Got him onto the USPTO web site and hooked him up with all the answers to his questions.

It was really cool.

What did you learn...

I guess I realized I really did NOT have to do everything myself. I've always been so careful NOT to tell people too much about anything. And I'm very quiet now. I mean for years I would tell everyone everything with no notice, no warning, nothing but blab blab blab... But now I'm not so eager to shoot my mouth off so much. I guess I've finally learned from my mistakes.

I also learned a lot about my own leadership style. I need to be more forceful and strong when I know what needs to get done. Waiting for someone else to take the lead is not something I can do anymore at all. Like even with Equan I've told him to get Andrew and everyone together to get something done, and it just never happened. I know I need to make sure I get things done myself, and stop waiting for others to do anything.

What do you need to do tomorrow then?

I will finish one patent, check on another, asn call around for building the third prototype. Wow so much to do and so little time... lol... That's really funny... Yes I know I also need to visit three or four people too. Thank You Loving Lord Jesus Christ for all your Strength Love and Wisdom, Lead us into Your Light, amen.

Getting all the "ducks in a row."

1:50:09 PM. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What are you doing now?

I’m really making a lot of progress now. Things feel really good all around. Well almost, I never got Andrew focused and working on anything. I came close a few times with the computers, but just this week he came in here to tell me how he’s bored. I knew that would come when he got the TV and video games. He’s too talented a kid to get any real satisfaction from wasting his time with that crap designed to program and less talented people around. I mean, without the brain-dead followers, what use would there be with intelligent creative leaders. Course mass media creating whole generations of brain-dead followers only makes my efforts with Andrew and Keith all the more important.

But I’ve also learned that I need to finish what I’m doing too. And getting caught into other peoples’ psycho-drama will only distract me from what’s important. But I’m making some serious progress here. I’m scheduled to see my patent attorney Monday and need to go over everything with him. And so I’m finishing my patent now. It’s really looking very sweet too. I can’t believe how clear and simple it is.

I really need to thank Keith about this too. He added a few phrases to my leadership paper that I finished last week. I used each of his phrases to expand into whole new sections that I’ve never really said before. It was really interesting because I noticed how I mislead him with what I write. Keith’s comments or additions were very clear and logical, and opened me up to really explain the connections in more details. Many where I had left significant details left in the dark. I didn’t want to sound like a preacher but I still really had to have the God Focus throughout. Or what was obvious to me led to inaccurate things I needed to be a lot clearer about.... truth vs. preaching it feels like.

This really makes my work now so much easier too. Also I thought it was neat how Keith never saw me as a leader at all. But then with the final paper he understood more about how I do lead him and others indirectly. Course it’s so indirect that I’m not very clear about it all some times, which is why my Faith in Jesus Christ seeing and feeling His Big Picture Perspective is so critical. Like the deal with the Treehouse and Dan still makes him wonder . . . and me too sometimes!
I need to get a lot stronger and more direct to avoid these same problems everywhere. I’ve noticed that if I’m not very strong then my leading isn’t as clear and coherent as it needs to be.

Thank You Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please help me to finish as I must right now. Guide Keith with Andrew, Help Chuck and family, and lead Scott into Truth. Amen.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Fellow Team Members

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What are you doing now?

Stopped for a nice dinner ....

I love you Dearest Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank you for leading me to fulfill your Glory

I’ve been really kinda confused and worried about a few things lately, but I’ve followed your Will and Desire anyway. It’s been a challenge, as You always are. But it all came together magically like I could never imagine in the first place. I know I need to get more specific, and I also know I can do that at another time.

Thank you Loving Lord Jesus Christ amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Culture? What culture... No Morals here

What now?

I've been working on my leadership paper and the lessons learned too. My team in class seemed to have played a little prank on me. But then no one said a word about it. And I guess I didn't either. It was obvious that it was bothering me so I wrote up a few pages of lessons learned about it... Which really were all about what the other team members should learn from it. I asked the teacher about presenting it in class, he liked the idea, until I said team members were described, and then he thought it was more of revenge. LOL, like I have time for revenge?

Funny that's what Keith always said about Dan. That I was "vengeful." I went out of my way to give Dan every opportunity I could for him to be a good honest man and stand up to face the crap he was pulling. After almost 2 years in my house losing, all he ever could do was make up some new scam to make money. Lying or cheating someone for greed, and cheat me, cheat my friends and neighbors. So he ended up with nothing, no one would help him anymore. I wish he only left with the shirt on his back. Since then he might have stopped to think a bit more about what is true and right. But Keith and Andrew helped him take tons of crap that he collected while using me and my space. So Dan used me and then used Keith and Andrew and everyone else. Even used his handicapped daughter for years to get free coffee every weekend. Sure "feel sorry for my little girl, so I get free coffee" . . . . SO I tried to shed some light but Dan learned NOTHING here... Well maybe a little since he's home taking care of his parents now; I HOPE!

What's the point?

I don't know, I just always feel like the only person around talking any common sense. Like this morning Keith got the newspaper . . . . Now I know why I never get one. One article about a sex survey in the county schools shows more sex and drugs than ever. And then another article about the water problem in Tampa. . . Where they want to lower the river water quality standards so they can pollute it some more. What a bunch of shit. Course, just like Bush they find some engineer to pay and make the test results and reports justify them to do whatever they want. . . . But we all know in our hearts that it's total bull shit and we are only making the problems worse. . .

What do you think that is teaching our children? Do you think no child can read that newspaper in your town? Why should they try to stay clean avoiding sex and drugs? Their parents are filling their bodies with drugs and their minds will TV trash.

I mean how can these people be SO STUPID to see this stuff in their own back yard and go on thinking, oh it's ok... It's not my problem... Someone else will take care of it.... I just need to watch the football game, and get more gas for my SUV when I go for more beer. And they think this is civilized or advanced . . . Oh that's right as long as they have more than the Jones next door, that's all that matters.

My God what is this world coming to. . .

What did you ask that for? You know exactly what this world is coming too. How can you solve the problem if there's no problems. It's been obvious to you for a long time and there's no one else out there ready or able to do anything about it.

I know you tell me that all the time. And it's great to be doing this for You... lol... For US. And I know I can't loss and will always come out ahead no matter what the crap looks like right here around me.

What do you think this really means? You are one of millions and we all can know and feel each other at any minute. But we don't stop to think long enough to understand. Do you think there is anyone else in your country that is totally free in this focus of creation like you are now. Hundreds doing yoga, and meditations, thousands exercising and eating right. Each new conscious thought placed into the stream with us makes this easier for you. But you also know that they fall away and get lost as quickly as they grow stronger with us. This has always been the way of things. Just like throughout time it only took one decision to make it all change.

are you ready for it ?

will you do it yet?

Don't search for more proof, another example and reason to do... JUST DO!

I'm . . . . Am I really? What am I? Do I need to explain or write something. . . Do I think there are millions alone in the world with me. Wondering if the answer is out there somewhere. Just like wondering when Jesus Christ will come home. When will Revelations start? When will we know the solutions and stop fighting for more? Do I really need peace and quiet to be successful? Or do I need the love and companionship of someone? AAAAm I really ever alone?

I know You are always here with me. And I know you want to write a lot more. I guess I am just asking you a lot of questions so you can really tell me something.

What more do you think we could offer to you. It's again in this place of utter despair and conflict. Those millions you feel all waiting for the solutions are just asking you the same questions we are. are you ready to make the case clear. Do you need more proof?

Disclaimer: Astrocenter provides astrological predictions based on the astrological principles, Money Matters: Mercury will move into Sagittarius at the start of the week, eric, bringing added emphasis to your joint financial affairs. There is a situation building up here which is going to come to a head on Thursday, and may mean that you have to make a decision to change things quite dramatically. You may be forced into this situation, but ultimately it will work out much better for you in the long term. The Full Moon in Gemini may bring you the fruits of all the work you have put into your financial affairs or, if you have been frivolous, all the difficulties that you have been avoiding. If you take action when it is called for, you may have to sort through and make a clean sweep, but you will feel much better for doing so. Venus moves into Aquarius on Thursday which may help you find a way to talk to bosses or those in authority without causing too much annoyance, even though you may have something controversial to ask of them. Later in the week you may reach deadlock with your partner or other family member, as you can't find a way out of a tricky situation. One meeting may bring about a conflict of personality on Sunday.

What is really remarkable about everything that is, will be how clear it all becomes for everyone. It's very simple steps that we are all very well prepared for. Your place in this maze is so concrete solid and impeccable that the total surprise and fulfillment you will feel is just beyond recognition. Each new word you read or see anywhere only confirms and strengthens your resolve and fortitude to make this all happen. Like just this moment you flashed another vision as the Centerpiece Oasis - Theta track started in your headsets... Why don't you tell us about that?

I saw Keith finally putting on his suit and getting serious about everything. Not Doing better next year, but NOW. Seeing Burcaw about designs and equipment to start constructions, while Andrew and Equan got the pipes, computers and portables building the whole new system right here now. . . . . . Seeing the school board about the STARS projects and patents to clean all the water, trash, roads, people, schools. . . His ultimate little visions writing all the editors and having the schools and news talking up the incredible storm of controversy. Uncovering all the corruption and clearing out all the trash.

I am not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What do you really think your place will be?

I think I will simply hide away. I'll finally be given my peace and solitude to create and dance with you. . . .

What if your place were to change too? What happens if you need to be out meeting and pulling more people into it all. Keith gets started and maybe Dan and Rachel wake up. . . . Then maybe your father and church. . . . What about your kids? How will you be able to hide if they come out again reaaaady to DOOOO SOOOMMETHING! Can you get up to lead them? Are they ready to travel the worlds with you? Are you ready?

I am always ready. Each new freaky situations catches me by surprise maybe, but soon I figure out how it fits into Your Big Picture...

What do you mean, are you sure it's our Big Picture? What if it were only yours? Are you ready to be the one to make it all happen? Can you still hold your hand up if it starts to really spark? Are you going to run and Hide again or what?

I'm not sure about that. . . . Everyone kisses Dan's ass so they wont have to face him. While everything I did was show him he was full of it. I mean like Keith and Elizabeth all this big talk about BS. . . Success for yoga people or a million bucks, what a smart way to hide selfishness, greed and arrogance. Sure whatever I say and do might be a little harder or a challenge, but which one will help and serve others? And which is more in truth vs deception?

What is deception son? Do you think anyone there can live a single day without deception? You hide in your clothing and cover up everything. Like how you write these editors, are you telling them the whole truth? Certainly you personally tell everyone too much, but do you think either editor will publish anything that might make his own "pie in the sky" anything less than "the Jones next door?" Like Judging Keith or Chuck, if they responded to you their first opportunity, would they have been as successful as they could be now?

I know i need to get busy on some other things

What do you think this is all about. We started at the beginning saying that you needed to get busy on some other things.

I guess so. . . Thanks for pointing out realy how much i need to do and how much more this will increase as i begin to get certain things done.

Whatelse would you expect?

I gave up "expecting" anything a long time ago. It's nice to get some respect and consideration once in a while, but I know i've got to do something no one else can do. Sure you got me ready for it... lol... whatever that means, since I seem to be able to deal with anything while I get the unepected every day

What would you really want? Do you ask for anything that you don't get? Do you really want to ask for me?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please Let this all BE Resolved and Perfect as ONLY You could share with all of us for the Glory of God the Father Son and Holy Ghosts . . . . . Amen.

I am not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What ?

I'm tired of the struggle. And I'm starting to fear what pops into my mind sometimes. The Black Mountian episode comes to mind. I know I can do anything and I know there is nothing that can stop me. . . but I'm tired of the headaches and challenges. Yes they are good to make me strong and successful sometimes. But it's just not healthy to always be fighting and worried about what's next for me to deal with.

What ?

It's like Keith finished his 40 days and 40 nights and the very next day he was drunk as a skunk again. Of course it was the day I had planned for us to go to the Great Entrepreneur Minds party. . . given him almost two weeks notice. And it would have been a perfect time for him to kick start the whole STARS thing. I was really nervous about going and even spoke to him about who was going to be there and what I wanted to get done with them. He was clear and supportive asking me about things ahead of time. But for him to get drunk right before we left was just like spitting in my face. I wasn't really sure what to do.

So what happened?

I got in the car excited that he let me drive the car he's been using from Christine and I noticed from his slurred words that he was drunk. I really just wanted to turn around and go back home. But he always says he does better when he's drunk. . . . lol. . . . Like every alcoholic always says. So we got there. I avoided the people at the entrance because the class teacher was there talking with a bunch of people. I got some water and listened to him slur words and repeat himself while dropping peanuts and scuffing up the floor.

Obviously, I avoided any further conversations with him. But I spoke to a lot of other people and made some good contacts. Nothing I followed up on yet. But there was a light of something positive through it all and I almost feel like I should thank him now since I likely wouldn't have gone if he wasn't here. Like I don't need to use him as a crutch, sorta like he doesn't need to use alcohol as a crutch.

What else has he gotten you to do?

I guess I've gone out and done karioke a few times, where I'm singing in front of people. I kinda liked it, but haven't figured out how my voice works yet. I'm really deep at church but sang really high there. I know I need to try that some more and work on it. I need to work on alot of things I guess.

What ?

I don't know, I really tired of getting used. I feel like everyone has been using me. Here at school in class today and also Friday. I don't even want to think about my house and bikes and all that have been getting destroyed. I told Keith to get out by Christmas, but it will take me a full month working to get everything cleaned up and civilized again after he leaves. Then even Chuck who borrowed a few DVD's from me has had them for over 6 months. And I wont even talk about the situation with my kids or the treehouse. I mean why waste the breath. . . putting good air after bad air. . . . lol. . .

I guess Jiwan called me yesterday. But she's pretended like nothing happened at all. Sure set me up out in the fire to bake and oh did something happen? Where do I find friends like this? I mean would anyone normal allow guests to get drunk and destroy their house . . . . no rent, no responsibilities and a minor doing drugs there too. I never should have let him in, and when he bought a TV that should have been the end!

Shit my own kids never watched TV for years. THANK GOD!!! They learned how to read and think instead of cheat and manipulate. Course then they were forced to do worse anyway.

What else?

Oh give me a break, I'm not really interested in just complaining all day. . .

Oh good, so whatelse do you need to do?

I know there is always volumes of shit I need to do. And I'm so tired of always having more and more to do. So I'll get busy with it now... Happy?

Wired week for SURE

I am not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

now what's up?

I just got some email which referred to Deepak Chopra. I looked up his site and wanted to see if I could volunteer and get a scholorship to his next function. Then I noticed he had a blog online. I read through it. Norm was moving on, after spending too much time there.... lol... uh oh, I've done that more than a few times. But I read through some replies to his posting anyway. As I got to he end I found one that said what I felt. So I decided to read Chopra's posting that everyone was replying to... Thinking if I felt an answer bubble up I'd post too...

So?

I read his note, and copied out his questions at the end and posted a reply. http://www.intentblog.com/archives/2005/12/is_jesus_coming.html ... I guess I've known for years that Jesus Never left us at all ... have you?

No, but not everyone can speak as easily as you, can they? It's interesting though because you taught Kathy how to do this in a single afternoon and it changed her whole life.

I know, what's new, I seem to change everyone's whole life. Or at least everyone I meet.

now can you give some examples?

I noticed Friday that Koehler got a great big new F- 150. I passed him on my bike as he was walking up to the BSN office in the parking lot. It's really funny, because I've thought of calling him Dr. K. Which would really be a trip... since I might meet Claire for lunch next week. Getting Dr. K and Claire out for lunch again. Wow. Course I saw how Claire is writting us all about Binary Economics and has got another Binary conference set with Mike, another prof' that I sent her message too.

I guess I also noticed how I've met several Honor College kids. Michelle working in the BSN office too was asking me about the Peace Corps vs. a PhD. We set up all the office Christmas decorations together.... (lol, i keep telling her to say $100 a tree, everytime someone compliments her work, and told her she could take 60%, while in the BSN college we could do well $$$) I told her that a PhD at her Honors Speed would get her into so much research and grants that she would never get out of it. Career, teaching research... etc... While the Peace Corps would only be a few years and the PhD would be easier after it. Especially since the Corps would help get her a clear powerful passion about research and study on the PhD. She wasn't even sure about her thesis topic, but was already looking for the best national school in Public Health.

So I told her first off that a PhD from some big fancy school is great. But she'd be on the bottom of the totum pole there, while here it might not be a Great Program yet, but she could make it Great. And be working with the people running it all instead of just watching. She agreed and decided she liked to stay in Florida anyway. Jennifer made the same decision too. So Jenn and I are starting the MSM program together. Both doing the Class with Sharon to Green USF next term.

Course Scott and I want to get Equan into the Honor College too. And Cecile has a new student volunteer as well from the Honors College.. . . .

now?

I guess what was really cool was feeling i needed to get Cecile, Koehler, JJ and Sharon together. Ceile has seen my chant while the others know different aspects of it. Cecile and I were updating her MBSR manual and spoke more about my chant. I told her it was ALL about mindfulness... No only am I totally in touch with my breathing and motions... But I also know and feel all the twelve religions and their symbols around me, the cricle I cast and those in the circle... as well as all those who have ever been in the circle and those who have done the ritual before.... lol... and also feel the whole space around us.. from the earth up into the skies and beyond...

Serious mindfulness... lol... somehow she seemed to understand, more than I could say...

Course I've been debating this with Keith all week and Chuck finally watched the "What the Bleep" DVD so he finally understands what I've told him since we met in 1983.... Keith seems to know all this too.... Keith applies it more than Chuck, but Chuck has more faith and understanding of me. But Keith still can't accept that I somehow know something that no one else knows...


Thank you Loving Lord Jesus Christ... Please Only Your Will be done in me this day and ALWAYS... Amen