School Started

1.52pm I’m not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ!

What are you doing now?

I'm ready to sleep. I only had one class this week so far. But I'm really beat. I wanted to ride my bike into school today, but then thought maybe I shouldn't since it's been acting up again and today was my first class. I was ready to ride, but I wasn't ready for being late or having other issues come up before my first class.

It was the leadership class with Dr. Koehler. And it's almost like he wrote it all for me. And even has another leadership paper where I can re-write my first one...

What?

He tells me I don't need to take his class. But then has encouraged me to rewrite the paper I already wrote. It's kinda interesting. I mean everything here started with him. I wasn't even sure i wanted to be in the BMA until I met and talked to him about the patent process re-design. So now i think i will be challenged alot. John has been challenging me too. And I know it's just starting. Everything about this term and job and all the rest will be very interesting

What do you expect?

I guess i know there is a great deal shifting really quick and I'm not going to miss a beat. Like things are crazy and only getting crazier all the time. GOOD! And I'm thrilled about how it will all work out... as it always does.

Thank You dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, I know you are with me and my friends and Family... Help us all to see your light and grow into your fulfillment... Amen.

Floods Ravage New Orleans

Document View: "Copyright The Washington Post Company Aug 31, 2005
Two levees burst Tuesday, flooding the city of New Orleans in the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina, which had already leveled much of the Gulf Coast from Louisiana to Alabama in one of the nation's worst natural disasters.
The flooding showed that the damage from the historic hurricane that hit early Monday with 145-mph winds was only just beginning. Rescuers in boats pushed aside the dead floating in the brown, churning waves to reach survivors trapped on rooftops as authorities urged residents to flee.
While Katrina flooded the bowl that is New Orleans, its winds and 25-foot storm surge killed an estimated 110 people in Mississippi. An oil platform, torn from its moorings in the Gulf, beached near Dauphin Island, Ala. The devastation stretched across three states, with the hurricane shredding waterfront hotels, toppling concrete bridges and injuring countless people.
Communication was sporadic or nonexistent. Nearly 3 million people were without electricity and drinking water. Interstates across Lake Pontchartrain were battered, buckled and broken, and most other roads also were impassable more than a day after Katrina had passed by as a Category 4 hurricane -- one of the strongest ever to hit the continental United States."

HI James, copyright, legal bs issue here for you..... Wikipedia:Designated agent

Sorry to bother you...
I just posted my first thing to your encyclopedia...
everything on the internet with my ID STARS2MAN is mine.... except what I found here....

Is there some way we can fix this???

Here's what I found...====>>>
here's what's I re-posted:

1 "I am the Lord your God who brought you"
2 "You shall have no other gods but me"
3 "You shalt not swear falsely by my name"
4 "Remember the Sabbath day is holy"
5 "Honor your father and your mother"
6 "You shall not murder"
7 "You shall not commit adultery"
8 "You shall not steal"
9 "You shall not bear false witness"
10 "You shall not covet your neighbor's"

NOTHING ELSE...

Who do I need to see about this?
thanks..
eric

ps. course i logged in now, changed my password, the time setting (-4) and a bit more i'm sure.... PLEASE delete the record of anything else!!!

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http://www.starsusa.org/USFFolder/TuesdayJuly12-05.pdf

Wikipedia:Designated agent

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia.

The designated agent for Wikipedia is:

Jimmy Wales, President Wikimedia Foundation 204 37th Ave N, #330 St. Petersburg, FL 33704 Telephone: +1(310)-474-3223 

board at wikimedia.org (replace " at " with @)

User:Jimbo Wales

9.29pm 8/27/05 I’m not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ!

What are you doing now?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Date: Sat, 27 Aug 2005 18:28:46 -0700 (PDT)
From: Eric
Subject: Fwd: RE: FW: Dalai Lama Scientific Meeting Announcement: "Science & Clinical Applications of Meditation" Conference
To: Keith
CC: Eel
BC: Chuck, Scott, Equan, Joyce, Laura Lynn, Rowan, Amir, Claire, Dr. Katz

hey DUDE...I got another job offer... lol... something COOL in my research too....
WOW!!! Moving on is important for all of us!!!
Synchronicity-city here!!! Hang-on, everything happens at once...!!!!!
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/USF-class/message/143 http://groups.yahoo.com/group/USF-class/message/142
Like Equan says... all it takes is "Faith in our Convictions"
Namaste'
er;-)

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What?

All I want is to be in the Light (live) by DC Talk,, wow song changed before i wrote it all down. Letter from the Front by Mylon LeFevre & Broken Heart 9.50 I wanna be like you by FFH, It's about time It's about time It's about time do what you beleive in, It's about time , It's about time it's time to go, so don't be late...

Nate Sallie CMRadio.net 9.51pm

Dalai Lama at "Science & Clinical Applications of Meditation" Conference

9.00am I’m not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ!

What are you doing now?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ thank you for filling me with your strength and truth to make everything come together as only You could plan. Please continue to guide me and lead me to grow and understand your truth and mission in my life. Help me to understand and stay true to all that you lead me to. For the Glory of God our Father, Son and Holy Ghost, amen

What are you doing now?

I think it's really kinda neat how You set this all up. Every day I see more things come together and make perfect sence that I can never understand at first. But suddenly fit and connect in perfect synchronicity and unity. I know everythingis by Your truth and desire, and I see more and more coming through all the time. It's certainly a struggle for me a lot sometimes.

But then I also see the perfect unity and coincidence that makes my life and peace. Like last night I raced through a bunch I needed to do in the office. And Equan came online from Scott's office to ask about working this weekend. So I explained that I thought would be great to get Andrew and Dave motivated and strong as a team with him. He asked questions and clarified it all. I had proposed that he get his learners permit and drive my truck with the guys as a work team. I hoped Dan would go too, to teach them and such, so I wouldn't have to. But Dan had other plans.... ugh, waiting in court now!

So then Equan said how he loved it all and wanted me to ask his mom about it, and gave me her phone number. Fine, so I called her. She's really a sweet lady. We talked for almost 20 minutes. She was very grateful about me working with her son and said how he always talks about the great things that Scott and I do... being great role models for him. I told her I wanted Equan to be a role model for some youner high school kids. And then I explained the deal with the work team and my truck.

She asked if this was Equan's idea, and if he put me up to convincing her to get his learner's permit. Nope, I confessed I was riding my bike to school more and didn't want the big truck just sitting all the time. So she told me about his grades in school. I agreed with her and would only help Equan and do this project with him (driving) if he had nothing below a "B" in his next report card. Then she told me how she was good with a mower and knew plumbing and all too. Being a single mom she often had to fix things on here own. I told she was welcome to join our work crew and how we need to do some projects with our churches and the Center to get some good referrals.

Yoga Center, she's ready to go there for classes now. I told her she could since they have a work/study program and owe me a bunch of class hours already. I was sure Eel would love letting her have some of my class time. Especially since I knew Equan could get these boys working and motivated cleaning out the Center Gardens.

What are you doing now?

9.31pm I, i, iiiii i i ... wow what a day. After my little court date downtown I called Scott and asked if he had time for coffee. He said of course and invited me to his office. So I walked over and he told me about the elderly insurance program he's been working on with his partner. Evidently they had another non-profit company to work with that fell through. So my timing in the visit was perfect. Especially as I was still as interested as ever in helping them make it happen.

What else happened?

Ugh, well I guess after a quick visit at the Center where I got a ton done, I went to see my son. He's still trying to please mommy and be paul's little puppy. it's kinda sad and I feel sorry for the kid. After he left I spoke to the doctor a bit about it, and got up to leave looking out the window. I saw Chris hugging his mom. He looke like a zombee. And walked around to get into the car with hte same dead expression on his face. I told the doctor that this is likely torchure for the poor kid. Interigated and harassed to lie and then bribde and spoiled DUMB.

They are all trapped, paul has them all eating out of his hand, exactly as he planned from the start. No surprise to me, I just wonder how long it will be before everything blows up. Not my problem I did my part already, got those kids ready for anything! Praise God!

So then I stopped by Sams and came into my office to check my mail and drop off a few things I got. I called Chuck about the meeting woth Scott this morning. He said it was synchronistic for him too becasue he lost his part-time job last night. So getting something together in STARS that might put him to work was really cool. We chatted a few times and I called Scott too.

Then I decided to write it all up and all. That's always cool.

And of course as I was snooping through my email I got a message from one of the Nurses that I spoke to about my own research. I sent my list of USF PHD people an ad for the Dali Lama Scientific Conference. She was thrilled i sent her this message and planned to go to the conference too. So I wrote her back and tied into the Center a bit too. I asked Eel before I sent it and she told me a bit more. It was kinda weird, I think I should have said more. But it's all cool.

Then i thought I should tell the RN about my new position and added my footer from my job. And then I decieded I better copy it to JJ as well. He replied to my message already too. He seems to have some interest in meditation too. 10.03pm Of course he just wrote me now about it. I included my erw personal page for him as well. It has everything attached to it...

WOW... I'm still in this office.... I still need to drop by the Center. . . And I'm BEAT!!!
nite nite...

4:50 8/18/05
I’m not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ!

What are you doing now?

I guess there are a whole lot of things going on here. Eel is back in town so I've been doing extra over time in the Center. I really love the ride into school. Yesterday I even went to Choir practice on my bike. That was kinda cool too. Sunday I tried to help out the tech crew, but I really missed the singing. We have gotten a few more people in the Choir too, so that's kinda cool too.

5.25pm 8/20/05

What are you doing now?

I was here sharing a moment with You and I realized how important this can really be for this creation of God that has transpired here on Earth.

PEOPLE the number one resource and asset of creation has become the Greatest Hazard and just another expendable resource in the mass conquest of capitalism.

The hazard is that mankind continuous consumption and perceived privilege that this endless consumption is a necessary component of life is the primary cause of all destruction, extinction, deprivation, exploitation, humiliation, and suffering on earth. Man’s only true need it the understanding of the self and our purpose in this place where we are. Every other perceived desire or need is superfluous to this truth, therefore decreasing the fulfillment.

Yes mankind still perceives the Earth as an expendable resource. We arrogantly flush our problems onto others daily. Wastewater and sewage is merely a corrupt mechanism to create expense and profit. Mankind from the beginning of time has used their piss and shit to fertilize foods and heal disease. But the Food and Medical industries are big business now, so the society is taught to flush to increase their profits!

The false learning of consumption is needed for capitalism.

You are taught that the city takes care of your shit, then you are charged to flush. And the costs are used to create private profits instead of actually cleaning the sewage thus polluting the bays and beaches. So you pay double. You pay to clean your shit, but then also pay to clean up the polluted estuaries and bays from my incomplete cleaning.

You must pay me to dispose of your fertilizer and medicine, so you can buy my FDA approved products that really will only make you sick anyway. And when you do get sick you can buy approved treatments and solutions to exploit the very last vestiges of civilly you contain for the profits of unknown stock holders. And this is what we share and promote in the name of capitalism and the american dream.

What a lie!!

What about the expendable resource?

I read another article in O&E which started with a UN statistic about how 30,000 children die everyday. What a world would allow that? No creature, ant, animal, rodent, worm, slug, amoeba would allow any of its population to kill that many offspring. I really wonder how mankind can consider themselves "evolved" and "intelligent." I mean if men are the "brilliant" and "resourceful creatures" they claim themselves to be. How come their own offspring are expendable?

How can mankind be evolved, without first fundamental care and concern for their own species?

What did you tell Eel about?

I had this wonderful conversation with her about the science and evolution we were creating here. She told me how evolution is a specific concept referring to the change of the species over time with the sequence of multiple generations.

Oh is it? I said how we have evolved to that state where we can change our DNA. But then I never told her how she had begun changing her own DNA now as we were speaking. When she hears and listens to my words they infiltrate into the body and bones as an energy, as a memory. This memory exists as an energy form that is alive inside of her. So this energy is felt and recognized by all the other energies inside of her. Her body begins to shift DNA inside of her simply by me stating that it can be done.

Her body already knows it can be done, and so it begins doing it. I create this change in you by telling you that you can do it. The more your listen the more you will believe and the more you will change and grow. Oh my God, I'm posting this in a blog! Now mankind can change their DNA and evolution with only understanding this impulse and desire. So now as I write again I can feel the millions who read.... and read...

What were you reading today?

Leslie Marmon Silko's Visions by SBBD Ramiez & EM Baker in O&E vol 18 no 2 june 05 which described the European conquest over the America’s as a witches brew designed by mankind for the destruction and exploitation of mankind.....Wow.... "open the eyes of my heart I wanna see you.... I wanna see you... Saturday, August 20, 2005 6:19:39 PM CMRadio.net

What are you waiting for?

I’m scared I guess. And I know I need to be really doing a lot of strong strong things and I’ve not been able to start yet.

What are you feeling now?

I know I need to get out there finally. And I know the only way to do it is with Rima, and she asked me about going out today. And I wasn’t clear about it or ready for it in the fullest. And I know I can get it together and I know that I will. It’s really very powerful and clear for me to see and think about. And I know it’s all exactly where it needs to be.

My head is buzzing.

There is a lot more to this story Son, you’ve barely started anything here.

I know that I need to. And I know it’s all about praise to our Father. It’s the power and clarity that your bring into me

What are you waiting for now? It’s all as you see and feel right now in this moment. You can see and feel that whole generation, the entire creation. It’s all there inside of you now. You are all part of the same power. There is nothing else. And as you each recognize this, everything will begin to change. Are you ready to change it all for the right reasons? Are you ready to make it in truth in glory? Or will you again fear and seek the greed. You are clear. You know what you can do and where it will happen. It’s nothing beyond your understanding in the least. You feel more than you could ever write.

I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ for opening up all this and sharing so much with me for your truth and glory. Please continue to guide and share what it is that I need for your truth and glory. I know I can do it. And I know that you are here with me to help, and keep me clear.

What do you really need to share today??

I'm really not sure but I know that you are always here with me.

What will happen if you stop fighting us? If you could stop questioning and just do it. Isn’t that what you wrote on your first business card? It’s all about you not limiting yourself... but also not getting lost in things either. You are completely over done with these things and so it’s not nearly as big a deal as you like to make it. You are ready for what will happen. It’s all there just waiting for you and it will come along exactly as it needs to. There are no worries or concerns about anything. We are all ready to get what we are here for. There is nothing but completion ahead of us.

Oh and the concept of communicating with God came up.

What are you going to do about that??

Well I know we communicate a lot.

And we communicate with anyone, anywhere, at anytime. Some listen and some don’t. It’s nothing complicated. You’ve even taught some people how to do it. And that is more so than you realize. Since it’s something that people all try to use for their own purposes. It’s easy to say “god told me to do it.” Everyone does it. But you are following it up. You are walking the talk too. You are 16 again. You ride your bike to school exactly the way you did 100’s of times. And the truth of this is still so much beyond people’s comprehension ... but you can say it. DO so now:

ALL THE GOD GIVEN GIFTS THAT MONEY CAN’T BUY!

OK DNA is only energy. Electrons are moving in circles attracting and repelling each other in atoms of matter. And we can feel them; they are moving energy creating magnetism. Attracting and repelling everything. And we can feel it for it is the same electrons that move in us. All the electrons are connected. They are all the same energy. They are the consciousness of creation. God’s consciousness can be measured by the magnetism and vibration of electrons.

Everything is connected this way. So everything is created to expand and develop this by attracting and repelling everything. And my conscious understanding of this energy web of consciousness creates a new connection and expansion. You can feel my new understanding.

My understanding brings a stronger tone to the instrument. I understand how it works and use and grow from it simply because I understand more.

Do you really think anyone can understand this??

I’m not sure in fact.

What else do you need to say about it all??

Oh about how the DNA crsytal is the same conscious energy structure as a stone, bone or other physical element. All things are atoms of electrons attracting and repelling. the more denser less moving electrons are recording actions of previous electrons. Mater and electrons therefore form a library of consciousness.

So when i write and think about riding a bike hundreds of times; it also refers to the "times" when these electrons that I am now were another person at another time feeling the same consciousness that i share with you now....

I guess I need to get up and do some things with Keith. Tomorrow is the church and the Center. Thank you dearest loving lord Jesus Christ.

Old stuff I never posted

Well it's a letter to dan... trying to help him again... lol.. but i'm sure he'll only find insults or something else negative.... lol... I guess you are what you eat... if that's all he wants to find, so be it.... I printed this out last week for him and Have it with an envolope waiting for him at my house.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Mr. Miller,
I have tried to speak to you over and over again. I’ve drafted friends and recruited strangers, but still no one gets through. If you want to take this letter serious READ IT OUTLOAD, listen to the words and ask Keith or Rima any questions if it’s still not clear for you.

This is all about GOD. Dan Miller is here (like me) as a servant for GOD. I said God, not GREED. Sure you died once and saw the beautiful white light, EVERYONE sees that. There is ONLY GOD, and nowhere else to go, regardless what greedy controlling churches preach. But you still have to suffer the consequences for your actions.

Greed is a disease; the virus called Ego causes it. Our world is dieing because of this virus. The media, TV, business and schools all teach EGO; and Ego creates Greed. This sickness infects everyone and most people cannot even see that they are sick. Like our last God Talk outside, you can talk to anyone, God told you that, not me. So YOU CAN HELP CURE the WORLD. If you want to.... But you need to be cured first. That means getting REAL about what IS, not what you “think it is”, or what you can con or convince others “it is”… But what is actually here NOW!

NOW you have 3 options.

1. Pack up a U-haul, waste the little money you have on storing a mix of great pictures and junk that you’ll never use or need. This might last a little while, but soon will be lost anyway; you can’t live or survive on other people’s generosity too long … NO ONE CAN, Get serious about working, not what you think it is BUT WHAT IS: No one calls you back, No one wants you doing more work, none of my neighbors, Scott, Dave, no one thinks you are a skilled craftsman except you. You just can’t see. You lose tools and leave things around all the time. (My red crow bar is still across the street) And adding excuses or mis-fitted molding to cover mis-fitted tile makes it worse. Forget the U-haul and BUY EYE GLASSES, and maybe you’ll have a chance. (Please see photo’s, take your time, NO EGO, look at what is there NOW, no excuses, just what is there NOW, PLEASE use your Big magnifier.)
2. Sell it all, pack some cloths and pictures and go to NY to take care of your parents as they die. You’ve learned how to do this with Tommy and you are man enough to handle it. No excuses. Sammy Jo is fine, watching movies all weekend is something every child needs to do LESS.... Remember it’s only promoting the Ego Greed... TV IS A DRUG, you get addicted and it brainwashes you to consume and spend for creating more greed and ego, it’s a disease. Help end it, not pollute another child.
3. TEACH. Take one of my tents, beg Rima to find a place for it. Then forget the ego and humbly Teach Dave, Andrew, Equan OR ANYONE how to build and fix things. You have an artistic eye, and the common sense about running projects and selling to people and making deals. Forget the GREED and EGO, read the dollar bill “IN GOD WE TRUST” and become like Jesus Christ and BE A SERVENT TO OTHERS.... That means giving up control and just listening and helping others. These guys are ready to do several businesses and if Equan gets his learner’s permit he can drive my truck and make a lot happen now.

Equan, not Dan!!! Sorry, but NONE of my tools are made to have 250 pounds of body weight leaning on then. Saws cut with the electricity not your weight that only burns out the motor. So No I can’t have you in my house, but I need all my tools back, and if you left everything but the shirt on your back it wouldn’t cover your expenses. Everything you have done here has been an expense, the patent that failed; the steel pipes that never fit or held water, the tile and carpet that still needs $1000 to finish. Even the paint on the walls need the trim fixed and spots cleared off the floor.

Oh and remember when this started, you needed van tires, and I said ok, sell me new tools (where are they) and I’ll take you to Sams and get tires on my Visa Card. YES VISA Card.... all your BS here was financed by a visa card. I can bring all the Visa Bills to court too. My chores this last year (besides picking up crap and trash, and all) is paying the bills. It’s a hassle and takes hours, and if anyone wants to take over my chore I will be happy to do the lawn and trash!!! So just get real, forget the excuses and poor-me BS. Get some eye glasses and get serious about doing professional work.... Not just chores, or your fantasy about it but what IS HERE NOW!

The Time sheet YOU WROTE and agreed to, is $3000 short now. YOU put the hours there NOT ME. If you worked 24 hours a day why didn't you put that on the page? That $3000 doesn’t include all the expense and costs for pipes, tools, equipment and materials that have produced NOTHING! Yes the kitchen is nice, BUT IT’S NOT DONE. Like the Pipes don’t hold water. Or the Toilet and shower that leak. The patent is nothing until it is DONE and works. The tile and carpet is crap if you step on nails, catch dirt and breed bugs in the gaps everywhere. No one pays for an incomplete job. And I don’t want you to finish anything, except if you are just teaching someone else to do it.

I can’t recommend you to anyone. No referral has been positive, and all my friends wont hire you. I did refer you to Rima.... BUT I also made sure she saw all these pictures. However, I CAN recommend Equan to ANYONE!

So pick option 2 or 3 and Good Luck dude, and your only chance is to forget the greed and ego... IN GOD WE TRUST... that means, facing THE TRUTH... NOT what you see or think you see... BECAUSE YOU CAN’T SEE. But what is there, ask anyone about the carpet tile borders... DON’t touch them now, but just get real about what is there.

Sorry, but only the best of friends are big and strong enough to get down in the toilet to help us see how deep we are before it gets flushed....

See ya
Eric

PS. No one has paid for the STARS storage unit No. 404 that you (have the key for) have some stuff in. I consider it all a loss, or you can pay it and sell it all with Equan, and then use it for your stuff.

Sunday, August 14, 2005 2:52pm

I’m not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ!

What are you doing now?

I'm sitting in my office at USF. After church I had planned to work at the Center and stop here for a while too. As I was leaving church, i decided to come here first. Now the power has gone out and killed the PC? It's kinda werid.... But i guess the network is still up and I can get in with this laptop still. I do know i need to be doing a lot of things and I'm just kinda overwhelmed a bit... I guess that should be expected before I start classes again.

Why is it the school thing that brings it for you?

I don't know, new school years are always a big deal for me. That is why i've been trying to get set in my biking to school routnines and everything else here in this office. I knew i needed to get serious about a lot of things very quickly and I see that all around me too.

You need to get more specific Son.

Well I know things are going to be blowing all apart very soon. There is just too many things that are all coming together here at the same time. The issues with Dan, Keith and Rima. The STARS stuff, and school-journal-research stuff too. It's really a lot of cool things

I Love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ... Thank You so very much for all your Grace Love and Peace that you share with me now. Please help me to spread this to my friends, families, schools and peoples that you have placed before me here in Tampa Florida... All for the Glory of Father, Son, and Holy Ghosts... amen

Knew i needed to tell you something.... lol...

4.58pm 8/13/05 I’m not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ!

What are you doing now?

I Am just sorta hanging out and Loving You Dearest Lord Jesus Christ.

Yesterday Dr JJ returned from his trip and dropped into the office. We understand each other very very well and it was almost funny. We even would get up to do things at the same time and accidently bumped into each other in the hallway twice (3x?). I guess it was him returning and me leaving at the same time. It was really kinda funny, and we also talked about all the tasks he left me. He was very happy about where the KLD data was going. The digital archives that Jessica did need to be redone. I added a few more missing volumes and found the format for her's wouldn't allow us to search through them. I showed him what i did and suggested ways to make it better to use. Took me about 2 hr for 2 years of articles. But the system is simple and I can direct an Intern to do it in the fall. He said that would be a great resource for us to do research.

Then we went over and talked about the website. I told him about doing things for sharon and mike. He was thrilled but also very strong in his position about them. He doesn't want anything to interfere with my job for him. But if i can do a hundred other things that's fine. WE seemingly have a lot to do together.... lol... a great great deal i know...

Why do you say that?

I Am convinced he has spent his whole life dreaming of publishing the solution of creation that God designed for us all... It's like every night i feel more of it. Then i awake at 3am to chant and see more and more come together...

What do you mean Son?

I Am always getting stronger and stronger pictures of what You want me to build. Like i see the waters moving all the time and that means people and power. It's such a fantastic trip as everything that happens to me in this community brings the pictures in my mind stronger and stronger. Whenever I bike or do anything i see how it all fits together. Like at the yoga center i can feel and see how much power and focus there is there. I get flashes of the transit system connection from her house to mine, and then down to Channel Side and up to USF.

Building a little loop first and expanding and expanding. One step at a time. More and more every day. And every event in my life brings more clarity to it. And I see how others are helping and adding to it. Everyone. Even those people who are mad or negative towards me.

They are the ones who add the most. The power and clarity of their focus is wonderful. and the results will certainly surprise us all. I Love you Lord Jesus Christ, Please Guide and Love all my family friends and associates here on Earth and Beyond for the Glory of God, our Father, Son and Holy Ghost.....

What are you doing now?

I Am listening to Heart of Champion By Carmen CM Radio.net 5.46pm

What are you doing now?

8.18pm Wow, I Am reading and writing and reading some more and more... there is so much going on here that i've got no clue what to do about it all. I know that I have so many things going on at once and that I will get all the help i need at any time and space that You like...

This is really about you. This is Your Dream, Your Creation. What you are doing now is bringing so much focus and clarity to the issues around your life that nothing will be able to stop you.

I like That I Am ...

Just setting these words down before you at this very moment is more powerful and clear than you will ever understand. there is no more time. everything will begin happening now. What have you seen with the hurricanes... start in africa...

I guess i once saw how a hurricane stayed in Africa and the waters and winds were so strong that hundreds and thousands...

What was it?

Uhg, ok millions of people died, and I saw the floods of water with all these bodies and the wild animals were taking over the land in a feeding frenzy. It was just the worse disaster mankind ever witnessed and it was a sign and a warning for them to wake up people and get serious about life on Earth... Not Greed, corruption and Control trapped in the ego.... But instead it was Truth in God...

The Power of Faith in Love....

And since then I saw it again and but it was Florida and not Africa. Like half the state was cut off from Tampa south where all the sand was just blown away... yucko...

I love you Dearest Lord Jesus Christ... Good night....

Why me and You too?!?

Amir called last night. She told me that Dave had borrowed some videos from Dan and they were dropping them off when Dan asked her for a ride.... just to get away. He stayed with her that night and that was already more than enough. I told her I was stunned to see her there getting him and really had no idea what was going on. She wanted to reconcile us and get things civil again. I told her it was too late for that. I had done everything that Scott recommended and now had a restraining order against Dan.

It was weird. Yesterday I ran around all morning dealing with this court BS. And then I picked up Andrew just as he had gotten to my house. He didn't know the locks were all changed. We went out to eat and just as we were finishing I called the courthouse about the injunction. I was thrilled it was awarded, and went straight down there to get it. It was like a great big relief. No more Dan insulting and harassing me all the time.

He got his 3-day notice for eviction and also got 2 weeks that he can't get near the house or me. It was SO NICE to go home then. I was thrilled. Amir decided she needed to get a box of cloths and stuff for Dan. She had gotten him a few jobs and she wanted to make sure he could do it all. I told her to be careful and when she arrived at my house a few hours later I showed her all of Dan's work around the house. It is sloppy and incomplete.

It's just kinda sad, but that is real, and he just wont face it. I've really tried to be honorable and respectful, but he just gets arrogant and belligerent all the time resorting to violence and insults. Not a very mature way to deal with the situation. But what can I do about it. Or should I say; I did exactly what I needed to do about it.

When i went to Yoga this morning, Wij saw the cut on my face and asked about it. So i told her what happened. She was really proud of me, no one should take advantage of me, and a 5o year old man watching TV and not paying rent is simply rediculous. Course when we went to lunch she invited another student who is a freelance journalist.

A very good writter who wants to start writing a lot more. So of course I want all the help i can get and we chatted about working together on a few things. Wij was such a delight there too, saying all kinds of nice things about me. I really haven't know Wij that long, I met her the same day I met Amir. But Wij has seen who I am and what I do. So this is all kinda cool. Like clearing my house and moving on opened new doors for me already....

Wij said that too. How I'm making things work, talking the dreams but then doing what it takes to make them work as well. That was really sweet to hear from her and I felt really good....

What are you doing now?

I guess I'm sitting in my office at school, typing and listening to the radio. I'm so happy about this office that I set up here. I fixed up a pot of plants from the Center and brought it in here. I'm busy pulling out all these weed sand such there that are perfect plants for my office. So I'm happy about them too.

What are you going to do next?

I guess i need to finishe a few things around this office and then start reading more and more. I need to get ino this research that I need to do.

What have you been thinking and planning in this regard?

I guess i keep thinking about the meeting with Dr. Jermier. He told me he wanted to go over all the ideas and such that I have about my own Phd. And I told another teacher here about that too. Then I said how i was really nervious about talking it all out with John and felt like I could easier with all the teachers together. Then I thought about how it could be an event, where I schedule a room and feed everyone while i really go through it all in detail. That is really kinda freaky.

Why do yo usay that? This is something you have waited all your life for, and every moment you are getting more and more prepared for it. Like this event with Dan. It was a very spontanious and specific experience. Nothing about this is left for chance anymore. There are too many things at stake now. And everything is going along exactly as it needs to.

So then she told me that John would never do that. Like someting about him being so much to himself. He did tell me that all the journal information was completly separated from USF and that I couldn't share or discuss any of it with anyone. So then I wondered about my own research. If what I do gets pu.... oop, WHEN what I do gets published it will bring a lot of attention and such to me and the journal. I sorta have always known that. but i've never cared, or felt anything about it.

Like it always feels so funny to think about the STARS issues with Kieth and Scott wanting God removed from the business. While me and God are all about Busines and what we do will be what gets noticed not another charity or something else that they work on. I guess it's something that I can feel coming down the pike.

What do you mean by that?

I felt like telling John would be easy, because he is an editor and will actually read all the stuff that has been written. I mean the spoiled little white boy that died at 16 after a mean motorcycle accident doing 110mph escaping police with no helmit on. That's a freaky story. But it's written down on paper since 1980. over 25 years of paper writing disucssions and events with God and some dead druggie. Course the druggie lived and witnessed how suburbia went from the happy free community to the locked, secure, paranoid prison of today. Children had to be locked into schools and also locked out of all the expensive tools and materials that made learning worthwhile.

What else?

I don't know. I guess what comes to mind is the lightning bolts. I've seen that in visions for years and years. But to FEEL it and watch it happen right before my eyes was really freaky. I mean it wasn't just seeing how lightning and thunder are created by God. It was more intense, watching and feeling it happen there on me. See look it happened again! Wow was that a real trip. And I guess i know it will happen again.

Actually I always see it happening in the court room. Like put your right hand on the bible and sware with me. And then it's like boom. Some conflict, lie and story is blown apart by God since the con has to end sooner or later. It's not there for you, it's there because everyone needs to learn and accept the truth that exists and not the stories that are made up by people to get control. Control over what? It's all God, nothing here is free or happening by chance. It is all created by our own energy and our own focus.

So I decided to make the cahnges that the world needed. And so the whole world and bent nad twisted to make it happen the way it will work the best for everyone. It certainly it not something very easy, but the commitment and dedication are there and that's what it takes to make things happen....

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please fill Dan and Kieth, Amir, Dave Andrew, Equan Scott Chuck and my friends and family to make it and grow into the Love and light that only you can allow and create for the glory of God the Father Son and Holy Ghost! Amen.

Why me??? lol....

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What are you doing now?

Wow Dan assulted me again. First on the phone. I drove around with Keith all morning and then came home to find the house empty. THANK GOD. So i took the opportunity to look at the work sheet i gave to Dan. He's not been doing shit for months and stopped paying me rent again claiming he was doing work around the house.

So I told him it had to be written down or forget it. I even made a form up for him and Andrew like the Work/Study form at the Center. Then I told him that nothing I've done for him has worked out yet so we had to change things. $20/day, or 5 hrs work, or 2.5 hrs training Andrew. So i was alone at home and found the pad of paper and his form with the hours marked on it for cleaning hte kitchen floor and mowing the lawn. Here the font page of the pad of paper this is all put together in has a list of chores Andrew wanted to do for living here. Where Andrew marked he would "moe yard" and "vacumm floors" as his chores contributing to the household.

But now Dan wants me to consider these chores he's done as work for rent. I know he's barely ever done any chores, but how stupid does he think I am. So the last column of the form is labeled "office use" and I marked in 1/2 chore for cleaning the kitchen floor, but his work of 3 hours sealing it was fine. Then 1 hour mowing the yard was a chore for 8/3 but I can let the other 4.5 hours pass for fixing his own bike??? Cut and measuring the trim that I put in and the measurments he did on the Greenhouse.

So then I drew a line across the paper and added up his hours OF WORK. 16 hours for 5hrs a day that makes 3 days. So then he owes me for 4 days at $20 each, that's $80. Course one day when I told him all about this he dropped ...

1027pm scott called....
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At about 4pm- 1600 Mr Miller called me at my office threatening me, my family and children with lewd and harassing comments. I hung up on him and stayed there until 1900 before I rode my bike home from USF. I locked up my bike, checked the mail and opened the front door. After closing the door I told Andrew and Dan that if I ever got any more insulting or threatening phone calls from either of them that they would have to leave.

Dan immediately got up yelling threats and came into my face again. I saw Andrew leave behind him trying to avoid this situation much the same way I wanted to as well. Dan continued to yell standing over me sticking his finger in my face. I motioned to bite his finger and he dared me to. As I went by him and he called me a chicken hitting me on the side of my head as I went by. I grabbed my cell phone dialing 911 before I was in the next room. Dropped my bag and locked myself into my office. I told the police I had been assaulted and gave them my address and then hung up.

The police called back shortly and asked for more details if there were any weapons or anything. I said I didn't know, but was locked in my office and safe now.... Having locks for rooms inside of my own house. She said the police were on their way. Then I simply read my email trying to relax feeling the sweat from my bike ride still rolling down my face. Then when the police arrived I pulled up the pipe in the track of the glass doors and went outside my office. They said I was bleeding and asked me what happened. I told them how it happened so fast that I could barely understand what happened, except that I had been assaulted.

My God what a crazy day. Working and running around all day and this is what I come home too. I've been scared to come home for months and even dread seeing Dan's van in the driveway hoping that he would be out. Then I find the AC down cold and him laying on the couch in front of the TV while I'm working all day... every day... non-stop! Wow, I sound like I'm married complaining about a lazy wife. My GOD Does this all make me sick!

And Keith warned me about it, and Scott warned me about it. And even Dave across the street warned me about it. I mean it's been a year and a half and no one he's worked for has ever called him back. Oh except maybe his friend Tommy who was dying and died of cancer now, and Forest who has no one else to call on. But a dozen jobs, and several of my neighbors and friends have hired him but just once was enough no one ever called him back.

Why couldn't I learn. Why do I have to be such a sucker trying to help people out all the time.... Crazy and Rima came and got him. So he's over her house now.

I’m not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ!

What are you doing now?

Wow, things are really rocking all over. YesterdayI had to take Keith and Andrew to the Hillsborough High School to get them set and all. Amir was there too still working on Dave's stuff. Surprising to me, Dave and Andrew were not very friendly with each other. I'm not sure which one is playing ego crap, but I suspect it is Andrew. All the ego crap with Keith all the time, shows exactly to me who is lost in the toilet

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clearing my data

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What are you doing now?

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What are you doing now?

I'm clearing my data on these computers. I have a lot of files about all this research. And I know i need to start reading and compiling more. Millions of links but very little read and compiled. I got my office set good this last week. And I'm ready to work. Even met one of the Dean's secretaries. They are so spoiled, clearly tensed about comtrolling their little fiefdom. It's so sad to see so many people lost in space like that.

But i also see how i'm lost in space too. Like Steve Bram' who got me into the school invited me to eat left-over lunch from the EMBA Program Friday. I sat with one of the GA's that work in his department and ate lunch. He and the lady serving it all were chatting about both being in the MBA program too. When i was leaving i could see Steve wanted to introduce me to someone...

Well i could feel it. They were at the next table where some professor was chatting up a storm; and i also could see they alreayd had enough going on there so i just left. I wasn't sure what esle to do. Interrupt to thank him for the invite.... lol.... so i just left on down the hall. I stopped in later again to get some coffee and the lady there told me to go to the Dean's office for some. Gaile introduced herself there, and said i got in before they dumped it out. So i guess i know about when to go there to get some.

What are you feeling now?

I Love You, that was really cool. I could feel how i've gotten in good already in the place. And i know there is really a lot there for me to do. Jessica and the office there was never very active. She has a few businesses she runs already and doesn't really need anything on campus. So me really using the space is a change. And i can see countless things i can do there too.

What are you doing now?

Well Andrew just came home. Gotta go...
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Wow, Emily's Birthday this week

Sweet Sixteen, and never been... lol... yea right, never mind

What are you doing now?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. I think I finally have some things going along the way they should. Or at least I'm learning to get it together right finally. It all really feels right too. I'm actually very comfortable and happy about things

What did you do today?

I rode my bike to school. And it was neat because i got down into my racing position a few times and really flew. It was really kinda neat, and exciting. I ride down 22nd around the ball feild. Carry my bike over the tracks, and then ride down Rowlett Park Dr. through the Park, down Waters Ave to 29th and into the Center. There was a big class going so i jsut dropped off some flers and cleaned up a bit. Then I race down Waters, to Yukon, 39th, crossing Busch Blvd at 4oth and then down 40th to the business college. Which i pass and ride to the gym, swim, shower and back on my bike to the new Bsn building.

I have no towel or anything at the gym. But i bike, yoga, bike and swim in litte bike shorts. Then shower in two streams of HOT water. put on the bike shorts again and bike to the bld. The basket ball courts upstairs has a whole lot of wind blowing out the door, so i blow off a bit. Bike to the bsn building and go to the men's room and change into work cloths.

It's kinda funny, since people look at me funny walking in in bike shorts, adn shirtless a few times.... but i gues i can't do that anymore...

What else happened there today?

Oh well the Executive MBA Program was having a meetin or class or something. They all get fed and such too. so it was kinda neat to walk into it. I spoke to Steve Bram' again and he remembered i was the kid with the weird program i was doing. He invited me to eat up left overs. I told him I was ast-editor with Dr. JJ and offered to edit/review his handbooks and such given to the kids.... So that was kinda cool. I met another guy who was just starting in the department as well.

What else happened with everyone else?

I guess Dan and Amir finally got together. But better still, Amir's son Dave and Andrew are really getting along good. They worked together today getting someones lawn done nad such. Dave said Dan was there too but he never did anything.

So What's up with Dan now?

I guess his van died. And he's not been brave enough to ask me for help. He has been trying to do more stuff around the house. but Andrew and Keith are here too. Keith asked me about Andrew and school, not wanting to send him south to Miami where his dad is spoiling his daughter. Like Andrew doesn't seem to get along with his dad either. And the schools in Miami are hopeless....

So i started Andrew on laying out chores. Which he dove right into. But then I told him he had to do real projects as rent too. I tried to get Dan to teach him things instead of doing the work that he can't see anyway. He's really being stuborn about it. Trying to work anyway when he really can't see.

Then he cooked chicken and rice. And i stopped in to get a drink while he was tearing up the chicken. And his fingers were still black with grease from working on his car. So i couldn't eat any of what he cooked. he said he sealed the kitchen and cut the corner molding to put in. it's still an 1/8" off. But i got to glue it myself instead of him drilling it all out as he had planned.

It really looked a 100% better with just the two strips along the kitchen counter. SO MUCH TO go still

Thank You Loving Lord Jesus Christ for Filling those around me with your Love and light for your glory, amen. Please be with Emily on her Birthday, and all those around me now... lol... oh funny thing, Equan and Scott have the same Birthday... lol....

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But wow

I’m not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ!

What are you doing now?

Wow do i have a lot to do don't i... eeek, this is kinda freaky already... i wonder if everyone else is doin ok...

Please Dearest Lord Jesus Christ Help me to achieve all that i have to these weeks before school starts... Thank YOU!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.