Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's up

I Love you Lord Jesus Christ!

Why?

I just love it when I do something for you. I get all pumped up and excited about what I can do.

What?

I met with another professor doing research and she had just seen an MBSR study in her field. She had one article on her syllabus for one of the classes she taught, which she planne to send me. It was funny, she had jsut come back from a NY conference and had scheduled her boss and me the same time. He ran a little late course... lol...

What do you hear now?

I hear CMRadio.Net Winamp You Are God Alone by Phillips Craig & Dean

What did you feel....

I felt how easy it would be to do almost anything. I told her that I had just gone from professor to professor trying to find someone to PI with me. I need a principal investigator to work for.... so we can get a grant. Actually I have been refered one to another just like I found her on Dr. Fernandez's suggestions.

I got up to chant of course and a wrote out another dream. It was the same tiny old city on the water. . . . no little dragons, but i was with a city official and showed him what we could build . . . and He UNDERSTOOD! lol... Wow, I can speak english!?

Lol... But then You Embrace me for WHO I AM!!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

More stuff to do...

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What are you doing now....

I listened to Virato Live again who has always had more for me again. So now I'm listening to Robert Moss talk about dreams, with www.WandaBurch.com who talks about Dream Healing Jouranls . . . http://www.ecstreams.com/HealthyLife/wma/wd0510.asx Talking about the way of the dreamer www.mossdreams.com each night we have an Adisor there we can talk with ... Like Wanda cured her own breat cancer with dream of pressing out the dark liquid from the body . . .

What's the big deal?

Well it makes me llok at me more... I write dreams all the time. And this journal has been around since 1980 . . . lol. . . ok so the first picture in my Journal is dated 1976.

What you are doing now is talking to the same source that you find in your dreams. We can usually get the truth to you, but sometimes the dreams are more effective. You are such a silly kid, sometime you don't pay attention. lol . . . "conscious dream journeys" like you heard is what you do all the time. Course you've not said anything about your chants where you can create visions and journeying for others. Creating mutual visioning . . . . Your healing ritual that can work with anyone . . .

Yes each chant is a healing journey for someone, that I can create over and over again. . . I can't believe it's already after noon. I've still got TONS to do, but only now see more to do. Always more and more. . . . Listening to Robert Moss talk about Soul recovery . . . Course I think about Suzi now . . . lol . . . and ME! Dreaming Soul back into the Body . . . A simple dream about a women who lost two children. Hum, course I have my dream journal next to me on my desk now . . . lol... course I have no idea what it's doing here or why. This particular pad ... the last date on it is my birthday 5/16/2006 4.44am the pad is about half full, the first page is 4/21/2005 6.31am.

What was the last dream there...

I'll write it all out:
Weird dream, Big Fat guy, cars violence. Hum, the rest is notes after I woke up, not much to write. Listening to the link above again, Dream recovery and soul recovery. This is the same research that Sandy did. I'm still listening to Robert Moss.

What else is written there.

3.09am woke up => leg cramp, up, D&Wed, chanted -> saw circuit - seminal fluid ions to glands down the front creating a circle of energy through the body -> Inc Greenhorn w/ Patel & Rotary as Board w/ Idea Weaver, Chuck and Eric. Tenure of compitency -> recycle, package everything, employ poverty . Google ad on Jurnal -> publish Heart research, mindfulness list. . . . They are talking about Wanda's life contract and rewriting it again. LOL... course what's new didn't we go through all that . . . .

What are you supposed to be doing?

Sure contract contract contract... I guess I will invite Robert toTampa. Course then I need to redo Mary's website and such too.

What are you waiting for?

I know I have to get busy as usual. Thanks I'm moving again. Busy busy as usual. Funny I did the google ad thing last night before reading this note again.... lol... guess I'm on the ball... NOT it's a week late!!! I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

11.08amMay26,2006

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What are you waiting for?

I really don't know? I guess I've got patents and proposals and businesses and all just waiting for me to act on them. Putting together things is simple. Finishing is hard. . . lol. . . I kinda see so much to do. But then I also see only me working on it all. I get help, like Suzi has been great. John too, but lost in PC freebies last night, YUCKO! Like in a Family again. Like working together with someone close. I wonder if I miss my family? I guess I know my kids are doing God's work already. They might not know it, but that's what I got them ready for. Wow, and I think about what I learned from them . . . Only enacting a tiny fraction of it still today. . . .

Why is that true Son? What are you afraid of?

I don't know. Afraid of being alone. Afraid of my own truth, of my own power? Afraid of doing too much? Or starting too much that I can't finish?

What does that mean Son?

I don't know. I've seen the sparks off my fingers . . . . Is that what I'm afraid of? The Truth about you, or me? Like I'm designed to lead others to do things, while I always try to do it myself and only seem to alienate others.

What you are writing now has been written a thousand times in a thousand ways. Each letter your type sends signals to the galaxies. Everything that is, will be effected by your next keystroke. All that exists is just a reflection of mankinds thoughts. It is all ONE, everything is connected. Like your little "patent" about consciousness. No scientist has read it. It means nothing until you apply it. If understanding unity makes you responsible for it, why haven't you enacted these solutions that you see.

I don't know I can't just tell everyone to stop and get out of your car to help me put this together so we don't need cars anymore. Like be family and community again instead of just being lost consumers.

What does that mean. What does that really mean?

I WONDER NOW, AS I wrote a novel and it disappeared... Song on the radio now: God is watching over you.

Lost consumers it the program that capitolistic mankind has now. They are all focused on some task that supports their consumerism. Not focused on life, or sharing, not community but just consuming. Little cogs in the matrix lost to love other than "thier desire" to cosume more or sustain their consumption.

What else would you expect? You are animals.

I'm still scared. So many are trapped in thier little cars zapping their brains with electronics that the cell phone industry wont allow any research into, just cogs stuck in the machine.

What you are doing is what's holding you back. Writing and sharing things stops you from doing things. And if you do them, people will get involved with you. Each meeting you have gets more people involved and excited about what you are doing. Like you feel this calling inside of you to do engineering work again. You have the pipes and people waiting to hear from you. Don't expect anyone to drop everything and run. But slow and consistent contact will make more happen than anything. You try hard and then run and hide.

Why not try hard and stay strong. Biking to see everyone all the time is very easy for you. You need to do it with no expectations. Trust who you are, be more free about it. There are a lot of those who listen and understand. So just do it. You can do more now than ever before seen. People have influenced people throughout time. You're little moments here are priceless as you see and create tomorrow.

I guess so. I feel this powerful tug to get busy.

What are you waiting for. You can't even count the things before you this weekend. And waiting on someone else wont help you any. You have clear tasks and purpose. not needs. Desires based in truth and Love. Each moment you see and clearer and stronger vision . . . of tasks at hand . . . of people of contacts of ideas . . . all sorts of issues and skills you dream of and imagine every second. But actions are slow. STOP worrying about anyone else. DO what you see inside. Nothing will stop you. Explaining youself to anyone serves no one. That dream and mission is perfect, it's clear, it's specific, and it's strong, you don't need anyone to check it, or update, or edit, you are doing it. Just do it. Forget approval and permission. DO IT.

I guess so.

What is the song saying...

I Dare you to move... live ever after.... and be true...

What does that mean for you.

I guess it's jsut more work for me. everything is just more work for me. Like all these people who never hear me. I feel like I'm talking to myself some times. I know i can change things. But I con't do it alone.

you know you are never alone.

I guess so, but it's lonely working writing and reading here alone. Changing plans and tasks every day so I can do more things that I need to do.

What is wrong with that? You want to be spontanious and trust what we do with you.

I know, but it's always so hard on me.

Why, you do as you feel, and nothing is hard at all. People respond to truth. You are such a powerful truth. People know this by what you say. You need to trust what you say and do. Stop fighting yourself and trust it. If you feel it then do it... that's who you are, that's what you want. Nothing can stop you. Stop fighting yourself, be free with it all the time.

I Pray For Jesus Christ to be in my blood and bones to make them work and grow in the truth of My Spirit and Power in Life. To express Divinity in all that I say and do, everywhere for the Glory of God Our Father Son and Holy Ghost. Amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Ready or not here I come!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's up?

I guess I'm nervous. . . again

What you need to remember is that everything here is what you created and put here. Your skills and your efforts are what made these opportunities for you. Like meeting Bill today, you know he will know and recognize all that you have done and all you are trying to do. This is your effort and your skill, no one can do what you can do, because no one else has done what you have done

I know it's no big deal. . . .

What you need to remember is that it is a big deal. You made these choices while others haven't. Like your class last night, none of them have looked at the things you looked at. Like the Bush scam, you knew about it the very first clip you saw of Bush at the school in Tampa when it happened. You knew he did it, or knew about it, just by the expression on his face when he was told about it. He didn't care, no surprise for him. Do you think any other president would react like that with an Act of War? Of course not, except he knew it was his own troops that did it, so it was not his concern. Everyone in your class saw that too, but do you think any of them trusted their instincts or recognized what they felt inside. Nope, none, and that was their own choice.

I guess so.

What do you mean Son, you've been working on this for a long time. You've spent years trying to wake up and connect to your own instincts. And now you are getting closer and closer to it every day. Your willpower creates these situations, you have opportunities that no one ever dreams of, simply because you have decided to dream and to allow your visions and life to be directed by these dreams. Most everyone hides their dreams, ashamed of them even. Like they have no right to dream of truth and justice . . . . instead they accept greed and corruption and simply turn the other way. They discount their dreams, but then accept the worse thing possible. Why don't they deny the corruption and accept their dreams? You did!

I know. Can you help me today?

What do you need our help for?

I'm not sure . . . . Please fill me with your strength and guidance

What is your prayer Son?

Please Loving Lord Jesus Christ fill me with your Strength, Love and Wisdom so I may grow and achieve all that is before me for the Glory of God our Father, Son and Holy Ghosts. Guide my words and actions today, let Your Spirit and Power flow through me every moment, clearly and strongly. Amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Wake up!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What else do you need to write about?

I am really not sure. I know there is more because of how I sit here and work still. I knew I had another article to read for class Monday, and so I opened it to find the OCR has to be run first. Which gives me a few minutes of free time again to write here. I am always getting more free time to think and plan my work . . . Life . . . Dream!

What did you see now?

I flashed to getting a google map of all the rivers in hillsborough county to click into autocad and draw lines on. It's really funny, because when I do a river I have to have the whole thing. Or at least a very defined segment where I tweak the whole thing, not just one piece of it.

What's the big deal?

I guess . . . Well as you asked again I flashed to my kids again. Working with kids I can design and create anything . . . Is that why STARS never worked anywhere. The learn and serve is about LOVE, and leading in Love is what makes it all work. When people love what they are doing and who they are helping. It creates more LOVE and more power and focus on the truth.

Not Greed or control, but love and cooperation. Wow I can taste that last statement. Feeling like when working with my kids, designing and creating control over their resources is simple. All the politics for control is BS, and we all know that. So what is real control, knowledge, education, truth. Not some political scientist paid to say what they want.

What else?

I see how the fed's can all be cut, and now they work for the local school boards. Parents, teachers and students are incharge now. No one needs to be elected or lobbied. We simply do it ourselves. My community, my students, my schools, running my resources for myself here and now! No one else has any control over me.

What about school work

I am getting back to that now. I can finish this later.

What you need to do is always right before your eyes. it's always very strong and clear for you. That's your nature. That's what you asked for. But you've not connected all that you saw with your kids.

I realized how my kids did the Alafia River model work with me. How they are able to layout a map and measure it and collect the numbers I need to make the models work. It was all very simple and practical. So I immediately saw how I could teach kids how to measure rivers and collect data about water movement and collection anywhere. I could get the whole world into river models by using children and schools to teach social responsibility and infrastructure development. Put kids in Charge! Kids are Kings!

Wow the school that measures it has control over it, not some greedy politician in an office looking at a map with attorneys and bankers.

POP!

how does that feel now?

Wow.... That's really kinda neato too. lol... oh look the OCR stopped again... 12.37pm

What was the article about

It was about the factory farms again. I knew i needed to get a good link for this Journal posting. So now I got one: the www.themeatrix2.com it's great ot see it growing and getting out there more. People are getting conscius. Slowly but surely. More the young of course; the old have had it easy for too long to even want to question anything. Why mess with it.

They seem to think, if it's not broken don't fix it. . . . but the fix isn't that easy, and it's SO BROKEN that creating a fix will require re-education of nearly everyone. Since they have no clue.

What do you mean?

I don't know it's like we are in Heaven and this is Eden, but people are so lost in ego, greed, selfishness all poisoned and brainwashed by EVERYTHING that they just revert to couch potatos'... why fight it, 50 or 100 years of life is too long to suffer already.... lol.... why have 300 years or 3000 years of Love in Peace with God... heck the church, press, dr, all say that will never happen .... lol...

No one has a clue . . . . just like Matrix, it's happening already!

Please help me to teach and learn and share more for You Loving Lord Jesus Christ for you Glory! Amen!
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

freemormons : Message: EIGENHARNBEHANDLUNG

we all know that's coming... 7+ this year!

freemormons : Message: EIGENHARNBEHANDLUNG: "Until some kind of self-made calamity relieves us of the burden of an evil populace, they will continue to fight over the false religions they have fabricated, with especially intense relish in attacking the Doctrine their subconscious minds already know to be true. Thus, the subconscious mind of the masses carries the guilt of the folly their conscious minds refuse to acknowledge. An interesting thing about demon possession is that its slaves have diminished freedom to choose the Right Path. Tantrics become their slaves, the Righteous being held in bondage to the ignorance and evil of others. Like Moses said to the slave-driving Pharaoh(s): 'Let my people go!'"

HOLD ON!! Here we go.... Again... lol...

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's the problem?

I'm just nervous I guess.

What's happening then?

It's just the same as usual. I dream and wish and hope. And POP there it is. Like I remember chanting for Suz and Chris. It was funny, I knew I had to do it all just right. I even stopped a restarted it once or twice. There was so much energy moving before I even entered the room. I remember standing outside before walking in... Thinking oops, Chris saw me already since he's sitting in a chair instead of on the floor. It set off the balance in the room too.

I knew Pam should have come too, she would have balanced it. Put me off. But I knew I had to do it anyway. . . . "Like going through the motions" which Suzi seemed to miss-interpret. It wasn't 'wrong' but just different, it's always different. Always has to be different; that's evolution... I have everything I need to BE! So I just do my part, knowing everyone else will only get what they need from it.

In Christ you have Our righteousness, In Christ, it's everything you need to be... In Christ... As We ALL live & Love ==> CMradio.net In Christ by Big Daddy Weave ... Life is good eternal Life in Better! 9.22am 5/21/2006. . . next song!

Sunday that's the 7th day of the week. The last day when God said we must rest. So with Suz and Chris I realized I need to paint my drum. So I googled for Remo, the drum maker. Then found 6x for $100. Wow, my one drum was $55, the 6x were all different sizes too, including the one I had. Course I ordered them. I knew I needed more drums when I chanted for them, just felt it as I started . . . . POP there they are!

Then got the 6 drums and 5 books in the mail on the same day. John had one class book there, 3 from Emoto on Water and "Cradle to Cradle" which was referenced in John's. These were really all class books, since John wants to use the water concepts in class as well. Course my Phd is about water too. John's already started putting that together for me!

What did you just feel and see.

I was reading Bill's articles on line. Last night Barbara invited me to the Mosque, a Temple Terrace community theatre that was full of TTUMC people. So this morning I skipped church. Made that clear my last post here . . . lol. . . So I had to read this article Bill wrote before Barb and I meet him Tuesday. And it's all about the Tampa Bay Water going on here. His company is BIG time into all the water issues and stuff. So I simply know what to share with him.

POP back on my dream again!

I felt how all the water books and spirit issues flashed into Tampa Bay water BEING the link with Panama. Everyone has water issues. Everything is Water. Building total solutions is easy for me, it's all i ever do..

What I was made for. . . Big Daddy Weave on CMradio.net

What do you see now?

I'm flashing into the meeting Tuesday where I'm going through my slides and presenting everything perfectly clear and beautiful. Wow, perfect clarity and focus. Wow if I measured all the river work I've done. It's likely 50% or more of the total rivers in the county. Course I've done some sections more than a few times. lol... But technically speaking Bill knows all this stuff already. He's a very knowledgeable audience, and Judy is as well.

Two different sides and focuses though.
So now I feel how Bill will prepare me for Judy.

What else are you feeling now ... lol ... and what did you do
about it?

I stayed home from church while last night I saw a dozen people from church. So I called John about going to Harmony. I told Chris that I would. So I called John. I feel now like I should get going to Hrmony. But while talking to John I said how I felt about being in the choir. Like never have a clue what I was doing and never getting any help but from Bob. Course 5 years there and maybe I spoke to a dozen or two of them . . . Only more with maybe 5. Martha, Shields, Bob, Jerry, Gordan ... then some with clete, ron, don, joe, bonnie .... maybe 5 more say hi regularly

John asked if anyone else was getting help. And I couldn't really say yes, now as I think more about it. . . . Yea I guess so. Course John then asked me if I ever asked for help. And I guess I never asked the director. I mean I asked her about doing a song with Bob. She always says to pick a song. Like I would have any clue what Bob and I can do. . . . But she always asks Bob to do special songs or pieces of them . . . . even with Stew who teases me with bob about how I sing back and forth in union with either one of them . . . even for the same songs . . . Yea I've noticed how part way I sing with Bob andthen part I sing with Stew... lol.

Maybe that's why I feel left out. John said how I should just go bang on her desk. That made me laugh, but you know "I should do" BS just doesn't feel right for me anymore. Like should go to Harmony or should sing in Choir. I'm with Christ all the time . . . I never have to search for guidance or means of expression. I'm buried with this already. Everything I do is guided and expressing God.

Course I know that's just more fun and exciting and . . . dam are so many people naive, not having a clue about how easy it is . . . lol . . . Well I guess I started writing about this at the beginning here....

"It's just the same as usual. I dream and wish and hope. And POP there it is."

POP!
Living like this with You . . . Why would I want anything more. I guess I don't need anymore "should do's" . . . . I can do what I want, when I want, lol. . . . Since I always do it for the same reason . . . Like I know I'm going to change the world.
POP!

I know it's only a matter of time.
POP!

And not very much time either. . . . So now my mind flashed to meeting with Bill again and asking him if he knows Dean Akers or Bob Weiss . . . Wow what a advisory board they would make. Panama deal blasts out all over the world over night! What a vision that is!

Hum, three. Not thirty. That makes it a lot stronger and to the point. Wow, like Barb, Rebecca & Judy joining the Board with Chuck and I . . . I've flashed to that a few times too. Chuck being the secretary that gets it all together and makes it all happen, while the three ladies do it . . . .their votes, their directions . . . lol . . . And I just dream it.

That was weird . . . . Rebecca St James on the Radio now "THANK YOU" 11.03am I keep writing songs down for kariokee tonight. Keith asked about taking me out for my birthday and I said how I wanted to go there again. So he checked it out and Sunday it starts at 7pm so that's what we planned . . . . for tonight

Now i thought John might like to join us. lol . . . might be esier for me, keith and john can chatter and I can do my own thing.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Outrage! Preschoolers used as guinea pigs in psychotropic drug tests

Outrage! Preschoolers used as guinea pigs in psychotropic drug tests: "Chemical child abuse
In my view, this exploitation of young children for drug testing amounts to nothing less than chemical child abuse. What possible medical justification could these doctors, hospital staff and drug pushers have for prescribing mind-altering drugs to four-year-olds? Even the 'disease' being treated here is entirely fictional. So-called 'bi-polar disorder' was wholly invented by psychiatrists with strong financial ties to drug companies. The purpose of this disease is not to help children, but to sell drugs to anyone and everyone, including toddlers.
I often wonder when the rest of the country will wake up and notice that the mass-drugging of our nation's children has gone too far. Why isn't the mainstream media giving this front-page coverage? Why aren't lawmakers demanding an end to the chemical abuse of our children? Why isn't the FDA halting these trials on toddlers out of plain decency? "

NO women of the Bible here?

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happened today

I went to church... AND there before my eyes was the Joys and Concerns list in the Tidings with Emily and Christopher Weaver in it...

WOW... FINALLY!
and my birthday too....

Wow since 2003 I've filled out prayer request cards. Course that's about when I started choir too, and I've also asked about learning to sing which only Bob has ever helped me with. Course Bob alone knew about Christmas too. I couldn't do Christmas there anymore since my kids weren't there. AND No one would visit them, ask them why . . . lol . . . SEE why . . . even after Jerry baptized them.

So Last week Suz and John made sure I went to another church finally. And with all the Da Vinci Code BS at our church I was glad to get away from it. The Vatican has www.jesusdecoded.com but Jerry wont tell anyone! And I felt I shouldn't go back too. All the tension and arrogance makes it a chore instead of a passion. While Jerry never could find his passion, getting a sports car and locking the video camera in the closet.

While yesterday the Decoded discussion on Women in the bible was NOTHING compared to the production our church women did earlier this year . . . .

BUT IT WAS NOT video taped? Perfect wonderful production about the Bible women done by our church women, a tear jerker for sure, and it was never taped because of EGO! How SAD!

Time to move on I guess.... Deal with real stuff moving forward instead of .... Whatever

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Oh SHIT!!! >;-D))))

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What now?

I guess it's time to get ready for another time warp.
Suzanne left this morning after arriving May 01, 2006.
Full moon was still out as we raced downtown to the airport.
we kissed good bye, our first kiss . . . . 2nd, 3rd, . . . . LOL . . .

What do you feel now?

I'm D&Wed all erotic working around, dreaming, planning, feeling . . . . 11.31am now
OF COURSE!

What's that really mean for you?

I'm spending time with You Christ Jesus, because You are the Way the Truth and the Life that I AM as I live and LOVE through You . . . LOL . . . Or as You live through me. . . . Cause I want it this way.

What happened since you last wrote?

I'll have to go read it now 11.46am

What do you feel now?

I guess it's really funny... 1.41pm now.... 11.31 to 1.41 ... Extra 1 on one side and +1 on the other.... LOL... Or I guess +10 on both sides. . . LOL. . .

What did you feel from your read?

I ... i i i,,, eeeiiiooo... LOL... I guess I'm asking, about demanding, what I want again. Nothing so hard to see. And I've gotten it again. More than I could imagine . . . . OF COURSE. 1.51pm now... LOL...

But I guess what this really means is that I need to get very clear and specific on how I want to play this all out. I know all the pieces and players are here. I also know I'm just a cog to put it all together. It's ownership issues again!

What else would it be? You are still only people. You all have needs, and desires. You all fear losing control. Getting something done together requires trust and effort and skills with negotiations. This is all you have ever done. It's the only thing you like to do. Even your Chant is ONLY negotiating contact between souls. Course you are moving energy, and ALL Energy is GOD! We are all only here to move energy. You simply understand and connect strongly with YOUR FAITH IN CONVICTIONS!!!

I guess so.

What do you need to do now?

I need to create a new STARS. Sharon, Barbara, Rebecca, Barbara . . . Barb, Barb and ME? Course 4 women and me might be a little trip too. Suz hasn't wanted too. John and Chris might be too much for me. While Frank and JJ might be interesting. Hum, Klasko?

What do you feel?

I guess I need to speak to Sharon and Barbara again tomorrow before I see Rebecca. Sharon is getting ready to present to the USF cabinet about some sustainability office. Create more BS government crap. Another USER to consume resources and never get the job done. Just like Newkome tried and everyone else. There are so many crap database networking tools tied and twisted into a big mess here, just like everywhere else. lol... what a joke.

None of it works, it all only consumes. Everyone wants to control consumption, but no one wants to create smarter solutions with LESS CONSUMPTION!

WOW
That's it again. RIGHT BACK to the same place! AGAIN! Right ON ME!

What else does this connect to?

It fits with the sine wave of life, consciousness, nature . . . The equation / solution is a sine wave where everything goes in cycles, up and down.

Dr. Fernandez yesterday said how the MS disease goes in cycles, increasing and decreasing randomly so we would have a hard time proving that the intervention was creating results. But then he said how people die so quick after another death. Speaking about critical care couples, where the surviving partner dies 6 months to 2 years after the death of a terminally ill partner. Very specific data and concrete populations to sample. He wanted me to join him with Dr. Tan who first told me MS would be a good sample. I wanted DNA diseases, or something where DNA samples were valid.

I'm meeting with both of them 5/26.
While Rebecca at the Patel Center is Monday, and Barbara at the Rotary is Tuesday.

What about Sharon and Barbara?

I guess both these teachers are involved with John and my research stuff with the independent study class. Barbara understand what I'm doing, while Sharon knows this has all fallen into my lap . . . MY DREAMS, MY PASSIONS, WHAT I DO BEST! All here and now!

What's next?

I guess I need to get them on the Board of STARS. Make a committment to make it all happen. And stop playing around with things that are useless. . . . or going no where. . . . like more beuracracy... YUCK 2.17pm

What else do you need to do?

I guess an engineer called about StoneLake again. Stillmore to do there. I need to get Shawn started on my roof and Skinner on the bike rack. . . . what else? I wrote Dan about the server, gave him one more chance. I guess I need to do that with Equan too. . . What else? Um, I want to do something with the nursing site and my graduate site... lol... what else? Oh Mary's site... lol... make sure my Scire purchases all work... order more honey and willard water... lol... is that enough yet. Paint my Drum, more drums Make some more regalia.. lol... IS that enough yet?

Oh see Soloman at USF.
wow, enough yet?
guess so, time to work again, uhg!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please fill me with Your Grace Love and Wisdom, for Your Glory, Amen.

Pow WOW time, again => FULL MOON!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happened now?

I chanted with Suz and Chris . . . . Wow full moon tonight toooo.

What about school?

I had a meeting with John and the other "Team Faculty" (as in link with Jerry replaced with Alan & Barbara) to talk with the Patel Center about their strategic plan and projects they want to do. They even had a project for our department. Tampa is one of 10 cities where GATES 501c3 is sponsoring sustainable development application projects trying to link with other communities to create a new sustainable development cooperation model to use internationally. They want to see the creation of something linked to Panama to reduce poverty, environmental damage, sickness, illiteracy, and hunger by improving cooprative companies production.

Then John's class is about "designing sustainable enterprises" . . . . Which is really going to be a trip since they are all getting more involved with this stuff. I mean, Barbara just called from the Rotary too. She had dinner with the Patel Foundation where she met up with some old friends. She's ready to schedule lunch together with me next week. Course I only said one thing at the Patel meeting. How we have an opportunity to create something here in Tampa to then test in Panama!!! Export OUR solution to ALL existing societal problems.

Then I also got emails from the Med School (MS) all things happen at once of course. In April I sent something to the MS Communications VP who just discovered all the details in my message, now exploring the links. While Fernandez and I are meeting at 1:30pm tomorrow. His assistant also wrote requesting a resume, so I sent them one with the MS Abstract.PDF . . . . And I told the VP about it all, admitting that I spilled the beans with him, while was very brief and to the point with Fernandez.

Then Im starting Johns class . . . . While he teaches over 10 days in Colorado, the same thing as 10 weeks we have in Florida . Same class, same readings . . . Wow I need to learn to speed read again. So I get to set the pace for his class. Eeeek . . . . First time the class was ever taught, nothing like it in the USA . . . . and I START IT!

What about the chant tonight?

I don't know just went through the motions. They both talked about their "flight" after it, sharing visions, feelings insights. . . . And NOW I'm still wired with the FULL MOON out too. . . . all the energy is coming to me now, while it was all in sights for them before.

What do you really want?

I want to start this Earth Change You want me to do. And I want to be In Love again and start a Family again with You!

What do you mean?

I want to BE BUSY, with You, guess I know my MOM will be with my children so I need to share my passions with a similar divine spirit, form, creation, beauty RIGHT NOW, to bring stability, creation and Love into my home, life and activities.

What do you want with classes?

I guess I really want to see it all work finally. The students in class working on creating the single solution that I patent into STARS for us all to share. This is the constitution to restore the US Constitution: WHERE By: the State governors acts as congress, all federal duplications are ended. President is elected by the people, while governors and states operate all the services removing federal positions except research support into patents and international treaties. Forget the greed police, USA becomes the BRAINS for doing TRUTH!

What else do you need?

I need You to get stronger and clearer into my life. I need to be paid to chant so I have no money worries. Then I need to chant and teach people how to love and work together to create healing of ALL souls, lands and waters. Start this at home, in my own backyard, which means the Love and support of a suitable woman is needed NOW!

Please continue to lead and guide all that I do and say for the Glory of Fathers Sons and Holy Ghosts Amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. (Sh_t look at the time!)

Who has passions?

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What now?

I chanted for Suz and John

What about it...

I guess nothing really. Too much sitting for John. So Suz gave him a massage. And he decided to show her that he could massage too, but then she got offended about it, like he wanted to show he could do better or something. Course I thought he was just anxious to share that he had similar experience/skills . . . Like commoradory and similarity. Later she came back in and he said something else she had read in an email today. Total synchronicity again . . . "Celestine Prophesy" he said . . .

So it sounded to me that they were closer than ever. But they've just been fighting, or arguing about history. It's weird I try to leave them alone together and it creates conflict. But I ask them each individually, and they've never really known each other or shared much at all before. It's like some crap family history is all they know, and then keep judging based on that instead of just sharing and loving the moment NOW!

LOL . . . Course John at USF is just rocking and loving how we work together. LOL, while Sharon is trying to pretend nothing happened and that we should be best buds. LOL . . . I guess she got what she wanted from me. While clearing she was just usering to create control and ego like everyone else . . .

What about that . . .

It like she did not get what she wanted. And needs me again.

What's wrong with that. ?

I just don't like the control freak user attitude. LOL . . . I mean asking is one thing, just taking what you can and manipulating for more is another thing. Not really interested in that. Course that's exactly where I started too! ;-/

What about Chris?

I don't know. He told me he could come over and then misses it to have a seizure instead. Not sure what a "seizure" is, but he had been taking medication and whatever happened got him into the hospital.

What did you hear about that?

I'm not sure who said it, but I heard how it was important he got this, and missed it, and so got a warning about him not taking it seriously enough. Which is weird.

What's weird about it?

I don't know. Maybe that no one takes me seriously enough. That I feel used all the time? That I get upset so easily? It's weird . . .

What was weird?

I guess tonight I left them to chat after the concert and biked around Lowry park a bit. Then I saw they had roped off Poe Plaza which made me want to chant in it. LOL . . . Course then the energy got so strong so I wanted to leave. But I couldn't because I couldn't close my box on the truck. The key wouldn't work. Then Suz came over and fixed it, so we got in and drove away.

Why

I just felt weird. I prayed and I was fixed. I knew I had to ask You to be there with us.

Why don't you do that before you chant?

I akways pray before

What about getting into a space with us?

I don't know, I always feel . . .

What? You know what we mean. Prayer and "show and tell" has nothing to do with it.

I guess so

What you need to do is practice what you preach. If you are in a funny space, recognize it. Get real about what you are and where you are. If something is funny, say so. It's all about who you are and what you need to do. Everyone else is searching while you are very sharp and clear as a tack. It's very strong and when you want to get things done, it happens. It is nothing to be afraid of or ashamed, you simply have a lot of power and need to just do it. Who cares who understand or not. You will be surprised by how it all works out just fine for you.

I know. That's the way it always is . . . . Please Loving Lord Jesus Christ be with me always, lead and guide me to grow and love in your spirit for the Glory of God our Father Son and Holy Ghost. Amen . . . .

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Happy Birthday 5/3/92

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's up

I Miss Chris and Emily... WE MISS YOU!!!!

HAPPY 14th Birthday Christopher Allen Weaver
I Love you little Dude and WILL FOREVER!!!
You are the best....
And Jesus IS ALWAYS with you!

Thanks Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ for sending me these kids... Please keep them safe I love you, Amen