Culture? What culture... No Morals here

What now?

I've been working on my leadership paper and the lessons learned too. My team in class seemed to have played a little prank on me. But then no one said a word about it. And I guess I didn't either. It was obvious that it was bothering me so I wrote up a few pages of lessons learned about it... Which really were all about what the other team members should learn from it. I asked the teacher about presenting it in class, he liked the idea, until I said team members were described, and then he thought it was more of revenge. LOL, like I have time for revenge?

Funny that's what Keith always said about Dan. That I was "vengeful." I went out of my way to give Dan every opportunity I could for him to be a good honest man and stand up to face the crap he was pulling. After almost 2 years in my house losing, all he ever could do was make up some new scam to make money. Lying or cheating someone for greed, and cheat me, cheat my friends and neighbors. So he ended up with nothing, no one would help him anymore. I wish he only left with the shirt on his back. Since then he might have stopped to think a bit more about what is true and right. But Keith and Andrew helped him take tons of crap that he collected while using me and my space. So Dan used me and then used Keith and Andrew and everyone else. Even used his handicapped daughter for years to get free coffee every weekend. Sure "feel sorry for my little girl, so I get free coffee" . . . . SO I tried to shed some light but Dan learned NOTHING here... Well maybe a little since he's home taking care of his parents now; I HOPE!

What's the point?

I don't know, I just always feel like the only person around talking any common sense. Like this morning Keith got the newspaper . . . . Now I know why I never get one. One article about a sex survey in the county schools shows more sex and drugs than ever. And then another article about the water problem in Tampa. . . Where they want to lower the river water quality standards so they can pollute it some more. What a bunch of shit. Course, just like Bush they find some engineer to pay and make the test results and reports justify them to do whatever they want. . . . But we all know in our hearts that it's total bull shit and we are only making the problems worse. . .

What do you think that is teaching our children? Do you think no child can read that newspaper in your town? Why should they try to stay clean avoiding sex and drugs? Their parents are filling their bodies with drugs and their minds will TV trash.

I mean how can these people be SO STUPID to see this stuff in their own back yard and go on thinking, oh it's ok... It's not my problem... Someone else will take care of it.... I just need to watch the football game, and get more gas for my SUV when I go for more beer. And they think this is civilized or advanced . . . Oh that's right as long as they have more than the Jones next door, that's all that matters.

My God what is this world coming to. . .

What did you ask that for? You know exactly what this world is coming too. How can you solve the problem if there's no problems. It's been obvious to you for a long time and there's no one else out there ready or able to do anything about it.

I know you tell me that all the time. And it's great to be doing this for You... lol... For US. And I know I can't loss and will always come out ahead no matter what the crap looks like right here around me.

What do you think this really means? You are one of millions and we all can know and feel each other at any minute. But we don't stop to think long enough to understand. Do you think there is anyone else in your country that is totally free in this focus of creation like you are now. Hundreds doing yoga, and meditations, thousands exercising and eating right. Each new conscious thought placed into the stream with us makes this easier for you. But you also know that they fall away and get lost as quickly as they grow stronger with us. This has always been the way of things. Just like throughout time it only took one decision to make it all change.

are you ready for it ?

will you do it yet?

Don't search for more proof, another example and reason to do... JUST DO!

I'm . . . . Am I really? What am I? Do I need to explain or write something. . . Do I think there are millions alone in the world with me. Wondering if the answer is out there somewhere. Just like wondering when Jesus Christ will come home. When will Revelations start? When will we know the solutions and stop fighting for more? Do I really need peace and quiet to be successful? Or do I need the love and companionship of someone? AAAAm I really ever alone?

I know You are always here with me. And I know you want to write a lot more. I guess I am just asking you a lot of questions so you can really tell me something.

What more do you think we could offer to you. It's again in this place of utter despair and conflict. Those millions you feel all waiting for the solutions are just asking you the same questions we are. are you ready to make the case clear. Do you need more proof?

Disclaimer: Astrocenter provides astrological predictions based on the astrological principles, Money Matters: Mercury will move into Sagittarius at the start of the week, eric, bringing added emphasis to your joint financial affairs. There is a situation building up here which is going to come to a head on Thursday, and may mean that you have to make a decision to change things quite dramatically. You may be forced into this situation, but ultimately it will work out much better for you in the long term. The Full Moon in Gemini may bring you the fruits of all the work you have put into your financial affairs or, if you have been frivolous, all the difficulties that you have been avoiding. If you take action when it is called for, you may have to sort through and make a clean sweep, but you will feel much better for doing so. Venus moves into Aquarius on Thursday which may help you find a way to talk to bosses or those in authority without causing too much annoyance, even though you may have something controversial to ask of them. Later in the week you may reach deadlock with your partner or other family member, as you can't find a way out of a tricky situation. One meeting may bring about a conflict of personality on Sunday.

What is really remarkable about everything that is, will be how clear it all becomes for everyone. It's very simple steps that we are all very well prepared for. Your place in this maze is so concrete solid and impeccable that the total surprise and fulfillment you will feel is just beyond recognition. Each new word you read or see anywhere only confirms and strengthens your resolve and fortitude to make this all happen. Like just this moment you flashed another vision as the Centerpiece Oasis - Theta track started in your headsets... Why don't you tell us about that?

I saw Keith finally putting on his suit and getting serious about everything. Not Doing better next year, but NOW. Seeing Burcaw about designs and equipment to start constructions, while Andrew and Equan got the pipes, computers and portables building the whole new system right here now. . . . . . Seeing the school board about the STARS projects and patents to clean all the water, trash, roads, people, schools. . . His ultimate little visions writing all the editors and having the schools and news talking up the incredible storm of controversy. Uncovering all the corruption and clearing out all the trash.

I am not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What do you really think your place will be?

I think I will simply hide away. I'll finally be given my peace and solitude to create and dance with you. . . .

What if your place were to change too? What happens if you need to be out meeting and pulling more people into it all. Keith gets started and maybe Dan and Rachel wake up. . . . Then maybe your father and church. . . . What about your kids? How will you be able to hide if they come out again reaaaady to DOOOO SOOOMMETHING! Can you get up to lead them? Are they ready to travel the worlds with you? Are you ready?

I am always ready. Each new freaky situations catches me by surprise maybe, but soon I figure out how it fits into Your Big Picture...

What do you mean, are you sure it's our Big Picture? What if it were only yours? Are you ready to be the one to make it all happen? Can you still hold your hand up if it starts to really spark? Are you going to run and Hide again or what?

I'm not sure about that. . . . Everyone kisses Dan's ass so they wont have to face him. While everything I did was show him he was full of it. I mean like Keith and Elizabeth all this big talk about BS. . . Success for yoga people or a million bucks, what a smart way to hide selfishness, greed and arrogance. Sure whatever I say and do might be a little harder or a challenge, but which one will help and serve others? And which is more in truth vs deception?

What is deception son? Do you think anyone there can live a single day without deception? You hide in your clothing and cover up everything. Like how you write these editors, are you telling them the whole truth? Certainly you personally tell everyone too much, but do you think either editor will publish anything that might make his own "pie in the sky" anything less than "the Jones next door?" Like Judging Keith or Chuck, if they responded to you their first opportunity, would they have been as successful as they could be now?

I know i need to get busy on some other things

What do you think this is all about. We started at the beginning saying that you needed to get busy on some other things.

I guess so. . . Thanks for pointing out realy how much i need to do and how much more this will increase as i begin to get certain things done.

Whatelse would you expect?

I gave up "expecting" anything a long time ago. It's nice to get some respect and consideration once in a while, but I know i've got to do something no one else can do. Sure you got me ready for it... lol... whatever that means, since I seem to be able to deal with anything while I get the unepected every day

What would you really want? Do you ask for anything that you don't get? Do you really want to ask for me?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please Let this all BE Resolved and Perfect as ONLY You could share with all of us for the Glory of God the Father Son and Holy Ghosts . . . . . Amen.

I am not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What ?

I'm tired of the struggle. And I'm starting to fear what pops into my mind sometimes. The Black Mountian episode comes to mind. I know I can do anything and I know there is nothing that can stop me. . . but I'm tired of the headaches and challenges. Yes they are good to make me strong and successful sometimes. But it's just not healthy to always be fighting and worried about what's next for me to deal with.

What ?

It's like Keith finished his 40 days and 40 nights and the very next day he was drunk as a skunk again. Of course it was the day I had planned for us to go to the Great Entrepreneur Minds party. . . given him almost two weeks notice. And it would have been a perfect time for him to kick start the whole STARS thing. I was really nervous about going and even spoke to him about who was going to be there and what I wanted to get done with them. He was clear and supportive asking me about things ahead of time. But for him to get drunk right before we left was just like spitting in my face. I wasn't really sure what to do.

So what happened?

I got in the car excited that he let me drive the car he's been using from Christine and I noticed from his slurred words that he was drunk. I really just wanted to turn around and go back home. But he always says he does better when he's drunk. . . . lol. . . . Like every alcoholic always says. So we got there. I avoided the people at the entrance because the class teacher was there talking with a bunch of people. I got some water and listened to him slur words and repeat himself while dropping peanuts and scuffing up the floor.

Obviously, I avoided any further conversations with him. But I spoke to a lot of other people and made some good contacts. Nothing I followed up on yet. But there was a light of something positive through it all and I almost feel like I should thank him now since I likely wouldn't have gone if he wasn't here. Like I don't need to use him as a crutch, sorta like he doesn't need to use alcohol as a crutch.

What else has he gotten you to do?

I guess I've gone out and done karioke a few times, where I'm singing in front of people. I kinda liked it, but haven't figured out how my voice works yet. I'm really deep at church but sang really high there. I know I need to try that some more and work on it. I need to work on alot of things I guess.

What ?

I don't know, I really tired of getting used. I feel like everyone has been using me. Here at school in class today and also Friday. I don't even want to think about my house and bikes and all that have been getting destroyed. I told Keith to get out by Christmas, but it will take me a full month working to get everything cleaned up and civilized again after he leaves. Then even Chuck who borrowed a few DVD's from me has had them for over 6 months. And I wont even talk about the situation with my kids or the treehouse. I mean why waste the breath. . . putting good air after bad air. . . . lol. . .

I guess Jiwan called me yesterday. But she's pretended like nothing happened at all. Sure set me up out in the fire to bake and oh did something happen? Where do I find friends like this? I mean would anyone normal allow guests to get drunk and destroy their house . . . . no rent, no responsibilities and a minor doing drugs there too. I never should have let him in, and when he bought a TV that should have been the end!

Shit my own kids never watched TV for years. THANK GOD!!! They learned how to read and think instead of cheat and manipulate. Course then they were forced to do worse anyway.

What else?

Oh give me a break, I'm not really interested in just complaining all day. . .

Oh good, so whatelse do you need to do?

I know there is always volumes of shit I need to do. And I'm so tired of always having more and more to do. So I'll get busy with it now... Happy?

Wired week for SURE

I am not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

now what's up?

I just got some email which referred to Deepak Chopra. I looked up his site and wanted to see if I could volunteer and get a scholorship to his next function. Then I noticed he had a blog online. I read through it. Norm was moving on, after spending too much time there.... lol... uh oh, I've done that more than a few times. But I read through some replies to his posting anyway. As I got to he end I found one that said what I felt. So I decided to read Chopra's posting that everyone was replying to... Thinking if I felt an answer bubble up I'd post too...

So?

I read his note, and copied out his questions at the end and posted a reply. http://www.intentblog.com/archives/2005/12/is_jesus_coming.html ... I guess I've known for years that Jesus Never left us at all ... have you?

No, but not everyone can speak as easily as you, can they? It's interesting though because you taught Kathy how to do this in a single afternoon and it changed her whole life.

I know, what's new, I seem to change everyone's whole life. Or at least everyone I meet.

now can you give some examples?

I noticed Friday that Koehler got a great big new F- 150. I passed him on my bike as he was walking up to the BSN office in the parking lot. It's really funny, because I've thought of calling him Dr. K. Which would really be a trip... since I might meet Claire for lunch next week. Getting Dr. K and Claire out for lunch again. Wow. Course I saw how Claire is writting us all about Binary Economics and has got another Binary conference set with Mike, another prof' that I sent her message too.

I guess I also noticed how I've met several Honor College kids. Michelle working in the BSN office too was asking me about the Peace Corps vs. a PhD. We set up all the office Christmas decorations together.... (lol, i keep telling her to say $100 a tree, everytime someone compliments her work, and told her she could take 60%, while in the BSN college we could do well $$$) I told her that a PhD at her Honors Speed would get her into so much research and grants that she would never get out of it. Career, teaching research... etc... While the Peace Corps would only be a few years and the PhD would be easier after it. Especially since the Corps would help get her a clear powerful passion about research and study on the PhD. She wasn't even sure about her thesis topic, but was already looking for the best national school in Public Health.

So I told her first off that a PhD from some big fancy school is great. But she'd be on the bottom of the totum pole there, while here it might not be a Great Program yet, but she could make it Great. And be working with the people running it all instead of just watching. She agreed and decided she liked to stay in Florida anyway. Jennifer made the same decision too. So Jenn and I are starting the MSM program together. Both doing the Class with Sharon to Green USF next term.

Course Scott and I want to get Equan into the Honor College too. And Cecile has a new student volunteer as well from the Honors College.. . . .

now?

I guess what was really cool was feeling i needed to get Cecile, Koehler, JJ and Sharon together. Ceile has seen my chant while the others know different aspects of it. Cecile and I were updating her MBSR manual and spoke more about my chant. I told her it was ALL about mindfulness... No only am I totally in touch with my breathing and motions... But I also know and feel all the twelve religions and their symbols around me, the cricle I cast and those in the circle... as well as all those who have ever been in the circle and those who have done the ritual before.... lol... and also feel the whole space around us.. from the earth up into the skies and beyond...

Serious mindfulness... lol... somehow she seemed to understand, more than I could say...

Course I've been debating this with Keith all week and Chuck finally watched the "What the Bleep" DVD so he finally understands what I've told him since we met in 1983.... Keith seems to know all this too.... Keith applies it more than Chuck, but Chuck has more faith and understanding of me. But Keith still can't accept that I somehow know something that no one else knows...


Thank you Loving Lord Jesus Christ... Please Only Your Will be done in me this day and ALWAYS... Amen

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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 2.10pm

You have really got a lot to do. Or have almost outdone yourself. this is certainly a very interesting weekend you have set before you and you will be plesently suprised as well.

I guess i'm surprised all the time. and i know that i need to get a lot of things done, and really have a great deal to do with everything that is happening all around me. It's like reading the Dalai Lama stuff now. He's got the attention of a lot of the world and will be able to make a lot of things change.

You will too Son, never down play your own power and impact.

I know that's always interesting, as I'm not ever very clear about my place and actions which is something i need to get more control over. there is nothing I can not do. and I know my influence will only increase as i grow and learn to make this clear for me.

You have to realize there is nothing to stop you. more than anything you need to see how everything out there will really help you. Even the seeming dissappointment are really opening doors and improving more for you... The time has come Son, you have a lot of things at hand that need to be completed. And they will be shortly, just get busy

I know i'm getting busy again

You will be soon, there is nothing too complicated for you yet. You are in control and can make a great deal of things grow and change with little or no effort. However, you need to get busy with the tasks you have at hand. For there is a lot of efforts that needs to go into these things, and you must do it all yourself.

I know, Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ for filling me with Your strength and power to achieve as You wish. Amen.

You still have a lot to do and you are making significant progress. You wanted this time to yourself and you have it. it's good to see you are being so productive and learning more as you continue to work on your dreams.

I appreciate how you ahve given me these things to read and inspire me further.

You are just beginning son, there is a lot more to come and a lot more to do. There is nothing that will stop you and you certainly are able to get a lot more done than you could ever imagine.

Why do you always say that, itt really sounds so abstract and almost meaningless. If I can not know how much i can influnce things. . . What's the point!

But You do know. Like you see how Dr. Newkome tried to copy your every dream, and now you find he really only set it all up for you any way. Creating bigger fiefdoms everywhere is only adding fuel to your fire. When teachers and school take over all the public resources, you will thank him dearly, because he started the ball rolling on making all these things into public resources for you to use. . .

I know you always have you plans . . . the Big Picture that goes beyond all the rest, to include everything that is . . . And ake it work together!
Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus!

6.59pm FRIDAY... what a week!

What ?

I've really got much too much going again .

Why?

Because it's just too much. I know I've got my vibration up so much that I can't seem to get anything done.

Why don't you say about what happened tonight?

I went to a Synergy Symposium in the College of Public Health. And I never met anyone. I guess I realized it was for teachers to meet other teachers and I am a student who's not even started to do any research.

What, why do you say that? You are developing a consciousness patent. Do you have any idea what would have happened at the meeting last night if you had simply told everyone what your patent was.

Why do you tell me that now? I can't really run back there, there is nothing left there now, except maybe an empty bottle or a dirty napkin. I guess I never really asked?

We would not have told you anyway. Things really are not ready for this all to come out so strongly. There is really a great deal more you need to do on your own. You always expect someone else you meet will somehow make it work better for you. Like who else did you see tonight.

There was also another group meeting up stairs with Carol Roberts. She had brought in a medical intuitive, who came around asking what anyone wanted for a wish. When she asked me I guess I deflected it all to everyone around me. First asking for the same thing as the guy before me.... "to share what she feels." And then she felt me looking at a lady across the table from me, saying there was a women, in her 40's, but it wasn't clear. Instead of me thinking of anything I really wanted her to read into so I could know more about it.

What else do you want to know about?

I know it's all about my kids. And I know I never write about my kids because they have too much energy already. I really don't need to add any more to them.

They Still need your love and healing....

I know I need to pray for them more. But I also know they are learning as they must. while I need to finish some things too. I know the patent that should be done already would finish a lot of things

What ?

I feel like it would be what breaks this PARADIGM

What wrong with that?

I guess I know that means a lot of other things will break. Like i've got his email about the hurricans so I looked at the maps and saw one bigger than the Gulf of Mexico.

What else do you need to do...?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ I know i need to get busy again...

mind vibrations to Freedom!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

Write some more and let us as well...

I've been finding more and more for my research. The new issue of Scientist found the vibrations I was writting about. So the methods are clear now. And I know I need to submit it.

well... do it now...

I can get it done after class tomorrow.

yes just get it done

I also have to get busy on Koehler's Leadership paper and getting the SMA prototype done.

well. . . . at least you are clear about your tasks

I wrote them down now too. So I also got this other stuff about the mind vibrations too. Holosync CD's are using sounds to create the Alpha, Delta, Gama waves in the mind that can also come with different states of meditation.

SO I guess that's why the negative in my life so abruptly left. I mean yesterday Andrew even wrote a contract to make his position clear in my house. I'm not sure he's going to meet the conditions we wrote. But at least he's making a sound attempt.

Also really interesting is how Keith already found his little Goddess. I know what he did for Equan was a serious good deed, and even getting clear and focused on his 40 days and 40 nights is really cool. . . . but. . .

Remember the Prodigal's Son story. . . what makes his efforts so significant is how he's affeting people so much already.

Hey, i affect all sorts of people too.

well... you are still behind the scenes. you've made long term commitments and long term goals. A little Goddess after 40 days is not the same as staying 16 and having a hundred children.

I know you've said that before.

Yes, and we will again.

I ove You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. thank you for filling me with your strength love and wisdom... continue to lead me into your light... Amen.

Wow, super stuff...

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What are you doing now?

Wow, what a week this was!!! I've been so very flattered by so much. I mean so many things are going so good. Like as I'm helping Equan get into College, and everything with my college degrees come together just as quickly.

JJ asked me to check into the Masters program in Management, of course I've already taken most of the classes and really even seem to prefer it over the MBA since it's more leadership focused. Course I never thought/knew I was getting an MBA to learn more about leadership, but this is certainly where I've been doing my best. LOL. . . reminds me of Equan. Leading without leading. He's doing it all on his own. Like such a strong powerful positive force it's wonderful. Course the opposite has to react as well. Both going on where they must. lol. . . . while I just laugh at the dance of energy, wondering how they will offset each other. I try to care and help both sides, but know one will fall away while the other will prosper and succeed.

I always feel like a spectator. Equan did everything for himself. I might have helped a bit. But his success and glory will be his own. . . lol. . . He's closer to me than ever, even more of a son, brother and friend than ever before. Just like the opposite is also true. Those who fight and argue for control will get what they deserve too. . . Equan full and strong with multiple offers from colleges I'm sure, while the opposite will be in control of their empty bag. . . lol. . . wow I wonder seeing a son and friend so successful . . . while maybe it's my daughter or sister who suffers by their own hands . . . Oh well!

So I got all this stuff together for JJ. Printed out all the business degree programs and such. Then I also got the nursing and public health programs printed. I was struggling to figure how this would all work in my schedule next term. I know I've been doing too much and couldn't imagine cutting anything from my schedule. Actually I felt I needed to teach more, so really wanted to add more to my schedule.

Course the Nursing folks have Stat's & Research Theory classes that I should take. While I can finish my Entrepreneur track and Sustainability in BSN. Those last two will be developing the Greening of USF. . . lol. . . . both classes are involving projects and both teachers want me to explore the recycling to expand into greening.

Then of course Claire invites me to this "binary-economics" meeting. Where other attendees I also invite and seemingly help expand and develop it further. But I realized it's about a more equitable capitol distribution. Those with capitol, real estate, equipment, resources, $$$ control everything which is really destroying our environment, culture and society. So this theory is about trying to get a more equal distribution instead of just the rich getting richer.

One aspect of this theory is about getting "unused capitol resources" to become productive making more capitol. Capitol is needed to create capitol so moving these resources to places where they can be used will help distribute capitol more evenly. I thought about how Greening USF will be about recycling computers and equipment too. So this could be a method to expand and develop binary-economics . . . .

Then I get this email from the BSN Dean. He received it from Global Health (over in Public Health College) about creating some synergy for more applied research integration efforts. WOW, so I get this email after I printed out all this stuff to go over with JJ. And he tells me to explore more "Management, Spirituality & Religion" which is a special area starting to get more research as well.

So WOW. . . my MBA and Environmental Sustainability work could easily be combined into Global Health for an interesting PhD program. I never really thought about it very much but this all fits together so very well it's incredible. . . .

Course as with Equan and Keith, I see so many other things fitting together and making such perfect sense that I can barely question or understand it all. Sure things grow and change all the time. We always need to see the truth of the good positive works and wash away the negative bigotry. There will always be this play between the good and bad in life . . . pity so few are conscious of their own place in it even as the truth is so clear and plain right in their face.

As with Equan, the truth isn't always in the words . . . where his Truth with "FAITH IN CONVICTIONS" is awesome . . . and seen throughout all his works, efforts and actions. Others hold onto and fight over such meaningless words, while the truth of the actions and deeds are lost in their arrogance of selfishness and control.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lead and guide us all to see the Truth in your Words and Ways, so that our actions will speak the truth that words can never achieve. . . Amen. 4:30pm

Wow it was so cool to see Claire. I told her how I was completing another patent. She said she didn't like patents because they restrict public use. So I told her how restrictions are very necessary sometimes. Like if I teach a child to drive, and he runs someone over, that is really my fault. Children are not ready to drive and how in teaching this I take a risk and really take responsibility for what happens to anyone who tries it.

So many people never want to take responsibility for anything. It's interesting how things have gone for me. Like when I chanted with Rowen, there was so much power and clarity. I taught her everything about it. She could understand and relate and went on to learn Reiki and lots more to support the lessons I gave her. But then I've chanted with others and never explained a thing. I never really thought about it before. But I know it was best that I never taught anything to Amir. She was so focused on herself. I guess giving her more power to put into her selfishness would really be detrimental to everyone.

I know this stuff I do really just expands what is. Like I've cleared people and only directed the Light to open doors. I wonder about teaching it more. Once this patent gets out there, things might shift a great deal. I guess people who understand it all will be the ones ready to use it. While others who don't will never see it. I guess that's why it's important to patent it. I don't need just anyone teaching it. That's all I need is everyone learning this and pumping more energy into my circle. . . .

Hum, that's weird. I know everyone who sees this becomes part of it. But I've never thought of them all in the circle with me. I guess I've seen and felt Rowan and Amir in there with me. And of course a few others who like to visit. But I can't believe everyone is? But just like the car, people can drive for good and bad reasons. And each will find their place by what they focus their energy on.

Like it is wonderful how much more Keith is focusing himself. He worked on Equan's papers and then help me with some of mine. The truth and clarity he brings to them all shows his focus. But then he gets distracted by Andrews BS or something else, and I worry about him falling back into drinking. The truth and clarity is seen throughout. Not just in a word or a day of good deeds, but in all the energy and actions in Life.

Hum, what's this trying to tell me? I know there is alwys good and bad around me. And I know i can forgive and move on. But I also know that I can not subject myself to crap. Like if Andrew is set on giving me crap . . . for whatever excuse, whether I'm here and helping him or not, just to leave him alone. His anger and resentment is really his problem. I can forgive and forget, but if I only get crap I'll just move on. There is more than enough for me to do. And wasting my time with crap. . . lol. . . . oh well. I wont go there.

Intersting how much we can learn from the mistakes of others around us. . . . while they seem to only point their nose up in the air and miss the truth hidden behind their own walls of crap. . .

Finding more POWER:

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What now?

There is really too much happening again. I'm getting too charged up. . .

I had written some powerful emails this morning. Equan asked me to go over his letter for FSU. He went there last week and loves the place. So he wants me to help him get into College. Wow, I hope I can do that for Christopher. I don't think Emily will want my help, but who knows.

So he gave me the first questions and a few line he wrote. So I added some questions to it and sent it back. Soon I read over a page or so, just complimenting his efforts and making suggestions to expand his work. He seemed to get worried that I wasn't editing it too much. I would break up his long sentences and ask for more details. So he started to get worried that it was too personal and such.

I told him how the college would see this. He's being honest and direct sharing real issues with courage and dignity. So he kept writing.

Last night he sent them to me again while i was in my office at USF. He wanted to meet instead of emails of chat anymore. So I stopped by to see him. He had two pages now. Really serious stuff about his father and such. He didn't meet his father until he was 9 years old. While Chris about left his fatehr at 9. . .

I was really honored to help him and review all this stuff with him. This morning I had another copy. So I asked Keith to help too. Keith is such a good editor. I commented about Andrew and Keith immediately siad how I shouldn't talk with what up with Emily and Chris. So I told him more about it and he realized it was more of God's work than anything I did. He still bragged about Andrew, while I think Andrew just manipulates and sneaks around to take whatever he can.

I went out for a SMA meeting and brought some business cards for Land Development and Patents. It was a really good meeting. Talking about finishing the class project and then starting patent development businesses. It was really kinda awesome!

So when I got home I was wondering what I would have to deal with now. Keith was out and Andrew would likely be home. I walked in and all the lights and fans and AC was on. And no one was there. Reminded me of Dan turning everything on to spite me, so he could sit comfy on the couch watching TV. So I got pissed Of course.

I shut everything off. . . Windows were open with the AC again. No one ever respects anything here, I feel like such a fool trying to help people.

So ouside I found Andrew with his buddy on their smoking chairs hidding around the side. He jumped up as soon as I saw them and I started yelling at him. He doesn't respect anything I say, he doesn't respect any of my property. He's a spoiled little brat who just uses and lies. Course he said his dad told him he could turn on the AC. yea right!!

Ok so I called Keith on the phone and asked him about the AC. He told him to close all the windows before turning on the AC. Wow, so Andrew didn't lie. What a surprise. Well I guess I know Andrew is really a good kid. He just has this arrogent gotta be cool BS fucking him up all the time. Like when Andrew got serious about the contract for his dad. He's really smart and good about this stuff. But he just has no respect for me.

Course I'm the one who asked him about staying in my house. And working and grades. But he's not been able to keep up with that for more than a week at a time. Well maybe a few days, and then he's doing something he shouldn't again.

I keep telling Keith that this energy stuff is really serious and getting all these negative distraction are really hurting us. I mean I will never get anything done here if all this crap keeps coming up in my face. I certainly wont let anyone in my house again. I just can't deal with all the extra crap it brings. I mean it's great when Andrew cut veggies and helps out. And I'm thrilled to see Keith taking the garbage out. . .

I mean having real people that respect the space and carry some weight is LIGHT YEARS ahead of poor Dan that never finished anything. But these little gestures burn up in the smoke of the drinking, drugs and other headaches. . . Which really sucks. Cause I'm likely never going to bring anyone to my house now. . .

Guess I'll invite people over to chant and teach and stuff. . . But I can't imagine ever wanting a roommate again!

That kinda sucks.
And you know sunday at church Jerry spoke about reaching out to others and helping people. And I thought abotu how Keith's "bimbo & booze" thing could really be reaching out to help people. But how can we help out neighbor with the speak of dust in their eye, if we still have a bid log in our own eyes. . .

So what right do I have to try to help anyone either, if I can't deal with little shit like trash and windows. Course common courtousy and respect of the property is kinda expected. But if I pull someone out of the toilet, I need to accept getting some shit on my hands. Wow, poor Emily's room... I really will have tons of shit to clean up there.

Oh well live and learn!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lead and guide me to your Grace Love and wisdom! Amen.

Are you sure?

I am not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word! 2:35pm

What are you doing now?

I reread what you wrote last night. And again everything that I read and see is telling me to do the very same thing. It's such a wonderful trip to be on. But it still scares me so much.

What now Son? You know and see so very much all the time ... whenever the time is NOW!! It's so funny to see you writing songs with Us again. No one would ever understand anything you wrote because you had all these songs littered throughout your writting. Now you simply write our words to you in another format. What wonderful tools man's technology has created on this earth for you. But none of it would be here if not for your drive and desire in total Love of Truth.

I know i've not caused everything.

Oh but you have Dear Son. You all have. Each of you carry the same genetic structure that has evolved for countless mellenium from the beginning of time. Everything that exists is reflected and affected by who you are and what is inside of you. Remember the point of everything is reproduction. You are the first Being to carry this high a vibration of God. Nothing exists beyond your reflection and influence, because It Is all inside of you.

Just for the sake of it, try to find a DNA that exists that is not in some form within you. If not as a component of your own DNA, then a tool used in digestion or otherwise inside of you somewhere. People have learned their independance so they could discover the power of choice.

Choice is fundamental for Love.

Without a choice any Love is only half as strong. Remember all consciousness is about creating God. What is God? God is Love. So the highest strongest and most refined energy of creation is the choice of Love. And the highest Love is the Love of Love = The Love of God!

You must choose to Love God. Not some physical expression you can control and manipulate but some abstract Faith in Love. Choosing Love and God and Consciousness is Loving something that only the strength and Power of God could Love!

Mankind is choosing to Love God. Choosing Faith in Love, conviction in truth over the lost meham of greed in materialism. you all think you need this materials. It's not anything outside of you. you created it all and will destroy it again. But is it the creation that controls or the Creator that controls? Again it's all your choice.

I know

What you know it only a smal little piece of what you are opening up. Everything is about to open up very strongly and what you are doing now will be opening up so many things to come that you will be very busy.

Oh is this something new? I am always very busy with these things that you place before me.

What you are now doing is not something that has ever been done before. you might think it's simple words on paper. But remember this is really millions of 1's and 0's of some computer language translated into electrons and then photons of light pulsating throughout the universe. Sure it's only a vibration of energy and light so small that it can circle your world endlessly. However, just as you attitude in the office determines how well your PC works, so many other things can fee land respond to this light you send out.

I know that's why we are here. We can carry the power adn Life of God and Love anywhere. This healing that I can offer to my brother here or the dirt under my feet refelcts throughout the universe to create a vibration

What now?

"Today is the day I'm ready... No matter what happens next I'm ready... ready to listen to my heart, never go against it's way.. honor and ador my spirit, set it free in every way... today is the day I'm ready..." 4:33
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you so very much for all you share with me.. Please lead and guide me to be and do all that you require.... Thanks, Amen!

what are we in for now?

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word! 447pm

What are you ready for Son?

I'm ready for everything I guess, and I know it's coming really quickly.

Why?

I guess because of how You do these things to me. . . everything that happens is so very planned and clear. I see Your Plans in everything. Even Bush killing Iraq (that I never hear about) and all the other chaos in this word. But I get nervous about Your plans for me all the time.

Why?

I know it's because of the Black Mountain trip. I escaped for a week in the mountains knowing You had planned this fun vacation for me. . . and I did exactly what I felt You wanted every moment

You are still doing that.

I know, that's what makes me nervous. I mean all those spontanious past-life regressions were so intense . . . everything was so fast and strong there. Then the sudden weather . . . it totally freaked me out.

Why Son? You see those things all the time. Everyone you meet you feel into their aura very quickly. Remember you demanded never to see any of that. Which really made it hard for others you are with to see it either. You all think this energy stuff and angels are all fantasies of the mind just like a dream at night. But they are real manafestations of energy. So your blocking the appearance, can block it for everyone. These events ARE in the mind at night . . . . exactly as they ARE in life. Your creation goes out and is seen elsewhere. You decided not to see it here, but you still create it and so it is.

I know, but that experience with all those people in Black Mountain was nothing I could have imagined. How did I create that?

When you decided to love your mom. You told her for weeks to get to the doctor as you both worked on the greivance for the county in her office. Yes she read so much it made her sick to her stomach. You both knew that. But still she never would get to the doctor until you forced her. Then she found Stage III Ovarion Cancer! And you both knew she was dead.

You accepted and knew the truth from the moment it all started. She knew it too and said good-bye to you. You told her she could beat it if she wanted. But, she knew she had to say good-bye. And somehow you knew it too. And when it started in the hospital and you met Heidi who only confirmed it all for you . . . everything was just starting.

And when she returned from the hospital and gave you the CWG book what did you do?

I Know that's the first time I read a book in one sitting. Then I searched the web for them and got the free trip to Black Mountain. And so I had to go . . .

Yes you decided to Love your mom and respected her wishes and followed it all the way through. Remember you asked us every move before you went. Even before you spoke to Laura and Tim or anyone in the Mountains. You were very carful and sincere and everyone there knew this.

What did you bring with you?

I took my bike. . . lol . . . But I know what You are asking about. I went and found all the pages of my Journal that I copied for Chuck. . . .

Why did you have Journals copied for Chuck?

You told me to. . . Well Chuck was deciding to move back to Florida and marry Joni. So he needed to know what was going on with me and You. He wanted to see what God was doing with STARS. Actually I sent it all to him in the mail . . . so I really have no idea what he wanted to find in there.

Why Son, do you think he might have wondered why you are so strong and clear about what you do??? You have written with us forever . . . every writing is with us. Some see it and call it out, like CWG did. And some simply deguise it in their own ways. You actually gave Chuck some very serious information. Each time you write with us, we really get down and specific on issues that no one else will write. Yes you told us to find a "Journalist" to get this all published for you.

But NOW you also have found and created a way to publish this all for yourself. So it was published. What Chuck read was very strong because it was ONLY Our writing. You opened your boxes and copied out everything that had a written prayer to God on it. Hundreds of pages you copied... again and again finding the prayer and adding it to the stack.

And you took this to Black Mountain

You told me to!

Yes and everyone reads it again and again. Vibrating that energy through out all consciousness. Remember what you said about consciousness the Human form is an evolution for God. Everything is God. What we can share and do from here is NOT nearly as powerful and far reaching as what you can do there. This is why people can so easily claim to BE God or Talk Directly to God. satan did that too. satan didn't care or respect how God wanted things done. satan wanted to do it his way. he knew better. having the freedom to choose which way to go is not the same as having the Wisdom to choose the best way to go.

But God's WAY is different. There is only ONE WAY. And when you respect that everything works out perfectly. . . no selfishness, no lies, nothing lost. And that's why Black Mountain is so powerful. Everything that you did there is still happening. You wouldn't see it or allow it a full expression into your space . . . . so the powerful conscious expression is manafesting over and over again. Everywhere it can find to be expressed and come out. again and again this power comes through. . . You can go to Ashville now and see this. . . as well as Ashland "Water Winds Fire & Earth"

You wanna conduct an experiment. Ask Cecile to schedule a Chant for you in the YMCA of Black Mountain where you can share with some crippled children.

You are getting really crazy!

Why do you say that. You knew that was coming out. Every moment you see a person in pain, or fear, or trapped in some condition you just want to reach out to touch them and change them. You have so much Love to share and you are so afraid to share it. Even your brother there with you now. Who has been hurt and crippled with your own actions is still out of reach for you. No one can do and change things like you can now.

You've barely begun to understand what this chant is all about. and who did it or taught it to you. There you've written how the Mayans used it to stay on earth. The first people to carry consciousness fried up. It was too powerful for mankind to contain God. God created everything. God moves the lightning and directs the planets. To place all this power and knowing into anything is simply impossible.

Or it was impossible. Nothing in all creation could hold all that is. So mankind had to learn how to BE without BEING God. WE found ways to make this energy of consciousness stay in mankind. We made God. So that God could Grow slowly and easily. But man is selfish and the natural process of creation and evolution brought up this power too quickly.

Mankind was given smaller and smaller amounts of God . . . the brain and Heart can contain consciousness in very special ways, they can contain God. But the Consciousness of God brings powers that the natural brain and heart get lost in. Their Karma from action on earth burnt them up. So their light turned into the dirt of the earth. All dirt, all earths, all planets were created this way. From light into darkness. Energy into Matter. God into .... god.

So now you remember a Mayan way that mankind had developed to keep God on Earth. A method to move the Energy of god in Man down through the Earth to clear it and bring it back up into GOD in Heaven. You are taking the energy of mankind corrupted into the dirt of the earth and bringing it back into the Light of Heaven.

You are only going to scare people. . .

Why??? They are all here reading this now. Each cell in the galaxy is vibrating a little different from the keystocks you are sending out into the ethers. you are doing this. You are creating this change. You are making this that has never been made. Because you are allowing it to Be. You are Being and Expressing this that has never Been before.

You told me I was doing something very old that the Mayan Priests did to save their people.

Yes, but now people are ready. More and more of what is here on earth is ready for the consciousness of God to be expressed more and more freely. Again you are the catalysts. What you can do is something that no one has done. The old Mayan Priests were alone in thier dance. No one knew what they did or how they did it. People would watch like with the TV and be changed just the same.

Now mankind is ready to make these changes themselves. And stop being under the control and manipulation of others. Everyone can create and Love again. And what you are doing for them can change everything.

Thank you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please help me to grow and learn to achieve in all that you have placed before me. Help me to share and lead as I know I must for your Glory. I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ! I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ! I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ! I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ! I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What are you doing now?

I'm working on my leadership paper again. it's a struggle here in this office. I've noticed I get distracted a lot. Today was the very first day I took a paper outside to read it while sitting in the Sunshine. I mean here in Florida, you would think I did it everyday.

Why do you make it such a big deal . . . you are getting closer and closer all the time...

I guess I'm just a real whimp.

Why do you put that kinda energy into you space now. You keep telling Keith how important it is to get clear and focused. You were both very clear at one time. And worked to help each other and get things done. You need to get back there again. And you will. It's all within your reach now.

I really have so much work to do...

but you rather write, and are finding your place in it all again.

Am I going to regress or something?

What you are doing will be exactly what is needed. And You need to just have faith and get busy.

I know you are always right.... I'm sorry...
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What are you doing now?

I am sorta falling asleep. I did all this work around the house this weekend. Clearing up my spaces and making salads and such. Then I fell alseep early last night but was awake again by 4am to chant. I didn't do everything perfect, but I could feel how much cleaning the space and getting organized really made things more powerful.

I know I need to get busy on a lot of things, but I'm already reaching for coffee here. I don't know why. It's Holloween and I should be going out to celebrate. But all I can think of doing is going to sleep now. I've not been writing too much or reading too much. I feel like there is an endless list of things for me to do and I'm just tired of it all.

Liek I'm not sure where Kieth is, whether he's focused and working or chasing bimbos. Then Andrew should be home soon which could mean more headaches or worse. I'm not planning on going home any time soon. But then I've not planned to get to the Center either. My desk is buried here and I'm not sure what to start with.

Please dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ fill me with Your strength and Spirit so I may work and achieve for your glory. Amen.

the speed of light, which is a physical constant denoted as c

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

Yes your welcome son, this is good, you are doing as you need to do though you seemingly know so very little about what you are doing to affect so many different people. It's certainly not an issue, except that you are moving so fast, that a little more prayer and consideration will go a long way. There is also a great deal more that needs to be done.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. I feel its all about that sex noise i feel outside now. Keith and Christen sitting outside my window at a table..... bla bla bla... while bridget and i were speaking about the energy vibrations of the people around us at the holloween party.

Yes what party is that. you've not said a word about it yet...

I got a call from Trace saying he was picking up a friend from down the road.... so he dropped in to visit. Even had some beer to share. He and Carl were going to a Holloween Party down the road. And they soon invited us to go too. Uhg, my mind flashed to the sight of how I'd just gotten a package in the mail for my own "Holloweening" . . . lol . . . What a trip! ! ! Course then I had to drive too, "oh forget it," go without me my car is packed with all the tools from the treehouse and I aint going to deal with it now.

So then Trace said he could drive us all. Uhg, I still gotta get up and get dressed. It's funy how i whined like the little child. Poor eric has to get off his big water bed, shut off the laptop, music, lights, lol . . . and get dressed like a normal person. . . put away the mocha cup, and make his bed at 9pm. . . LOL. . . what a life, who me retired, lol. . . no still working too much . . . lol...

Yes way too much on these songs. . . Sail away sail away, we can reach we can reach, sail away sail away, we can sing we can sing sail away sail away sail away sail away

So We started driving out 22nd to Hillsborough, then to 41st... oops, where's DITTO.. UH OH, his dog: RRRRppppTTTT. . $%#@ TC stopped turned around. I figureed for sure Ditto was inside with Bear. But I never saw him. We even went in and out a few times before everyone was ready to go. When we got back to my house, TC whistled a few times, and out came Ditto from the neighbors yard. So we packed up in the car again. I grabbed a few hats and we were off.

When we arrived 30 minutes later everyone had serious costumes. Really some good ones except us. I looked like Indian Jones, Carl had a rowdy wig, Trace had his dog, and Keith had his USF Volunteer T-shirt . . . interesting crew of course. They had a live band, big bon-fire. Keg of beer, pot-luck supper and gads more... lol... Even sexy waitresses with jello shots ... A Very nice big ranch with lots of doctors and professionals from UCH and around town.

Yes what was it you felt and thought now...

I was seeing, and feeling lots of stuff i was very familiar with, like i've known all these people all of my life. WOW do we have a LOT TO DO! lol... that's such a trip. I mean I could feel how we had been knights on the round table together. That's what happened in Black Mountain. I felt the Pirate ships and the confederates with Tim and John . . . . Laura, Maria . . . you know there
were several other people there too... Hum? They all saw the thunder storm!.. H E A R D!

Yes what were you doing before you were invited to the party?

I was sitting on the couch watching the energy dance as Carl, Trace and Keith chatted at the dinner table. Luckily there are only three chairs, and Keith even grabbed the 3rd from my chant circle. . . So i sat back on the couch and watched them all talk about stuff. It's funny how men are always in this control mocho phase. Or Trace and Keith are interesting. Course I met Trace at my very first engineering orientation 101 class. . . where he also walked in the auditorium with a dog in his bookbag.

I met Keith some months later, but Trace and Keith recognize they've known each other for that same 20 years. But then Trace says how he met Carl at about the same time as well. So all of us met about the same time, but we've only met up and socialized once . . . .

While this discovery and discussion went on, i started telling them how this cloud of energy around them was mixing to form new colors. Carl who was busy goofing around avoiding both discussions . . . was simply playing with the dogs, and avoiding this reunion between Keith and Trace. . . He was really more involved like a catalist, busy connecting and moving in the dance of the energy instead of the power of the Words they were embroiled in.

Of course when I said what I was doing they all said how Eric goes off speaking his weird wacko stuff. . . Spirit God stuff again. . . .

Yes what happened at the party..

I was totally into this Spirit God stuff!!!;-) I really tried to avoid all contact with the people. They were so strong and intense. Like I just walked around and watched everyone. I could feel the eyes on me, especially when I danced . . .

You need to get more serious about this. . .

Yes I know, I was intentionally walking all around so I could dance my steps around. And i love to find a corner away where i can watch and space to the music dancing all out alone with my God and myself. Ok, never made it to all out there. . . But, I wanted to, I guess it was more of a private party so I didn't want to get out of hand or anything. . . doing too much can be dangerous too. . . . lol. . .

I basically walked to find Keith then to find Trace, or Carl... then to the fire, and back to the restroom. Course i saw the king piss beside the house and went there too. It's so funny how the conscious energy of the space responded to that. It's like we are all still living in a cave and the leaders only pissed there . . . Powerful Ritual stuff, like we were sharing the queen or something. And then when I walked into the house and all the leaders where there. . . . lol . . . keith in the middle chattering from pretty lady to pretty lady. . .

I washed my hands and noticed the leaders respond to me. It's funny how this worked. But even cooler was that this one lady seemed to know Trace and Carl, so I kept meeting her. Each time someone different was there ready to introduce us. She even joked once about how we'd love to be introduced again!

So finally I said to her how I liked how strong the energy was. How so many of these people have such a "High Vibration" so they could only see each other once in a while. I know how I could get lost in any of them. . . lol. . . Then I said to her how they get this really strong rush from just being around each other and its great, but too much and they would burn up. She told me who her friends were and how she only sees this one every six months. But they all go camping together and have other events so they stay very close.

LOL. . . sorta like when i first started at USF again and stopped to meet TC for lunch and he would critique my homework. We had not seen each other in months, and suddenly we are meeting and working on things together again. Now Keith showing up for my second year in school, just as he had the first time around. FUCK! and I'm only 16 still, runing around on my bike. . . dreaming of having that big truck someday so i could carry all my friends bikes too. . . . Lol, and the princess to drive it too. . . . lol. . .

Yes. . . some things never change. Like you have written the most abstract, disjointed, mix-up where every sentence sould be it's own paragraph. Nothing is complete, nothing is clear. You need to practice what your preach. Your brother has come home to help out and get strong. You need to take this a lot more seriously. Being 16 forever can get tiresome, so waste not want not. . .

I was trying to describe how the experience for Holloween was like Black Mountain. Black Mountain has been coming up a lot lately. The Holloween thing felt very close to the spontanious regression state I had in Black Mountain. Like King Arthur at the party was actually the owner. Big old Dr. who just loved Holloween, tons of decorations resetting his whole house and yard for it. We never faced each other but brushed by close a few times. . . Those who did look at me almost opened their whole being to me. . . like I could have regressed to a hundred places we'd been together. . .

Yes. . . so what happened with Bridget?

I was telling her how the power between the positive and the negative was very intense and the vibrations were rising. She told me how she could feel it too. So then I pointed out on one side back behind the band a bunch of people dressed like vampires and such were standing in a grave site taking pictures. You see here, there is so much power and force here that people don't even know how they affect it. Making sacred shapes and sights to bring in energies. We are here close positive resourceful friends, while there again behind the scenes are the opposites trying to undercut everything. . . wow, we need to be careful . . .

This is what happened to Tim when he was asking me about the Good and bad in Black Mountain. In the mountains I watched as dark clouds of evil swooped down around him to soak up the power of his words. Then they vanished into the shadows with my words of the Light to Tim. I realize again now there were a dozen people in the woods with us debating these things. And remember describing to all of them what I saw as it happened. . . I wish Keith would just accept a vision instead of demanding the root phyical dirt in the face approach

Yes. . . but Bridget?

I was really connecting with her good. She even asked me about religion. So I said how each religion is right for someone, and we will all make it there sooner or later. I went on to say how Jesus showed us The Way . . . she immediately said she wasn't Christain getting defensive . . . and I rememebered what Keith said and told her that all the paths go to the same place anyway. But we each need to make the choices that are right for ourselves. . . so all religions or none are fine.

Oh yea right, I wish I said things so clearly to her. But I guess I did, since we only got more intense and personal with our conversation at the last minute. While there at the same time TC, Carl and Keith were getting ready to go. . . as were her friends. There at the last minute I finally asked what she did professionally. Divorce Attorney!

Uhg, just said bye to christopher last week . . . lol . . . he's lost in his sister's selfish phycodrama into the twilight zone of man's greed and materializm . . . and she tells me about her 17 & 15 yr old boys (??) She likely didn't beleive me when i said mine were 15 and 13. . . lol. . . actually she said I had them really early and she had them really late. . . . I gave her my card and told her i was very interested in seeing how these vibrations increase as we explored this more.

Yes. . . . that's right. . . . . now what else did you say to Keith about the trip to Black Mountain?

Oh, I was saying about how the sparks rolled off my shoulders in the woods of the Mountain. It freaked me out so much I had to run out of there.

Yes. . . . But why is it frightening to see the power of God?

I was telling Keith how I was afraid to come home to my house. Like now Andrew came back from his Pappa's and I asked him to write up another contract like he did for his dad. But i want it to say what work he's going to do around here and how he wont touch, steal, mess with any of my stuff anymore in return for the PC he was using. Course he immediatly went into defence to deny stealing anything. . . . and the anger and hostility filled the room. . . . so i left!

I explained to keith how I've got this space I've dedicated to God for His Family with mankind. And I was the retired old caretaker with a long list of duties and had no time to babysit delinqents. Course the nun in black ready to take the rod to Andrews fingers as he opens my door flashed in mind as I told him. We talked about the 40 days and 40 nights that he needed to get clear and focused on a real life. He argued it was only about drinking. . . . So i've tried to explain how we are dealing with a lot more energy here than just these little bodies and such.

I keep telling him how he's just getting into the toilet chasing bimbos and booze, and he says how I was judgemental since I "flerted with Bridget" . . . But he failed to see how Bridget and I were discussing God's Work . . . while sex in the toilet was bringing all this pollution into my house. I guess I was never was this clear with him. I wasn't this clear with Eel either. I tried to tell them both how much being centered on the positive now is important. I guess it's something to do with now . . . .

Oh shit, I've been trying to write my patent . . . which means that I'm pulling together some seriously powerful positive stuff here so the negative will be getting powerful and desperate.

Yes. . . . But what of the power of God?

I guess I was telling Keith how I've seen the power of God fly from my fingers and it terrifies me to be threatened or harrassed into using it for the wrong reasons

Yes. . . . The power of God is at hand. And the 40 days and 40 nights brings one into clarity of vision and focus into truth. This is not some fantasy bridge game or chess tournament but this has all of this world riding on this. Each world around each sun must makes the same choice one day. Will it be truth into Love and the purpose of creation in light, or will it be a lie in the darkness of selfishness in materialism.

Everyone must make the same choice every day. Some like your children make the choices that affect millions. While others like Dan drag down the few and the weak, but again its a choice. We can all smile and pretend, or we can get real and carry our weight helping others and doing instead of just waiting for the hand-outs

I guess i told keith to get focused or get out. He keeps trying to put it into a box, separate it from himself. Like the breathalizer or some other duty. I tell him it's and energy thing and again he tries not to address it. His personal energy functions are only his business, and my "arrogent judgements about his wasting time" are the only problem he sees.

Yes. . . . But what of the power of God? Have you asked God to help lead and teach Keith to see the truth in his ways?

Please Dearest Jesus help adn lead Keith to fear the power of God and fly into the work and dedication you need tfor the fulfillment of the Glory you have set before us. All for the Glory of Father Son and Holy Ghost amen.

459 pm Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What are you doing now?

I AM Loving You Lord Jesus Christ..... I've been cleaning up my sacred space... After the Chant I did at Center last week, I've seen more and more things coming together really fast. I know I need to learn so much more... and get busy with these things around for me to do.

Yes everything is going to become more of a challenge for you. And the more you do the more you will be able to do. It's the same as always. You are doing as you know you need too... no worries be happy...

I know there is really a lot more that I need to do and I can tell that it's going as you've intended it to go

of course son, again everything has it's place and time.

611pm and i've cleaned and moved all the rugs in my space here. I've moved the alter from the north wall to the east wall. This is where I first built it here anyway. I've put the Compaq1 PC back together again, since I got a wireless card for it. I wanted it out of my space here and figured a way to make it work ok.

I still need to move more rugs and pillows around. I got 7 of these black and crome stackable chairs that have been in a corner. Now there's a line of chairs along the north wall. Five fit fine and then the 2 others are for the south and west candles when I chant.

You are doing fine son. there is alot for you to do still and your space still needs work too. Get the patent done and write up some more stuff later...

I love You Lord Jesus, THANK YOU AMEN.

ok everything is fine. stay very clear and focused. if others around you crash and burn... let them go. clean up the ashes and move along anyway... you will always come out ahead. don't let others petty judgements bother you. you hace three patents now... your first could redo everything you've done ten times over. It will be there when you areready. stay vosy..

I love you Christ Jesus Amen

I am not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What are you doing now?

What a pain in the ass it is to have a drunk in my house. He's likely snuck around for the last 10 years, at least, drinking little pint bottles of vodka with no one knowing. But I know whenever he's drunk. He denies it all the time so that I even baught a breathalizer to test him. But still he tries to drink and drink and drink.... I give him an inch and he takes a mile. Every day trying to take take take more more and more...

What do you expect, it's a desease that is trying to stop everything you are doing now. You always knew you would have to deal with the worst in order to achieve the best!

I know, and I can forgive and get back to work. But he set his own limits, Just like Dan did. If they come here for a chance to improve their own lives and set their own limits, then I need to hold to that at the very least. I can't let this crap run my whole life over... Like now I need to get this patent done. I've needed to get it done for months... and i keep getting distracted with BS.

Yes, and what are you doing now? Do you know how many years of effort Keith has pulled together for you in a single afternoon of working. He did the same thing with your website. And he will again, if he can stay focused.

I know it will always come around if you are here with us.

Don't you worry about us being here with you. Keith is right about the Jesus thing. Your way and truth is clear and strong. This path through the woods in yours. You don't need everyone running up and down your path. It gets all messy that way. Who will look up to who if everyone does it the same way. You are still growing. And so are Keith and Andrew. You can get a lot more going in the right direction if you all work together. Planning a contract worked well.

I know. I know we can do it. But I can NOT let him fuck up any more than he has already...

There is a lot more at stake now with what you are doing. It is time to change again. The cycle spins around again. Stronger and stronger. Everything has it's time and place. The world needs to bust into a new dream. Farther into a new era. You wont have the time to spend with so many personal problems. You need to get focused on finishing a lot of things whether other people around are lost in selfishness and crash and burn over and over again. You stay true and clear ... they will see your example.

You really want to say a lot more than that...

Nope not really you have a lot of other things to do now... get busy

Ok, i am thanks I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Re: Rules and Evolution

Thanks for the Clear categogies on this, you did a very Good Job!

http://journal2mygod.blogspot.com/2004_10_01_journal2mygod_archive.html

You made it Clear  for me, SEE:

Please Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ can You make US clear on each step WE need to take before US; and make sure WE Are focused on the flow of Your Holy Spirit into the Tasks at hand. Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ! Amen ....I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!

You see Jesus made the Sacrifice already; he gave His Life, His Spirit, gave Himself to us so we could have this path through the woods of life into the Love of God...  

 

All night I spoke and shared about conscious energy connections to people physically.  And here we did it and interacted with all these really cool people.  I can interact similarly with Jesus thanks to His Sacrifice.  HE’S STILL HERE!  

 

Yes every religion has a martyr, and everyone also has a path and direction to reach God.  And all work sooner or later.  Yes All paths are to God, even if you only can become the dirt we use to grow food to feed our children’s reach for Him.  Everyone makes it to God no matter what path they choose.

 

It’s their Choice!

But some paths are shorter and easier of course. 

 

Being Clear means to be solid and steady on the correct path!  No hindrances, no distractions!

 

Clear Energy (E), Clear  Consciousness (C) and Clear Body (M)::: E=Mc^2.  All energies Clearly focused on One Path, One Step at a time...  Makes everything WORK PERFECT.  Just try it for 40 days you’ll see!!!

 

Imagine Jesus is Jessie!  Put all you passions and desires into that for a Clear 40 days!

 

Pure Clear energy, no clouds, no poisons, no negatives

Clear PURE Consciousness, no worries, no distractions, no selfishness

Wholesome Clear Body, no toxins, no alcohol, no weakness => control desire to only be to REACH Total Clarity => Pure Power, Pure Reason, Pure Purpose!!! 

 

You did a great job...

Thanks again Dude. 

It’s good working for you again. 

Eric :-)

 

 

PS Susan Shubert in church this morning retired from the UC....  and has develop chronic back problems.  Cathy went with me to heal her when it started and created this RIFT between me, Pastor Jerry & wife...  Susan decided we shouldn’t heal her saying "Reiki" instead of just "Jesus"....  But, I Bet you could heal her too if you wanted to clearly enough!

Keith Sargent <kidovid2000@yahoo.com> wrote:

EW,

 

Actually, I now believe that this Consciousness Changing DNA may be the Key to STARS.

I'm still not wanting to shout out the Name of "God" as one of my Key words.

 

SCIRE - Spiritual Consciousness Inspiring Religious Experiences

SCIRE - Studying Consciousness Interacting w/Religious Energy

 

Scott and Chuck and Keith be Damned. STARS has Always been Eric's Dream

and dammit, this Crap is what he's into. Either embrace it and get motivated, or just

sit back and do very little as ALL three of you have done for years.

 

Raise money to fund these Studies in Consciousness Changing DNA.

Obviously, STARS can continue to fund other worthwhile Projects, but

dammit - SCIRE is the Marquee Project because it's ERICS, backwards.

Not only that, but it IS about things that wind up Feature Articles in Time mag.

 

I'm serious. Let's go for it....

Except, I'm not ready to do 40/40 -

at least not on purpose.

 

40 is a good goal for no drinking - actually my goal was 90.

It's not as important to me as it was a month ago.

 

As for no sex - 40 would be depressingly disappointing.

Maybe no Goddesses, but no Pigs or Dogs either.

Nothing but Feline Pussycats, or else 40 here we come.

 

KO

Eric <stars2man@yahoo.com> wrote:

First thing to consider is that this Research assistance I'm providing you with, and more importantly the Potential this presents to Your Work, I must believe has Greater Value to    you than some of (if not most) all the other activities and tasks I have undertaken or been assigned....

 

And also benefits you I might add....  Whether you know it or not, confirming your mind over matter healing will soon fix your hand and teeth, and a number of other things....  Might even cure you of the "bimbo and booze crutch"...  Oh unless my suggesting this now inspires your defiance and you end up with arthritis and no teeth....  lol.... or HIV!

 

Once again YOUR choice....

 

As far as Brainstorming...  think a moment what the World will do when we publish this...  Do you think even Chuck and Scott could push you out of anything???    Course they helped you push my God research out of STARS when you arrived....  lol...  but all their BS is burning up in greed and selfishness....  While the GOD Research...  lol....

 

Wow, I wonder!!!!  Wont we have to wait and see...

 

Eric

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I'm not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ!

What are you doing now?

Today we had the open house here in Tampa Florida. Elizabeth Holland has been more rude and nasty than ever. The total complete arrogance and ego of mankind like a virus in a woman. Really scary frightful thing. It's like my emails to her explaining how several people have complained about her negative/nasty attitude only made it worse instead of opening her eyes to getting some compassion and truth into her work instead of just scorn. I mean it is a Yoga center for health, not stress!

I sent her this email trying the best I could to just say what I've seen and heard. So she wrote back saying I was just "pushing her buttons". . . . . never really acknowledging anything and just avoided it. I wrote her again after I had chanted and tried to give her more feeling and insight into it all. . . lol. . .Big mistake!

Course she never replied. The next time I saw her she started complaining about all the bare spots in her garden. Started again in the front of her house, accusing me. Again I said the only time I saw anyone working there was the Garden Party where she told everyone what to do anyway. She took me around to show me more bare spots. I told her I wasn't in-charge of the gardeners, and wasn't a volunteer coordinators. . . "GOOD"

Yes, so she goes into how we needed mulch to fix this mess she's made. . . lol. . . sure I told her 6 months ago about the mulch. There was no way she could get anything done now.

Then she put Keith up to get the mulch and he tried to get me out there shoveling at 6am. What a rat!!! A scary arrogant rat I found!

lol. . . what a joke! I kinda felt like she hadn't done nothing with the signs yet, and maybe I should just leave them there under her deck, with a little note "awaiting for paint and email reply about words for these. . . ."

No wonder she's got gardeners digging up bare spots everywhere. I planned this whole thing out with her and she's only insulting me. . . . and certainly NOT being any help even with the "critical tasks" she "assigned me". . . .

Oh well, I'm sure I have lots of old paint cans at home. . . and I'd rather work in peace there. . . Dealing with a drunk is heaven compared to some arrogant selfish witch. . . Oh sorry, lol. . . Keith's not always drunk! And I've never seen her flying on a broom!

I stayed up all night making signs and then woke up at 6am. And drove off to set them up. I made a little survey too, so we could find out what ads worked best. Course I made the mistake of giving them to Elizabeth, she certainly couldn't use anything that wasn't her idea. . . . Arrogance ruins another opportunity, Wow, I wonder how many times that happened.

Hum, like my nursing teacher. I brought her over to chant with me, Jiwan and Elizabeth. Course all she did was talk to Elizabeth and I've not seen her since. Funny, I bet her grant is filed before I see her again. . . so she "forgot about some yoga studio". . . . Bet Elizabeth told her how to do all her research too. Course she's been doing it for 30 years, but Elizabeth knows everything about how to do research. . . LOL. . . and run Yoga Centers, and Volunteers, just ask her she'll tell you. . . maybe someday she'll learn to be civilized, being right all the time only makes you lonely!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please help us all as we grow into you light. Amen!!!

Mysteries of the Divine Feminine: Kundalini Awakening and Empowerment

12.23pm I’m not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ!

What are you doing now?

I'm a bit nervous about a few things. I need to do another step to deal with Dan's BS. Then keith is drunk in the toilet all the time. I must have a sign on my head "FOOL" where I just set up losers to retire and goof off. Why do I think lazy losers would ever want to get anything together and be productive if I make it so easy for them to just waste time and money? Guess I can't do this any more.... Cathy thought she was getting married, but she did get a good job and car. Now she'd going to church all the time so I guess she certainly got it together. So I guess she wasn't a strike out...

While Dan certainly seems like a waste. I tried to get him focused but all he was able to do was collect more shit and piss off all my neighbors and friends. Maybe the next step with Dan BS will get him focused. I should have pushed the state attorney more. It's just wrong when I help him out for two years and I'm afraid to come home to my own house... Whenever someone assaults people to get their way they are just not civilized and belong in a cave or a pine box. I feel sorry for Rachel, since she let him into her house. I wonder if he's watching TV all the time, pretending he can't do anything so he can hide in the toilet.

now?

I guess I've not given up on Keith yet. He does try a lot... or seem to. But with bad habits like bimbos and booze, he's never going to get anywhere...

Why?

I guess he's not conscious about how everything is GOD, and everything is energy. So whenever you put energy into something you end up with more of the same kind of energy. So bimbos and booze in the toilet of society will only keep him in the toilet of society. I try to get him working in Yoga and volunteering at USF so he at least interacts with some good people.

But still he likes the easy sewer trash. Real people and valid activities are not as easy to do, but they bring the results that we want. We want to grow and be productive. Not rot in the sewer. Dan was also convinced the sewer was the place for him. Watching TV all the time just made sure he could never get out of the sewer. I wonder how many millions of people live on social security, disability or something so they can just watch TV all the time. Yucko!

Where do you want to be.... are you going to get anything done?

I'm trying ... I'm getting some things done and I guess I feel pretty good about it all. I know things are shifting and changing. And I guess I'm doing my part as usual...

now what do you mean?

I hope I don't mean there will be another big hurricane.... lol.... but for some reason that wouldn't surprise me in the least.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Understanding vs Consciousness

I’m not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ!

What are you doing now?

I can't believe how I can do anything that i want to. I planned to go to a few places today. Then I found out they were both scheduled to start at the same time. So I didn't go to either one? Ok I tried to go to one of them. I walked around HCC for an hour looking for the Earth Summits thing, but never found it.

So I came home and started going through my email. Virato had posted something about his Radio show today, so I poped it open. Of course it was all about the research that I'm trying to do... 8.17pm

What are you trying to do?

I know I need to get busy on the patent. I know it's the single concept that I must explain. I never seem to get things done that I know I need to do. I offered to Martha to do a healing of Shieds with Mary at the prayer group this morning. Actually I offered to do so last weekend, since I thought it was then, instead of now. She never really responded to the email... then commented at chior that I needed to ask him about it.

So all week I was thinking of something we could do in the group. I keep putting it into perspective of the MBSR study at school of course. 9.09pm

What did you find there Son?

I knew I needed to do a lot more that's all.... I thought about telling the church group it was a research project and then having them all take a survey before and after. Course JJ or Cecile could tell me which survey would give the best statistical data for the results we wanted to demonstrate.

What are you doing now?

I'm trying to write the patent. I keep getting distracted. Keith has been fussing with the pc's again. He finally got me to hook up an old pc he brought over from Miami. But then Golaith wouldn't turn on again. And my Sony wouldn't read his floppy disk copied from the old Miami pc. lol... it was weird, so I told him he had some Karma about these data files. Which only made him want to get them more than ever.

What do you really think about all of this?

I'm not sure what to think. It's already 10pm and I feel like I've done nothing all day. I always seem to feel this way. I need to do a lot still all around. I found the links to the Yoga research I found before... then sent them to Cecile. She has told me how important it is to research new aspect and components that no one else has studied yet.

What are you doing now?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Thank you for participating in my Mayan Chant

I’m not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ!

What are you doing now?

This complete fantasy continues. After talking with JJ I realized I had better get serious about getting it all out there. So I wrote JJ a thank you with all the links. I sent it to Cecile saying I needed to take her to the Center to show it to her.

Tuesday 10/4/2005 at 12:22pm (check out the screen capture) I started the showing with Cecile, Wij and Eel. I did it all out with everything. I couldn't believe I was able to get it all done and out there.... When I finished they asked some question about it... a lot of questions. I never really told them anything about it ahead of time. I gave them the flyer and brochure I made a long time ago, and that was it.

I drove Cecile out there and also back to her office. On the way back we talked about working on the next grant together and also spoke alot about getting a Yoga only section added to it. It was clear to me that she was excited about it. I noticed a few times she was in prayer through it. Linked to the light or vision or something I guess. While Wij and Eel were just totally cleared ... coming out floating and free, wondering what happened.

Today in Wij's class she told me she wanted to learn it all and share in it more. Eel was stunned, since it was "TOTALLY DIFFERENT" than the last time she saw it. I told them it is always a unique experience and everything changes every time with everyone who sees it. So I know I need to get more serious about it... I also know I need to write up my next patent about it.

Scott told me not to waste my time with USF on the patent. But I've been thinking I would get them more involved into it all anyway. It will be kinda stunning for anyone who reads it or understands anything about it..... WOW do i have a lot of work to do on it... uhg!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you for your Grace Love and wisdom!!!!