Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! GoodWhat's up?
I'm really beat, tired and such . . . and I still have a lot to do with this river model due tomorrow. I didn't think I would make it until Monday, but now I'm not even sure of that. It's kinda spinning my head a bit, and I can't wait until it is done.What do you need?
I guess I need to pray for some help and guidance with this...What else?
with my meetings tomorrow
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
Flight School is right. Too much happening too fast. I still have so much to do on a bunch of things, and I'm just tired.Why?
I guess I'm really not sure. There always seems like too much to do and never enough time or interest. It's funny, this kinda goes in spurts. Sometimes I'm totally charged and doing everything, while other times, I'm totally bored with life and can't do anything. I was up late last night working on this paper for John and felt like I still had a ton to do, but then also felt good about getting things done.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!What do you think about this one?
I guess I sorta instigated it a bit. But when I think about it I instigated a lot of things here. I remember when Newkome first asked me about what kinda deal USF should make faculty. I told him 50% would be the least that I would accept no matter how much they invested into it. Course he asked about the labs and we agreed to give 10% to the lab off the top and then split the rest. Now USF offers 45% of Patents to faculty, which is really one of the highest, if not THE HIGHEST in this county, and likely the world. It's funny how I told Scott the same deal, which only resulted in this big knife in my back.
Does USF do this too?Well years after my first conversation with Newkome he spoke to Dr. Gross and helped start Utek which sponsors this discussion list linked above, and is now one of the biggest tech transfer firms internationally.
What do you feel?I'm not sure. When I first heard Dr. Gross tell his story I wanted to shoot Newkome for getting someone else to do what I told him to do with me. Feels like a bigger knife than Scott had. Course when I found Newkome's proposal on file in DSR for the foundation that was nearly a reprint of what we prepared for stars I was totally disgusted with the whole place. Now I guess I realize it is all about the American Machine. The greed and control that is programmed into all these people is really nothing they can control anyway. They all simply don't know any better.
What do you feel about the list though?I guess when I saw Valerie's response I really wanted to YELL! 20 years I've tried to get their help. They told me I couldn't do it, so I incorporated the 501c3 anyway and sparked thousands of reproductions. Then they said that I couldn't Patent anything. So I patented it all myself. They said it would never work so now I'm meeting with the city again and again on my own. The land is ready and everything else is falling together like some magical dream!
But What do you feel about Valerie?I gave her one of my patents to update and she only let it expire. Then she ignored everything I told her about the phosphates until Big Pharma noticed it. Suddenly she was interested and anxious to make it all happen. Sadly it's lost in greed and control now I'm sure, with little results or any real public benefit at all.
What did you want to tell Riley?I'm not sure. He seems very conscious and connected to the crazy psycho-drama that is the Machine controlling the creative impulses in our schools. Each university has their own fiefdom of greed and control. That's the only thing they know or understand. Like I saw a truthout article about Voting Machine Fraud . . . Course that's exactly why they made these machines, so the fraud was built in and worked easier for them.
What is your point here?I guess it's the American Machine for greed and control is getting out of hand. I'm not sure if that means it's about to blow or simply break down some more.
What do you think that means about Riley and Valerie?I'm not sure, but since you ask, I guess that I need to get more conscious about the impact I have or can have over these things. it's my place to stir things up and I guess this is an issue I need to address more. Certainly it's easy and arrogant to complain about the greed and control in the system . . . But it's also important to make it an opening to get out the truth about things too.
What could that mean for you? Have you thought about that, or dreamed about where you can go there?I'm not sure. Again I know that there is a lot of power and focus in everything that I do. And making the right statements and carefully planning out things is important. But I also know the spontaneous insight and love that you bring and share is very important too.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!What do you feel?
I'm WIRED again. Everything is falling together like magic again. It's really intense and kinda cool. I've got this list a mile long and every moment it is getting longer. I'm getting more conscious and direct about my creations and insight into them. It's really kinda Awesome. Like Sunday DJ asked me to share my chant. It hadn't changed for her at all . . . while everything exploded all around for me. Monday I made the model submittal with FEES, Tuesday I started the Riverwalk deal with Emerge, Wednesday I get the go-ahead on my Mayan Research at USF.What do You FEEL?
I guess totally thrilled or amazed is exaggerated a bit, as it really shouldn't surprise me, as everything always happens at once. I always knew it would and am kinda ready for it. Like on Sunday I was running around trying to get ready while their physchic fair was going and the place got packed with people . . . that always happens anytime I get wired and excited in public; people come out of the woodwork magnetized to me. Then a few ladies who planned to attend my demonstration were reading Laura's book. Found out they loved her work and wanted to invite her in to speak. Who Laura Love, wow she needs to visit again!! ;-)
Of course Laura is connected, now all I need is a call from Chuck or Claire . . . lol . . .
Course John and Michelle are rocking too. She's all over the work we set out for her, while he's giving me more insight and power all the time. The Book chapter he wrote came out and the Book was edited by Dr. Nord so I know Michele will read it too. She took care of Nord's house while he went to the AOM conference. Course John went too, as well as most of the department teachers. John was invited to London and New Zealand to teach and got a few other offers as well.
He's just laughing about it of course . . . While Michelle seems perplexed. But she read and edited my paper a bit too. I can see it threw her off a bit, too much energy at once I'm sure. While she's read the water-crystal books I got for John and I to read. It's really just too funny how this all comes toegether.Why do you question son? It is all as you are creating, what did Dr. Fernandez do?
I had a meeting with some of his staff and they told me what I needed to do to get into the research right now. Both were ready to help me and wanted to see how we could make it all work out. So I need to really jump on all this stuff as I see it before my eyes. It really makes me nervous about getting too much going again . . .What do you feel?
I guess I really feel like I'm ready. Like with the FEES model, I just decided that I would have it done and set the way I wanted it in time for permitting as I promised. It's really funny how I just know it is so and don't consider or worry about it in the least. And I've seen similar results and attitudes in other things that I'm doing like the Sunday thingy.What do you feel about what you are reading?
I guess the Kabbalah is saying about the highest forms of consciousness and divinity are really what I'm doing now. I mean even after the Chant Sunday I went to Pam's to swim and we chatted all night. I told her how I thought I needed to get some ego back so I could connect and communicate with people again. She told me NEVER! Like that would cause more harm than help. Connecting with the ego and greed in people again would be totally contrary to who I am anyway, so I was better off just holding to what I DO.What does that feel like?
I guess I was kinda relieved a bit. Not that ego is any big deal . . . . lol . . . . I always feel like I need to be pushing so much more. What you need to be pushing is not really ego, it's more the passion and desires of your heart. Remember what you were telling Cathy tonight. Placing it into God's hands means releasing it, not putting a face or an expectation onto it too.
I know but when there are people around me and things I see and like, I can't help put faces together and think about things like that.That is the lessons and the learning that you are going through now. These are all challenges for you. They are big complicated things that you can make happen and create. You know how to do this, it is really easy for you. Nothing here is any surprise for you. It's going to get easier and easier with the more that you do.
I know I need to just trust it and follow these steps before me as I make all these things happen.What it is all about is very simple and direct for you. Trust it all and make it happen. No fear, just time and ease. Trust it all in love and what else did you see and feel today?
I guess I went to the UC to deposit a check and saw a little princess. Then I realized I had to get serious about that too. Just need to go visit and chat with people that inspire me!
THANK YOU Dearest Jesus Christ, Please continue to fill me with your Strength and wisdom to Fulfill your Glory for Father Son and Holy Ghost . . . . amen!
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!What do you think?
I guess I know that too much is happening. I try to help and get people together and working on these things, but I can barely keep up with everything. It's really kinda weird.What happened with your research paper?
I guess it's coming along really good, and I'm happy with it, except John keeps asking me to do more and more with it. I'm not sure I can get it all done the way he wants. but I guess he's pushing me to do more which is really better for me anyway.What do you feel?
I guess I know he's trying to get me set up for making it into a PhD project. Which is really where I want it to got too.What about the med school?
I guess I meeting them on Wednesday. And last night DJ had me chant for a group at her church. I wanted it to be intimate and specific for her and a few people who had seen it before. Magically Pam showed up back from her trip early just to surprise us. But DJ invited some other people who I didn't know which set me off a little funny. They clearly had no concept or insight into being there at all. It was kinda weird. DJ left with the same feeling she had last time, like what's this all about?
Pam thought it was perfect, that things came out exactly as they needed to. Those who missed it, shouldn't have been there anyway. While Beth felt I needed to get more specific on the teaching and explaining it all. Of course I agreed with both of them. So DJ wants me to start a class in September. While I want to chant there Sunday morning and Pam is ready to join me, and Beth, Lou and Doug likely will too, as they were all there yesterday too.What do you think this will mean to you Med School people?
I'm not sure. They are interested in making this into a research project for the college. And I can take whatever class they want me to and do it there myself too. They might all come to Harmony to see and share with me now? Wow, I didn't think about that. How they will want to know more about it and I can simply invite them over and let them see for themselves. I'm not sure what John sill think. But what I love is how John is more on the big picture side, with how the theory and conceptions fit into the evolution of the science and consciousness of our culture. Then the Med School is more about the applied here and now.What else happened last night?
I finished chanting and stayed around to chat with DJ a bit. Then when I drove home I called Beth and Pam as I passed their homes going home. Pam called me back a bit later to invite me over to swim and such. So we got to talking a lot more about the Big Picture stuff. I told her she needed to read my research paper. She laughed saying she was no editor. Course she seems to know and understand a lot more about what was there than anyone.
We really had a good time, chatting and goofing around all night. Talking about more and more we could do and share. Full day today, I need to go to FEES and get my bike and get busy on the model calibration and finish John's Paper... UGH
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please FILL me with your Love and Light to fulfill your Glory! Amen!
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!What now?
I'm trying to finish this paper for JohnWhat's holding you up?
I guess I'm trying to figure out what or how to get this all out.What it is now, is the place you need to get serious about who you are. What is the deepest point about this that you are trying to make? You are comfortable and free to write and do whatever you need now. So what's stopping you?
I don't know. It's about the heart and love that I need to write. The paradigm of truth and freedom, versus fear and competition. One is the win-win we need while the other is for losers. And I know I can get this all out and clear. But it's not easy or clear for me.What you need to do is what you are doing now. You are flowing in the truth without judgment or expectation. Everything you do got you ready for now. Each time you do something this now gets easier and better for you. Trust it for yourself.
I'm nervous.Of course you are, That's human nature. Remember it's the edge that keeps you on the tight rope. Without it you would fall, now you are teetering as usual, and that gives you the strength you need to make this next move.
I know it's all about the love and truth I've shared with you!What are you writing here for?
I know I know... I've got to get started and make some sense with you or with myself first.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You for your Grace, Love and Wisdom! Amen.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!What now?
I'm getting more comfortable all the time. Friday I had this incredible meeting with some company executives that could very easily see and understand things that I'm doing. I never said too much to them, but now I've given them links to more for them to explore.
Then yesterday I went out and checked the outfall weir for the Stonelake Ranch models. I drew it up this morning and have the models running now. I'm actually laying on my bed now reading and writing all kinds of things.What about this morning?
I spoke to DJ a bit and told her how critical it was that we got things started really soon since things are just going to get worse. I tried to explain how the old Indians who kept the energy moving are all gone now. And there is not enough people who know and clear things for the Earth to continue. She knew we had to get started. I told her we better hurry before things got faster and faster. She said how she could barely keep up now, and I told her it's just starting and everything will get faster and faster now.
We both knew this already and she was not surprised and said she would get back with me soon. Even promised an email today about their web-server and all.Who else did you meet?
I guess Indi who sits infront of me is a network administrator for a company that she's getting bored with. She's a healer in the church and has always been sitting right in front of me, and we've finally met now. I want to get her help of course, and she wants to get out of the yucko job she's in. Course I can't count how many people I've helped in similar situations and she also could work with TC, Tim and Dan . . . while I've still not been able to get them all together.Whatelse do you need to do?
I'm still trying to finished this paper for John. Every time I Chant I get more insights for it, and every time I open the file I add more to it. I hope I can get it done soon. It's been a long run, and I need to get it done soon.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!Why?
I guess it's never too much. It was kinda cool today. I went and met the people running this company in Tampa. They wanted me to start getting more business for them. Course I can do that in my sleep. I wanted to run the whole water resource system for their company globally . . . so I could start fixing the water problems in South America.Why didn't you say that.
Good point, I guess I could write them a letter again. Wow you are not kidding are you?What do you think? You said to DJ how you better hurry or it's going to happen faster and faster. What you are doing in chanting is creating this buffer. You are moving the energy through faster so it wont blow out in other places. Haven't you noticed this?
I really can just keep up with what I have at hand now myself. lol... trying to figure if the storms are stronger with the chant or without it is really not my forte.What it is includes what you think and feel while chanting. As you can see, and have said yesterday. When you focus this energy on things for yourself very personal things happen. This is who you are, what you need and want.
I know that's where everyone gets lost wanting more and more all the time, and never being satisfied.What you have learned now is to be satisfied with less. You are still entitled to met needs and personal expression and satisfaction.
I have you don't I.... I really don't need anything else.This is what you are learning and getting better at. It's ok to have needs too. Just like loving someone is ok for you too. It actually is a lot better for you, as long as you are not lost in it.
I guess I get lost too easily.That is a choice, that you create and accept every moment.
I know there are countless choices I can take or leave every day. It's fun, and busy. I also know that You are always with me and I can keep that truth in my heart to make the choices that meet with Your Will.What you need to remember is that your own personal needs are necessary as well, since your safety, happiness and functioning can always add to Ours. Your expression and truth is as critical as anything we could do.
I love you Dear Jesus!We know, that is what you do and express in your choices and actions. You have been listening more and more. You are making it a habit to listen and follow . . . You will find things coming together more than ever as you are able to simply make things happen.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please fill me with your Spirit, Word and Strength! Amen.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 1.48am 11/11/06What did you do now?
I just ended an hour of hot Epsom Salt-water bath. Wow, I had gone to bed before 8pm. Woke up to chant by 11.11pm, then finished chanting by 12.12am when I walked back in. The numbers on the clock freaked me, so I asked outloud about "What Now Jesus." BATH!
The Chant was so powerful, very intense and personal. Last night I had put all the power into my own personal visions allowing my heart and mind to race into fantasies after the Emerge meeting and discussions with John and Michelle. Making long lists of ideas and to-do's.
The whole day was a de-ja-vu sharing ideas from my lists. I was on edge every moment and totally wired about the energy and experience. I let everything flow in the Love of God. No judgments no questions, but only free experience. So when I got home I knew I would be up again chanting, so I went right to bed. So this time when I chanted, I poured the energy more into . . . . Wow, into YOU!
Ugh. Into ME! There is only One life here!
It's my life, and it's also Your life and God's Life! Which we can share in and enjoy, or we can judge and suffer. It aint no more than that.
Wow, so my day of JOY went into the Thursday Group! Wow! So I wanted to spill the beans again . . . lol . . . and they asked me to again and again. Someone was missing! LOL . . . Course then I realized I couldn't tell them unless I could get the tape . . . . LOL!
We started to talk about friendships. So I immediately flashed into a ramble about the awesome experiences I had getting new things started for school. Complete freedom, open, clear and expressive, sharing truth and everything is an opportunity to share and grow with. No expectations, no desires just Joy and Fulfillment . . . lol . . . Awesome time with friends!
BUT, they all said how friends aren't anything without expectations. It's all about meeting needs and having shared expectations. It was the classic greed mentality from the media of the American Machine . . . Oh so of course they are RIGHT, so I wont say anything more at all. . . just sitting listening all alone and dejected for the next hour.
It was almost offensive how everyone repeated and rationalized about friends only exist because of expectations. Supporting each other saying over and over how it's normal that we all expect things from friends. That's what friends are. Like a "friend" is expected to spend time meeting with you. Or a "friend" is expected to spend time to talk with you. Or a friend needs to show up for planned events and such . . . No friendship existed without expectations . . .
Eekk, I thought how anyone who is civilized will showup and talk, how is expecting civil action anything unique for a friend, while Joy and Fun is not? It was like the blissful joy I shared and experienced all day was a LIE! Nothing possible without "expectations" . . .
Wow, some knew insight. Listening to the lost program about control and judgements of expectations . . . So that's the Matrix!!!! The lost psychodrama of the American Dream . . . . lol . . . Nightmare! Trying to control and fit everything into a box! yucko . . . lol. . . Not for me!
oppss. Then at the end, they came back to me . . . lol . . . What did Eric mean when he said a "normal expectation is imposing?" Was he trying to say 'expectations are wrong?' Why does he use negative words to describe something we all say is normal. Like forcing me to explain what I meant in the last 5 minutes after I took the first 5 minutes and it was all shit inbetween. . . lol . . . a big shit sadnwitch. lol. . . uh oh, laughing about stuff that hurts again... lol...
Wow, they really had NO CLUE what I was saying. Like all trapped in the program, lost in a little black box. Oh, he's just saying "understanding instead of expecting" while these words just mean the same thing...
WHAT?
Understanding Friends is respecting them. Respect is a truth and understanding, not an expectation . . . It's there or not, the light is on or off. There is truth in shared understanding = a friendship or there is nothing. You have trust and respect for each other, OR you have judgment and expectations. One is a friendship, the other is . . . lol. . . Well if that's where you are at, so be it.
I really tried to be polite and not say any judgment about what a friend is or not. It was really weird too, referring to my friends and family as examples. Like what if TC never answered the phone for a spontaneous lunch? "Never getting the expectation you have. . ." lol. . . But that's what friendship is, love and understanding, where I accept he's out of town or busy. I know he'll answer when he can. . . I understand it, so don't need some meaningless momentary fulfillment of a selfish imposing expectation. . . I can call tomorrow or I can have a spontaneous lunch with another friend. . . lol. . . I don't need any expectations, nor do I want one.
We both referred to mothers, too. I was talking about Joyce, my second mom. . . . lol. . . Since like Mothers are the ultimate in Love and Friendship for me, having my own super mom and many other moms. . . I mean only a mother could love some kids I've seen!!! lol. . . We were opposite on that relationship too, so I concluded that our experiences and lessons for life were so different that we defined and experienced these things in completly different ways. Our whole perception of the words and the power they carry was oppostie too, like night and day. Wow, I was never so clear in the meeting I'm sure.
Course all my research and experience is all about this. Everything I see and say is a reflection of me . . . We each only see what we need to learn. lol.... Course they never see that either, which is why so many people never see me at all. . . that was so cool to think and feel as I wrote and remembered the discussion. Here I joined a diverse discussion group, and typically these people would never even see me or ever listen to anything I say since our paths are so different. I can't even say that to them!
Everyone is worshipping something . . . lol "I choose You" by Point of Grace now 2.29am. It's Your life and you can see what you want to see. See Expectations and you get disappointments, rules and control; but understand the Joy and you share freedom and transparency . . .
With truth you have no expectations. It's not necessary. The moment is now, and you can have the joy to experience it . . . Or you can judge and suffer . . . lol . . . It's always a choice! But the Judge is always right, just ask him, he knows he'll tell you. That's why he's the judge! Not my problem, if that's where you are, then you need to judge.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Amen
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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! Who called you while you chatted with Michelle in his empty office?What do you think?
I'm really in for it aren't I!!! Wow. . . Amazing grace how sweet the sound "I saw the Light" with Mark Schultz CMradio.net 2.40amWhat did you just do?
ah, the Ice cream with the papaya, mango & berries; or getting this laptop after 2am?What, did you do before that?
I had this awesome chant, and pulled up so much energy that it's still blasting through me. It's like the tendons in my foot are bouncing, and my fingers tingle . . . Almost always with one, lol. But I mean, I've written out 4 or 5 post-its of ideas already and I can't get to sleep. Of course NOT it's a Full MOON!What did you think we were asking about. It's really easy for you, as you connected to it before it ever came out. Where at first?
I guess it was at USF. I raced out to catch an EMERGE meeting at the Chamber downtown. I realized I had to join this group and make some things happen. So I had planned to go this morning and just grabbed some jeans to change into to get there for 6-7pm. I thought it was more of a happy hour, looking to eat. But it was a recruitment for getting projects going. Almost all of them I was doing already in my own ways. . . LOL . . . That's really kinda funny, as I realized it now.
The next meeting has the guy promoting the City River Walk coming. Course when I was a kid I got a Disney Dreamers & Doers award for designing a Riverwalk that we gave to Iorio when she was the Chair in the County Commission. Now as a mayor she tried to get the state to fund it and aint got nothing now. Course my design is patented now. So I'll give them 1/3 to build it, while another 1/3 could go to schools (1/3 USF, 1/3 UT, 1/3 STARS), and I keep a third.
So this energy is pumping through me like FIRE. I keep flashing into new scenarios. All these different faces coming in and out over and over again. Wow, like Jose who is the Chamber Chair is the guy I met at the HEUMBC (??? PR thingy at the Columbia) and Loves/promotes two or three of the links I'm into already. Like they have an 8th grade program for like a teach-in. And some breakfast social. Then there is another River Walk program.What did you see with it all?
I got Michelle working for me now in Jermier's office. So we need to all get business cards done and redo some websites, resumes, and all to start going to some of these meetings and create the changes we need to se everywhere.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!What now?
A systemic anomaly from what is otherwise a harmony of mathematical precision the eventuality of an anomaly ... the problem of choice... I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.... this is just too cool... nite nite....
Neo: Why am I here?Architect: Your life is the sum of a remainder of an unbalanced equation inherent to the programming of the Matrix. You are the eventuality of an anomaly, which, despite my sincerest efforts, I have been unable to eliminate from what is otherwise a harmony of mathematical precision. While it remains a burden assiduously avoided, it is not unexpected, and thus not beyond a measure of control. Which has led you, inexorably... here.Neo: You haven't answered my question.Architect: Quite right. Interesting. That was quicker than the others.TV Neos: Others? How many others? What others? Answer my question!Architect: The Matrix is older than you know. I prefer counting from the emergence of one integral anomaly to the emergence of the next, in which case this is the 6th version.TV Neos: 5 `One's before me? 4 3 2 What are you talking about?Neo: There are only two possible explanations, either no one told me, or no one knows.Architect: Precisely. As you are undoubtedly gathering, the anomaly is systemic - creating fluctuations in even the most simplistic equations.TV Neos: You can't control me! I'm gonna smash you to bits! I'll fuckin' kill you!Neo: Choice. The problem is choice.Architect: The first Matrix I designed was quite naturally perfect, it was a work of art - flawless, sublime. A triumph equalled only by its monumental failure. The inevitability of its doom is apparent to me now as a consequence of the imperfection inherent in every human being. Thus, I redesigned it based on your history to more accurately reflect the varying grotesqueries of your nature. However, I was again frustrated by failure. I have since come to understand that the answer eluded me because it required a lesser mind, or perhaps a mind less bound by the parameters of perfection. Thus the answer was stumbled upon by another - an intuitive program, initially created to investigate certain aspects of the human psyche. If I am the father of the matrix, she would undoubtedly be its mother.Neo: The Oracle.Architect: Please. As I was saying, she stumbled upon a solution whereby nearly 99% of all test subjects accepted the program, as long as they were given a choice, even if they were only aware of the choice at a near unconscious level. While this answer functioned, it was obviously fundamentally flawed, thus creating the otherwise contradictory systemic anomaly, that if left unchecked might threaten the system itself. Ergo those that refused the program, while a minority, if unchecked, would constitute an escalating probablility of disaster. Neo: This is about Zion.Architect: You are here because Zion is about to be destroyed - its every living inhabitant terminated, its entire existence eradicated.Neo: Bullshit.TV Neos: Bullshit!Architect: Denial is the most predictable of all human responses, but rest assured, this will be the sixth time we have destroyed it, and we have become exceedingly efficient at it.Architect: The function of the One is now to return to the Source, allowing a temporary dissemination of the code you carry, reinserting the prime program. After which, you will be required to select from the Matrix 23 individuals - 16 female, 7 male - to rebuild Zion. Failure to comply with this process will result in a cataclysmic system crash, killing everyone connected to the Matrix, which, coupled with the extermination of Zion, will ultimately result in the extinction of the entire human race.Neo: You won't let it happen. You can't. You need human beings to survive. Architect: There are levels of survival we are prepared to accept. However, the relevant issue is whether or not you are ready to accept the responsibility of the death of every human being on this world. It is interesting, reading your reactions. Your 5 predecessors were, by design, based on a similar predication - a contingent affirmation that was meant to create a profound attachment to the rest of your species, facilitating the function of the One. While the others experienced this in a very general way, your experience is far more specific - vis a vis love.Neo: Trinity.Architect: Apropos, she entered the Matrix to save your life, at the cost of her own. Neo: No.Architect: Which brings us at last to the moment of truth, wherein the fundamental flaw is ultimately expressed, and the anomaly revealed as both beginning and end. There are two doors. The door to your right leads to the Source, and the salvation of Zion. The door to your left leads back to the Matrix, to her and to the end of your species. As you adequately put, the problem is choice. But we already know what you are going to do, don't we? Already, I can see the chain reaction - the chemical precursors that signal the onset of an emotion, designed specifically to overwhelm logic and reason - an emotion that is already blinding you from the simple and obvious truth. She is going to die, and there is nothing you can do to stop it.Architect: Hope. It is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength and your greatest weakness.Neo: If I were you, I would hope that we don't meet again.Architect: We won't.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!What NOW
It's really going to get intense soon isn't it? I can simply feel the power of it all. So I'm going to get some more salad and get the 2nd matrix movie. When I got the clip for the last posting I realized I needed to watch this ending and then watch the 2nd movie tonight.
What is the songIts "following Jesus' by Cindy Diana, then Phil Joel "god is watching over you, you are love whatever you go through..." on now on cmradio.net at 8.41pm
What about movie time?I need to boogie don't I.
Whatelse?I need to Pray.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!What's up
I Miss Chris and Emily... WE MISS YOU!!!!
HAPPY 16th Birthday Emily Maria Weaver
I Love you and WILL FOREVER!!!
You are the best....
And Jesus IS ALWAYS with you!
Thanks Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ for sending me these kids... Please keep them safe I love you, Amen.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!TUT... A Note from the Universe
I got something for Emily Maria Weaver, Happy 17th Birthday baby... I Miss you!!!
Very often, Eric, when tides start turning, great gears begin shifting, and gusting winds start blowing at the onset of a really wonderful dream's alignment with your present life, there is commotion, unpredictability, even turmoil.
So, hey, let's always assume that's the case whenever you experience commotion, unpredictability, even turmoil. K?
Whhh-hhh-hh-h-h-h-ish-
The Universe
Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)
You may have recently buried your feelings because they made someone feel uncomfortable. Of course anger is inconvenient, yet it still can lurk just beneath the surface. It's like a radio station that creates noise yet cannot be heard clearly. Nevertheless, you know that something important is being said and you believe the voices are talking directly to you. Don't worry about the exact words, for they don't really matter. Let your intuition take over and lead any negativity to the surface.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!
I got my big Sony laptop working again, $365 for CA to fix it. Wow I didn't remember how nice this one is. Course I've not used it in years. But I was thinking I wanted another laptop since the one I have is so tiny and slow. It's ok for school, sitting in the library or something, but not really for hanging at home relaxing on my bed trying to read some journal. So I was doing some engineering work and had some cash, and decided I could just get this one fixed. It came back today. I've already started clearing the harddrive... NICE!
Oh of course I had to get my truck fixed today too. Oil change, new brakes, new battery and a new compressor for the AC... $1300. Which is about what I sent out as an invoice this morning too. I get to calibrate the model for Stonelake now too. So I've got to bust my ass this month before school starts and likely bill another $1300 every week until then, ugh!
I need to get a new bike too. After the accident the front end of my bike is all messes up. Bent forks or handle bars, either way with the tune up, new cables and tires it's a new bike. So I plan to go get one tomorrow. I just got home and cleaned out my truck too. Vacuumed and armor-all for it all over. Wow am I beat. I was up again last night. Think it was more like 1am instead of 3am to chant this time.
I've been talking to DJ about doing this chant at her church. She likes the idea, but hasn't been able to figure it out yet. All I know is that I need to get busy with it. So much energy, so strong and fast. I'm not sure what we are getting ready for, but I know if I don't get busy with this we are going to get rushed through a lot really quick when she's finally does start.What else did you find?
I got my article clear now. Last night the chant was SO POWERFUL, so I tried to direct it to things I was dealing with. Course my modeling fell together almost perfect, or better than. So then I realized what was missing in my article, and it was all as clear as anything. I was just thrilled. I can't wait to get started on it again. But first I need to get this modeling stuff done. We had the meeting Friday and I ran everything over the weekend so they could have everything to resubmit to SWFWMD today. I did everything Kim wanted too. So I just need to write up a response to all her questions, and I'm done with that. Oh except the calibration that I HAVE to get done before the end of the month.Whatelse do you need to do?
I guess I cleaned up the house a bit too. Finish the CAD file for the Bike Rack, put some rubber on my current rack. . . I still need to clean out the office. And I still need to sort and organize my files here, and clear off the computers in my office too. There is just so much crap in there that I need to backup and erase. I guess I will always have a lot to do. I wouldn't have it any other way.What was that?
I just remembered Keith used this computer for years and would always let his kids watch DVD's on it. So I can watch a DVD now! Course I've been wanting to watch Matrix again. Not sure why. But I want to see it. Course I want to see about three or four other DVD's too. lol... just a little escape for me I guess. But I'm ready to fall asleep. . . and I've not written Kim yet.What happened next?
I spent an hour trying to get the video working on this thing. I forgot Jason reformatted all this since Keith had it.
What next?
I got to watch The Matrix. Neo started at room 101 and ended at room 303. Wow, that's where I am isn't it. . . . 303 again returning to total control over the situation exactly as he started.
I Love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ! Thank You for your Words
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 4.24pmWhat's up?
I awoke at 3.39am last night. Interesting number. I thought I would rest and not move, but I knew I had to Chant. In another second I jumped up. Wow, these rituals area getting SO STRONG. I can feel so much power moving it's kinda freaky. I've been letting myself create more too. Like I'm deciding how things will turn out, or what things I want to happen. I'm just recognizing that "such and such" is just so.
Wow, I never thought about this, but it almost feels like I'm 13 or something. I guess that's what I really have always done. Like today in church Lou came to speak with me. As we were chatting about stuff she asked if I knew anything Egyptian. It was funny, like no, not really. But then I said how I really never studied anything, and simply do things. I never know what it is or where it comes from, but it's just natural for me to do. So I really never know if it's Egyptian and Mayan or Tantric, it's just what I do, and sooner or later someone sees it and says "oh that is such and such who did you study with . . . "
Course You are the one I always study with. . .What just happened?
I heard the crackle of thunder coming in. Wow, on Friday I went to meet with Dave and Kim in the County Center. So I parked way off away like I always did when I worked there, and got on my bike and rode over to the building. Just as I got to the property. . . CRACK! This bolt blasted there right next to me. It felt like a doorbell or something, "I'm back!!!" It was sunny and clear, with a few clouds around. Everyone out in the courtyard looked over. Joe said "hi!" Like it hit the tree behind me, or the glass tower next to me or something . . . Here comes the rain. I love the rain here. No thunder now, just feels like it's starting up. . .What about Harmony?
I got there early today and tried setting the camera up different to video tape DJ. It's funny, she's like nervous, but you can just feel all the energy pumping through the place. She knows she has some serious stuff to do. Course I know it too, and also know I better get busy doing my part. So we moved the camera around a few times, trying to figure out what looked best. The clips from last week are already on her site. I looked at them and they used some tool to serve them. Looked neat, with even a button to send it to someone.
When she started they do a bunch of routine things before they start the "message" that she gives. And as the music finishes and they put away things, I walk up and start the camera. This time she said some kinda of thanks for me, or something. I didn't really hear her, as I was focused making sure the camera started right. Nothing is more frustrating than getting home to watch a video and finding I had some stupid setting off somewhere. It's really easy to use and do everything. But it's always really easy to mess up too.
It was so funny when I got there. I was really early because I invited John, and planned to use his camera tripod. Mine is so small, and I wanted to get a better picture. So John called this morning to say he didn't feel like coming, so I raced over to his place to get the tripod before 10am.
Now it's really raining. . . ;-)
It was just after 10am when I got to Harmony. I've told DJ I could be there really early to Chant before she started church. And I hope she decides that's the best time anyway. So anyway, when I got the camera setup I noticed I forget my remote to start it . . . Oh I know I can call Pam or Beth, and ask one of them to stop by my house to pick it up. So I woke Beth up, or she was just getting up, and she said she could drop in and find it. Course a minute later I realized it was likely locked in my office on the floor or something which she couldn't get to anyway. . . .
Then I thought, how sweet she was on the phone, and how I've not seen her in a while. And maybe she needed to stop and visit Bear or something anyway. Like I bothered her once already this morning, maybe I should not interrupt her shower or whatever now, and I could have dropped it on the table or in the living room, just as easily as dropping it in the office.
Cathy and I played with the picture a bit more as DJ practiced and said a few things. I tried to get her to do more to fill up the rest of the tape since I had to switch it anyway so I could catch the whole message. Beth soon called and couldn't find the remote. "oh well, thanks for trying". . . Is that it? Yepper, so she was soon on her way in here. Course I immediately wondered if my house was a mess or the kitchen all yucko or something. . . lol . . . maybe so???What happened with the Healers?
I noticed DJ had them do the pentagram and no one knew it or understood what 
she meant. She had a full room or healers, more than I had ever seen there. And immediately I felt how that was what I needed to be teaching them all. Connecting the missing pieces. I don't remember what we said to each other at the very beginning, but I certainly felt very strongly connected to DJ . . . Hum, and everyone else I spoke to. It's like we are all the same soul family and have a lot to do together. . . Lou said that too, as she was sitting chatting with me before the service.What now?
I was thinking of the pentagram again and thought about the Man Leanardo drew would fit right there in the middle... So I started snooping around and found some pictures to pull together... It looks kinda cool. Just sent it to DJ. I'm really falling asleep already at 7.41pm now.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You! Amen.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!What happened?
I had a great meeting with John yesterday. He really seemed to like what I wrote. Changed a bit and then wanted me to get more focused and clear up a bit here and there. It was really cool, referred to issues in link above. Like I finally got something together that was making sense. Course I need to edit it and finish it too now. Which of course only means more and more for me to do . . . Like I don't have enough already.What else did you get done today?
I got DJ's video up. lol . . . wow, I never thought I'd ever get video online, but I finally did it. I've sent her a few pieces but this is the best yet. http://www.starsusa.org/scire/images/Angels-1a.wmv Course it's a 23MB download. . . yucko, I need to try a different format or something. But I was hoping she would check it out and tell me what format to make it in. I guess what's really funny for me, was that it was really easy to make. After all these years since Pastor Jerry and I had our Passion Lunch . . . to finally get something done online to see it is just so cool.What do you want to do now?
I certainly want to remake countless videos I've got, to get them all online too, but then I also want to get the server to stream them and make everything else work right too. It's always a challenge for me since I seem to come up with more stuff to do all the time . . lol . . . . reminds me how I said recently how I like having lots to do so I don't get bored. As if I could ever really get bored. I guess sometimes I feel like I could, and even feel like I am sometimes. But it's really always too much too quick for me.
Like today I went to see another attorney to have him check what scott tried to do to me. He said he could spend a week or two going over it all. But what was really important was whether it really said what I wanted it to. Course the guy laughed at me, saying I was already doing the work and already getting clients. So if I was keen on splitting my income, I could simply give him a check for half of all that I did too . . . . Like what's the point in me starting a business where I only get more business and 1/2 the income. I certainly don't want more . . .
Course then he said how he was buying land and worked with Charlie and others I knew already and needed to deal with the water things too. So he figured he'd be calling me soon to help him with his lands. Like I need more work. Dave has been giving me more and more to do too. I keep trying to just get it done, and it only rolls into more and more . . . I mean a thousand a week is kinda cool, but I really don't want to be doing more of it.What do you want to do?
I guess I kinda have no clue. I want to finish this paper for John. But is it really going to present my ideas for research or just satisfy him? I'm not sure. Course I'm more interested in making it all happen than I am into just publishing something. Like everything written here really only serves me and never makes anything happen. . .You are looking at only yourself again, What about all those who read this?
I guess so. But I always felt that what I could do and change elsewhere would make a lot more happen than I could ever imagine.What you are doing takes time, nothing happens over night. You want to bring change and growth into a place and time where you need to simply deal with what is here. If you don't deal with what's at hand you can't do what you have set out to do.
I know. . . so I do what I can one day at a time. Nothing too spectacular, just moving along, little bits by little bits.That down plays it son, and serves no one. . .
I know... still I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ and I know everything will come out as it must for your Glory! Thank you! Amen.
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 10.37amWhat's up?
John went out of town for a week. I told him I'd have the paper done before he left, 3am the night before I sent him what I had done and simply said the last section wasn't done. Of course the last section was exactly what we had been talking about all along and all the rest was more background... So yesterday he finally sent me a book chapter he wrote. I helped him a bit putting together articles and it rolled into the classes he taught over the summer and in CO.
So to finally read the chapter was really cool. It was right on top of all that I was doing too. I mean it's really freaky how close the conceptions are. And I've been like buzzing to read it all. Each time I do read it I start searching the net for keywords and ideas. It's really cool. Except I've only read 10 of 33 pages... lol... actually I think it was page 11 last night when I started falling asleep. Of course the numbers must match.. lol... I sent him an email saying it was really cool and I wanted to talk more about it all whenever we could meet for lunch or anything.
This morning I got an email about doing lunch today, saying he liked my draft and could help...What else?
I know, so I called Beth again this morning hoping to go bike. We always seem to relate so much better biking. The phone is such a struggle for me. I guess she's been answering it each time I've called, so I've not had to deal with an answering machine. But I still try to be short and not get into much over the phone. Like I've tried not to send her emails anymore either. I always seem to get into too much and people catch one little piece and miss my whole point.
That's funny, since I always think it's easier to write . . . lol . . . I guess that depends on the energy level of the conversations. Like I now think about meeting John again. The last meeting we had was about the same concepts, but I hadn't written anything, nor had he read anything. This time he's read my draft. And even said that I'm getting done with my first phase of this.
ok, that makes me nervous. That means I'm going to be starting a PhD soon. We sorta laid out this first phase to get my concepts and research agenda clear. So to find out that it's falling closer and closer to his research agenda too . . . is really kinda freaky. I mean, I've barely read any of his work. And certainly never really explored it deeply. As I think about it now, he's been very conscious and considerate in evaluating my own interests too. Each time we chat about my goals he uses my own words to formulate priorities with me.
I mean one time we talked the three key terms that came out were water, spirit and change. And then the Macro conception that I needed to explore the full breadth of the research in some aspect so I could expand and enhance the science there. This got more focused on concepts of change. I mean the Spirit and Water concepts I have and plan are both to help create change, and make things happen.
I know that's really all that I am about. Creating change is easy. but I guess it's getting to the place where I can make more substantial changes. I remember John laughing about the project I did with Sharon saying how whatever changes I could make here were really useless if no one knew about them. . . . saying that the real academic research is what people notice and only when it is well published.What are you doing now?
I know, but this publication is for You. . . and I know it reaches all You need it to reach. So I guess that's really cool too. But getting it to the science is what this is all about anyway. I mean, that first vision I got was about making science come to terms with Spirit. And it's happening as it should very slowly. . .What you are calling slow is faster than most people can handle already. You are really just ratcheting up the power here and making things happen faster and faster. Of course you have no clue what that means...
I figured. . . Chris hits the ground on Emily's birthday. . . I certainly don't want to read into that anymore. . . .What do you think conclusions are all about. It's not just you involved here. Everyone is, and if you know about it, so be it.
I know too much and I will simply do whatever you want. Finish this paper, and start whatever it is that I need to start next. . . . No fear here, lol, actually it's almost fun. I mean, I can laugh at how the visions come out, and really freak out to see the details that I already saw. . . .
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please fill me with YOU! Amen.
