Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What do you need son?

I am totally freaked out... Everything is coming to a head really quickly. Today I spent the day with Scott. We put together the land deal. We reviewed my Unity Method patent. Then we discussed the STARS deal with Chuck. And I made significant discoveries about myself.

What did you learn?

I learned I could make this Land deal work. And it wouldn't require significant effort, because I love making deals and setting things up. And all the players in this deal could easily fall in LOVE with my Green House patents and designs which might open up TONS more for us.

Then I also learned how much Scott and I had in common. Where he understood and related to my Unity Methods Patent completely. He even recognized and told me that it was really "old news" and there was really nothing that he hadn't heard before. Course me patenting a method whereby I use the current Sciences available to describe a common religious practice just had never been done before. Course we both know and recognize that this practice has been hidden by the churches and kept private for eons because people were using it for the wrong reasons and getting hurt.

I told him that this was exactly WHY I HAD TO PATENT it because the scientists are getting very close to understanding these ancient arts and no one is taking any responsibility to control what they do and how they do it. Now if anyone used this and got hurt then they would be violating my patent rights and be liable. While if they wanted to use it for the RIGHT reasons and learn the truth they would have to come to me. . . So then I can make sure that people only use it carefully. . . . And ONLY for the RIGHT reasons!

I also realized that MY CHILDREN learned and used it for the WRONG reasons. Course they learned it all about the same time that I did, because they taught me. Which might not really take away any of my responsibility in their trip "down the rabbit whole into Wonderland." However, I HAVE NEVER shirked any responsibility to my children....

Are you sure of that son?

I am really not totally sure. . . . I guess. . . And I know what you are leading into. The last thing I learned tonight was how I was doing the same thing that Keith does. I was intentionally holding back information when doing business. I mean, I've been burned SO MANY times by telling people TOO MUCH. I mean, both Chuck and Keith have all but KICKED MY ASS for getting into all the discussions about being on this Mission From God, being sent here to change the world and all that shit.... While meeting with people who wanted to support us... Basically I would freak out people sounding like a total wacko!

That is the key point there son, the people involved are what matters.

I realized that the deal STARS was looking at involved a private company selling insurance to new STARS members. And STARS would be contracting this out. The new STARS members would pay a membership fee to STARS so we could develop projects for them. But they could also purchase insurance as a membership benefit. STARS would get $/year from each member while the contractor would get $/month from each member as the typical sales commissions on the insurance. If this involved thousands of members the multiples on the fees collected meant that thousands of members got only pennies of a STARS project, while the single contractor got millions in sales benefits. This initially shocked me and I knew Chuck would freak over these numbers too.

Scott immediately told me that I needed to Tell Chuck about it, since he's meeting to discuss this deal tomorrow.

UGH... My reaction was WHAT ARE YOU CRAZY!!!

I mean, I carefully told Chuck every detail I could so he would be clear and conscious about how to get the deal together. I mean, I know that Chuck is a wizard of relationships and negotiations, And if he got important background and ideas to sleep on and think about for the days before the meeting; that the meeting would go Perfect! He's just a Wizard about that stuff. Just as Scott is the Wizard of making things work legally. . . And I'm the Wizard of... lol... Never mind... Lol.... So to freak Chuck out the night before his meeting would just BE STUPID!

I mean my gut feeling was that Chuck would find out about it all sooner or later anyway. So why freak him out the night before where it might only fuck the whole thing anyway.

Scott made it very clear to me that holding critical information from associates in any situation was simply wrong.

And I realized that this last few months I've been harassing Keith about his business practices. I mean Keith can sell anything, but does it dishonestly by holding critical information from the customer. WOW SHIT!!!! I just realized that I essentially taught Keith how to do this. When I worked for him in college selling solar heating units. My job was to get a sales lead. And I walked up to the door and knocked asking for the owner or parent, so I could get their name and phone number to schedule a time for a salesman to visit and sell them solar heat.

Soon I simply would say that I worked for the "power company" and was offering to do a "free energy audit" of their home.... The conscious lie and deception was that I wasn't actually working for THEIR "power company" TECO or Florida Power. But instead worked for a solar heating "power company" . . . So my little play on words was intentionally deceiving these people to get sales leads and make some cash.

Keith has since done similarly in different things and would essentially brag to me about how well it worked in the Bahamas and the phone companies . And I realized that the negative deception was EXACTLY why Keith would fall and get hurt at whatever he did. And of course teaching his son and daughter how it's "ok to be deceptive" means they will soon be terrorists in jail or worse.

Very good son, you got it all out. So what have you learned?

SHIT, I am fried. . . . I mean I told Keith countless times that him trying to pull this scam business in my house and allowing a lying thief to live here while I did this Unity Patent to create a conscious revival of Earth's Civilizations was VERY DANGEROUS. I tried to tell Keith about the lightning bolts falling off me in NC, but he could never understand. Then I even told him how I've seen sparks flying from my fingers. And still he didn't care. But in point a fact, I AM TERRIFIED of getting pissed at him or his son for their stupid greed and manipulation in my house and just blasting them into dust on a spontaneous ZAP!

You did it son, you got that fear out of you now. And now you know why Scott is so critical for you. Scott also told you to live alone for a year or two, just to settle and get focused on yourself. What you don't know is that Scott knows a lot more about this than anyone. He is also good friends with Tim who was their as you threw bolts in NC. Then Scott has been here while you've grown from the crazy STARS ideas into the Yoga and kabbalah and all the rest. You are very lucky to have him around and you need to honor that a bit more.

I know, I know. I told Scott that I could make the land deal work. I presented it to people and got such strong responses that it would be very easy to make all kinds of things happen. Then I really only spoke to any of these people because I wanted to make Scott some money. Sure I could use a bit of cash too, but the insight was simply to present his business ideas, that I never got my PE to support. I kinda skrewed him up by not getting my PE when I said I would, so I wanted to find out if I could make his idea work anyway. And the opportunity to investigate the land and ask about help for my housing patent was perfect timing for it all to come together. And it has!

Scott all but forced me to call Chuck tonight and tell him what I calculated. It might be normal insurance sales commissions and greatly benefit the members. But fundamentally the whole project was about greed and deception if we are not fair and equitable about our contract arrangements in STARS. Sure Kinser would love it, because it was normal commissions and also a viable benefit to the members. However, it really is not the proper place for STARS to knowingly get a single individual filthy rich while taking membership fees from poor old folks. It simply doesn't seem at all ethical.

And MOST importantly it's not my place to decide Chuck doesn't need this information tonight. Scott even called me back a few times after I left telling me to swear to never hold anything from him again about any deal we do or else he would never work with me again.

I did promise him and swear I would never hold anything from him again. And he felt like I was just saying it, and not meaning it. So I now understand why I needed to write all this tonight. I'm finished with this patent and I'm going to the airport post office to send it tonight. And I know that I need to BE CLEAR AND STRONG about everything I do; OPEN and HONEST about it all with everyone I see now.... Always!!! Since the power and focus that I have will be greatly magnified with just my name association to this Unity Patent and all those who read it.

But even now I'm "freaking out" to post this message. I now I need to send it to Scott and Chuck. But I also know or feel like they will kill me for being TOO HONEST and sharing too much again.

What do you need son? This is exactly what you need to do. The power and clarity that the truth creates in your favor is lightyears ahead of anything you could get any other way. If there is something in the truth that bothers someone they need to stop and consider themselves and find what is wrong and fearful inside themselves. You are bringing a lot of power out to the people and you will be able to lead and direct this power for their benefit ONLY as long as you stay in TRUTH!

I know! Thanks for reminding me...

What do you need to say now son?

I PROMISE YOU Scott and Chuck... I will share everything with you about what...

What do you need share? Are you still trying to hide something?

I PROMISE YOU SCOTT AND CHUCK that all my dealings will be clear and direct with you and that I will never hide anything from you about anything that I do!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you for YOUR Strength and Wisdom to do as I must. Please Lead and guide me to Your Fulfillment for the Glory of Father Son and Holy Ghost. Amen.

Hey Chuck and Scott, I need to show you my chant, ASAP!!!

Moven' Rev'

Thursday, December 29, 2005
11:24:15 PM
I Love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!

Thank you so VERY MUCH for giving Your Life to share with me Your Way of Truth, LOVE and Light. I am truly so grateful to be able to share MY Life with You now as ONLY YOU could make this moment worth Living.

Today, I went to group again and Di just came in when Christie asked me about my kids. It was so funny because he’s the only one who really got to me about that. So they did it again. And the synchronicity was so strong and clear. Chris said how it was not “synchro” but the natural results of my own personal efforts.

But she never had realized that all my efforts are only for God. And I’m the Solution that I prayed for at 16. . . . wow, that all kids pray for. And I’m throwing Andrew out?

Knowledge brings responsibility and power. If people are not responsible about their power you can not deal with them. You have been given too much power to loss into wasted things. Too much else needs your influence than this... no one gives their prime rib and lobster to swine!

Ok, I know

Knowledge is what you are Son when you share your experience
with others. You are full and capable to express such incredible things
that no one will ever question or understand

Wow... So 12:51:37 AM in the morning now 12/30/2005 and I’ve been working on my patent again. And everything is seriously coming together. I know my kids are blasting things all the pieces now. OH WOW, Christopher is reaching puberty... wow how cool is that.

Knowledge is such a wonderful power for you. You no longer need to fear sharing anything. Print and publish what you must and then totally let it go for you to share and love all those around you. There is nothing to fear. The power and clarity of your truth will reverberate throughout everything that you are!

Oh great, I’m really in for it now. What a trip this will be. I know that I’m finally getting this project done and I know I can get everything else going as this finishes. I mean it....

Oh another deal just popped into my head. I need to get new computers these old ones are becoming too much headache. So I thought about taking Dan over to see Mit and making a new deal there. Mit is tired of running the PC business and Dan is tired of running his business out of his van. So they would solve each others problems by helping each other.

The knowledge that you are sharing will open so many people up and change so very much around everywhere that no one will be able to slow you down. Nothing will get in your way and everything will simply collapse at your will. Fearless is more important than ever now Son. You are getting more charged every day, and you need to stay clear and focused on each new task set out before you.

Thank You so VERY MUCH for your help today with all these projects. Please lead and LOVE my friends and Family to FULFILL YOUR PURPOSE for the Glory of Father, Son and Holy Ghost... amen.

I Love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!

Christmas poem... about father and son.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word
Saturday, December 24, 2005
4:09:00 PM

Joyce called me this morning to wish me a Merry Christmas. It was really nice to speak to her. She had some cataract surgery on both eyes which would certainly freak me out big time. But she said it is coming along good and she’s starting to see better now. Sheryl’s kids are big and getting on their own now. Josh is 18 and starting college this year, while Shanna is 16 and starting after boys now.

I didn’t realize they were so much older than my kids. But it is still kinda wonderful to hear about them. Well especially to hear from her.

Then I got an email from Keith, sure I get a few dozen each day. But this was a Christmas poem... about father and son. He basically tried to make me feel guilty about wanting his son out, which immediately makes me want them both out. I mean I told Andrew the day he arrived how to survive here. He tried to scam me over and over again. And when he couldn’t, then he would use his dad and papa to scam me. Course they both worship his feet, so he can get them to believe anything.

And I really don’t care. If they want to believe everything the spoiled child says, well then he’ll just get more spoiled and make it harder and harder on them until they realize he’s just full of shit. Hey I tried and then I even agreed to Keith ideas about not interfering and letting Keith discipline him. Sure that will never happen. So I got Andrew to sign a contract and I told Keith that it wouldn’t last and that I would set traps for Andrew to screw it up.

They next day he had broken the contract. Messing with my stuff in my office in direct conflict with the contract he signed. Course I knew him signing some thing wouldn’t matter, his papa likely told him I couldn’t hold something binding with a child. Course as soon as he was bored with the TV he would get into trouble anyway. But I wondered how long it would be before he set off one of my traps

Then Keith’s 40 days were up and he fucked my school meeting so I told them both to get out. Keith soon convinced me that he could stay if Andrew left. And a week later he tried to convince me Andrew could stay too. Course that’s when Andrew set off two traps!!!
So now Andrew is supposed to be out by Christmas and/or they are both out. And I get this poem con job on Christmas Eve. Guess I can see where Andrew learned to be such a con. No wonder his sister never goes to school and gets away with anything she wants. They are both spoiled brats, and their dad wouldn’t recognize anything honest anywhere it seems...

So why does this have to become my problem?

No worries, be happy, it is not your problem, you tried to help, if their priorities are all messed up there is really nothing you can do for them. You do have a lot of other things to do so get busy.....

Yes I know, I love you Lord Jesus Christ. Please be with all my friends and family on this wonderful birthday of yours. Thank you dearest Love Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

8:46:58 PM
I’ve not been too successful in working on this patent today. I cleaned out my room and did a few other things around here that I needed to do. It looks nice and made me feel good about the place. But I know I need to get busy working on some other things. I feel like I need to do more research for this patent.

Why is that Son, you can clarify a few points and submit it. They will struggle with it for a while and then ask for more information. But at least you will get it in there where you want it to be.

Yes I know Dearest Love Lord Jesus Christ, and I guess that’s what is important for now, but I’m not really sure.

Son you don’t need to be sure... You can make it happen anyway that you want it to happen. So go visit the calculus professors that you need to see and get this done and submitted. It will really make you feel so much better and relax a lot more. At least for the time being.

Thank you dearest Love Lord Jesus Christ. I know it’s all coming together the way that You need. Funny, I know you really never NEED anything, but it is just the current task you have here for me. I’m thrilled to get things done for you, and it takes time and is a challenge, but I’m getting there. Please fill me with your strength Love and Wisdom. Amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Subject: house stuff

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!
I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!!!
Wow lots of interesting things happening again.
It’s weird, but I know it should be expected.

The closer I get to finishing all that I need to do the stronger the changes will become for everyone. I walked into my office as I spoke to Jonosko about math professors to discuss God’s Patent. She gave me a few people to look up, and we’ll meet the 20th. Then I had lunch with Chuck talking about lunch with the president. Called about properties so I’ll be meeting Shawn then Patel on Tuesday. Met a helicopter to chat about another patent and scheduled a future meeting about a new prototype & land development. Then sent a Christmas card to Bob and made it back home.

Keith is meeting his dad in Naples tomorrow am, to get his daughter and bring her to see her other G-pa with Andrew over Christmas. Andrew’s up there already so I was looking forward to some quiet time here. It’s kinda weird here with Keith freaking out about the Christmas thing. Christmas was never a big deal for me, except for children and loves.

I’m seeing no one and doing nothing 3rd year now, and really know I have too spend it here alone. Christmas is always about working for Jesus. Course no one seems to understand this. But that’s just what it is for me. I’m always writing letters to Presidents and such over Christmas. I realized a lot more with my leadership paper. John told me who and where to read about Spiritual Leadership. I found the whole discourse to be verifying my own techniques and skills. I wanted to send the whole thing off to the guy. John told me the personal discourse “I think-isms” was too juvenile and un-publishable.

I know that is what I’ve always had to do. Patent first and then publish it all. Then I’ll end up writing forever and fixing everything. It’s almost funny how familiar it all feels just to say that. Like I always knew I’d see the world, be invited everywhere to fix everything. Lol... like endlessly traveling and sharing the love that I feel everywhere.

Wow that was weird, I felt about women and having children as I said that. How I’d love and support any women who raised a child with me. Course it had to be MY child and only WITH ME. Forget all the greed and control everywhere, I just wont play any of those games anymore. Lol, like playing Andrew’s games; I told him my way or the highway, so I guess he made his choice.

I know I have this time alone with You, but what’s up?

You need to get things done.

Yes I always need to get things done, what’s new?

Nothing is new, except as things increase in strength and power the disruption and distractions will also increase. And the more you can focus and finish this weekend the more easily the next year will be started. There is nothing new here at all. Each year you have a mad rush to finish, write, send, do and create something. This is who you are and will be happening forever. You like it better this way, and will always be doing this.

Yes, thanks for the clarity there. But will I always be struggling? Can we get some closure on some things set so I can relax a bit.

Son we’ve told you countless times how much you relax now will soon be a distant memory. You’re going to be getting so very busy that nothing will slow you down. And that’s exactly the best thing for you and everyone.

Yes I know I guess.

So then why don’t you just do it?

Yes I am. Each time you say that I really get done more than I can understand and relate to

This is what you need to do. Stop worrying about it all, and just do whatever you feel is necessary and get it all done.

Yes, I love you.

No worries, be happy, get busy..

Thank you dearest Love Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

Wow this is so cool.

No kidding what did you expect. And we noticed that you finger is starting to get charged again.

Thrills, like I really need more of that in my life. . . .

This is actually something that you have known would be of significant importance at some time. You have continuously visualized different events where this finger is critical. And you have allowed this visualization to evolve. Just this moment you have been editing a patent expressing how you can use the mind and consciousness to change and create things on earth. This understanding is more significant than you care to accept right now. What is most important is to accept it is necessary to complete and simply complete it all

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Energy is reality's fundamental building block.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What's up...

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Yea, so what's new?

I know I'm getting a lot of things done and it's really kinda cool. TOO many things going. Like I'm working on three patents again. Three different prototypes are at 3-different stages of development. Then I'm also working on three different properties. Yes, Involved with land development again. Interesting it's not involving Bruce at all, but Shawn, which seems to really be going very well. We're talking about doing all the engineering for a site in exchange for a percent of the total sale. This fits in perfect with Scott and all that he's wanted me to do for a few years now. So I told Scott what we could do and he's ready to write a contract to get started.

Funny thing was when I met Shawn he immediately took me into see his son, who is a USF student now too and also dreaming up patent developments. LOL . . . Perfect timing for me to be chatting with the university president and VP again. I need to drop by and visit them and see what I can get stirred up.

Why?

I guess I also need to get busy on the Greening USF mission, so I can go out and visit a few people Claire told me about. Course I saw Claire yesterday. She was here doing another Bio-economics discussion with Mike down the hall here. Mike and I are always here at the oddest hours. So when I got a message from Claire about the first Bio thing at the library, I invited Mike to it. I'm sure I wrote about this before. But it's certainly nice to be meeting with Claire again. She gave me another book to read, and I told her I just read the "Universe in the Atom" by the Dalai Lama and was going through the "Quantum and the Lotus," another book she told me to read years ago. She said she was reading the same Dalai book too.

So I need to get "Presence : exploring profound change in people, organizations and society" by Peter Senge now too. Course his book is in the library now, brand new and not on the shelf for checking out yet. So I will get his other book the "5th Discipline" which she also mentioned Monday... And likely told me to read years ago as well. . . Hum wonder if the Library has the Dalai Lama books too... yepper, 47 of them... EEK!

What else happened with Shawn?

I also told him about my patents and asked him about a trailer and such for getting the rest of the pipes out there at StoneLake. He was more than happy to help and told me a great deal about how we could do what I told him about. He has always been very friendly and polite to me. So to finally really share something with him was very cool. And he was really excited about it all too. Which was why he had me chat with his son. I went over a lot with his son too. Got him onto the USPTO web site and hooked him up with all the answers to his questions.

It was really cool.

What did you learn...

I guess I realized I really did NOT have to do everything myself. I've always been so careful NOT to tell people too much about anything. And I'm very quiet now. I mean for years I would tell everyone everything with no notice, no warning, nothing but blab blab blab... But now I'm not so eager to shoot my mouth off so much. I guess I've finally learned from my mistakes.

I also learned a lot about my own leadership style. I need to be more forceful and strong when I know what needs to get done. Waiting for someone else to take the lead is not something I can do anymore at all. Like even with Equan I've told him to get Andrew and everyone together to get something done, and it just never happened. I know I need to make sure I get things done myself, and stop waiting for others to do anything.

What do you need to do tomorrow then?

I will finish one patent, check on another, asn call around for building the third prototype. Wow so much to do and so little time... lol... That's really funny... Yes I know I also need to visit three or four people too. Thank You Loving Lord Jesus Christ for all your Strength Love and Wisdom, Lead us into Your Light, amen.

Getting all the "ducks in a row."

1:50:09 PM. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What are you doing now?

I’m really making a lot of progress now. Things feel really good all around. Well almost, I never got Andrew focused and working on anything. I came close a few times with the computers, but just this week he came in here to tell me how he’s bored. I knew that would come when he got the TV and video games. He’s too talented a kid to get any real satisfaction from wasting his time with that crap designed to program and less talented people around. I mean, without the brain-dead followers, what use would there be with intelligent creative leaders. Course mass media creating whole generations of brain-dead followers only makes my efforts with Andrew and Keith all the more important.

But I’ve also learned that I need to finish what I’m doing too. And getting caught into other peoples’ psycho-drama will only distract me from what’s important. But I’m making some serious progress here. I’m scheduled to see my patent attorney Monday and need to go over everything with him. And so I’m finishing my patent now. It’s really looking very sweet too. I can’t believe how clear and simple it is.

I really need to thank Keith about this too. He added a few phrases to my leadership paper that I finished last week. I used each of his phrases to expand into whole new sections that I’ve never really said before. It was really interesting because I noticed how I mislead him with what I write. Keith’s comments or additions were very clear and logical, and opened me up to really explain the connections in more details. Many where I had left significant details left in the dark. I didn’t want to sound like a preacher but I still really had to have the God Focus throughout. Or what was obvious to me led to inaccurate things I needed to be a lot clearer about.... truth vs. preaching it feels like.

This really makes my work now so much easier too. Also I thought it was neat how Keith never saw me as a leader at all. But then with the final paper he understood more about how I do lead him and others indirectly. Course it’s so indirect that I’m not very clear about it all some times, which is why my Faith in Jesus Christ seeing and feeling His Big Picture Perspective is so critical. Like the deal with the Treehouse and Dan still makes him wonder . . . and me too sometimes!
I need to get a lot stronger and more direct to avoid these same problems everywhere. I’ve noticed that if I’m not very strong then my leading isn’t as clear and coherent as it needs to be.

Thank You Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please help me to finish as I must right now. Guide Keith with Andrew, Help Chuck and family, and lead Scott into Truth. Amen.
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Fellow Team Members

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What are you doing now?

Stopped for a nice dinner ....

I love you Dearest Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank you for leading me to fulfill your Glory

I’ve been really kinda confused and worried about a few things lately, but I’ve followed your Will and Desire anyway. It’s been a challenge, as You always are. But it all came together magically like I could never imagine in the first place. I know I need to get more specific, and I also know I can do that at another time.

Thank you Loving Lord Jesus Christ amen.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Culture? What culture... No Morals here

What now?

I've been working on my leadership paper and the lessons learned too. My team in class seemed to have played a little prank on me. But then no one said a word about it. And I guess I didn't either. It was obvious that it was bothering me so I wrote up a few pages of lessons learned about it... Which really were all about what the other team members should learn from it. I asked the teacher about presenting it in class, he liked the idea, until I said team members were described, and then he thought it was more of revenge. LOL, like I have time for revenge?

Funny that's what Keith always said about Dan. That I was "vengeful." I went out of my way to give Dan every opportunity I could for him to be a good honest man and stand up to face the crap he was pulling. After almost 2 years in my house losing, all he ever could do was make up some new scam to make money. Lying or cheating someone for greed, and cheat me, cheat my friends and neighbors. So he ended up with nothing, no one would help him anymore. I wish he only left with the shirt on his back. Since then he might have stopped to think a bit more about what is true and right. But Keith and Andrew helped him take tons of crap that he collected while using me and my space. So Dan used me and then used Keith and Andrew and everyone else. Even used his handicapped daughter for years to get free coffee every weekend. Sure "feel sorry for my little girl, so I get free coffee" . . . . SO I tried to shed some light but Dan learned NOTHING here... Well maybe a little since he's home taking care of his parents now; I HOPE!

What's the point?

I don't know, I just always feel like the only person around talking any common sense. Like this morning Keith got the newspaper . . . . Now I know why I never get one. One article about a sex survey in the county schools shows more sex and drugs than ever. And then another article about the water problem in Tampa. . . Where they want to lower the river water quality standards so they can pollute it some more. What a bunch of shit. Course, just like Bush they find some engineer to pay and make the test results and reports justify them to do whatever they want. . . . But we all know in our hearts that it's total bull shit and we are only making the problems worse. . .

What do you think that is teaching our children? Do you think no child can read that newspaper in your town? Why should they try to stay clean avoiding sex and drugs? Their parents are filling their bodies with drugs and their minds will TV trash.

I mean how can these people be SO STUPID to see this stuff in their own back yard and go on thinking, oh it's ok... It's not my problem... Someone else will take care of it.... I just need to watch the football game, and get more gas for my SUV when I go for more beer. And they think this is civilized or advanced . . . Oh that's right as long as they have more than the Jones next door, that's all that matters.

My God what is this world coming to. . .

What did you ask that for? You know exactly what this world is coming too. How can you solve the problem if there's no problems. It's been obvious to you for a long time and there's no one else out there ready or able to do anything about it.

I know you tell me that all the time. And it's great to be doing this for You... lol... For US. And I know I can't loss and will always come out ahead no matter what the crap looks like right here around me.

What do you think this really means? You are one of millions and we all can know and feel each other at any minute. But we don't stop to think long enough to understand. Do you think there is anyone else in your country that is totally free in this focus of creation like you are now. Hundreds doing yoga, and meditations, thousands exercising and eating right. Each new conscious thought placed into the stream with us makes this easier for you. But you also know that they fall away and get lost as quickly as they grow stronger with us. This has always been the way of things. Just like throughout time it only took one decision to make it all change.

are you ready for it ?

will you do it yet?

Don't search for more proof, another example and reason to do... JUST DO!

I'm . . . . Am I really? What am I? Do I need to explain or write something. . . Do I think there are millions alone in the world with me. Wondering if the answer is out there somewhere. Just like wondering when Jesus Christ will come home. When will Revelations start? When will we know the solutions and stop fighting for more? Do I really need peace and quiet to be successful? Or do I need the love and companionship of someone? AAAAm I really ever alone?

I know You are always here with me. And I know you want to write a lot more. I guess I am just asking you a lot of questions so you can really tell me something.

What more do you think we could offer to you. It's again in this place of utter despair and conflict. Those millions you feel all waiting for the solutions are just asking you the same questions we are. are you ready to make the case clear. Do you need more proof?

Disclaimer: Astrocenter provides astrological predictions based on the astrological principles, Money Matters: Mercury will move into Sagittarius at the start of the week, eric, bringing added emphasis to your joint financial affairs. There is a situation building up here which is going to come to a head on Thursday, and may mean that you have to make a decision to change things quite dramatically. You may be forced into this situation, but ultimately it will work out much better for you in the long term. The Full Moon in Gemini may bring you the fruits of all the work you have put into your financial affairs or, if you have been frivolous, all the difficulties that you have been avoiding. If you take action when it is called for, you may have to sort through and make a clean sweep, but you will feel much better for doing so. Venus moves into Aquarius on Thursday which may help you find a way to talk to bosses or those in authority without causing too much annoyance, even though you may have something controversial to ask of them. Later in the week you may reach deadlock with your partner or other family member, as you can't find a way out of a tricky situation. One meeting may bring about a conflict of personality on Sunday.

What is really remarkable about everything that is, will be how clear it all becomes for everyone. It's very simple steps that we are all very well prepared for. Your place in this maze is so concrete solid and impeccable that the total surprise and fulfillment you will feel is just beyond recognition. Each new word you read or see anywhere only confirms and strengthens your resolve and fortitude to make this all happen. Like just this moment you flashed another vision as the Centerpiece Oasis - Theta track started in your headsets... Why don't you tell us about that?

I saw Keith finally putting on his suit and getting serious about everything. Not Doing better next year, but NOW. Seeing Burcaw about designs and equipment to start constructions, while Andrew and Equan got the pipes, computers and portables building the whole new system right here now. . . . . . Seeing the school board about the STARS projects and patents to clean all the water, trash, roads, people, schools. . . His ultimate little visions writing all the editors and having the schools and news talking up the incredible storm of controversy. Uncovering all the corruption and clearing out all the trash.

I am not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What do you really think your place will be?

I think I will simply hide away. I'll finally be given my peace and solitude to create and dance with you. . . .

What if your place were to change too? What happens if you need to be out meeting and pulling more people into it all. Keith gets started and maybe Dan and Rachel wake up. . . . Then maybe your father and church. . . . What about your kids? How will you be able to hide if they come out again reaaaady to DOOOO SOOOMMETHING! Can you get up to lead them? Are they ready to travel the worlds with you? Are you ready?

I am always ready. Each new freaky situations catches me by surprise maybe, but soon I figure out how it fits into Your Big Picture...

What do you mean, are you sure it's our Big Picture? What if it were only yours? Are you ready to be the one to make it all happen? Can you still hold your hand up if it starts to really spark? Are you going to run and Hide again or what?

I'm not sure about that. . . . Everyone kisses Dan's ass so they wont have to face him. While everything I did was show him he was full of it. I mean like Keith and Elizabeth all this big talk about BS. . . Success for yoga people or a million bucks, what a smart way to hide selfishness, greed and arrogance. Sure whatever I say and do might be a little harder or a challenge, but which one will help and serve others? And which is more in truth vs deception?

What is deception son? Do you think anyone there can live a single day without deception? You hide in your clothing and cover up everything. Like how you write these editors, are you telling them the whole truth? Certainly you personally tell everyone too much, but do you think either editor will publish anything that might make his own "pie in the sky" anything less than "the Jones next door?" Like Judging Keith or Chuck, if they responded to you their first opportunity, would they have been as successful as they could be now?

I know i need to get busy on some other things

What do you think this is all about. We started at the beginning saying that you needed to get busy on some other things.

I guess so. . . Thanks for pointing out realy how much i need to do and how much more this will increase as i begin to get certain things done.

Whatelse would you expect?

I gave up "expecting" anything a long time ago. It's nice to get some respect and consideration once in a while, but I know i've got to do something no one else can do. Sure you got me ready for it... lol... whatever that means, since I seem to be able to deal with anything while I get the unepected every day

What would you really want? Do you ask for anything that you don't get? Do you really want to ask for me?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please Let this all BE Resolved and Perfect as ONLY You could share with all of us for the Glory of God the Father Son and Holy Ghosts . . . . . Amen.

I am not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What ?

I'm tired of the struggle. And I'm starting to fear what pops into my mind sometimes. The Black Mountian episode comes to mind. I know I can do anything and I know there is nothing that can stop me. . . but I'm tired of the headaches and challenges. Yes they are good to make me strong and successful sometimes. But it's just not healthy to always be fighting and worried about what's next for me to deal with.

What ?

It's like Keith finished his 40 days and 40 nights and the very next day he was drunk as a skunk again. Of course it was the day I had planned for us to go to the Great Entrepreneur Minds party. . . given him almost two weeks notice. And it would have been a perfect time for him to kick start the whole STARS thing. I was really nervous about going and even spoke to him about who was going to be there and what I wanted to get done with them. He was clear and supportive asking me about things ahead of time. But for him to get drunk right before we left was just like spitting in my face. I wasn't really sure what to do.

So what happened?

I got in the car excited that he let me drive the car he's been using from Christine and I noticed from his slurred words that he was drunk. I really just wanted to turn around and go back home. But he always says he does better when he's drunk. . . . lol. . . . Like every alcoholic always says. So we got there. I avoided the people at the entrance because the class teacher was there talking with a bunch of people. I got some water and listened to him slur words and repeat himself while dropping peanuts and scuffing up the floor.

Obviously, I avoided any further conversations with him. But I spoke to a lot of other people and made some good contacts. Nothing I followed up on yet. But there was a light of something positive through it all and I almost feel like I should thank him now since I likely wouldn't have gone if he wasn't here. Like I don't need to use him as a crutch, sorta like he doesn't need to use alcohol as a crutch.

What else has he gotten you to do?

I guess I've gone out and done karioke a few times, where I'm singing in front of people. I kinda liked it, but haven't figured out how my voice works yet. I'm really deep at church but sang really high there. I know I need to try that some more and work on it. I need to work on alot of things I guess.

What ?

I don't know, I really tired of getting used. I feel like everyone has been using me. Here at school in class today and also Friday. I don't even want to think about my house and bikes and all that have been getting destroyed. I told Keith to get out by Christmas, but it will take me a full month working to get everything cleaned up and civilized again after he leaves. Then even Chuck who borrowed a few DVD's from me has had them for over 6 months. And I wont even talk about the situation with my kids or the treehouse. I mean why waste the breath. . . putting good air after bad air. . . . lol. . .

I guess Jiwan called me yesterday. But she's pretended like nothing happened at all. Sure set me up out in the fire to bake and oh did something happen? Where do I find friends like this? I mean would anyone normal allow guests to get drunk and destroy their house . . . . no rent, no responsibilities and a minor doing drugs there too. I never should have let him in, and when he bought a TV that should have been the end!

Shit my own kids never watched TV for years. THANK GOD!!! They learned how to read and think instead of cheat and manipulate. Course then they were forced to do worse anyway.

What else?

Oh give me a break, I'm not really interested in just complaining all day. . .

Oh good, so whatelse do you need to do?

I know there is always volumes of shit I need to do. And I'm so tired of always having more and more to do. So I'll get busy with it now... Happy?

Wired week for SURE

I am not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

now what's up?

I just got some email which referred to Deepak Chopra. I looked up his site and wanted to see if I could volunteer and get a scholorship to his next function. Then I noticed he had a blog online. I read through it. Norm was moving on, after spending too much time there.... lol... uh oh, I've done that more than a few times. But I read through some replies to his posting anyway. As I got to he end I found one that said what I felt. So I decided to read Chopra's posting that everyone was replying to... Thinking if I felt an answer bubble up I'd post too...

So?

I read his note, and copied out his questions at the end and posted a reply. http://www.intentblog.com/archives/2005/12/is_jesus_coming.html ... I guess I've known for years that Jesus Never left us at all ... have you?

No, but not everyone can speak as easily as you, can they? It's interesting though because you taught Kathy how to do this in a single afternoon and it changed her whole life.

I know, what's new, I seem to change everyone's whole life. Or at least everyone I meet.

now can you give some examples?

I noticed Friday that Koehler got a great big new F- 150. I passed him on my bike as he was walking up to the BSN office in the parking lot. It's really funny, because I've thought of calling him Dr. K. Which would really be a trip... since I might meet Claire for lunch next week. Getting Dr. K and Claire out for lunch again. Wow. Course I saw how Claire is writting us all about Binary Economics and has got another Binary conference set with Mike, another prof' that I sent her message too.

I guess I also noticed how I've met several Honor College kids. Michelle working in the BSN office too was asking me about the Peace Corps vs. a PhD. We set up all the office Christmas decorations together.... (lol, i keep telling her to say $100 a tree, everytime someone compliments her work, and told her she could take 60%, while in the BSN college we could do well $$$) I told her that a PhD at her Honors Speed would get her into so much research and grants that she would never get out of it. Career, teaching research... etc... While the Peace Corps would only be a few years and the PhD would be easier after it. Especially since the Corps would help get her a clear powerful passion about research and study on the PhD. She wasn't even sure about her thesis topic, but was already looking for the best national school in Public Health.

So I told her first off that a PhD from some big fancy school is great. But she'd be on the bottom of the totum pole there, while here it might not be a Great Program yet, but she could make it Great. And be working with the people running it all instead of just watching. She agreed and decided she liked to stay in Florida anyway. Jennifer made the same decision too. So Jenn and I are starting the MSM program together. Both doing the Class with Sharon to Green USF next term.

Course Scott and I want to get Equan into the Honor College too. And Cecile has a new student volunteer as well from the Honors College.. . . .

now?

I guess what was really cool was feeling i needed to get Cecile, Koehler, JJ and Sharon together. Ceile has seen my chant while the others know different aspects of it. Cecile and I were updating her MBSR manual and spoke more about my chant. I told her it was ALL about mindfulness... No only am I totally in touch with my breathing and motions... But I also know and feel all the twelve religions and their symbols around me, the cricle I cast and those in the circle... as well as all those who have ever been in the circle and those who have done the ritual before.... lol... and also feel the whole space around us.. from the earth up into the skies and beyond...

Serious mindfulness... lol... somehow she seemed to understand, more than I could say...

Course I've been debating this with Keith all week and Chuck finally watched the "What the Bleep" DVD so he finally understands what I've told him since we met in 1983.... Keith seems to know all this too.... Keith applies it more than Chuck, but Chuck has more faith and understanding of me. But Keith still can't accept that I somehow know something that no one else knows...


Thank you Loving Lord Jesus Christ... Please Only Your Will be done in me this day and ALWAYS... Amen

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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word! 2.10pm

You have really got a lot to do. Or have almost outdone yourself. this is certainly a very interesting weekend you have set before you and you will be plesently suprised as well.

I guess i'm surprised all the time. and i know that i need to get a lot of things done, and really have a great deal to do with everything that is happening all around me. It's like reading the Dalai Lama stuff now. He's got the attention of a lot of the world and will be able to make a lot of things change.

You will too Son, never down play your own power and impact.

I know that's always interesting, as I'm not ever very clear about my place and actions which is something i need to get more control over. there is nothing I can not do. and I know my influence will only increase as i grow and learn to make this clear for me.

You have to realize there is nothing to stop you. more than anything you need to see how everything out there will really help you. Even the seeming dissappointment are really opening doors and improving more for you... The time has come Son, you have a lot of things at hand that need to be completed. And they will be shortly, just get busy

I know i'm getting busy again

You will be soon, there is nothing too complicated for you yet. You are in control and can make a great deal of things grow and change with little or no effort. However, you need to get busy with the tasks you have at hand. For there is a lot of efforts that needs to go into these things, and you must do it all yourself.

I know, Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ for filling me with Your strength and power to achieve as You wish. Amen.

You still have a lot to do and you are making significant progress. You wanted this time to yourself and you have it. it's good to see you are being so productive and learning more as you continue to work on your dreams.

I appreciate how you ahve given me these things to read and inspire me further.

You are just beginning son, there is a lot more to come and a lot more to do. There is nothing that will stop you and you certainly are able to get a lot more done than you could ever imagine.

Why do you always say that, itt really sounds so abstract and almost meaningless. If I can not know how much i can influnce things. . . What's the point!

But You do know. Like you see how Dr. Newkome tried to copy your every dream, and now you find he really only set it all up for you any way. Creating bigger fiefdoms everywhere is only adding fuel to your fire. When teachers and school take over all the public resources, you will thank him dearly, because he started the ball rolling on making all these things into public resources for you to use. . .

I know you always have you plans . . . the Big Picture that goes beyond all the rest, to include everything that is . . . And ake it work together!
Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus!

6.59pm FRIDAY... what a week!

What ?

I've really got much too much going again .

Why?

Because it's just too much. I know I've got my vibration up so much that I can't seem to get anything done.

Why don't you say about what happened tonight?

I went to a Synergy Symposium in the College of Public Health. And I never met anyone. I guess I realized it was for teachers to meet other teachers and I am a student who's not even started to do any research.

What, why do you say that? You are developing a consciousness patent. Do you have any idea what would have happened at the meeting last night if you had simply told everyone what your patent was.

Why do you tell me that now? I can't really run back there, there is nothing left there now, except maybe an empty bottle or a dirty napkin. I guess I never really asked?

We would not have told you anyway. Things really are not ready for this all to come out so strongly. There is really a great deal more you need to do on your own. You always expect someone else you meet will somehow make it work better for you. Like who else did you see tonight.

There was also another group meeting up stairs with Carol Roberts. She had brought in a medical intuitive, who came around asking what anyone wanted for a wish. When she asked me I guess I deflected it all to everyone around me. First asking for the same thing as the guy before me.... "to share what she feels." And then she felt me looking at a lady across the table from me, saying there was a women, in her 40's, but it wasn't clear. Instead of me thinking of anything I really wanted her to read into so I could know more about it.

What else do you want to know about?

I know it's all about my kids. And I know I never write about my kids because they have too much energy already. I really don't need to add any more to them.

They Still need your love and healing....

I know I need to pray for them more. But I also know they are learning as they must. while I need to finish some things too. I know the patent that should be done already would finish a lot of things

What ?

I feel like it would be what breaks this PARADIGM

What wrong with that?

I guess I know that means a lot of other things will break. Like i've got his email about the hurricans so I looked at the maps and saw one bigger than the Gulf of Mexico.

What else do you need to do...?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ I know i need to get busy again...

mind vibrations to Freedom!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

Write some more and let us as well...

I've been finding more and more for my research. The new issue of Scientist found the vibrations I was writting about. So the methods are clear now. And I know I need to submit it.

well... do it now...

I can get it done after class tomorrow.

yes just get it done

I also have to get busy on Koehler's Leadership paper and getting the SMA prototype done.

well. . . . at least you are clear about your tasks

I wrote them down now too. So I also got this other stuff about the mind vibrations too. Holosync CD's are using sounds to create the Alpha, Delta, Gama waves in the mind that can also come with different states of meditation.

SO I guess that's why the negative in my life so abruptly left. I mean yesterday Andrew even wrote a contract to make his position clear in my house. I'm not sure he's going to meet the conditions we wrote. But at least he's making a sound attempt.

Also really interesting is how Keith already found his little Goddess. I know what he did for Equan was a serious good deed, and even getting clear and focused on his 40 days and 40 nights is really cool. . . . but. . .

Remember the Prodigal's Son story. . . what makes his efforts so significant is how he's affeting people so much already.

Hey, i affect all sorts of people too.

well... you are still behind the scenes. you've made long term commitments and long term goals. A little Goddess after 40 days is not the same as staying 16 and having a hundred children.

I know you've said that before.

Yes, and we will again.

I ove You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. thank you for filling me with your strength love and wisdom... continue to lead me into your light... Amen.

Wow, super stuff...

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What are you doing now?

Wow, what a week this was!!! I've been so very flattered by so much. I mean so many things are going so good. Like as I'm helping Equan get into College, and everything with my college degrees come together just as quickly.

JJ asked me to check into the Masters program in Management, of course I've already taken most of the classes and really even seem to prefer it over the MBA since it's more leadership focused. Course I never thought/knew I was getting an MBA to learn more about leadership, but this is certainly where I've been doing my best. LOL. . . reminds me of Equan. Leading without leading. He's doing it all on his own. Like such a strong powerful positive force it's wonderful. Course the opposite has to react as well. Both going on where they must. lol. . . . while I just laugh at the dance of energy, wondering how they will offset each other. I try to care and help both sides, but know one will fall away while the other will prosper and succeed.

I always feel like a spectator. Equan did everything for himself. I might have helped a bit. But his success and glory will be his own. . . lol. . . He's closer to me than ever, even more of a son, brother and friend than ever before. Just like the opposite is also true. Those who fight and argue for control will get what they deserve too. . . Equan full and strong with multiple offers from colleges I'm sure, while the opposite will be in control of their empty bag. . . lol. . . wow I wonder seeing a son and friend so successful . . . while maybe it's my daughter or sister who suffers by their own hands . . . Oh well!

So I got all this stuff together for JJ. Printed out all the business degree programs and such. Then I also got the nursing and public health programs printed. I was struggling to figure how this would all work in my schedule next term. I know I've been doing too much and couldn't imagine cutting anything from my schedule. Actually I felt I needed to teach more, so really wanted to add more to my schedule.

Course the Nursing folks have Stat's & Research Theory classes that I should take. While I can finish my Entrepreneur track and Sustainability in BSN. Those last two will be developing the Greening of USF. . . lol. . . . both classes are involving projects and both teachers want me to explore the recycling to expand into greening.

Then of course Claire invites me to this "binary-economics" meeting. Where other attendees I also invite and seemingly help expand and develop it further. But I realized it's about a more equitable capitol distribution. Those with capitol, real estate, equipment, resources, $$$ control everything which is really destroying our environment, culture and society. So this theory is about trying to get a more equal distribution instead of just the rich getting richer.

One aspect of this theory is about getting "unused capitol resources" to become productive making more capitol. Capitol is needed to create capitol so moving these resources to places where they can be used will help distribute capitol more evenly. I thought about how Greening USF will be about recycling computers and equipment too. So this could be a method to expand and develop binary-economics . . . .

Then I get this email from the BSN Dean. He received it from Global Health (over in Public Health College) about creating some synergy for more applied research integration efforts. WOW, so I get this email after I printed out all this stuff to go over with JJ. And he tells me to explore more "Management, Spirituality & Religion" which is a special area starting to get more research as well.

So WOW. . . my MBA and Environmental Sustainability work could easily be combined into Global Health for an interesting PhD program. I never really thought about it very much but this all fits together so very well it's incredible. . . .

Course as with Equan and Keith, I see so many other things fitting together and making such perfect sense that I can barely question or understand it all. Sure things grow and change all the time. We always need to see the truth of the good positive works and wash away the negative bigotry. There will always be this play between the good and bad in life . . . pity so few are conscious of their own place in it even as the truth is so clear and plain right in their face.

As with Equan, the truth isn't always in the words . . . where his Truth with "FAITH IN CONVICTIONS" is awesome . . . and seen throughout all his works, efforts and actions. Others hold onto and fight over such meaningless words, while the truth of the actions and deeds are lost in their arrogance of selfishness and control.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lead and guide us all to see the Truth in your Words and Ways, so that our actions will speak the truth that words can never achieve. . . Amen. 4:30pm

Wow it was so cool to see Claire. I told her how I was completing another patent. She said she didn't like patents because they restrict public use. So I told her how restrictions are very necessary sometimes. Like if I teach a child to drive, and he runs someone over, that is really my fault. Children are not ready to drive and how in teaching this I take a risk and really take responsibility for what happens to anyone who tries it.

So many people never want to take responsibility for anything. It's interesting how things have gone for me. Like when I chanted with Rowen, there was so much power and clarity. I taught her everything about it. She could understand and relate and went on to learn Reiki and lots more to support the lessons I gave her. But then I've chanted with others and never explained a thing. I never really thought about it before. But I know it was best that I never taught anything to Amir. She was so focused on herself. I guess giving her more power to put into her selfishness would really be detrimental to everyone.

I know this stuff I do really just expands what is. Like I've cleared people and only directed the Light to open doors. I wonder about teaching it more. Once this patent gets out there, things might shift a great deal. I guess people who understand it all will be the ones ready to use it. While others who don't will never see it. I guess that's why it's important to patent it. I don't need just anyone teaching it. That's all I need is everyone learning this and pumping more energy into my circle. . . .

Hum, that's weird. I know everyone who sees this becomes part of it. But I've never thought of them all in the circle with me. I guess I've seen and felt Rowan and Amir in there with me. And of course a few others who like to visit. But I can't believe everyone is? But just like the car, people can drive for good and bad reasons. And each will find their place by what they focus their energy on.

Like it is wonderful how much more Keith is focusing himself. He worked on Equan's papers and then help me with some of mine. The truth and clarity he brings to them all shows his focus. But then he gets distracted by Andrews BS or something else, and I worry about him falling back into drinking. The truth and clarity is seen throughout. Not just in a word or a day of good deeds, but in all the energy and actions in Life.

Hum, what's this trying to tell me? I know there is alwys good and bad around me. And I know i can forgive and move on. But I also know that I can not subject myself to crap. Like if Andrew is set on giving me crap . . . for whatever excuse, whether I'm here and helping him or not, just to leave him alone. His anger and resentment is really his problem. I can forgive and forget, but if I only get crap I'll just move on. There is more than enough for me to do. And wasting my time with crap. . . lol. . . . oh well. I wont go there.

Intersting how much we can learn from the mistakes of others around us. . . . while they seem to only point their nose up in the air and miss the truth hidden behind their own walls of crap. . .

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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What now?

There is really too much happening again. I'm getting too charged up. . .

I had written some powerful emails this morning. Equan asked me to go over his letter for FSU. He went there last week and loves the place. So he wants me to help him get into College. Wow, I hope I can do that for Christopher. I don't think Emily will want my help, but who knows.

So he gave me the first questions and a few line he wrote. So I added some questions to it and sent it back. Soon I read over a page or so, just complimenting his efforts and making suggestions to expand his work. He seemed to get worried that I wasn't editing it too much. I would break up his long sentences and ask for more details. So he started to get worried that it was too personal and such.

I told him how the college would see this. He's being honest and direct sharing real issues with courage and dignity. So he kept writing.

Last night he sent them to me again while i was in my office at USF. He wanted to meet instead of emails of chat anymore. So I stopped by to see him. He had two pages now. Really serious stuff about his father and such. He didn't meet his father until he was 9 years old. While Chris about left his fatehr at 9. . .

I was really honored to help him and review all this stuff with him. This morning I had another copy. So I asked Keith to help too. Keith is such a good editor. I commented about Andrew and Keith immediately siad how I shouldn't talk with what up with Emily and Chris. So I told him more about it and he realized it was more of God's work than anything I did. He still bragged about Andrew, while I think Andrew just manipulates and sneaks around to take whatever he can.

I went out for a SMA meeting and brought some business cards for Land Development and Patents. It was a really good meeting. Talking about finishing the class project and then starting patent development businesses. It was really kinda awesome!

So when I got home I was wondering what I would have to deal with now. Keith was out and Andrew would likely be home. I walked in and all the lights and fans and AC was on. And no one was there. Reminded me of Dan turning everything on to spite me, so he could sit comfy on the couch watching TV. So I got pissed Of course.

I shut everything off. . . Windows were open with the AC again. No one ever respects anything here, I feel like such a fool trying to help people.

So ouside I found Andrew with his buddy on their smoking chairs hidding around the side. He jumped up as soon as I saw them and I started yelling at him. He doesn't respect anything I say, he doesn't respect any of my property. He's a spoiled little brat who just uses and lies. Course he said his dad told him he could turn on the AC. yea right!!

Ok so I called Keith on the phone and asked him about the AC. He told him to close all the windows before turning on the AC. Wow, so Andrew didn't lie. What a surprise. Well I guess I know Andrew is really a good kid. He just has this arrogent gotta be cool BS fucking him up all the time. Like when Andrew got serious about the contract for his dad. He's really smart and good about this stuff. But he just has no respect for me.

Course I'm the one who asked him about staying in my house. And working and grades. But he's not been able to keep up with that for more than a week at a time. Well maybe a few days, and then he's doing something he shouldn't again.

I keep telling Keith that this energy stuff is really serious and getting all these negative distraction are really hurting us. I mean I will never get anything done here if all this crap keeps coming up in my face. I certainly wont let anyone in my house again. I just can't deal with all the extra crap it brings. I mean it's great when Andrew cut veggies and helps out. And I'm thrilled to see Keith taking the garbage out. . .

I mean having real people that respect the space and carry some weight is LIGHT YEARS ahead of poor Dan that never finished anything. But these little gestures burn up in the smoke of the drinking, drugs and other headaches. . . Which really sucks. Cause I'm likely never going to bring anyone to my house now. . .

Guess I'll invite people over to chant and teach and stuff. . . But I can't imagine ever wanting a roommate again!

That kinda sucks.
And you know sunday at church Jerry spoke about reaching out to others and helping people. And I thought abotu how Keith's "bimbo & booze" thing could really be reaching out to help people. But how can we help out neighbor with the speak of dust in their eye, if we still have a bid log in our own eyes. . .

So what right do I have to try to help anyone either, if I can't deal with little shit like trash and windows. Course common courtousy and respect of the property is kinda expected. But if I pull someone out of the toilet, I need to accept getting some shit on my hands. Wow, poor Emily's room... I really will have tons of shit to clean up there.

Oh well live and learn!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please lead and guide me to your Grace Love and wisdom! Amen.

Are you sure?

I am not afraid of anything. Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word! 2:35pm

What are you doing now?

I reread what you wrote last night. And again everything that I read and see is telling me to do the very same thing. It's such a wonderful trip to be on. But it still scares me so much.

What now Son? You know and see so very much all the time ... whenever the time is NOW!! It's so funny to see you writing songs with Us again. No one would ever understand anything you wrote because you had all these songs littered throughout your writting. Now you simply write our words to you in another format. What wonderful tools man's technology has created on this earth for you. But none of it would be here if not for your drive and desire in total Love of Truth.

I know i've not caused everything.

Oh but you have Dear Son. You all have. Each of you carry the same genetic structure that has evolved for countless mellenium from the beginning of time. Everything that exists is reflected and affected by who you are and what is inside of you. Remember the point of everything is reproduction. You are the first Being to carry this high a vibration of God. Nothing exists beyond your reflection and influence, because It Is all inside of you.

Just for the sake of it, try to find a DNA that exists that is not in some form within you. If not as a component of your own DNA, then a tool used in digestion or otherwise inside of you somewhere. People have learned their independance so they could discover the power of choice.

Choice is fundamental for Love.

Without a choice any Love is only half as strong. Remember all consciousness is about creating God. What is God? God is Love. So the highest strongest and most refined energy of creation is the choice of Love. And the highest Love is the Love of Love = The Love of God!

You must choose to Love God. Not some physical expression you can control and manipulate but some abstract Faith in Love. Choosing Love and God and Consciousness is Loving something that only the strength and Power of God could Love!

Mankind is choosing to Love God. Choosing Faith in Love, conviction in truth over the lost meham of greed in materialism. you all think you need this materials. It's not anything outside of you. you created it all and will destroy it again. But is it the creation that controls or the Creator that controls? Again it's all your choice.

I know

What you know it only a smal little piece of what you are opening up. Everything is about to open up very strongly and what you are doing now will be opening up so many things to come that you will be very busy.

Oh is this something new? I am always very busy with these things that you place before me.

What you are now doing is not something that has ever been done before. you might think it's simple words on paper. But remember this is really millions of 1's and 0's of some computer language translated into electrons and then photons of light pulsating throughout the universe. Sure it's only a vibration of energy and light so small that it can circle your world endlessly. However, just as you attitude in the office determines how well your PC works, so many other things can fee land respond to this light you send out.

I know that's why we are here. We can carry the power adn Life of God and Love anywhere. This healing that I can offer to my brother here or the dirt under my feet refelcts throughout the universe to create a vibration

What now?

"Today is the day I'm ready... No matter what happens next I'm ready... ready to listen to my heart, never go against it's way.. honor and ador my spirit, set it free in every way... today is the day I'm ready..." 4:33
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you so very much for all you share with me.. Please lead and guide me to be and do all that you require.... Thanks, Amen!

what are we in for now?

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word! 447pm

What are you ready for Son?

I'm ready for everything I guess, and I know it's coming really quickly.

Why?

I guess because of how You do these things to me. . . everything that happens is so very planned and clear. I see Your Plans in everything. Even Bush killing Iraq (that I never hear about) and all the other chaos in this word. But I get nervous about Your plans for me all the time.

Why?

I know it's because of the Black Mountain trip. I escaped for a week in the mountains knowing You had planned this fun vacation for me. . . and I did exactly what I felt You wanted every moment

You are still doing that.

I know, that's what makes me nervous. I mean all those spontanious past-life regressions were so intense . . . everything was so fast and strong there. Then the sudden weather . . . it totally freaked me out.

Why Son? You see those things all the time. Everyone you meet you feel into their aura very quickly. Remember you demanded never to see any of that. Which really made it hard for others you are with to see it either. You all think this energy stuff and angels are all fantasies of the mind just like a dream at night. But they are real manafestations of energy. So your blocking the appearance, can block it for everyone. These events ARE in the mind at night . . . . exactly as they ARE in life. Your creation goes out and is seen elsewhere. You decided not to see it here, but you still create it and so it is.

I know, but that experience with all those people in Black Mountain was nothing I could have imagined. How did I create that?

When you decided to love your mom. You told her for weeks to get to the doctor as you both worked on the greivance for the county in her office. Yes she read so much it made her sick to her stomach. You both knew that. But still she never would get to the doctor until you forced her. Then she found Stage III Ovarion Cancer! And you both knew she was dead.

You accepted and knew the truth from the moment it all started. She knew it too and said good-bye to you. You told her she could beat it if she wanted. But, she knew she had to say good-bye. And somehow you knew it too. And when it started in the hospital and you met Heidi who only confirmed it all for you . . . everything was just starting.

And when she returned from the hospital and gave you the CWG book what did you do?

I Know that's the first time I read a book in one sitting. Then I searched the web for them and got the free trip to Black Mountain. And so I had to go . . .

Yes you decided to Love your mom and respected her wishes and followed it all the way through. Remember you asked us every move before you went. Even before you spoke to Laura and Tim or anyone in the Mountains. You were very carful and sincere and everyone there knew this.

What did you bring with you?

I took my bike. . . lol . . . But I know what You are asking about. I went and found all the pages of my Journal that I copied for Chuck. . . .

Why did you have Journals copied for Chuck?

You told me to. . . Well Chuck was deciding to move back to Florida and marry Joni. So he needed to know what was going on with me and You. He wanted to see what God was doing with STARS. Actually I sent it all to him in the mail . . . so I really have no idea what he wanted to find in there.

Why Son, do you think he might have wondered why you are so strong and clear about what you do??? You have written with us forever . . . every writing is with us. Some see it and call it out, like CWG did. And some simply deguise it in their own ways. You actually gave Chuck some very serious information. Each time you write with us, we really get down and specific on issues that no one else will write. Yes you told us to find a "Journalist" to get this all published for you.

But NOW you also have found and created a way to publish this all for yourself. So it was published. What Chuck read was very strong because it was ONLY Our writing. You opened your boxes and copied out everything that had a written prayer to God on it. Hundreds of pages you copied... again and again finding the prayer and adding it to the stack.

And you took this to Black Mountain

You told me to!

Yes and everyone reads it again and again. Vibrating that energy through out all consciousness. Remember what you said about consciousness the Human form is an evolution for God. Everything is God. What we can share and do from here is NOT nearly as powerful and far reaching as what you can do there. This is why people can so easily claim to BE God or Talk Directly to God. satan did that too. satan didn't care or respect how God wanted things done. satan wanted to do it his way. he knew better. having the freedom to choose which way to go is not the same as having the Wisdom to choose the best way to go.

But God's WAY is different. There is only ONE WAY. And when you respect that everything works out perfectly. . . no selfishness, no lies, nothing lost. And that's why Black Mountain is so powerful. Everything that you did there is still happening. You wouldn't see it or allow it a full expression into your space . . . . so the powerful conscious expression is manafesting over and over again. Everywhere it can find to be expressed and come out. again and again this power comes through. . . You can go to Ashville now and see this. . . as well as Ashland "Water Winds Fire & Earth"

You wanna conduct an experiment. Ask Cecile to schedule a Chant for you in the YMCA of Black Mountain where you can share with some crippled children.

You are getting really crazy!

Why do you say that. You knew that was coming out. Every moment you see a person in pain, or fear, or trapped in some condition you just want to reach out to touch them and change them. You have so much Love to share and you are so afraid to share it. Even your brother there with you now. Who has been hurt and crippled with your own actions is still out of reach for you. No one can do and change things like you can now.

You've barely begun to understand what this chant is all about. and who did it or taught it to you. There you've written how the Mayans used it to stay on earth. The first people to carry consciousness fried up. It was too powerful for mankind to contain God. God created everything. God moves the lightning and directs the planets. To place all this power and knowing into anything is simply impossible.

Or it was impossible. Nothing in all creation could hold all that is. So mankind had to learn how to BE without BEING God. WE found ways to make this energy of consciousness stay in mankind. We made God. So that God could Grow slowly and easily. But man is selfish and the natural process of creation and evolution brought up this power too quickly.

Mankind was given smaller and smaller amounts of God . . . the brain and Heart can contain consciousness in very special ways, they can contain God. But the Consciousness of God brings powers that the natural brain and heart get lost in. Their Karma from action on earth burnt them up. So their light turned into the dirt of the earth. All dirt, all earths, all planets were created this way. From light into darkness. Energy into Matter. God into .... god.

So now you remember a Mayan way that mankind had developed to keep God on Earth. A method to move the Energy of god in Man down through the Earth to clear it and bring it back up into GOD in Heaven. You are taking the energy of mankind corrupted into the dirt of the earth and bringing it back into the Light of Heaven.

You are only going to scare people. . .

Why??? They are all here reading this now. Each cell in the galaxy is vibrating a little different from the keystocks you are sending out into the ethers. you are doing this. You are creating this change. You are making this that has never been made. Because you are allowing it to Be. You are Being and Expressing this that has never Been before.

You told me I was doing something very old that the Mayan Priests did to save their people.

Yes, but now people are ready. More and more of what is here on earth is ready for the consciousness of God to be expressed more and more freely. Again you are the catalysts. What you can do is something that no one has done. The old Mayan Priests were alone in thier dance. No one knew what they did or how they did it. People would watch like with the TV and be changed just the same.

Now mankind is ready to make these changes themselves. And stop being under the control and manipulation of others. Everyone can create and Love again. And what you are doing for them can change everything.

Thank you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please help me to grow and learn to achieve in all that you have placed before me. Help me to share and lead as I know I must for your Glory. I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ! I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ! I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ! I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ! I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!I love you Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What are you doing now?

I'm working on my leadership paper again. it's a struggle here in this office. I've noticed I get distracted a lot. Today was the very first day I took a paper outside to read it while sitting in the Sunshine. I mean here in Florida, you would think I did it everyday.

Why do you make it such a big deal . . . you are getting closer and closer all the time...

I guess I'm just a real whimp.

Why do you put that kinda energy into you space now. You keep telling Keith how important it is to get clear and focused. You were both very clear at one time. And worked to help each other and get things done. You need to get back there again. And you will. It's all within your reach now.

I really have so much work to do...

but you rather write, and are finding your place in it all again.

Am I going to regress or something?

What you are doing will be exactly what is needed. And You need to just have faith and get busy.

I know you are always right.... I'm sorry...
I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

What are you doing now?

I am sorta falling asleep. I did all this work around the house this weekend. Clearing up my spaces and making salads and such. Then I fell alseep early last night but was awake again by 4am to chant. I didn't do everything perfect, but I could feel how much cleaning the space and getting organized really made things more powerful.

I know I need to get busy on a lot of things, but I'm already reaching for coffee here. I don't know why. It's Holloween and I should be going out to celebrate. But all I can think of doing is going to sleep now. I've not been writing too much or reading too much. I feel like there is an endless list of things for me to do and I'm just tired of it all.

Liek I'm not sure where Kieth is, whether he's focused and working or chasing bimbos. Then Andrew should be home soon which could mean more headaches or worse. I'm not planning on going home any time soon. But then I've not planned to get to the Center either. My desk is buried here and I'm not sure what to start with.

Please dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ fill me with Your strength and Spirit so I may work and achieve for your glory. Amen.

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Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of The Word!

Yes your welcome son, this is good, you are doing as you need to do though you seemingly know so very little about what you are doing to affect so many different people. It's certainly not an issue, except that you are moving so fast, that a little more prayer and consideration will go a long way. There is also a great deal more that needs to be done.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. I feel its all about that sex noise i feel outside now. Keith and Christen sitting outside my window at a table..... bla bla bla... while bridget and i were speaking about the energy vibrations of the people around us at the holloween party.

Yes what party is that. you've not said a word about it yet...

I got a call from Trace saying he was picking up a friend from down the road.... so he dropped in to visit. Even had some beer to share. He and Carl were going to a Holloween Party down the road. And they soon invited us to go too. Uhg, my mind flashed to the sight of how I'd just gotten a package in the mail for my own "Holloweening" . . . lol . . . What a trip! ! ! Course then I had to drive too, "oh forget it," go without me my car is packed with all the tools from the treehouse and I aint going to deal with it now.

So then Trace said he could drive us all. Uhg, I still gotta get up and get dressed. It's funy how i whined like the little child. Poor eric has to get off his big water bed, shut off the laptop, music, lights, lol . . . and get dressed like a normal person. . . put away the mocha cup, and make his bed at 9pm. . . LOL. . . what a life, who me retired, lol. . . no still working too much . . . lol...

Yes way too much on these songs. . . Sail away sail away, we can reach we can reach, sail away sail away, we can sing we can sing sail away sail away sail away sail away

So We started driving out 22nd to Hillsborough, then to 41st... oops, where's DITTO.. UH OH, his dog: RRRRppppTTTT. . $%#@ TC stopped turned around. I figureed for sure Ditto was inside with Bear. But I never saw him. We even went in and out a few times before everyone was ready to go. When we got back to my house, TC whistled a few times, and out came Ditto from the neighbors yard. So we packed up in the car again. I grabbed a few hats and we were off.

When we arrived 30 minutes later everyone had serious costumes. Really some good ones except us. I looked like Indian Jones, Carl had a rowdy wig, Trace had his dog, and Keith had his USF Volunteer T-shirt . . . interesting crew of course. They had a live band, big bon-fire. Keg of beer, pot-luck supper and gads more... lol... Even sexy waitresses with jello shots ... A Very nice big ranch with lots of doctors and professionals from UCH and around town.

Yes what was it you felt and thought now...

I was seeing, and feeling lots of stuff i was very familiar with, like i've known all these people all of my life. WOW do we have a LOT TO DO! lol... that's such a trip. I mean I could feel how we had been knights on the round table together. That's what happened in Black Mountain. I felt the Pirate ships and the confederates with Tim and John . . . . Laura, Maria . . . you know there
were several other people there too... Hum? They all saw the thunder storm!.. H E A R D!

Yes what were you doing before you were invited to the party?

I was sitting on the couch watching the energy dance as Carl, Trace and Keith chatted at the dinner table. Luckily there are only three chairs, and Keith even grabbed the 3rd from my chant circle. . . So i sat back on the couch and watched them all talk about stuff. It's funny how men are always in this control mocho phase. Or Trace and Keith are interesting. Course I met Trace at my very first engineering orientation 101 class. . . where he also walked in the auditorium with a dog in his bookbag.

I met Keith some months later, but Trace and Keith recognize they've known each other for that same 20 years. But then Trace says how he met Carl at about the same time as well. So all of us met about the same time, but we've only met up and socialized once . . . .

While this discovery and discussion went on, i started telling them how this cloud of energy around them was mixing to form new colors. Carl who was busy goofing around avoiding both discussions . . . was simply playing with the dogs, and avoiding this reunion between Keith and Trace. . . He was really more involved like a catalist, busy connecting and moving in the dance of the energy instead of the power of the Words they were embroiled in.

Of course when I said what I was doing they all said how Eric goes off speaking his weird wacko stuff. . . Spirit God stuff again. . . .

Yes what happened at the party..

I was totally into this Spirit God stuff!!!;-) I really tried to avoid all contact with the people. They were so strong and intense. Like I just walked around and watched everyone. I could feel the eyes on me, especially when I danced . . .

You need to get more serious about this. . .

Yes I know, I was intentionally walking all around so I could dance my steps around. And i love to find a corner away where i can watch and space to the music dancing all out alone with my God and myself. Ok, never made it to all out there. . . But, I wanted to, I guess it was more of a private party so I didn't want to get out of hand or anything. . . doing too much can be dangerous too. . . . lol. . .

I basically walked to find Keith then to find Trace, or Carl... then to the fire, and back to the restroom. Course i saw the king piss beside the house and went there too. It's so funny how the conscious energy of the space responded to that. It's like we are all still living in a cave and the leaders only pissed there . . . Powerful Ritual stuff, like we were sharing the queen or something. And then when I walked into the house and all the leaders where there. . . . lol . . . keith in the middle chattering from pretty lady to pretty lady. . .

I washed my hands and noticed the leaders respond to me. It's funny how this worked. But even cooler was that this one lady seemed to know Trace and Carl, so I kept meeting her. Each time someone different was there ready to introduce us. She even joked once about how we'd love to be introduced again!

So finally I said to her how I liked how strong the energy was. How so many of these people have such a "High Vibration" so they could only see each other once in a while. I know how I could get lost in any of them. . . lol. . . Then I said to her how they get this really strong rush from just being around each other and its great, but too much and they would burn up. She told me who her friends were and how she only sees this one every six months. But they all go camping together and have other events so they stay very close.

LOL. . . sorta like when i first started at USF again and stopped to meet TC for lunch and he would critique my homework. We had not seen each other in months, and suddenly we are meeting and working on things together again. Now Keith showing up for my second year in school, just as he had the first time around. FUCK! and I'm only 16 still, runing around on my bike. . . dreaming of having that big truck someday so i could carry all my friends bikes too. . . . Lol, and the princess to drive it too. . . . lol. . .

Yes. . . some things never change. Like you have written the most abstract, disjointed, mix-up where every sentence sould be it's own paragraph. Nothing is complete, nothing is clear. You need to practice what your preach. Your brother has come home to help out and get strong. You need to take this a lot more seriously. Being 16 forever can get tiresome, so waste not want not. . .

I was trying to describe how the experience for Holloween was like Black Mountain. Black Mountain has been coming up a lot lately. The Holloween thing felt very close to the spontanious regression state I had in Black Mountain. Like King Arthur at the party was actually the owner. Big old Dr. who just loved Holloween, tons of decorations resetting his whole house and yard for it. We never faced each other but brushed by close a few times. . . Those who did look at me almost opened their whole being to me. . . like I could have regressed to a hundred places we'd been together. . .

Yes. . . so what happened with Bridget?

I was telling her how the power between the positive and the negative was very intense and the vibrations were rising. She told me how she could feel it too. So then I pointed out on one side back behind the band a bunch of people dressed like vampires and such were standing in a grave site taking pictures. You see here, there is so much power and force here that people don't even know how they affect it. Making sacred shapes and sights to bring in energies. We are here close positive resourceful friends, while there again behind the scenes are the opposites trying to undercut everything. . . wow, we need to be careful . . .

This is what happened to Tim when he was asking me about the Good and bad in Black Mountain. In the mountains I watched as dark clouds of evil swooped down around him to soak up the power of his words. Then they vanished into the shadows with my words of the Light to Tim. I realize again now there were a dozen people in the woods with us debating these things. And remember describing to all of them what I saw as it happened. . . I wish Keith would just accept a vision instead of demanding the root phyical dirt in the face approach

Yes. . . but Bridget?

I was really connecting with her good. She even asked me about religion. So I said how each religion is right for someone, and we will all make it there sooner or later. I went on to say how Jesus showed us The Way . . . she immediately said she wasn't Christain getting defensive . . . and I rememebered what Keith said and told her that all the paths go to the same place anyway. But we each need to make the choices that are right for ourselves. . . so all religions or none are fine.

Oh yea right, I wish I said things so clearly to her. But I guess I did, since we only got more intense and personal with our conversation at the last minute. While there at the same time TC, Carl and Keith were getting ready to go. . . as were her friends. There at the last minute I finally asked what she did professionally. Divorce Attorney!

Uhg, just said bye to christopher last week . . . lol . . . he's lost in his sister's selfish phycodrama into the twilight zone of man's greed and materializm . . . and she tells me about her 17 & 15 yr old boys (??) She likely didn't beleive me when i said mine were 15 and 13. . . lol. . . actually she said I had them really early and she had them really late. . . . I gave her my card and told her i was very interested in seeing how these vibrations increase as we explored this more.

Yes. . . . that's right. . . . . now what else did you say to Keith about the trip to Black Mountain?

Oh, I was saying about how the sparks rolled off my shoulders in the woods of the Mountain. It freaked me out so much I had to run out of there.

Yes. . . . But why is it frightening to see the power of God?

I was telling Keith how I was afraid to come home to my house. Like now Andrew came back from his Pappa's and I asked him to write up another contract like he did for his dad. But i want it to say what work he's going to do around here and how he wont touch, steal, mess with any of my stuff anymore in return for the PC he was using. Course he immediatly went into defence to deny stealing anything. . . . and the anger and hostility filled the room. . . . so i left!

I explained to keith how I've got this space I've dedicated to God for His Family with mankind. And I was the retired old caretaker with a long list of duties and had no time to babysit delinqents. Course the nun in black ready to take the rod to Andrews fingers as he opens my door flashed in mind as I told him. We talked about the 40 days and 40 nights that he needed to get clear and focused on a real life. He argued it was only about drinking. . . . So i've tried to explain how we are dealing with a lot more energy here than just these little bodies and such.

I keep telling him how he's just getting into the toilet chasing bimbos and booze, and he says how I was judgemental since I "flerted with Bridget" . . . But he failed to see how Bridget and I were discussing God's Work . . . while sex in the toilet was bringing all this pollution into my house. I guess I was never was this clear with him. I wasn't this clear with Eel either. I tried to tell them both how much being centered on the positive now is important. I guess it's something to do with now . . . .

Oh shit, I've been trying to write my patent . . . which means that I'm pulling together some seriously powerful positive stuff here so the negative will be getting powerful and desperate.

Yes. . . . But what of the power of God?

I guess I was telling Keith how I've seen the power of God fly from my fingers and it terrifies me to be threatened or harrassed into using it for the wrong reasons

Yes. . . . The power of God is at hand. And the 40 days and 40 nights brings one into clarity of vision and focus into truth. This is not some fantasy bridge game or chess tournament but this has all of this world riding on this. Each world around each sun must makes the same choice one day. Will it be truth into Love and the purpose of creation in light, or will it be a lie in the darkness of selfishness in materialism.

Everyone must make the same choice every day. Some like your children make the choices that affect millions. While others like Dan drag down the few and the weak, but again its a choice. We can all smile and pretend, or we can get real and carry our weight helping others and doing instead of just waiting for the hand-outs

I guess i told keith to get focused or get out. He keeps trying to put it into a box, separate it from himself. Like the breathalizer or some other duty. I tell him it's and energy thing and again he tries not to address it. His personal energy functions are only his business, and my "arrogent judgements about his wasting time" are the only problem he sees.

Yes. . . . But what of the power of God? Have you asked God to help lead and teach Keith to see the truth in his ways?

Please Dearest Jesus help adn lead Keith to fear the power of God and fly into the work and dedication you need tfor the fulfillment of the Glory you have set before us. All for the Glory of Father Son and Holy Ghost amen.