8:27:30 PM

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's up?

It's a full moon out. . . I can tell I'm going to blow the doors off of this place when I Chant tonight.

I FINALLY biked to school again. Wow I love that so much. Then we had like a party in my office with my CGM team and basically got burned. I scheduled two meeting today, and we are wrong on so much and need to redo a lot. Course it was nothing I did so I felt like a fool asking to get something to work on . . . we are meeting again tomorrow.

Then I biked back to catch a Yoga class. First one there of course, so I had some time to chat with Cyn. . . first person I saw there too. She said it was a small class, but it was full when she started. She's tried to do two, and evidently didn't get enough students. I know how much that will change now of course. I almost made it to the Kundalini Class last night too. Oh well. Liz was nice and someone else I knew there gave me a big hug in greeting as Cyn did too. . . .

Hum I felt like I need to start my class there too. But I'll wait and see. Liz asked me about that once before, so it might be cool. No rush on anything now, I've got to just let things go where they will. I've got more than enough to do already and all the energy coming through is just getting stronger and stronger. . .

What about your intentions and directing all this energy?

yes I know that's my job, cause I can make more happen than most people ever even dream about . . . Hum sounds like I need to get down to business . . .

What about falling in Love? You've been talking about that for years, and more than ever in the last few months. . .

I know. So that will happen too. Sooner than I think even.

What do you want?

Oh forget that, I'm not playing that game again . . . I'm trying to take I easy with things, if I go answering that question AGAIN, NOW. . . then I know I'll have to be careful tomorrow and keep my eyes open. I really have a lot of things to do tomorrow already, and I've not done anything with the videos for a while so I really need to get busy with that too.

Yes but what about all this Power you bring up when your passions come out. You talk about all these intentions and moving all this power. But then the one thing you know will bring you more power than anything else you down play?

I get it, so You want me to get out more . . .

What about just allowing things to happen and sharing what you feel more freely. Like tonight with Cyn you got to the point really quickly, but you really didn't go anywhere with it. Actually in this case that was the best thing to do, but that's because you will see her again next week too. If you want to make more happen everywhere else you will need to grab it while you can...

Oh great, So I'm not "grabbing" enough or fast enough?

What do you think? Everyone you know asked about sex the moment you mentioned meeting someone. The truth and passion was so thick and clear to everyone, but you. Course if you meet someone who talks about being fertile, then it seems like there is something wrong with you for not having sex. Do you need a written invitation or something?

Oh give me a break. I never have sex, well sure I do playing around with my lover sneaking a quickie. . . lol . . . but to meet someone and just get into sex right away still is kinda freaky to me. I guess it's possible with the right connections, and sometimes things just happen. But to have that state of mind is not something I can deal with now.

yes but What about the power and focus you can have with it?

Oh I get it now . . . people are focused and centered on something that I know better than anything. . .

Now you are thinking. . . What have you known about this?

Oh all the roman kings and rulers had these big harems to build up their power before battle. It was just something that we understood and used to bring more power. . . lol, Like I need anymore?

What it is though is getting the right attitude and using the power you already have. If you are conscious about all these things you do and know how to make things happen . . . then it is really about time you did it a bit more.

I know what you mean . . . there are still too many things I let slide. I always feel and see things happening all around me, where I know I can let out some spontaneous insight to change and shape it. I get what I need to be doing more. . . I just need to get totally free in Your Spirit and let things happen more. . .

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please fill me with Your Strength, Love and Wisdom for the Glory of God; Our Father Son and Holy Spirit!
Amen

Valentine's Day - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

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Valentine's Day - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia: "February fertility festivals

In Guerber's passage on the worship of Vali: 'Vali is god of eternal light, as Vidar is of imperishable matter; and as beams of light were often called arrows, he is always represented and worshipped as an archer. For that reason his month in Norwegian calendars is designated by the sign of the bow, and is called Lios-beri, the light-bringing. As it falls between the middle of January and of February, the early Christians in efforts to stop the Germanic tribes from celebrating their rituals, dedicated this month to St. Valentine, who was also a skillful archer, and was said, like Vali, to be the harbinger of brighter days, the awakener of tender sentiments, and the patron of all lovers.'

The association of the middle of February with love and fertility dates to ancient times. On the ancient Athens calendar, the period between mid-January and mid-February was the month of Gamelion, dedicated to the sacred marriage of Zeus and Hera.

In Ancient Rome, February 15 was Lupercalia. Plutarch wrote:

Lupercalia, of which many write that it was anciently celebrated by shepherds, and has also some connection with the Arcadian Lycaea. At this time many of the noble youths and of the magistrates run up and down through the city naked, for sport and laughter striking those they meet with"

Movies

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What do you feel now?

I know feeling, feeling and more feeling... I have all this intense power around me. I can feel so much that is really kinda neat. I know I should be free and clear about it all and who cares what gory details I see and feel . . .

If you could live this life over, Eric, would you still want there to be the same challenges?

Loaded question, huh?

Yeah, you cherry-picked each and every one. And you knew exactly what you were doing.

In awe of you -
The Universe


Thoughts become things... choose the good ones! ®
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Kind of like you were at Macy's, on rollerblades, Eric.

I ran across some filmmakers competition for the Gasparilla. I guess they have so much fun and success with the Art Festival so why not make it for film too. So I signed up as a volunteer and sent something out to Dave. Of course he wants to make a High-Def little short for it. And asked me about a script or something . . . then he started talking about how he tried a hundred careers and degrees before finding something that could express his passion. . . .

Funny, I started with a hundred passions and am now creating a career and degree to match my favorite. Like what's the point in doing anything if we don't enjoy it. It's really kinda funny how backwards people are.

What else did you do on these lines. . . ?

Oh Mike saw the "What the Bleep" movie and agreed how his article referred to some similar ideas. But then he was very clear about how the being there or not there stuff was just a little bit too far out there and really is BS to him. So I told him how it's really possible to experience exactly as they described but it takes efforts to practice the skills. Not simply easy stuff. Like learning anything else if you take the time to practice and work at it, you can do anything. . .

Sure then he told me about the Million Dollar challenge from the James Randi Educational Foundation

What did you do?

I went and wrote them of course. Reading a bit on their site, I just started laughing. They are searching for the "para-normal" proof . . . . lol . . . oh sure, if my middle name wasn't synchronicity it would have to be paranormal. I mean, all my life I've seen and played with this stuff. . . Heck if someone wants to see some paranormal stuff, then all they need to do is try to spend a week with me. . . lol. . . just try to keep up for one week!

Course that's what I thought with Mike too. We could do anything he wanted to do. Learn how to bend spoons or move objects, or whatever . . . wanna play with manifesting something. He's the skeptic to the end. So I realized how cool it would be for us to pick something to learn and do it together. Where two or three have gathered together in My name

What did you feel now?

Oh It would just be more power and control than ever . . . it's so funny, I always feel like I run circles around all this stuff. Like telling Mike the movie was all old news, all things I've done or seen already. It's really funny, once in a while I meet someone who really knows I can see right through them. They relate and understand something about me and recognize there is really no point to it. Who cares who really knows or not, what matters is what we do with our knowledge whether we hide under a rock because so and so says you should or whether you get out and do your thing.

Too many people hide, and don't even know it. They have the TV on and listen to all this psycho-drama in the world pretending not to notice as they eat a Big Mac with a Coke. But the truth is the pollution they eat enhanced by the pollution they watch and listen to all is designed to make them brain-dead anyway. So the more they pretend nothing is wrong or nothing can affect them, the more their brains turn to mush and they loose touch with all the truth.

What did you feel with this?

I know I share so much with people. And once in a while someone listens. Some times people come along who really listen and understand me. It seems to happen so briefly for the most part; but it does happen some times. So I shine a light into this dark cavern surrounded by all this psycho-drama that they are slowly sinking into. I open up and reach out, and some times people hang on for a while or are inspired to reach out. But then often people go as fast as they come into me. I share what I can and hope and pray for them, but then they are off again to get lost. . . Oh well I tried. Nothing I can do now!

It's kinda neat when I see people return to me again and again over the years. Sharing insights and growth as if I'm there with them all along. It's all cool. No fear, No worries for me. . .

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ. Please Lead and Love all those I meet, Bring them light and truth to grow into Your Light, For the Glory of God Our Father Son and Holy Ghost, Amen!

Monday January 29, 2007

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Monday January 29, 2007
Yesterday | TODAY | Tomorrow

Today's Outlook for

The Gemini Moon's tense opposition with dark Pluto today sets up a situation where a slight deviation from the acceptable script can send the whole relationship up in smoke. Conflict is short-lived, for the Moon enters her home sign of emotionally sensitive Cancer at 5:15 pm EST. We may brood now, fearfully withdrawing from the world. Even if we are anxious, it's not healthy to stay safely tucked behind our castle walls where no one can reach us.

Subject: TUT... A Note from the Universe
Did you know, Eric, that the average person looks 793.7% more attractive when they smile? Not to mention healthier, wiser, slimmer, richer, and cooler.

They do.

And smiles "become things" too -
The Universe

Let's ROCK, Gorgeous!

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Add your saunter to the equation, Eric... and you best be careful where you walk that puppy.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Kirtan

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What happened now?

I did a Kirtan again, and I really went into orbit. I must have done all these things a million times, or wrote them and created them a million years ago . . . I hear these words and sounds. Then I start trying to do them . . . and they end up taking over. My breathe goes in and out to the rhythm and my whole being reverberates to the sounds. I could feel the building moving to our tones. And the light and power just came right through me. . . wow. . .

What else, come on. . .

Oh Cyn was sitting next to me! Still no ring on her finger! I remembered our first class together where she was saying how I connected to spirit deep in meditation through her class. So here in Kirtan I was totally fearless, she knew about it all already. . . . so off I went! I really didn't know anyone else, or really care . . . so it was really great. She clearly enjoyed it too . . . lol . . . I could feel a few others riding our tails too . . . lol . . . that's so cool when it just happens.

What else?

I knew Maggie was happy to see me there again too. Liz was polite and nice greeting me too. No one has bought the property next door yet. So Maybe I need to! Course Dave and Laura both asked me about investing again last week . . . and I got an email from the VC, or two! So I know I really need to get busy on all these things again. . . lol . . . I get distracted a little bit, but everything comes through to me anyway.

What else did you learn . . . ?

Oh it was the Mayan Calendar stuff, it's all about connecting to NOW so I'm back on Tolle again! Connecting all the dots in my life. Today the Mayan Astrologer from Atlanta sat next to me in Church. So I gave her a Chant card saying we need to trade some lessons. She was thrilled, "synchronicity" she said . . . didn't admit that was my middle name.

What else do you need to do?

I need to get to sleep . . . and start riding my bike to school again!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

5:09:36 PM

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What

I need to admit, I'm pissed. Lyn called and with no warning, no reasoning, no justifications, no discretion or kindness simply to say "BYE," nothing, no more, never! It felt like another person talking. I asked if she was at work and she admitted she stepped out to call me. But it was certainly the professional Lyn pulling some deal and doing whatever she had to do to get her way. I already said how it felt like a lie and more like something she did to appease her mom and make whatever "final efforts" she could make with her "ex" all alone without some outside influence à ME!

Sure she knows I can do anything so she expected me to write her and certainly expects that I will understand "whatever," whenever she comes back . . . if that's what she plans to do when the "ex" turkey fumbles again. I mean she told me he has gone 6 months with no contact with Ciera. WOW! I remember when colleen first moved out and never told me where she went or anything. I went like 3 days with no contact with Emily and Christopher and I was nearly ballistic. Course now not seeing them is completely different. They are teenagers now, not little kids like they were back then. I mean Chris was at least 6 years old, NOT 3!

What else do you feel now?

I keep getting her buzzing into me too . . . I try to keep her out but she sneaks in through her daughter or something else that inspires thoughts of her again. It's really weird. When I first noticed Ciera there in a chant with me, it was like she had followed her mom in. Then I thought it was more her daughter pushing things and needing to learn my rituals anyway. Now when I sense Ciera coming in, I welcome her and love her knowing her mom is struggling with crap so no one is taking care of her again.

But then I noticed her mom was sneaking in behind her. And when I caught her on it she started all this "using her daughter" crap. I wont talk to her at all, and just brush her off. Course her daughter knows who loves her, and knows what is real better than anyone else. I don't have to tell her daughter anything at all.

Shit but that's my problem I never told my kids anything. Or I let them get lost on their own. . .

What do you mean about this?

I'm really not sure. I told my kids exactly what was happening, and what paul would do and everything. But of course he knew I told them too, so it's "not abuse; it feels good doesn't it?" I mean satan is always out there. Funny I know I need to forgive and bring him into me too. That's why spirits run from me. Everything gets bought back into God, and taken up the Heaven through this Temple I create. . . WE CREATE!

No, you were right, you create it. It only can happen there on Earth so we need you to create it all. What else do you need to tell Ciera?

I guess I want to tell Ciera how easily her mom can get lost. Not easy dealing with all this crap after me . . . lol . . . afraid of me, hiding from me… So it's really important that Ciera tell her mom what she wants and needs . . . what she likes and doesn’t like. Oh and of course I need to make sure they both know how to use the Power of The Word. I mean anyone can say the Name Jesus . . . BUT only ONE can answer to the Name Jesus. So if they are going to pray and ask for the Guidance of God, they need to be sure they hear only the truth. Not just claiming to be Jesus, anyone can say any name, but to actually answer our heart's call to Jesus Christ in love is something only Jesus Christ can do! That's what the gift of the Holy Spirit is all about, the Love of Jesus is a very real tangible thing that we can see and feel . . . IF WE WANT TO!! And all kinds of Spirits and things can pretend the feelings, and claim to be Jehovah, Babaji, Jesus or whoever . . . BUT only ONE can answer to our heart's call to Jesus Christ in love!!!!

What about your kids, how is that related?

I KNOW, they learned to trust adults. Mistake! Then they were also mislead so easily, trusting the simple definitions of words too. With a big slurpy in their hands it was easy to touch and feel what is good or not. We are only people, so of course we'll respond to getting touched. So they were told how it couldn't be "child abuse" since "abuse" is about pain and everything he did with them felt "good." So let's keep a secret from foolish dad who thinks he knows all about abuse and feeling good. . . . while we feel good!

What about the Power of the Word!

I guess I might not have made that so clear to my kids. While this time I can make it very clear to Ciera and her mom.

8.53pm What do you think now?

I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I've not been to Kirtan in years, nor to the Treehouse. So the power of the sounds sent me into orbit and Cyn was there. She's not been to a Kirtan in years either evidently.

Course she sat next to me stretching every little piece of everything I ever could dream to stretch on her. When I saw the schedule today at www.Treehouseyoga.com and I thought about going back to the classes there again, heck they are paid for at least the next year. Suzan actually invited me to Kirtan at church today too. She announced it to everyone else too, so everyone was invited. But then today when I thought of going, I immediately saw Ciera and her mom coming in and Ciera running to jump in my arms. I felt the same thing about church this morning.

What's wrong with that?

I really don't know if there is anything wrong with it or not. But I almost had to force myself to go … writing the above until the last minute. I promised myself I would leave at 6pm, and only left the PC after 6pm.

What was the problem going?

It felt like it was only to meet Ciera and her mom . . . not something for me but more something for you . . .

Why do we have to force you to do what's best for you anyway?

I don't know, sometimes I feel so stupid. Like I always know You are with me and everything will always be the best it could be for me.

What's bothering you?

I feel sorry for Ciera . . . and her mom too. I know they could really be happy here.

What about Cyn?

I'm sure she would be as well.

So what's the problem? Are you limiting yourself again?

I don't want to go there.

What's wrong with the Truth about Who You ARE?

I know I know, so I get to play daddy forever . . . to anyone and everyone . . . just what I always wanted!

What else?

I love you dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ for all your Strength Love and Wisdom; Please Guide me to Fulfill Your Will for the Glory of God, Our Father, Son and Holy Ghosts! Amen

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

What's a six mean for you?

11.42am
Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What do you feel now? with these 7 Day of Bliss?

I don't know . . . too much power still. I mean it was only 7 days. You created all of Heaven and Earth in 7 days while this feels like I'm providing flight training again. . . lol. . .

It's only when we choose and ask ONLY to Hear YOUR WORD: The True Word of Jesus Christ can we ever find the True Way to God. Where the NAME "Jesus Christ" bring forth this power in the WORD! The One and only Name that no one else can answer to. The Final word of God directly The Way!

The Word. This name corresponds to the Greek name Logos, and to the Latin name Verbum (Spanish Verbo); it is said of Jesus Christ, the Son and eternal Word of God; He is the Word that God "says," and through whom everything was done: In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God... All things were made through Him... and the Word became flesh and dwelt among us (John 1:1, 3, 14).

Connecting with God and telepathy are very related and strong manifestations that should NOT be based in one person, saint, angel or any specific technique. Once you get conscious and create connections it should be totally YOUR SPACE and never involve anyone else - - - UNLESS you bring them in - - INTENTIONALLY!

This is all about a conscious relationship with GOD, nothing else. The telepathy is like fridge benefits as their and hundreds of others with such A Relationship.... focus on the Unconditional Love not the Fruits of the Spirit which can be distracting and lead you back into materialism....

And it MUST be centered on Christ, or always should be... Jesus Said; "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." This is actually the first link above ....

But the point is to USE THE NAME!!! If you hear something in your heard or heart ASK ONLY for it to be from CHRIST - - - and all this other crap will dissolve. I mean it is a serious power - - like a Magic Word. DEMAND ONLY JESUS CHRIST, and watch things clear up... seriously DEMAND IT!!!

I mean "valley of the shadow of death" stuff has been in my face and head before so thick and strong that people would go crazy - - - and I would CHANT OUT LOAD "I Love You Lard Jesus Christ" over and over again . . . . lol... adding "Thank You Lord Jesus" once in a while and watch all the crap vanish ... Course after my Motorcycle Accident in NJ, I chanted this for weeks...

Now I still use it just to clear my head too... It's a powerful intention and if you are there you need to control and use it. The Name is the trick. And You will KNOW and feel when a Voice accepts and answers to The Name - - but be careful as anything can pretend - - But ONLY GOD: Father Son and Holy Spirit will say YES repeating the NAME of Jesus Christ for you in the peace and comfort of your heart.... You can feel it and know when You are ONLY IN TRUTH!!

!I guess it might help to study the numbers a bit more . . . lol . . . who knows . . .

1st 9/24/2006 7pm-12am Met, dinner
2nd 12/14/2006 12-1:30pm Thia lunch
3rd 12/22/2006 12-4:30pm Picnic in Lake Park
4th 1/4/2007 12-2pm My house for lunch
5th 1/7/2007 3pm-11pm Ciera cooks
6th 1/12/2007 12-1:30pm Wonderful Brother
7th 1/14/2007 1-11pm Our Ciera

1 9 24 2006 7 12
2 12 14 2006 12 1 30
3 12 22 2006 12 4 30
4 1 4 2007 12 2
1 7 2007 3 11
1 12 2007 12 1 30
7 1 14 2007 1 11 = 33 = 6


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Great 2 sevens, 1+5=6, 4+2=6, and another 7 . . . 3 sevens and twelve, 3 sevens and a 1+2=3 . . . eek or thirty three . . . double eek, or just 6 . . . yes of course, I guess I better just leave this alone for a while longer . . . not something I need to concern myself with at this time . . . . Share Your Word, and let it BE; everyone makes their own choice to learn their own way.

Ask and receive, otherwise . . . get stuck!!! lol . . . oh, sorry it's not funny ;-/
Reminds me of Equan = = Have Faith in Our Convictions!

Wow; and if you can really read this other language of numbers . . . like with just looking at the dates 2, 4 another 4 more 2's . . . a 4 and then POW a big 7 . . . . another 2 and 4 . . . . lol . . . Wonder what happened with the Big 7 then . . . hum, maybe I should just post that . . . wow . . . Hum, it was really only 7 days, no more, no less . . . guess You created all of Heaven and Earth in 7 days so who knows whether it's done or barely beginning . . . not my problem for now, I guess So Be IT!

Oh and of course I need to make sure you know how to use the Power of The Word. I mean anyone can say the Name Jesus . . . BUT only ONE can answer to the Name Jesus. So if you are going to pray and ask for the Guidance of God, be sure you hear only the truth. Not just "claiming" to be Jesus, anyone can say any name (I said people who get close to me are attacked and will be conned...), but to actually answer our heart's call to Jesus Christ in love is something only Jesus Christ can do!

That's what the gift of the Holy Spirit is all about, the Love of Jesus is a very real tangible thing that we can see and feel . . . IF WE WANT TO!! And all kinds of Spirits and things can pretend the feelings, and claim to be Jehovah, Babaji, Jesus or whoever . . . BUT only ONE can answer to our heart's call to Jesus Christ in love!!!! SO MAKE SURE in prayer that only Christ Answers you!!!! That why I Chant "I Love You Lord Jesus, Thank You Lord Jesus Christ" over and over, only the One True Voice of God can come through it...

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ, THANKS Amen!
wow, all the 6's and 7's here. . . I wonder 6+7=13

You have no idea how much peace and joy it BRINGS ME to share this all with you... Trust your heart, and always keep it pure in the Light of Jesus Christ!

Find Your Bliss and Peace to share and express it EVERYWHERE. . . . don't worry about who can keep up with you or not. The birds always will and children as well... And if you flow in this Love and Beauty you will pump up so much Love around you that the rocks will start to sing for you ... lol... ;-xxoo

Forgiveness

1.04pm Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

Big word there... What's up?

I guess I need to clarify some things . . . a lot of things... lol... what's knew right! I realized I've been Journalling too much and not blogging enough, so I've got to go back and post all this stuff... mostly the recent stuff, all about forgiveness I guess. Hum, 4 months to the day, lol . . . 9/24-12/24 . . . the 24th is a favorite day of course since it's like Your Birthday Jesus, or at least the date we like to celebrate Your Birthday. . . lol . . . midnight the night before . . .

yea, but Why's that not up yet?

The events were very unique and very powerful, and I was inclined to keep them private, since I wasn't sure HOW MUCH power there really was, and I also needed to discern the truth and purpose a bit better. Hum, it was really only 7 days, no more, no less . . . guess You created everything in 7 days so who knows whether it's done or barely beginning . . . not my problem for now, I guess.

Why is that?

I cut the Silver Chord that tied me to it all. It was weird, lost like 50 pounds, felt all this freedom return with all this stuff falling away from me. It's funny as I regenerate Karma and energy all the time. I was really curious how so much got stuck on me. I also noticed in my next ritual all this tight stiffness in my back broke up and fell into the Earth too. Course I also caught something in my throat on 9/24 that I had worked all through in Red Tantra . . . lol . . . sorry long story, I'll add a link to the details when I add the Red from my journal to the White I had already posted . . . lol . . . and now it's back in my throat again. Hum, guess I should get into the Red some more . . . or maybe there is something more to this?

Yes, that's what we've been telling you all week. That first time in the Red you were very clear and strong about it. The desires and intention were powerful enough to process and clear anything. While now you are all wimpy in the Red, and don't seem to want to clear anything out. . .

I guess I can clear anything any time I want . . . hum which is why I need to post this new stuff I journalled about forgiveness. I mean I need to start clearing spaces for people and do more about what I do. . . I mean BEing a Temple to Connect Heaven and Earth is really cool, but I realize there is a lot more technique and details that I need to learn to utilize this more here.

What do you mean about that?

I know I can bring anything into the light and it's really easy to clear a space, forgive and bring resolution. Lol... I usually just walk into a place and I can feel all sorts running to hide. But that's not the same as clearing it out and getting everything into the Light. I mean, I never knew I could pick up people's Karma just by associating with them. Sure I can invite people into my space and sweep them clean of God only knows what. I've seen people come in loaded with tons of crap and about float there way out. But I've not done much about MAKING this happen. I guess it's more about my intention?

What else would it be Son? Everything comes back to your intentions. Like asking Chris what he saw, it's easy for you to do that all the time. And it happened because you unconsciously knew that's what he needed to see. However, when you don't feel what people need or want from you, then you really don't do anything for them. That's why DJ never has gotten anything for your rituals. You need to get your intentions stronger about making things happen instead of expecting others to carry the direction you need.

Yes I know, I need to come up with some procedure to clear a space and something more specific about helping people with their Karma or whatever. And this "unconscious" stuff; we all seem to do so much unconsciously and I wonder if that's what keeps connecting this Silver Chord, like it knows where it belongs whether anyone is conscious about it or not . . . Then I know I need to be more specific with people about the power that I bring in. Anyone who gets close to me will get so much more energy coming to them as well. Like not only will satan attack them more than ever, since he can't get near me any other way . . . but also I tend to attract all kinds of energy and people who have high energy needing to be and express more . . . like attracts like, and I can tell people about the population growth and thunder storms, but helping people who get close to me understand what that really means is so hard.

What it takes is only Your Intention! If you want to help people with Karma, then you decide that and you do it. Nothing about this is complicated. People will always understand only what they are ready for from you. You've already been through all the hard parts, you've just been coasting down hill. It's time for you to start peddling again, and really put some power behind it this time . . . When you get to the bottom and head up that other side the jump at the end will really send you out there . . . again! More so than you could imagine.

Oh great, so my Intention makes it happen, but I can't even imagine what will Really happen? That sounds a bit backwards or weird and out of place.

What you do with intention is set the purpose . . . that's like the direction . . . not your end destination. You can intend to clear a space, and blow out everything enough to send souls home and open new births and all the rest. Just clearing is the intention, but all the rest will fall into line based on everything involved beyond your intentions. The actual location and all the people and forces there will determine all the rest; yes like attracts like so the clearing and freedom you bring can open marvels, but if people there are lost in fear, it can bring their doom faster than ever as well.

I understand that. But then why do I need to know which Ascended Master Chris saw, or whatever.

When you create with intentions and call in specific powers aligned with your purpose, you can get a lot better results. Like anything else, with the specifics you can get at a more personal and applied solution. Remember your talk about dancing and people spilling their energy. Just because you created focus and direction for energy, you attracted all this "loose" energy to you. All energy is essentially positive and holy, it's just the purpose and intentions you put on it that sends it off. In the dance you describe you provide purpose to all this loose energy, so you absorb it. It's really the same principals. If you want a healing then you can ask for Raphael, if you want Strength and Protection then ask for Michael. Sure they can all heal and protect but just stick with the pro's, it'll be better for everyone that way.

I get it. So I need to get more specific on my intentions for all this that I'm doing.

What you did with the Affirmations was really perfect. And you can do that for clearing a space or lifting someone's Karma or anything. You can also let people figure out their own Karma, and simply send the energy they need to break it down manageably. Not everyone can blast things apart as you do.

I know, we fun, let me do all the blasting, Booms, Sparks and stuff . . . like I don't have anything else to do.

We went through a lot to get this all into you. And You went through a lot as well. That's really why nothing can mess with you. Not so much what you can do to others down there, but what you carry around undercover. NO worries, everything comes in time, and your time is anything you want it to be. . . still playing little college kid, look and act like it too, so enjoy it, there's always more and better coming if today's turn out weak and lost. . .

I don't know if I want to know anymore.

Yes, that's why you never like card reading or anything, some times you really don't need to know what you are capable of, and it comes through and happens very freely and easily for you . . . BECAUSE YOU ASKED! So Be It!

I know all in The Spirit Of Jesus Christ, For the Glory of God, our Father, Son and Holy Ghost!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Power

7.31am Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What's up?

I AM . . .lol . . . .
I am... i am that i am.... he he he he

Wisdom, what is wisdom?

Wisdom is understanding . . understanding how things are discernible . . . to bring out the Truth in Judgment and experience . . .

As experience, Wisdom is really a function of experience. People who have been there know the way back. It's something we know by trying and learning . . .

Now "Knowing" and knowledge is more concrete and mechanical. It's more like a formula or an equation, while Wisdom would be knowing how to use the equation, or how to manipulate it and modify it for specific applications....

So knowledge and wisdom are very close and applied together a lot . . . . Whenever I listen to the Spirit Rap I hear this phrase : "Wisdom to finish what Knowledge starts"

The knowledge and history of creation is recorded in our DNA, and it is through Wisdom that we bring it out and make things happen.

Cool stuff!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

Dear Eric,
Here is your single's love horoscope
for Thursday, January 25:
The stars are all lined up and, if they've got anything to say about it, some pretty hot prospects are likely lining up for you. Set up some dates or fun out with friends immediately!

---

Permission, Eric, is what you give yourself.

I give you everything else.

The Universe

© www.tut.com ®

And there's no need to dally, Eric... your chariot awaits. Chariots, actually, your assistant here insisted you'd want one for every day of the week... Assistants, actually.

12:10:02 PM

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What

Ugh, I read the 1/23/07 stuff over and over again about her daughter . . . . OUR DAUGHTER . . . it is really just so cool and real. I love to read it over and over. Ciera is there sitting with me each time, laughing about it as if she were experiencing it again as I read it. I guess these kids coming through now are so strong and connected to things, they should really feel any time someone thinks or says there name anywhere. I mean it's ALL GOD anyway. So when I feel the love and joy that Ciera shared with me, I'm really loving her in God. And since she's in GOD all the more anyway, she likely knows and feels everything I do.

Kinda neato cool stuff. On Wednesday, September 27, 2006 I journalled about the Tantra connection with Lyn some more. It actually happened on 9/24 but I wrote about it more on the 27th. And now I realize that she broke it 1/23 and then I broke it 1/24. . . almost 4 months exactly to the minute.

AND NOW that bug in my throat is back. Like the piece of her that didn't fit right at the very beginning is back again caught in my throat. I wondered if it was her mom or john that was still caught in her and making me sick . . . then I thought it might be something that will leave me when she really leaves. Course so now I don't know if I want to get it out or keep it close. Lol. . . crazy world… Last night chanting again she wanted to get in and has tried a number of times. I've been tempted and got little tastes a few times, but I don't want to. Sure I can really love her and everything could really be incredible for us. But now it's more on my terms instead of hers. Shit there aint any man out there anywhere better for a child than me. And for a single lady with a child it's even harder to even get into a good relationship; let alone find someone great for the child too.

Yes I know all about Love and truth and all. But I also realize that the 2 months she dreamed about me made our next month really powerful. So if I give her another month off to find out what's real for herself . . . no sneaking out to visit me at night. Then she'll really be ready for anything then. I still wonder about blogging because I feel like she needs to read this about her daughter.

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

last time.... BOOM!!!

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What do you think?

I don't know how long this will last this time.... but BOOM!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

10:36 AM

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What

Lyn called to say goodbye.

What does it feel like?

It feels like a lie.

Why?

It feels like someone else telling her what to do again . . . she's not following her own bliss.

What about us telling you what to do? Is that following your bliss?

I guess that's always what you do, but I can see the truth in it and the bliss behind it all. You force me to really look at what I want, and see it in another perspective, from Your Higher Place. I still CHOOSE to follow your Guidance in faith sometimes, but it is never opposed to my bliss or anything I really feel inside myself. I'm never guessing or "ASSUMING" that hurting myself or something will make things better somehow. That's the lie of religion and all the capitalism corruption; suffer now to be happy and retire later, that's total BS!

Why did you make this capitalization?

I guess I felt something that Lyn said about facing "her Karma." She assumes that's really the only way of dealing with it. Karma has a lot of aspects and elements that make it part of our lives. Forcing things that we "assume" are necessary for the sake of karma or some other myth is really only lying to ourselves. My Chant burns up Karma! Facing something because we call it "karma" is just an excuse to avoid the truth and finding what we need to really learn. I know her mom wants her back together with John. He's got lots of money and can support them all into oblivion. Lol ... weee funnn . . . It feels more like it's her mom's Karma with him that needs to be resolved not Lyn's at all.

What happened now?

10 am I went and chanted. I sent so much love and passion into Lyn that she about bounced in her seat at work. She resisted and tried to hold strong against me saying how she wanted to be cut loose. When I finished Kathy called me back. I called her as soon as I got off the phone with Lyn. Kathy told me about respecting Lyn's wishes and accepting what she needed from me. So I cut the silver chords to her right as Kathy spoke. It was really weird. Like so much fell away from me. Like my cold suddenly about disappeared, even Kathy noticed my voice changed on the phone.

Now I feel Ciera crying, she knows what's happened. John respecting and honoring Lyn or not will still do nothing for Ciera, she's three years old and it's obvious to me that no man has ever loved her or even noticed her . . . that's something that either is or it's not. You can't teach an old dog, new tricks. Lyn and John playing nice or pretending to be a real couple will never change anything for Ciera. Ciera needs real Love not some make believe fairy tail romance; lets pretend to avoid "failing" at some BS relationship that was never meant to be anyway.

Wow, and I sang my kids to sleep from birth . . . That's a real Father. . . The NICU nurses waited for me to come in after work for Emily, it was so real for them they would wait between shifts just to watch the little girl fall fast asleep. Fathers must be rare in Tampa. Chris even asked me to sing him to sleep still after a Boy Scouts meetings . . . lol… That fills me with so much joy and Love now knowing how "real love" can be, nothing to pretend or prove there. Even if they are lost now, that kinda Love lasts forever!

I guess all Loves have to go get lost and be set free before they can grow to be real enough to last forever. So whether Lyn sees or knows anything or everything . . . will really be her choice. I just hope it wont take years of Ciera suffering before she releases the lies and follows her own bliss instead of some lie about Karma or someone else's wishes for her . . . for Ciera's sake if nothing more.

What else do you feel?

I cut the chords and Lyn knows I did. At first she was glad, but now she seems to be searching for me again and again . . .

What are you doing?

I guess I'm just watching her. I know we could do anything together, and will only if she's ready. But this is something that she needs to do . . . whether it is a struggle and a fight for a few days, or weeks or years and life-times is really up to her. Forcing a square peg into a round whole is just not possible and really only hurts . . . always hurts. But everyone needs to do what they need to do. If she can't accept she made a mistake and simply move on, then she can suffer for the mistake over and over again until she forgives HERSELF. She doesn’t need to forgive him, she needs to forgive herself.

What else?

I feel all these other girls calling me. I've been locked in my office for too long. All these dreams and fantasies are bubbling up from everywhere around me. I can feel it . . . kinda makes me laugh and smile too. Thank You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ . . . Amen

7.30pm

Weird, very weird . . . she asked me to cut a silver chord that seemingly has been there forever. So I cut it, and cut it again and again. I mean serious, graphic, brutal, machete hacking, cut it up, desperate work cutting this giant tree trunk of a chord. At first I lost like 50 pounds, my throat cleared up and there was so much ease and balance in my tasks before me with my power and freedom returning again. Hum, I wonder when I first got sick whether it coincides with her mom coming to town, or something else she did or thought, guess I'll never know unless she reads this blog and comments to the posting about when I first said I was feeling sick.

Every memory and event that we shared; that I have held so dear; comes to my mind now and it would include this Chord getting attached again. Chop, chop, chop, it's getting easier now. I've been able to wave my hand and brush off her energy, the connection that I once savored, our private discussions through the ethers and enjoyed feels almost like poison now. No not nothing for her now, if she wants something, she can use the phone or do without. I mean, I know I can connect to anyone. I mean anytime I look at someone I can feel their energy patterns and emotions. I ALWAYS avoid this and never read into people much at all. I could feel every time she came back to connect, whether she did it consciously or not. There was a very clear difference from God and other Angels who normally guide me.

You felt a lot more than this. What else are you seeing?

It feels like She is forcing something to work that never was meant to work at the expense of a wonderful little girl who now sits at the point of no return. It feels like its all about ego, being right and making something work, instead of simply saying "oops I made a mistake." Ciera could be loved and blossom into her full potential or will she remain on the sidelines and become a causality of a dispute that can never be resolved. A sad loss for simply an ego that can't accept loss, like cutting off the nose to spite the face!

What do you mean?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

10:35:45 PM

I always connect to kids. It's real and easy. They know it too. I enjoy it too instead of feeling some lost stranger that has no clue that they are constantly spilling their energy all over the place. A child recognizes me, like Lyn did the first time we met. It's obvious and clear we are connected and we both recognize it. Ciera knew she had met her match when we first met. It was funny here Sunday 1/7/07 after we biked all around and played in the river and drumming in the hammock. We went into my house and I got out Christopher's drawing set with all the colors and paints. I had set out a table in the living room again and got out paper for Ciera to draw and color while we were inside.

I started a bit with her, scribbling some colors but soon was off with Lyn in my office. We had so much to share as I've written about before. Course she did some belly dancing and aerobics, not letting me catch her with my camera . . . and then the three little steps we shared dancing in my office . . . too much power already . . . why do people have to fear the power of total bliss ? . . . Lol . . . So anyway after we sat in my circle and spontaneously got into a Tantra position . . . Ciera came in. "Oh look and see how I can break up all this paint into the floor."

OOPS, I forgot about Ciera. And she knew it too. She's been down this road all her life. But of course now she's met her match, NOW. Shit, I barely had anytime alone with her mom either, so I should have known . . . OBVIOUSLY, neither one of them has ever been Really Loved by a man, any man maybe. And so I should have had the sense to keep Ciera involved all along. Daaa! My fault, no problem, I can fix anything!

What did you do?

"Oh wow, are you hungry Ciera?" Course easy question there . . . and I stood up and picked her up in my arms walking out into the kitchen . . .

"So what do you like to eat for dinner?" . . . fish . . .

"Great, so can you help me cook some fish for dinner?"

Immediately Ciera was the center of attention again. I set her on the high office chair I have in there and rolled her up to the stove next to me. She was on her throne in charge of everything again. It was so cute. She was just beaming. The heck with making dinner, or helping in the kitchen, she was in charge, and she loved it. Everything was up to her, and she even had the master of the house escorting her around . . . lol, it was just so cute to see the expression on her face . . . So I rolled her up to the freezer.

"What kinda fish do you like best?" and I showed her this bag and that bag. Lol . . . obviously she never has cooked dinner before, nor has she ever had a choice about fish, she didn't really seem to even know there were different kinds of fish. . . . Not that it mattered of course, it was HER CHOICE! That's what was important she was making dinner! All the power and focus in the house was on her!

8:59:21 PM "In the name of Love, One man in the name of love… one man come on a barbed wired fence, one man he resist… In the name of Love, One man in the name of love… In the name of Love, One man in the name of love…"

Thank You Jesus, I'm here answering your questions for you, NO ONE ELSE….

Good go on with the fish.

So I think she saw a picture she liked and picked some fish to cook. I grabbed out the bag of veggies to go with it and she didn't care for that. "Oh that's ok, we need to roll you back over to the stove." It's so easy to distract kids with love, I guess it's something about my truth and sincerity that they can feel and know, that is what makes it so easy for me . . . lol . . . no big deal if you are conscious and for real . . . lol . . .

Because I have the time of my life… I never felt this way before, and I sware it's the truth, and owe it all to you… Club .977

I know thanks Jesus Chirst, you are just so good to me…

Yes good, What happened next?

I started the stove and dropped the frozen fish into the pan. Then I told her she needed to turn it and asked her what she wanted to use to cook the fish. I opened the drawer in front of her. She's on this "throne" . . . like it's a drafters working chair, up really high with a foot bar on the bottom and light-blue cushioned seat. She's about sitting up to the kitchen counter where everything there is just within her reach.

I realize now that her mom basically had no clue about this. She was all embarrassed about the broken paints and was sitting on the floor across the room meticulously picking up the tiny fragments of paint to fit them all back into the boxes they came in. Now Ciera is queen in charge of dinner and leading everything in the household so she grabbed out the biggest implement she could find in the drawer. It's funny how I feel the love and joy of this moment like it just happened a second ago. . .

Yes Son, exactly the point. Whenever you say to people that you connect and relate to children at another level, they really have no idea what you really mean. The Nurses in the NICU know, and will remember you in their death beds. What happened next?

I get it. Ciera raised up this big shiny whisk, she knew she found her scepter waving it at me like I was getting knighted . . . showing her approval for my efforts to show her how Life in Love is meant to be. "Oh, that's for making pancakes in the morning . . . hum, next time you visit and we can get up early to make something yummy and I can show you how it works . . . but now we need one of these flat – fish flipping – kinda things."

It was so cute, I really about chocked on this one. I glanced over at her mom to see if I put my foot in my mouth again. I'm too spontaneous some times, loves does that to you . . . She never noticed still face down into paint ground into the carpet . . . I was lucky. I guess I was luckier that Ciera knew what pancakes were and maybe even liked them so she could wait for that at another time, no problem. She then found a flat boring scepter and was happy to be trying to flip the fish.

9:22:17 PM "so in love with you" Janet Jackson "when I think of you" on Club 977 the 80's channel. Go on, what happened next. . .

I know I never wrote about this before, so to be there again in this is really kinda fun for me now. Though I'm trying not to even connect to Ciera who often would come into my Chant with Lyn riding the silver chords . . . though I realized today she was born about the time I said goodbye to Emily in court, realizing God wanted me to move on. . . accepting the Truth! So she might be more connected to me than Lyn even!

Oh so anyway Ciera was busy at work cooking fish. Flip, flip, flip, she was focused and clear about this. But then she flipped it out of the pan once and looked terrified like she's had her head chewed off before for being bad. "Opps, no biggie;" I laughed and put it back into the pot "It'll still taste great, cause you’re such a good cook" and dropped in spices and veggies and such for her to keep flipping. She was in charge, making dinner, all by herself. And she could do no wrong; which really was a surprise to her, all smiles ear to ear in total control loving ever second of it.

"Oh look into my eyes Ciera, you need to go slower now and be more careful. This is getting really hot and each time you flip you are splashing all over and that tiny drop that splashesd on you will really be hot and hurt a lot. I told you how this works and you need to listen to me and be more careful because once you get burned no one is going to be able to stop it from hurting. Yelling for your mom won't help you then, so please be careful."

I think her mom was about done then and told me I needed to get out a vacuum to get the last of the paint up from the carpet.

"Oh time to set the table."

"Ciera, do you think your mom can help you set the table?"

Wow, she jumped right off her throne. I thought she would want to eat up there or something. But that was cool she was ready to set the table, and maybe mom could help. But she knew how to do that already. She knew she was still in charge . . . that was just too cute too. Her mom could help her!

10:23 pm

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What else?

I never noticed how much I focus on children, and how much they respond to it. I remember walking into the river with her too. She wanted to get in the water. I thought I was just there to make sure she was safe. But really, it was all about her being alone with me. She just had to go back and check with her mom all the time, make sure she was ok too. I guess that was how I knew she never had any attention from a man. For Ciera to have my undivided attention was just a blessing. And she wanted to savor every moment of it, and was very determined too.

I remember now when they were leaving and they were singing to me in the car. They love singing car songs together, and it was just cute too. All three of us were in the front seat. And as I leaned my head onto Lyn's shoulder, listening and savoring the moment. Ciera put her head up against both of ours sitting in our laps. It was late and time for them to go. We were all saying goodbye. And the last thing Ciera said as we cuddled there together was that she wanted her daddy.

What do you think she saw for the first time there with her mom?

I guess having someone loving her as much as her mom was really special for her. And that's what "daddy's" are all about. Or at least what daddy's are supposed to do. I mean I can't imagine being away from Emily and Christopher for 6 months while they were babies. When they were babies it was never even a day, and usually less than 12 hours. I mean I ALWAYS sang them to sleep at night, so I guess I was never long away from them at all.

But a man who can live without a baby for 6 months is simply not a father. I mean it's like asking a dog to stand up and cook dinner. Some things are simply not meant to be. Dogs can't walk or talk. And if they have four legs and are all hairy, barking at the mailman, then chances are they are a dog. . . no point in asking the dog to cook dinner, no use in hoping for it someday or expecting it to ever happen . . . Like some man who could care less about time with a baby, it's just not in them. No point in discussing it. And who cares about later, those first years make everything for the child. And a man who claims they can play when the kid is older and can bike or hold a ball is total BS too. No patients and interests in a child simply never changes, with age or not. Can't teach an old dog new tricks . . . lol . . . not point in it.

Hum, I guess I never thought colleen would ever try to put our children to sleep at night either. And when she tried to and told me she wanted to I should have known there was something up. Course she spent hours trying and never could do it. I still laugh when I remember her reading and singing to them literally for hours, and finally giving up. And I walked in and barely finished the first verse and they were snoring not even minutes later. I guess hindsight is twenty-twenty. After 7 years of never caring to suddenly want to put a child to sleep should have been a clear sign to me that something underhanded was going on. I didn't know she wanted to get divorced. I had no clue, not even when I traded in the minivan for two Hondas. DAAA!

But now as I think of someone pretending to do something that never has been possible before . . . . it's just a scam! 7 years I sang them to sleep alone; and 5 years more after we divorced too. But I guess we would all like to believe our marriage is worth something. Like the young naive event that made incredible children should have some other value to it. Course now I wish I had taken everything about colleen to court the moment it happened. Sure hoping things got better and praying for people to be civilized and honor their word . . . what a joke! It only hurt my children. I never should have trusted colleen, she still has never done anything for these kids except carry them for 9 months . . . the rest will be painful and result in years of therapy!

What else do you feel. . .

I feel sad. I wanna cry for another poor child lost to selfishness and materialism. But you know. I can only do what I do. People will choose to suffer or will choose to find their bliss. I can share my knowledge and experience for you to learn or you can suffer on your own and learn for yourself. People will believe lies or find their truth deep inside. Like I've told so many people that get close to me to be careful, they WILL be attacked, lied to and deceived. Like Emily and Christopher knew how to call Your Name Jesus Christ into all situations to discern the truth. They learned the Power of Your Name. And still when someone else told them otherwise, after giving them a big slurpy and a candy bar; they decided to listen to whatever voice they wanted to listen to. Our heads and hearts are always filled with voices and powers from all creation.

It's only when we choose and ask ONLY to Hear the WORD of Jesus Christ can we ever find the True Way to God. The NAME Jesus brings forth this power in the WORD. Sure lots of words and names work, but if they are true and holy, they will always stand strong within the Name of Jesus . . . that's the power of the Christos energy . . . while all the fake crap suddenly vanishes when calling for His Name!

The Word. This name corresponds to the Greek name Logos, and to the Latin name Verbum (Spanish Verbo); it is said of Jesus Christ, the Son and eternal Word of God; He is the Word that God "says," and through whom everything was done: In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God... All things were made through Him... and the Word became flesh and dwelt among us (John 1:1, 3, 14).

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

TUT... A Note from the Universe
I'm alright with the concept of Karma as it's generally understood, Eric, kind-of, sort-of.

The idea of spiritual contracts is pretty nifty, too. You've always been a wheeler-dealer.

Except, of course, if either were laws, you wouldn't be unlimited.

Not even a little.

Oh well, they were cute ideas for awhile.

The Universe



Karma, destiny, or the power-to-have-it-all, Eric?

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

2:01:22 PM

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

What

Ugh, what did I do to deserve these numbers all like that??

What did you do?

I got a nothing note from Lyn, where she said not this week and that was it. So I wrote her back and didn't even want to send it. As I drove home from school she came in and asked me about it through the ethers again.

What's wrong with that?

I just wrote her about that too. Or I sent what I wrote before adding at the end:
PS. If God needed us only etheric now, we never would have met!

Why do you second guess what we "need?"

FINE, so "I NEED". . . It's me who's down here doing the "DO" so yes it's really me who needs to be loved. Is that too much to ask?

What's wrong with making that statement yourself?

Nothing at all, except I have made it a thousand times already. . . .

What do you mean by that? We've seen you asking all sorts of things here, wanting and needing this or that. But nothing so specific.

I need to Hug and Kiss Lyn at least ONCE A DAY! I NEED to be able to talk and share with her spontaneously for at LEAST a few hours each week, and MUST have at LEAST one day each month to just be together. I would prefer having a few hours each day and at least a full day once a week. . . . but I really just want her around me ALL THE TIME!

What was so hard about that?

I guess nothing much at all.

Why don't you tell her that?

I'm not going to be so pushy and demanding. It's not something that I can do that easily. I'm trying to respect her boundaries and honor her wishes to do and be what she needs to.

What makes you think she doesn't need the man of her dreams to chase her down?

I guess I don't really know if that's what she needs or not. But I know I can't stand waiting another week to see her. I mean last weekend it was "our daughter" to "not this week" twice in a row . . . HELLO, that's crazy kinda changes that I can't handle too easily. . . nothing that makes any sense for me at all.

I mean from "our daughter" to no time with "work commitments and personal obligations" … that's really getting out of hand a bit. Not sure what she's used to out in the ethers, but for little men here on Earth it's really never going to be that easy. Course I waited two months before I even tried to contact her. Then we had lunch and planned a 2nd. Since then we've done a lot, and I know her mom is here in town now, so I can give her a break. But I'm still only human, and her short little nothing messages from work are really a drag.

Course sometimes I feel like I'm really crazy or fanatical about some things. Sure she's a smart sexy babe, but she's 7 years younger and still learning lots spiritually all the time. Sometimes I feel like a know-it-all, but "still learning" is really where we should all be. Now I've convinced myself I could go get her a Rose and take it to her as she's leaving her office. I'm sure I can pull it off. I'm sure she never leaves the place until 5pm. And I really don't even want to kiss her since I'm not feeling so good. So it's not like I want to keep her from whatever else she has planned.

Please Loving Lord Jesus Christ Lead and Guide me through all my thoughts, words and Deeds tonight with Lyn. Thank You amen!

6:09:13 PM

Hum? Got a dozen roses, wanted to hand her one. Waited by her office for 30 minutes, freaked out the egg-head insurance ladies with nothing better to do, but then just left the flower on her car. I guess I got there 15 minutes early and hung till about 5:30pm. I was hoping I'd at least get a phone call by now. Oh well? Guess I should eat and get busy with reading something. I want to bring her another Rose tomorrow, and then again, until I'm out of roses or she shows up here to get the rest. . . . it's silly, but feels good gets my vibrations up higher!!!

I Love You Dearest Loving Lord Jesus Christ.

neato

Thank You Jesus Christ for Creating The Way of Your Word!

* Aztec Astrology Report

(Copyright © One Reed Publications, 2006) www.onereed.com
Prepared for Eric born May 16,
DAY-SIGN: 11-Water (Maya: 11-Muluc)
YEAR: East -5 (Tikal System)
13-DAY PERIOD: 1-Rain (Maya: 1-Cauac)
NIGHT LORD: 6

VENUS PHASE: Evening Star

Introduction - The Astrology of Time

The ancient Maya and Aztec astrologers studied the mysterious influence of the rhythms of the sky on earthly life. Everyone knows the Sun rises and sets every day -- this is the basic rhythm of life around which we set our clocks and calendars. What the ancient astrologers discovered was that other time cycles existed that were multiples of this basic day cycle. This fact was discovered about 100 years ago in Europe and these cycles (there are many of them) are now called biorhythms.

The most important time cycles in ancient Mayan and Aztec astrology are those of the day, 9-days, 13-days, and 20-days. Additionally, years are counted also, in groups of 4 and 13. Each day is then part of several other cycles, so no two days are exactly the same. Your Maya/Aztec horoscope below shows exactly where in each of the cycles you were born. Each category below examines a specific cycle and a specific aspect of your personality. Keep in mind that our personalities are complex and contain many contradictions. All of us present a different "face" depending on who we meet. The delineations below will reflect this, but they will also give you a clear picture of who you really are. The true value of astrology lies in self-knowledge, the first step to wisdom.

Your Most Personal Traits -- The Day-Sign of Your Birth

Here are your strongest and most obvious personality traits. The delineation below describes who you are and how you appear to others, at least on the surface. In Aztec astrology this part of is your horoscope is your Tonalli, or Day-Sign, the form bestowed upon you by the Sun.

Water: You have very strong emotions and feelings that are easily aroused. Sometimes these feelings are so deep and so intense that they can take over your personality. You have very strong territorial drives that often operate openly with little conscious resistance. At your worst you may display compulsive and addictive behaviors, including abuse of power, sexual obsessions, drinking, and use of drugs. On the positive level these emotional drives cam lead you into deep commitments and persistence in achieving goals. Whichever way your emotions lead you probably has much to do with your early childhood experiences.

It is very possible that you have psychic abilities, or have an interest in psychic phenomena. Undoubtedly this is something that stems from your unusually strong feelings and reactions to things. Many Water personalities become artists who produce sounds and colors from their souls, not superficial illustrators or imitators. Even if you are not an artist you probably have a vision that you will attempt to realize during the course of your life. Whether psychic, artist or visionary, you are driven by forces that most people have no idea even exist.

You also have a need for recognition that is both a blessing and a curse. If circumstances allow you to exercise this part of your nature legitimately, as a performer or artist, then you are probably very successful. If circumstances work against you, then you could drift into an unrealistic or even potentially dangerous life-style.

You have an uncompromising quality that pushes you toward great success in career matters. You are an extremist and do nothing halfway, yet this is often what it takes to be at the top of a profession. You have a strong, independent mind and are capable, and very willing, to solve your problems by yourself. Although you may have some initial problems handling responsibility, control over your powerful feelings will bring out the leader in you.

You are likely to receive recognition for your accomplishments, whether these be positive or destructive. As you struggle to control, or at least monitor, the nearly uncontrollable urges surging within, you will undoubtedly achieve much. The important thing is that you channel your energies into constructive and productive area.

Your Deeper Self -- The 13-Day Week of Your Birth

Each of us reacts to the world around us in different ways. Our reactions are mostly unconscious; they represent what our deeper self needs. Our reactions both attract and repel us from things, people, and situations. What we like, what we like to do, and who we really are is shown by the 13-day week called the Trecena that we were born under. Each of these periods begins with the number 1 and the name of the day-sign that starts it. A number is attached to your position within the 13-day period that may be an important number for you. This is the eleventh day of the 13-day period beginning with 1-Rain. Beneath your surface personality lies a self that is very dependent on others. You have a strong need to feel that you belong -- to feel part of the family. You also have an independent streak in you that often causes you to spend time alone, or apart from others. In this respect, you contain many internal contradictions. Nurturing and caring for others is probably a major theme in your life. You tend to become deeply involved with your parents, in particular your mother.

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